#i dont but thats never stopped me before

[rapidhighway]

behold, sonic and knuckle climbing a cliff. what will they do

#sonic the hedgehog #knuckles the echidna #sonic #animation #idk how to animate honestly i just wanted to do it and went to find some prompts and it said 'climbing' so that's what i made #im actually quite proud since i think you can kinda see what's going on here hehe #art #digital art #fanart #be nice to me i haven't tried this in years?? blinks cutely or somethin #im not goinna finish this btw i dont even know how xdd #at least i dont think i will #or will i #i'd have to learn a bunch of stuff #do i have time for that... #i dont but thats never stopped me before #knuckles&sonic

[randomminty]

Just a buncha cynthias

#some of these look out of character but eh #pokemon #art tag #champion cynthia #i draw cynthia so much shes so fun to draw. illl never know how her hair works that wont stop me #ive started watching a bunch of the pokemon anime even though i never liked it before. MAN i was missing out #i mostly just tuned in to see it butched my fav characters but thats the completely wrong mindset to watch it in #ive been watching as somewhat separate to the games and its so much fun #and the dub…… its good but so unintentionally funny #i didnt care abt alain but after seeing him go MEGA EVAAAOLVE like 5 times in the mega special i adore him #if i dont see miarin in the anime again ill cry i miss her #last thing about the anime for now i forgot they kept lances old va for journeys #im used to his pokemas and generations voice which is p different so that was funny. leons journeys va is so good too #ANYWAYS CYNTHIA. cried when i saw her again in journeys. shes so cool

[deus-and-the-machina]

you know the contrast between how Vergil is presented vs thinking too hard about Vergil’s story is pretty funny. Man’s reputation is this iconic badass, the pinnacle of what video game rivalries can be, the coolest guy to play as, the guy who breaks every game he’s added to,

and then you go to the story and like. man’s lost his free will and autonomy at 19 and then came back a fractured man half of which was a lovecraftian eye beast the other half of which was a chronically ill goth man. and then he reunites and hes in like his 40s now I believe but legit the last time he was actually in a game where he wasn’t being mind controlled when he was 19 which is both sad but also thinking about how this guy who’s considered one of the top badasses of gaming has never really lived life outside of being a teenager.

Anyways this is the secret comedic potential of post DMC5 for Vergil because not only has the human world probably changed a fair bit in terms of technology, if he’s sticking around Dante he’s gonna actually have to learn in depth how taxes and grocery shopping work. Amazing.

#thinking about dmc seriously for the first time in a while...I never stopped the occasional canary reblog but hmmmmmmm #like I imagine post 3 Vergil was probably similarly doing mercenary/demon killing work to get money like Dante was and thats sorta shown in #the novels. but like before that when he was a young young kid just post attack he was probably just living feral in an alleyway or smth #with just the yamato prolly similar to how v at the start of visions of v was. that child mugged and dumpster dived ok #point is while obviously he got to a place where he wasnt like. broke and homeless by the gilver era hes probably not had to think much #about money besides it buys me food and clothes mans was confused by one goaland power and yada yada while guess what buddy now you're #gonna be consumed by adulting. I dont even think he'd be that bothered by Dante not paying the bills at first but once he settles into human #living and gets a firsthand experience of what a cold shower when the heating is off feels like he is ON his ass about it #he pretends hes sooooo above human concerns until he has to live them lol and nowhes in charge of devil may crys finances prolly #nero taught him how to do taxes I bet #devil may cry #vergil sparda #vergil

[spitblaze]

Okay I've witnessed it happening enough in Queer Internet Circles that I think I can confidently say something about it.

Can we PLEASE stop picking arbitrary lgbt+ demographics out of a hat and having entire conversations about how they 'aren't actually queer' and 'taking valuable resources' for the crimes of 'some of them are cringe' or 'some of them are assholes' or 'they have a nebulous privilege over the rest of us so they're the oppressor, actually'.

Like look, some conversations are absolutely worth having. There's a lot of transmasc shitheads who latch on to toxic masculinity or seem to completely forget what it's like to navigate a world that considers you a woman, or completely fail to realize that being transgender yourself doesn't suddenly mean you don't have to examine yourself for internalized transphobia or transmisogyny. And that should be addressed, every community has its issues, no community is a monolith, no demographic is made up of entirely good smart righteous people or evil bad oppressive abusers. Obviously.

But I'm not talking about that!

I'm talking about people bringing up the same tired rhetoric they used when they tried to claim that nonbinary people are clout-chasing attention seekers who will keep cishet society from taking the rest of us seriously, that people used when they decided asexuals were actually cishets who co-opted our movement for their own personal gain, which was recycled from when people tried to claim that bisexuals are het-passing fakers and if a REAL queer has sex with one they'll be left for a cishet because that's what bisexuals do, which is the same as the shit they spewed at whoever the target was before that! It's paranoid nonsense all the way down, people looking for an acceptable target to take their shit out on!

Can we stop doing this, please?? Can we stop picking demographics within our own community that people arbitrarily decide are fine to bully and mock and kick out of the spaces they helped create because you think that they're cringe or that speaking about the issues they face is privileged whining? Can we stop giving bigoted cishets free reign on already vulnerable communities because someone arbitrarily decided that THESE queers are evil and cringe so its okay to make shitty comments and jokes about them? Can we PLEASE stop the cycle in its tracks while we can still see the crosshairs moving onto tranfems and trans women? We can stop this now before it starts getting uglier and deadlier, but we HAVE to be aware and do more than complaining about it online.

#spitblaze says things #and im ESPECIALLY worried because i have an extremely bad feeling that the next target is gonna be transfems and trans women #so KNOCK THAT SHIT OFF! ALL OF YOU!!! #long post #i have been wrong before! i will be wrong again! im not a spokesperson or an authority im just noticing trends #THAT HAVE ME VERY FUCKING CONCERNED #ugh. i feel like i should stop making posts about queer community stuff. i probably should for my mental health #but mostly it feels like i dont have any place to talk. unsure if thats true or anxiety brainworms but. #its never brought me anything except frustration and anguish anyway so. dont expect more original posts on the subject

[can-of-slorgs]

I'm personally blaming @starbiology and everyone who has reblogged or commented the other piece for this.

Bonus comic featuring my grundo:

#every minute i keep working on this i take psychological damage #neotag #neopets #vin memes #you'reall to blame for this monstruosity #i literally just searched “babygirl” pose and went “I... i can do that” #i didn't stop to think if i should though #Star i was gonna respond 2 the reblog with the first image only but decided it needed its own post for quarantining this... thing #again if youre seeing this with no context #you dont need context #i... i don't think there's any for that matter #just picture me writing all this tags while losing health in posion damage every turn #i am working on neo oc images i just need to render them but i.... i needed the world to see this before #my blog's already tainted anyway LMFAOO #yeah uh im dead in neo canon i drew this and inmediately got taken back by yours trully and never came back #also i'll try making a ref as well for my sona so i can draw them more im just really indecisive in what color to make him #split it is for now #i don't want to look at this anymore end me #i am making more drawings to kinda cover this thing from the light but at this point it just keeps reappearing like a mold #thats it im done see u all in kreludorian therapy #kreludorian health insurance in a farse

[satsuha]

i got so angry about the AB remaster i drew this

#maplestory #satsuhart #angelic buster #tear #sorry i have to go off about it bc i dont wnna make a separate post about it #im so angry about every single aspect of the new design and art holy shit #simplified all her patterns but added more colours to her main outfit resulting in a rly shitty colour palette #even got rid of her cute peach pink hair with yellow gradient for some bullshit pink/blue hair dye #the bows are drawn SO badly they look so cheap and the added colour looks terrible . her og outfit never even had pink #and dont even get me started on the weapon and the addition of hearts to her design HOLY SHIT im so mad #like before it very clearly had a fantasy 'idol... who Fights' vibe but now she just looks like any low budget jp idol #fkin ruined the look of her soul shooter i used to like the design so much now it looks like a knockoff kids toy that would shoot bubbles #WITH A HEART >!>?!??!?! im gonna kill something #im also so mad theyve fully rounded out her eyes and ADDED HEARTS?!?!?! like i really liked how she had sharp kinda dragony pupils #but thats all gone now SNZZ i can only hope they at least make adjustments to her outfit before release bc wow its terrible! #drawing her again after all these years made me re appreciate how nice her outfit is altho its not like i ever stopped thinking that. #it was always nice #shes cute without being overbearing about it but now its dialed up to 11 i hate it i hate it #everytime maple remasters an illust i lose a few years of my life like seriously they havent put out any nice remaster visuals since 2013 #(RED explorers and they werent even visual remasters in the general sense) #like WAH at this rate im gonna be so pissed off when they get to heroes remaster. theyre gonna butcher my boy and my girl and my #ok im stopping for now but rly. hope ppl are loud enough about their contempt for this bc it didnt work enough for explorers remaster #NOTMYANGELICBUSTER

[sproutzai]

the disorder faking in this generation is genuinely wild. like.

#yiure meaning to tell me you have DID #a disorder known for severe memory loss #a disorder known to be so so difficult to disgnose to anyone unrer the age of 18 #and all of ur alters r fictional cjaracters?? all of them remember to sign off with a silly emoji?? all remember how to use a phone?? #bullshit genuine bullshit i dont care #maybe thats because i have an interest in psychology but . be so for realm #if youre gonna fake a disorder at least do the minimum amount of research #i dont even qanna get STARTED on the “autism” community #“w-wait this isnt normal??” and its like. being tired after social events. #i guarentee it is normal. #Good lord stop diagnosing yourself off tiktok or instagram reels #see genuine psychiatrists / doctors 😭. #self diagnosing isnt valid #never will be #btw #if you think you have a disorder do research and dont announce it like youve been diagnosed for the past 7 years #“i think i have adhd because i have heavy symptoms” is more mentally positive then “I ABSOLUTELY HAVE ADHD I SAW 3 REELS” #exaggeration but you know what i mean #“b-but zai!! what about the people who cant get a diagnosis!!” womp womp?? use the point i said before???? #therell come an age for everyone where they can go be independant with it and seek genuine help bruh #my bad for ranting but like. christ. #normalise mental illnesses but not the way half of you are doing it .... #🌱 idle #🌱 rant

[dreamaboutwhathappens]

okay posting this now because i feel like the surprise song combo was so intentional and i hope we get to hear more about it on ttpd !! the getaway car/august/other side of the door mashup got my gears turning and now i can’t get them to stop.

the common thread between those three songs is the third party — i wanted leave him i needed a reason, you weren’t mine to lose, was she worth this? — and i know that basically ever since the breakup people have wondered if joe cheated, and this seemed like it could have confirmed it. while i definitely see the evidence for that, it hasn’t quite seemed like the right fit to me, and after this surprise song combo i finally figured out why. i don’t think that the third party she was singing about in melbourne was an actual person, but the idea of a person.

a huge theme on midnights is what led her to being who she is now. she is both the anti-hero and bejeweled, a mastermind and the unreliable narrator in dead reader… there are so many different versions of herself. clearly she was contemplating these different versions and the implications of being each of them.

a huge theme in gothic literature are characters that are not present in the setting, but the idea of them and what they would do is so strong that they end up influencing the story anyways. this happens in rebecca, the novel that inspired tolerate it, where the main character is haunted by living in the glorious shadow that rebecca cast, an impossible standard to live up to, despite the fact that rebecca died and actually, crucially, wasn’t as great as everyone made her out to be. but it doesn’t matter that she wasn’t that great or that she’s never actually there to be truly compared to because it’s the IDEA of rebecca that’s so powerful. it’s the GHOST that haunts the narrative.

and i wonder if that was part of what drove taylor and joe apart? not an actual ~other woman~ but the idea of who taylor could have been instead. all of the other versions of herself she contemplated on midnights. the third party she seemed to be singing about. even on other albums, before this, she’s contemplated what version of herself could be loved — “i’ve been the archer, i’ve been the prey, who could ever leave me darling but who could stay?” i wonder if there was an idea of taylor (a taylor that isn’t “too big to hang out”) that was so palpable, so real, that it ended up taking up the space of another person and haunting their narrative anyways? because, like the main character in rebecca, how could she live up to the idea of a perfect life?

basically: how can you say that you love someone you can’t tell has died? did you love the real me or the version of me in your head that perfectly fit into your world?

#it’s like in wuthering heights after catherine dies and heathcliff begs to be haunted by her #like. they could have been together when she was alive. but the ghost of her is far more powerful than the real woman ever was. #because it’s the IDEA of love and happiness and a perfect life. and that idea can’t be touched! #and a real human person can’t live up to that!! that’s what happens to the main character in rebecca and to heathcliff! #like yeah it would be great if we had no problems and had the exact same interests and wants and didnt have to compromise on anything #but a real human being will never be like that. and we know taylor swift is midnight rain #she does not want it comfortable. she wants to roll up her sleeves and attack the hard things #but how can you attack or dissect or truly understand the idealized version of you living in someone’s head? #when that version of you doesn’t want what you want or have the same fragile human feelings you do? #much to think about. both rebecca and wurhering heights were books i GREATLY enjoyed. #i could be reading into nothing here but dont worry. thats never stopped me before! #taylor swift #ttpd #eras tour #random thoughts with grace

[asyipyip]

jesus christ episode 5 of arcane was so fucking good

#i am gonna finally finish watching it #do not ask me why i havent finished it yet i dont fucking know #its so god damn good im just fucking terrible at watching things if i have free time i play video games lol #kara stop blogging #arcane #but it was so many banger scenes!!!!! SO MANY BANGER SCENES #the scene where vi spots caitlin in the brothel fuckin rizzing up a woman and vi just gives a little shocked 0_0 :) #the whole dynamic flashing back and forth of jayce being on a fucking HIGH while Viktor is sinking lower and lower into his work and illnes #the badass shots while enemy plays of the underground selling its grit #then the upbrupt stop of the music when it suddenly jumps to jayce sitting in viktors hospital room #viktor asks how long they thing he has and before jayce can answer it JUMPS IMMEDIATELY BACK INTO THE UNDERGROUND WITH THE SONG STARTING- #LIKE IT NEVER FUCKING STOPPED #AUGH #THATS GOOD FUCKING SHIT DUDE!!! THATS CINEMATIC AS HELL!!! #oh the way they portray powder/jinx's flashbacks are so fucking good. so expressive in just how much shes haunted by what happened #how her guilt manifests into ghosts that she cant escape from #genuinely incredible. what a show. #i want to watch another episode but its 3 am

[ei-mugi]

one time i was talking to my american online friends about stuff and i was like "haha yeah people always say i look ambiguously european but cant place what i am specifically" and they were like "i dont think europeans have a look though." what do you mean. you dont believe different ethnic features exist...?

#just was reminded of it lol #one i no longer talk to used to insist that i was british because of my not-british accent and would not believe me when i said #no... i dont live there #id told them i was aussie. they didnt believe me though. like they thought i inexplicably had a brtisih accent despite never #having been there ever #another i said i didnt get a SSCoE for HS but a diploma. thats not what diplomas are here but they kept insisting i was wrong #like i have the certificate....its not a diploma.......... thats not what it says. #but they were like just call it a diploma : / its basically a diploma #i know AU isnt that different to the US but at least we are usually a little less annoying #i did see that asshat who was like 'uhhhh climate change means you dont have snow? not for us australians a-durrrrr X D' or w/e #what a twat. even from a purely selfish perspective we still also have climate change. its very noticeable. come on #anyway for a full decade i basically never met anyone online who wasnt USamerican.................... #so. i do have some amount of frustration. #they got mad at me for saying bikkie or pressie as slang even tho theyre super easy to figure out from context. also it doesnt matter #'STOP using slang you KNOW us americans WONT UNDERSTAND' #we were talking about christmas!?!? pressie is straightforward!?!? even if not...why are you so indignant #on a more awful note i knew one sheila (white) who was like very vocally/performatively into blm #but then one time when i mentioned aboriginal australians she was like 'what...ive never heard of those before...' #youve known me for years even if you never looked at anything in your life ever id definitely mentioned them before #pretty fucking important. both for my country and when caring about indigenous/first nations peoples. oldest surviving culture on earth #but she was like how was i supposed to know about them : / #because i thoguht you cared about these issues!?!?!??!? also just generally ohhh my god #how could you be vaguely aware of AU history as being similar to your own and then say you didnt know we had indigenous peoples #like. what do i even say #do you think... only america has indigenous peoples?????? #its fine not to know a foreign countrys history in depth but just...the absolute basics....about an issue you claim to care about... #sigh. ok this is too long. i feel that last one is justified to complain about tho

[nerdie-faerie]

Having a 9am class and an 8 hour shift the same day I have an assignment due so I haven't slept, is a recipe for disaster. Fingers crossed I don't bodily attack a customer 🤞

#ace is a mess #Uni shenanigans #work tag #told my boss i was available 1-9 as thats the usual weekday shift he gives me he approved it then scheduled me for 12 🤨 #hes lucky my ciass finished on time cus i wanna throttle him hes taking the pss lately #im running on 3 hours sleep cus i had to try get this assignment finished before i went to sleep cus i have class and work today #its due at 4pm and i was not gonna risk tryna get it done on my break when he never sends us for breaks anyway #im so sleep deprived lately i cant wait for assessment season to be over so i can stop making stupid decisions about my sleep habits #when my stress imduced insomnia is already kicking my ass as it does every season and yet i never learn #i love working in customer service with useless managers when im feeling homicidal #hopefully i manage to get through the shift without completely losing it praying i wont yell is already a losing battle #customers are always at the most stupid when you dont have the patience for it though

[asthe-crow-flies]

Hospital Bed - Lolina: Origins

i am obsessed with this concept album its on bandcamp please go listen to it i need to not be the only person who cares about this

[id: a digital comic consisting of three pages, in grayscale and red.

the first page is four panels, each the width of the page. the first is all black. four beeps go diagonally down across the panel. the second panel is mostly black, with a somewhat fuzzy light in the middle left of the panel. it reads "what is this pain? what is this place?" in the third panel, the fuzzy image of a person is visible, the edges of the panel are still dark. it reads "am i alive? am i awake? what are these scars across my face?" in the fourth panel, a woman in a lab coat and a mask, the doctor, leans in. the right side of the panel is still dark. a speech bubble from the woman says "you are home". the narration interjects with "they say". the woman continues "you are safe."

the second page is three panels, the first one taking up most of the page, with the other two next to each other under it. the first panel is a birds-eye view of a room in a hospital. in the center is Lolina, a woman laying on a hospital bed. she has black hair, a bandage wrapped over her eye, and a red cut down the side of her face. the doctor stands next to the bed. sideways, in large letters, it reads "hospital bed, I'm back on mars." the second panel is a close-up of the upper half of Lolina's face, focusing on her left eye, which is red, and the bandage covering her other one. it reads "but i am wounded." the third panel is a close up of the lower half of her face, focusing on the cut on her cheek held together with butterfly bandages, and the large bandage on her other cheek. it reads "I feel the scars."

the third page is a drawing of the doctor standing by the bed, from Lolina's point of view. across it is dialogue interspersed with small panels. the doctor says "we can regrow your cells," and next to it is a small panel showing cells dividing. then she says "we can restore," and next to it is a panel showing the right half of Lolina's face, with her eye and cheek healed. then she says "you will go back," and next to it is a panel reading "Sandy's Place" in glowing red letters. the narration interjects with "they say." the doctor continues "to the life you had before." under it is a panel divided diagonally into four sections, the first showing red lips, the second showing black hair swishing, the third showing a pair of legs wearing red high heels, and the fourth showing a body from neck to hips, wearing a strapless red dress. under that the narration reads "to the life i had before". end id.]

(I've never written an id for a comic before and there was some visual stuff that was really tricky to describe so if I've messed something up or if something should be clearer please tell me and I'll try to fix it)

#this is by no means perfect but i NEED to get it posted so i can get myself to stop working on it in the middle of finals week #ive never made a comic before this was fun #lolina: origins #r l hughes #art #my art #seriously go listen to it its only one pound thats only a bit more than a dollar its way cheaper than it should be #it should have SO many trigger warnings though so i guess like dm me or whatever if you want more detail #there's also lyric videos by thevoidsings on youtube but supporting creators is important so if you watch those please also buy the album #if anyone's wondering (which im sure no one is) the comic is in grayscale but lolina is only black and white with no grays because that's #how she's drawn on the album cover and i liked how unsettling it made her look #also! her thoughts and narration have red in the letters and the organatech doctor's dont because shes the only one who gets any red #goddddddddd i need to get this out of my brain this is ruining my life #someone please please talk to me about this

[gibbearish]

I've put this in the tags of a previous reblog but feel like it deserves its own post so PSA to tall people: your short friends likely have shorter legs than you and therefore physically can't walk as fast as you without exerting way more effort, they're not going slow on purpose or exaggerating/joking when they say they're more tired than you after an outing. your casual stroll is a speedwalk for them and doing that for extended periods of time is exhausting. also you will lose them in crowds way less if you make a conscious effort to match their pace rather than just assuming theyll keep up

#ive never fully understood how people accidentally leave walking companions behind without noticing #like even when we're not talking i can still hear you Moving Around next to me and like. want to stay near you? so i automatically #am checking every few seconds that youre still nearby and im not leaving you behind #and idk i guess thats such an ingrained part of me that i just. dont get how other people dont #my bf i get bc hes deaf on one side so he has no directional hearing to track me with #but even then I'm like. bro i am 15 feet behind you and it took me a While to get this far back #he be like tunnel visions thinking about playing city skylines when we get home KWNFLJWBFANFKSJ #thats /lh he only did it for a little while and got way better about compensating for my walkspeed since #i think i only had to point it out maaaaybe 5 times before it stopped coming up

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im just gonna complain abt it here bc i just have to accept that i can't irl bc no one else gets it #its hard to b a dyslexic grad student. u have to read so much. and its good. lots of reading is good. u just have to contend with a soul #crushing amout of discouragement at the fact u just kinda cant read while ur peers r like sure i can read this in class and have things to #say abt it. if u make me read in my head in class i literally cannot fucking tell u what i just read. not a god damn thing and if i try to #let my computer read to me i cant fucking pay attention for long enough so i just have to accept that from here on out ill have to #physically read papers aloud which i hate so much. its the only way i can fucking understand things and it still makes me feel dumb bc ill #somehow still space out while reading and have to reread like 4 times before i understand wtf is being said. it takes forever and it takes #energy and i dont like talking very much and it also restricts me to only being able to read at home which is frustrating #and im like i need to stop my brain from distracting myself with things that dont matter and my counselor is like: ur ocd is trying to make #work ur whole life and im like yeah thats how i got it. its the only way i can keep swimming with the non dyslexics #so its like wtf do i do? i kinda have to take the hit and make work my whole life rn. morn the loss of other things for a while #i dunno im still a bummer rn. like im probably coming off as more an asocial freak than normal bc its hard to talk ans maintain conversation #rn. but whatever. sometimes things just suck and theres nothing u can do abt it but accept it and move on. ill learn lots of things with all #the reading i have to do and that's never a bad thing ...no matter how much i dont give a fuck abt animals #like jesus. i could not even begin to give a fuck about like 95% of mammals. fish r cool tho. plants too #but microbes is where its at. i dont understand y ppl dont understand how cool they r. oh well ill just have to tell them #if i can find my fucking enthusiasm. ugh i have to make one of my classes read a paper and i have to work with someone abt find it. she #works with like rabbits. i refuse to assign a mammal paper. i fucking refuse. we will do plants or microbes or fucking paleontology #i will fight her on this. ugh. light filtering or orchid speciation would b perfect. annoying #at least i get to work with some culturs this week #unrelated

[upsidedowngrass]

i will say one of my Biggest pet peeves in one fanworks is 'liam becomes the new airy.' like im sorry i respect u and ur interpretations and ur creative interests !!! im glad ppl have fun and have ideas about post canon one, theres a lot of potential there!!!! but also the moment that i see a work have liam do this i instantly stop paying attention

#not putting this in the tag cus i dont wanna make ppl feel bad!!! #and like. i HAVE seen works that mildly explore it but in a way that i kinda like #but its just. it bothers me So Bad #like it contradicts every trait liam has ever shown in the series AND all of his motivations #'ppl qct ooc under stress!' yeah but it doesnt make ppl act in ways Completely diff from who they r... like hes still liam #at that pt hes just a whole new CHARACTER #but its like. his ENTIRE motivation is that he wants to stop anyone else from going what he went thru. will do anything to prevent that #itd literally undo what makes his entire character him at all to have him go back on that. thats literally his most prominent motivation #its SO intrinsically tied to him as a character #like yeah!!! him and airy are both isolated in that world. there are strong similiarities between their characters #but they still went theu snth DISTINCTLY different. #airy died and was isolated. liam was kidnapped and then isolated. it feels just different enough that i CANT see how #liam would just end up as 'airy 2.' their experiences may be similar but theyre still extremely different #and its like. ive said it before but i think julien is meant to serve WAY more of a parallel to liam than airy is #if theres anything i think liam would do if he couldnt get home? it would be to try and try and try #until hes just... not going anywhere #his stubbornness (and juliens stubbornness for that matter) is vital to understanding his actions. #hed never stop even if it meant he REALLY never stopped. and i think thats just as emotionally impactful #and? even if he WERE to act ooc. uh #tbh? i think hes terrified of dying. he does NOT like it. i think esp after the waiting room hed dread it bc all he knows of it #is that hell just keep dying and dying. or end up just stuck there forever #but. if he were to start rly going against his established traits. i think hed more sooner off himself than start s3 #ESP since it is his own concern for others that makes him act the most Against his own self in the entire series #when he tries to kill airy. bc he couldnt stand the idea of everything continuing #and airy doing this to more ppl. THAT is what is strong enough to make him go against his own personality #and i think its too deeply intertwined into his character for him to try to deal with isolation by kidnapping people #esp not owen. #suicide mention #ANYWAY. these tags r long #OK TO RB BTW if u want i just didnt tag it bc i dont wanna make any1 goin thru the tag sad or anything

[jellyfishjunkie]

very sad 90% (not all) of my relationships (friendship and otherwise) is reliant on just me making the first moves, whether it be texting first or even starting and maintaining conversations when we r in person. it's kinda so depressing and exhausting.

#hush jelly #vent #idk is it too much to wanna feel wanted #and if i mention it change only happens for a short time #then it just goes back to the way it was #n people always say they just dont want to feel rejected #and its like.... #someone isnt always gna wanna talk to u/hnag out etc. #but why should that stop u from trying #idk??? like i know people dont always wanna talk!!!! i still reach out #i still send them silly posts #i still text to check up #or talk to try and start conversation #its not always gna work #and what #just cause i didnt feel like talking once #suddenly youll never intiate again #suddenly its just not worth the effort to reach out and recieve nothing ? #like do u even really care if u dont at least try? #i still check up on people i havent heard from in months #i know its hard sometimes to respond to people #but its always worth the effort for someone u care about #and is it really so much to ask that they extend you the same courtesy #i can think of only two people in my life who do this for me excluding family #thats depressing #and its exhausting for me #my own partner wont text me first #like girl.... #i knoe u wanna talk to me #you have said it before