#i dont wanna wait two months >:(

[n7punk]

fascinated by multiple torties specifically, but to answer the question i shaved my entire head a month into lockdown (did not take me long but tbf i already needed a haircut when it started) but didn't like it

#replies #right now i have Corporate Compliance Boring Hair but my org's actually chill so im gonna go back to a mullet soon probably #just need my undercut to grow out a little more first #i wanna dye it but i don't want to do that myself and unfortunately what my org has in chillness it lacks in Compensation #so getting it professionally done will have to wait at least two months lmao #(tbc i dont want to do it myself for disability reasons. ive always done it myself until now but i can only do that with help) #(and my help has cancer now. so)

[orcelito]

I think I need to find a rage room or smth. Ykno those types of things that gives u a space to just absolutely go fucking ham? Breaking shit and letting out the anger? I'm constantly stifling anger bc I don't want to cause problems with it, but ever since my dad died, I've really wanted to just kick the shit out of something.

Just once. Just one time would fix me, I think. I really need to be able to break things.

#speculation nation #cant throw shit bc i dont want to scare people and i also dont want to break my things #cant kick boxes bc if i do then i scare the shit outta my cats and i dont wanna do that to them #im a nice person but i just really want to break things #so it's an impasse. one that i think a rage room would help me with. hmmm #alternatively i could go to a gym and get into the habit of lifting weights #i may be tiny but i wanna get strong and i really do need to get back into shape. #wonder whether working out regularly would help me with my fibro dizziness. or maybe itd make it worse. #hoping at the doctor's appointment i scheduled that i can finally start getting a diagnosis for fibro #im almost entirely certain i have it by this point. and i really would like some treatment for it. #sigh. in time. just gotta wait two and a half months. wah.

[lovesickeros]

Absolutely love your sagau fic with neuvillette and furina, ur writing is actually insane! Looking forward to reading more of your works :)

YOU!!!! when i find u...count ur days....... /j /lh

#asks #anon #img block #you get to watch me try to salvage my furina fics after 4.2 in real time i am STRESSING abt that part 3 lord help me #i was gonna start introducing more characters and then 4.2 threw a brick at my face and now i have an entire string board of lore #i dont do well with multi chap fics if it isnt obvious i just wanna write my girlfail lesbian wife furina........ #so like ill get there but um. checks watch. its been two months ur gonna be waiting a while #i havent even looked at my chap 3 draft #considering i wrote those fics w half a can of knowledge abt them both though this is extremely good for my ego #horrible for everyone else really but great for me!!! im gonna be more insufferable now :)

[synth-spinner]

Atsv Hobie in splatoon would be an urchin and atsv miles is a blue ringed octopus. Annnd post

#1048 miles has the inkling buzzcut (and electric eel powers and he uses splashdown) #OMG WAIT IM A GENIUS #superior is an octoling but he has one of his tentacles cut into 3 like shiver so it looks like an inkling hairstyle #^^thematic metaphor.. also hes not fresh at all none of the vendors will sell him anything #pavitr would be an inkling #and thry all use zipcaster #margo especially. she is an octoling also. maybe that one like swirl haircut but in her hairstyle #uhhhhh 1048 peter is an inkling and he has so many ink colours #OMG ANOTHER GENIUS THOUGHT superiors ink colour is two toned #like marina #i neeeed to design frye as a spiderman with inspo from pavs design soo bad #im having thoughts #also the agents as spidermen would be so so sick.. i see it so clearly #i saw someone draw atsv gwen as an octoling before i think thats genius considering her whole situation #actually atsv miles would be an inkling but listen man.. the blue ringed octopus character... her hair texture plus the octo afro #would be so atsv miles #this is me brainstorming ideas so i dont forget.. #i wanna draw the spidermen as splatoon agents so bad and draw splatoon agents+idols as spidermen so bad too #but alas it will be months.. so i shallnt forget #kaine and the side order octo would be uh friends. maybe... hmm .. cant believe we still dont know much abt them :(( #isa idea #oauaghh uhm uhh ... OMGG MAYDAY AS A BABY INKLING #BABY INKLINGS SO SO CUTE AND GOOFY. MAYDAYCORE #peter b is an inkling :3 wheres that post thats like inkling parents carrying their babies around in pails #thats him with mayday #yelling into the void but if anyone sees this go listen to anarchy rainbow live ^_^ #ALSO SMEARED CANVAS FIRST CLASS ^_^ SPIDERMAN LEVEL SONG..

[kraviolis]

on paper gustholomule is basically just mountain dew but in my head its a sweet sparkling red wine with notes of cherries and oak

#krav talks #toh #gustholomule #theyre both trans + gay but gus is aromantic and matt is maybe gray-ace??? not set on that tho #and theyre just friends until theyre like 16-17 #and then they have this whole courting phase for like 6 months #where theyre both like. toeing the line between romantic and platonic #sort of a will-they-wont-they type of deal that agonizes their friend groups #but theyre both surprisingly chill about the whole thing #even matt is just like “if it happens it happens idk i dont wanna rush it” #and gus is sorta exploring his feelings towards romance and like. wondering if he even wants a romantic relationship with anyone #(amity & willow tell him to talk to lilith and he does and shes pretty great at helping him figure that out bcus shes romance-repulsed) #luz has been waiting for the two of them to get together since she first found out that they were actually friends #so shes the most agonized and impatient of them all #especially because shes also been waiting for hunter & willow to get together for YEARS as well and they still arent a Thing #everyone teases her for it bcus she and amity only knew each other for like. 3 months before getting together #anyways gus and matt always have a relationship that seems strange from the outside but feels perfect to them #such as them not moving in together for YEARS #despite how often they visit each other & stay overnight #and also when they do move in they have separate bedrooms #and they dont ever really have dates. they dont do any like. romantic gestures for the most part. #but they'll kiss and matt will sit on gus's lap even in public but they also wont hold hands or use pet names #their petnames are “bro” and “dude”

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

mmm... scribbling is not in the cards today it seems...

#it may be due to the fact that i havent slept and its almost 2 pm and im Very Quickly Ascending From This Plane #sluggishly sobbing and clawing at my tablet. im in a laughingstock mood #i want to draw them... being soft... being silly... being #my attempts are Not Working #fine! ill. idk what ill do. rot ig #its a rotting day #WAIT NO FUCK ILL FINISH MY PALTRY RESUME #ugh but i dont wanna do my resume. i wanna doodle laughingstock #SOOOOOO many thoughts about them #many emotions #much feeling. yes. #absolutely unprompted #and i wanted to finish up that comm... and do that other thing for my buddy.... #ill do it when i inevitably wake up at 3 am after falling asleep at 9 #gonna do my resume... see if i have any asks i can answer without an added Scribble... maybe write something idk... #ive been saying 'im gonna write' for two months now. one day it wont be a lie #*gazes longingly at my dc wips. and that one snufkin wip.* #well we can subside off of the queue for a day or two longer #plany of thyme to get my shit Together and continue the outfit asks #theyre gonna be posted slowly since i want to group them as much as possible #except todays. todays is its own thing bc i went a little Ham with it #yall will see in about an hour #now if you'll excuse me im gonna grab the pickle jar and stare into the middle distance for the next thirty minutes

[todayisafridaynight]

fathers day is this month how am i going to inflict psychic damage on myself

#snap chats #we were cute and sillay even for mothers day last month #but unfortunately i actually love my dad and i miss him so the possibility of doing something a lil moody is very real #i love how i always say i miss my dad as if hes dead. hes not dead hes just scared of my mom which. fair we all are LMAO #anyhow esp when im leaning towards doing something focused on jo since last month was more for arakawa... #i dont have anything in mind yet but i have the semblance of an idea... its budding but i dont have it refined in the dome... #because i also wanna see if i can do something for arakawa too so idk if i wanna knock out two birds with one stone for one comic #or make two separate posts (whether those are pics or comics idkidk) #i always really like to imagine quiet moments between jo and masato- however rare they might have been in canon #oh wait im gonna throw up what if i posted that prison comic on fathers day #if i dont get any ideas i just might.. unless i get too impatient and post it earlier ☠️ #anyway this is just a promise i will be goofy on fathers day. except instead of Actual Goofy i might post something Cereal for once #nothing i say makes fucking sense unless you know my lexicon fucking 'cereal' is my Cute And Quirky way of saying serious #because Im Cute And Quirky alright moving on #Being Serious and Emotional isnt my forte. im very bad at doing both so i of course try to be funny instead #bu maybe this once..... the jo and masato feelins are strong this month...... #its cause my moms giving me a harder time than usual so of course im just thinking of my dad more and Now We're Here #alright im finally gonna finish my comm then i might get to cooking bye

[marketa]

i could have never imagined that a heartbreak would hit me this fucking hard like its been over a month now since my bf broke up with me and he refuses to let me talk to him properly and i tried so fucking hard to do everything i can to distract myself from all of the thoughts of him but it’s so fucking difficult and it’s just impossible to occupy my mind with anything else 24/7 like of course i wont be able to focus on all the boring podcasts and tiktoks to make me momentarily forget about the fact that the only person i ever really loved just suddenly stopped loving me back without a reason and i just dont know what to do anymore i feel extremely exhausted and dead inside and i want to scream and disappear and i wanna forget about everything and i just cant do this but i also cant really tell anyone bc my parents are already worrying enough and my friends would keep telling me how i’ll find someone better and that he was an asshole like i KNOW but hearing that doesnt make me feel any better and i just wanna see him and properly talk to him and i just dont know what id do if he never looks back and never speaks to me again i dont wanna lose him i cant lose him i dont know what to do i dont know what to do i dont know what to do im so tired and done with everything and i just cant do this

#negative #and also everyone saying itll get better… im not an idiot i know it will bc everything does but i dont see this becoming any better in the #next months or maybe ever years and im already done after a month i dont wanna go through this for any longer #i keep telling myself it could get better once i go back to uni bc we’re studying the same major and we’ll probably #have at least two same classes and our major has like 10 people so he wont be able to ignore me #and i keep telling myself that once he sees me he might change his mind and agree to a proper talk with me #but i still just can’t wait another month and a half to see him to maybe feel a tiny bit better #i feel worse every single fucking day

[britneyshakespeare]

I slipped in the backyard real bad last night and fucked up my knee. I think I should go to urgent care because there's a good chance I pulled or sprained or tore something important but I already. have. a doctor's appointment. today.

#i see the endocrinologist (AFTER WAITING FOR SIX MONTHS) today at 2 #and i dont wanna be late for that #but i also dont wanna rush out the door #and like. two doctor's appointments today??? TWO??? #i dont deserve this #my knee was hurting all night tho and the two steps ive taken today were not super successful #yeah i guess i should have that evaluated then #im in hot enough water w my health i dont wanna worsen an injury right now #it's not a good worsen-your-injuries season #tales from diana

[the-trans-dragon]

I need a doctor who has the patience, experience, humor, and directness to listen to whatever new treatment ideas I've concocted, and then either say "Alex, that's a stupid fucking idea, let me explain why," or "The risks are acceptable in my professional opinion. Let's go over pros and cons and then you can think about it and decide what to do."

I just think it would be fun. For me. And I wish I could find a doctor who would also find that fun. I already came up with one fun Treatment for an Illness and have been successfully using it to treat The Illness for almost a YEAR, and all the side effects are awesome so like...I am certainly full of hubris at this point.

#i dont wanna say what i take or what im treating bc its like...well...zero doctors recommended it lol. and two doctors said “that might work #but uhhhhh i dont think im the right doctor for that.“ wait. three doctors said that. but i asked the third doctor ”pwease. youre the third #doctor to tell me to go to a different doctor. i need help.“ (i was fucking desperate. i was missing so many days of work that i basically #lost an entire paycheck's worth of money in two months and like. i had also SPENT that much on the doctors who inevitably ran out of their #own ideas and then recommended i go elsewwhwre to try my idea WHICH IS FAIR but also all 3 doctors did agree it was worth a shot so like.... #i kinda needed ONE of them to actually. try it. it just took 6 months for the first one to run out of ideas and then another two or three #months to get in to see my genderal physician and then see a doctor he recommended who then recommended i go elsewhere and thats the doctor #who i was like “youre the third doctor to say that...i dont know who else to try.” goodness im glad she helped. my medicine is like $15 a #month (it was $10 when i had insurance) and i am in love with every single “side effect” and!!!! yea it has given me a large sum of hubris. #anyways.) i wanna do that again but with my other Significantly Disabling Illness. like why not lol. im already on 3 medicines that are #recommended to *not* take together (none of which are the medicine i chose to take aldjskds) so like.............seems like we #are at a “just try shit out and see what happens” stage. doctors should send me resumes and ill pick the one that looks most fun and then #we will do fun science together on my nerves system :) itll be fine lol. am i serious or kidding? i have no idea. #sorenhoots

[bunnihearted]

🤕🩹💊

#ughhhh sighhh im so tired #last night i started getting gallstone attack feelings #i took one of those painkillers i got for it but nothing #then i got such a bad attack ughhh. i even took another pill (idek if u can bc theyre strong nd yk.. precaution necessary) but it did nothin #so i've just been in pain for like 14 hours. idk how i managed to doze off to sleep nd then wake up nd then doze off again several times #it was just so awful skskks #i didnt even do anything different yesterday so i have no idea what triggered it #guess i just gotta cut down on everything like coffee nd the two small squares of chocolate i have :') #guess i just gotta stick to oatmeal nd brown rice nd crushed tomatoes lmaooo i wanna throw up just thinking abt it #but that pain is so awful and i just cant deal w it #it's so frustrating that i have to wait so long to even get a date for the surgery #it's been over a month now and i havent heard anything?!?!??? #at least gimme a date so i can know how long i need to keep this up T-T #im so tired of this i just want my health to go back to the way it was before #i wanna exercise for real and i want real food!!!! i cant even use spices bc it's too much... 😔 #and like i realize now that i think the gallstones have affected my bodily function for quite a while #i wasnt able to take iron or magnesium supplements or vitamins and stuff bc my body reacted so weirdly to it #i just dont wanna deal w this pain or be scared of what i eat. or eat bland boring food constantly. or not be able to work out #just wanna have the surgery </333 it's so hard to have to sit and wait for it sigh

[odinsblog]

.

#its so funny #so a while back i hired a housekeeper #and when i hired her she was insistent on a twice a month schedule #and i was like - wow building up that bank account much? sorry but i will be good with once a month #and she was like - noap! its once every 2 weeks until we see if you can make it to once a month #and im like - damn. ok. maybe every 3 weeks? #and goddamn if she didnt stick to a twice a month schedule #she said its like maintaining a car - she didnt want to wait until *after* i miss the oil change and then have to fix my crib #but i was like - ok whatever. when i see that every 2 weeks is too often i will just re-negotiat. no prob right? #i mean im pretty clean right? momma didnt raise me to live in a pigsty #soooo …. its been like over two months now? #and guess what??? #lol - by day 12 or 13 im like: GODDAMN THIS PLACE IS A FUCKN MESS WHERE TF IS THE CLEANING LADY? #and you know whats funny? i *think* i have always kept a relatively clean house (its only a 2br 2ba condo) #but now im wondering if she didnt pull a jedi mind trick on me? #ya know - did she plant a suggestive idea in my head? #bc now right at the 2 week period im like - SOMEBODY HELP ME !!! #lmao - but she is sooo good tho #after shes been here and ​then i get home #i almost dont wanna touch anything bc the place looks like its ready for a hgtv photo shoot #my crib is soo fresh & clean #lol #imma fuckn mess sometimes

[guinevereslancelot]

was trying to figure out why the hr guy lied abt why i was being fired and i just realized its bc it's illegal to fire me for asking for a reasonable accommodation for a disability or medical condition lol

#i could file an eeoc complaint and sue themmm but that sounds like a hassle #i even have in writing the request to change to part time due to my health #but im sure it would be a huge pain and go nowhere and its a small town as well i dont want to make problems #esp since im starting my own business right down the road #also the owner is a multimillionaire and would sue me to oblivion for defamation or something probably #but i will wait a month or two so they dont know its me and write them a bad google review 😌 #bc their product quality sucks and they overcharge for disgusting moldy plants after they pay us shit to pick off the moldy leaves and ship #i spent all week picking thru gross moldy mealy bug infested plants trying to find ones that looked ok (after removing gross leaves) to ship #for $76 a tray!! #and for a slightly dif version of the plant each gross plug is like six dollars #and they come in trays of 51 i believe #they also do this with the edible plants btw #last week i was picking out the slimy moldy leaves of the basil so they could ship it to be distributed to every hannafords in the region 🤢 #anyway their quality is so so awful and gross the owner is only rich bc he was born rich #despite his self made man backstory that he completely made up lol #i wanna namedrop them but i dont want to get sued #dont buy basil at hannafords if you live in new england tho

[glassphinix]

[ID: the “touching grass is not enough” meme of text over a flowery field that has been edited to read “touching grass is not enough, i need an update about the edge of sleep tv series.” end ID]

#the edge of sleep #teos #literally ive only listened to the first three episodes bc i struggle to find an excuse to listen to an audio drama #i dont really listen to podcasts. i turned on distractible while i was cleaning my aunts house cause it was good to have as background noise #but teos is a work of fiction it's a thriller/mystery/horror story that i want to give my undivided attention #and thats hard to do because my brain Refuses to stay on track if listening is all i'm doing #when i was into bmc i had to be reading the script while i listened to the audio bootleg or i wouldnt fucken stay concentrated #i only listened to it initially during a shift w a disability support worker bc we were driving and we had fuckall else to do #but 1. i dont always have the same worker and it feels rude to keep listening to a story halfway through with no context for them #and 2. from my understanding shit gets decidedly fucked up from ep 4 onward so its probably super not appropriate to listen to #in somebody elses fucking car #but i wanna finish it SO BAD i wanna be able to pour through the teos tag and talk about it with other people without getting spoiled #ive gotten spoiled on a Lotta shit just from reading the tvtropes page #auauufah im so torn between figuring out how to listen to it as a podcast or waiting for more info on the tv show #fellow autistic people do you ever do that thing where ur special interest is always some form of media but its prone to changing #so like every few months youre defined by a new fucking show or game or film or whatever #but Every So Often when ur between big interests u have a very short-lived (hours/days/week or two) but INTENSE obsession w something niche #yeah its like that #my brain is that little ms paint creature thing on all fours with pointy teeth and red eyes biting something in its mouth savagely #and the something is teos #internal monologue

[rainyraisin]

The most I've wrote of Reticent in the past couple of days is some Mikey and Raph banter I wrote whilst at the cinema which I only stopped writing cause some kids around my age sat behind me and I got scared

Being a writer is so great!!!!

#this chapter is only 5 scenes so it shouldnt be taking this long #the first scene was pretty long though #and the last scene is also gonna be STUPID long #so dont let the short scene count fool you thisll definetly be longer than chapter 3 #but goddamn this chapter is FIGHTING with me #the worst part is ive been excited to write this chapter for like four months now #but i guess the build up might be whats making this difficult to write dhdjdbkd #hopefully itll be out by the end of the month cause i really wanna finish it before i go back to school #cause Year 11 is gonna destroy any time i have #i love doing two musicals and a winter concert and studying for my next set of mock exams after just finishing my last set #year 11 is gonna be so fun you guys #the only reason im waiting till i finish high school to get a job is cuz year 11 is gonna be insane #im gonna be working towards my musical theatre grade 8 too omfg #im gonna eep before i have a crisis cause i dont have to worry about this for another 2 weeks #night Raisinsssss 💖💖💖💖🫶🫶🫶🫶

[thekingofchungus]

this is the equivalent of having an 18 month old executed

#WHY?!?!? HUH?!?!?! #tf was wrong with it i was like two months ago years old when i saw this and thought it was fucking cool #i dont have to have severe stomach anxiety while waiting for important messages on this site!!!!!! its great it was fucking great!!!!!!!!! #WHY are you doing this. what did it do wrong. this is so weird #paypal's the only place ill pay attention to the changes for because i dont wanna get banned spontaneously again lol #chatbox #paypal