TOO HOT TO HANDLE.
PART II
Seungmin x reader. (s)
Too Hot To Handle Masterlist
Synopsis: You and Seungmin become contestants in a reality dating show, Too Hot To Handle. (13,8k words)
Author's note: Enjoy this one too and let me know what you think about it :)
SEUNGMIN: I may be an athlete, but I don't compete to get girls. I attract what I want and oftentimes, I get what I want [smiles] I'm a pretty straightforward person. Am I wild? [Laughs] Guess we'll find out?
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In his profession, Seungmin relies a lot on his instincts.
If Seungmin thinks the pitcher is going to throw a four-seam fastball, he would want to get the ball down in the zone. If it's a tow-seam fastball, he should raise his bat about thigh high and if he notices any different type of motion or slowing of arm speed, he'd better expect a change-up.
When Seungmin first sees you, his instinct tells him that he should choose you.
People always talk about physical attraction, well, yes, how can Seungmin is not attracted to you? You're pleasing to the eyes. Your eyes, your lips, your sparkling eyes, and your sonorous laugh, they're all attractive.
What interests him more is still there hiding inside you. He wants to talk more to you, know your thoughts and ideas, if he's lucky enough, he wants to know your hopes and dreams too.
For now, permission and a kiss would suffice.
The kiss, oh... it's like fireworks are going off from inside his chest and exploding in his head, filling it with sparks.
"That was good," You shyly mutter while trying to hold his gaze.
"Well, you can have more if you want," he coyly says.
The two of you are looking into each other eyes, still reeling from what he thought was the nicest first kiss you both shared.
Seungmin is aware that someone is appearing behind him as you look past his shoulder, looking like you just got caught doing something.
"Hey, guys," Issa says.
"Hey, babes," you reply with a smile.
Seungmin sees the curiosity filling her eyes as Issa looks at you and then looks at him. She seems to have figured it out as her lips curl into a sly smile.
"Lana called," Issa informs.
"Oh, okay, we're coming," you tell her.
After Issa left, you start fixing your hair and dress even though the two of you only kissed once, nothing else. You repeatedly tuck your hair behind your ear.
"Do I look alright?" You ask him, smacking your lips together to gain what's left on your lipsticks.
He helps you put a strand of hair away from your lips, "You look perfect," he answers.
You crack a smile and do it once more with your eyes closed, it's adorable to him.
Seungmin gets up first then he holds his hand out at you because he knows you can't freely move in such a tight dress.
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SEUNGMIN: I didn't plan on breaking the rule this fast but she's just irresistible and the moment was right.
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Never in his life, had Seungmin thought that he would sit and hear a cone talking. Well, there's a first to everything.
What he doesn't get is how nervous everyone is. He knows that Lana is going to announce the rule breaks and anyone who broke the rules should be aware of the consequences.
Seungmin knows what he did, therefore, he's ready to face what's coming to him.
He gets a little startled when the cone chimes as it sits in the middle of the long, wooden table.
"Good evening!" Lana greets.
Tom reclines on the single sofa and asks, "What's good, Lana?"
"I must regretfully inform you of a breach of the rules," she informs.
Seungmin knows better that it's better to immediately come forward. He doesn't wait for anyone to get suspicious of each other and clears his throat.
"I'm just going to tell you guys right away—"
Adriana's gasp cuts him off, "Wait, what?"
Everyone is either not expecting that it's him or that he'd rule break when he's only been here for a day.
"With who?" Vale asks but his eyes already looking at the answer.
Seungmin turns his head at you, finding you sheepishly smiling and then he holds your hand, showing everyone who he kissed with.
"You..." Lili teasingly says, pointing her small index finger at you while everyone is cooing at you both.
"I initiated the kiss, the moment was right so..." Seungmin explains, ignoring how awkward it is to tell everyone why he kissed a girl.
Tom blinks his eyes a few times then says, "I didn't see this one coming."
"I wanted to do it and I... want to see where things go with her," Seungmin furtherly explains, not caring if anyone trusts him or not.
"This kiss has cost the group $6,000," Lana announces.
Okay, now Seungmin gets it why everyone is so nervous? It's not so much about the rule break, it's losing the money.
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SEUNGMIN: Well, at the end of the day, what's done is done [shrugs]
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It's endearing how Seungmin admitted everything and the way he openly tells everyone that he wants to take things further with you, oh! you get butterflies in your stomach.
That $6,000 deduction hurts less when you did it with the right person and it's worth it, you know you can trust Seungmin enough to see where things take you.
You lean into his side and lowly mutter into his ear, "That's so nice of you."
Seungmin looks at you to return your compliment with a soft smile that makes him look a thousand times cuter and these butterflies won't stop flying in your stomach any sooner.
"There's another breach of the rules," Lana announces.
You feel less nervous now the rule break thing has gone out of the way but hearing someone else did a rule break, you start to be concerned about the money.
"Oh, no!" Lili gasps.
A kiss or two is excusable because sometimes, a little physical affection is necessary in getting to know someone but other than that, you're not sure you can tolerate it.
"It's either you or you guys," Lili points at Issa and Jeff and Devon and Elliott.
"Or them," Jeff adds, pointing at Adriana and Tom.
Adriana subtly rolls her eyes, "I can promise you, we're innocent," she assures.
It's safe to assume that it's the couple who has spent the most money on the retreat so far. You lean forward and look at them with eyes full of suspicion, "Do you have something to say, Elliott?"
"No," Elliott immediately answers with a slow head shake.
While Devon is busy fixing her hair even though it's safely tucked into a neat bun on the back of her head. If Devon acting antsy is not enough answer, it's the awkward silence that gives it away.
"Uh-oh!" Adriana mutters, spotting the culprit with her siren eyes.
She has another strategy to make them confess, "Do you want to explain, Devon?"
Devon tries to stay calm and suddenly, she bursts into laughter then says, "I'm sorry."
Everyone reacts almost the same way, groaning in disbelief and also disappointed that they keep being selfish by rulebreaking.
Tom aggressively rakes his hair to the back and groans, "God, bro? Why did you keep lying to us?"
"We didn't lie. We choose to say nothing," he defends himself.
"Well, that's a lie," Vale corrects him.
It's kind of ballsy of Elliott to keep defending his wrongdoings instead of simply admitting it and apologizing. He makes it hard for himself and only makes everyone else lose their respect for him.
Devon tries to take control of the situation, "Okay, guys, let me explain, the first kiss we did in the bedroom—"
"What? You kissed more than once?" Issa asks with eyes widening.
"Oh, my..." Lili mutters in despair.
"Are you serious?" Tom is almost losing his shit knowing that he'll lose more money tonight.
Devon only realizes what she did a while later and quietly sighs, "Oh, shit..."
It seems like you're the only one with any patience left in you. You take a deep breath and try to assess the damage to prepare everyone.
"Did you guys do something else?"
Devon's subtle smile says so much and you believe you have just lost your patience as well. You lean back and just want to get it over with.
"Look, it-it..." Elliott is stuttering and ends up laughing.
Devon yanks the sleeve of his shirt, "Stop laughing," she scolds him.
"Take that grin off your face!" Adriana scolds him more.
Elliott pulls himself together and says, "I think there was a uh... heavy petting too."
No one is having it, if anything everyone has for them is a disappointment. The more everyone hears about it, the worse it gets so everyone sort of gives up talking altogether.
"These three rule breaks have cost the group an additional $16,000."
There's a dead silence hanging in the air after Lana announces the money deduction and what everyone is going to hear next will feel like a slap to the face.
"The prize fund now stands at $154,000."
Tom lets out a heavy, stressful sigh, "At the end of the day, we're just playing with money," he grumbles.
"Elliott and Devon, although you are displaying early signs of a deeper bond, you are spending too much energy concentrating on a physical connection rather than an emotional one," Lana says.
You're not the one who committed the act but you shake a little to hear Lana saying she's not pleased with what she witnessed.
"And as you have cost the group the most money, I am setting you an additional test."
Whatever coming to Devon and Elliott, It's not going to be a good one.
"You will spend the night in the suite," Lana announces.
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YOU: Oh, hell no! We're going to be in debt, for real.
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Okay, now, Seungmin gets why everyone was so nervous at the beginning, we just don't know what will happen and how it's going to turn out.
Another thing he learned is that he shouldn't be underestimating the cone, Lana is the one with power in here.
"This is your chance to show the group that your connection is more than just physical."
Lana warns Elliott and Devon, but mostly, Elliott since he's the one who's not only wrong but provoking everyone with his answers while at it.
Seungmin has been biting his tongue, he's only been here for a day so he's not sure if he can have a say on it but seeing that everyone seems to be at a loss for words, he feels the urge to say something.
"You did lie to everyone," Seungmin points out the main thing that angers everyone the most.
"This is your only chance to earn everyone's trust back," he tells him.
"Okay," Elliott accepts his words well.
"You may now leave to the private suite," Lana orders.
Everyone has no trust in them as they watch them leave to the private suite, letting them go with the thought that they'll fail the test.
Everyone is ready to leave the cabana and sleep this misery away when Lana starts talking again.
"That is not all."
"Oh, my days!" Vale gasps, sensing that it's not a good sign.
"Good judgment and in particular, knowing who can and can't be trusted is an essential skill for developing healthy long-lasting relationships."
Seungmin is in awe at how well Lana on keeping everyone on their toes, not letting everyone know what her next move is.
"That's why Elliott and Devon are not the only ones being tested tonight. If you do not trust them, you can choose to forfeit $10,000 which will cover all potential rule breaks in the suite."
Everyone is gasping to hear that Lana is asking everyone to involuntarily gamble with the prize money.
"However, if you choose to put your faith in them and they fail, you will be charged for every single rule break. With fines now doubled, that could be a very expensive lapse of judgment."
Seungmin turns his head to the side to see your mouth is hanging open. He reckons you're slightly shocked by everything you hear.
"So, will you have faith or will you forfeit?" Lana asks the big question.
Then Seungmin looks the other way, looking at Tom who's getting more stressed in each passing second.
"How much do we trust them?" Adriana opens the debatable question.
"I don't have trust in them. Nothing, none," Tom immediately answers like he's one hundred percent sure he's right.
You scoot to the edge of your seat to speak up, "Elliott is a rebel. He's most likely to break a rule and I think they're going to do something in there," you give your opinion.
Now that puts you in the same team with Tom which he gladly welcomes with a strong argument.
"They're going to be alone in the suite," he adds.
Adriana puts it simply for everyone, "Should we take a risk or should we play it safe?"
Everyone starts speaking up as well, giving their insights on this whole trust thing and Seungmin is intently listening to each opinion to take into consideration.
"If they're serious about the relationship, they won't do anything," Issa says.
Jeff agrees with her, "I back them."
"They have something to prove and it'll look bad for us not trusting them, actually," Vale gives his opinion.
You're nodding to his words and that seems to change your mind as well, Seungmin only recently learned that the person you’re closest with is him, Vale.
"He made a promise that he wasn't going to do anything," Blake says.
"He said the same thing last time," Adriana breaks his conviction.
"I got no faith," Tom remarks, period on point.
"Vale, I agree with you but if they disappoint us, I will not trust them again," you make a firm statement.
Against the doubts that slip through everyone's mind, everyone has voted to trust them, except that Tom is doing it unwillingly.
"I have noted your decision to put your faith in Elliott and Devon," Lana accepted the decision.
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SEUNGMIN: Everyone puts their neck out for them so I hope Elliott keeps his promise.
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Thankfully, Lili is very understanding when you tell her that you're sharing the bed with Seungmin and she has to sleep with someone else, you entrusted her to Vale.
A part of you wants to test yourself on how well can you handle temptations but another part of you tells you that you'd most likely fail because Seungmin is low-key too hot to handle.
Seungmin comes to the bed with his hair tousled and somehow, it only makes him more attractive. He gets on the bed, putting a pillow behind him before resting his back against it.
"Did you just dry your hair?" You ask.
He gives it a ruffle, "Yeah, is it messy?"
You softly laugh and help him, brushing his hair with your fingers to make it less messy.
"Your hair is so fluffy," you compliment.
He looks at you as you use both of your hands to brush the hair on each side of his head, "You like it?"
"Mm-hm," you answer with a smile.
"I missed a month of haircut," he informs, putting away the hair out of his eyes.
Your hand goes through the hair on the back of his head and let your hand rest on the nape of his neck for a moment.
"You look like a puppy," you playfully tell him.
Seungmin smiles in reaction and it only proves your words, he has that golden retriever energy, bright and playful. To put it simply, it's impossible to not like him.
There's a conversation going on in the room about whether Devon and Elliott will pass the test or everyone is going to lose more money tomorrow morning. You're listening but your eyes are focusing on the space on the bed between you and him, you hesitate to just scoot closer to him, he seems like the type of person who respects someone's personal space.
It's only when the lights are out that you lie on your side facing him and then ask, "Do you like to cuddle?"
Seungmin turns to lay on his side to face you, "Not really," he answers.
So your guess is right, he's not a cuddly person and you shouldn't be disappointed, it's just a preference, it's nothing personal.
"Are you?" Seungmin asks back.
You tuck a hand under your head and focus on looking at his gleaming eyes in the dark of the room, "Well, I would love a cuddle or two from you," you honestly answer.
He catches your hand lying on the space between the two of you, "I can do a cuddle or two," he says.
"How about more than two?" You jokingly ask.
Even in the dark, you can see his cute smile as he slips his fingers into the spaces between your fingers, "I can do that too," he murmurs.
You hold his hand back and smile, "Okay, great."
You and Seungmin are lying facing each other with hands intertwined, enjoying the quiet that slowly takes over the space as everyone else starts to drift into sleep.
However, you can no longer fight the drowsiness, "I'm sleepy," you sheepishly tell him.
He brings your hand close to his mouth and places a soft kiss on your knuckle, "Goodnight."
"Goodnight," you murmur back with a smile.
You close your eyes feeling incredibly relaxed as Seungmin places gentle rubs on your back until you fall asleep.
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YOU: Oh, my God! I think I like Seungmin. Seungmin, the baseball player.
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The room is dark but he can see through the curtain that the sun has risen, Seungmin wakes up earlier than anyone else, including you.
Seeing that your hair covering your face, Seungmin gently put the stray hair away to the side and to the back. You look so beautiful peacefully sleeping on your pillow that he's afraid that he'll wake you up.
Seungmin then rests his hand on the dip of your waist, following the rise and fall of your body as you breathe. He gets closer so he can hold you, gently putting his arm around you without waking you up.
He feels snug, he feels like he can go back to sleep but as he's about to close his eyes, the room lights up.
Everyone is groaning as light floods the room and blinds their eyes which are still heavy with sleep.
"Morning everyone," Adriana croaks as she pulls herself out of the duvet.
Turning his head to the side and seeing you still sleeping, Seungmin can't find it in him to wake you up but he begins by softly rubbing your shoulder to not startle you awake. Then he moves his hand to your face, using his knuckle to caress your cheek and your eyes are fluttering open like butterflies batting their wings.
"Still sleepy?" He asks with his hand cupping your jaw.
You nod and instead of getting up, you snuggle to him and rest your head on his chest.
As everyone slowly gains their senses back and is ready to start another day in the retreat, Lana chimes in for her morning greeting.
"Good morning, everyone."
"Morning," you reply with a sleepy voice.
"After putting your prize fund on the line last night and deciding to trust repeat offenders, Devon and Elliott," Lana reminds everyone of the doom looming over everyone's heads since last night.
Everyone turns their heads to see Devon and Elliott's empty bed and is hit by the realization of their grim, uncertain fate.
"How are you feeling this morning?"
Lili sighs and says, "Nervous."
"Scared," Issa honestly answers.
"And on edge," Jeff adds.
Cara the new girl who has been quiet since last night, finally gives her opinion, "I don't think they'd be stupid enough to put themselves in a situation where they would spend money more than they have lost."
However, Adriana is the only one not accepting her opinion well, "I disagree. Their track record is so shit."
Tom who is adamant about protecting the money supports her argument, "$10,000 would have been a lot safer in my opinion."
What they said seems to sway everyone's faith in Devon and Elliott. Seungmin can see that everyone starts to doubt their decision to trust them and put so much money on the line.
Whether they lose money or not, this is not how Seungmin wants to start the day.
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SEUNGMIN: We put our trust in them... well, some of us. Let's hope they prove themselves to be worthy of our trust.
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As a baseball player, Seungmin has a rigorous workout routine and he usually starts the day with a morning run. Since it's impossible to do here, he decides to do some simple exercises in the makeshift gym by the beach.
Before he gets back to the villa, he goes for a swim in the sea and walks back with water dripping from his swimming trunks.
In the bathroom, he finds Blake standing by the sink, his big body almost covers the whole mirror. Hearing that someone else entered the room, he looks over his shoulder.
"Hey, man," he greets him with dollops of sunscreen on both of his cheeks.
Seungmin hangs his towel at the handle of the shower door, "Hey," he replies.
He goes to the sink to retrieve his toiletry bag from the drawer.
"I see that you picked a bird, huh?" Blake says.
Seungmin has to take a moment to process his words and what he meant by a bird is a girl, he got himself a girl, you.
"Yeah..." Seungmin awkwardly replies, he heads to the shower thinking that Blake is done talking.
"You got a wild one, bro," Blake is applying the sunscreen all over his face as he speaks.
"What are you trying to say?" Seungmin asks and wonders if he's taunting him or trying to make a joke here.
Blake lets out a chuckle as he washes his hands under the running water, "She broke a rule with Elliott once."
Is that supposed to make him mad? Well, if it happened recently then it would be a problem but he obviously came here after that happened so Seungmin has no idea what he has to do with that information.
He decides to ignore him and goes into the shower, not wanting to continue the talk that shouldn't be his business in the first place.
Also, it shouldn't be Blake's either.
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SEUNGMIN: I don't know what Blake's intention is but this is something that I don't want to hear from someone else.
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All you need is a few sprays of hairspray to keep the hairstyle intact for the next few hours, you carefully apply it to your hair with your eyes closed.
When you open your eyes, you catch Seungmin's reflection in the mirror. Half-naked with his hair wet, Seungmin is walking to his closet that is located right behind your chair. You turn around on your chair and use the opportunity to ogle him, admiring his lean body with muscles in the right places and they're just in perfect sizes.
Imagine looking that hot yet so unaware of it.
"Hey, baby," you sweetly say, holding your hand out at him.
Instead of taking your hand, he reaches for your chin and gives your cheek a quick caress.
You smile in reaction and ask, "How do I look?"
"Perfect," he shortly says.
You take his hand and hold it as he looks for something inside his closet, "Let me dry your hair for you," you offer.
"Okay. Give me a minute," he gladly accepts the offer by letting go of your hand so he can put his shirt on.
Unlike most women, you like treating your partner with simple things like this.
Seungmin is sitting still as you work on his hair, drying it with a hairdryer. You don't have to put a lot of effort into it since he has short hair, finish it by applying a hair oil with your fingers slipping through his fine, dark hair.
He does the rest, brushing his hair with a comb and styling it how he wants it to be.
You rest your hands on his square shoulders and ask, "Did I do a good job?"
He fixes the hair falling over his head, "Not bad," he responds.
You bravely cup his chin while looking at his face through the elliptical-shaped mirror, "You're so gorgeous," you compliment.
He takes your hands and brings it close to his mouth. When you think he's going to kiss it like last night, he bites at your fingers instead.
"Ouch!" You yelp in pain.
He laughs in satisfaction and hurriedly makes up for it by placing a kiss on your inner wrist. He then drops his head to the back to look at you, seeing you eye-to-eye.
"Thank you," he sweetly murmurs.
You gently tap his cheek, "You're very welcome."
You like attractive men but you like it more when they act like true gentlemen and a true gentleman is rare. But it seems like you're lucky to have found one.
The only way Lana knows how to have fun is by interrupting a sweet moment like this. You both stop moving and talking altogether to hear what the cone has to say.
"Please assemble everyone in the cabana," Lana orders.
"Got it, boss," you reply, reluctantly letting your hands go from around Seungmin's neck.
It's not hard to gather everyone as most of them are chilling by the pool, you can tell them about Lana's order on the way to the cabana.
The stress from last night continues once everyone realizes that Elliott and Devon will be returning from the private suite soon.
Speak of the devil, here they come, looking so happy like they're coming back from a honeymoon instead of a test. They take the small sofa on the side of the room while ignoring the death stares directed at them.
Jeff is the first one breaking the silence, "Anything you want to share?"
Here comes Elliott's grin and it's not a good sign, "It was very enjoyable," he answers.
Devon is smiling next to him and letting him do all the talk.
"There are roses on the bed, champagne, bathtub," Elliott continues, giving everyone the wrong ideas.
Next to Seungmin, Vale lowly sighs and mutters through his gritted teeth, "They're fucking breaking rules."
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YOU: We're fucked if they fucked!
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Lana finally comes in and goes straight to business, "Devon and Elliott, last night I gave you the opportunity to show the group your genuine connection without surrendering to your physical desires. However, your connection wasn't the only thing I was testing."
Elliott's grin wavers for a second at the revelation that Lana did something behind their backs.
"While you were away I gave your fellow guests a test of trust in you. If they didn't trust you, they could forfeit $10,000 to cover all your potential rule breaks in the suite."
Now it's Devon's smile that gradually fades from her face and into a panic expression.
"Or they could choose to have faith in you, meaning that any rule breaks would receive the appropriate financial penalties."
Devon and Elliott exchange a look and turn rigid on their seats, it's enough to tell everyone that they did something.
"I can now reveal the group chose to trust you," Lana informs.
Tom hurriedly comments on it, "Not me. I don't have a lot of faith in you guys," he audaciously tells them.
Elliott sadly smiles, "I understand," he says.
You hear Lili sighing next to you and when you look at her, she leans in and whispers, "Seriously though, they're not looking hopeful."
One thing you know for sure is that Tom is ready to give a long I-told-you-so speech right at everyone's faces.
"Devon and Elliot I must now tell the group that you..."
For an AI, Lana knows how to build the suspense.
"...did not break any rules!"
You feel like you can finally breathe at ease while everyone else is cheering and applauding Devon and Elliott for proving that everyone was right to trust them.
"Even though you were very close to breaking the rules last night, I can confirm the prize fund still stands at $154,000."
Your head is turned to see Tom and Adriana who have the least faith in them and they're smiling, you can see a bit of regret on their faces for being too negative about the decision to trust them.
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YOU: So they do know how to keep it in their pants, huh?
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Despite the most spending couple in retreat has succeeded in passing Lana's test, that doesn't stop Tom from keeping everyone on his watch to make sure the money stays at $154,000.
You and Seungmin are having wine in the firepit, sitting close next to each other with your legs over his lap and enjoying the warmth of the fire swaying with the night breeze.
Seeing him up close is almost surreal because of how handsome he is, you trail down his jaw with your finger and gently tap his chin after.
"You have a very sharp jaw," you emphasize every word in awe.
Seungmin takes a sip of his drink before speaking, "Don't cut yourself then," he says with a sly smile.
You playfully slap his chest in reaction and burst into laughter almost at the same time.
You fix your hair and look at him, "It's your turn to compliment me," you demand.
He puts his drink away and licks his lips, "I didn't know that I have to compliment you back."
You dramatically roll your eyes, "Just say something nice about me, please?"
He laughs and puts his arm around you, drawing you closer to him as he thinks of something to say. He looks at you, trying to find something he can compliment on but you end up being drowned in his eyes.
"Your eyes, nose, lips..." he starts.
You stare back into his eyes, "Yeah?"
"They're parked perfectly," he finishes his words.
Once what he said registered in your head, you burst into laughter, "Parked?"
He nods while foolishly grinning, proud at his creative way of saying you're beautiful, "You got 100 points for parking them perfectly," he compliments again.
Flustered and amused, you put your arms around his neck and hug him, sharing laughter until the sex cop comes crashing.
"Hey, hey, hey!"
You both abruptly stop laughing and turn your head to look at Tom, standing at the top of the steps that lead down to the firepit.
"Are we being safe?" He asks you both, looking at you like a parent seeing his child having her boyfriend over.
And you act like you've been caught doing things with your boyfriend, reluctantly taking your hands away from Seungmin.
"Yes, Dad!" You jokingly respond.
Tom nods in approval and turns to leave, before he walks away, he turns around to say, "Keep your hands to yourself, 'kay?"
"Got it, Dad!" You shout at him.
You may have taken your hands off of Seungmin but you use it as a chance to change position, you make him sit on the end of the long sofa and you sit between his legs with your back resting against his chest so he can take his turns to put his hands around you.
The night is warm, the wind is softly blowing and the sky is full of stars.
Maybe it's because you haven't been with a man for a while or it's because of him, either way, you feel incredibly at ease.
You softly rub his forearm and delightfully sigh with your eyes closed, "This is nice."
Seungmin places his hand on yours and slips his fingers in, "I heard that you have broken the rules before," he says.
That comes out of the blue and you don't expect him to address this matter since it happened way before he came to the villa.
Yet you find yourself stammering in answer, "Y-yeah, I did."
"Oh," Seungmin simply responds.
That 'oh' sounds harmless but you start overanalyzing it, mostly because you don't want Seungmin to get the wrong idea, thinking that you're trying to hide it from him.
"Okay, now I feel bad for not telling you," you sadly mutter.
"It's okay. You don't need to tell me," he assures you.
Regardless of how he obtained this information, he deserves to know why you did it and whether you still have involvement whatsoever with the person you committed the rule break with.
"I didn't feel like I needed to tell you about it because the kiss that I did with Elliot... I was bored, I did it for fun," you explain.
You hold his hand back and tip your head to the side so you can look at him as you speak, "But the kiss that I did with you is not, it was personal."
You take a deep breath before ending it with a sincere apology, "I'm sorry I didn't tell you."
Seungmin has been so quiet for a moment that you doubt he's accepting it well. You squeeze his hand to gain a reaction from him and ask, "How do you feel though?"
He inhales air and leans in to look at you, "I don't like to play games or in competition with someone else," he begins.
You don't want to overthink but you fear that he'll change his mind because of how you keep things to yourself.
"I know my worth I respect myself. I feel that if someone else can't see that, then that's on them but I don't hang around for that," he remarks.
You always know that Seungmin is very forthright, he says what's in his head, knows what he wants, and goes for it. Ultimately, he doesn't waste time on someone who doesn't acknowledge his worth and you fear that you're that someone.
You need to assure him that you do know his worth and you want to keep building connections with him. You mull things over in your head and try to fathom them into words.
"I do want to get to know you. I feel drawn to you and it's genuine and honestly, I feel more connected with you than I did with anyone else," you tell him how you feel as best as you can.
Seungmin repeatedly rubs his hand up and down your arm to keep you warm and comfort you. He then rests his hand on top of your clasped hands, "I just want to move forward and be open, there's so much more of you that I want to get to know," he says.
It's rare to find someone who's as wise and as gentle as he is. You really are lucky to have found and met him, and lucky that he chose you too. You want to get to know him more as well and risk falling deeper into him. As if you mind.
"Me too," you tell him with a grateful smile.
You bury your head in the crook of his neck and let out a breath of relief, trying to suppress the urge to kiss him.
"I want to kiss you but we can't," you mutter.
"Actually, we can," he corrects you.
You softly chuckle and raise your eyebrow at him, "We can but we can't."
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YOU: I'm so grateful for Seungmin and I feel more confident about taking this further with him.
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It takes time for Seungmin to get comfortable around someone.
He likes you, yes but he likes being in his personal space so much it's hard to let someone in. It's nothing personal, it's just who he is.
However, he looks forward to bedtimes the most because then you'd be lying close next to him.
A smile rises on your face as you get on the bed, crawl over to him and adorably ask, "Can we have a cuddle or two?"
He notices the anticipation on your face but what he likes seeing are the sparkles in your eyes as you wait for his answer.
Seungmin doesn't say anything but spreads his arms out, letting you dive into his warm embrace.
"Guys, guys," Tom claps his hands to get everyone's attention.
You keep your head rested on his chest while Seungmin pays attention to what Tom is about to say.
"I think we're all in agreement that we will not rule break and I just want to know if that stays true right?" He asks.
He can't speak for everyone but Seungmin can't remember when he did agree to this. However, everyone is half-heartedly replying to Tom.
"I love you guys but be good," he concludes.
Seungmin has a good restraint, but when he gets told to not do something, he wants to do it more. Plus, you're snuggling up to him and your body starts to mold to him, he would be lying if he didn't get the urge to kiss or touch you or do more than that.
When he looks down and sees your face this close, your eyes closed and your lower lip is jutting out, oh... he wants to kiss you bad.
Even after the lights are out, Tom looks at everyone in the room to say one last thing, "I'll be watching," he says.
After a few minutes though, he fails his task as he falls asleep next to Adriana. It would be hard to fall asleep with Tom's snores filling the room yet cuddling you makes him relaxed that his eyes are drooping.
As he slowly descends into slumber, you shift on the bed and plant a soft kiss on his cheek.
"Goodnight, baby," you murmur, then you turn over and lay on your side of the bed with your back facing him.
Now Seungmin finds it hard to sleep without your warm body lying close to him so he closes the gap between your bodies and puts his arm around you.
A while later, you let your body mold into him once more and hold the hand resting on your waist. Without looking, he can hear you smiling as he holds you close.
Seungmin lands a caress on your head and kisses your temple, now he can finally murmur back to you, "Goodnight."
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SEUNGMIN: The talk that we had reassures me that I was right to choose her.
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A few days have passed and you enjoy getting to know Seungmin more.
He told you a lot about him that besides baseball, he likes music, he likes playing piano, he likes to write in his journal and he doesn't like watching movies without knowing the ending first.
Everything about him is one of a kind but that's what makes him special. The two of you got closer the more you shared things about each other.
And today, you'll get a lot more closer to him.
All of the guests are being gathered in the garden for a workshop and someone has been waiting there, you assume she's going to be leading the workshop.
You take the mat in the back with Seungmin and sit cross-legged as the instructor introduces herself as Haley, a sex expert.
Her profession surely intrigues everyone and whether it's going to help them suppress their sexual urges.
"First, I want to ask you guys what is your version of a perfect partner?" Haley opens the workshop with a question.
"Nice body?" Jeff answers.
"Okay," Haley says with a nod, accepting Jeff's answer.
"Anyone else?" She invites everyone to share their answers.
"I like girls with skinny model bodies," Vale honestly shares.
"I don't want to be with someone who doesn't look as good," Cara gives a way too honest answer.
Everyone is laughing except Blake who is her partner for today's workshop. Hearing everyone's answers, you can see how people can be so shallow with what they want, they only see the surface, the superficial and that's including you.
Haley moves on to explain what the workshop will be about, "In today's workshop, we're going to release any perfectionism. We're just going to let ourselves get a bit... messy."
She pauses hearing everyone get excited for it, "Are you guys into that?"
You turn your head to the side at Seungmin, wanting to check whether he's as excited as anyone else.
The answer is no, he's not that excited.
"You guys can start!" Haley announces.
There are bowls of body paints prepared for the workshop and the two of you can paint each other's bodies with it. You get up and stand facing each other, then suddenly, have no idea how to start.
"I don't like getting messy," Seungmin says.
As expected, body painting is not something that Seungmin would do to have fun. You pick up a bowl of pink paint and dip your finger into the thick, pigmented texture of the paint.
"Well then I'll be the one having the most fun," you say as you rub the paint onto his nose.
And before he can complain, you smear the paint onto his cheek, laughing at how his face is covered in pink paint.
Eventually, Seungmin starts painting your body as well, he uses the green one while you use the yellow one, drawing a heart on his chest.
"See if you can just let go a bit. Let go of control, let go of inhibitions," Haley encourages everyone to stop being so careful and just be free.
You see everyone is only using their fingers to paint each other's bodies, not willing to get any other parts of their body to get dirty.
"Stop thinking! Stop worrying about what you look like. Let yourself just go free, get wild!" Haley encourages more.
It gives you an idea, instead of dipping your fingers into the bowl of paint, you pour it onto Seungmin's shoulder and lather it all over him.
"What are you doing?" Seungmin asks.
"I'm having fun," you simply answer.
You want Seungmin to not be afraid of getting wild or making a fool of himself, you want to have fun with him so first, you have to show him how.
"And you should too," you add, taking his hand and dipping his whole hand into the bowl.
Then you turn around, presenting your butt cheeks at him, and shamelessly request, "Make a handprint on my buttcheeks."
Seungmin stands rigidly with his hand tainted blue, "What?"
"Slap my butt!" You make it simpler for him.
It takes him a while to understand your request and once he did, he lands a good slap on your left buttcheek, creating a print of his big hand on it.
Haley notices what the two of you are doing and likes what she's seeing, "Love it! More of that!"
That seems to motivate Seungmin to make another handprint on your other buttcheek, he lands a harder slap which makes it even better.
Soon, everyone starts to loosen up, playing with both the paints and bodies, investing in the workshop, or merely using it as an excuse to feel each other's bodies.
"Catch them off guard!" Haley says as she supervises everyone.
After picking up a bowl of paint, you turn around to get greeted by a dollop of orange paint Seungmin throws at you. You scoop some green and get back at him, splashing it all over his back.
The next thing you know, you both are having fun, and as a matter of fact, the two of you are the only ones having the most fun out of everyone.
"You're not drawing penises on my back, right?" Seungmin jokingly asks as you draw more stars on his back.
"Nope," you reply, "Just some boobies."
You're running out of paints and to make it all worth it, you scoop the last of the red paint, then rub it all over your chest.
"Baby, look over here!" You tell him.
Seungmin obeys you, looking at you with his face covered in pink, green, and yellow.
Catching him off guard, you bring his head close and bury it between your breasts, lathering the red paint all over his face.
Instead of complaining, Seungmin pulls away laughing with fresh red paint on his face and you laugh along, seeing how much he enjoys it.
"Notice if you feel embarrassed to just see each other, now that you've stopped worrying what you look like," Haley remarks.
Seungmin wipes the remaining paint onto his stomach and pulls you into a hug, you can feel the paint getting all over your front too.
You both just stand there and have a laugh looking at each other looking silly in colorful paints, you see your mess on him and he sees his mess on you yet you both still look perfect to each other.
"You guys did amazing in today's workshop. I hope that you let go, you got a bit more free, you find some joy, laughter in being imperfect," Haley concludes at the end of the workshop.
Now that the workshop has ended, all you can think about is how Seungmin's hands were all over you.
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YOU: We had so much fun. I don't think I'd be having that much fun if I did it with someone else [smiles]
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Unfortunately, the fun doesn't last long.
You were straightening your hair when the cone in the dressing room chimes, you abruptly stop moving and so is everyone else, it's like the world pauses for a second to hear what Lana has to say.
"Everyone," Lana says.
No greeting whatsoever, she's addressing everyone in the room and you sense that she's not pleased with something.
"Hi, Lana!" Lili weakly replies as she's busy braiding her hair.
"You must all gather in the cabana immediately!"
Uh-oh! Lana is pissed but why? Everyone's been good.
Or that's just how they seemed to you, you never know with these people, especially Devon and Elliott. Lana never urges everyone like this before so it's safe to assume that someone messed up.
"What the fuck is going to happen?" Tom mutters, looking so stressed already.
All the eyes in the room are suspiciously glancing at each other as you get too anxious to even bother straightening the rest of your hair.
Even though you and Seungmin struggling to keep your hands off of each other, you managed to not break any rules. But still... in here you'll get penalized for something you didn't even do.
"Good evening," Lana greets.
"What's good, Lana?" Tom asks with a thin smile.
You can only hope that Lana is playing with our minds and actually gathered everyone to deliver good news, for instance, she feels generous tonight and drops $10,000 into the prize fund. Oh well, that's just your wishful thinking.
"I must regretfully inform you that there has been a breach of the rules."
And here we go again, everyone is once again playing the game of "whodunit" that sadly costs money.
Adriana looks around, "Who is it?"
"Who did it?" Issa says with a threatening voice.
You can only hope that this is not the time you find out that one is stupid enough to commit serious rule breaks.
"Elliott?" Tom asks him since he's grinning like a guilty man.
Elliott shrugs his accusation away and coyly says, "Nah.
He may be putting on a good poker face but Devon? Not so much. She keeps hiding her face behind Elliott's shoulder and avoiding suspicious eyes.
"You're awfully quiet right now, Devon," Vale says with suspicion.
"Did you break another rule?" Lili asks with a soft tone like an understanding mother.
Ever slowly, Elliott's grin is getting wider and wider, exposing the truth he's hiding behind it.
"Ugh! No!" Tom groans, raking his hair with his fingers.
"I can't believe you guys kissed again!" Adriana says, her voice tinted with jealousy as they extravagantly spend money when she can't even get her man to do a single rule break.
Judging from their silence, you sense that it's not just a kiss, "or it wasn't just a kiss...?"
Your question only heightens the tension and everyone's heads are turning in at Devon and Elliott as they occupying the single sofa on the other end of the room.
"Spit it out!" Tom impatiently demands.
Devon only keeps on sighing while Elliott is looking like he has his life flashes before his eyes.
"Just tell us what you did!" Adriana urges them.
Elliott is foolishly grinning his stress away and finally answers, "Coitus."
"What the hell is coitus?" Lili innocently asks.
"Sex," Issa shortly replies.
"Oh, fuck!" The profanity automatically falls out of Lili's mouth.
It's unfair that you were having a good day until two people decided to make your worst fear come true. A kiss is already $6,000 and you don't want to guess how much for sex.
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YOU: I mean… Seungmin and I have been resisting temptations.
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"I must inform you that sex was not the only thing that took place in the bathroom," Lana continues.
You nervously bite at your thumb, thinking how stupid can they be to break so many rules all at once. Have they always been thinking about themselves?
"That's so stupid!" Adriana doesn't hold back.
Elliott lets out a dry chuckle, "It's not that bad," he calmly says.
From his answer, you can see how stupid he is. What makes him think that answer would make everyone feel better?
"No, Elliott, you're being stupid and selfish," Vale points out, stealing the words out of your mouth.
"Are you aware that what you did got the whole team penalized?" Adriana scolds them more, putting some sense into their heads.
Tom holds Adriana down by putting his hands on her hands. It's the first time he is being the reasonable one out of him and Adriana.
"Let's just hear how much money we've lost," he says.
Lana continues with the announcement, delivering bad news one after the other.
"Elliott and Devon, the fact that the fines were recently doubled does not seem to have deterred you from breaking the rules of the retreat. Today's multiple indiscretions have cost the group..."
You know you wouldn't like what you're going to hear but to soften the blow, you prepare yourself by taking a few deep breaths.
"... $50,000."
Your jaws drop open but nothing comes out of your mouth, you're just at a loss for words. $50,000? You could have paid months' worth of bills and rent with that much money.
"What the hell?"
"That's so expensive!"
Tom is in utter shock that it takes him a few minutes to respond to it, "That's crazy!"
Elliott comes with another ignorant-sounding response, "Our bad. Alright, okay."
Tom claps his hands together and leans forward on his seat, "Do you guys even have respect for us?"
Elliott starts to blabbering around as Devon only sits next to him, saying nothing.
"It's just th-that we have feelings for each other and—"
Adriana cuts right through his words, "So you guys are going to keep doing it?"
"No, no," Elliott hurriedly denies, "That's it."
Everyone is turning on them no matter how hard Elliott is defending himself, he should know by now that he's in the wrong.
"You guys are right. I'm very sorry," he concludes with a regretful tone.
"The prize fund now stands at $104,000," Lana updates the current amount of money in the pot.
Everyone is too tired to even react to five sacks of money lost in one day. At this rate, everyone is going to be in debt.
"May I remind you that you are here to form deeper emotional connections," Lana ends, letting everyone go with a warning.
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YOU: I'm upset about Devon and Elliott's rule break but now I'm just thinking maybe... it's my turn now [smirks]
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It's exceptionally quiet in the room tonight.
Everyone is upset about losing half of the prize money when the retreat is nowhere close to finished. At this point, everyone will come home with nothing.
And everyone is simply too tired to even deal with things.
"Goodnight, beautiful people!" Issa sweetly says into the dark room.
A few are replying to her and not long after that, the room turns quiet again.
Seungmin is getting used to cuddling you, your head is nestled in the crook of his neck and his arm is around you. This is what he needs after an eventful day, a relaxing time with you and just enjoying each other's warmth.
He knows you're still awake from the way your thumb softly rubs his jaw, he turns his head to the side to plant a kiss on the top of your head.
"You're not tired?" He asks, keeping his voice low to not disturb everyone else in the room.
You take a low breath and answer, "I don't want to sleep."
Seungmin senses that you're up to no good but he's going to have some fun trying to resist you.
"What do you want to do then?"
"Mmh..." you hum and tip your head upward to look at him.
You hold his jaw to make him look back at you, "We can do more than a cuddle or two tonight," you answer with a smile.
His guess is right and he grins at you, suddenly feeling conflicted that a part of him wants to kiss you but another part of him doesn't want to anger everyone.
"No?" You ask.
"No," he answers.
"So... is that a yes?" You ask again with your thumb now swiping his lips.
Seungmin lets out a low chuckle and just can't find it in him to resist you, you're so alluring, so relentless, and just undeniably beautiful.
"We can do more than a cuddle or two, yeah," he caves in to the temptation.
Seungmin takes his arm away just so he can hover above you but before he can lean in, you stop him. You look around to make sure the coast is clear, checking Tom's bed to see if he's sleeping soundly before pulling the duvet to cover both of you.
Even in the dark, Seungmin knows where your lips are because he's drawn to them and when they touched, he feels like something has sets his body alight. He feels warm all over, he feels the flutter in his stomach and the softness of your lips that are in contrast to how hard you return his kiss.
It's only fair that Seungmin reciprocate that energy, he uses his tongue to pry open your mouth and kisses you deeper, harder, and at the same time, trying to keep the smooching sound at the minimum.
Your hands are around him and keep pulling him closer until he collapses on top of you, he has to plant his elbow against the mattress to not put his whole weight on you.
Seungmin doesn't know how much time has passed because, to him, it feels like time stops when he kisses you.
As much as he would love to continue, he decides to end it with a long peck on your lips and pulls open the duvet covering both of you.
With your hands still around his neck, you easily bring his head close to plant a soft kiss on his cheek and smile when you pull away.
"Goodnight," you quietly mutter.
He gives your cheek a gentle caress before placing a kiss on it, then murmurs back, "Goodnight."
The two of you return to your sides of the beds with your backs against each other like nothing just happened.
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SEUNGMIN: She is making it hard for me right now but I know that people will be mad about it so I didn't go all the way.
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The morning starts with a heartfelt apology from Elliott.
If only the apology brings back the $50,000 they have lost, they would have easily accepted it but well, the damage has been done, there's just no undoing it.
"I'm not the type to dwell on the past but I don't forget and forgive either," Tom says, showing where his stance is on this matter.
Devon brushes her brown hair to the back and draws a breath before talking, "We do not plan to spend any more money. You can believe that or not, but I'll show you," she says with a determination.
"You are repeat offenders!" Tom states a fact that everyone can vouch for it.
"Fair enough," Elliott meekly responds.
Everyone turns quiet as they watch the talk between Tom and Elliott on the sideline, including him and you. You link your arm around his and rest your head on his shoulder.
Tom looks around as he asks the same question every other morning, "Did anyone break the rules last night?"
Not going to lie, Seungmin's heart drops a little but he knows how to put on a poker face. He remains calm, holding your hand if not rubbing the sleep of his eyes.
Another moment passes and no one answers Tom except for the silence that hangs in the room. Admitting it won't do him good, he knows Tom is going to be fuming.
"Let's start the day, shall we?" Issa says, breaking the silence in the room.
Seungmin must admit that you put on a good poker face too, no one is suspecting anything and he hopes it stays like that.
But on the other hand, the rule break last night only makes him want to break more rules and you seem to have the same thing in mind.
"What are we doing today?" You ask, your hand making its way across the sink to grab at his hips.
Seungmin is too busy brushing his teeth to answer you, he wants to do a lot of things with you but most of them are against the rules. He takes your hand and pulls you close to his side which you gladly do, clinging to his side.
You both agreed on swimming in the pool instead of working out, and going to the dressing room to change into swimwear.
Seungmin is already waiting in his swimming trunk and drinking out of his water tumbler when you come out of the changing room without your bikini top.
You're slyly grinning and stand by the full-length mirror to put the bikini top on while he watches in the back.
"Do you like what you see?" You playfully ask as you tie the straps on your back.
Seungmin manages to swallow his water alright even though you suddenly decided to flash him.
"The question is can I touch them?"
You laugh at that and come up to him, putting your hands around his neck, "You can touch them whenever you want."
He gives you a piggyback ride to the swimming pool and standing on the edge of the pool, "Are you ready?"
Before you can answer, he jumps into the pool with you still on his back, catching you off guard. You're gasping for air once you break through the water's surface.
Seungmin has a good laugh watching you fumbling to plant your feet on the bottom of the pool and he hurriedly helps putting your hair away from covering your face.
"You prick!" You say as you hit his chest.
He can't stop laughing, but he tries to console you by hugging you.
"Having a good laugh, huh?" You sneer, all pout and adorable.
"I did ask you if you were ready," he says just to annoy you more.
"Ha-ha," you dryly laugh in response, wiping the water from around your eyes.
"Okay, I'm sorry," He quickly apologizes, putting your hands around his neck and holding you close.
But he is having fun teasing you so while you're holding onto him, he lets himself fall into the water and brings you along with him, fooling you once again.
"Stop following me!" You jokingly say as he trails behind you as you both make your way back to the villa.
He puts his hands on your shoulders and you quickly shrug them off, "Don't touch me!"
That only makes him want to tease you more, he slips his arms under and around you, hugging you from the back.
"You're annoying. Go away!" You grumble, trying to get away but he won't let you.
Seungmin keeps laughing and tightening his hold around you, ignoring that the two of you are dripping wet and forming puddles of water on the floor of the dressing room.
He buries his head in your neck and kisses you there and you whine in complaint but you tip your head to the side, giving him the access to your neck.
"Stop it!" You tell him, half laughing but mostly enjoying his neck kisses.
He knows you can't resist him and that's why you keep letting him kiss your neck with his hands roaming around your wet body.
Then you drop your head on his shoulder, tantalizing him with your lips only inches away from him and you know what, he can worry about the money later.
Seungmin crashes his lips on yours, placing an intense kiss on your soft lips, and gives you a moment to return his kiss before taking it further.
You know what he wants and you give it to him, opening your mouth for him so he can kiss you deeper and harder.
While his lips are busy kissing yours, his hands freely wandering your body, he traces the sides of your body, then bravely cups your breasts in his hands.
A moan slips out of your mouth as he fondles your soft mounds, feeling the nipples hardening under your bikini top. The more he touches you, the more he loses himself in the kiss.
If it wasn't for the footsteps you both hearing coming to the dressing room, Seungmin wouldn't have stopped. He steps away to avoid suspicion, grabbing a towel to start drying himself.
You crane your neck to see who's coming from the hallway but it seems like whoever that is, they're heading for the bedroom, not here.
The moment your eyes meet, you both let out a laugh knowing that no one caught you rulebreaking.
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SEUNGMIN: I need to do something because if we keep going down this path... I think we're going to keep breaking more rules.
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The dress you're wearing has cute frills on the hem and you're swaying your body side to side in front of the mirror to see how it's going to look.
"It looks like one of those Barbie dresses," Adriana comments.
"I'm not wearing underwear under my dress," you shamelessly share.
"She's not wearing underwear under her skirt," Adriana points at Issa which she confirms with a nod.
"I hardly wear underwear," Devon innocently adds, holding a glass of juice in her hand.
You check one more time in the mirror and Vale happens to walk past you, you grab his elbow to stop him.
"How do I look?"
He ties his long hair into a small bun as he looks at you, "Stunning!"
"Thank you, babes," you mutter with a big smile, holding your hand up for a high five.
"And how do I look?" Vale asks, giving you a spin to show the whole look.
He's wearing blue jeans and a gray knitted sweater which doesn't fit the Caribbean sea weather but he looks good nonetheless.
"Divine!" You answer with a bright smile.
He puts his arm around your shoulder and looks at both of your reflections in the mirror as he says, "Perfect!"
After putting on a fresh coat of lip gloss, you're ready to step out of the villa and find Seungmin, he's the only one you want to show yourself off to.
You can easily spot him from his baseball jacket and his broad shoulders, he's talking to Jeff by the pool. Once you're close enough, you surprise him with a back hug.
Seungmin looks over his shoulder at you and smiles, sharing a moment with him until you realize that Jeff is still there.
"Nice shirt, Jeff," you compliment.
Jeff looks down at his striped shirt, "Thanks!"
Since Seungmin is still engaged in a conversation with him, you decide to let them continue and excuse yourself.
"I'm going to get a drink," you tell Seungmin.
It's when you're done with your first glass of drink and deep in the talk about skincare products with Lili and Adriana that Seungmin looks for you.
"Can I borrow her for a minute?" He asks the girls.
"Uh... No," Adriana jokes.
Nevertheless, he's offering his hand at you to help you get up from the sofa and take you to the firepit which has become you and Seungmin's favorite spot.
You carefully sit on the sofa with your hand keeping the hem of your dress down to not let it ride up your thighs and accidentally expose your private part to the camera.
"I love the jacket," you compliment, grabbing at the collar of it.
"I love the dress," he compliments back, touching the frilly hem, then rests his hand on your thigh.
His hair is brushed to the back, showcasing his beautiful face shape and strong jaws. Something about him that makes it seem like he's getting sexier and sexier each time you look at him.
And your mind is about to wander far off but thankfully, Seungmin grabs your hand and reels you back.
"I think we need to talk," he says.
Those words have such negative connotations and you get a little nervous, "Yeah?"
He puts his arm around you and his fingers are playing with the end of your hair, "We broke the rules twice already. I think it's just too much physical," he says.
Facing Lana's wrath is scary but there are far scarier things than that, for example, Seungmin has a change of heart. Thank God that's not the case so you let out a low sigh of relief.
"And I'm not just talking about people going to be mad at us. I think we should work on our emotional connection too," he seems to pick his words carefully, probably not wanting you to get the wrong idea.
You know exactly what he's talking about, there just too much physical stuff lately and you can't think of anything other than that.
But if you would rather do that than have to talk about emotions, feelings... it's just too scary for you.
"I'm just bad at talking about my feelings, that scares me so much," you honestly tell him.
Seungmin repeatedly nods as he takes your answer and pats your head, "Okay then, for now, let's put a brake on the physical stuff," he suggests.
Not sure if that's also what you want, you hate the idea but Seungmin is right, you should start to think of the group and stop acting selfishly.
The only thing that gets in the way is that it's not an easy thing to do.
"You know on the first few days in this retreat, I kind of forgot about sex," you share.
You pull the lapel of his jacket and slyly smile as you glance at him, "But now that I'm sharing a bed with a hot guy... all I'm thinking is just sex, sex, and sex," you openly admit, purposely dropping your voice lower and lower.
Seungmin is holding himself from smiling and you see that he profusely blushing from your words which makes him even cuter.
He clears his throat before speaking, "Surely, we can control our impulses, we can try—"
You cut him off as you stare into his eyes, "And when you're looking me in the eyes like that I just get so... fired up," you tell him.
He draws a sharp breath and throws his head back, failing to try to make you stop thinking about sexual stuff to only hear you talk more about sexual stuff.
You laugh as he looks so defeated and you hug him, feeling bad for him.
"We should stop spending the money, mmh!" He tries again.
"I'll try," you say while continuously laughing.
Hopeless, he buries his head and threatens you with tickling kisses, sending you into a laughing fit. Once you calmed down, you carefully dab the tears pooling in the corner of your eyes from laughing.
"If we can't kiss then I want cuddles," you demand.
Seungmin knows what to do, sitting on the end of the sofa so you can rest on his chest. You keep the hem of your dress down as you get in between his legs.
"I'm not wearing underwear," you tell him.
He hurriedly takes his jacket off, offering it to you to cover your legs, then puts his arms around you.
"Why are you not wearing an underwear?" He curiously asks.
"To seduce you, of course!" You mischievously reply with a smirk.
He groans at the night sky and hisses, "Fuck..."
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YOU: What can I say? I love teasing him [laughs]
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Should you be suspicious or relieved to know that Lana is letting the two of you off tonight?
She didn't announce any rule breaks tonight and everyone stays oblivious about your rulebreaks. Well, you should be thankful that you can go to sleep at ease tonight.
"Goodnight, fam!" Jeff mutters to everyone in the room once the lights are off.
In the dark, Seungmin gets bold with his touches, you wonder if he's going to keep his word to not spend any more money.
You still remember how he said he didn't like cuddles that much but he's the only one spooning you right now with his big, warm hand resting on your stomach.
To put it simply, he's not that much of a man who sticks to his words.
It's obvious that he wants it as much as you do as he keeps placing kisses all over your shoulder and neck, his hand goes under your night dress, squishing on the flesh of your stomach.
"We can kiss, you know," you whisper.
He presses a kiss on the skin behind your ear and whispers back, "But we can't."
You let him do as he pleases and try to not make any noises as his hand climbs up your chest, his fingers teasing your underboob.
You turn your head to the back and lowly mutter, "You know what they say?"
He detaches his mouth off your neck, "What?"
"Third time is a charm," you answer.
Seungmin gets it right away and he decides that he's going against his plan to not act selfishly. He kisses you and lets his hand roam all over you, fondling at your breast and pinching at your nipple, making you yelp against his lips.
You see that he's smiling as he kisses you and he slides his hand down your stomach, easing down to where you want him the most.
He lets go of the kiss to ask, "Are you wearing underwear?"
"Sadly, yes," you answer.
That doesn't stop him from continuing, cupping your clothed sex as he plants his mouth on you again and without warning, lands a gentle slap at it.
You take his hand away in reflex and put it back on your waist, holding it down to not let it wander again.
"You can't do that, baby," you whine.
It's a surprise that you find yourself becoming the one with more senses and reminding him about the plan. Probably because it only hits you now that you've spent quite a lot of money already with three kisses and that's only what you know.
You don't want to know how Lana is going to calculate these rule breaks, thinking about it is enough to make you shudder.
Seungmin takes a deep breath to calm himself down, he needs it as you can feel his member poking your backside. You turn around to sleep facing him and putting a little space between your bodies, resting your hand on his chest as you look at his face in the dark.
"We should save some for tomorrow," you jokingly say.
Seungmin softly chuckles and takes your hand to kiss it, "Goodnight," he mutters.
You lean in to kiss his cheek and give his fluffy hair a ruffle, "Goodnight, baby."
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YOU: I hope Lana dozed off during her night shift or was updating her software or something [laughs]
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This morning, people started getting suspicious of you.
As soon as the lights are on and morning greetings are being thrown around the room, Tom asks the usual question, "Were there any rule breaks last night?"
You put on an act and you don't have to worry about Seungmin, he mastered the innocent until proven guilty face.
Issa shakes her head while twisting her hair and secures it with a hair claw, "Nothing here."
"That's good," Tom says, impressed.
Then Devon with her bare face and naturally rosy cheeks, gestures her hand in your direction, "I definitely heard something from there," she says.
Your heart drops but you keep reminding yourself to not act on it, putting on an angelic smile to ward the suspicion away.
"Why are you smiling?" Jeff asks.
"Because I'm feeling good," You simply answer, ignoring how your heart starts beating out of control inside your chest.
Thankfully, Vale chimes in and puts all of the attention away from you, "Yo Jeff, I dreamed that you stole one of the cones in the villa," he says.
Jeff cracks a laugh at this random information, "You mean, I stole Lana?"
Now that the suspicious eyes are nowhere on you, you look at Seungmin and exchange a knowing glance.
"What are we doing today?"
"Stop following me," he says, getting back at you with what you said to him yesterday.
You rest your head on his shoulder, "Want to work out together?"
He pushes you away by the shoulder, "You're annoying. Go away!"
You put your hand across his chest and hug him, annoying him more by nuzzling your head into his neck.
"Stop it!" He plainly says.
It's for the best that you maintain a safe space with Seungmin for now. You join Vale sunbathing, taking the lounger next to him, and put sunglasses on to shield you from the sun.
"It's weird not seeing you all over your boy," Vale pokes fun at you.
"Gee! Thanks," you sneer with a thin smile.
Vale chuckles and puts his bottle of suntan away, "So, you like this boy so much, huh?"
"Yes," you confidently reply.
"That much, huh?"
"Yes."
He chuckles again and reclines on his lounger, "How far are you in the relationship?"
You get a little anxious at the mention of the word "relationship" but it is a relationship, what you have with Seungmin is not just a fling.
With Vale, you can openly tell him about things because you know he will try to help you find an answer. He's a good friend who you can seek advice from.
"I'm just afraid that I might get scared and just fall back, I'm like... caught between two things at this moment," you honestly tell him.
Vale understands your problem, he's brushing his facial hair as he thinks about what to say to you.
"I think you should follow your heart," he says.
"If he feels right to you, then you should go for it," he continues, looking at you through the lenses of your sunglasses.
Seungmin feels right but that doesn't mean that one day, he won't walk away from your life. That's what you fear: being abandoned.
"I know but... it's just..." You don't know how to fathom it into words but you can feel the fear creeping up inside you.
Vale grabs your hand and gives it a squeeze, "It's okay. You'll figure it out," he comforts you with a smile.
This is what makes Vale a good friend, he's not judgmental and knows how to provide comfort. You place your hand on top of his and smile back at him.
After a moment, he lets go and then sits back on his lounger, "What else is on your mind though?"
"Sex?" You shamelessly answer.
He bursts out laughing and puts his hands behind his head, "You did break the rules with him last night, didn't you?"
He knows you better than anyone so there's no use in denying it, you nod to confirm.
"How bad?"
You skip on answering and he gets the meaning of it, cracking another laugh at you.
"How mad everyone will be when they find out?" You foolishly ask even though you don't want to know the answer.
"Depends..." Vale answers, sparing his detailed opinion on it.
He knows you know how bad it would be since you're the one who committed the crimes. If you have to guess how bad, well, it's bad enough that it sends a chill down your spine.
You shake the thought away and turn the conversation elsewhere, "Enough about me. How about you?"
"What about me?" Vale asks in confusion.
"Are you still on the hunt or...?" You wonder if Vale is having his eyes on someone or if he wants to continue this journey on his own.
"I don't know," he answers.
"I don't think I... I think I learned enough here," he cryptically adds, hinting that he wants to stop progressing in this retreat.
But it could also mean something else entirely.
"If it's about the girls, I think Lana will bring more guests into the villa," you try to console him.
Vale awkwardly chuckles and lets your words vanish into thin air, unanswered.
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YOU: I want to open up, I do and I know it's something that I need to do but that's just too scary for me.
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It's time to face the music.
When Devon lets everyone know that Lana wants everyone in the cabana, Seungmin knows that she's going to announce the rule breaks.
Lana has been quiet lately but that doesn't mean she's not keeping tabs on what's happening in the villa. He sees that you look a little nervous as you walk next to him.
Everyone is cheering once they enter the cabana and Seungmin wonders what triggers it, it's the first time everyone is happy coming into the cabana.
Then he notices the small gift boxes, twelve of them on the table which means everyone gets one.
"I hope it's one of those mini vibrators," Cara cheekily remarks.
Next to him, you're sighing and awkwardly muttering, "That's interesting."
Not long after, Lana chimes to answer everyone's curiosity, "Hello, everyone. As you can see, I have a treat for you all."
More cheering erupts in the cabana and Tom is excitedly whooping, probably because Lana finally delivers good news.
"The purpose of this gift will further enhance your relationships going forward. You may now open your gifts."
Everyone takes each box onto their laps and impatiently opens them to find out what's inside. Seungmin takes one for him too and gets yours for you.
"When I observe two people forming a genuine connection, they will be given a green light, like this."
While everyone else is enjoying their watches and Lana explains about the green light, Seungmin is left confounded as he finds nothing inside his box.
And so are you.
"You don't get one?" Elliott asks.
Devon dramatically gasps, "What does that mean?"
Seungmin looks at you and you look back at him, nervously laughing at the same time. He knows you both fucked up and it's time to let everyone knows.
"Do you guys know why you don't get one?" Adriana asks.
It's better to come clean and not make it worse for both of you. Seungmin learns the hard way not to underestimate Lana and if he did again, she'd punish him more.
"Uhm... so..." You're fiddling with the cuff of Seungmin's shirt, anxious.
Seungmin decides to speak for both of you, "Last night, we kissed and did a little heavy petting," he confesses.
He thought that it would be like taking a bandaid off all at once but as everyone is exclaiming, groaning, and complaining, he realizes that the sting lingers.
"I knew it," Devon says, knowing that she was right about the noises she heard last night.
"You have not only broken the rules once, but three times in 36 hours," Lana reveals.
And hearing that, he must agree that it's that bad.
"What are you doing?" Elliott asks in disbelief as if he didn't spend 50 grand on himself a few days ago.
"These rule breaks have cost the group a total of $30,000."
Everyone is at a loss for words, including Tom and that's a bad sign. Seungmin would rather Tom to scold him than get nothing from him.
"The prize fund now stands at $74,000," Lana updates.
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SEUNGMIN: [Groans] I clearly underestimated Lana.
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When you think the nightmare is over, Lana calls you and Seungmin. You sit up straighter and hold Seungmin's hand tighter on his lap.
"Everyone here has struggled to combat their physical urges, but you two have shown a blatant disregard for my rules of late."
Lana is mad, you get it and you believe you're not going to like what she says next. But what can you do? You have to pay for what you did.
"Therefore, to prove you are committed to the process, I'm setting you an additional test."
Oh? A test? But you're never good at tests and everyone seems to have guessed what kind of test Lana will put you into.
"You will both spend the night in the suite," Lana continues.
You and Seungmin immediately turn to look at each other, muttering two different curses at the same time.
"Fuck!"
"Damn it!"
"You are encouraged to use your time to further your connection and prove that you do, in fact, respect the rules of my retreat," Lana warns.
Everyone is already pessimistic about it, they probably think that the two of you will fail which only makes you want to prove them wrong.
"If successful you will earn your watches," Lana announces.
Seungmin looks at everyone and says, "To me, this is not a problem."
This is not a problem to him but everyone knows that the problem is you, you're the one who keeps leading him into temptations.
"You may now leave," Lana orders.
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YOU: Oh, my God! How are we going to survive this?
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