#i don't want to human anymore

[jimkirkachu]

that feeling when your crush knows you exist, speaks to you directly, returns your feelings, tells you they love you, refuses to let go of your hand, and is then just about to kiss you but right at that moment you wake up and realize it was all a dream and your soul implodes

#not trek #personal log #one sided crush #unrequited crush #romantically challenged #demi problems #romance = 😣 #forever alone #i can't Feelings™ #do not want #somebody make this go away please #somebody punch me in the fucking face #i don't want to human anymore #pining #long distance pining #limerence #literally hopeless #crush #whining #complaining #being ugly #touch deprivation #i am clingy desperate lonely and utterly incompetent at all forms of interpersonal relationships #guess it's going to be a 'lie in bed crying or sleeping all day' kind of day #depression #heartsick #soul sick #jtkchu's brain #jtkchu is toxic #stfu jtkchu

[cottagecore-and-coffee]

Oh, to be a small fluffy kitten napping by the hearth, with no concept of rent or inflation━

#kitten #cottagecore #cats #I don't want to human anymore #Work got me burnt out lol

[isaacz]

Zombie clover concept idea based on the headcanon that the humans revive after Pacifist

#undertale yellow #my art #i personally don't like the headcanon but i wanted to indulge myself on it #cuz the idea of them reviving but not being human anymore? somewhat decomposing corpses that came back to life is very appealing to me

[gayformlessblob]

if nandor ends up using a wish for guillermo to be human again. especially if it's so he can turn him after in the proper dramatic way that they both want. i will not recover

#wwdits #listen ok. my og delusional idea was that nandor would wish to be human #but #seeing how things are going i'm investing in this one #however it might be that guillermo convinces the djinn on his own #in which case i may recover a bit faster #i have reasons for believing it would be nandor wanting to be human however i don't think he minds being a vampire quite so much anymore ? #honestly if that scenario somehow happens i'm dying on the spot #anyway i'm so normal 👍 #what we do in the shadows

[a-s-levynn]

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#sleep token #here is a thing #there are certain moments when Vessel looks.. no he rather feels.. small #i mean his.. aura? presence? but not in the non-captivating way but as in an emotionally vulnerable way #i don't really have the words to describe this but just like on this picture #bear with me for a minute because this is either gonna sound completely unhinged or make some sort of sense #it's probably just me having a little more time on my hand than i should and just want to see things but.. #sometimes he feels so present in a here-i-am as-i-am take-me-as-you-will this-is-all-i-am i-can't-give-more-nor-less it's-just-me sorta way #he feels so human in the rawest sense possible and yet so deep in character maybe even more so than when he creatures or teefs and all #like.. he is just vessel in it's simplicity and without the 'divine' if you will.. simply just vessel #in his barest of existance #a shadow of someone who used to be but not quite anymore #he is in pieces and it is willingly laid bare under the mask and all that bodypaint oh so clear to see for anyone #and that is not the outstreched hand of you-are-not-alone but the outstreched soul that cries you-can-find-yourself-in-me #and that is what i find so heartbreaking about him #this kind if raw openness because the lore says vessel is a conduit for sleep #for us vessel (and the the others) is the conduit of our emotions #and he is there somewhere inbetween the truths #just him a simple human being who sometimes seems to wish not to be human which makes him more human than anything #and that is what i can't describe better than 'sometimes he feels small' and at time even maybe makes me cry a little

[sysig]

He was a human pirate, which you wouldn’t think you’d have to specify and yet (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #ZEX #The Captain #This isn't even a sci-fi pirate adventure anymore this is just straight up human pirates lol #How many layers deep can we go until it's unrecognizable! Next up is Pirate AU!Helix! (Kidding. For now) Lol #There is something funny about it all to me as well considering how in-line it fits with the research I was doing for a Vargas fic concept #All these bodice-rippers coming home to roost lol ♪ #Which is also interesting 'cause I hadn't thought about this particular fic from that perspective before but it also fits! It works well! #Yet another angle to approach it from on a reread haha ♫ #ANYway lol - human!Pirate!SCII specifically finally lol #I do love just how openly attracted the Captain is to ZEX as a human haha - his attraction/disgust to VUX-ZEX is wonderful of course #It's just so silly and cute how honest he is when ZEX is in a body that he's aesthetically attracted to haha #And ZEX recognizing and utilizing that! But it still not quite tipping him over to being completely sold on the whole kidnapping thing lol #''I don't understand it! I look beautiful and I /know/ he's attracted to me! What could be stopping him from sleeping with me???" lol #Keep trying ZEX I'm sure you'll get it at some point haha #Finishing off with an idea of ZEX having to deal with a hostile and still not quite trusting the Captain not to run away #Or risk him getting hurt! ZEX can handle this! Let him protect you! #But the Captain also wants to help! And/or escape y'know whatever's most convenient haha #He's proud <3 And he does have an affinity with ZEX at this point - he knows he can be useful! But that's not what's most important to ZEX #Also being scolded and blushing a bit hehe ♪ Given just a bit of pause to be told by such a pretty face to ''Behave'' ♫ #I do really like ZEX with the coat and braids hehe <3 Handsome

[gurorori]

haha oh no im definitely not at all disturbed by the prevalence of leftists on all platforms who are loudly 'anti-genocide' when it comes to the palestinian cause (and a couple others at best :3c) yet the only time ukraine [ʊkrɐˈjinɐ] leaves their mouths is in critique, in stark comparison to the former or in complaint about their (american) government sending aid.

at first what i saw often was pointing out the differences in western media framing [ukraine vs palestine], and that's fair (until the words and the agenda of western journalists are used to paint, as a whole, ukrainians who have been actively going through genocide as some kind of white supremacists hogging the blanket of global attention when they kinda just want to live and have the rights to their own land, culture, names and families)

but no one is even caring to do that anymore, today bitches just invent metaphorical scenarios and people to get mad at and to throw an entire ethnos away because wahhhh i decided that you care for X but not for Y!!!.... all while doing the exact thing they are condemning. the exact absolute same and they don't even hide it but do lack the self-awareness to realise

#'ohh i saw white people still go out to rally for ukraine' yeah have you considered they are ukrainian or have ukrainian loved ones or uh #simply have humanity in their heart to care about several humanitarian tragedies in the world? #this is both aimed at a post i saw on here and at SEVERAL. MANY. twitterians with a thousand palestine flags all over their accounts spewing #misinformation hate and sometimes straight up russian propaganda tactics because they're this fucking insane #i don't care about sounding nice anymore by the way. i know my heart lies in the right place and i have the capacity to care about more than #one ongoing genocide of indigenous peoples #removed incidents of bad actors having a ukrainian flag on their backpack doing hateful shit does not somehow okay dismissing a genocide you #so vehemently claim to oppose. they are not ukrainians who are getting bombed on the daily for years #i saw a very lovely 🍉🕊️ lady denying holodomor and using literal russian talking points while patting herself on the back for being such #a good person. i saw one of the most popular leftie accs on twitter be actively anti-ukraine and using slurs. luckily we mass reported them #and they're gone #i'm no longer being careful with my words because i don't want to be misconstrued. i know my values go beyond twitter and tumblr #if i catch you in any way undermining the genocide of ukrainians or only bringing it up to point fingers and bitch i am blocking you forever #don't care how far this post might go cuz of ppls questionable use of the search function. and i didn't care to censor anything #like. masks off. just block me if this is your rhetoric

[ratwithhands]

I never get to post about this AU so this prompt had me PUMPED!!! This is Emmet from my Stelleret AU, where he made a deal with a star weaving, soul eating, spider Ultra Beast in order to find Ingo. He gave up his physical body for Stelleret's interdimensional/time travelling powers on the condition that he would continue to feed it. So they fused and now Emmet's a weird monster thing trying to manage the hunger of the other soul in the vessel and also find Ingo, wherever he is. There's more but I don't want to bore the audience rn ^^* if I have time I might post doodles/sketches, since this is one of my favourite AUs I've written but also very tedious and longwinded to explain. Anyways, hope you guys like the art and have a good day!

#submas #subwaymasteremmet #emmetpokemon #kudari #monthofemmet #pokemon #pokemonfanart #fun fact: there's so many stupid antics between StellerEmmet and Volo's family due to the complicated romance #this is one of the few AUs where I have them together and they're a silly couple doing their best #Emmet is also just generally very different in this AU (besides the obvious change) #5 years without Ingo‚ 3 years stuck in a body he hates‚ and not having positive human contact after the contract's sealed #he's very quiet and tends to hide a lot because he knows he won't be accepted by others #Volo's a big win in that aspect cause he doesn't really care and tends to him with all the love he doesn't get anymore #I'm not gonna get started on Ingo cause that's a whole other mess and I don't want to write too many tags ( ╯▽╰) #anyways have a good day let me know if you guys would like to know more

[danthropologie]

danielricciardo: My Secret Sauce. Coming soon 👀🍷

#daniel ricciardo #m:sm #dan #arms #hands #dr3 #wattpad fodder #i don't know what it is about these pics but they create such a visceral reaction in me that i want to hulk smash my phone #like i need to just squeeze it so fucking hard that it crumples up like a ball of tinfoil #i need to bite it and shake it around in my mouth like a feral dog #i need to throw it off a cliff i need to put it in a blender i need to blast it off to space i need to get RID of it #because i as a human woman cannot take this anymore!!!!!! #and that's not even getting into the forearm / hand / bottle holding combo in the second pic GOD #or the fucking CAPTION jesus christ #yes i will taste your sauce just give me the opportunity thanks

[naurasweetarudesu]

Aduh apasih

Btw, since this is December, have some padoru skarloey and rheneas.

Hashire sori yo

Kaze no you ni

Tsukimihara wo

Padoru padoru~!

#Ttte incorrect quote #ttte shitpost #Ttte meme #ttte peter sam #ttte rusty #ttte humanized #ttte skarloey #ttte rheneas #skarloey railway #Lately i want to die. My family just don't feel the same anymore. #Every morning there will be fight. Every night i forced to be their therapist. Listening to their mental toil yadda yadda. It's exhausting.

[jimkirkachu]

After 18 sessions I finally told my therapist that I have a "crush" (and that, you know, I also don't have normal-person crushes but rather months-to-years-to-even-decade-long obsessions... but potayto potahto), mentioned that I haven't had romantic-type "feelings" for anyone in roughly ten years, and that this person is beyond being inaccessible and out of my league and everything about all of this ordeal is just pure agonizing impossible fantasy because I don't get to have Romance in my life, it just... goes against the laws of physics or whatever.

Her response? She thinks I should send them a direct message and say hi and see what happens. 😣🤦💥☠️

#excuse me i just need to go die #not trek #personal log #therapy #the mortifying ordeal of being known #i can't Feelings™ #i don't want to human anymore #crush #crushes #unrequited crush #pining #unrequited pining #demi problems #romance = 😣 #heartsick #soul sick #social awkwardness #why does she not understand yet that Me and Love Interests do NOT belong together? #i am *supposed* to be single & lonely & miserable it's How The World Works it's the only thing i know & NOT by choice #people do not want to be near me let alone involved with me romantically there are *reasons* no one has ever asked me on a date #sorry to be back on my bullshit talking about The Crush again but my family doesn't want to hear it & I love my therapist but this is No 😣 #doesn't she realize the universe is better off with me being alone & miserable?? it's just simple mathematics it's How the World Works #forever alone #being ugly #it sucks #limerence #that sucks too #jtkchu's brain #stfu jtkchu #somebody make this go away please

[kanerallels]

Hate when I start writing something that is, technically, cute, but then immediately starts to feel out of character/contradictory to what I already wrote

#listen. this is about the sm au #cause i decided that in twi'leki culture saying i love you out loud is something that you don't do often romantically #unless you're married #which is fine because there's also the lekku sign for i love you! so kanan would know that hera loved him too when he said it! #BUT NOW #I'M IN SEASON THREE #AND HE CAN'T KRIFFING SEE IT #how pray tell do i write around this? #part of me is thinking 'oh well hera would say i love you! she'd know that he can't see it and want to express it to him' #plus she'd know that humans have different traditions so not saying before marriage is a liiiiiiiiiittle impractical maybe? #but then. it's kinda. starting to seem like an analogy for something else #in a way that i don't particularly like #because if i keep writing it the way i am i'm taking the side i wouldn't want to take personally #SO IT'S KINDA WACK OKAY #I'M NOT SURE WHAT TO DO #because hera and i hate hate hate hate the fact that kanan can't see her say i love you anymore #like seriously. i realized it the other day and it physically hurt #but i also know that kanan wouldn't want her to do something that was (to her) wrong just for him #but SHE DOES LOVE HIM SO MUCH OKAY IT'S COMPLICATED #ugh #i hate it when this happens

[swordsonnet]

maybe i'm missing something here, but it always confuses me when i see things like "some autistic people are disabled by their autism and some aren't" or "not everyone sees their autism as a disability". because... autism very much is a disability?! if you're autistic, then your symptoms must be present in a way that is disabling to you in your everyday life. it's literally in the diagnostic criteria. of course the extent to and areas in which you're disabled can vary greatly depending on the individual, but disability is part of the basic definition of autism, regardless of your personal feelings on the matter.

don't get me wrong, it's still much better than "autism is only a disability because of capitalism" because at least it doesn't make sweeping generalisations that aren't even remotely accurate to the lived reality of most autistic people. but it still perpetuates incorrect assumptions under the guise of personal choice, and honestly feels like an attempt to distance autism from disability in general. being disabled is nothing to be ashamed of, and i wish people wouldn't twist the meaning of autism to remove disability from it.

(and yes, that goes for level 1/low support needs autistics as well. i would be considered level 1 (though i wasn't diagnosed that way) and i'm still disabled by my autism! not to the same extent as many other people, sure, but i'm still disabled. if i wasn't, i wouldn't be autistic.)

#autism #actually autistic #actuallyautistic #what the hell. i'll put this in the main tags #i just don't understand what personal feelings have to do with this. autism literally *is* a disability thats a fact #(okay obviously the diagnostic criteria were created by humans and humans are fallible etc. #but if we extend the definition of autism so far beyond its original meaning then would autism even be a useful term anymore?) #stuff like this always leaves a bad taste in my mouth because it reeks of internalised ableism #i dont want to tell anyone how to identify. but if youre insisting that your autism isnt a disability even though by its very definition #it is - idk ive been in a similar position in my teens and finally acknowledging that i'm disabled and that doesnt make me any less worthy #as a person has made me more compassionate towards myself and others #it just worries me how autistic people on here are trying to pass off their autism as 'just quirky' or whatever #like if you genuinely are just quirky then thats fine! but if you arent disabled by it then i'm sorry but its not autism #i guess its kinda similar to how i dont *dislike* the word neurodivergent per se. but it sure feels like at least some people are using it #so they dont have to say mentally disabled #disability is not a dirty word

[moe-broey]

HEARTBREAKING

Worst Dad You Know Has an Extremely Endearing (Now) Reoccurring Character Trait

For further context: this whole FB involved Sharena and Henriette seeking out lockpickers in the Order of Heroes to open this VERY SECURELY locked box from Gustav's room that took Tina's special staff to finally crack open (or rather -- "steal" the contents out of. No one could actually break the lock!)

And the first instance of this!

It makes me wonder if he saved anything related to Sharena..........

#fire emblem #feh #man. henriette's sad portrait w 'yes. he must have' carries so much bittersweet grief. augh #when it comes to sharena idk if i would be more angry if he did save something or if he didn't. i'm almost leaning towards the first though #like. idk if i can even word it but it fucking sucks when you have family that 'loves' you and they do actually genuinely love you #but they just. do it wrong. and fail you severely in the process. you think to yourself it would have been easier actually #if they had simply never loved you at all. or if they were upfront and told you they don't love you anymore. #at least then you can be as vindictive as you want and hold a grudge forever and be completely justified #but extremely begrudgingly this DOES make gustav a compelling character. in so many ways #you can see where it all went wrong. you can see henriette sees something in him that no one else can. and she's not crazy for it #she was probably there. she probably saw it all happen. she knows him w a level of intimacy no one else does. #and now you see these little humanizing traits. he loved his son. he loved his partner and wife. #juries still out on his daughter. #but you get what i'm saying right? it's terribly tragic. it's painful. #man. #i'm still gustav's number one hater though. just so we're clear. #AUGH IT'S JUST. THE PLAYFULNESS OF IT. IS ACTUALLY SO PAINFUL. LOOKING AT EVERYTHING WE KNOW #they had a rock competition........ to find the roundest rock.......... and she won....... and he saved the rock she found...... #THAT'S. AAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #you cannot fucking IMAGINE gustav doing that. and yet. in another time. he did. and that's who henriette fell in love with #and that's who herniette still sees. and she's not fucking wrong for it. not entirely. he still has that fucking rock. #dude i'm gonna be sick. #fe gustav #fe henriette #sharena #fe tina #fe alfonse #he's. mentioned. might as well tag him LMFAO

[allycat75]

Flashback Friday: This gives me "Maniacal Tom Cruise, jumping on Oprah's Couch" vibes.

Remember way back at the first forced con where he said those unforgettable words "Go Portugal!"?

If you look closely, you can see part of his soul leaving out the back door, doing its best Irish goodbye. 👋

#liars suck! #ai in human form #brian wilson vibes #i hate manipulation #i don't like hypocrites #coward #get some super serious help #do better #you are the company you keep #That can't be just pot? #May is Mental Health Awareness month #who are you #is this who you want to be? #Do you even know anymore? #Do you care? #Goddammit Boston Dumb Fuck- STOP DIGGING!

[calamitaswrath]

Uh, hey. Question for any enbies that are primarily or exclusively attracted to one gender. How exactly do you define or decide for yourself whether you consider yourself straight or gay? Does it just come down to your own agab, or is there something else to it?

#shut up cal you fool #- #-- #--- #---- #source: I keep admitting to myself that I guess I wanna be more feminine #but am pretty certain that I don't want to transition or anything #yet at the same time I keep going back to the thought of #if I *am* or want to *be* more feminine than masculine #what does that mean for my sexuality? #like in the end it's all just reductive labels that try to describe the absurd complexity of the human experience #but the idea that even thinking about the fact that using the term lesbian for me might not be entirely off just got me all ????? #and not in the 'oh no I can't be gay sense' #but more so the 'what even am I anymore' sense