#i cant DO anything I must Watch

[mybrainvsme]

Me: Hmm I should fix up my room, rearrange my books and stuff-

My brain: Watch Bondi Lifeguards.

Me: B-But my room-

My brain: Men. Saving. Lives. (with australian accents)

Me:…. gdi

#random #bondi lifeguards #i cant DO anything I must Watch

[suddenly-stickmin]

When your boss [who just disappeared one day and then randomly reappeared] is the same guy who blew you to smithereens.

#thsc #henry stickmin #thsc rhm #thsc right hand man #anytime i watch that scene where ellie goes 'woah what happened to THAT guy' #i just think of the absolute internal rage rhm must be feeling towards henry #and the fact that he cant do anything about/to henry without getting in massive trouble #so he just watches him from afar #furious and barely containing it #henry tries to ignore it #[tries]

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head #around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working #as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of #how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol #i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were #pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family #i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by #ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me #or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made #you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm #im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help #wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career #i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades #but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard #yapping

[gibbearish]

kinda frustrating how we've spent the last few months acknowledging how a lot of well intentioned but guilt trippy social justice posts are like specifically designed to worm into ocd ppls brains and then now every single post abt palestine is "i dont care how bad your mental health is, i dont care how bad looking at all this makes you feel, if you don't read every single post you see on this topic in full you are a horrible person and directly contributing to their deaths. 'waaaah my mental health' well at least youre not being bombed, did you think about that??" and its like. i absolutely get where youre coming from but you dont get to complain that guilt tripping is bad then turn around and use it anyways because you think the cause youre using it for is worthwhile. like. everyone thinks the cause theyre using it for is worthwhile, thats why theyre using it. but its still a shit way to do it

#like when you make a tumblr post to your tumblr blog youre not guilt tripping people who disagree with you #youre guilt tripping your followers who if theyre still following you probably already agree with what youre saying #and esp on a topic with so much brutality involved like. yeah OBVIOUSLY theres people who have to look away #like. yall know a bunch of these posts and articles and videos show graphic injuries in them right? #like i physically cant watch news videos abt this bc i will spend days with my brain making me imagine #peoples deaths in graphic detail specifically because it knows that will upset me. and i would prefer not to do that #in fact me doing that helps palestinians exactly as much as finishing my brussel sprouts helps starving kids #by which i mean none. its just a cheap guilt trip to get you to do something you don't want to #which when it's brussel sprouts thats whatever but when its 'deliberately expose yourself to extremely triggering #things otherwise youre a bad person'. not so much #idk i feel like maybe its due to ppl feeling. agitated abt not being able to do anything abt it #like the government isnt listening and we're a world away so physically /all/ we can do really is sit and watch #so i can understand a) wanting to find someone to lash out at to alleviate that feeling #like if you cant stop the actual problem at the very least you can shout down the people supporting it right? #and b) seeing 'not watching' or even just 'not watching as closely as i am' as a transgression #bc well its all we can do so if youre not even doing that you must be bad #and its like. i really do get it. but the whole world is watching right now‚ like this is THE big news thing happening rn #so a few people choosing to avoid to subject will not make a single iota of difference #idk. i guess what im saying is if youre feeling the urge to yell at someone for not looking close enough #just donate some money to a support fund instead itll do a lot more

[junotter]

what i think is the reason I'm Just Ken is a good/as popular as it is is because the way it somehow explores both what its like to be a woman and man just through ken.

like the line "I'm just Ken. Anywhere else I'd be a ten." just feels very hitting as a woman in a social media world, especially if you've seen the truerateme subreddits and the ways they judge women.

and of course the fragility and inability to find meaning/self worth outside of a romantic relationship due to the strict boxes placed on men and male relationships (and even friendships between men and women).

theres more and i know im getting annoying with the barbie posts but i did really like the movie, regardless of how "bland" its feminism is. also just all the chronically online feminists complaining about how basic it is, like oh should we tell everyone? Should we throw a party? should we invite andrea dworkin.

like is it perfect? no. does it lack in intersectionality and have poc characters act as the support to white characters? yes. should ken probably of apologized? yeah. but many things can be true about one movie.

#barbie #barbie spoilers #tiktok feminists hate me cause i dont think this movie is “impossible for men to understand” or “not for men” #once again no gender will be free unless all genders are free #also the way r*dfems are instantly trying to make some gender critical gender essentialist take from this movie #once again i wanna state the movie is not perfect!!!!! but truly women cant do anything without someone barking at their ass #cause you know who was moved by this movie? the mothers who took their daughters because they both grew up playing with barbies #and ended up watching a movie that they saw themselves in more than they expected #also all the people being like “when it was the kendom the barbies were treated like objects but in barbie land the kens were just ignored” #and its like? yeah the kens were also treated like objects? half the kens jobs were just be at the beach #and they were really only there to fill the ken part of barbie and ken #also like either they all dressed the exact same and like half were just shirtless/had open shirts most the time #is it one to one #no #but cmon #r*dfems literally fully believe women are pure beings who can never do bad things while men are inherently evil like women can sexualize me #is the sexualizing of men the exact same as women? no. but barbieland is not the real world #no “you must hate waffles” shit under here you will get blocked

[piningprecussionist]

I keep watching in mild disappointment as the notes on it keep going up, but in lieu of a response from the OP over on twitter- this post is a repost, yall. You can find the original here (again, on twitter,) if you want to show the artist some love for their work.

#i think i might have seen something about CREDITED reposting on their profile- but I think it was about using their art as pfps? #either way they do not link back to the op or have any sort of description indicating it isn't their art. just the signature the artist lef #(which. i didnt see at first; i went and fucking reverse search that shit. bc i am blind without my glasses apparently 😑) #no shame to the people who didn't realize or anything. it was in the queue at one point before I realized! #but yeah it's really cute art and I wish it was posted either w the credit or by the op over here so I could feel good abt reblogging it-- #tentatively i am putting this in the same tags I guess? hh. why must i be such an anxious creature... #kim pine #ramona flowers #knives chau #scott pilgrim #scott pilgrim vs the world #but yeah maybe. dont circulate the post. i dont feel good abt that personally. i mean i cant force you or anything but as an artist it does #+ make me a little sad to watch this lol #txt #ooc #sorry make that intense disappointment. the notes have gone up even higher since then. murder.

[ruffgem]

ive been on edge all week suffering a flare-up of my chronic hipster haterism about how all media fucking sucks immensely these fucking days and i couldnt figure out what caused it BUT THEN I REMEMBERED the oscars. the oscars. the oscars. my instagram algorithm went from mostly art stuff and like funny orangutan videos to suddenly a fuck ton of rich people walking around uselessly. THROWING MY PHONE! THROWING MY PHONE! where the fuck is my orangutan videos

#i cant do this any moooooore #but i also know i must suck to have a conversation with bc people will be like 'have you seen this movie/show' and i literally wont know #what they're talking about cuz i dont remember the last time i like... watched a new release #im sorry but i frankly dont trust anything to be good or thoughtful #from now on i only want to watch b movies made by some guy with a camcorder

[willowfey]

that post about visualisation and realising how many ppl CAN’T rly got to me….. like it is tragically fascinating to me that so many ppl can’t visualise. “can you picture the apple clearly” i can see it in perfect detail, down to the shape and texture of the stem and the drop of water on the side from being washed. i can see the table it’s sitting on, the house around it, the way the light streams in and the dust floating in it. i know what the living room looks like to the right and the garden out the door to the left, which herbs are first in the rows, i know what it feels like and smells like, what the apple tastes like, how heavy it is in my hand. i don’t have to close my eyes to do it either. i can see it picture in picture or i can let my vision fade and Go Inside My Head into this little house with the apple and i can pick it up and eat it and walk down the hall, peruse the bookshelves, go outside and stroll the grounds and meet the neighbours. i can see the apple in my hand in the garden or i can see it in my hand right here in the physical, can see it floating in front of my face.

what do u mean u don’t see anything. where do u go when u get bored of the place ur body is

#i watch fully scripted feature films of whoever i want in my head every night before i go to sleep #i can remember the details of every location in every book i’ve ever read. can remember the faces and colours in every dream i’ve ever had #WHAT DO U MEAN U CANT SEE ANYTHING #it just feels like another sense. like not being able to visualise must just be similar to being blind i guess #in the sense that u can’t imagine not experiencing it and u wouldn’t know how to describe Not experiencing it #there’s just nothing to describe at all #i feel incredibly grateful that i can visualise so well tho. despite the horrors that can come with it #i don’t know what i would be without it. it’s everything to me.

[starswallowingsea]

So Vanitas no Carte, huh.

This post is brought to you by my late night ramblings in the tags of this post

Spoilers, Theories, and Angst below. You have been warned.

So in the panel linked above, Vanitas says “If I’m going to be killed, I want Noe to do it.” and way back in chapter 9, we have Louis saying something very similar, “If I’m going to die anyway, I want [Noe] to do it.” These are some very obvious parallels for Noe’s whole character arc, and given what happened to Louis, it’s been making me think about what the end of this series will look like eventually.

Okay tumblr won’t let me put these images next to each other to shorten the post, so apologies in advance if this gets long. Anyway, with Louis, he’s had his true name stolen and is essentially “corrupted” and the bourreaus will kill him anyway once word spreads. He’s begging Noe to kill him so he doesn’t have to die at the hands of someone who doesn’t seem him for himself, even as he’s losing a grip on his sense of self. Unfortunately, Noe can’t bring himself to do it. He’s only a kid at this point, after all, and it ends up being his Teacher who does the deed.

Now with Vanitas, we know he has a mark of Vanitas of the Blue Moon on his arm and we know it spreads as he uses Vanitas’ power, slowly taking his humanity away from him. We’ve seen what would happen if he were to exert himself too much with Mikhail in the most recent arc, and we also have it confirmed that Noe has never killed anyone, though we know by the end of the series he’ll kill Vanitas.

I think, based on this, that Vanitas’ mark will continue to spread and eventually try to take over his body, turning him from a human to a vampire and that’s something we know Vanitas doesn’t want. While he hates humans and vampires equally, he values his own humanity and doesn’t want to change into something he isn’t without his ability to control it. Vanitas will begin losing control, and Noe will have to be faced with that decision of kill him or let him live as something he isn’t, as something destructive, or let someone else kill him. But we already know how that decision ends.

With Noe killing Vanitas.

#shay speaks #vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vnc spoilers #vnc theory #noe archiviste #vanitas #i have no idea if someone has posted this before but i cant stop thinking about it sooooooooooooooooooo enjoy #also this is in line with cipheral telling me its probably gonna end in tragedy if the author's previous work is anything to go by #but the journey is the best part. we know how it ends but we're all on this ride together watching them grow #and its. very sad knowing that at the end. vanitas will die and noe will kill him. because they do seem to get along for the most part #they both have very tragic backstories and histories and motivations for doing what they do #but alas. it must come to a head eventually #though i think we're quite a ways off from this point still #anyway i'd love to hear other people's thoughts on this! feel free to rb with other theories or commentary on this #its just a theory i came up with last night while looking for a panel to make an 'is it gay' joke on discord

[altfire]

i literally cant help but rp in any game im literally thinking abt the lore of my current. modded minecraft world w my friends. god

#i am a Goblin and i was running around to find a place 2 live and i found a cool village and stopped for the night #and i explored and it was wild! there's a little section in the village where mushroom ppl live in mushroom houses! #all the villagers are women except for ronald the fletcher! #its such a big village!! #so i was like ok im gonna build a wayshrine and live here #but the roads are a mess bc all the houses are too close together and there's a huge hole in the middle of the village w 2 abandoned houses #so i started fixing the roads and built stairs into the hole/a bridge across it #and when i finished the stairs i realized there was a weird house that the stairs came up right in front of?? #w pressure plates and daylight sensors???? i didnt build that it came w the village #turns out the villager that lives there is an Engineer named Priscilla. we stan a woman in stem #except i was like ''omg what if she was doing an experiment and caused the sinkhole..'' and my friend teased me for having lore #i cant help it!!! rem dont roleplay challenge impossible!!!!!! #watch your feet #i see anything redstone related and it's mad science to me. nerd shit. i do not understand it #i was also like ''haha it must be so weird for the villagers. some little goblin bitch moved into an empty #house on the edge of town and now they're fixing the roads/killing all the snakes/etc and hasn't said a word to any of us???'' #funny 2 me

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#the burdent of not being understood. its annoying and i dont like it. also its my fault #because if u say something serious in a light tone ppl dont kno wtf to do. prob bc they dont kno if ur delusional or not and like dont #wanna upset u. but then its like annoying bc they still walk away worried and im like ok neither of us r happy bc u dont get how serious #thjs is but i cant tell u how serious it is without making u worried. and y should i make u worry if u can't fuckinf do anything abt it? #so its just annoying. which is to say i went to a retirement lunch today and it was as awkward as i imagined #bc it was me and my boss and a couple professors and i dont do well in these group situations anything so i spent a lotta time spaced out #not hearing anyone bc the noise in the room was messy and my brain was peeling away from my body. but whatever i was there. and my boss #drove us both and on the way back she started the. im worried abt u talk. which i feel like she was too hesitant abt it. which like i get #bc its awkward to bring up but like i dont give a fuck so idk i feel like u gotta start those conversations like. this is how watching u #makes me feel. idk whatever. and i was honest but like it was a 5min car ride so i didnt have thr time to be like ok heres the deal. ya #kno? so now im all annoyed bc my brain is fucking unbearable when i feel like i havent made my thoughts clear. and now its like. do i bring #it back up? or just let it go? whats to be gained by talking abt it? all that i have to say is upsetting bc im very aware im being self #destructive. thats the point. i get boried and my brain only lets me do like 2 things so i use those things to make myself insane. bc at #least then i can observe the symptoms of the stress im exherting on myself. and i kno that not good bc idk how to stop and ppl r always #like u gotta relax. what will help u relax? and im like u dont fucking understand. i cant regulate thr amount i like things. if i like #something i like it so much it becomes stressful. and i like drawing but its not relaxing. its a thing i have to do and its stressful bc im #constantly thinking abt making things perfect and never meeting thst mark. my happiest memories arent even happy moments theyre just times #where my brain stopped for a second and i could just breathe for a minute. so like i cant relax. i dont like anything a normal amount so #the solution must be medication. but my brain has decided im not allowed to fix this problem until i move away so like 🙃 and like i was #giving little bits of this in the car but its like lady i kno its a problem. ive known its a problem for years. the self awareness doesnt #help. except that it keeps me from doing anything extremely bad bc for me if i at least kno where it comes from i can b like ah yes. this #is fucking stupid lol. but i dunno how me sharing all this helps bc im sure it only raises the worry. but like its fine. i mean its not but #like ya kno. and i was kinda explaining how upsetting it is for me to have my schedule changed without warning even if its for things other #ppl would see as good and i wasnt thst firm abt it so it was: but i can't just do nothing for u! and i was like ugh fuck it fine whatever. #and like do i bring that back up bc it is like a respect my boundaries thing but like i feel like if i were anyone else it would be good #to drag someone out of their comfort zone but im being dragged into situations i find profoundly isolating bc i cant seem to function in #groups. ugh its just fucking annoying bc i dont want her to feel bad. i appreciate the effort but like ugh its exhausting. whatever. it was #anyway. im just annoyed thst i should have explained things better. also im annoyed thst i constantly forget most things taste bland and #then im annoyed when i hsve to eat bland things. i think my nose doesnt work right bc i csnt smell much either #unrelated

[todayisafridaynight]

rgg was real for insinuating treasurers are batshit insane

#snap chats #dangerous combo i was thinking about mine this morning but i also opened my canvas and forgot i had plans to draw jo yesterday #and im not mustering the will to make the post ive wanted to make for months in that I Think They'd Get Along #i think they should have bursts of violence together itd be a healthy team building exercise #theyd get along until mine found out jo left his baby in a locker and then i think we're watching the bloodiest beat down of the century #either that or the roast of the century. he might not be swinging but he's still doing maximum emotional damage #jo aint even denying that shit either he gonna let mine kick the shit outta him cause he knows he deserves it #but yeah very funny neither of them got proper education in economics yet they're left to manage funds #yeah i trust these *orphaned bitches to do my taxes. whats the worst that could happen #*technically jo aint an orphan hes a runaway but he still parentless im running with it #they'd both also get a stroke over aoki and daigo being an item. for one reason or another #ive compared mine to aoki but now the cursed option of comparing him to his dad #mental illness really does take you places you never wouldve imagined otherwise i need to be put down #i must draw them together but i cant think of anything.... very awful... #all i can imagine is sawashiro in goofy j-drama scenarios with the arakawas... its just too easy to imagine #esp after all ive done is watch tsutsumi in cutesy dramas and movies.... actual darlings for charas he plays. sometimes #im getting off topic ok bye

[rntsuoka]

cant believe i witnessed with my own ears oiks saying "godzilla-hajime" and saying he just wanted to show iwa there are movies other than godzilla.............. frdt are iwaoi canon just say it TELL ME

#tooru has 1235335354675475475 nicknames for iwa and im depressed #iwaoi marathoning movies every weekend CANON #no one can tell me otherwise #can u believe that maybe as they marathon movies tooru keeps going like 'iwachan whos your fav chara in this movie??' #and iwa saying some rando cuz he was barely paying attention to the movie #(he'll never admit that he was too distracted by oikawa's cute reactions to even be watching anything) #and then tooru goes 'WHY DO U LIKE THAT CHARA HUH #IS IT CUZ U THINK THEYRE CUTE' #and then switches it to another movie bc he cant allow that #iwa just going like just put on godzilla then #'BUT THERE ARE OTHER MOVIES HAJIME CHAN' #and iwas like at least in godzilla its mostly just godzilla and u wont be mad if i say my favourite character is godzilla #'​WHY ARE U SO OBSESSED WITH GODZILLA IWACHAN' #anyway its s typical saturday night #iwaoi are huddled against each other in the couch with blankets #and they eventually fall asleep in each others arms #its happened i KNOW it must have

[tskumoyuuma]

did a first sketch of an oc of mine named caleb

#personal shizz #my ocs #my art #this is def not his final design #mostly cause i relied heavily on the ref i was using #messed up his nose cause i was also watching something while doing it loll #when i started i was like 'ok quick simple sketch just to get a better visual of him in my head' #but. as always. cant stop myself when it comes to clothes #i see a wrinkle. i must draw it #anyways. been a while since i drew anything #n i like how this turned out #i also did a sketch of the town hes from (while also using a ref pic) #but that ones a lot more half assed cause i got a little bored doing the buildings loll #so i wont post it #now. bedtime

[autisticlee]

every time someone tells me to "watch tutorials on youtube" for anything, it makes me want to cry. I STRUGGLE SO MUCH TO FOLLOW ALONG AND LEARN FROM VIDEO TUTORIALS. THEY HARDLY EVER HELP. BUT EVERYONE TELLS ME I HAVE TO DO IT AND THEY DONT UNDERSTAND WHY I AM SO FRUSTRSTED AND WHY ITS SO HARD FOR ME

#hell i dont even understand why i struggle so much with them #why cant i be like everyone else and learn ANYTHING AND EVERYTHIJG SUPER EASILY from video tutorials #why am i stuck being confused about the vagueness. struggling to comprehend verbal and visual things. getting stuck having questions #BUT NOT GETTING THE ANSWERS from the video so spending hours on google trying to find answers (usually failing) #and also not getting any feedback on if im doing it right or how to improve or walking me through in a way that helps #for example. i watched like 10 videos to learn crochet. could not figure it out. took a few months to learn a magic circle (first step) #why cant i be like everyone else and learn from dumb videos!!!!!!!! #lee rants #i feel like the only person that has this issue. everyone else is like why wont you just watch a video. its so easy to learn from them #IS IT REALLY??? MY BRAIN MUST BE BROKEN BECAUSE IT IS IN FACT NOT EASY FOR ME OK

[kateis-cakeis]

narrows eyes at bbc iplayer why does bbc merlin say available for 11 months instead of for over a year,,,, is it really gonna disappear again in a year??

#it's so handy being able to watch old shows on bbc iplayer now - like it being an actual fucking service we deserve for paying the #tv licence but if they're just gonna take it away again what is the pointtttt #oh wait a lot of old shows that seemed to be staying forever now have 10 or 11 months #what changed..... bbc iplayer??? what changedd??? #what's the point if we cant watch these old shows anywhere but here - you certainly cant get dvds anymore and not dvds in hd either #if this is a rights thing i swearrrrr #the bbc is like soooooooo why cant it hold onto anything #even the new dw episodes say 11 months im so ?????? #the old ones dont but the new ones do #if bbc iplayer becomes useless again im not gonna use it :/ #i never used to use it because of the dumb 30 day thing #or 7 day thing back in the day #and this is why we must preserve things physically ffs #time to break out obs o7