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cherrydreamer · 2 years

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(TW: The Billy/Karen thing, implied domestic violence) Billy doesn't know why he says it. Why he even mentioned it. Why he couldn't keep it in any longer. All he knows is that Karen Wheeler had made some passive aggressive remark to Joyce earlier that day, something about Jonathan being a 'quirky' choice for Nancy after Steve, and that Joyce hasn't stopped grumbling about it since.

“Quirky? I’ll show her quirky! Jonathan’s smart, and he’s kind and he’s got so much potential. That’s what she means. And that’s what Nancy likes.” and "How dare she say that about my boy? Jonathan's a good kid. He treats Nancy well. She should be happy they found each other!" and “Quirky? I can’t...I know exactly what she was trying to say. She thinks he’s not good enough. Well he’ll show her. My boy’s going to do such amazing things.”

And Billy's gets it. Kind of. He can see why Joyce is upset. But it still grates on him, the way she's so protective over Jonathan when he isn't even here to appreciate it; how she just won't shut up about it, even though Jonathan didn't even hear the comment and he probably wouldn't even be bothered by it if he did, and it's not like he can deny it, 'cause any idiot with eyes can see that of course Steve is the better choice- with that hair and those eyes and those chocolate chip moles everywhere and those jeans that fit just right and that smile that's like sunshine and a laugh that makes Billy want to laugh along too. How would anyone not choose him? Who would be dumb enough to ever trade that away? Who wouldn't want Steve?

Billy's not gonna think too hard on that. Not right now.

But Joyce keeps on bringing it up. She just won't stop ranting on about her perfect son and how wonderful he is and how proud she is of him and how she's so angry- actually, legitimately driven to fury- just because someone dared to say a bad word about her kid. Just words. Words Jonathan didn't even hear. Words he'll never hear, because Joyce is dead set on protecting him from any tiny, little, insignificant thing that might hurt his fucking feelings. Because he's her boy.

And it all builds and builds. All of it bubbling up inside of Billy, all the frustration and longing and petty jealousy churning inside him until it all comes out, sour and acidic on his tongue, "Yeah, well, least you don't have to worry about her wanting to fuck him."

He doesn't shout it. Doesn't even raise his voice. He just mutters it under his breath, more of a hiss than anything, but somehow it's enough that Joyce freezes at the sink, arms still submerged in the soapy water, and then turns to look at him, eyes wide with shock.

"What do you mean?" Joyce asks, "Billy?"

She grimaces, "What…huh…why? Why would you say that? That's not funny."

"No." Billy suddenly feels small. The churning in his gut is still there, but now it's mixing with a prickly surge of shame, "No, I know…I don't…I shouldn't have said-"

He's shaking. His voice is weird. Watery. Thick. And the words feel sticky and heavy as they push past the lump in his throat.

"Billy?" Joyce is coming over now, wiping her sudsy hands on her jeans, "Honey? What's wrong?"

"Nothing. It was…bad joke. Just a really bad joke. I'm sorry."

"No," Joyce shakes her head, kneeling down beside Billy's chair, "No, honey, it's OK. But is there… Billy? Is there something you want to tell me?"

No.

The answer comes without thinking. Billy doesn't want to say anything, not really. But, then again, he knows Joyce. He's told her things before, things he never told anyone. And she helped with those. Made him feel better. Less alone. Less wrong.

So maybe. Yes.

"Mrs. Wheeler," he manages, "She, uh, before everything…" Billy ducks his head, feeling almost sick with the revelation, "We were, uh…she wanted…" He can't think of any other way to say it. There's no point trying to dress it up in anything it isn't. "I was going to…to sleep with her."

And if he wasn't feeling so panicked, Billy might've laughed at the look of horror on Joyce's face, the way her eyes go wide and her jaw drops. The way she gasps, hands flying up to her face like some shitty actress in a terrible soap opera before turning to Hopper to gauge his reaction, "Hopper?"

"Karen Wheeler, huh?" Hop lets out a wry chuckle, raising his can of beer in Billy's direction, "Nice work, son." He hums appreciatively but his smile drops as soon as he sees the fury on Joyce's face.

"What?" He tries to argue, holding up his hands, "She's a good looking woman, Joyce. I've got eyes, OK? The kid did good. You don't have to be-"

"She's a grown woman," Joyce's voice is low. Dangerous. It's the angriest Billy's heard her and it puts him on edge, "An adult. And Billy’s a kid. It's like if you started sniffing around after Nancy. Or if Ted got his hands all over Jane."

Hopper flinches at that, then his face goes hard, "Don't say that," he hisses.

"Why not?” Joyce stands up and gives an exaggerated shrug, “It's the same thing, isn’t it? Or would you be happier if he waited until after her senior prom?"

"That's enough, Joyce," Hopper warns, and Billy can see the set of his jaw. The red flush working its way up his face. He hears the sound of the beer can crumpling underneath Hopper's fingers. Billy stops breathing. He silently wills Joyce to stop talking. To listen. To finally shut up.

But he knows Joyce, so he isn't surprised when she doesn't.

"What about her eighteenth birthday?" Joyce says casually, waving a hand in the air, "Would that be better? It's legal, that's all that matters, right? And he's a good guy with a good job, after all." Her tone turns bitter again. "Would you say 'nice work' to Jane too?"

"I said that's enough!"

Hopper's hand thumps on the table, sending the beer can flying, and Billy flies up from his seat, knocking his chair back in his haste to round the table and put himself directly in between Jim and Joyce. He's alert now, tracking Hopper's every movement, eyes flicking between his expression and his clenched fist.

He widens his stance, feet planted firmly. His own hands curl tightly,

"No," Billy growls. His heart is hammering fit to burst, and he knows he's shaking like a leaf, but he stares Hopper down regardless, "No. No. You don't touch her. You won't hurt her. I started this, it's my fault."

Behind him, Joyce is saying something, but Billy doesn't turn around. He doesn’t even move when he feels Joyce’s hand on his arm, gently trying to pull him back. "Oh, Billy, oh no." Joyce whispers. She sounds pained and then her voice turns quiet and gentle, lacking any trace of the venom from before, “You don’t have to do that, honey. That’s not what's happening. I’m sorry, sweetheart, I’m sorry.”

“Yeah,” Hopper mutters gruffly, “Sorry, kid. I wasn't thinking. And I get it now. Karen, she, uh, she shouldn't have done that. Gone along with it or whatever. It wasn't right."

The tension hasn't exactly diffused, but Hopper's hand is unclenched now, so Billy walks past him, keeping his distance, and goes to finish washing the dishes that Joyce left soaking in the sink.

He hears Hopper mumbling something, an excuse, and then he hears him leave, and a moment later Joyce appears back by Billy's side, wringing a damp dish towel in her hands. For a while neither of them say anything. They work together, Billy washes and Joyce dries, stacking the plates haphazardly on the side, and there's no sound but the splash of water and the clack of crockery to fill the air. And then Billy starts to talk. And he tells Joyce everything.

*** Billy should've known it would happen eventually. He knows Karen has started coming around more, wheedling Joyce about Jonathan and his future plans and whether there's been any hint of wedding bells and whether he knows that it's customary to ask Nancy's father before he proposes and how would Joyce feel about a church wedding, because of the divorce and-

That's normally when Joyce changes the subject. But Billy knew that this time would be different. That Joyce wouldn't play along with all the small talk with a fake smile on her face and an equally fake little laugh. He knows Joyce. He knows she's going to say something about…it. About him. And he also knows that he shouldn't be listening. But he can't help it.

Because Joyce's voice is low, but the fury in it carries through the walls, and if Billy had thought that Joyce sounded dangerous before, it's nothing compared to this. He can't quite catch all she's saying, but he picks up a few things, key phrases ringing in his ear like,

"You're old enough to be his mother." and "He's practically a kid, Karen. He's Nancy's age." and "It doesn't matter what he did. Or what he said. You should know better." and "You were wrong."

Despite what he's expecting, Billy doesn't hear Joyce say a single bad word about him. All of her fury, her disgust, her condemnation is aimed squarely at Karen, and Billy creeps out of his room in time to see Karen seemingly wilting with the force of it, backing away from Joyce until she's standing in the doorway. And then Joyce delivers her final blow.

"You stay away from my boy, Karen Wheeler."

Karen opens her mouth to reply, but Joyce slams the door in her face, startling a little when she turns and spots Billy standing awkwardly in the hall.

"Oh, hey there," she smiles, but Billy can see the way her hands are trembling, "I'm sorry, I didn't know you were there. You OK? Should I make a start on lunch? Or maybe coffee? Coffee would be good, right? I should make some-"

"I'm your…?" Billy steps forward, trying to cut her off, stop her rambling, but his voice gives out. He almost daren't say it. But he wants to know. To be sure. He swallows and tries once more. "I'm your boy?"

His voice cracks on the last word and it takes Joyce a moment to understand what he means, but Billy sees the moment it dawns on her. The very second she remembers her words to Karen. Her strained smile grows into a big, bright one, so warm and full of love, and Billy finds himself being wrapped in her arms and surrounded by her love,

"Of course, sweetie. Yes of course you are. My boy. And I always look out for my boys."

#not harringrove #it's mentioned #ish #like pre Harringrove cause Billy's got a crush #but yeah this is pretty much all about billy #also i don't think hopper is a bad person #that's not meant to be in question at all #he never would've hurt joyce and she knows it #she knows his temper #and her words hit him hard #(as they were meant to)#but she was never in any danger #but of course billy didn't know that #cherrywrites

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queen-susans-revenge · 2 months

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Ever since finishing Journey I've been restless, without a creative focus, and without even many mundane demands since my kids are all in school now.

It's a real trip, by the way, going from a decade-plus spent as a 24/7 on call caregiver with barely the time to form a full coherent thought, to... a pampered housewife with few demands on her time.

I keep asking Sam if I should get a real job. Our "deal" -- which was only ever the deal that I proposed, and clung to, throughout those hard years when even being by myself in the shower felt like a snatched luxury...the deal was, that after the crunch was over, I'd get two years to write and market a novel.

Well. Journey took five years to write, and hasn't been sold yet. But it's still useful for me to be home and flexibly "on call" for childcare in case of illness or Sam having an out-of-town conference or whatever, and also I do still cook every night. I'm not entirely useless. Just...mostly.

One day not so long ago Sam came into the bathroom in the middle of the day, when I was having a luxurious candlelit bubble bath soak. "Should I...get a job?" I asked weakly.

"Nah," he said. "You're fine. You do plenty."

But I objectively do...not that much. I have SO MUCH time in the day now, I have hella time, and I'm not even writing. Journey is in the slush pile with Baen and I don't have a current project. I'm getting itchy and restless with it. It's like I'm retired at 47.

I don't have a conclusion for this. It's just where I am. It's not a bad place by any measure; no, I'm incredibly lucky. I've always been so fucking lucky.

#I don't even think it was ever my luck #I think it was Sol's #so I should not count on it going forward but I'm so glad he has it because he really needs it #and the thought that I'll be here for him so long as he needs me is very comforting so I'll continue to believe it #I know that I'm smart and I know that I'm a good writer but also I know that mostly I'm lucky #even back in college my bff called me a wild irish child with the luck of the fairies #it's obvious to anyone around me that I have poor judgment and worse impulse control and all the luck under heaven #I don't even believe in astrology or w/e but that one time I was in Seoul and a friend of my dad's paid for a star chart analysis #they were like 'well she's doing her best to kill herself but she won't succeed because the universe won't let her'#and I have to admit that has in fact been my experience #anyway yeah Sol is my fairy gift (conceived on Midsummer's Eve in a fertility ritual that was MEANT TO BE FOR MY GARDEN)#spill your seed on the fertile earth I said to Sam #no we won't use any other contraception bad for the magic I said #I don't think you get to call a child a surprise that's conceived in a midsummer fertility ritual in your backyard #but I MEANT IT FOR MY GARDEN #to be fair the tomatoes were great that year #and now I have a Strange son and I believe the luck was always for him

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bat-the-misfit · 10 months

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i only know two Ni doms irl but they're both driving me crazy

#internet people be like “oh ni doms are so mystical and clairvoyant” no they're not #lemme tell you what they are they're ANXIOUS #and they're making me ANXIOUS TOO #i love you ni doms but pls stop predicting your life in 20 years you could die tomorrow #i'm sorry but it's the truth the future holds so many possibilities that can ruin your “vIsIOn”#pls use your inferior Se once pls i beg you i promise you won't die if you live in the moment for 5 minutes #“Bat you don't use Se you can't complain about them” i know but at least i can switch between my Ne and my Si sometimes #one of them (INTJ) says EVERY SINGLE DAY: “i'm gonna do this i'm gonna do that and i also have this project for next month and-”#but he never does anything which translates to “what the hell happened to his Te?”#his Ni must want to choke his Te #and then there's my mother (INFJ) who not only keeps telling everyone what she's gonna do ignoring the fact that Stuff Happens (inf Pe agai #but whenever smth bad happens she always think it's “meant to be” and “part of the process of people's soul growth”#i vent to her and she's like “this is what g0d chose to you as a mission for your soul to evolve"#no wonder jesus was an INFJ as well their Ni-Fe is so pUrPOsE oF LIfE #mom i just wanted to tell you my day sucks idc about my mission on earth i just wanted you to comfort me #i know we all should be kind and avoid being superficial but sometimes shit happens and it's not bc of our spiritual growth or whatever #sometimes life sucks and we don't learn anything with that and sometimes we have to be mean with people #bc they suck or bc they're mean to us #well aNYWAY #tio morcego tá azedo #every cognitive function is amazing on their own way but each one of them will drive you crazy #there's no better type or function: everyone will drive you crazy #today i'm pissed with ni doms tomorrow i could be pissed with se doms which are their opposite types so who knows?#you can't escape it you will want to choke people of all types #if you only hate one or a few types only you're not studying mbti right you have to be pissed off with all types #same with the opposite if you only like one or a few types you're not studying mbti right #you have to love every type with a passion that no one can explain #if you don't get why a type is so special and so annoying at the same type you're not studying mbti right #i just complained about ni doms but i could write why i also love them in two minutes after i post this #ok i'll stop now i'm rambling too much

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bumblingbabooshka · 6 months

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'Parturition' is so brave for being the yaoi ship trope episode of Voyager. "Neelix and Tom Paris had a physical.....fight." Also continuing Tom's beautiful habit of loving both infidelity and child abandonment with all his heart. Also, wonderful out of context quote: "I had no right to push that pasta in your lap."

#Also I forgot about the Tom/Kes stuff in early seasons #You know what? I think Kes can flirt. Disaster as a real couple/ship but I do believe they'd do some going-nowhere flirting #post Neelix breakup. Also once again Kes SHOULD have been able to ADVENTURE more!!!#Tom's true wife is a beautiful woman named infidelity and he loves her more than anything except Harry Kim #Tom: (bothered & horny) Play the clarinet Harry.#Harry has a really cozy couch setup btw #OH ??? I sthis a thing???#In two different episodes now Harry's said 'there's an old chinese expression...' <- was that something they were trying out??#Thank God it didn't stick.#Harry: You keep setting yourself up for rejection. You must like playing the part. / Tom: Don't knock it 'till you've tried it.#<- Sound of a nail being hit squarely on the head...Harry's so handsome #YEEEAAAAH THE GIRLS ARE FIIIIIGHTIIIIIINGGGGG!!!!#Neelix being so possessive of Kes is obviously bad but him just out of nowhere insulting and tossing pasta on Tom IS very fun and good #removed from context. Tom: -eating. doing nothing- / Neelix: You fucking lowlife asshole. =_=#SNRKAHAHHAAH 'I'LL KILL YOU!!!!' CARTOON ROLLING AROUND ON THE TABLES~!!?!??#I like how this is a fight but NOT serious at all....they are looney tunesing it #Even the background crew are like...smiling & laughing. This is so funny <3 #The doctor would love if two men fought over him. He'd be concerned and tell them to stop but he'd secretly love it I know him I know this.#'How delightful!' indeed. Kes' green & black outfit in this episode is really pretty! Also she & the doctor's banter is nice~!#'That's not funny!' / 'It's not meant to be. You LOVE autopsies?' and her laughing at him saying 'then your world must have very dry lit.'#Also love the doc's ultimate advice of 'It's not your problem' bc it's not~!! Yaoi sin planet with cure what ails em #NEELIX SAID TECHNOBABBLE!!!! HE SAID THE LINE!!!!#Tom: I'm picking up caves west of here. / Neelix: Yaaay. <3 <- negative. sarcastic. hateful.#YEEEEAAAAAAHHHH DINO PUPPET BABYYYY!!!!!#Janeway: Tuvok can you do X? / Tuvok: (preening) I have anticipated your request Captain. / Chakotay: =_=#Tom: The baby's shivering...that's normal right?? <- Yeah Tom <3 It's so normal <3 You're gonna be a great dad <3 #Also Neelix just smiling earnestly at being called Godmother...-raises brow-#Neelix & Tom: Kes - Captain - we've worked out our differences! We had a baby <3

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cornertheculprit · 1 year

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something i think is equal parts funny and sad is that in the bad ending of 2-4 phoenix says that he never sees maya again, and then goes on to say that a few days later is when he hears the results of adrian andrews' trial. like if you look at the phrasing it seems to imply that he hit the streets the minute he left the courthouse and didn't see maya for 0.2 seconds and then was like "i'll never see her again" because she didn't magically show up in front of him and then started avoiding him to obviously deal with the fallout of an innocent person getting convicted for her sake. it's mostly sad though.

#maybe it's my own brain talking but i don't think maya would have stayed away forever. she knows what being left behind is like too well #for that. and besides when godot ended up killing her own mother (who was Also innocent) for her sake she still said she believed in him #yes they're two different situations and should be viewed as such i'll acknowledge that. however.#for better or for worse. i think maya would come back eventually.#of course the state she would find phoenix in depends on how literal he meant his whole 'chooses death' thing #because again. while there is evidence in canon suggested that edgeworth never meant it That Way and that #phoenix and franziska on some level Knew That... there is no such evidence concerning phoenix. and he is in such a bad place #in the bad ending of 2-4. he's wandering the streets alone. he's given up on 'miracles' and most importantly of all #Maya Is Gone. he saved her life but lost HER. and everything combined is enough for him to do something drastic i think #but that's just me musing. who knows!!!!

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datastate · 10 months

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shin would apologize for his bed being a mess even if it’s overall fine, meanwhile keiji’s out here like “hey, let’s uh. keep this in the hallway alright? maybe find a nice, grassy spot to talk this out...” and then when he moves out of the doorway to close his apartment door you’re briefly face-to-face with the fact that he. needs severe help.

#he doesn't hoard things but what he does have just... isn't organized #he isn't the sort who deals with nasty food or what have you scattered around the place; it's more of a... why do you have a lightbulb on #the floor sir. -> ''oh. that. huh. must've been a ghost.'' (voice of someone who was having terrible hallucinations)#(in the midst of trying to replace a dull bulb and just gave up even though he knows he might get glass in his foot)#and then of course just. a corner for his pile of bedsheets & towels... papers strewn about his main living area. his dishwasher is always #full of shit and he never has the energy to put the clean dishes anywhere but the spare counterspace #which means he has to prepare his food on the main coffee table #and so you see like. spice and flour or emptied cans there #it's just... idk. i think a lot abt the characters' living spaces and his makes me especially sad #esp knowing his mother's probably in a. similar position w the lack of motivation to do upkeep w/o (young) keiji's health at stake #& the whole... setting an example thing (where even then she feels she failed) - certainly not as bad as him. but...#they're definitely predisposed to. depression lol. it's simply the poor man's life #jestersvaguely #yttdposting #god. what am i doing talking abt keiji fucking shinogi. rubs my face. i don't care much for this guy & i just meant to get up to draw #+ get pain medicine & then go back to bed...

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maddy-ferguson · 5 days

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fun fact about me: i'm insecure about so many random things that i've never flipped anyone off in my 22 years of life because i think my middle finger looks awkward and ugly by itself

#and like i say: brf slt #i felt like this especially when i would have been likely to do it semi-regularly like in middle school. but like i was thinking about this #the other day and i did it in front of a mirror just to check and it looked as bad as i remember like it's just not for me #i have a story abour middle fingers though or just about what one would call the finger #when i was in what an american would call the 5th grade (i can never do when i was x years old because it's not an accurate representation #of the class i was in since i skipped a grade and the grade is what matters more to me. when i was 9 and my friends were 10 i was saying)#we would always play this game called girls catch guys or guys catch girls where the girls would run after the guys and like tap them on #the shoulder and then they would go to prison and they would line up and another guy could set them free by like touching one of the #prisoners it was a very fun game except it's way more fun to be like the ones getting caught than to be the ones catching and we would #ALWAYS play girls catching guys and it was very unfair we would be like okay in the morning we do guys catching girls in the afternoon #girls catching guys so it's fair like normal system but the guys NEVER wanted to do it (and we would always give in because like we still #wanted to play ig and idk guys. female socialization) they never wanted to be the ones doing the catching it was so unfair because we also #didn't like it as much and we did it all the time?#and i remember this one morning we were fighting about this we had literally all agreed that it was fair this way but they didn't want to #do it and my second best male friend flipped me and my best (female) friend off and (very #important detail) he did it with both of his hands so like two middle fingers and i don't know why because i'm not even sure that that's a #thing but one middle finger meant fuck you and two middle fingers meant go fuck yourself and to us that was very different? and i remember #my friend and i we like knew what it meant but for some reason we were like. he did do the one finger before doing the two does this mean #he...loves us because it literally means he wants to have sex with us #but what's funny is we never talked to him again after that and i don't even know why that was our last straw because i remember i #genuinely liked him before that like i said he was my second best male friend! so like maybe sixth best friend overall that's not bad #and he's not the only guy friend who flipped us off that year like it was so random to stop talking to him after that😭#like he was an actual enemy we really did not like him we talked about him in letters we'd give each other using a nickname etc #and what's even funnier is in our last year of middle schoold FOUR YEARS AFTER THIS a friend of a friend told him he should become friends #with well my friend and he was like hm i don't think so have you seen who she hangs out with? marianne *last name* like why do YOU hate #me😭 it was so funny like wdym it was mutual this whole time. i had literally moved on by then i didn't even care about hating him #anymore like wow...i think he's the only person i hated who actually hated me back

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ninja-knox-ur-sox-off · 2 years

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not anon but i'm so curious about your theory that misako could be the next biggest villain-- i read it and went oh this is gonna be good

I didn't say she was a villain, only that she could be

Alright, since y’all jumped on this bGKL;MAWEF

Disclaimer (because I know there’s been some Misako discourse): I’m not saying this is canon. I just think her character as she is presented now would be much more intresting as a more villain leaning character. I can easily rationalize a good Misako and just brush off a lot of it as bad writing, but this is a lot more fun lol.

Ninjago is just... poorly written. Which, honestly makes sense, they didn't really know the series would keep going this long, and any show's characters and character development is repeated, watered down and re-written after fifteen--sixteen seasons. So a lot of stuff they do is just, drenched in biases, there's a lot of racism and sexism and it's just :T We all know this, so honestly, you could look at Misako's character and just say "oh this was just bad writing" or "they made her this way cause of this n that" which, eh, u can rationalize, she could be a cool good character, if it weren't for... the way they wrote her. Because the way she is she just seems like... a bit of a jerk and a bad mom. Classic not great character. But if you said she was a villain suddenly her behaviour makes a lot more sense. And she actually starts to get interesting.

Misako, finds the sons of the first Spinjitzu Master. Sure, you could say she saw some good people but isn’t it that much more intresting to say she saw powerful people? What’s more is these two immensely powerful people were in love with her.

Seriously she’s just more interesting as a villain, so I’m gonna lean into that a bit in this post.

So. Misako is smart. She’s clever and beautiful and skilled and she finds the Sons of the First Spinjitzu Master. Whatever her original plan was, if she even had one, falls apart because they fall in love with her.

And what a pick to have, two of th emost powerful people in Ninjago would die for her, all she need do is choose. She receives a letter in Wu’s handwriting, signed by Garmadon and isn’t that amusing. Garmadon is more powerful, he’s training under Chen, Wu is devoted but he’s too self righteous. And if her child will inherit their elemental power, what better one than that of destrction for her to guide and direct to use correctly? Besides. Where Garmadon would lash out in bitterness and cut her off, Wu will remain devoted to her regardless of who she chooses.

She chooses Garmadon, and Wu remains by their sides, as expected. Supportive and respectful of their choice. She doesn’t expect Garmadon to last long the way the venom is overtaking him. His eyes grow more red and his skin paler every day. What she does not expect is for Wu to defeat him so easily.

She takes her son, but she knows Garmadon is not dead because of the prophocy of the Green Ninja she hears. And she knows immediately who the Green Ninja will be, no one else could be powerful enough to defeat a son of the First Spinjitzu Master save one with greater power. Her son will be more powerful than Garmadon or Wu could ever hope to be.

Drops him on the steps of a school that will beat the kindness out of him, that will take what will make him the green ninja and crush it under cruel words and horrible treatment, and ensure it that the only love he will ever know is hers, and then leaves him there until he’s ready for her to return to and rescue.

Only she doesn’t account for the Ninja and Wu finding him.

He’s not what she wanted. He’s seen kindness from them and it throws a wrench. But as she desired, he is still endlessly devoted to her, so it will have to do. He welcomes her with open arms, because, how could he not? She’s an angel compared to what he has seen.

Wu as well, remains devoted.

Choas comes but she has no fear because she knows the most powerful ones in the room would die for her. And she is hardly helpless either.

She gives Wu a glimmer of hope that something between them remains and he clings to it. It’s pathetic really, but entertaining in the meantime.

The prophesy is fulfilled, not in they way any of them expected and Garmadon survives, none of the evil in him. Unfortunate, if he truly died her son would have his Elemental power as well. She stays with him for appearances, and she has grown quite fond of him, but eventually he is too good, not unlike Wu and confesses things that throw a wrench and she must fake idiocy. Of course she’d known. How could she not? She’d known them for years, known the way Wu curled his letters in a way Garmadon did not.

Garmadon dies, and she welcomes Wu with open arms to comfort and to keep him reliant. She keeps her distance from her son, for he is growing far to wise and mistrustful and she must play the part of a mother looking to repair the relationship between them still. She gives him words of wisdom, clearer than Wu and closer to what he wants to hear.

OKAY ANYWAYS, I DUNNO I THINK SHE’D JUST BE A HECKA NEAT VILLAIN, AND THE REVEAL WOULD LIKE, CRUSH LLOYD AND WU. COULD YOU IMAGINE??

Anyway, just a dumb little thought I have. She could be a great good character, but and even greater evil character ngl. If I ever write her like that though, it would defiately be the focus of a whole fic or a fan-season lol gbdsfm;aowef

#knox rambles #Misako #Ninjago #Villain!Misako #LEGO Ninjago #sorry meant to get this out yesterday but i had no writing braincells activated so a little late but HERE YA GO #asks #I don't even know if this makes any sense rn my brain is scattered but I DUNNO I THINK SHE'D MAKE A NEAT VILLAIN WHO'S SMART ENOUGH TO PLAY #THE LONG GAME #BREAKDANCES #she seems scarily competent at times but everything she does seem sporadic #which is bad writing #or i could say she's got evil schemes and it's much better #gbnm;oawefiaw #my brain wouldn't let me give a coherent analysis so you get an almost fic instead to illistraight my thinking #ur welcome #bG;MAWEOF

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Gonna get spicy for a second and say that everyone loves spewing hate about narcissistic (NPD) parents and how awful parents with personality disorders are, but if someone were to make a post with the exact same cadence about ADHD parents they'd get shot in public at first sight

#rambling #Lemme clarify and extend my point here (cos I feel ppl could really misinterpret this one)#Am I saying people should just accept the abuse of parents if said parents have a personality disorder? No #Am I saying people with ADHD parents have it worse or that both experiences are comparable and exactly the same? No #What I'm saying is that ppl are much more eager to call out abusive or neglectful behaviour from ppl w personality disorders bc #they're seen as 'scary' or 'monstrous' and inherently evil so they have no qualms going full force at it. They think -pd ppl are the devil #But adhd in ppl's general views could never be the source of such pain from a parent to a child; ADHD ppl are seen as childish #and harmless and clueless and silly and tbh a bit stupid. Besides they could never hurt a 'monster' by jumping the gun at -pd ppl right?#'normal people don't have personality disorders so this can't affect me! But normal people can have adhd!'#That's the core of my complaint: one is dehumanised as a destructive monster; the other is as an innocent victim child #And both (parent w -pd & w adhd) can be pretty bad in their own uniqie ways! But such a thing is never considered - for the #societal construct of the child - that neurodivergencies get pushed into - is of an untainted pure inherently clueless being below human #From my exp and the exp of other friends lemme say: having an adhd parent can suck so much ass! Lol #I grew up with two opposing ideals troubling my mind: my mothers obvious overwhelming love; and the shadow her constant absence cast #She loved me so much and did as much as she could; but constantly forgot about my care and my needs and made rash choices #I think about that more and more as i age; especially as i go to doctors over and over for problems i have had since forever #It is an awful feeling to have sink in your heart: how a parent's love isn't enough; how 'maturing quick' isn't a blessing but a curse #As i grew i stopped telling my mom about my needs my school things and my life bc i got used to her forgetfulness and lack of organisation #It meant irregular eating schedules & inadequate meals. In 5th grade I'd eat table scraps at school cos my mom couldn't remember #how I'd tell her over and over that the food had to be in a specific way or it'd get burnt in the school's oven #I'd go to the 'first' dr appointment to deal w an ongoing problem & then she'd forget to schedule the following ones #You get the idea #Kind of a weird post w a strange framing device but I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Smth triggered this thought last night #I'll also never forget a few months ago when i went go a specialist for my hEDS - told her I've known all my life but never got treatment #Also just. The crushing feeling of the dr saying ''you should've gotten your own med team to work ur case since u were young!'#And just. silently nodding & wanting to cry feeling validated but also so hurt looking @ the obvious neglect #Anyways hey how did this therapy session go Doctor

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ASKING U ABT CIRI WITCHERS BOOKS? TELL ME MORE

OK SO. the fun thing about the witcher books is that they were written by a Man In The 80s. so you have moments where it's like. oh how unexpectedly progressive of you!!! (very cool pro choice scene) and other moments where it was very much Written By A Man In The 80s. so. miss cirilla fiona elen riannon is actually a PERFECT example of this duality because she is fundamentally a joint main protag like this series is just as much about her journey as it is about geralt's and she's a teenage girl written with a lot of depth and care and compassion. and also sometimes it's just fucking weird. like this series encompasses a large span of time so while she starts the series at like. 12. a large portion of her story happens at like. the 15 to 16 range. so there's like. the occasional weird shit and then there's generally too many. threats of sexual violence against her like I cannot overstate that. a main plot point is that elves want to impregnate her because she has special elven heritage or something idfk I need to reread. BUT. MOST MEMORABLE OFFENSE IN MY MIND. IS THE FACT SHE'S CANONICALLY SAPPHIC (yay) AND IT'S WRITTEN FUCKING WEIRD (nooo) SO. there's an arc where she gets separated from geralt for awhile and he's trying to find her (with a fun little found family btw. while she's like. having the greatest suffering of her fucking life and she's ALREADY lost her grandmother to war and fire atp) and it's the first time she's truly been on her own. she's 15 she's been hanging with him since she was 12 he's been her gruff dad for several years now. so this ends up as kind of a very dark point in her life she first has to survive through this desert and then she gets attacked by bandits??? I think??? older men though which is the main threat. and she's captured and scared and then!! she gets rescued by this teenaged bandit group and this is where it's a dark point in her life bc they are a very toxic friend group for her it's not good these aren't really like. moral bandits like overall her time with them isn't great for her BUT. the first night she stays with them one of the boys in the group tries to assualt her. gently of course. 🙄 but the other girl in the group, (I REMEMBER THIS BITCH'S NAME. FUCKING MISTLE) runs him off but then she ALSO makes sexual advances on ciri SHE LITERALLY DOES THE SAME THING THE BOY DID and CIRI GOES WITH IT BUT IT'S LIKE. THERE'S NO ENTHUSIASTIC CONSENT HERE OR ANYTHING SHE'S UNCOMFORTABLE SHE'S NOT READY I THINK SHE CRIES HANG ON IT'S REALLY BAD LEMME SEE IF I CAN FIND IT LIKE I CAN'T OVERSTATE THIS ENOUGH IT'S TEXTUALLY SEXUAL ASSAULT

look at this shit.

"but rori," you may say, "this is awful, but why point to this as canon sapphicness? rape is not representation" and you are RIGHT. SO TRUEEE. unfortunately. ciri continues to date this bitch. they have an extended romantic relationship for months. or longer. while ciri rides around with them harassing random villages. SO. CIRI'S ONLY CANONICAL SAPPHIC RELATIONSHIP. WHICH IS MEANT TO BE HER BEING SAPPHIC BTW BC THE AUTHOR SAID SOME SHIT IN AN INTERVIEW OR SMTH ABOUT WANTING TO GO AGAINST STEREOTYPES OR WHATEVER WHERE THE PRINCESS ALWAYS ENDS UP WITH SOME MAN. KEEP THAT IN MIND BTW IT'LL BE RELEVANT AGAIN. BUT ANYWAY. ONLY CANONICAL SAPPHIC RELATIONSHIP AND CANONICAL EVIDENCE OF CIRI BEING SAPPHIC AND IT'S. IT'S FUCKING. IT FUCKING STARTS WITH A RAPE. ANDRZEJ SAPOWSKI I WILL KILL YOU

and then. AND THEN. even better. actually objectively a better situation than this one but it sours it further to me. so she's like? technically bisexual I think? in the sense that she has a female "love interest" and later a male one. but it's just. it's not anything specific but the way it's written is just like. it feels more like he wrote her as a lesbian and then just changed his mind at the last book. because the final book is her telling this man she meets about the shit she went through (this is well after mistle btw like I think it's been a few years) and then they like. leave somewhere together at the end of the book? and it's not really romantic but it simultaneously reads like maybe it's supposed to be (AND OH HEY REMEMBER THAT BIT ABOUT NOT WANTING THE TROPEY ENDING FOR THE PRINCESS WHERE SHE ENDS UP WITH A MAN??) and if yes then it's weird as bisexuality rep because it actually just reads like he wrote her as a lesbian during the worst time in her life and then after she got better and got through it her happy ending is with a man. so. bit weird bit odd. and then the game witcher 3 gives you the option to say she's not in to guys. but also the option to romance a guy. so who even knows. ciri's possible lesbianism/bisexuality is the sexuality schroedingers cat. lmao

#she's bi in the same way piper pjo is where like. ok you're telling me she's been romantically involved with both a man and a woman #which is generally the sign a character is meant as bi if the author doesn't give them a label. AND YET #you have written this bi woman like she's actually a lesbian somehow #genuinely and unironically liking these books sucks so bad. I'm killing myself #yes I was on here months ago defending yennefer as a character. yes I think the netflix adaptation is awful yes I like these books #but no I don't #anyway. erm. ciri bi lesbian rights I fucking guess??????? wth #ask #gloomybirdie #hi gloomy!

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