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tpher · 4 months

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scary girl analysis !

something something the most clearly gimmicky gen 4 character we know. as your resident pahkitew island apologist, i dont care. it actually took me a bit to warm up to her and i figured id talk abt why that is

so her main thing is being creepy and sadistic for the sake of jokes. its not serious.. mostly. she does prove to actually be down to hurt others (such as when she got a hold of a jackhammer). but what about an instance where she wanted to hurt someone for actual reasons? when was that?

that was when priya went up to her to compliment her on doing a good job on the previous challenge. priya says that shes surprised by scary girl having done a good job.

scary girls response?

a very defensive "oh, it surprised you that i was good? cuz you thought id do bad?"

and thats the thesis of this post

scary girl is very insecure

backing up for a moment, in ep 2 when the teams were on ships and attacking each other, she was the one who came up with the idea of sinking the other teams ship as an idea on what to do when they were out of ammo (? iirc). but no one else heard that, just zee

then in ep 3, ripper makes her go last in the relay race thing bc he didnt want her to "blow things" for the team. she reacts by trying to bite his finger. not with a funny creepy smile, but with genuine anger to her literal bite. and then during that challenge, she infamously grabs a bear by the arm and starts beating it up while saying "thats what you get for growling at me!!!". once shes done, she goes "byeee" and goes on like nothing happened. proving that if someone wrongs her, she can easily let it go.. so long as she gets to do something back. remember this for later

and here we come back to her interaction with priya. so far, scary girl has proven herself to be a pretty alright player and she herself knows that. so the notion of someone being SURPRISED she did well?? does not sit well with her at all. but the way that she harps on the wording, even before zee steps in to make it worse, is what gets to me. it just really adds an extra layer to her character that, well. ironically surprised me! for someone who always seems to be in her own world, so unconventional, so ill-fitting with everyone else to also be insecure in some capacity?

anyway she tries to hurt priya with a spoon but gets interrupted. later on, priya is still thinking abt their encounter and feels bad so she tries to make it up to scary girl by flattering her. namely by saying that scary girls question was smart.. and priya being her awkward self, only dug herself in a hole by making it seem like that was a smart question by scary girls standards

scary girl is speechless. baffled. mad beyond words

it should be noted that scary girl looked offended when priya even started speaking. meaning that she also did not forget about their conversation that morning. she REALLY took it to heart. applying the bear logic here, had scary girl hurt her with the spoon earlier, would she be less mad? would she had considered each other even? and in that case, would this comment go over better or would it had simply restarted her need for revenge?

well. they dont interact for the rest of the episode up until the very end. after ripper used priya as a human shield, obviously injuring her

scary girl tells her that rippers a jerk and that priya didnt deserve that. so she'll be voting to get ripper out. and calls priya her "friend".

(her face and tone makes me a bit suspicious if this was genuine. but thats probably just her being her offputting self so i'll ignore it.) ok so by scary girl logic, priya deserved to have SOMETHING bad coming her way after what she said to her.

but not this.

scary girl, who came here to "make friends and watch them get really hurt", was not okay with what ripper did to priya. perhaps she thinks that only she could be allowed to hurt priya to balance things out? personally giving priya her karma, perhaps?

but now she considers priya a "friend". who likely wants to see her get hurt. but in the fun way that scary girl likely sees most other contestants as, possibly? idk.

anyway after all of that, we can see just how insecure scary girl can get over unintentionally awkward phrasing. just how deeply it hurts her feelings to be underestimated like that

season 2 spoilers ahead !!!

in season 2, we see even less of her. but there is SO much to work with

normal girl is so fascinating to me

by the time s2 starts, scary girl already has an all new look. shes trying to be "normal"

she admits in her confessional that some ppl thought she was too scary in the first season so thats why she changed her appearance and her everything. who were these ppl?

other than a dog as a joke, online forums, showing an interesting glimpse into the in-universe ""real world"" stepping into total drama. perhaps also a meta joke on the fandoms response to her but who knows. imagine unabashedly being yourself on tv and everyone is telling you to change. you are 16 and likely going through a weird phase. feeling a lot of heightened emotions already and ""knowing"" that this is who you are (at the moment). and if its not a phase? still 16 on international television getting lambasted by millions

and last but not least, her MOM??? her own mother. that just raises more questions abt how scary girl was before getting on td. was she NOT like this before? was she playing it up for the cameras? or did she just go unhinged without parental supervision? in any case the fact is that even her own mom wasnt okay with what makes her happy and how she presented herself.

so scary girls solution? to try her best to suppress anything that made her unique. to try to adhere to "societal norms", in her own words.

we dont see much of her in this ep other than her commenting on how shes normal and totally did not want to see someone get hurt. shes clearly struggling so bad. she knows that apparently what she likes isnt "right", therefore the opposite must be true, right?

she is simultaneously so immediately different that the others didnt even recognize her at first. yet still so "scary" that she cant fit in. she just doesnt know how no matter how hard she tries. if she were to stay longer, what can she do? this game is not only abt your skills in the challenges its also a social thing. how long until she snapped and went back to her old ways?

and then we get to the campfire ceremony. chef is about to call out whatever it was the she did wrong that day, but she interrupts him with a simple "no."

she cannot fathom being sent home, at least not this early. bc shes normal! she is sooo normal and she tried SO HARD to be normal! she read normal books and normal movies and studied normal people. she even taught herself to smile in a more acceptable way, which is so autistic coded to me. so she deserves to stay longer.

(getting flashbacks to my topher psychoanalysis and his entitlement being both a tragedy and his self-imposed downfall)

..but she studied "normal people" in her own not-normal way. while they werent looking. while they were sleeping. while they had no idea she was there.

so she got booted out for that. and she cannot believe it.

when she says that she "didnt even try to hurt anyone this time", she is mad. that was her ""fun"" and she managed to control it 100% only to get eliminated??? shes fed up!

but when she talks about how she taught herself how to smile in a "less-creepy" way?

she softens up and looks genuinely hurt.

she tried so hard. she saw all those horrible comments from people judging her based on like 5 episodes on a reality show. her own mother didnt accept her. her insecurity won and she aimed to change and repress everything that made her unique

and it still wasnt enough

#txt #td scary girl #td spoilers #i think parts of this sound like im seriously condoning her hurting others bc its [her] fun #and i am! scarysweep

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weirdowithaquill · 11 months

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The Importance of Names in the Railway Series

It's been a hot minute since my last take on the world of Thomas & Friends - so here's one that has sort of been wandering about in the back of my mind for a while.

How important is a name to an engine? Cause we know the engines do put a lot of value into a name. Stepney and Edward say as such:

"[...] I think our Controller was right. All engines ought to have names." "Yes," agreed Edward, "it's most important."

And it's further reinforced by Bear later in the series:

"It's nicer than just having a number," he (Bear) says. "Having a name means that you really belong."

Donald and Douglas echo this by giving themselves names (partially to fool the Fat Controller) and the interesting thing is that Sir Charles actually uses their names almost exclusively from that moment on - unless referring to them by their new numbers.

Even BoCo gives himself a name! And it feels pretty on-the-spot too, seeing as he just goes "but you can call me BoCo".

But in contrast, every single rail-based 'villain' or 'antagonist' in the Railway Series only has a number, or is Diesel, who doesn't really have a name either. Check me! There's:

Diesel

The 'Big City Engine'

Class 40 (D261/D471)

D199

D40125

None of them have names - not even 'the Big City Engine'. They're given nicknames by the engines, but otherwise they are just numbers. And I think it runs a bit deeper than that. A little while back I did a post on the 'railway rulebook' - and something I said was that managers did everything in their power to both dehumanise the engines and make the engines loyal to them. What better way of doing that than only giving certain engines names? 'Flying Scotsman' gets a name because he's a prestigious express engine, but the engine who shunts his coaches? The goods engine who brought his coal? Why would management give them names - to do that is to undermine the class system they've built to keep the engines fighting amongst themselves. If the engines are on equal footing, then they'd want equal rights.

You know... this sounds a lot like the Communist Manifesto. I don't think the Rev. W. Awdry intended it that way, but it does.

But that's beside my point. Certain railways either don't want their engines to have names. In particular, I would point at the LMS and the LNER, which both had a massive roster of engines. Not only is recording all their names a pain, but it would also add a sense of individuality to them and muck up their spreadsheets. In most countries, people have an ID number for identification - and that's what these companies needed. Not names; numbers.

The GWR is a notable exception to this, and I think people have noticed that. Both Duck and Oliver arrive with names, and Sir Topham I was a Swindon-apprentice who would have grown up with GWR ideology. Edward got his name because he was built as an express engine, Henry and Gordon for the same reasons - and everyone else either gives themselves names or have names given to them.

Toby probably got his from his crew and the locals after decades of being in the same area - I mean, he literally runs into their town, of course they have a name for him. Percy is given his by Sir Topham, and we can infer Thomas and James got similar treatment. Donald and Douglas gave themselves names, and so did BoCo.

Another possibility is that a preservation society would give engines names, though that was more the engines on said heritage line - like in Stepney the Bluebell Engine, where Stepney refers to all his friends on the Bluebell by name, and says his controller gave out some names, like Bluebell and Primrose - but Adams and Cromford got their names from the other engines and they don't want the controller finding out. And again, Stepney and Edward both explicitly say that they believe engines ought to have names - and that they believe it really makes an engine feel like family.

This almost exclusively applies to engines in a steam-dominated society, and once again I have to return to my old nemesis: early British Railways. British Railways inherited a massive network that spanned a continent and had thousands of engines - not to mention the fact they were going to scrap all their steam engines and replace them with new diesel engines. Names were never ever going to be viable. But moreover, they were going to kill all the steam engines - if these engines were seen by the public to be very sentient and intelligent, then there would be an outcry. Dehumanising these engines was extremely important to their business model.

So almost every new engine built under BR got no name. And that includes steam and diesel engines. And this sort of environment, where engines referred to each other by number, became standard.

Names have a lot of meaning behind them. We give names to things we believe are very valuable to us, things we really bond with, like a teddy bear or a beloved family car. Names confer a level of love and care, as opposed to numbers, which have a level of 'repetitive factory conveyor belt' to them, for lack of a better term. These engines, referring to each other by number, didn't sound as human as those referring to each other by name.

For a good example, as mentioned above, the GWR gave all its engines names - and the GWR has the most engines from its company preserved. The fact that people knew these engines had names, and possibly by name, really contributed to how many were saved.

But what makes it even more interesting is the fact that often engines give each other names. Bear is given his name by the other engines, Duck is a nickname given to 'Montague' because he waddles. And I think the reason that none of these diesels have names is because no steam engine ever gave them a name, and company policy means no diesel has the mindset for giving out names either. Steam engines give each other names, but it becomes exclusive to them and friendly diesels, and thus dies out over the generations.

Engines today don't have names. They don't even really have a proper visible number. They have a serial number somewhere, but that's about it. And I think that says a lot about what happened to the tradition of names for engines.

To sum up a very long, winding ramble, I think names came from several places:

Themselves. Engines could name themselves, like Donald and Douglas - who got their names from (maybe) former drivers?

From crew and community. Toby most likely got his name from the people around him, being on an isolated tramway.

From their owners. Flying Scotsman, Mallard and Percy are good examples of this. It represents a level of importance and care for this engine, as well as in some cases reinforcing class.

From other engines. Duck and Bear are great examples of this, as they are given names by their friends that they like, as it makes them feel as if they fit in.

And these names were very common in the steam era as engines gave each other names and communities knew specific engines and gave them names. As everything became more commercial and bureaucratic, naming was lost. Numbers reinforced company identity and dehumanised the engines to make them less sympathetic to the public. Look at Donald and Douglas, who probably had their names for decades - given by their friends - but never learnt by management.

Wow, that took a bit of a dark turn. Thanks for reading, and as usual, none of the above pictures are mine.

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confetti-cupcake · 16 days

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WIP Wednesday 🧁

Thanks for the tag @hoodie-buck! 🩷 This is from my Amazing Race fic, which I thought might be a one-shot, but is quickly devolving into a two-shot faster than I can say "roadblock". Enjoy!

Eddie sighs, wringing his hands together. “So, I’ve been thinking a lot. About what you said the other day. How I should put myself out there more. And how I should maybe start doing more things for myself.”

“Right,” Buck says, cocking his head a little.

“And I think you were right about that. You made me think about things in a way that I hadn’t really before. Mainly what I’m doing with my life, and what I’m getting out of it. I’ve been living with Christopher so front of mind that I never really stopped to think about what I want. And so I brought you here to ask you something that I think is a little overdue.”

Buck straightens up in his seat and sets his hands on the table. He looks back at Eddie, eyes glimmering with something that looks strangely like hope. “Okay.”

“Buck.” Eddie takes a deep breath. “Will you be my partner?” He clears his throat. “Uh, m-my Amazing Race partner,” he clarifies quickly because he realizes that was his id talking there. He suddenly wants to sink underneath the floorboards of this establishment and live on as a cellar stowaway, if it means he'll never be perceived or slip up again.

Buck just gapes at him–eyes wide, mouth hanging open, no reply. It’s as if unbridled joy was thrown into a bowl with wilting disappointment and was promptly blended into the most utter confusion he’s ever seen on a person, even for Buck. His eyes, his brow, his cheeks and his lips all tell vastly different stories. For the first time in Eddie’s life, he’s not sure what to make of Buck’s response.

“Oh.”

Oh? This was… not the reaction he’d been expecting. “Yeah. Is, um, everything okay?”

“Yeah, yeah,” Buck says, vaguely gesturing into the air. “Just, uh, processing it all. So you’re… you’re really going to do it?”

Eddie nods. “I called her back this morning. You were right. I should do something for myself. A little extra money wouldn’t hurt. And who knows? Maybe it could be fun.”

“And you want me to run it with you? What about your sisters, or–or your parents?”

“You really think I could stand to race around the world with anyone in my family right now? And I hope you realize that all the reasons that you said I’d be good at it apply to you, too. You know more random facts about the world than anyone else I know, and you know so much about the race. And I trust you to have my back. Can’t really say that for many other people.” His eyes widen. “You know how to drive stick, right? ‘Cause Bobby says that’s important.”

“I do, actually.” Bucks gaze shifts down to the table, his fingers lacing together anxiously. “Eddie, I–I can’t…” he trails off, and flits his eyes toward him again, but can't quite meet him square. “You sure you really want to do this with me?”

“Are you kidding? You’re the only person I’d want to do this with.” This, and everything else, for the rest of my life. “So, what do you say? You in?”

Tagging: @elvensorceress @eddiebabygirldiaz @monsterrae1 @queerbuckleys @bibuckbuckley

@ashwinmeird @loserdiaz

#buddie #buddie fic #eddie diaz #evan buckley #wip wednesday #fic snippet #nothing safe is worth the drive feed

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green-alien-turdz · 3 months

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any life tips for someone still in school(school tips or not)

really mfin struggling n your real smart so i figured id ask you first

Ion know if I'm the best person to be askin life advice from, but I'll do my best. Also I suck with mildly vague prompts, so I'll do my best.

-Give yourself some mfing grace. You are not perfect n you won't ever be. That's not a bad thing! You're only human. Of course, set goals for yourself n always aim for somethin greater, but holy fuck, it's okay to not meet that. At the end of the day, you fuckin tried n that's all that matters. Even if the only effort you can put into tryin one day is just showin up or even just plannin shit out, it's a step towards bein better. You don't have to meet all of these unrealistic expectations you have for yourself. You are not a robot.

-Take breaks. Legit, if you keep pushin yourself too hard, you WILL burn out n the longer you've been pushin yourself, the longer you will take to get outta that. People will spend years thinkin that they have to constantly be this machine. Eventually you'll start to stumble, get mad, push even harder n then fade out. It can happen in the blink of an eye, which is why it's SO important to take time for yourself. Make sure you're not stressin 24/7 about whatever it is you be stressin over. The world will not end bczus you needed to catch your breath.

-Appreciate what n who you are, no matter what stage in your life you're at. If you're flunking classes, you've still got greatness in ya. If you aren't that great at socializin with friends n shit rn, that doesn't mean you're a terrible person. We can't always be what we want to be, n there's nothin wrong with that. Every second you are alive, you are growin in one way or another. There's ups n downs, but that doesn't mean shit. You are gonna be way harder on yourself n think 10x worse of everything you do that just about anyone else would. n even if there is some dickhead out there who wants to talk shit non-stop about you, fuck what they think, man. If some sad mf has nothin better to do than to put others down, then their word don't mean shit. There are times in life where you won't like what you see lookin back at you n if you're ready to change, go for it, but if you need a minute, that's okay too.

-Make an effort to see the good. Whether you're really strugglin rn or if you're in a good position mentally, always take a second to just appreciate anythin that is good. It can be the smallest things! They can be stupid things, it doesn't matter. Find some sort of positive anchor to keep you as grounded as you can be. Life treatin you like shit n you feel like shit? At least I know that this show or movie I really like exists. Did you lose someone? Well at least you had them for the time that you did. So on n so forth. Sometimes you just gotta step outside n breathe, allow yourself to just realize that you're alive. It might not be great, or good, or even okay, but you're here n there are good things out there for you.

Okay, now some like actual life tips lol

-You are not your grades bro. Whether it be your parents expectations or your own, the way schools gradin works just doesn't always align with how a mf might work n operate. Sometimes we just mess up a bit too or don't understand a topic all too well n there's nothin wrong with that. It just seems like a big deal bcuz of how they like to measure n quantify how smart they think you are with a letter or number. You're not gonna get everythin in life, so it's complete bs that something that you maybe just needed more time on can have a shitty score slapped on it n have you made to feel dumb n shit like that.

-If you can get a job n want one, then fuckin do it. Apply everywhere. Even if it's somethin you don't think you'd be good at, trust me, you'll pick it up. The rejection can suck, but you get right back on the mf horse n apply more places. Call or go in to check in on your application (this just reminds them sometimes to fuckin look). Interviews can be nervewrackin, but for a minimum wage job, they'll legit be around 10-15 minutes (n that's stretchin it for some). When you get the job, you will probably feel like a dumbass or a child bcuz you don't know how to do shit yet- but give it a few weeks n you could do everythin with your fuckin eyes closed. They are not gonna treat you what your worth n it's gonna suck. Hours are long when you need more time for school n non existent when you need cash. If it doesn't work, that's fine too. Hopefully you can stay at jobs for at least a year, that shows commitment on resumes.

-Don't allow yourself to be walked all over. I know this kinda goes against some of what I was sayin in the work tip, but that's slightly different (but there comes a point there too where you need to put your foot down to bein treated like garbage). This world will try n chew you up n spit you out a hundred times over, but don't let stupid mfs be the ones to do it. That friend who kinda treats you like shit? Well, talk to them about it, see if they change. n if they don't, end the friendship. Yeah it sucks, especially bcuz you probably still care about them, but if you allow even one mf to treat you n your feelings like some useless or disposable thing, then others will take the same opportunity with you. It's not always that simple, trust me, I still have people in my life that have done horrific things to me which I still allow to treat me like shit- but if you can, please bring yourself to do it. You are worth so much more than how some people might treat you. Even if this isn't an issue in your life rn, there will be people along the way who will be douches n try to take advantage of you or your generosity or whatever the fuck else. Shut that shit down as fast as you can.

#asks #dude i'm hella scatter brained rn so i had to cut this off #if you had specific tips you wanted lmk #i don't think this is what you were even askin for #i just can't think clearly #sorry #i hope things start lookin up for you dude

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lu-is-not-ok · 10 months

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Thanks for the analysis post! It's neat to see your interpretations, and is definitely helping me sort out my own(I was struggling with wording mine). I'd like to share my take/understanding on passives/supports, because I think characters who use different resources depending on whether it's passive or support are really, really interesting. (Plus I am still staring directly at Outis' LCB and G Corp needing Sloth. I want to know what is going on with that old woman)

I think passive/support sins mesh with the actual passive/support's mechanics themself and are meant as an explanation for why this occurs. Character analysis wise, I think it could be used to specify and solidify motivations for certain actions the character takes.

The best example I can use for this is Gregor, since 3/5 of his IDs heal HP. To abridge all of my understanding of the specific sins each ID needs for their passive/support: LCB Gregor's s1 Gloom has to do with, as you mentioned, his experiences of being a war vet, G Corp's s1 Gluttony has to do with his endless will to survive and continue fighting, and RB Gregor's s1 Lust is all about how impulsive this Gregor can come off as when it comes to food.

So like, all three of them have the same passive, with LCB Gregor's costing 3 for both passive and support, while G Corp's and RB's cost 4 for passive, G Corp costing 4 for support and RB 5.

So like. Why does Gregor heal in the first place? I think it's cannibalism for all three of them, with G Corp being much more aggressive about it when he's afraid of dying, and as such healing after clashes, not at combat start.

However, all three of them have a different reason for doing so- LCB's passive is quite literally labeled 'Forced Survival,' after all, and I think it's rather self-explanatory for his Gloom. G Corp's is gluttony because it's specifically the 'survival' gluttony- G Corp Gregor has resigned himself to the war, but he still wants to live. And finally, RB Gregor is lust because of his impulsivity and his want to make good food, to try the ingredients.

I think passive/support activation costs have a similar meaning to EGO cost as well? Because I'm sure RB Gregor really doesn't want to support Ryoushuu, but if he's convinced by his lust enough, he will. As much as LCB Gregor might hate it, he doesn't tend to resist things that happen to him and could fall to gloom and habits from his days as a soldier easily.

I also wanted to touch on characters who passives/supports did different things, but are fueled by the same sin- for instance, TingTang Hong Lu's Gluttony. Either way, he gets something out of it to satisfy his want for something interesting, though how he goes about doing it is different depending on if it's for himself or for someone else. But yeah. Sorry for the ramble in your ask box, just wanted to share a fun thought I've had.

(I've been also trying to figure out the EGO weaknesses for a while and I remember seeing an interpretation of them, but I can't remember what it was atm- something to do with being literally weak to that type of emotion, I believe?)

I think that you might legit be onto something here! No, yeah, all that you're saying here makes sense! The one thing I would argue is what LCB Gregor's healing passive represents - I think it has more to do with his bug arm constantly regenerating even against his will, which I think still makes it fit under the Gloom category, considering how his arm's behavior can be interpreted as an allegory of his PTSD.

But no, yeah, this all makes sense to me. Thanks a lot for sharing, my brain was running on fumes by the time I got to actually explaining how Sins work with Identities and E.G.O, so I didn't have the energy to actually take a moment and think about how all of that could apply properly.

When it comes to E.G.O Sin Resistances, I think the main point I want to figure out is whether they represent a Sinner's outward resistances or inward resistances, if that makes sense? Like, does it represent how they react to other people's actions fueled by those Sins, or does it represent how they react to the internal influence of those Sins?

So, if you don't mind me hijacking your own ask to talk about Sin Resistance quirks, I'm gonna just. Talk about them and see if we can figure some of these out together. Under cut cause... it got long.

EDIT: APPARENTLY THE SOURCE I WAS USING FOR REFERENCE ON SOME OF THIS WAS JUST STRAIGHT UP FUCKING WRONG SOMETIMES???? Anyway I'm fixing some of the accidental misinfo.

For one - the amount of Fatal/Endure/Ineffective resistances depends on the threat level of the E.G.O.

All E.G.O thus far have two Fatal resistances. All Zayin E.G.O have one Endured resistance. All Teth E.G.O have one Ineffective resistance (except for Red Eyes Ryoshu, which follows the pattern of Zayin E.G.O). All He E.G.O have both one Endured resistance and one Ineffective resistance.

Here are some other patterns I've noticed.

All Zayin E.G.O Endure Sin damage of the same type as that E.G.O's Sin affinity.

Most Teth E.G.O work the same way, just with having the resistance to their own Sin affinity be set as Ineffective instead. However, there are actually some exceptions here!

Those notable exceptions are: - Red Eyes Ryoshu (who Endures it like a Zayin) - Sunshower Outis (Sloth is Ineffective against her, while Gluttony is Normal), - You Want To Get Beat? Hurtily? Meursault (Pride is Ineffective against him, while Envy is Normal) - AEDD Heathcliff (Wrath is Ineffective against him, while Gloom is Fatal)

Most He E.G.O follow the pattern of Teth E.G.O, having the resistance to their own Sin affinity be Ineffective. Just like Teth E.G.O however, there are some exceptions.

Those are: - Sunshower Yi Sang (Gluttony is Ineffective against him, while Sloth is Endured) - AEDD Gregor (Wrath is Ineffective against him, while Gloom is Fatal)

Another pattern is that E.G.Os of the same Abnormality of the same threat level always have the exact same Sin resistances.

When it comes to E.G.Os of the same Abnormality but different threat level, usually there is still some overlap in resistances.

Specifically: - Sunshower share their Fatal resistances (Wrath and Lust), while different in their Ineffective resistances (Sloth for Outis, Gluttony for Yi Sang). Notably, Sunshower Yi Sang Endures Sloth, the Sin that's Ineffective against Sunshower Outis. - Fourth Match Flame, Capote and AEDD all share both Fatal and Ineffective resistances between their Teth and He counterparts. - Ryoshu's two Red Eyes E.G.O have only one overlap, that being Fatal to Pride.

Notable overlaps between the Sinners' Base E.G.Os and their other E.G.Os: - Yi Sang's Base E.G.O Endures Sloth (Sunshower, partially Wishing Cairn which has Sloth as Ineffective) and is Fatal to Gloom (Wishing Cairn, Fourth Match Flame) and Envy (Dimension Shredder). - Faust's Base E.G.O Endures Pride (Telepole) and is Fatal to Lust (Hex Nail) and Gluttony (Telepole). Notably Fluid Sac has no overlap, instead having some resistances as opposite to it (Fatal to Pride, Endures Lust). - Don's Base E.G.O Endures Lust (Fluid Sac, partially Lifetime Stew which has Lust as Ineffective) and is Fatal to Wrath (no current overlap) and Gloom (Lifetime Stew). Notably Fluid Sac has an opposite resistance to it (Gloom Ineffective), while Telepole has no overlap. - Ryoshu's Base E.G.O Endures Lust (Red Eyes) and is Fatal to Gluttony (Red Eyes) and Envy (no overlap). Notably both Red Eyes (Open) and Fourth Match Flame have no overlaps, instead both having some resistances as opposite to it (Red Eyes (Open): Endures Gluttony, Envy Ineffective; Fourth Match Flame: Endures Envy). - Meursault's Base E.G.O Endures Pride (Pursuance, partially You Want To Get Beat? Hurtily? which has Pride as Ineffective) and is Fatal to Lust (Pursuance, Capote) and Gluttony (Pursuance). Notably Capote has an opposite resistance to it (Endures Gluttony), while Pursuance is a near-perfect match. - Hong Lu's Base E.G.O Endures Gloom (no overlap) and is Fatal to Wrath (Roseate Desire, Dimension Shredder) and Envy (Dimension Shredder). Notably all his current E.G.O share Fatal resistance to Wrath. - Heathcliff's Base E.G.O Endures Envy (partially Telepole which has Envy as Ineffective) and is Fatal to Lust (no overlap) and Gluttony (Telepole). Notably AEDD has no overlap. - Ishmael's Base E.G.O Endures Gloom (no overlap) and is Fatal to Lust (Capote) and Sloth (Ardor Blossom Star). Notably Roseate Desire has no overlap, and all her non-Base E.G.Os have opposite resistances to it (Roseate Desire: Lust Ineffective; Capote: Fatal to Gloom; Ardor Blossom Star: Endures Lust, Fatal to Gloom). - Rodya's Base E.G.O Endures Pride (no overlap) and is Fatal to Gloom (Fourth Match Flame) and Envy (no overlap). Notably Rime Shank has no overlap, and all her non-Base E.G.Os have opposite resistances to it (Rime Shank: Gloom Ineffective; Fourth Match Flame: Endures Envy). - Sinclair's Base E.G.O Endures Gluttony (no overlap) and is Fatal to Wrath (no overlap) and Pride (no overlap). Notably none of his non-base E.G.O overlap with it, and Impending Day has an opposite resistance (Wrath Ineffective). - Outis's Base E.G.O Endures Pride (no overlap) and is Fatal to Lust (Sunshower) and Envy (no overlap). Notably Ya Sunyata Tad Rupam and Ebony Stem have no overlap, instead having opposite resistances to it (Ya Sunyata Tad Rupam: Lust Ineffective; Ebony Stem: Fatal to Pride). - Gregor's Base E.G.O Endures Sloth (no overlap) and is Fatal to Gloom (AEDD) and Envy (no overlap). Notably Legerdemain and Lantern have no overlap, and both Legerdemain and AEDD have opposite resistances (Legerdemain: Fatal to Sloth; AEDD: Fatal to sloth, Endures Envy). Another interesting note is that Legerdemain and Lantern overlap with each other in being Fatal to Wrath, and partially overlap in their resistance to Gluttony (Endured for Legerdemain, Ineffective for Lantern).

What does any of this mean...? Shrugs. I gave you the info, do whatever you want with it I guess.

#limbus company #limbus company project moon #lcb analysis #ask #mulberriesandtea #lu speaketh

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fly-sky-high-arts · 1 year

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i found you through your work on skurry's thumbnails and i really admire your art! i was wondering if you have any tips for blending/shading in your painting style since i struggle with that and you're pretty good at it. have a good day!

Hey thanks! I can try explain the best I can without loosing myself in what I'm trying to explain or confusing you in the process XD

I will be honest, and this isn't me being modest it's a general self critique but I am not very good with colors? (or backgrounds lol)

It's still something I'm trying to get to get a bit of a better hang of as well as do so in the way I will enjoy it and not make it too complicated and so far the simple rendering style seems to work out for me personally. Maybe something else could sit with you better but that's the joy of exploring the steps and methods in art, right? :3

Details bellow~

I'll try explain bellow what my general process is when making the slugcat paintings, as they seem to be the topic. I use different brushes for my other commissions and mix them around as I go but for slugcats specifically I used one brush (if not counting the pen tool I used to draw out and fill in the base color)

Detailed sketches help visualize the shape of what's being put down in base color but I'll use a simple one for this example:

With the base color in place, what I usually do is either: -Lock the layer like in this example and work on that single base where all the shaping and color will go on this layer -Create multiple layers of the base depending on what's closer to us or further (I used this for Gourmand and Spearmaster thumbnails), imagining segments like the arm closest to us as its own layer, then the body, then the back arm and so on, if the base shape has depth like that. (lock these as well)

The flat color then gets a gradient (gradient tool) that is worked with me shifting the hues and saturation on the color wheel to get more dark and colder shadow as well as warmer lighter highlight. You can play this in reverse and have cold highlights and warm shadows, depending what you feel like using for the piece

you can have the color palette somewhere visible if you want to reference these later on as you start to render shapes

Now, I have no way to personally explain shapes in detail so I will link a video on that, lighting and some more helpful stuff bellow the post.

What you have to think about is where the light is coming from. Based on the gradient made, here I kind of made it seem it's coming from the left upper corner or above the slugcat but how drastic it is will depend on stuff like what is actually around slugcat, where is it and how much light there is at all (if you look at the Artificer thumbnail, that is an example of little light but the source is also very dramatic red light of the ID drone thingy)

Note that you're allowed to make separate layer to make like a little guide I did above here on where the shadows will go and try base the render off of it.

This is the brush and its setting I'm using for slugcats. What's fun about this brush is that it's very soft but depending on the pressure means how much selected color it will apply to the area. (if you use paint tool SAI, the watercolor brush there applies this effect AND blending much better)

The brush works the way it blends depending where you set the tip and drag lightly. It took me a bit to get use to it but it will drag out the colors bellow it instead of applying color if not pressed too strong. You can use that to both add and blend colors BUT changing the size of the brush while doing so helps a ton.

What you mostly do next is "sculpt" the shape: You use darker color for depth and lighter to make things pop out.

You start of with most basic application on where the shadow and light are dropping by color picking the palette colors that were earlier applied for the gradient. The brush strokes should follow the shape itself (best way to think here is the same direction fur grows on cats and follow that haha)

COLOR PICK TOOL IS YOUR FRIEND~

You want to not just rely on the base palette colors but also color pick from shades and lights on the slugcat itself. Sometimes adding hues and tones between the already applied colors makes them feel more natural instead of using straight up shadow color. But this brush, as I mentioned earlier, is handy with blending stuff in, even if it's not super smooth.

Once you get the overall shadow and lighting done, you can start rendering with the same. What comes of the process is here is depending on how much time you want to spend shaping the look of the slugcat. I didn't had a lot of time but I got the gist of the slugcat down. Funny thing is that you can simplify this even more (and make it resemble cel shading haha)

What you can do after that is get more colors in, add more darker shadows and lighter highlights and like for this slugcat example, you can mix it up a bit. It's easier to stay consistent with colors but playing around by adding purples in blue shadows and light blues into warmer green highlights makes them pop out a bit more because now there are fresh colors in the mix.

(side note: You can use very dark and very light colors but it's prettier for the painting to not use any 100% black or white for anything like shading or highlights UNLESS you really want to have dramatic colors and negative space or such)

From this point on, you can basically adjust, shape, add, remove, work out the details etc. and mess around with how it looks. For practice purposes it's nice to keep it simple but trying to make more depth. I'm not the best at it, my work still feels rather flat but here is a tip that can help: Adding a layer above all layers, coloring it black and setting the layer option to saturation will make you see the colors in values. If you feel like they're too close to each other and too flat you can return to the base layer and add more depth with values to them, then recheck with the black saturation layer again by turning it on and off as needed.

(as you can see from my example, I am missing more darker colors around the neck and back arm haha)

What you come up with at the end again depends on you, what tools you trust using and how far you want to go with it.

At the end, I usually do adjustments to colors if needed. Say, the quick fix I can do to make up for missing shadows is to use one of the tone correction option, tone curve AND/OR color balance.

I usually use and play around with any of these (and sometimes level correction but not as often)

I adjusted base color (color balance and tone curve) and the background (desaturate it in shue/saturation/luminosity)

So uhhh

this isn't really like a tip of a sort, I can't really properly advice how to render since it's about tool preference and the personal process but I hope this was a bit insightful!

Here are some helpful videos that go into detail I could not work out via words or this process because they are multiple separate subjects that can help you learn about rendering colors:

youtube

#ask #about art #there is a bit more that goes on for the thumbnails themselves #like stuff about composition etc.#but hope this basic gist of the process is helpful still #as well as the videos linked

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I love love LOVE the way you writte. Can you give us some tips for writting good smut? It's been years I read fics (I'm 23 now, may as well have started when I was 14) and its rare to find good stuff like yours

thank you bb !! id be happy to give you some of the tips i consider when writing :) ur too kind i appreciate it so much <3 tips below the cut & please feel free to add on!

dialogue is your friend. dialogue keeps readers interested and is a great way to make a story unique!!!! i alwaysssss start smuts by bulleting certain bits of dialogue that i want to see in my fics. it helps with keeping your characters in character if that makes sense.

i honestly tend to use personal experiences for a lot of writing especially with smut, whether it’s bits of dialogue or things that i’ve actually experienced, so that i can recall the way i reacted (and imagine how someone else may react). it just makes the writing much more authentic.

going along with the aforementioned, i always try to think about how i’d really react to dialogue or a certain scenario and use that to apply it to my fic so that it’s not robotic - this goes for plots, too. try to make it at least somewhat realistic!

ok so songs help so much with mood setting. so if you find some songs that you resonate with, listen to them and pull inspiration from the lyrics/music/ feelings you get!! i promise you will not b disappointed and neither will readers

this is just a writing thing that i was always told but SHOW don’t TELL! that means for smut too - just stating something sexual is not nearly as pleasant as describing emotions or sensations or using metaphors/similes to show what is happening. paint a picture. make a movie. how does their body react? breathing/hands/face/voice? heart?

following off my last point. scene building: honestly, this is probably more of a fault of mine bc my smuts are never less than 3k but i genuinely believe that the best way to write good smut is to build the world (what do they see, what do they feel, smell, what time of day/weather, what’s their mood, etc.) and make sure there’s enough room for imagination for your readers while creating the setting.

i also try my very hardest (and still need to work on it) to avoid specific physical descriptions of the reader if it’s a self insert. this is obviously for inclusivity - small things like wording, phrasing, all small things a writer may not think about (like describing a reader as turning red - not all people turn red over their skin color when they blush!!!) this also imo is good for clothing bc not only is everyone’s style different but also everyone’s body is built different and it’s easier to include everyone if you avoid specific descriptions :) it’s hard to do because i often picture someone similar to me (as i’ve mentioned above) but not everybody looks like me and it’s very important to make sure everyone has equal access to all your beautiful writing!!

also PLS PLS i encourage readers and writers and lurkers to expand on any of these ideas and please leave me some tips!! i’m always looking to improve my writing :)

#anon #get to know tremendum #writing tips ✍️✍️#anyone please add to this

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kaiokentimesten · 2 years

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Could you tell us more about why you don’t like ancient cities :0? /genq (I haven’t had the chance to play the new update still so I’ve never encountered them myself)

Oh boy. Ohhhh boy. I've had this ask in my inbox for a good bit, because I wanted to take some time to formulate my reply

So, for you all, I'm going to go into detail as to why I don't like not only the ancient cities, but the entire deep dark as it exists now in Minecraft. Rant under the cut for your sakes, but the TL;DR is that the way that the deep dark, ancient cities, and the Warden have been implemented into Minecraft (especially on Bedrock) is unfair and not fun

Now, as a concept, I think the deep dark is fucking awesome. It's absolutely GORGEOUS and I love the idea of something existing in the caves deeper down than we were originally allowed to see (below y=0). However, there are some key components that make it an absolute nightmare to play in, and not in the fun way. We'll tackle them bit by bit, getting more specific as we go on.

First, the deep dark itself. Now, largely, there are no problems with the general deep dark: it looks cool and is implemented pretty well. However, there is one core problem, and that is the fact that sculk shriekers—which are used to spawn the Warden—are in there, regardless of whether or not there is an Ancient City.

We'll get to the Warden in much more detail later, but here's the main takeaway: in Ancient Cities, you know what you're getting into. You know that you are taking a massive risk (spawning the Warden) for massive reward (the loot in the chests). In regular deep dark, you're not really supposed to expect that. It's just another cave, but there's sculk in it. Why would you make it so that one could accidentally spawn a boss that is more powerful than any other boss while just casually mining? I have heard countless stories of people spawning the Warden on accident by just strip mining, and that's just ridiculous to me. And, if we want to get into the lore, it makes even less sense. What is the Warden guarding in just the regular deep dark caves?

I don't even think it'd be a hard problem to solve, either. Just make the shriekers in regular deep dark not spawn the Warden, like what happens when you break a shrieker and place it down again. This shouldn't be a problem.

Next, the Ancient Cities. So, we've established that you know what you're getting into when you go into an Ancient City, but do you really? Because the thing is is that there was an update to Minecraft Bedrock(though this also applies to Java as you'll see) recently that says, "Increased Sculk Shrieker and Sculk Sensor generation rates in Deep Dark and Ancient Cities to better match Java Edition."

And now, because of that update, Ancient Cities are no longer fun to go through, at least in my opinion. Before the update, my friends and I used to go through them all the time, and we had fun sneakily getting the loot while tactically traveling and wooling off/breaking shriekers. However, now it's nearly impossible to go through them without setting off a shrieker, no matter how careful you are. Sculk shriekers can now be embedded in walls, or buried completely underground where you can't see them, like this youtuber saw:

(Image ID: A screenshot in Minecraft of a chest room in an Ancient City. The player is breaking a block of sculk using an enchanted netherite hoe, revealing a sculk shrieker underneath. End ID.)

(Image ID: A second screenshot in Minecraft of the same chest room in the Ancient City as the last. The shrieker under the sculk is now activating, blue rings coming out of it. End ID.)

The screenshots were taken from around 8:42 of this video btw

There is no strategy to counteract this. It is impossible to detect shriekers buried under the ground like that without activating them. You could wool off everything else in the area and think you're safe only to open a chest and set off a shrieker underground, which has happened to me personally countless times. Not only does that make going through these unfair, but that also by extension makes them not fun, as there's a chance that you could get fucked no matter what you do. There's no element of strategy like this.

This was especially a problem in Minecraft Bedrock before the recent update on October 4th. Before then, you could actually set off multiple shriekers at the same time and instantly spawn a Warden. This happened to a friend (Thes) and I a couple of days ago while we were going through an Ancient City: despite our warnings levels both only being at one (and it requiring 4 to spawn a Warden), we instantly spawned a Warden after setting off one other shrieker. We survived, thankfully, but we shouldn't have had that scare in the first place. Shriekers are supposed to have a 10 second cooldown before one can go off again, but somehow, we were able to set off multiple at the same time. It wasn't even addressed in the changelog (I had to learn through my own testing), but the fact that this was ever a problem is ridiculous, given how dangerous the Warden is.

Which. Speaking of. Let's end this off by talking about the Warden.

Now, as a concept, I think the Warden is cool. I like the idea of having this incredibly powerful mob that relies only on hearing to guard the Ancient Cities in the Deep Dark. However, the way that the Warden was actually implemented is abysmal in my opinion.

Firstly, there's the fact that the Warden really doesn't just rely on hearing. In the initial trailer for the Warden, you can see the player divert the Warden away using snowballs at around 1:17 in the video. The Warden easily tracks that sound and follows it, not even caring about the player as it sneaks past.

That's not how it works now. Using snowballs is virtually useless, because if you're close enough to do that, then the Warden will just automatically track you down and kill you via either sniffing or just...sensing you're nearby. In that same video that has the screenshots from earlier, you can see the player try to divert the Warden using snowballs like you're supposedly supposed to do, and it doesn't work. The player even flies a great distance away, and the Warden still locks onto them. You can see this from 6:45 to 7:48 in the video.

It's strange to me that they made the Ancient Cities out to be this place that requires so much stealth, and yet, their supposedly blind mob that should only rely on hearing can just sniff you out from 100 blocks away and kill you in 1-2 hits. It seems to contradict the whole idea of the Ancient City in my opinion.

And, let's say you want to kill the Warden. You want to go through the whole ordeal of trying to kill this boss that has more health than the Ender Dragon and the Wither (on Java). What do you get for that? You get a single sculk catalyst and 5 XP. Basically nothing for an achievement like that. I think you should get a reward for something that big, even if it was just a decorative Warden head or something. Give something to those players that go above and beyond.

This all isn't even getting into how the Deep Dark as a whole is an accessibility nightmare, at least in the case of Minecraft Bedrock. There are no in-game subtitles on that version, which is pretty shitty especially when you consider them adding an entire sound-based part of the game that you really can't avoid, since caving is practically essential to casual Minecraft.

And, really, that's the thing. The way that the Deep Dark has been implemented flies in the face of casual Minecraft players. With the Warden being able to spawn anywhere in the deep dark, and the deep dark being able to be in any cave below "low erosion areas" (mountains, plateaus, etc. Which are pretty common in Minecraft), it makes it so that any casual player could accidentally spawn and get killed by the Warden while just exploring the caves, which is a huge part of Minecraft to a lot of people. At least the other boss mobs are optional.

That's my rant. thanks for reading if you read the whole thing you're a trooper. Uhhh vote Sniffer for the mob vote amen peace and love and FUCK THE WARDEN!

#holleh.ask

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katyspersonal · 1 year

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Looked at some models myself

Hey guyes! Remember how I complained about wanting to become an old lady? Well, I have good news for you (and myself)....

LOOOOOOOOK!!!!!!

Okay this IS pretty cool! I was able to borrow that one save-editing program thanks to a friend (and the fact that code can be reused two times) so I was looking through some models, I wanna see more and figure some other stuff too, but... jees, seeing this for myself on the BIG screen is so much better than taking low-res pause captures from low-res youtube videos fsjdfh

This set comes in one piece, as only chest piece, but covers everything including head, and attempt to wear actual head/legs/arms pieces causes clipping.

I also found out that Adella’s dagger IS a weapon that can be equipped, sort of! I found out by looking at the page with Hex IDs for weapons, and it was right up there ( x ). So yes, I tried this one too.

Turned out that it does have strong attack animation AND charge attack programmed, however, they do not deal any damage. I’ve tried several times, and nope. Adella, apparently, only uses the L1 attack with it, that is rather slow and repeats her slowly staggering to stab us - you can see the damage it is dealing is rather low, actually. So, yeah, unfortunately, not effective weapon at all... It swings way faster if you use L1 after R1, but, again, doesn’t deal damage to any enemy!

Also it IS bigger than I thought it was o:

There are also these REALLY strange looking untextured black arm pieces for some reason. Don’t even know what to use them with, because they clip through other clothes. Was also really upset to find out that I could NOT, in fact, wear Mico’s cut content handcuffs or Garden of Eyes’ head.

Again, this is just soooooo much better up close and seen by myself!

Her clothes pieces also have actual icons, and even reasonable defence stats, which is so neat? Don’t know what else it is supposed to mean other than these were intended to be possible to loot and wear, but... yeah

I was editing a save file using IDs found by that cool person Sanadsk / Omega Fantasy, ones for armors are specifically revealed in this document ( x ), but there are also IDs for stuff like weapons and items ( x ). Interestingly, there are still no Hex IDs for weapons from DLC anywhere I could find... But I think that’s even to the better, because everyone must experience getting Rakuyo by themselves jhfdshjfdshfd I think I will just gather them on my own later, by keeping track of placing a weapon with known ID, recording where it is in the save file, and then equipping a DLC one on its place and writing down the number. It is really easy, just need to play until that point now because my progress was lost due to having to switch account on one possible for online :s ....but when I finish with that, I will NOT share Rakuyo’s ID with the public, because everyone should fight Shark Giants, ahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!

By the way, a myth got debunked!

I thought Annalise had a low-res ring on her hand, but turned out that it was just a clipping issue in her fingers, that applies to both hands! D: Yeah, there is a chest piece that, rather than just giving her dress, changes entire player’s model to Annalise! With ridiculously blueishly pale skin, long demelanized hair and... no face, apparently...

So yeah, I want to find out more stuff, such as how to replace one NPC with another to take a closer look and freeze enemies/bosses in non-hostile positions, I have some ideas on how that could possibly be pulled off! This thing is also convenient if you really need to look at something but you messed a questline (like how I had to start a new game to see Henryk’s armour because I accidentally aggroed Eileen early т.т). And of course I am going to save-edit dungeons! I can’t explain it well, it just... being able to see and capture things by myself feels so much better than relying on videos and screenshots found online?

However, one thing annoyed me! Like, I don’t know if the version of Save Wizard get to use is somehow ‘wrong’, or things are JUST like this, but there was one irritating thing that only occured to me a bit late?

Basically, imagine that you want to look at Adella’s dagger close, so what you want to do, is, obviously, to replace a Hex ID for weapon you already have in your equipment with Hex ID for it! For example, unleveled Hunter’s Axe! We can see ( x ) that Hex ID for Hunter’s Axe is 004C4B40 ! So what do you wanna do when you see 100500 lines of shit like this?

Naturally, just hit search for 004C4B40! But for some reason, the search instead glows blue at 40 4B 4C 00 instead! And yeah, you probably figured by now what is wrong here, but I didn’t get it at first? I kept searching and trying to find what was wrong, and then gave up and replaced 404B4C00 with the normal ID for Adella’s dagger - 000DBBA0 . And... I got jackshit. Just empty item.

But then I did realise that the weird numbers and letters search gives me do, in fact, make sense...... This ABSOLUTE MOTHERFUCKER, for some reason, wrote Hex IDs in inverted order! And not as in, ‘write the same line backwards’, no! Instead, the ID consists out of 8 symbols but they are paired, so you have to write PAIRS in reverse order, but not reverse the order of the letters themselves! So the correct way to insert Adella’s dagger would be to write 00 0D BB A0 as A0 BB 0D 00!

BUT HOW WAS I SUPPOSED TO KNOW THAT?????? AAAAAAA!!!!!!

Again, I don’t know, maybe it is on me, I just thought it was painfully obvious how to use this program and I didn’t expect something to be odd, especially with Hex IDs already known to the public - why not write them in ‘correct’ order then? But yeah, the riddle was solved, and I get how it works a bit better now. This is really satisfying that I can DROWN in references now, but I’ll need to take my time with this thing, because with some stuff I still dunno what to do. For example, I saw people edit where Doll is by replacing her ID with ID of like... some cut content model such as King or Beltran, to take a closer look, but for that I do need ID for the Doll first. :thinking_emoji:

I will find out I guess, this thing is simpler when you get around intuitively knowing where is what code.

#bloodborne #bloodborne observation #bloodborne references #save wizard #honestly this program is just neurodivergence need because apparently i can only REALLY get how a model looks only when-#-i am able to look at it myself on my own terms and take my own screenshots #i don't know why my brain doesn't grasp info otherwise haha #at least i didn't have to pay for it.....#(no developer got pirated don't worry i just borrowed it for unlimited time because UK friend doesn't need it)#very upset that adella's dagger is so uneffective #but yes i will fucking love hacking dungeons to have as many levels as i wan #it is time to never see the light of day again ahahahahahha #i fucking LOVE dungeons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#/gen #but yes really want to write down hex ids for dlc weapons #(and then not share with everyone because dlc suffering is mandatory x) )#i wanted to stab everyone with dagger....#i also skipped through closer look at eileen's torn clothes #and alfred being all bloodied

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neptune-ian · 14 days

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this is a different anon from before but how to stop feeling things for someone you wont ever be with? ik im likely going to be single for whatever portion of my life hasnt already been wasted and in the long run i really do not care if for instance my fs meets someone else yet its always that feeling like i have too much regret about my life as it is.

it does and doesnt feel important to date if that makes sense? maybe if things had panned out differently or better i wouldnt feel this way about relationships but honest to god it was like my birth chart gave me skin issues from the very start just to make me feel worse about my appearance. and i really cannot stand needles or any sort of skin care procedure type thing whatever its called like the ones they do in south korea cause i dont think that would make me feel any better yaknow? like putting on makeup would make my skin feel so much worse or id probs get more acne and other issues with applying the amount that folk need nowadays. i wouldnt look good with or without makeup. but it really feels like my birth chart set me up for failure in so many areas bruh, id either like a refund or an exit button.

if its not the fact that im too sensitive for social gatherings or others energies affect me a lot then its something else like being too quiet or not having enough confidence to go for something while i still could yaknow? sorry for rambling but your replies are so relatable and i love your kpop readings!

To stop feeling the way you feel? Well I struggle with that too so I am sorry I won’t have meaningful advices 🥲 my anxiety doesn’t help me to get rid of past feelings and my current ones. Maybe let time do its work and focus on your well being. To be honest, I had a crush on/was attracted to a guy but everything was messy within me, so eventually I didn’t want to know of him any longer but it still didn’t stop me to feel the way I did about him but I still didn’t reached him or looked at him. I saw him some months ago after one/two years of not seeing him at all and I felt weird but neutral enough to ignore as much as I could he presence, but I don’t love him the same way. I might still love him but you know, I couldn’t care less how he feels about me and how I might feel about him anymore. It took me time, efforts and compassion with myself (which I don’t really have most of the time) but you’ll eventually get there or nearly there.

Usually what I do, work on myself and keep going with my life, block the person on the internet, ignore him irl, not focusing on their presence and how they make me feel at the moment, focusing on my friends/what I am doing. So basically self-discipline. It’s not always easy but it’s worth it!

Additional : I am not that friend with astro you know. Soo i’ll tell you « stop believing in it to begin with » because if you base you whole life on it then anon I won’t help you because you will just not listen to me as you’ll only believe your astro placements. That’s toxic for yourself and others. If you want that help with astro then seek an astrologer but even though some could be really trustworthy, you’ll in a way get « scammed » because that’s not what astro can really guide here. That’s what you only have to deal with and find for yourself. Astro could tell you « applying that type of cream is good » but it’s like tarot : it’s interpretation and personal. Why don’t you see a dermatologist instead? Or try natural plants? Do your own things and/or ask for [direct] advices from people around you or on the internet? You could even ask in my blog and people could give you advices! I could even ask my cousins that know more than I do and share it here!

#neptune’s anon ask #neptune’s talk

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darklydeliciousdesires · 1 year

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Edge of Seventeen - Chapter Four.

Even though I’m a Brit and don’t celebrate it, since it’s Thanksgiving, and I’m thankful for my beautiful audience, I thought I’d surprise update WITH THE SEX CHAPTER! Thanks to all of you who are leaving comments, reviews and reblogging. To those who are just clicking like, can I tempt you into speaking? I don’t bite... ;)

Previous chapters - One Two Three

Tag list - In the comments

Words - 3,340

Warnings - 18+ content throughout, minors DNI!

“Woah,” Angel exclaimed, walking into Bella’s house behind her at 1am, after she’d played the gig and they’d stayed to hang out and party for a while. “That’s a whole lot of plants.”

Bella nodded vigorously. “Standard for a botanist hippie!”

Practically every shelf and surface of the La Jolla beach house was covered in greenery, or things that flowered, creeper vines twisting around lamps, the smell from the many potted specimens perfuming the air, Angel liking how eclectic and cosy it was. “You and your mom have got a real nice place.”

“isn’t it cute?” Bella agreed, opening the fridge and pulling out a couple of beers. “I took the liberty of getting you these earlier. Apparently, my fake ID works just fine at most grocery stores, too!” There were some places that refused it, such as the bar he’d first met her in, but mostly, she got away with it. It was a very convincing one, after all. Looking at least twenty-one did help, though. “You go take a seat; I’m going to jump in the shower. I bet I’ve got disco minge, and that’s the last thing you’ll want to come anywhere near.”

He was so glad he hadn’t yet lifted the bottle of beer to his lips, absolutely cracking up. He understood the colloquialism, of course getting used to her different terms for things now, the phrase disco minge meaning that Bella thought she had a sweaty crotch. He hadn’t been able to breathe for a good ten minutes after he’d first heard her use it. While get got settled on the couch, checking messages on his phone, Bella was up in the shower, panicking.

“Okay, hair was washed this morning, did the big shave then, too,” she spoke to herself, running a sudsy sponge all over herself, her heart racing. “What if he thinks I’m too skinny? I’ve got knobbly knees, and cellulite on the back of my thighs, although the tan helps with that. Ugh, is that a spot I can feel on my arse? Oh no, it is! I’ve got a spot on my arse!”

Stomping her foot in the shower cubicle, she rinsed and dried off, wrapping herself in the big, fluffy, grey towel, turning to look at her rear in the full-length mirror, assessing the damage. “Hmm, it’s not that big. I just have to hope he doesn’t notice it. Still, though. Fuck!” Drying off, she smothered herself in lotion, spritzed on some perfume and applied her face moisturiser and a little twist of her cream blush. It was in the shade Orgasm, by NARS. She knew she’d likely be having lots of them that night, should she be able to get over her body hang ups for long enough to enjoy the inevitable.

Lining her eyes and smearing a little lip balm on, she unfastened her hair from the long side braid she’d worn all evening, ruffling it before putting on a simple black playsuit, forgoing underwear. It was just something else to take off. Looking at herself in the mirror, she was pleased with her appearance, body confidence issues aside. She then stopped, staring at herself for a moment. Angel was crazy about her, this she knew, and absolutely dying to have sex with her. Would a spot on her bum, knobbly knees or a little dimpled flesh really put him off? When everything else between them was so effortless, why shouldn’t sex be, too?

“I was beginning to think I’d lost you to the plughole,” he commented, standing in the doorway where the French windows opened onto the decking at the rear of the house, enjoying the sound of the sea. “Here, you want some?” Bella thought she’d recognised the slight smell lingering, lighting the candles dotted around the lounge and throwing a fire log on the fireplace, igniting that also. When you were right by the sea, the nights did get chilly.

“You don’t have to smoke that outside, although I appreciate you for having the manners to do so,” she began, walking over to him and taking the joint. “Mum smokes it, so she wouldn’t mind.” Bella didn’t partake often, on account of the fact she found it affected her voice, but at that moment she did feel like she needed the lowered inhibitions a tad, something to take the lingering edge off her nerves.

A few little puffs and she felt much calmer, passing it back, wrapping her arms around his waist and resting herself against him, her cheek finding the thick muscle of his chest. Just that alone began to act as a bit of an aphrodisiac to her, Bella suddenly remembering something; in taking off her clothes, she got to see him without his on, too. Naked Angel. That was a sight she’d been quietly anticipating with excitement for the last three weeks.

“Whatcha thinking about?” he asked, his hand stroking the curve of her waist, glancing up to see the sky looking as if glitter had been tipped out over it. The stars seemed much brighter and more plentiful in La Jolla.

“Honestly?”

He laughed softly through his nose. “Wouldn’t have asked if I didn’t want to know.”

“You, topless.” He laughed throatily, handing her the joint before taking his hoodie off, throwing it onto the nearby armchair, his black vest following shortly after.

“There, you don’t get to think about it any longer, because it’s right here.” At the sight of his chest and abs in the flesh for the first time, Bella felt something roll through her stomach, a very pleasant flutter.

“Ohhh, blimey.” She took a drag on the joint, and then another, her eyes wide. And then a third. “Bloody hell!” Her continued exclamations made Angel laugh quietly, “So, that’s what two hours a day at the gym looks like, then?” she then commented, handing him the joint back, moving to resume her previous position. Oh, his skin was fucking gorgeous, as well. And he smelled even better with her nose right against him.

“It is, yeah, that and not eating much bread or sugar, unless very occasionally. No bad carbs, it fucking sucks, but the reaction you just gave me is worth it. I’m sure I’ll have one of my own when you let me take this little thing off of you,” he murmured, kissing her hair, his fingers tugging at the ruched waist of her playsuit. A little bit of worry formed in her tummy again, but she quickly made it subside by looking up at him, stroking his face and pulling him down to her level for a kiss.

While she enjoyed the sumptuous feeling of his tongue rolling against hers, her fingers delighting in taking a tour of his chiselled muscles, she remembered back to a conversation she and the girls at the salon she had her Saturday job at a few weeks ago, where a regular had been discussing her apprehension over taking the next step in her own relationship. Colourist Gloria had been quick to offer some sage advice. ‘If you’re nervous, take the lead. Believe me, mami, there is nothing that’ll boost your confidence more than turning your man to putty in your hands!’

And so, she did.

With their kisses heating up, Bella could feel his cock beginning to stir at the front of his jeans, her nails grazing down over his abs, smoothing her palm over it, Angel grunting softly into her mouth. Her lips left his, kissing his neck, her senses swirling as she began to unfasten his belt and fly, her lips leaving a trail of hot, open-mouthed kisses down the centre of his chest, her hands tugging down his jeans and boxers as she crouched... and then came face to face with...

“Shitting hell!” she exclaimed. “How am I supposed to fit all of that in my mouth?” she then squeaked, Angel humming a chuckle. God, it was big.

He stroked her hair, his chest quivering when she wrapped her hand around his shaft, giving it a few gentle tugs. “I’m sure you’ll manage.”

And, oh, how she did.

His mouth dropped open a little as he watched himself vanish between her lips, a rumbled groan echoing from his chest, Bella feeling her jaw muscles at full stretch as she took him back, slithering her tongue along the underside of his shaft before pulling back once more. The warm hug of her mouth had him feeling a coil tighten within, sparking softly, his eyes closing as his head thudded back against the glass panes behind him.

“Shit, baby,” he croaked, fingers stroking swirls over her scalp as they tangled in her mass of blonde waves. “You give such good head.”

That kind of compliment did wonders for her confidence, Bella looking up at him, releasing his cock with a little pop, licking the head with a softly indulgent flicker of her tongue, her eyes finding his, watching him intently as she took him back again, sucking with eager gentleness, one hand trailing her fingernails over his abs, the other tickling his balls until he shivered. Feeling him becoming firmer within her mouth gave her the most delicious little shocks of excitement, becoming dewy at her apex, imagining how it would soon feel to have him inside her, her arousal glowing like the moonbeams from above that bathed them in pale silvery blue light out there on the deck.

That gathered excitement spurred her mouth quicker upon him, her tongue teases becoming more potent, Angel’s hands beginning to tug in her hair as his chest started to rise and fall quicker, his gravelly groans becoming more frequent, her lips tightening, oh, so tight around him. The embers began to crackle, glowing, ever nearing bursting into flame, Bella sensing it, speeding her mouth up until she felt him pulsing between her lips, shooting his load onto her tongue with a guttural grunt as his hips swayed forward, swallowing back every last hot spurt, and looking very proud of herself as she licked her lip and grinned, picking up his bottle of beer from beside him and taking a big swig.

He pulled her to standing, kissing her madly, stripping himself naked, his hands lowering the straps of her playsuit, pushing it down, pulling back to look at her as she stepped from the puddle of fabric gathered at her ankles. “Wow.” He kissed her again, arms tightening around her, walking her back into the house. They made it as far as the big, comfortable couch, entwining with one another, Bella feeling herself truly blooming beneath him.

Suddenly, her slenderness, the spot on her bum, or her knobbly knees and cellulite didn’t matter. He thought she was stunning, and his kisses conveyed that, and so much more. The naked press of his skin to hers was more exhilarating than she could either imagine or describe, his weight upon her exquisite, Angel shifting down, teasing her nipples with soft sucks and hungry nibbles as he stroked her sides, blindingly aroused by her. She shivered beneath each kiss, his tongue trailing over the tattoos below her left breast, the rose upon her hip, her little strip of pubic hair, before she felt those licks part her folds, gasping, her thighs widening on instinct.

Overcome by lust, he ate at her sloppily to begin with, greedy indulgence overtaking him as he sucked and licked at her, before finding a little focus, parting the petals of her cunt with his fingers and introducing his tongue to her clit in long, sweeping strokes, her sighs of bliss beautiful to him. Bella lay there absolutely staggered, never experiencing anything like that before in her life with a man. Well, she guessed that was because he was exactly that, a man, not a boy with zero clue over how to truly arouse a woman. She had the sense too, that Angel wasn’t just doing this for her, because he felt he had to. He was doing it for him, too, because he wanted to.

The difference between the two couldn’t have been further apart, and oh, how it showed, each lick advancing the charge of glimmers sweeping below her skin, her nerves tingling, her clit bathed in the wet heat of each swirling lick ceaselessly, until she was crying out unashamedly.

“You enjoying yourself up there?” he asked, pausing to kiss her inner thigh, his lips then wrapping around her clit and sucking until his cheeks hollowed.

“Fuck yes! Oh my god, Angel! Mmmmm, you’re gonna ruin my pussy with your mouth,” she purred, her hands fisted tight in his hair, panting with the kind of soft little cries that had his cock bobbing almost aggressively with the need to be inside of her.

“Yeah, you like that, baby? Like having this pretty little bud sucked on hard, like it when I fucking eat you alive?”

At that point, she was so pleasure shocked, she could barely form thought, let alone words. “Yes, ohhhh! Please don’t stop!”

He looked up at her, letting go of his hard suck upon her slick, sweet holds. “I ain’t stopping until you cum all over my tongue, querida.” Those words added to the little pricks of pleasure pattering down her spine, his tongue flickering rapidly at her swollen clit, dark eyes glinting at her, the firelight catching the chocolate brown of his irises, making him look impossibly gorgeous to her.

The rolling pleasure began to tumble faster, gathering momentum, like an avalanche rushing through her body, nerve endings bathed in the chilling heat of frost and fire as she clutched his head, her shaking legs tightening, crying out over and over as it hit her strongly. Not even she had made herself cum that hard before, nor her toys, nor anybody else. She felt as if she’d been pulled headlong into whirlpool, the force of it claiming her, spinning her in its rotations, Bella incoherent as she mumbled her demands.

“Fuck me, Angel. I need you inside me, please.” Her voice, her eyes, they were full of need, the spearing of his cock as he kissed his way back up her returning her from her catatonic state, kissing him with blinding need as he stroked her neck, burying himself within her to the hilt again and again. “Oh god,” she mewled, bowled over, her mouth falling open. “Fuck! Your dick is so... fucking big!”

He grinned, scattering kisses over her chest. “Damn, baby. You should see how hot you look split around it, too. Fuck me, you feel amazing.” Leaning to her, they shared kisses of pure syrupy sin, the thick of him trawling the hot, tight clutch of her walls, Bella reaching between them, stroking his cock as it cut through her effortlessly. “You like that, pretty girl? Like feeling how wet I’ve gotten you?”

“Mmmmm,” she moaned, bringing her fingers to her mouth and sucking them. “I like tasting how much, too.” Fire. Pure fucking fire ran through him. Damn, she was dirty, and he loved it. Reaching beneath her, he lifted her body, sitting back on his heels, bouncing her on his cock, hands grasping her shoulders before smoothing down her back sensually, sharing kisses gilded in embers and sugar, feeling drunk on her.

“God, you feel so fucking good,” Bella moaned, her head tipping back, his lips gliding torridly over her throat. “I love you.”

Fuck. The words had just tumbled out before she’d had chance to process them. Before she could truly spiral into panic, though...

“I love you too, my baby. So much.” He loved her. He loved her! She could have squealed with joy, but instead, chose fluttered gasps as the head of his cock scraped deliciously against her sweet spots, rutting her deep.

The rise and fall of their bodies was akin the cresting of the waves in the nearby sea, Bella absolutely blown away by the intimacy, the divinity of it. This was the kind of sex she thought only existed in stories, too perfectly passionate to extend to reality, her reality too, no less.

How could he be this perfect?

The all-encompassing heat of him and the moment they shared rocked her to her very foundations, her bones sizzling in utter ecstasy as she rocked against him, Angel’s hands stroking paths of sweeping tingles over her soft skin.

Her walls throbbed with the sweetest flush of pleasure, his cock evoking swells of molten bliss, Bella grinding down on him faster, her nerves in symphony, the sounds of her ass pounding off his thighs filling the room.

He groaned deep, a barbarous rumble that made her insides fizz. “Fuck, Bella. You ride dick so goddamned well,” he began in praise, kissing her. “Mmm, gotta slow it down, though. Don’t wanna cum yet.” Tightening his arms around her, he stood up, eyes scanning the room for some bare, un-embellished wall, carrying her over to the patch just where the kitchen opened up, winding his arms beneath her thighs, grasping her ass and keeping her spread as he began to roll his hips against her, every last inch of his cock slipping into the sumptuous, saturated hug of her cunt, but slow. So slow.

Each thrust had ecstasy sizzling through her veins, her cries feral, the physical of what she felt demonstrated by her nails imbedding in his back, tearing down, leaving raspberry swellings across his tattooed flesh, Angel thriving on her reaction to the sublimity of his fuck.

“Damn, I’ve never heard a woman wail like that before, shit,” he muttered, teeth leaving little pink crescents on her neck.

Her eyes widened. “Sorry, am I too loud?”

He laughed softly, tongue swiping up her delicate throat. “Hell no, you get as loud as you want to, baby girl. Fucking turns me on so damned much.” And so she did, as she was continually railed against the wall with devastating finesse, the slow, deep and hard trawl of Angel’s cock sending pleasure skittering throughout her entire body. It rolled over her like a fog, her lips returned to his, those indulgent kisses all fire and honey, his hands gripping as he held her spread, adding a little more speed. God, he was too good.

It was the kind of sex she knew she’d quickly come to crave, his praise over how amazing she felt around him, how much he loved her, the exalting of her beauty making her heart skip beats, shaken by his words, grasping at his shoulders as he gave in to the wild desire to pound her senseless. It felt sharp-edged as it gathered within her, the coil tightening before it snapped, consuming bliss throbbing through her entire body as he spilled into her deeply, grunting with exertion, the culmination a sweep of liquid velvet pouring through them, ebbing away slowly, leaving them shattered, yet dreamy with satisfaction.

Well...

“Please don’t tell me I’ve possibly just knocked you up.”

Her laugh boomed through the house. “So eloquent, Angel.”

“But have I, though?”

His sudden worry over something that he hadn’t really given a shit about prior to blowing his load was hugely entertaining to her, Bella knowing already that such was very much a part of Angel. Act first, panic later. “No, you haven’t. I’m on the pill, but I swear to Christ, if you’ve given me anything that’s going to make my fanny drop out, I’ll chase you with a bloody hammer.”

It was his turn to laugh then, once again humoured by her language so different to his. Fanny meant someone’s ass in America, but Bella’s usage of the word referred to what was still twitching gently around his cock. “Nah, I’m all good. Surprising, really, given my former status as an utter man whore.”

“Former?” she asked as he let her down, her nails stroking over his chest.

He rested his forehead to hers, kissing her tenderly. “Of course, former. There’s only one woman for me now.”

Hearing that was perhaps more thrilling than him giving her the best sex of her life.

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elegyofthemoon · 1 month

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life ramble

wait im stupid why'd i apply for that job if even the thought of walking back into the field makes me ill lmao what was i thinking

i really should just be doing Anything Else instead lmao maybe later down the line when im Less "ready to start punching" mode about the field, then i might try to apply but its kinda :o) that the pay is literally the same as these other jobs, and more painful for the same pay

oh well. the three job offers i have are really good. one of them even includes something thats way more on the line of what i'm interested in doing now, but that job hasnt gotten back to me laksjdfh

idk. i kinda walked into the interview not really sure what to expect, but the impromptu questions and. audition for that matter. worked out well. im surprised that i didnt just shy off or give an awkward response back for that. i think this job ALSO doesnt pay super well but id have one heck of a time in it aslkdfjh

#its nothing negative im just rambling some place #avil speaks

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So you know how there are wirelessly controlled vibrators that camgirls can link to their tip feed so chat can control it? What about taking that concept and applying it to labor? So someone controls when the laboring mom contracts, how strong they are and how long they last. And when fully dilated it switches to controlling when she pushes.

"No, trust me. I know it sounds weird, but when I tell you I've never had a more profitable stream in my life, I mean it."

Those reassurances from a fellow camgirl who catered to the same, ah, niche, finally convinced me to get on board with this latest development. The Labense chip, once implanted, would enable total control of the labor and birth process for whoever had a connection set up to it. While it's initial development was innocent, gearing towards people who were anxious about the unpredictability of labor or only had a certain pain threshold they could handle, it took almost no time for a much kinkier purpose to be found.

This led to now, two weeks after I had the chip implanted, and it had fully acclimated enough to where I felt ready to introduce it to my audience. Once I gave my stream audience the rundown on how it functioned, the donations came flooding in, a fair amount of people eager to secure a spot in line for control purposes. It was simple, every $100 would earn one minute of control. A little on the steep side, sure, but since it was something as high stakes as controlling my labor, I didn't feel guilty about it.

"Alright, it looks like things have slowed down, so we can finally get started! First in line has two minutes of chip control, I'm ready when you are, love!" There was a beat of silence, and then I felt a band of pressure tightening around my belly. "O-oohh, there you go..." I moaned softly, my hips circling lazily as I let the new sensation wash over me. Just knowing that I was at the mercy of someone else was enough to make me wet, and it wasn't long before I started rubbing myself over my panties.

Two minutes passed and the pressure abated. "It's working perfectly so far, everybody! Next person has just one minute, be sure to make it count!" I added with a wink, a hand running sensually over my belly. Whoever was next definitely took it to heart, and I let out a surprised yelp at the new induced contraction. Where the first one had been a consistent yet manageable pressure, this one felt like a late stage contraction, my belly visibly tightening. Huffing steadily, I breathed through it, and the minute soon passed.

"O-ooh, you really meant business, huh baby?" I purred, a light sweat making my belly practically shine. Glancing at the queue, my eyes widened a bit. The next person had ponied up for an entire ten minutes. "Ohoho, buckle up guys..." I chuckled, approving their access.

Initially it felt like the same gentle pressure as the first round. Once a couple minutes passed, though, I winced as I felt it increase, soon reaching the same intensity as the second round. Countering the pain with pleasure, I made a show of stroking my swollen lips, spreading them so I could rub circles around my clit, my thighs slick with sweat and my wetness. "Fuck, this feels so good, you have no ide--aaahn!" I let out a yelp as the pressure increased again, and a quick look at the timer showed they still had another five minutes of control left. "C-careful now, love, or you're gonna make my water break," I murmured, steadying my breathing once again. Taking a moment to read the chat, I caught the donators username, with just one message:

I intend to.

Before I could think of something to say I let out a low moan, my hands now cradling my belly as it tightened again. True to their word, the pressure mounted steadily, not letting up, and after another few minutes I heard a soft pop as my waters gushed out of me, my webcam capturing every moment beautifully. The stream nearly froze from the sheer amount of donations flooding in, and I grinned as I carefully readjusted myself, making sure my cunt was perfectly framed for all to see.

"Mnh, a-alright, loves...now let's see which of you can make me give birth..."

#pumpkin answers #pumpkin writes #pregnancy kink #birth kink #labor kink #public birth

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