#i do appreciate it but i really do not like working w pencils

[britneyshakespeare]

I like drawing ppl's faces in charcoal bc it's like you caress them very gently until all their dimensions are there. Teehee so intimate so tender

#tales from diana #forgive me father but i have purchased art supplies from temu......... #it's just charcoal i just bought sticks of willow charcoal #and i only did it bc someone in my family lost my box of charcoal >:( #my mom got me charcoal pencils for xmas but i genuinely do not think she is aware that that is Not what i needed #i do appreciate it but i really do not like working w pencils #pencils require precision. which i do not have #i wanna do more drawings. i wanna draw brian protheroe again #but maybe half-decent again #all i can think of that i wanna draw is shakespearean actors. old movie stars. and my friends and family #but should i want to draw anything else? #yes. toys. #ive lost touch with my doll-and-stuffed-animal-drawing roots

[maxidentscene]

little things you did to make them big softies

⚘ genre. fluff

⚘ members. ot8

chan appreciates the way you care for him when he cries

It’s hard, doing what he has to do. The responsibility is a lot and some days that’s just hard to hide. You only continue sipping on your drink and watching the dumb cartoon on tv as Chan sniffles beside you

He watches you get up, shooting you a sad smile when you toss a box of tissues his way. He expected you to pry, to point out that he’s being vulnerable, to ask him why he’s crying like other people would

But you don’t. You sit there, cuddling into his side as it shakes, scraping your nails against his stomach softly in a way that can tell him that you’re right there

“Don’t you wanna know?” He asks with a crack in his voice, dabbing the corners of his eyes with the tissues and figuring you may at least want an explanation

Your simple answer of ‘no’ sends a frenzy of butterflies off in his stomach, hearts practically in his eyes as he looks down at you, silently thanking you in his head for letting him be the happy and sad sides of himself with you

lee know puts his claws away whenever you warm up a towel for him after his showers

It’s extremely simple, maybe as simple as it could get yet it speaks volumes. You find it as second nature by now to throw a towel in the dryer for a few minutes so that it’s nice and warm for Minho after a shower or lower body bath

Not a lot of things can make him soft, it takes some digging but this is one of the things that really make the tips of his ears turn bright red. It’s endearing, your thoughtfulness is something that he’s never experienced from anyone else before and it feels so good

“How was your shower?” You’re quick to hop onto the bed next to him where he’s sitting, towel now around his neck to catch the droplets from his damp hair. He mindlessly pulls you into his side, keeping his hand at your hip as he watches the tv

“Good,” he mumbles so low it’s almost unheard, but you smile nonetheless, pleased with his answer. “You…” he’s finding the words to say, nervousness making him bite his lip, eyes looking at the ceiling as he thinks. “You don’t have to warm up my towels if you don’t want to.”

You only roll your eyes, resting your head on his shoulder. “Don’t lie to my face like that,” you tease, not surprised to hear him make a sound of disapproval. “You love it. You love it so much that I just have to keep doing it.”

changbin physically can’t hide how much he adores you when you massage his body after a workout

Exercise can be hard on the body depending on what you’re doing and it’s always better to care for the muscles before and after hard work. Knowing this, you’re always more than happy to meet Changbin after a shower and have him lay out for you

“Don’t you ever get tired of this?” He peers at you behind his shoulder, enjoying the feeling of you kneading his shoulders and back. You stop suddenly and land a soft smack on his side

“Get tired of what?” You ask with a defensive tone, moving down to massage his hips, working out all of the tension that the exercise brought on. “Taking care of you?”

He can’t win, so he won’t try. Instead he brushes the topic off, pushing his face into the pillow in front of him to hide the lovesick smile plastered on his face. Sure, it will never be admitted, but he loves this. He looks forward to this

It’s so touching that you worry about his health to this extent, enough to help him ease the post workout knots and soreness. You were a gem, you were an angel in his eyes and he’s forever grateful to be under your care

hyunjin melts while looking at the newly bought pencils that he’s been wanting for ages on his desk

He had to do a double take, pinching himself just to make sure it wasn’t a dream. Were those what he thought they were? Where did they come from?

Of course, he could’ve gotten them for himself, but you knew he wasn’t going to. Hyunjin hadn’t gone a single day for the past week without gushing over a specific pack of pencils he discovered on YouTube, eyes glittering as he watched them in use

“Oh! You don’t like them?” You joked as you walked up beside him, wrapping your arm around his. He jumped and tripped over his words, explaining that he loves them, that he loves you and you could only laugh. “Gosh, not even a thank you?”

He stopped rambling altogether, standing still and absolutely dumbfounded, his body suddenly becoming all warm and fuzzy. It was hard to hold back his smile, so he didn’t

“You’re insane,” he was on cloud nine, he felt that he could laugh so hard that he’d faint, the happiness that you gave him was irreplaceable and he loved that

han finds himself at a loss of words when you pull all nighters with him

With his schedule and just his sleep patterns in general, he often finds himself up at later times than he’d like. Whether it be by personal choice or work, he’s going to sleep sometime in the early morning

This already takes a bit of a toll on him because while he’s awake, everyone else around him is asleep or busy with their own things. It leaves him alone, which can be both a good or bad thing for him depending on the day

Not you though. You know how he feels, you know when he needs someone else with him in the late hours of the night, so you try your absolute hardest to stay up with him, which could be easy or hard for you

Either way, he finds it totally endearing. “I wish you’d stop sacrificing your beauty sleep for me,” he laughs at his own words, facing you on the bed and stroking your cheek with his fingers. “Don’t harm yourself on my behalf.”

You only shake your head, going back to the game on your phone, tilting it to the side so he could watch it too. “It just means we get to spend more time together.” Those words made his heart swell and his smile brighter

felix felt his eyes sting when you cooked up one of his family’s recipes

It’s no secret that he’s homesick, it breaks your heart to watch him smile fondly at family social media posts and listen to all of his fun memories in Australia. You have the unbearable urge to help ease the pain just a little

That being said, you’re thrilled once his mother responds to you, sending over one of his favorite homemade recipes because you asked. Tonight would be a special dinner

You had waited until he left for the day to start preparing, getting to work and following carefully step by step. It wouldn’t be hers but you hoped it could feel like a comforting hug from home when he ate it

“Wow,” he was rendered speechless, dropping his bag right where he stood in the doorframe, shock washing over him at the smell alone. He looked at you all teary eyed and you almost cried yourself. “This is what you’ve been doing all day? For me? Really?”

Felix’s arms wrapped you up in the biggest hug, you could feel his tears wet your shoulder but you didn’t say anything. He knew right then and there that he really did love you with his entire, gigantic heart

seungmin gets so flustered when you send compliments via text

On one hand, he would much prefer to hear your kind words in real life but his schedule doesn’t allow time for that. He finds it hard to spend actual quality time with you, even if that’s all he wants

But to receive constant words of encouragement and praise? You go out of your way to remind him why you love him, why you think he’s so so special every single day and it makes his heart flutter in his chest with every notification

Looking back through your texts is one of his favorite pastimes when he’s away from you. “I saw your performance, your voice just keeps getting better and better!” This isn’t something to boost his ego, this is something you’re saying from your heart to let him know that he’s doing good

It hurts him that he has to resort to social media to spend time with you lately, he’s only hoping to spend so much time with you when things are calmer. Seungmin will always accept your feedback with open arms and he can’t help but fall for you, managing to make him feel loved even if he’s countries away from you

Someday, he’ll be able to repay you for all of the strength your little messages have given him. There will never be a time where you’ll feel that the relationship is one sided and that’s a promise he’s made with himself

jeongin has a bit of a bigger smile when he finds out you tidied up his room for him

He’s not disgustingly unorganized, there are just a few things that could be put where they belong and his bed is almost always at least a little messy. It’s all an easy fix, and you’re more than happy to take care of it while he’s out with his busy agenda

You already figured that it would be nice for Jeongin to come back to a nice and cleaner environment after another long day, but you didn’t pinpoint just how much it meant to him

He felt so much love for you as he walked in and saw a freshly made bed for him to rest in, clothes back in their drawers, dust cleared off of the picture frame holding a candid of you two. You left a sticky note on his dresser, telling him that you’ll visit again in a few days

You picked up the call he made to you seconds later, ready to ask about his day. “You have no idea how much I love you,” his voice sounds a little shaky yet full of sentiment. “This was really nice to come home to.”

Nothing made you happier than knowing that you made your boy feel better, especially after a rough day. It was just a little fixing up but it meant the world to him

#bang chan x reader #chan x reader #lee know x reader #minho x reader #changbin x reader #hyunjin x reader #han x reader #jisung x reader #felix x reader #seungmin x reader #i.n x reader #jeongin x reader #skz comfort #skz headcannons #skz fluff #skz x reader

[dharmaart]

Hi! Your blog randomly got recommended to me and I've been scrolling past your work for the past ten minutes and I'm so obsessed!! Two questions came to mind:

What are your favorite materials to use when painting? Like the type of paint/brush/etc.

How did you practice proportions? Or is it just something you figured out w/ a lot of practice?

Ty for creating here!

I'm glad you like my art! I'll do my best to give you good answers to your questions.

1. My art materials vary quite a bit, but I really like painting with calligraphy ink. Calligraphy ink can give you really nice bright/pure colours, create results that look quite a bit like watercolour and that are usually waterproof (so they can't be re-weted or smudged like a watercolour painting). Watercolour and gouache are great too, and they can be used together easily. I usually use acrylic on canvases, but I think it's very under appreciated in general - I actually prefer it to oil paint which is practically sacrilegious to say as an artist. I basically like any art materials I can work quickly with. I'm really not too particular about brushes, so long as they don't shed hairs I'm happy. Having said that I'm fond of round, flat, bright, and angled brushes.

2. Practicing proportions boils down to really looking at things. Yes, it is good to practice a lot but make sure that each time you're actually drawing/painting you're really looking at and seeing the subject. Pushing past what you think you see is the hard part and the thing that makes your art improve the fastest - it definitely did for me! With proportions you can also measure them out (there are various guides for this) but you can easily just measure it with your fingers or a pencil. With this I mean you can check how many headlengths a horse's body is etc. The usually example is where you divide the human face into 1/3s or say most adults are 7 to 7 1/2 heads high. You can measure anything like that though. For guides on that for humans I would recommend Loomis' books since they are high quality and free online, like Drawing the Head and Hands or Figure Drawing for all it's Worth (both of these and more are available on Internet Archive). The Art of Animal Drawing, Construction, Action Analysis, Caricature by Ken Hultgren (available for free on Internet Archive) is the book I'd suggest for help with animal proportions, though I haven't personally used it a lot.

I personally practice proportions by measuring things out with my fingers, learning anatomy (so I know why something looks the way it does) and working on drawing/painting only what I actually see.

I hope these answers were useful.

#dharmaart #art advice #art resources

[mouschiwrites]

Craig tucker x gn!reader plss where reader is emotionless like craig and he’s absolutely smitten w them

Yes ofc!! Sorry for the wait!!

Word count: 736

South Park - Craig Falling For an Emotionless Reader

Craig glanced at the clock for the umpteenth time that hour, sighing deeply at the minute hand that seemed to be slacking that day. The teacher drolled on about something or other; he wasn’t really paying attention. If it wasn’t already obvious, he was bored out of his mind. And he wasn’t the only one—looking around, most students were either doodling in their notes, texting underneath the desk, or straight-up nodding off.

“Y/n!” The teacher barked suddenly.

Craig’s eyes scanned the room, trying to figure out who they were talking about. No one looked like they heard their name being called; they all kept their bored expressions, apart from the few who were looking around too.

“What?” A student near the front of the room didn’t look up from their notebook. Craig was sitting close enough to see that they weren’t taking notes, but doodling idly.

The teacher’s face soured for half a second, but a devilish smile curled their lips after. “Can you tell me which U.S. state was the first to grant women the right to vote?” They tapped the board, which read “suffrage” in large letters, with their pointer.

“Why don’t you tell me? You seem to be eager to share.”

The teacher’s face dropped. “I’m not sure I like your tone.”

The student looked up at last. “What’s wrong with it?”

Craig tilted his head. There was no malice or mischief in their voice; it was flat, curious if anything.

The teacher, however, was much less appreciative. Their ears were turning red as their hands curled into balls.

“You think this is funny? Well, I’ll tell you what I think is funny. Detention.”

“Why’s that funny?”

The teacher fumed. Long story short, the student earned themself detention. And to make an unrelated but equally long story short, too, Craig had already been sentenced to the same fate earlier that day.

So it was that both students found themselves seated next to each other with a bored teacher pretending to care what they were doing.

The student was drawing again. Craig examined their expressionless face, their eyes that seemed bored with everything. They were rather pretty eyes, he reflected, wondering in the same moment if that was a strange thing to think.

“Your eyes are nice,” he noted.

Y/n glanced at him. “Oh.” They didn’t flinch, going back to their drawing.

Craig had said it objectively, and that's how they seemed to have taken it. It wasn't often that Craig found himself being understood like this; he was intrigued, to say the least.

“You’re not very expressive, are you?”

“People tell me I’m not.”

“They say the same about me.”

Finally, a reaction. Y/n put down their pencil and turned to face Craig. “Really?”

Eager to find a like minded soul and emboldened by the attention, Craig was compelled to speak. “Yeah. It’s gotten me in trouble so many times. I guess people take it as rudeness.”

“It’s the same way for me!”

“Hey! Quit whispering over there! This is detention, not a sleepover.”

Both students blinked, turning silently back to their “work.”

Craig's mind was buzzing. The image of Y/n was burned in his mind as if he'd been staring at the sun. He was trying to remember little details. Were there freckles on that nose? Were the eyelashes long, or short? He craved another glance, but restrained himself, feeling the teacher's eyes on him.

A moment later, they finally looked away, and Craig found a folded piece of paper being placed discreetly on his desk by a s/c hand. He found himself admiring the hand as it moved; it was beautiful. The most beautiful hand he’d ever seen… Was that a strange thing to think? Probably. Yeah, no, it was totally weird.

He shook his head, unfolding the note.

Do you want to have an actual sleepover? lol

Craig looked up at them. In the half second their eyes met, he nodded once.

Another note came a second later.

Cool. Just text me when ur free :) (xxx)-xxx-xxxx

Craig stared at the number. His cheeks suddenly felt warm, and his heart drummed at the mere notion of spending more time with this mysterious yet kindred. The smallest of boyish smiles quirked up the corner of his mouth, and he stuffed the note in his pocket. He was so texting them the minute he got home.

Thank you for the request! And thanks so much for reading, take care you beautiful souls <33

(divider by saradika)

#south park #south park x reader #craig tucker x reader #craig tucker #craig x reader

[munsonsduchess]

I Was Made for Loving You

summary: eddie is restless and can't sleep, you do not appreciate finding the bed empty warnings: tooth rotting fluff, vague threats, eddie munson is a warning in and of himself w/c: 711 authors note: the way my soul has completely taken over by this man, season four dropped what two weeks ago and i'm over here simping like i'm sixteen again. not beta’d we die like women

(Moodboard by me)

It was late, three am according to the digital alarm clock on the nightstand beside his bed, you were sleeping peacefully. Hair strewn around the pillowcase under your head and your soft breathing the only other sound in the trailer besides the scratches of pencil against paper as Eddie scribbled out ideas for his next and possibly final campaign depending on the grades for his finals.

The two of you had spent hours sitting in the living room of the trailer while Eddie's Uncle had been at work going over flashcards and notes you'd made especially for Eddie so he would be able to graduate this year. Given everything that had happened with Vecna and the Upside Down you both felt as though you were owed a break. 

Music played softly through one earphone from the tape in the walkman on the desk as Eddie worked. He'd been restless, unable to sleep, lying there staring at the ceiling and wondering if this really would be his year. That he would finally be able to take you out of Hawkins and make something of himself, to throw the label of 'freak' behind him and start over.

He heard the shifting of bedding from behind him but didn't register that it might mean you'd be awake, that was until he heard you call his name,

"Eddie?" the long haired boy turned around and felt his heart squeeze at the scene in front of him. You'd worn one of his old Hellfire shirts to sleep and it was even a little small on you so it had crept up your middle while you slept, "what are you doing?" 

"It's ok sweetheart, go back to sleep" he said softly, "I'm just working on some notes" 

You blinked wearlily at him and rubbed your eyes against the light on his desk. This was exactly what Eddie had wanted to avoid when he'd decided to use his restlessness for something productive instead of disturbing you.

He smiled and turned back to his work but was instead met with a pillow to the back of the head. Turning again to ask why you'd thrown such a deadly weapon at him Eddie was instead met with your scowling features, although the effect was somewhat dampened by the fact that you had a little trail of drool on your chin and pillow marks on your face,

"It's three am, the campaign can wait. Come back to bed" you said, voice scratchy with sleep, "i'm cold" 

Eddie laughed lightly to himself. There was no way you could be cold on such an unseasonably warm May night and he knew you were just using it as an excuse to get him to abandon his work,

"Princess –" 

"Now Eddie" 

The scowl on your face had been replaced with what could only be described as an adorable pout which honestly he was defenseless against which you knew all too well, 

"Psychological warfare is it?" Eddie laughed again, "well I suppose the freshmen can live a little while longer" 

Clicking off the lamp and stopping the tape in the walkman Eddie made his way back over to the bed shucking off his grey sweatpants as he went. When he finally did climb back into bed beside you he found himself pulled tightly into your embrace with your fingers in his hair, 

"It's gonna be fine. I promise. You're going to graduate this year I know it" 

"How do you know that?" "

Because I'm going to make sure of it one way or another"

"That sounds vaguely like a threat sweetheart" 

"It is. Now go to sleep. Moron" 

Eddie had nothing to say to that. It was true that once you had set your mind to something there would be no changing it regardless of what anyone else tried to do. With that comforting thought and the sensation of your fingers running through his hair, nails scratching softly along his scalp and the feeling of your breathing it wasn't long until Eddie found himself unable to keep his eyes open any longer and instead sank into a peaceful sleep and dreams of a new life with the person he loved most in the world. 

No more Freak. Just Eddie. A new man for a new life. 

#eddie munson #eddie munson x reader #eddie munson stranger things #eddie munson fanfiction #eddie munson fic #stranger things fanfiction #stranger things fic #duchess writes #duchess.txt

[unidentifiedlyingobject]

Why is it so difficult for me as a neurodivergent person to start a simple task?

(disclaimer: this is off my own experiences as someone who has adhd and there are a multitude of other reasons as to why this is, this is just something I've found over my years)

so you need to do some work

easy

all you need is a writing implement and a laptop and your books and some spare paper and what if someone messages you, you need your phone too right? lots of stuff to collect let's goooo

but obviously you need more than just a writing implement don't you? you could really do with an entire pencil case -- where is the laptop? oh you've found it. but it has no charge. umm charger?

?!?

no idea, let's start collecting the books you need... nope they're not even in your house

you left all the documents at work or school or whatever (because although you rely on ultimate organisation to operate at all, you do not have the organisation skills to live up to that)

no problem... you can just look things up on google. good thing you have a phone and ooooo tumblr that fanart is gorgeous you absolutely have to reblog so that more people can appreciate it!! oop almost forgot your Duolingo streak, good thing you're -- didn't you mean to do something? ahh yes looking up stuff

it's ok the laptop charger was underneath the sofa you've got it running now

so you have some resources to use on your phone because all your books are in your locker and it's a sunday, you have a working laptop, you're gradually running out of energy that you initially needed to even start the project?

pencil case, you've found that too

that's good

spare paper is all the way upstairs so you fetch it u p s t a i r s

d o w n s t a i r s then collapse back in your seat in front of the laptop and honestly you don't have any more motivation left to do the work

People ask why it takes so long to build up the energy to do simple tasks

I don't know about neurotypicals, but to us neurodivergent folk it seems like every small thing is actively fighting against you to prevent you from trying to create an environment that is uncluttered and prepared so that you have everything you need to even start a project comfortably

(please feel free to add anything I've missed on this particular matter if you reblog)

something that helps if you find yourself too overwhelmed by preparing everything: just take a break, go listen to some great music or read a familiar book or play a musical instrument loudly and badly

and don't feel shame, executive dysfunction is something that so many of us have to overcome daily, looking after yourself is the best action you can take today

#neurodivergent #adhd brain #adhd #autism #neurodiverse #executive dysfunction

[rollercoasterwords]

In my neighbourhood, there’s this little pink wooden house-on-a-stand sort of thing, with The Free Library written on it. The rule is, take a book, leave a book. My parents don’t like me going there, because then they can’t check if the books are ‘appropriate,’ like they do all my library books. But I go anyway, because of course I do. One day last summer, I went and found two cool-looking books, Lars Iyer’s Wittgenstein Jr., and Eve Zaremba’s Work for a Million. Reading the prior literally sent me into a weeklong philosophical crisis, changed my life in unimaginable ways, and hugely shaped the person I am today, but today I want to talk about the former. Work for a Million.

I’ve had WfoM for almost a year now, but I’ve never really tried to read it, until yesterday. I was bedrotting, sick with writer’s block, surrounded by barely worn clothes, a dozen led pencils, a few empty starbucks bottles, and the sea of thingamabobits that’s spilled from my desk onto my bed. I saw the book on my shelf, and thought, ‘why not?’ So thus I got up to grab it.

Skimming through. It’s a crime novella, about a dyke detective, written in the 1980s. In the introduction, the author touches briefly on what the eighties were like. I, being still very much a teenager, know nothing of the eighties, except of course from marauders fanfiction. 

And then I remembered you, Rae, and your retelling of ATYD. And then I was just struck by the memory of reading it and what a talented writer you were in that.  Granted, it’s been a while since I’ve read anything by you, and frankly I found atwmd to be quite boring, and stopped following after a few chapters. But still, from what I remember, when you write you have this innate ability to just transport the reader into the narrative, and it’s like they experience the story just as the characters do. That’s how I felt, at least. I felt, perhaps stupidly, that I, in a way, experienced pieces of the seventies because of the way you wrote about them. You just create this vibe, that in a moment pulls readers into the story and leaves them dazen and blinking at its end. ‘The fuck just happened?’, they’ll ask each other, palms to their foreheads. ‘Did you feel that too?’

I don’t know if it’s years of practice or just natural talent, but the way you write is something I, as an aspiring writer, really respect and maybe even envy. I think if we knew each other in real life we’d be friends. Or maybe I’d follow you around like an annoying child, I don’t know. This message is more a thank-you than a compliment. Even when I’m older, I think whenever I’m stressed and my copy of Wittgenstein Jr. isn’t on my person, I’ll probably just open up ao3 and start rereading your Summer 1977 to calm myself down. So for that future, thank you. And for the past, the first time I read your writing, thank you. Sincerely, kudos.

-Robert.

emoji representation of me reading this message:

🙂🧐😲🙂😊😧😟😔🤨😕😐🙂🤭😊😌🙂🤗

i appreciate the kind words! glad my take on atyd resonated w u & wishing u all the best w ur own writing etc <3

#did not necessarily need to know that u found atwmd boring but honestly. not mad bc in the context of the message it made me laugh #for future reference tho maybe just keep that part to urself! #ask #atydsp

[khazadspoon]

WMM here, seeing as ur taking prompts again uhhhh How about Gil/Jesus, maybe something to do with loyalty we've talked about this before but umm... After that episode of Jesus willing to die for a mistake that wasn't even his fault, Gil maybe takes that into a account Jesus' loyalty.... ummm idk *sweats*

This isn’t exactly what I was imagining but it wasn’t coming out so have this 😭 but thank you as always for the prompt my friend 🙏

———

“Jesús.”

The name was called from across the camp, a voice that inspired a myriad of emotions in almost everyone who heard it. Apprehension, joy, concern, fondness and uncertainty alike. It was a voice that had quickly become a part of daily life for Jesús, and he swung between emotions each time he heard it.

He put the saddle he was examining down carefully and dusted his jeans with sweaty palms. There was trepidation in his gut as he walked over to the owner of that voice.

“Yes, Señor Favor?” His voice was calm, thankfully, not betraying the sudden fear he was about to lose his job.

“C’mere, take a seat.”

Gil Favor was sat on a fallen tree, there was a small notebook on one knee, a pencil in one hand and an unlit cigarette in the other. He stared down at the open notebook, occasionally tapping the pencil on it.

Jesús sat. He kept a foot of space between them.

“Have I… done something wrong?” He asked. Silently he sent a prayer to the Blessed Mother for strength.

Señor Favor flicked his eyes up, the action only visible because his hat was by his feet, and frowned. “Wrong? No! No, not at all. I’m not tryin’ to tell you off, boy, far from it.”

“…oh.” Jesús swallowed and took his hat off. His heart started to beat wildly in his chest.

“Listen. I know I ain’t the most complimentary of men. I’m a bad tempered fool and I know it. But I like to think I’m fair.” He paused, turned his head and smiled at Jesús. His lips, though thin, curved pleasantly in the wide and generous smile. It was a handsome smile, one Jesús had often admired from afar. “Wanted to tell you you’re the best damn wrangler I’ve ever worked with.”

Jesús found himself grinning as well. “I am?”

The trail boss nodded and tucked his notebook back in his breast pocket. “You are. I know it’s been a hard drive, and I don’t want you thinkin’ you’re not appreciated. Or that you need to go kicking yourself for something that ain’t your fault.”

A hand, warm and large and firm, clasped his shoulder. The thumb rubbed across the tendon joining his shoulder to his neck, and Jesús nearly shivered.

“You’ve got a place here, for as long as you want it.” The taller man squeezed his shoulder again. “If you want it, that is.”

Jesús nodded. “I do want it,” he breathed, “to- to stay, I mean, Señor Favor.”

He saw the man’s eyes flick down and heat bloomed cautiously in his chest. Gil blinked and licked his lips. Jesús watched the movement. He saw the softening of his boss’ eyes, the way his jaw tightened as he swallowed. The hand on his shoulder loosened its grip and shifted. It drifted up, the thumb grazing the skin of Jesús neck. The breath caught in his chest and Jesús held himself still even as anticipation coiled around him, tight and warm and exciting.

Señor Favor blinked and drew away. He cleared his throat and dropped his hand, the warmth lingering on Jesús’ shoulder.

“Well. That- that’s all I wanted to say, really. Just… don’t go trying to throw your life away over a mistake that weren’t yours next time, got it?” He looked up as he spoke, his voice firm and just a little stern.

Jesús looked down at his hat and nodded. “Of course, Señor Favor.”

“Good,” he slapped his thigh and stood up, stretched his back with an audible pop. “I better get back to the herd, see how Quince is handling things.”

“I’ll saddle your horse-”

“No, no, its alright,” Gil held out a hand to stop him. “I got it. Get yourself something to eat, could be a long night. I think there’s some bad weather coming our way.”

Jesús watched him go, kept his eyes up instead of watching the sway of his hips, and let out a long sigh. On one hand, he was appreciated and valued by the one man it mattered most from. On the other, he knew that the attraction he felt went both ways. A dangerous situation to be in, indeed.

#rawhide #gil favor #jesus patines #Gil/Jesús #I’m captain of this little paddle board now

[lollytea]

You so right he d randomly start playing w his hair n before he d notice he s already reminiscing willow cutting hair and gently tilting his chin to check whether everything s even

Do you think Hunter d be brave enough to ask Willow for another haircut later?

Since Hunter haven t said anything directly to willow after LR speculating abt how they interact drives me insane/lh

Rn it seems like Hunter d think about it really think about it (trying to manifest it into reality) while feeling too awkward to do so

But then (the best girl ever) Willow d chat up how his hair is growing longer n what r his plans. all while subtly mentioning she d be gladly help out again

Silly little hubtlow haircut thoughts

He WILL be twirling through a strand of it while he thinks about it. Literally drowning in the memory of all these gentle touches that somehow zap through him like electric shocks. A stroke across his forehead as she brushes his choppy bangs out of the way, two fingers to his chin as she draws his head up to the light, to her bright green eyes. How she playfully ruffled through it once she was done and said "You look really nice! <3"

Hunter was almost reluctant to wash his hair after that. He only did so when he reasoned that she had made it look so nice so the least he could do was keep it from getting all greasy and gross.

Here's the thing about haircuts tho....if you cut it short enough it takes quite a while before you need another one. So Hunter probably won't need his hair trimmed again for months probably. And by that time...will he still be awkward around Willow. Judging from what we know, probably not...

But let's say that he is. A few months later and some things are very different but some things remain the same. He doesn't know how to ask. Would it be annoying if he asked? He keeps running his fingers through it whenever she's around, just to draw attention to how long it's getting.

He's taken by surprise when Willow reaches over and brushes it back from his forehead and smiles. Just like she did when she trimmed it that one time.

"Getting long, huh?" She says.

"Oh. Yeah. Pretty annoying."

"You plan on cutting it?"

"I've been...thinking about it..."

"Mm." Her brow creases together. "I mean...I guess you'd want to have it done by somebody who knows what they're doing this time haha..."

She looks almost disappointed.

'I never said that!" Hunter blurts out, far more panicked then it should have been.

His full face is bathed in a mortified flush but the laughter Willow erupts in is overjoyed.

"I'll get the scissors!" She sounds utterly giddy.

Makes me crazy to think about that haircut potentially being the first of many.

Hunter at 28, blowing overgrown bangs out of his eyes when he hears a familiar set of footsteps sneaking up from behind. He feels a finger wind itself around a strand at the nape of his neck. A woman's exasperated tutting bounces off his eardrums, bringing a grin to his lips.

"Who allowed your hair to grow so shaggy?"

"Well, the lady who usually trims it has been busy lately. Being the best and brightest witch of the Boiling Isles has her worked off her feet."

"She'll just have to pencil you in for tonight then because this is atrocious.'

"I'd appreciate it. If she has time."

"She'll make time. If it's for you."

#Huntlow

[kikyan]

Hiya, hope you're having a lovely day^^

Haven't done one of these before, so I hope I don't mess up (And that my request is still valid in-terms of the event end date).

I'd like to request a yan. mash up for TWST & ObeyMe!

I'm 18, my pronouns are they/them, I'm a Cancer and INTJ. I'm a pretty anxious person. Having social anxiety, agoraphobia, being a homebody and just being an overall introvert, I tend to keep to myself and avoid going outside much. Im an over-thinker and a night owl. When I'm around people that I don't feel comfortable with, I'm very much a quiet, shy, jumpy, awkward, paranoid, tired lookin' loner. But when I get comfortable and l'm with close friends or family, I'm quite the opposite. I'm bold, sarcastic, and have a witty sense of humor, I’m a cocky little shit that likes to tease the hell outta people (obv because that's how I show love ^ ^) | can also be reckless at times given the right environment. But aside from that I’m a pretty chill person. I love to learn and indulge in other people’s interests. At times I can be extremely overconfident and daring yet insecure and cautious^^ im also really loyal to everyone I care about, I value community and trust, caring and supportive, the list goes on. As for some of my (debatably) negative traits, I can be quite blunt and straight forward (I don’t like sugar coating ), defensive if I’m proven wrong, I can occasionally be indifferent, passive aggressive, reclusive and aloof if I get pissed/sad (even if it’s for something small). I’ve been told i have rbf •_•). I like cleanliness and neatness, but I can also be somewhat messy when I procrastinate cleaning. Hobbies: I love drawing, I have a crap ton of sketchbooks that are filled with drawings front to back, and some that have never seen a pencil before ^^; (I have my fair share of twst and obey me fan art =w=). Reading, reading, and ReaDing! I’m a book worm^^ i mostly read horror, thrillers, and mystery novels. Also, I’m incredibly obsessed with gothic literature and poetry (I’m a bit of a writer myself). I live for horror! Movies, books, shows, etc. I specifically like psychological, cosmic, and gothic horror. Music wise, I listen to rock, metal, alternative, indie rock, post-punk, and new wave. Though I’ve recently been more into 80’s post-punk (as of right now my fav band is Caifanes, definitely recommend them). Style: I don’t usually care much for the way that I look, i prefer comfort over style most of the time. I usually ware black, anime t-shirts, baggy jeans, leather jackets or oversized hoodies, and my go-to converse or docs. I dunno what else to include, so I guess I’ll talk about what kind of person I like. I like it when people can be honest and voice their feelings, concerns, wants and needs. I definitely appreciate a proper and mature way of communicating. My receiving and giving love language is quality time and physical affection, so having someone who loves to receive and give both is an immediate green flag in my book. I personally like clingier personalities to a healthy degree, I swear ^^; I definitely love people who are openly lovey and romantic, I find it adorable, especially cause I’d do the same right back. A person who loves to try new things, and who loves spicy food (cuz being a picky eater,,, that’s a deal breaker). I like someone who shares my same hobbies and is just as ambitious as me. And if not, that they at least support and encourage me to do what I like. Personality wise, I like a person who is soft and caring, romantic, honest, noble, creative, humble, cautious, a night owl (so that me can both stay up late into the night) someone more mentally stable then me (that or just as mentally unstable as me =^=) and lastly someone who would also indulge in my hobbies with me. I hope I added enough of the right things for this request and that it’s not confusing >x< it’s long I know. Anyways, thank you so much for your work, I love everything you write, hope to see more of it. Take care love ^,^)/♡

I have no words to explain why this took months. I don't know, but better late than never. . .right? You probably heard this before and it won't come as a surprise but I match you with Idia (TWST) and Levi (OM!)! 

When it comes to what I gathered from your personality, you probably relate to them more instead of simping but I see you with them! Side note, I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND OMG YOU SOUND SO COOL?? I ALSO WANT TO SEE THE ART PLS! PLS LET'S BE FRIENDS! 

Moving forward...I see how they would both love you. You love their hobbies but understand them like nobody else. With Idia, his love for you starts when you start to open up about your hobbies. He probably starts to think about you but not in the best way at first. When he notices you like the same things but he probably wouldn't see them as a reason to get closer. He may find it as an excuse to not approach you because he's not sure if you're a casual fan or a fan-fan. Would you be disgusted with him? Find him as one of those cringe fans who bring the fandom down. Are you a casual enjoyer who wouldn't understand his passion? Though he would love to share his passion, would you look down upon him like everyone else? I'm not quite sure if I included this in my headcanons, but Idia is an observer. Which I think makes him open up to you because he can see the real you. I want to say that if we follow the story of the game, you probably don't meet Idia until after you established some friends with Ace and Deuce. He probably has some image of you already established, no doubt you're very social. When you mentioned how you were someone very shy and quiet when first meeting someone, you probably do it to be nice or at the very least, respectful. He probably sees that side of you at first and doesn't think much of it. He probably thinks that his likes and dislikes would scare you away until he overhears maybe Deuce or Ace talk, "You like that? I never would have expected you to like that, [Reader]?" That's when he gains a little boost, you like the same thing he does. Not to mention you're a shy thing, so no harm in at least trying. I think once he finally does talk to you, he can see all the unique things about you as well as how similar you both are. Idia is the same, spoilers for the phantom bride card but he hated the whole ordeal. In his vignette, the rest of the students hyped him up so much that he kinda got overconfident making everyone regret saying anything. He didn't do it to be a bitch, but rather he said it because he was comfortable around the others. Who wouldn't? So he would return that sarcastic humor. He would probably love teasing the hell out of you. Stay up all night gaming with you, exchanging messages left and right, etc. I can already imagine the list of recommendations that both of you exchange. He would love seeing your art and hype you up, maybe even propose writing a story together. Of course, this is yandere so what is yandere without the horror aspect? Idia wouldn't exactly show you off but he would be so content with calling you, his. His friend, his S/O, his partner, his gaming buddy, etc. He's not like Leona who would strut into the room with his arm around your shoulder, but he would love it when you say, "Oh yeah, sorry I can't tonight. I'm hanging out with MY partner tonight." Of course, don't tell the others it's him because right now he can't handle that feeling! He would love spending quality time, he's not at all picky with what is being done as long as it's with you. Watching anime together? Done deal. He's gaming and you're working on something else across from him? God imagine he looking up to see you so focused, he just smiles lightly at the idea of you spending time with him and then you look up and see him. His face is BEAT RED, stuttering and looking back at his PC while his headphones have his online friends yelling at him to pay attention and to assist them. He's clingy to a not-so-healthy degree and will often set up scenarios to gain pity so you have to cancel and hang with him. I want to say that while his heart cannot handle the affection IRL he would love the idea of holding your hand and cuddling against you. Imagine he's pouting because he maybe received the worst news, but you're there to comfort him? His world is perfect if your attention and affection remain on just him and him only. 

Okiedoki, now Levi. They're the same but so different.  As I started to play Obey me again and literally from the beginning, I love their family dynamic. Though they all love each other, they're not afraid to tell each other their faults either. I think with Levi it's no surprise that he sees himself as inferior to his siblings. I mean Mammon is scummy but he's a model. Asmo has a vlog and is well-loved even if it gets to his head. Satan is hella studious and has a temper, Belphie is just there and Beel; he has a good heart but his stomach knows no bounds. No need to point out Lucifer, he's polished and pristine, with no flaws that he can vocalize without being strung upside down.

I mean why would you want to be with him? Like Idia, when he finds out you like the same content he does he's probably on the skeptical side as well. I mean, really? Do you like that? When he finally does talk to you about it, he wants to prioritize your time. "[Reader], did you want to-? Oh sorry, you probably already have plans huh?" It's no doubt he assumes you rather want to do anything else other than be with him. When you take him up on his offer, he's so overcome with joy. A blush on his face as he excitedly takes your hand rushing to his room to do the equivalent of setting up the table but rather dinner, setting up an anime marathon. He is smitten with you, another one with a not-so-healthy clingier personality. Another one who just wants to spend time with you, it doesn't have to be anything specific either. I think as time goes on he can become confident too, sometimes even challenging you, He becomes sarcastic, occasionally laughing at memes and sending them to you with a simple "reminded me of you". I think the biggest thing is that Levi could be 100% honest with you. At first, he may not want to voice his feelings, but when you reassure him, he just lets it all out. Though Levi may not love horror himself, he loves your style and appreciates your passion as well. He thinks you're so cool and to be able to stand next to you, gosh you have ways of getting to him. He would proudly march his ass to a movie theater to watch the scariest film as long as he can hold your hand during the entire movie. Let's talk about yanderes, he's the same with Idia where he would 100% say something that forces you to drop what you're doing to spend time with him. Another is, I like to think Levi has been on some sketchy websites, spreading rumors about people who approach you. When those rumors as well as "proof" start circling, you should stay away from them. I stand by the idea that the brother would help one another to keep their S/O trapped. Levi may ask of Asmo's services when digging up gossip and possibly Belphie's to stalk the victim in their sleep and torture them from the inside. While all this happens, Levi will continue to play the role of the perfect boyfriend. 

I hope you enjoyed your matchup!! Thank you for your continuous support, have a wonderful day!

#kikyan #yandere matchup #yandere twisted wonderland #yandere twisted wonderland x reader #yandere idia shroud x reader #yandere levithan x reader

[subskz]

not me actually full on sobbing at 1am… you’ve done it again 😭

this chapter was so beautiful, and so heart wrenching. i know things are supposed to get worse before they get better, but holy shit i wasn’t expecting it to hurt so much 💔🔨 like i started crying the second chan asked “are you mad?” and did not stop.

i’m glad reader finally got a chance to speak to iseul, one of the notes i made while reading was that i didn’t like her so i’m glad to see there was some opening up on that front.

and bestie changbin 😭💔🔨 inviting reader to go bowling, asking about the situation with minho, the return of the cinnamoroll pencil 🥰 god i love changbin 😪

speaking of minho, the fact that chan knew on a surface level that something was going on… he’s so chan for that. god i love him, i want to see him get better for himself. both in the story and irl. he’s so amazing and talented and beautiful and smart and funny 😭😭 i can go on about how much i love him.

you’ve just once again written something so incredible and amazing. the way you write the characters is so believable, and the stories you tell are always so interesting. thank you for working so hard on this 💖 -🐾

sobbing…..oh no ㅠㅠㅠ i’m very sorry for the torment these lovesick fools have caused haha i know this part was a bit rough to get through so i hope it was still enjoyable in some ways! but it’s exactly as u said, it’s always darkest before the dawn!! things can only go up from here~

the fact that u got emotional before that scene even fully spiraled out of control really touches my heart for some reason, it’s like you could sense exactly where things were going ㅠ it was a challenge to write for many reasons, but most of all having to depict channie so hurt n confused abt what he did wrong…he can’t even understand why neglecting himself would ever be a problem

i 100% understand why you don’t like iseul LOL she’s definitely meant to be abrasive and self absorbed…she has a lot of maturing to do, but the reader also needs to grow! though their friendship needs work im happy u found that snippet to be a step in the right direction <3 and our bestie binnie!!! where would we be without him and without CINNAMOROLL…the true stars of the show

i’m also happy you found that to be a channie detail…he really is so smart and emotionally intelligent and perceptive of every little thing even if he doesn’t always let it show, it’s incredible. both in the story and irl…now ur gonna get me emotional 😞 he’s such a beautiful shining light in this world it’s easy to worry that w how much he brightens things for others that he might be left in the darkness. but knowing how dear skz are to him i hope that the boys n all his other loved ones can provide that same light for him!

thank you so much for your sweet words, you’ve really uplifted me so much throughout this series it means the world to me! i appreciate you not only taking the time to read everything, but to also share ur thoughts on each part, it’s truly so kind and thoughtful of you ♡ i hope the (real) final part will wrap things up to your liking!!

#ask #🐾 anon #💌 #jjannie….channjie…..

[ruinaimagines]

Ok so i've always loved to read this blog and i'm really happy that requests are open again so, can you do Queen of Hatred with a transfemme employee/librarian who wants to be a magical girl like her? (y'know, fighting evil in a pretty dress and stuff) or White Lake with a transfemme employee who's a fan of the princess aesthetic and frilly dresses

Ohh absolutely! Especially in recent times all I have wished to do is look pretty and kick ass. 

Queen of Hatred w/ Transfemme Employee/Librarian Headcanons:

She constantly looks forward to seeing you visit because it gives her an opportunity to talk about the stories she’s collected along the way while being a magical girl.

She’s very dramatic when she describes them in the way that it sets a perfect mental scene. Uses her hands a lot and will pose and completely recreate the scenario. It’s like your own personal movie.

When you say you want to be a magical girl like her a look of appreciation comes across her face. The idea that she’s influenced you so much to the point that in a way, you look up to her and want to do what she does is just such a warm feeling. It brings her back to when she would train with her sisters and look up to them. 

There are literal stars in her eyes (no, that is not an exaggeration) as she hugs you. She is absolutely willing to teach you, and she is ready to be the greatest teacher possible.

Now if you’re a magical girl you of course need your signature outfit. I can see her encouraging you to bring some paper and pencils to sketch out the general idea of what you’re thinking.

Something you will come to find is that she’s extremely excited to give suggestions and because of this will sometimes get lost naming off concepts and ideas that aren’t what you’re particularly looking for. She won’t be offended if you pull her back to one style though. She just really likes the design process.

I imagine she’s actually amazing at sewing and stitching things together herself. After all, when you’re at hard work protecting people all day your skirt may happen to get a couple tears. Fear not! With some needle and thread it will be fixed in no time.

It becomes a fun experience for you two. If this is in the time of Lobotomy Corp, I imagine that this would help preoccupy her mind and help ease any growing anxiety build up she has.

Do not forget about your magical girl title! That is an extremely important part. After all, what catchy title is the city supposed to know you as? She’ll help you test out and get a feel for what you like most and is very patient.

The Queen of Hatred is very insecure about feeling that she has no use anymore, and when she is unable to help in one way or another it makes her antsy. Activities like this though let her aid you, and plus they’re fun and time spent with someone she enjoys the company of.

Whenever she gets the opportunity to suppress other abnormalities you can be sure she’ll drag you along. It counts as your ‘training’. This only applies to the threats that she thinks you can handle. She doesn’t want you to risk getting gravely injured because of a poor miscalculation on her part.

If you are a librarian, training methods would likely be different. Abnormalities inhabit environments that are the most ideal for them, likely a reflection of their own mental state or one they were created from, so I imagine that QoH’s floor is much like the home she speaks of protecting.

If it is, then that means there are a variety of villains shambling about, waiting to be defeated in the name of justice. It is then that in true magical girl style you can defeat evil.

You will gain an even bigger respect for her once you realize just how difficult fighting in a dress is. Is it worth it? Yes. It absolutely is.

Not a really strict teacher. If anything, she just feels like a friend showing you the ropes. Wants the experience to be as enjoyable as you think it is, and is happy to share the gloriful feeling of saving the innocent with you. Very much teaches through positive reinforcement, but sometimes she can have a hard time telling you things you may need practice on due to this.

She thinks a lot about her sisters and wishes that she could tell them about you and how far you’ve come. While she may not explicitly say this, you can tell by how much she speaks of them and how she wants you to meet.

The Queen of Hatred is rather ambitious and holds high standards for herself. Because of this, when these standards are questioned, she can get overwhelmed quite easily.

In prior times she really had no one to lean on. There were her sisters, yes, but they all had their own work to tend to and she didn’t want to be a burden. Unfortunately, there really were no others who could relate to her situation and help talk some reason into her.

Having you around really makes a difference! Talking about your experiences and feelings at the end of the day and enjoying some pastries is vital to remaining in a healthy state. While you may not suddenly understand everything, you still can relate to her in many ways the average person can not.

Ultimately she is incredibly supportive of whatever your goals are. She very much believes that anyone can be anything if they work hard towards it, so even when you’re getting second thoughts she will lift you up. You two are there for eachother like that.

#library of ruina #lor #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corp #lobcorp #project moon #projmoon #headcanons #library of ruina headcanons #lor headcanons #hcs #lobotomy corporation hcs #lobotomy corp hcs #platonic #x reader #the queen of hatred #QoH #library of ruina the queen of hatred #lobotomy corporation the queen of hatred #the queen of hatred headcanons #qoh headcanons #library of ruina x reader #lor x reader #lobotomy corporation x reader #lobotomy corp x reader

[nebulousfishgills]

Fanfic Asks, friend!

A [HTM], F, H, K, M, S, V, W

Yayyyyy more asks!!

A - How did you come up with the title for His Tenebris Moenibus?

Honestly, titling fics can either be the bane of my existence or the greatest thing I ever do. HTM was the former. This was about a year ago now so I don't entirely remember all the minutiae, all I know was that I wanted something in Latin to make it sound fancy. Then I just went through the process of putting together thematically appropriate combinations of words and phrases until Google Translate spit out something cool sounding:

Within These Dark Walls... in reference to the Creel House, is I think what One Year Ago Fishgills was thinking. Cause, as we know, a lot of shit happens in that house, and usually it's dark inside. Within the dark walls of the Creel House, These Dark Walls.

I wish I could say it was as clever as Diplopia, but no, this was very much Spaghetti Against The Wall To See What Would Stick.

F - Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why it's your favorite

I have no self control, you're getting several cause I can't pick a favorite.

I have two from His Tenebris Moenibus:

"If this is supposed to be hell... why is it so beautiful?" Emily asked quietly. "Normally I wouldn't think a place so desolate and destructive would be, but..."

"A world untouched by mankind." Henry said, somewhat answering her question. "A land with no structure, nothing chaining anything down. It's beautiful because it's free."

This is when Emily and Henry are banished to the Upside Down and they're exploring this new hellscape they're stuck in. Honestly, I just really, really love Emily asking why a supposed hell is beautiful to her. I think it's a similar effect to when people go to desolate places to appreciate the beauty that humanity hasn't touched/changed or simply can't, like the tops of mountains or sunsets.

Really, I think it just shows what this goal of theirs really means to them. To us, we see it as wiping out humanity and its structures in a bid for control out of a probably over-exaggerated distaste for human systems the rest of us understand a certain need for. To them, though, they see human systems as shackles or "straitjackets" that cascaded into the sources of their suffering.

It was social stigmas about young births out of wedlock that got Emily sent away to Valentina's and (as far as we can suspect) Virginia's need for the picture perfect nuclear family that Henry simply couldn't fit into that led to his troubles. They want to erase humanity to erase human suffering, suffering they went through. It's a horrible way of going about it, but when you scrape away the grime and blood it's somewhat of a sweet sentiment. And, to them, the blank slate the Upside-Down seems to show is opportunity, a blueprint. Sure it looks desolate and inhospitable, but that's not how they see it.

Besides, they survived in it for all those years. At the end they want, they'll be the two sole survivors. It just checks out.

Next:

"Emily... please..." Eleven whispered. "You... you were the closest thing I had to a mother in that place. Remember? We drew pictures together. You would sharpen my pencils when they broke because I pressed too hard. I drew a picture of you, me, and Henry. Outside of the lab in the sun under a rainbow... a real rainbow. I wanted you both to take me away from there, away from Papa. When I hid in the closet, I thought we were going to... before you... I thought we were going to escape and be a family. A real family."

"Don't be afraid." They heard Henry say next to Max. "Try and stay very still. It will all be over soon." Eleven continued, gaining back Emily's attention.

"We could have found a house to live in. You would teach me more words, about how life is supposed to work. Teach me to use my powers in a supportive way. Not using fear and punishments like Papa. There would be a garden out front with blue and yellow flowers mixed with roses. We'd run around the yard and play games. We could dance to whatever song came on the radio."

Henry raised a hand, caging Max's face like he had the others.

"I could go to a real school and make real friends. Henry could help me with my homework while you made dinner. Real food. We'd go to the park and go on the swings, each of us trying to go higher than the other two. We'd ride the Ferris Wheel on the fourth of July while the fireworks exploded over our heads. We'd host sleepovers for my friends and eat too much ice cream."

Emily's limbs tingled slightly the closer Henry grew to taking Max's soul.

"I never wanted to destroy the world or remake it. I never wanted to hurt people. I just wanted to escape, escape with you so we could create our own world for ourselves. A family. But after what you and Henry did to the others in the lab, I knew that we could never have that. I wanted to believe that you were both good people who were trapped like I was. And part of me still does, still believes you both can put a stop to this before it's too late." Eleven was fully crying at this point, tears dragging down her cheeks and dripping from her chin. "Please, Emily, listen to me. You were my protectors once... what you're doing is wrong, all of this is wrong. Stop this before it's too late to turn back."

I like this monologue I gave Eleven because I like the idea that she can find the power to resist and fight back within herself. In fact just recently I edited this chapter to remove most of Mike's monologue since one, almost nobody likes it, and two, it fits my theme-ing better if Eleven can fight back with backup support from both Mike and Will (he gets to encourage Eleven now, too) rather than total support.

That, and it's almost the other side of this coin the previous passage I included presents. Creating a perfect world shouldn't mean destroying the previous one and everyone in it, it should mean creating your own world for yourself and those you care about. Emily and Henry are just too damaged and disillusioned to understand the difference.

Eleven's perfect world was getting to grow up in a normal, happy environment with two people she saw as protectors, as opposed to Henry and Emily's perfect world where they're all alone with their abnormalities.

Now we absolutely *have* to take a peek at Diplopia since there's so much to unpack in almost every conversation. I'll be nice and just pick one, though:

"Henry, what's the matter?" Emily asked, her hands holding her upper arms as if stuck between sympathizing and chastising. He looked up at her, his bright blue eyes sunken and contorted in barely restrained anger.

"Don't you see what's going on here? They're trying to draw you in and take you away from me." Henry replied, pointing back in the direction they came from.

"Henry, don't be ridiculous. They're trying to be hospitable. I know it's hard for you to trust anyone, but you're being paranoid. Just because they're vampires doesn't mean they see you as a side dish." Emily said, her arms now fully folding.

"Please, don't tell me you haven't noticed Blondie over there looking at you like you're some fancy meal. His eyes never leave you."

"Just because Caius looks strangely like you doesn't mean you have to get jealous. He's just trying to be nice."

"You saying things like that makes me worry that you've fallen under his sway." Henry jabed his finger out again in an acusatory way. By now Emily was getting angry.

"I'm not spineless, Henry. To be honest, yeah, I've noticed. But you know that's part of what I do. I steal souls through allure. What makes this different than any of the others?"

"Because he has my damn face!" Henry yelled. "You fell for it once, who says you can't do it twice?"

"Henry Creel, do you even hear yourself? You're being a paranoid, jealous freak."

"Maybe you're not being paranoid enough!" Henry pinched the bridge of his nose. "I want to go home as fast as we can. I don't want you being seduced by these... filthy bloodsuckers!"

When Emily didn't reply right away, Henry looked up at her to assess her expression. Her face immediately told him that he had fucked up. His eyes softened before Emily spoke.

"You... you do know that's what I am right?" She asked quietly. "I feed off of blood, too. Do you think I'm disgusting? Is that what you really think of me?"

"What? No, Emily, of course I don't!" Henry was quick to defend.

"Yes, you do. Don't lie to me. I could see it in your eyes. Every time Eddie and I had to feed, you were disgusted. Even when this became a need, you thought it was disgusting. That I was disgusting. Is that it?"

"Emily, no, I could never--"

"But you did!"

To me, this is the point in the story where we see the tone shift I never intended to happen, but did. Before this, it's largely been goofy fun with banter and these characters from two different worlds interracting. Sure there have been asides and innuendos, but nothing to indicate it could go far enough that this could turn into an actual deep rift. If we read His Tenebris Moenibus before this, we feel like Henry and Emily's bond seems incredibly strong, indestructable, nothing could tear them apart. After all the shit they've been through, nothing can come between them, right?

Really, in an ironic twist that can be taken in multiple ways, Henry is his own worst enemy.

We don't entirely know what happened between the end of HTM and Diplopia aside from some vague references. Eddie has to get resurrected somehow and that bond has to form among the three of them, Henry has to return to his human visage for the original joke to land, and between all of this there has to be some type of grating in his and Emily's relationship. I always saw it as Emily always feeling like she's seen as the second best and having to put Henry first in ways she feels like she doesn't get anything back for it. Then oops, here comes Caius, suddenly putting Emily first and giving her his complete attention without any strings attached (yet at least).

We sometimes forget that Emily is an inherently selfish person, so I don't think she was completely happy having to abstain from sustenance in the form of souls to bring Henry back since it was skin he hated that she learned to live with, even if she missed his human self. And of course Henry thinks drinking blood is a little strange, it's only natural he'd be a bit put-off by it.

These irrational thoughts Emily keeps on having are more dived into in her little monologue right after this, but here is I think where we as readers start to understand that something isn't quite right. That this is more than just a goofy crack fic and that it's actually something very serious... even if that wasn't my intention. There's that blend of the previous comedic tone with some of the things they say at the start of this passage, but it quickly evolves into something angstier.

That, and I keep compulsively saying "you're being a paranoid, jealous freak" when I'm alone. Which, that line has its own layers, but for the sake of brevity that I completely devote myself to, let's move on. I want to provide one more passage, this one from Necrosis.

It's not a passage I've published yet, not by a long shot, so it might need to be tweaked when the time comes. I'll avoid and censor spoilers by changing tenses and cutting off at a certain point, so bear in mind I'm not delivering the full context or truth, but I really want to talk about this:

"I don't know." Emily's tone remained even as she continued speaking. "I didn't really have a family growing up. I had disparate fragments of one, I suppose, but never anything like people are supposed to have. My mother abandoned me, I don't know who my real father was... I had a father figure at one point but he... I don't like remembering him, making almost twenty years of my life a living hell on earth, trapped in sterile white walls with the only reprieve being one room painted with rainbows. A sick joke.

"I had one person to rely on for twenty-five years, the first man I'd ever loved. I thought he'd be the only one I would ever love, both of us being damaged the way that we were. But... well you know that story. I had a best friend at one point, and a little girl I saw as a little sister or daughter at one point... Jane, oddly enough."

"But nothing that every really felt... whole?" Sulpicia offered. Emily nodded.

"I know I have siblings, but I don't know anything about them and they don't even know I exist. And I meant what I said when I grew up with someone who... another sister in law I'll never know."

"What was her name?"

"Alice. He never talked about her much. Some memories best left to the past." Emily paused, choosing her next words carefully. "I betrayed them all at one point. Both my parents died by my hands, directly or not. I turned my back on my Papa, I betrayed El- Jane's trust, I managed to hurt Eddie twice, and I... abandoned the first man I ever loved and who ever loved me. I knew leaving him would emotionally cripple him and I don't know if my doing that ended up getting him killed. All the different pieces of what could have been a family and I betrayed all of them.

"The day I walked in here, I was given all the love I had been missing in my life twenty, thirty, forty times over. Caius matched the love I already had in my life and more came with him. Maybe when I agreed to marry him, I wanted his family as much as I wanted him. For so long I said I didn't need one because I had all the family I needed. Picia, the Guard isn't beneath me, they're my friends, my cousins, even my siblings. And I have actual siblings to boot. You're my sister and Marcus is my brother..."

"But?"

"But I think I saw Aro as my brother first. The first one who greeted me when I got here, one of the first people I saw when I woke up, someone who seemed as insane and flawed as I was... and the first person who called me sister. We drive each other up the wall sometimes, sure, but... I'm just not sure what I'm feeling because I don't know what I'm supposed to feel."

If you really critically think about it you might be able to piece together what's been going on, but if that's the case, so be it. This is by no means the end of this conversation, but I think it's a massive show of growth and introspection for Emily. Shit's been happening in Casa de Volturi and she can't just keep ignoring her problems.

That, and I really just wanted Emily to have a deep and personal moment with Sulpicia. Her sister by marriage, the only sister she's ever had. I feel like in twenty something years, Emily's talked about her past, but she hasn't been this vulnerable and detailed about it with anyone aside from Caius.

Me personally, I don't have a sister, but I know that can be a very important relationship and I wanted to display that to some degree. Emily simply can't go through life without letting people in, especially if she's going to be living with these people for thousands of years. She has relationships with the others, but again, other than Caius she's never been open about her past to anybody.

The twins are closer to younger siblings or even children to her and Jane isn't one you would usually exposition dump about your trauma to. Heidi's more like her Gal Pal she complains about current personal problems to rather than being abused in the Rainbow Room as a child. Mele maybe, but again, that's closer to a parent/child relationship and why would Emily burden Mele with past problems she can't properly comprehend.

It's not like Emily could talk to Marcus about this, the poor dude has his own baggage and hardly says more than a few words; Emily mostly ignores him. Aro's seen all of Emily's memories at one point most likely, so he knows all of this, but he's not the kind of guy she would pour her heart out to. If anything she's more guarded around him. Honestly, their dynamic is the closest Emily's gonna get to her relationship with Eddie in her Second Life, not someone you trauma dump to.

But I think it's important that Emily lets herself be vulnerable around more than just the person she's married to. I've written Sulpicia to be more wise and maternal... Chaotic in her own right, of course, look who she's married to. But honestly I really think Emily needed another woman to talk to. Someone who understands her (Sulpicia was an orphan as a human, too!) and who can be another shoulder to lean on. Emily letting all this out is a huge step for her as a person and for her and Sulpicia's relationship.

Of course this is by far the full context and it's not like this was a conversation that happened on a whim, lots of stuff has happened and it got ugly. Again, for spoiler's sake that's a secret for now, but even without all the context I think it's important to talk about this scene, even in part.

...and I'm apologizing for giving four very long answers to one question, the second one, no less.

NEXT!

H - How would you describe your style?

Many different ways. Descriptive first and foremost. I mean, sometimes I read other people's fics and think they're novel-worthy where mine may not be. Novella, maybe. I'm a bit jumpy sometimes, too, which contributes to that. It's rare for me to have many chapters cover the events of a few hours or a day, usually there's some kind of time skip. I'm getting better about it, I really think Necrosis is where I'm showing improvement with those skips, but they're still there.

I also can't really write something purely fluffy or comedic. There are ALWAYS darker undertones. I was talking about this with my JCB girlies on Discord just earlier today, but it's very rare you'll get a sweet moment from me that doesn't have some kind of undertone that makes it less than fluffy pristine. I can write Henry and Emily being affectionate all I want, it's never gonna be completely right. They're stuck in the lab forced to do this or that in regards to their relationship. They're in the Upside Down having a light conversation about murders they commited before making out on the sofa.

Guys, I turned a doppleganger crossover into a full blown angsty serious duology fic diving into relationship ethics and the role trauma plays in what we want in romantic partners and families. I can't write sunshine and fluffy clouds with unicorns relationship fluff to save my fucking life.

Lastly, this is something you've said about my writing before, but my ability to zoom in on small moments to display broader tones and contexts. It's one thing to say the conditions in HNL were abhorent for everyone involved, it's another to describe Two's tyrrany and all the ways Henry and Emily have been punished for small offenses.

A lot goes into my writing, so I couldn't give you a one or two word "style" to describe it as. Clearly, as with most things, I need six seasons and a movie.

K - What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

Can I say ripping Emily out of Henry's arms after all they've been through together in a scene that made me sob while writing it?

See, the thing is that most of the angst I come up with ends up getting used in one way or another. I suppose in one answer that's probably cheating, it's all the endings that I never wrote or I said weren't canon where my characters just don't get happily ever afters.

Maybe Alice's vision was a reality and Caius really died in front of Emily, the asshole she gave up everything for just taken away in an instant that she can't reverse. Maybe Loki never came back to life in Endgame (in my version he did and got to fight with the other Avengers cause I was piiiiiissed he didn't in the original movie) and Olivia has to watch everyone else get their happy reunions she will never have and has to learn to move on. Vengeance totally consumes Keira until she dies for, ultimately, a lie she created in her head and leaves her daughter behind in the process. So many things.

But I have another idea.

This is not something Emily knows, nor will she ever likely know since I won't really present the chance, but even if Henry did survive after they split ways, she shouldn't see him under any circumstances or even come anywhere near him. If she did, she'd discover that he would be her cantante, her blood singer:

Emily's self control around blood is already extremely strained, if she were to ever find a singer, she'd completely lose it and they'd be dead and drained before you could even say la tua cantante. If she were to ever see Henry again, she's instantly kill him because she couldn't control herself. Then she'd have to spend the rest of her extremely long life living with the fact that she killed her first love with her own hands, all because she couldn't control herself around his blood.

In a sense, unknowingly Henry became something like a forbidden fruit to her.

She'll never know this because they'll never cross paths again, but it's something that I know. And I know the consequences of what would happen if they did meet again.

They're not pretty.

M - Got any premises on the back burner you'd care to share?

I'm always coming up with little ideas, usually going towards the already in-progress fics. But sure, I'll bite.

One is a one shot I spoke of a while ago that takes place towards the end of Necrosis, not after. It'll have to be written and posted only after this point in the story itself because it would go into major spoilers. But the idea is that Emily gets to go back to Hawkins for a little while to just see how the town's evolved since she left. An all grown up Eddie turns up and after they both finally recognize each other, he basically tells her what's happened to Hawkins. Again, I'll keep some details to myself so I'm not revealing all my secrets, but I think it's going to really help Emily fully move past her human trauma that's in a sense been her ball and chain to some degree.

I've also briefly toyed with the idea of maybe trying to do a little Rule 63 and do something with Emily and a Henry who's a female. I don't think it'd change the story all that much, but I'm a sucker for evil women in fiction, let alone evil women lesbian power couples.

Also there's a mild temptation that comes with the idea of something adjacent to a high school AU where Emily and Henry just had normal lives and met in high school. All the classics, extracurriculars they support each other in, Henry sneaking in through Emily's window to study and "study," Henry using Victor's car to take Emily to a drive in, prom night...

Dammit, I'm just going through "Seventeen" from Heathers, aren't I?

Of course, it's not so much a plot bunny for a fresh fic, but once season 2 of Loki starts coming out, Time Variance Detected is getting a sequel. That's always been the plan ever since I knew there would be a season 2, but I'll start the planning and such once we get our first trailer... @ Marvel hint hint.

And maybe I'll write some about Lydia, my Sweeney Todd OC. I have a story in mind for her, but nothing beyond a "this happens then this happens" barebones plan. It's always hard to write fics for musicals because where's the line between dialogue and lyrics that need to be said for plot reasons. It's an idea though.

I also have some drafts I need to finish up that could be considered new ideas, but you'll have to wait for those...

I'll probably even have more ideas before I post this, but I'll stop here.

S - Any fandom tropes you can't resist?

I'm assuming most of my signatures are easy to identify. Corruption arcs, redemption arcs, evil power couples, evil women, transformation scenes, [X] to Lovers, references to other fandoms (some more egriegous than others), and various forms of angst.

Actual footage of me writing my fics tbh.

V - If you could write a sequel (or prequel) to any fic out there not written by yourself, which would you choose?

Honestly... I wouldn't.

I think the fics I've read ended or began perfectly the way they did. Besides, they're not my stories and only their authors can truly continue them with the same essence and spark they started with. I don't think my writing style would truly capture that same feeling.

I'll instead use this time to do some Twilight fic recs since that's mostly what my bookmarks tab is... listen, the fics for this fandom can be straight up bangers.

This one I was initially apprehensive about since it's a first person fic, but honestly... it adds to the whole experience. The original novels are in first person and this author not only captures Bella's mannerisms, but vastly improves upon them. Plus, the tags of "Bella Swan with a Backbone" and "Out of Character Bella Swan" in sequence absolutely killed me. It's at a bit of a lul, but there are only two more chapters set to come out. Worth the read, 100%

This one just finished. This was I think my first forray into this flavor of Twilight fic and it's very well constructed. I always love fics that turn canon on its head, making Edward deranged at losing Bella and again, making Bella still feel like Bella, just Better. And the characterization is just 🤌.

This one. THIS ONE. MAGNIFIQUE. This author's got some wonderful works and I'd even go as far to say we're amicable. This fic made me feel so many emotions so intensely. I remember staying up well past 3 AM to just keep reading it before common sense won over telling me I had classes in the morning. Then the next day I kept reading... I screamed and flopped around so much I think my roommate thought I was dying. Again, not my usual prefered flavor but DAMN it's so good.

Plus, the way they wrote Caius and Athenodora's relationship made me feel like a middle schooler reading OTP fanfiction again. A peak feeling, squeals and audible "THEY'RE EVERYTHING TO ME" screeches included. You know, in case it wasn't obvious I'm very protective of Caius and whoever he's with at the time. That, and Thena deserves better and I'll go to my grave saying it

W - Do you like more general prompts, or more specific ones?

I like both for different reasons.

Specific prompts means that I get more ideas from the prompt that I may not have come up with in a more broad one. It lets me work around new curves and provides a fun challenge for me.

General prompts let me be a bit more creative, of course. The world's my oyster and I can create anything I want from just a simple idea.

I couldn't really pick one or the other (wow, look, the bisexual disaster can't pick, shocker!).

We're... we're gonna pretend like I don't have several writing requests in my inbox I've been sitting on for months or even years at this point... I'M VERY SORRY, I PROMISE I WILL EVENTUALLY DO THEM.

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But thanks for the ask as always! And again, here's the customary "I'm sorry for going way too overboard" statement... I genuinely can't help it.

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[kadoodles-on-ao3]

Hey there!! Thank you for the kind ask (this is Zanthe's "Main" blog) I didn't want to reply to it directly because i'd like to keep it in my inbox to treasure, but I wanted to say thank you. It truly means a lot!

We are 🤝 over rarepairs in this tiny little fandom, though I do admit I love the anonymity nowadays! I've been here for years and it's very comfortable and nice being an older, more obscure artist lol.

I do recommend at the very least, sitting down and writing down your amv ideas. There are many i've never drawn, but i have a ton written down to chip away at the day I have the energy to, and it's very good to keep those ideas with you, i hope you're able to realize them one day, I'd love to see them!

Also, I'm glad my checklist can be of help!! If you're curious, it took about 4 days to make it, in which i was completely hyperfixated on it!spreadsheets my beloved. Good luck on your project!! If you'd ever like to chat, feel free to send a message ^w^ have a lovely day

Oh!! Of course, I'm glad it made you happy! To hear you liked it so much you want to preserve it is really touching and made me smile, thank you! :>

(I hope it's alright that I'm replying to your ask directly, if not let me know and I'll take this down and copy-paste what I said below to you in a DM if you'd like!)

Haha it's really true that rarepair fans are like their own group that crosses fandoms and/or specific ships, a little subculture inside a subculture of a subculture :)

I definitely can't blame you for not wanting a lot of attention since I feel the same way, I'd be terrified to be a big name haha.

Oh I really appreciate the advice! The fact that you think my ideas are worth preserving is very kind of you haha :) I'm very much the type who gets random inspiration at 3 AM or while eating dinner, and would otherwise forget my epiphanies if I didn't write them down. So ever since I was a kid I made a habit of it! Although back then I used pencil and paper haha, but now I have a 22-page-long semi-organized google doc. The AMV outlines are in there somewhere! Knowing there's even one person out there who wants to see something I've made or plan to make is an incredible feeling, thank you so much ;v;

Anyway, how did you learn to animate and make AMVs? And what drawing software do you use? If you don't mind me asking of course!

Oh thank you again for that checklist!! Wow 4 days seems like nothing compared to how extensive it is, that's amazing! I've been working on my own Xenoblade excel sheet project for a long time now, and it took me months and months to get that near completion. But if you're much better at organizing/planning than I am it saves a ton of time, I went through like 3 major restructurings of stuff that took days to finish... only to redo everything like a week later haha

And you're also very kind to read my silly tags and wish me luck on my project!! (It's a different one from before haha, that one is a comprehensive list of when all the party members' and bosses' voice lines play and under what circumstances. I'll be making it public on the upcoming anniversary!) For this other one, it's a challenge run of XC1 of sorts! But I have a dumb irrational fear that if I go into detail about what it is, someone else will swoop in before I get a chance to do it myself and take the world-first credit of it hahaha. But one day I will do it, I really want to, and your checklist will be immensely super helpful in planning my route and keeping track of everything, so thank you again! And thank you again (again) for this wonderful message, it really brightened my whole day! :))

#ask #i am once again nervous at intimidating the poor people who send me asks by typing a novel in response #but at the same time unable to stop myself lol #every time i get an ask it makes my day though!! #especially one as long and as kind as this one!! and from someone whose art i've loved for so much time as well!! :)

[shroompocalyps]

my brother in christ how do you render

in all seriousness tho if ur ok w it, i would appreciate tips or anything like that cause i feel like im rendering wrong lol

ok this might be lengthy but heres everything i do;

so first of all I use my sketches as the lineart mostly because I will cover it up when I fully redner, I always clean it up and make sure the proportions are correct

after putting down the base colors i put on a multiply layer on top of them this one will be for shading (all these steps will still be under the sketch/lineart) so first of all establish where your light will be coming from and put down your shadows (on hair, skin, add blushing and stuff, clothes shading)

and then I add another multiply layer and put down a solid color, depending on how cool or warm you want your drawing to look in the end

so for a warm effect I mostly use: maroon, brown, sepia or like a very muted shade of orange (if you make the color too vibrant it might give you really saturated results) for cool effects I’d use: dark blue, lilac, pink (or if u want to experiment with any color, why not?)

and then make sure to lower the opacity of the solid multiply color layer so the base colors can still be recognizable

on top of the solid multiply layer add an overlay layer. This layer will be for light. This part might he tricky, if you do not choose the right color it might clash with everything you have so far. You must make sure where your light is coming from. If you want to see more of how lighting works, I suggest looking up 3 point lighting set up. (its mostly for film purposes but it will help you recognize how light works from observing these videos)

For the warm lighting again; I choose either a pastel yellow, or pastel orange. White makes the colors you laid out before lose value.

Cool lighting: If you want it to look natural: also yellow, sometimes a pastel orange. If you want the drawing to have a more sci-fi finishing look you should pick neon colors like pink, green, turquoise

and finally, you will put one last (or however many) layer/s on top of the lineart layer. For this step I usually use brushes that have a pencil/crayon texture just because I like how it looks. (In procreate I use the 6B pencil, its on procreate by default)

for this step, you should try to cover the flaws of your sketch by picking colors that you already have on the drawing.

For example when I want something to pop out more than the rest I will pick (with eyedrop tool) the brightest color I can see on the drawing and create lines that look natural, like if I draw clothes, I put small lines that make them look fuzzy sometimes, Or make strands of hair pop up from the rest to make it look more natural or casual.

this is a speedpaint process

if theres anything else lmk ʕ·ᴥ·ʔ

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[cloverstellar]

7,11,19,25 for the art ask game<3

omg hi mutual of two or three of my mutuals! how are you? :D

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

Probably paint markers! Stuff like Posca and other things. I'm more into digital lineart and sketching with pencil and paper, but I do want to try it one day, it looks cool. :3

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

OOH, this really depends on what I want to draw. Do I want to draw someone experiencing intense emotion? I listen to JVKE or AURORA. Draw something involving action or bold movement? I listen to Fall Out Boy, AJR, and other things with that vibe, etc.

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

The amount of little sketches of flowers I have is a tad crazy. They're... e v e r y w h e r e .

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

My side profiles are HEAVILY inspired by WolfyTheWitch and my mouth shapes and body anatomy from SAD-ist, but my facial shapes and eye shapes fluctuate a lot and have been collected from a lot of different styles where I went OOOOHHHH I LIKE HOW THAT [insert trait here] LOOKS IMMA DRAW IT LIKE THAT!!

#rose asks #ask game #I fun answering these!!!! thx for the ask moot of a moot <3 #neighborhood interactions