Hello, first of all, I want to give you big hug. It is hard time to be in this fandom with all the storm going on with Biu right now. But I wanted to tell you this: I absolutely love your fic If you had something to lose. It is one of my favourite stories and I eagerly await each new update. I was lucky to discover it (I got to it later) and it was two whole amazing weeks where I could just read this story and do nothing else. I basically breathed this fic and I am so grateful to you. You gave me two amazing weeks of happiness and great story and I want to thank you for that. Please, never stop writing. You are so talented and this fic is so great. You have no idea how happy you made me with this fic and I am looking forward to next chapter. Don't let this drama in fandom get to you (I am crushed too), we went through it before. It is mostly you, the fic writers who make the whole fandom more enjoyable and great.
🫂 thank you, nonnie, I needed to hear all of this 🥺
Honestly I think I'm just... at the risk of sounding a bit vain, I miss when people would actually hype me up for IYHSTL. There are still people who leave me lovely comments or reblog/retweet my updates and get excited but it's so much less than it used to be. And I'm so grateful for those people because obviously the fandom is in shambles, so I'm glad people are still reading/enjoying at all.
But it's hard not to notice the big difference between the way people used to interact with me, and the way they do now. I sometimes feel a little... taken for granted? Because I update so regularly. It sometimes feels like people don't find my updates exciting anymore, which is fine, people don't owe me continuing to read/hype/whatever. It just kind of feels shitty, sometimes, you know?
Writing a long story is really hard. It's hard to keep up motivation for weeks upon weeks, and keep writing even when things are hard or I struggle with the way the story is progressing. And one of the things that always helped was seeing enthusiasm from people, seeing the excitement when I updated. And now that I don't have as much of that, it's... harder. Not impossible. Just harder.
I've always written my stories for myself, first, and this is no different. I want to finish IYHSTL because it's a good story and I've had a wonderful ending in mind from the day I started it. It's just getting harder to write it with everything going on, especially because I'm not as excited as I was, and it doesn't seem like other people are either 🤷
So that's part of why I wrote that ramble last night... I just need to readjust and remember that the story is more for me than other people. I'll be fine, I was just feeling kind of down.
Thank you again for the note, and don't think poorly of me for being mopey about getting less comments than I used to 😭
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I like to think that Vulcans who come to understand that Humans just can’t try to process emotions the same way as them, it’s just healthiest to let it out in harmless ways, decide that venting and stuff should be taken just as seriously as Vulcan’s meditation time, and will encourage the Humans around them to complain about what’s upsetting them
People who are used to aloof Vulcans who avoid Humans at all cost running into one comforting a Human
“-and then they said my cheesecake was subpar, and they didn’t even bring a dish!!!”
“The purpose of this event was that every participant brings a food item of sorts, correct?”
“Yeah!!”
“And they did not follow this rule while insulting dishes that were brought?”
“Mostly just my dish but yeah >:(“
“How illogical”
“That’s what I’m saying!!!”
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My beautiful and kind friend @troopingfairy has drawn this lovely Snoopy wearing a keffiyeh for me!!!!! Look at him!!! 🤍🇵🇸
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