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kimbapisnotsushi · 5 months

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it's akaashi's birthday!!! you guys know what that means!!!!!!!!!! have some timeskip special headcanons about akaashi and co. let's go!!!!

i think akaashi deserves a spin-off about his misadventures in the manga department honestly

gekkan shoujo nozaki kun. sekaiichi hatsukoi. bakuman. there is a lesson to be learned here people!!!!!

tenma gifts him a planner for his birthday and the first thing he does after opening it is mark all of tenma's deadlines. which he also has recorded in his phone calendar. AND he has them memorized. AND on sticky notes scattered throughout the office

tenma: you know i got you this planner so that you wouldn't have to put sticky notes everywhere, right? akaashi, sleep-deprived and running on five cups of coffee: time waits for no one, udai-san

the office has a special "akaashi keiji emergency rest kit" for when he falls asleep at his desk

it's got a blanket if it's cold, a pillow they tuck under his head, a bottle of water and snacks they leave next to him if he gets hungry/thirsty when he wakes up, and an eye mask that they put on him after they take off his glasses

idk i think the whole office really loves akaashi

and he really loves them back!!!! they're a team!!! they work together!!!! deadlines might be hell but at least it's a hell they're united in!!!

akaashi finding love and contentment and happiness in a place he initially wasn't sure about is everything to me okay

also i think he wingmans tenma and akiteru. i think it'd be very funny.

akaashi knows it's bad when he catches tenma drafting a whole new romance plot and he's like "udai-san. please. you have something due in five days you canNOT be doing this right now"

honestly akaashi just wants them to get together so that tenma will stop being dreamy and distracted and ACTUALLY focus on getting his manuscript done on time

and then they DO get together and akaashi is subjected to even more dreamy sighs and staring off into the distance and whatnot

tenma is such a disaster you guys i love him

ALSO YOU KNOW HOW MANGAKAS HAVE A LIL MASCOT TO REPRESENT THEMSELVES IN THE AUTHOR'S NOTE. TENMA'S IS DEFINITELY SOME KIND OF CROW

someone asks tenma if he has a favorite pro vball player and tenma says "hinata shouyou" with the BIGGEST smile on his face and hinata almost cries

LMAO HOW FUNNY WOULD IT BE IF KENMA OFFERED TO BANKROLL AND DEVELOP A ZOMBIE KNIGHTS VIDEO GAME

i mean i barely even know what zkz is about but based on the title i feel like it'd make a good video game

yachi can help design . . . lev and komi can voice act . . . yes . . . it's all coming together . . .

NEVER MIND I KNOW WHAT IT IS I READ A TRANSLATION OF THE LIGHT NOVEL IN THE MIDDLE OF WRITING THIS

he wrote zkz in a restaurant are you SHITTING me udai tenma i love you

so apparently it got discontinued?? instead of allowing tenma to finish it the way he wanted?? so when tenma hears that kenma wants to make a video game out of it he ends up in tears

kenma's like "well it might have failed as a manga. but i think it'd make a pretty good video game, if you want to help out with that"

god everything about it makes me want to cry actually. tenma who is still chasing after his dreams. and akaashi right there, learning how to be better. learning how to be passionate. learning how to give tenma his all. because he's TENMA'S editor and he'll be damned if he doesn't do it well.

udai tenma in an interview about meteo attack: "yes, i am sad i didn't get a chance to end zkz in a way that would have made me happy. it was my first series, and that's always going to be precious to me. but meteo attack is one i'm looking forward to. it's a story about learning how to fly, when everybody else has long since been trampling on your wings and telling you that you can't."

sorry i did NOT mean to get this emotional over them. but now i am. and i am going to be thinking about it forever

meteo attack def gets raving reviews from players in the pro volleyball league, especially from hinata shouyou

#I TOOK A BREAK FROM MY ESSAY TO WRITE THIS OKAY BYE BYE CLOSING TUMBLR FOR A WEEK UNTIL THE SEMESTER'S OVER #akaashi keiji #udai tenma #kozume kenma #hinata shouyou #yachi hitoka #haiba lev #komi haruki #haikyuu #haikyuu!!#haikyuu hcs #sou says stuff

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koalaforlife · 8 months

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Happy Birthday, Hange Zoë

This is a story of how Hange became one of my favorite characters now after so long, and how I think they are one of the most underrated characters, always pushed aside (probably due to a lack of an emotional backstory and lack of the relatability factor).

For starters, I will note that I will most likely end up referring to them as she/her because in my mind (thanks to the anime), I can’t help but see this character as a female and honestly, I’ve been struggling for Idk, all my life? to find a female character in any media that ticks all the boxes for me (I have plenty of ultimate faves in terms of male characters instead) and to my utmost surprise now, I think Hange just might be the one so allow me to fulfil my long-time desire of finding a great female character that I can call my ultimate favorite.

Also, it's important to mention that for the longest time, my favorite AoT characters had been Levi (ultimate bias) with Erwin coming in a veeeery close second.

Let me start with the beginning. When I first saw her in the first season of SnK, the exaggerated reactions that were meant to be comic relief only made this “mad/obsessed” character more cringe to me. Not to say I hated them, I just…got second-hand embarrassment from watching them. I didn’t quite get a good grasp of the character and probably like 90% of the fandom, I just saw them as just another character fading in and out of the background, that at times helps the plot advance with some new bits of info.

Then, at some point, I probably saw some cool scenes of them that gave me a pleasant surprise (eg. when she threatens to push Pastor Nick off the wall) but as I was getting distracted by other, more impactful and shocking scenes, I wouldn’t really think much of it and I didn’t actually use them to form a full character portrait/depiction in my mind. These scenes, few and far between, were forgotten in the end.

When I became a more active reader and passionate fan, about 4 years ago I would say, somehow I ended up learning about the pair LeviHan, and it really won me over with their dynamics. Whether people choose to ship them romantically or not, there is nothing that can deny the fact that they had a special friendship in canon AoT.

In any case, to my shame, I have to admit I started paying attention to Hange because of that ship, and though I didn’t realize it at that time, I liked her for the most part because of that ship. So basically, I liked her because of my favorite character, Levi. Of course, I still liked the legendary trio, Erwin, Hange, Levi, but again, I don’t think I was that attached to her as a singular character.

Soon after, I dropped out of fandom when the manga took a really weird turn for me. I started disliking it and it went on for a while. I lost my hope in it getting any better. I don’t know why it affected me THIS much but I can only assume it had something to do with my mental state back then.

Now, after almost 4 years, I reprised the manga and watched the final season of the anime. I felt differently, way more tolerant and accepting of whatever direction the story was going to take. And I can’t say I am unhappy with it, I just think that certain parts seemed like cliches and overused tropes, which is not very characteristic of Isayama, but oh well. I think the poor man was exhausted and wanted to finish it asap, and I can’t blame him.

Speaking of mental health, a few months back I had gone through a major shift where I started thinking more positively overall. I think this is important to mention because it’s probably why I also saw Hange with such different eyes this time.

And, I think this is also why I finally got ready to read the rest of the manga, despite knowing she dies. That was the only spoiler I got, and when I first heard it years ago, I was “disappointed, but not surprised” - at that time like I said, I had lost all hope in the manga. And once again, I had felt more sad about it because of Levi, who’s lost everyone he cared for deeply and who understood him. Once again, I had failed to see Hange as a singular character with massive importance in the story, instead of just a convenient accessory to Levi.

So why is this character important? There are many reasons why she was integral to the story, and inspirational to us readers, so I will try to summarize all that.

1. Open-mindedness

I don’t think most people remember (I know I didn’t) how she was the only one who first tried to challenge our perspective on titans.

For decades, we've tried to fight the Titans with hatred in our hearts. I want to try and see them from a different angle than the current norm.

Call it maybe foreshadowing, or just Isayama trying hard to come up with a unique, arguably crazy character (that’s what I thought at the time), but when you think about it, it’s something that was desperately needed. When you don’t understand and know something, try to look at it from a different point of view. When you are afraid of something and the situation is dire, try to dare to hope there might be something good in it.

Armin: They decided we're devils without knowing our intentions? Why won't they consider a path of peace?

Mikasa: I think...because they don't know. They fear us because they don't know what we are.

Hange: That's right. They won't trust people whose faces they haven't seen. So let's meet 'em! If you don't understand something, go figure it out! Isn't that what we Scouts do?

That positivity, openness, and exuberance shines throughout most of the scenes we get with Hange in the first season, and when things get serious in Season 2, we also get a glimpse of their duality: though they were someone that faced titans with excitement, they were not to be messed with when it came to protecting people.

2. Humanity / Emotional Intelligence

That duality becomes more apparent in Season 3, where we see them shine on their own. And btw, one of my kinks in this season/arc was the fact that the OP, goated trio, EruRiHan, were each on their own having to call the shots and contribute to the team’s success with little to no communication at times. Fills my heart with warm fuzzy feels and pride :D Anyway back to Hange. :D

Hange displays some nice people skills as she is trying to tie the “reputation” loose end and clear their names and seek answers, truth, and justice, by collaborating with Flegel, Roy, and Beaure.

Some notable quotes here are the following:

[speech to flegel] Well, you have a point. The thing is, that doesn't sound like living to me. Look at it this way, Flegel. Instead of scampering around like a scared little mouse your whole life, wouldn't you rather face up to your enemy, even if it means risking your life--?

and one of my most favorites,

“What are you talking about? Defeat is all the Survey Corps have ever known. (said with a fucking sunshine on their face, because they are literal sunshine)

And when all is cleared up,

Levi: Looks like the gamble paid off.

Hange: Yeah. It wasn't just Erwin though. The lone choices of many managed to change the world.

This sentence just made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside because it sounds inspirational to me: it's the small things we can all do that help shape the world, and it's not just the more inspirational, brave, and special people that bring change, it's all of us.

If for some reason the previous scenes weren’t enough to see what an empathetic and people-oriented person she was (eg. when she tries to befriend Eren, Levi and his friends, when she gives Sasha a potato as thanks, when she admits she wasn’t going to harm Pastor Nick, and was visibly disturbed by his death)….well this line I think perfectly shows how Hange encompasses teamwork, people’s unity, compassion, friendship.

3. Mental Strength

However, at the same time, they are not afraid to get their hands dirty. Just like pretty much every relevant character in this story, they have to kill (or torture) to survive or to help humanity. That ability to know what needs to be done and get it done comes with a certain life experience and maturity that a lot of our main characters still have to achieve, which is probably why Hange gets overlooked as she already is a matured, developed character for the most part of the story, who doesn’t really need to make any life-altering decisions that shape their personality in one way or another.

But for me, that was a plus, actually. Don’t get me wrong, I love Armin’s growth, Conny’s development, Reiner and Annie’s inner conflicts, Historia’s whole arc, and some other minor character developments (Sasha and Ymir). But I can’t help but admire Hange now when I look at a more complete picture: a person with love for knowledge and love for life, but with a feral instict and strength to protect that same thing she loves - the lives of innocent people and the access to truth and knowledge.

There are people I want to bring back, too. Hundreds of them. I've had to say farewell since the day I joined the Scouts. But...You know, don't you? No matter who it is, there comes a day to say farewell. I know it's impossible, but you have to accept this. There will be times you can't keep your sanity. It's tough. Very tough. I know. Even so, we have to keep moving forward.

4. Honesty and Accountability

Hange is blunt ("I agree. I thought it should've been used on Erwin...") and always takes responsibility for her decisions especially when she knows it might affect someone's mental state. ("The decision was mine. You were just a factor."/"I said the decision was mine."). I don't think people appreciate how important this is.

5. Flaws

When she gets overwhelmed with politics, responsabilities, and stress, and overpowered by the Jagerists, it is almost humiliating to see her cuffed and rendered useless, unable to do anything but follow the stronger ones. You can see how she slowly realizes that this surpasses her abilities to tackle the politics and the grim reality that the world most likely wants them dead. Defeated, she says

Erwin, you only made one mistake in your life. Why did you make me a commander?

I am sure some people would agree with her, but honestly, I disagree. First, there was literally no better option. Second, Erwin had an ability to see, understand, and manipulate people. If he nominated her, he must have believed in her enough, just as he believed in Levi and Armin when he entrusted them with crucial tasks. And third, some may argue that Erwin would have handled the situation better. But while Erwin might have probably been less stressed and overwhelmed with the political discussions, the reality would still be the same, and he would have had to work with the same equations and factors: world wants them dead, eren doesn’t want to sacrifice historia, eren wants the rumbling, what’s there to do? what could have Erwin done better in these circumstances?

This new side of Hange’s character is really sad, but it makes her relatable in my opinion. I know a lot of people find other characters relatable instead, but for me this part right here speaks more to me than others. This sort of impostor syndrome (which Armin also suffers from), and the clear showcase of a character’s flaws and failures for the first time (when did we see Hange fail before?), all these things bring her down from the sort of “great character with no mistakes” pedestal and make her seem more like…us.

How many times did we not get some huge responsibility that we felt we were not good enough for, and doubted ourselves? Be it a project at work, leading a team, parenting, or even simple things like not being good enough at some hobby that you want to pursue, or good enough to be in a relationship with someone. These doubts are human and okay to have, and there's nothing wrong with that, but...

6. Resilience

But what’s important is to keep moving forward and do your best, do whatever you can to change the outcome for the better, and if you fail, don’t go too hard on yourself. Hange knew that she did all she could, and she kept moving forward, even though she felt so down at times and almost as if she wanted to give up.

Looks like my turn has come...even though I thought I did the right thing. Times change and you end up in a cell....What do you say we live out here, forever?

[a few moments later]

Levi: There's no way in hell you can stay out of the action.

Hange: Yeah, I can't. (bittersweet smile)

She does what she does best: she moves forward. She saves Levi and nurses him back to health, risking both of their lives in the process (I guess she was possessed by Erwin’s gambling spirit? :D or she was just THAT determined to ensure their survival). She seeks to form an alliance with the remaining survivors, including the Marleyans.

In the forest scene, you could say that she is the one presiding over them, and the funny thing is, she does it while cooking dinner. It’s kind of symbolic if you ask me, as food is crucial to our survival, but it’s also something that brings people together.

7. Integrity

One of the most powerful quotes in my opinion, is this one

I’ll be damned before we justify genocide somehow.

[manga: There is nothing anyone can say to change my mind about that.]

It really showcases her determination to save human lives and a core belief that makes her just more admirable in my opinion: genocide is wrong.

But I'm sure none of them would have been so selfish as to say..."as long as the island has freedom, that's all that matters."

Her demise is so characteristic of her - she’d always been fascinated with titans, but that never stopped her from killing them in order to survive and to save people’s lives. Her goodbye words to Levi and that lovely chuckle of hers once again reminded us of that familiar “all sunshine and rainbows” energy she always had. And then she fell like a burning star.

The music choice couldn’t have been more perfect. I admit I didn’t even remember this song before, but now it’s one of my all-time favorites, and I can’t help but feel all kinds of bittersweet and nostalgic when I hear it now.

Hange is now my favorite character, up there with Levi, and irrespective of Levi and their relationship. I love her because to me she is relatable, because she encompasses pure things such as willingness to understand and accept things and people she doesn’t know, exuberance, love for life, and curiosity. I love her because of her duality- both flawed and strong, both sweet and menacing, and I love her because she never loses her integrity as a human being. Hange brought more to the story than most of us think, she wasn’t just comic relief or a vessel to share information about the lore, she brought our beloved characters together and nurtured them, and she was the embodiment of what the Survey Corps represented: exploration, understanding, and bravery. If Erwin was the mastermind that pushed them forward, and Levi the one that protected them the most, I like to think Hange was the glue that kept them together, and kept them going with her positivity and passion for life.

#levihan #hange #notforbrenda #hange zoe #hanji zoe #attack on titan #snk #aot #shingeki no kyojin #hange is underrated #hange is the best #hange for president #thx for coming to my ted talk

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lordisitmine · 5 months

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TTNBD BLOG: PART ONE

I'm doing something different with this story. I always have much to say in the notes of my fanfiction and I'm usually bursting to talk about behind the scenes/commentary stuff, so I've decided to do blog posts to correspond with the updates of this story. I don't know if I'll do one for every single chapter, some of them may be grouped, but I hope people will find them interesting just the same! This post is to cover the first update, that being the prologue and the first chapter. Obviously, spoilers for those if you haven't read them yet.

INTRODUCTION

My writing process for a fic usually starts with the nagging vision of a single scene. It might be an ending, a beginning or a middle, but if it burns in my mind long enough that I have to write it down, that usually means that it will continue to stick around until I've done something about it.

Such was the case with To the End of Everything. In the late summer of 2014 (August I believe), I was on the bus, going to work, day dreaming (I can't read or watch videos in a moving vehicle, I'm very prone to motion sickness). I had recently been re-reading the first few arcs of the Kuroshitsuji manga and had finally gotten around to season two of the anime. Seeing Ciel as a demon gave me about six hundred thousand emotions, and so it was on my mind at the time.

Suddenly, a scene started to play out in my brain, and it was genuinely like watching a movie. I could see it all clear as day. It was Sebastian and Ciel, both demons, in twenty-first century London, standing at the grave of Ciel himself, on Ciel's one-hundredth-and-something birthday. Sebastian was holding a giant bouquet of roses and Ciel was rolling his eyes and pretending not to be totally charmed by the gesture.

This, of course, is the epilogue of TTEOE. That one scene dug its claws into me so completely that I spent the next four years writing an entire novel to explain how it was that the two of them ended up in that situation in the first place.

Fast-forward to the fall of 2018. It's almost Halloween, and I'm finally, finally, putting the finishing touches on the final chapter of TTEOE. Ciel and Sebastian are standing in the ruins of Phantomhive manor, which has been destroyed (again). The man who killed Ciel's parents has been defeated. The great evil has been vanquished. The contract between Ciel and Sebastian has come to fruition, but instead of Sebastian consuming Ciel's soul, he has transformed it. Ciel has been transformed into a demon, and he and Sebastian are even more irrevocably bonded than they already were (more on that later).

There were, however, still a few loose ends. No ending is ever truly clean, not in real life. And sure, this was fiction, but I like to leave room for my readers to imagine what might happen next for themselves, and also give myself a little bit of breathing room as an author, in case I ever do decide to write a sequel. But when I wrote the lines about Sir Arthur's followers still being out there, I didn't have any concrete plans to do anything about it.

Until about ten months later.

August, 2019. What is it with me and August? Well, whatever it was, it got me again. The same cemetery, the same grave. Only this time, it wasn't the twenty-first century. Ciel's death was still fairly recent in the grand scheme of things. And instead of Ciel standing in front of his own tombstone on his own birthday, it was Lizzy, bundled up in the cold, carrying out her grieving ritual, even still, visiting Ciel in order to wish him a happy birthday and to tell him she hoped he was in a better place.

And then an immediate hard cut to Ciel and Sebastian in Paris having wild sex. Here, let me quote my own outline document, which is the first thing I write for any fic, the place where I messily scribble down everything I want to happen in order to then break it down into scenes and fully write it later. I wrote this back in 2019.

"Lizzy visits Ciel’s grave. She tells him about her latest life update, how med school is going, how her friend Sybil has invited her to go to Paris for the holiday, and how excited she is that her parents said yes, on the condition that she take the servants with her to keep her safe. They've become super extra protective ever since the business of Ciel’s death and all that. Lizzy seems to be doing better, as the last time she visited Ciel’s grave was months ago, and we are led to believe she used to come here all the time. She ends the visit by telling Ciel that she might not be back for some time, and that she truly hopes he’s in a better place.

Cut to Ciel, who is indeed in a much better place- namely Paris, in some ridiculously lavish bed in a ridiculously lavish apartment, getting his ass eaten and his back blown out. It’s his birthday after all, and Sebastian won’t let him forget it, even if Ciel thinks birthdays are a foolish thing for demons to celebrate. It’s also their anniversary though, of the day they made the Bond, and Ciel doesn’t mind celebrating that one so much."

So, yes. I've been sitting on this sequel for some time.

The problem this time, unlike with TTEOE, was that I had no idea what to do with these two scenes. They were obviously the beginning of something, but the beginning of what, I had no idea. With TTEOE, I had elements from canon to draw upon, and an obvious goal- tell the story of how Ciel got his revenge and became a demon.

But here, any conclusion I might have was more vague. The cult was still out there, so maybe something happens that brings Ciel and Sebastian back to London? But to what end? Ciel is supposed to be dead, so it's not like he can just re-enter his old life.

I knew for sure I wanted the story to focus on Lizzy as well, to give her a narrative arc of her own, and maybe a romance (a sapphic one, obviously, because that's how we do things in my house). Would she know Ciel was still alive? Would she be a victim? And who would be the villain? Who had taken over in Sir Arthur's stead, and what was their even worse, even bigger plan that the gang would have to foil?

Obviously, I now have answers to all of these questions. But of course, those answers are for me to know, and for you to find out.

So, over the course of the last few years, I've been coming back to this story, adding random pieces in by bursts of inspiration, building a Frankenstein's monster of sorts. Trying to create life. And then a year ago in December of 2022, I decided I was ready to flip the switch, summon the lightning, and actually sit down and write this son of a bitch.

I really did intend to have it done a lot sooner than this. I was, in retrospect, a bit premature in announcing my intentions. However, one of an author's biggest motivations is their audience, so I think it was good that I knew people were waiting for me to do it, even if it did cause me to stress myself out more than a few times. But that;s completely on me, not on you, the reader.

I won't get too much into my personal life, but a number of things happened this that contributed to creative drought and periods of business that prevented me from writing. But I had encouragement from you guys, and I'll always be grateful for that, because it got us all here!

PROLOGUE: COUP DE FOUDRE

TTEOE had an epilogue; TTNBD has a prologue. There are several through-lines in this story (and oh boy has that been a BITCH to plot out, I hope it will be worth it) and a couple of those through-lines start years and years before the rest of the story, so I sectioned them off like this. Also, having a prologue makes me feel a little fancy.

Original characters are a touchy subject in fanficiton for some people. I personally don't read a lot of fic with OCs, which is wild because I'm currently writing one. But whenn they're executed well, some of the best fics I've read have had OCs play a major role. Of course, self-insert OCs are their own sub-genre, but that's not what is happening here. There were holes in the story I wanted to tell that needed characters to fill them, and none of the existing characters could reasonably be stretched to fill those holes. So original characters it was!

There are three original characters in this story; Sybil, who plays the most major role, who you met as a baby in this chapter and who you'll see as an adult in the next one. Then there's her father Simeon, who you've met as well, and another character who I won't mention by name yet because they're going to be introduced in next week's instalment! Both Simeon and this other person play lesser parts in the story, but they're important. I will be doing drawings of them this week, so you'll get to see what I picture them like alongside their descriptions.

EDIT: December 19/2023. I realised a couple more things I forgot to mention when I was chatting with my translaor van_Dort, for whose work I could not be more grateful! Simeon's name comes from the Bible, specifically the Simeon spoken about in the New Testament book of Luke, in Chapter 2, during the story of the birth of Jesus.

In Luke CH.2, Simeon was an old man living in Jerusalem at the time of Jesus's birth; he had been told by the Holy Spirit that he would not die until he saw the Messiah. When Jesus was brought as a baby to the Temple in Jerusalem to be blessed, Simeon got to hold him, thus fulfilling his life's purpose.

The parallels between this Simeon and mine aren't meant to be super direct, but in TTNBD, Simeon's purpose was to father Sybil, and in holding her when she's born, he sees that purpose fulfilled. Also, as Van_Dort said, having a demon with a biblical name is just pretty cheeky and fun :>

Alois and Claude are here too! Season two of the anime is so juicy, with so many good elements to it, I just couldn't resist bringing these characters out to play. I can't wait to get into Alois's absolutely busted head and his wicked toxic dynamic with Claude. I feel like their relationship is a great foil for Ciel and Sebastian's, especially in this fic with the tone I'm going to take. I'm excited for you to see my representation of some of the events of the anime's second season.

CHAPTER ONE: A FAR, FAR BETTER REST

Ten or more years ago, when I was very, very involved in this fandom, much more than I am now (I'm like, here lurking but I wouldn't call myself active) I came across a piece of fanart of an older Ciel and Sebastian, and Ciel had this long hair, and it was so beautiful, and it changed my brain chemistry forever. I've never forgotten it, but I've also never been able to find it again, much to my chagrin. Maybe I'll try to recreate it now that I have the will and the skill to do so.

NEVERMIND! I just took a break from writing this to go search for it one more time and I actually found it! This is a repost on DeviantArt, The notes on the post say it was taken from 4chan but I can't seem to find the original source which sucks but I found it! I've been thinking about this picture for years!

So yes, this specific picture is 99% of the reason why Ciel has long hair in TTNBD. If anyone by some miracle knows the original source, please do share. That and growing out one's hair is symbolic of starting over or time passing or whatever thing you learned in your high school language studies/literature class. Also I think it looks pretty. This is exactly how I imagine him, I've been trying to capture this hairstyle in my drawings, I need to tweak his bangs a little I think.

Also, kudos to those of you who noticed that Ciel's fake name- Gespenst- is German for phantom! I couldn't resist the fun little reference, both to the name Phantomhive and to the fact that Ciel, for all intents and purposes, is a dead man. Also it sounds cool! Bonus!

ANYHOW, onto other stuff. Namely, let's talk about the telepathy thing.

My guilty pleasure is those middling to badly written romance fantasy novels where a nineteen or twenty year old girl gets taken away into a fae realm and falls in love with some hot strapped fae prince or whatever and then finds out that he's her Mate *gasp* and they're *bonded*. If you're reading this and thinking about A Court of Thorns and Roses, then you're thinking of the exact series I was obsessed with when I was writing the end of TTEOE.

In ACOTAR, Feyre and Rhysand have a mating bond that includes a telepathic link. I already knew I wanted the ritual that turned Ciel into a demon to form a tangible bond of some kind between him and Sebastian, and I was reading those books at the time and it just struck me upside the head. Mating bond! Duh! It plays perfectly with the possessiveness that's already inherent in their relationship and the fact that they're supernatural beings with supernatural abilities- and I also happen think it's pretty ~hot~ oop.

To be fair, it's not just ACOTAR's fault: I've been big into Star Trek since I was a teenager and if you know what T'hy'la means and the absolutely legendary fandom mythology that surrounds it, you know where all of my obsession with mates and bonds and stuff really comes from.

I hope I've done a good job of laying out sort of how it works between Ciel and Sebastian, but just to be clear- I don't see it as being like, the ability to read/hear every single one of each other's thoughts. it's more like a link that they can use to sort of "speak" directly to each other, or if one of them is thinking about something very intensely, they can pick up on it.

To me, the vibe of these two has always been "power couple in a crowded room at a party, having a silent conversation with their eyes about how they're better and prettier than everyone else here" and I guess I wanted to make that a reality.

Also it's a great trick to be able to use during sex scenes.

Which brings me to my next point: as you will see, there are a lot more sex scenes in this fic than there were in TTEOE! And they're a lot more... how do I put this... graphic? That's Partially because Ciel and Sebastian's relationship is established, and they're demons, so they're just horny most of the time- and partially because it's been so many years since I wrote TTEOE! I'm just more comfortable with this stuff now and I know my way around it better from a writing perspective.

I wasn't even twenty years old yet in 2014 and now I'm staring down the barrel at thirty, so I've just grown up a lot and developed more as a person, as well as a writer. I feel like I've gotten better at writing in a lot of ways and one of those is definitely my ability to write porn. Not to brag or anything. I know it's a weird skill to be proud of, but in fandom it's a skill that's kind of worth its weight in gold.

Speaking of writing improvement, the honest-to-God biggest challenge for me this time around has been matching the cadence and tone of the writing in TTEOE. Having taken such a long break, and my writing voice having shifted like it has, I have to be deliberate about keeping it all coherent. I hope I'm doing an okay job.

Last but not least, Abberline's back! It's everyone's (my) favourite oblivious detective! I love outsider POVs and so I had a hoot and a half writing him in TTEOE, so of course he's back to investigate crimes and always be about one or two steps behind until the truth turns around and backhands him in the face! What will he do, where will he go, who will he see? Who knows! It's always an adventure!

Like Lizzy, Abberline has had his own response to what happened to Ciel. He's changed in his own ways and his place in life has changed as well. You'll be seeing more of him soon, along with everyone else.

Okay! I think that's all for now! Thanks for reading this... very long post! Feel free to ask questions, I'll be camping out near my inbox, and I'll see you again next week!

-lord_is_it_mine

#lord speaks #kuroshitsuji #fanfiction #black butler #sebaciel #writing #my writing #behind the scenes #ttnbd #tteoe series #ttnbd blog #commentary

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hello cece my beautiful wonderful beloved soulmate <3

i hope you have been well and looking after yourself! i don’t want you overworking yourself 😭 but it has been two days since i have come back from my trip (i have been exhausted plus i had work and uni to catch up on) so now i am going to sit down and tell you about my trip!! please grab a cup of tea and a snack while you read :)

so i went to sydney again, and i had a much more enjoyable experience this time around. i think it was because i knew what i was getting into, and i stayed in the exact same place, so it was all familiar to me.

although i did try to use the public transport this time, instead of ubering everywhere, and the buses were so bad, but the trains were INCREDIBLE! they were double decker and the back support moved so you could have a single row or two rows of seats face each other??? SO COOL

anyways, me and my friend caught the train to the airport at 4am in the morning 😭😭😭 (and i finished work at 12am!!!!) to get our flight. once we landed in sydney, my friend wanted to get merch from the early presale stand outside the arena and we were outside in 30 degree heat FOR TWO HOURS, with our luggage. good news, my birthday is coming up and my friend didn’t know what to get me, so he bought half my merch 🤭 bad news, i’m ginger and i get sunburnt in two minutes, so think about two hours… the worst thing is we had an umbrella for sun protection, but my right arm and the back of my neck was out so they were FRIED. i’m currently peeling like a reptile but worth it

we got some food from maccas because we were dehydrated and getting heat stroke, and then checked into our room after we managed to get our stuff. we both ended up napping in the afternoon, which we were both surprised about, because i had my phone in my hand still attached to the charger next to my bed and he still had his genshin impact loaded up onto his ipad 😭😭😭

unfortunately the place i wanted to take him to for dinner, the really good japanese place from last time, was under renovation, so we had dinner elsewhere but we had such a good time the rest of our trip

because we went to see stray kids, a kpop group, we had a lot of activities we could indulge in. they had this thing called a cupsleeve event, where someone in the fandom designs a cupsleeve to represent a kpop idol’s birthday, group anniversary or in our case, coming to the city. and i got so many freebies! we went to this kpop store that doubled as a cafe and the drinks were so good! i bought way too much but i have to remind myself that i can’t get it at home 😔

we also went to the biggest bookstore i have ever seen in my life! it took up a whole floor of the shopping centre and it was brilliant. it had books upon books, categories after categories. they even had an entire chinese and japanese section! i also spent a lot of money there BUT my best find was the entire completed infernal devices manga trilogy!! it’s so beautiful and such a rare find, i grabbed it immediately. i couldn’t find the tmi graphic novels though, but they have them on their website, so i might order them in :)

alright, the main event! the concerts! so i went and saw the kpop group, stray kids, two nights in a row! it was amazing. i was and still am a huge fan of their work, but especially because they got me through a really hard time in my life and really were my serotonin while i was at school 😔 i wasn’t allowed to see them when they first came here four years ago (parents: maybe next year, they’ll come! *next year being 2020.*) so i feel like i finally made up for it.

me and my friend also matches outfits! we did black and green (the concert colours) on the first night, and red and white on the second (to match the stray kids colours). i wish i could send you photos, we looked so slay 🤩

i do not have one concert video without me screaming the lyrics (yeah the korean ones too!) in the back. but i don’t care, it was so fun, i had a blast. and it was even better because two of the members of stray kids were from sydney and they just made it feel more homely :) do not regret how much money i spent on them or the sleep i lost at all! i’m so glad i can slowly start to give myself the experiences i missed out on as a kid/teenager :’)

anyways, enough about me! how have you been? what have you been up to? how is simba? 🥺 i adore you so much and i am enclosing this letter with a warm hug <3333

hello nero my amazing perfect beloved soulmate <3

yay i’m so happy to finally hear about this trip!!! i just made myself a cup of tea and brought out some biscoff cream!!

how was the catching up part?? did you manage to catch up without exhausting yourself too much??

nero that’s so great!! i think that having a familiar surrounding is always helpful, and staying in the same place makes it all less scary somehow. i’m really happy it went much better!!

NO WAY THEY HAVE THOSE TRAINS THERE??? they look so cool!!! i’ve seen them on instagram once and i was so jealous of every city who had those trains!! you can literally choose if you want to sit alone or have company and that’s so cool!!! it’s basically a buildable environment!!! i’m getting way too excited about this lol

so you only had like three hours of sleep?? 😭😭😭😭 and you even had to stand in the heat for hours 😭😭😭 but yay!!! merch!!! that’s a really great birthday gift!!! (also when is your birthday??? only if you want to share of course <3)

anyway merch is so amazing and so expensive. this has got to be one of the best presents ever!!! even if it means you’re skinning like a reptile now lol at least it’s just two small spots instead of your whole self 😂 but i get the struggle. i’m not ginger but my skin is so light i always get sunburnt in 0.5 seconds too. definitely not fun, but worth it for some merch :D

that was probably a really fun situation to wake up to, but you both deserved a nap for catching a bus at 4am!!! especially since you had only a few hours of sleep after work!! at least you were rested enough to really enjoy the trip!!

oh no 😭😭 i’m still dreaming about that place!! i went to a my favorite japanese restaurant in my city a few days ago and i really wanted to try that beverage you told me about but i was driving so i couldn’t 😭 i hope this other restaurant was really good too though!!

no way!!! nero this is all way too cool!!! i’m so happy it was so fun and there were so many things to do!!! also this cupsleeves event sounds so cool!! i’m so happy nero, you’re making my day just by telling me about all these freebies and amazing drinks!! and you know i’m always gonna be the little devil on your shoulder telling you that spending money is good and you deserve all that amazing stuff :))

the tid manga trilogy??? how is that even possible omg you can’t find that anywhere!!!! i’m so jealous, i wanna live in this bookstore now 🥺 it’s got to be so amazing!! (you always find the best bookstores, i had no doubt there would be one in this letter too and i was so excited to read about it!!) and let me know if you do order the tmi graphic novels!! i’ve been trying to collect those too hehe

the fact that *next year* was 2020 is so painful. but you saw them two nights in a row!!! that’s amazing!! and it must have been so good to see them after so long, after they’d been by your side in a really tough time 🥹 i’m so happy you got to finally see them live!!

also, the matching outfits?? I LOVE THAT!!! i bet you looked so slay!!! that’s literally the best idea for what to wear to a concert!!!

nero i’m so so happy for you!!! you’ve made my whole day, i’m not even joking!! i’m so happy you’re finally getting to enjoy trips and concerts you couldn’t before!! and this one really sounded so perfect!!! also the videos with you screaming at the top of your lungs to every song are literally the best. i love it when i rewatch a video from a concert and i can hear myself screaming and crying and dying more than i can hear the band or the singer. it just makes me live all those memories and those amazing feelings again!!!

the money spent on this is totally worth it!!! and you can sleep now, uni can wait lol really nero i’m so happy this trip was so good!!! i’m so happy for you!!!

i’m good!! i got three days off from work this week so that was great, and i started to reread chain of iron so that i can reread chain of thorns right after :) i miss them so much already 🥲

anyway i just booked a trip for may, because a friend is coming to visit me and i’m gonna be off work for two weeks so i’m really looking forward to it and now i just wanna skip work and plan the itinerary 😂 and i want to book more trips too. which isn’t great because my bank account is already crying and begging me to stop buying stuff. did i tell you i got the illumicrate edition of chain of thorns with the alternative dust jackets? yeah so my bank account still hasn’t forgiven me for it :,)

simba is also doing really good, he’s eating a lot and sleeping a lot as usual 😌

also, ever since you told me about the rina sawayama concert, and because you always talked so much about her, i kinda started listening to her music a lot more and i’m obsessed with some songs now!!! i adore her style so thank you for this new obsession :>

i’m enclosing a warm hug for you too and a little bouquet of flowers <3

#i’m so happy you’re back!!!#nero my beloved!!! <3

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orcelito · 2 days

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reread enough of trimax i think ive got the important things down. i only read through volume 1 of trimax, which is So much slower than i was expecting it to be (shoutout to when i first got my bootleg prints of the manga & hyperfocus skimmed the Entire manga in 7 hours), but it mustve been the level of attention i was paying to details

which was the point. the primary thing I wanted to get a feel for was wolfwood's presence & mannerisms, and also the way wolfwood and vash interact together in the early manga. im of course very familiar with their relationship, but existing in fandom spaces for so long can muddy what the actual canon relationship is in my mind. add in the fact that i havent actually read the manga in over a year (so the animes' characterizations were more present in my mind), & it's clear i was due for a reread. ITNL is a trimax fic first and foremost, after all, even if it does draw some elements from the animes.

so ! im going to start reviewing the existing written ITNL chapters. probably not reading everything entirely in depth, bc there's plenty that's not relevant to the current chapter, & my primary focus is preparing myself for writing the chapter. i dont have the time to reread the fic in full, however much i'd enjoy that, so. by the end of tomorrow, im going to review the fic enough to begin writing by thursday at the latest.

will that be enough time for me to actually finish the chapter by monday? considering it's my birthday weekend and i'll be pretty busy, who's to say? but im gonna try. and in the end, it's thankfully just 3 pretty simple scenes. a downtime chapter. Just Talking. so if i can get in the right brainstate for it, it's fully feasible for me to accomplish

that, of course, is the hardest part. writing brain is a fickle mistress, after all. but i will do my best. i really do want to have ITNL chapter 19 out by my birthday.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #at the same time im not going to sacrifice enjoying my birthday weekend for it.#so if it comes down to it maybe it wont be out by the 13th #but even then. i'll have started working on it. so it wouldnt be too much longer either way.#but it's about the principle of it. ive managed a birthday chapter every year for the past 3 years. im gonna do it again #.......im gonna try lol. writing has been hard lately.#but im hoping upon rereading ITNL my brain will wanna see its continuation enough that writing wont be too much of a struggle #crossing fingers!!!!!!!!! wish me luck

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think-pieces · 14 days

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Sunjoy signing on

I got a new job, so activity level will be lower. However, nothing can stop me from yapping to y'all? the void? Before i get started, any of y'all try white rice and spicy tuna. The texture is so, hm, chefs kiss. I have no one else in my life that loves tuna. hence this little blurb before I get into it. Anyhow do let me know if any of y'all try it.

I love anime. It's always so well done. I of course of a wide variety of animes I've watched, and rewatched. Of course I could bore you all with a long list of every anime i've ever seen... but, actually why not. My top three are a controversial take. Mostly due to me never rewatching. with the exception of Vampire Knight. I've mentioned it before. It was quite possibly the most formative anime of my childhood. (yes i'm a Kaname Kuran girl. till the day I die.) I still watch it every time around my birthday.

My second two, and yes this is in order; are as follows. Haikyuu, which i never finished. And Say I Love You, which i bought manga for.

Haikyuu is just, there's something for everyone. Do I care about volleyball? No. But I enjoy more because of this anime. Yes i never finished it, but that's a side step. I also enjoy the fact that there's a timeskip and not all the characters end up in volleyball. Don't even get me started talking about my faves in this.

Say I Love You is such a teen romance anime. It's so good. I did watch toradora and silent voice (i know it's not explicitly romantic but it falls under the same giant veil). Say I Love You is a good stand alone. you can watch and read the series and they both make sense beginning to end. While I like any book to series adapation the series always leaves out parts. This is no exception. They're both pretty good dare i say.

I of course have a pleuthra of Honorable Mentions yet they never make the top three. My Hero Academia for instance; I loved this series. Watched a lot of it, the new season when it came out. then like most long series I fell off the bandwagon. Which is why I was able to finish other animes ie. Attack on Titan, Stars Align, the like.

Most animes I begin yet never pick back up. Usually only able to watch the first episode maybe two, and never another one. It's just what happens. I tried getting into popular animes, lesser known animes. yet I've only ever finished a rare few.

#media commentary #media critique #media criticism #anime and manga #anime #say i love you #say i love you anime #vampire knight #haikyuu #kaname kuran

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What is MANGADEX

I just put out a seven track album called MANGADEX that I’ve been working on since 2020 and I wanted to talk a little bit about the process behind it.

MANGADEX is about a particular part of my life. For a lot of my life, especially my adolescence, I was extremely antisocial, and I still am to some degree. I’ve known I was transgender since I was 12, and I’ve explicitly “wanted to be a girl” since I was 7. Like I was always a little bit “off” and uncomfortable with maleness and bad at performing it but when I was 7 I became obsessed with wanting to be a girl. But I didn’t know about trans people yet, and I knew enough to know that if I started telling people I wanted to be a girl it would go badly for me. When I finally learned what being trans was I told my parents. They reacted really badly but after a year they relented and took me to a “gender clinic”. That only made things worse. I won’t go into detail but I was like 13 and spent hours being interrogated by adults about my sexuality, masturbation, and all variety of unpleasant topics. Eventually they determined I wasn’t trans and I would eventually grow out of.

After that I tried really hard to repress my dysphoria, which didn’t go well. It only got worse and worse as I got older. I became extremely withdrawn and antisocial, I never left my bedroom except when I absolutely had to and spent most of my free time engrossed in escapist fantasy through video games, anime and manga. I also used the internet a LOT. The internet was also where I read most of my manga and watched most of my anime, specifically through the websites MangaDex and kissanime.

In 2020 I had the idea to make two albums that would work as companion pieces. They would both be reflections on dysphoria, escapism and isolation. The first album, which I decided to call MANGADEX, would be a more positive album, focusing on the trying to find a way out of this state and what little good I could scrape out of it. This album was planned to be shorter (at one point it was a four track EP), with more emphasis on flashy sound design and high energy tracks influenced by dance music. The second album would be called kissanime. It would be longer (I’m anticipating about 10 tracks), with a focus on how fucking depressing and miserable this period in my life was/is. kissanime is going to be a lot sadder, with more atmospheric production (basically a bunch of Drain Gang type beats).

I’m aiming for a march release date for kissanime, but who knows when it’ll actually come out. MANGADEX was meant to come out in October and it just dropped a few days ago on December 2nd. If nothing else there’s a track on kissanime about aging and birthday’s that I wanna put out as a single on my actual birthday (March 6th) so hopefully I’ll be able to do that. I also have way more than 10 tracks in various stages of creation for kissanime, and I had to cut a track I was really excited for from MANGADEX because I just couldn’t figure out how to finish it. So after kissanime is out I’m gonna finish up all the leftover shit, maybe pad it out with some loosies, and call the resulting album nhentai (thanks to my friend PixelQuiet for coming up with that name, she’s a really cool gamedev and you should follow her)

But the thing about these two albums is that they don’t 100% represent where I am in my life anymore. The part in my life they’re about will probably always be with me to some extent and I’m honestly not fully out of that space yet. But when I started HRT in August 2021 it triggered a very slow move towards a more healthy social life and a healthier (though still extremely negative) relationship with my body. I’ve learned a lot about myself since then and I think I’ve grown a lot as a person. After I’m done with this series of albums I wanna do an album about where I am now. I’m stuck in my home town living with my parents and wanna get out. I’ve already begun writing for that album actually. I also want that album to be more guitar-centric and have sort of a post hardcore influence. Anyways, if you read all this then thank you. I hope you’re enjoying MANGADEX and I hope you enjoy kissanime when it finally comes out.

- V

#nusagi blog

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Oh! Okay I’m really glad and that’s a huge relief too. Oh ho ho ho I’m sure that NNN challenger idea is gonna be great I look forward to it! 😌 AHHHHH I also can’t wait for Bachira to be added into the series. I saw him the first episode and I was like “yes that one. the insane adorable one? yeah he’s mine now.” Asdhjkgfghh I love him so much. And those are some solid pieces of advice. I should probably remind myself of them more often. Ohhh what book? I recently went on a book shopping spree (that was my birthday gift) and got a whole bunch of books that I can’t wait to read once I have the time. The to-be-read list keeps getting longer and I’m like “…… but one more book wouldn’t hurt.” And then proceed to add 5 more ajshkjfdfcchjfdfg 💀💀. Anyways. Also kind of a random fact abt me but like I’m anime-only for Blue Lock rn and I KNOW WHAT YOURE THINKING BUT HEAR ME OUT. No I promise you didn’t spoil me. I’m a master at avoiding them now because I have this habit of like watching the first episode and then deep-diving into the shows tag on tumblr (x reader too ofc) and like seeing if I like the vibes. I have not yet gotten spoiled because I’m so practiced at dodging spoilers now. Anything that remotely even LOOKS like a spoiler I’m like “nope” and keep scrolling even tho it doesn’t get any easier each time 😭. So like don’t worry abt spoilers with me. But with this I’m always so excited for upcoming events and meeting new characters in the show. And especially with Blue Lock, cause like I’m a sports anime lover and the concept of Blue Lock is so different and new and it was so hyped up that I knew I had to try it. Fast forward to now and I have volume 2 of the manga and am waiting on my orders for volumes 1 and 3 😌😅💀. I’m still anime only tho cause I wanna finish the first season before I start the manga, that’s my policy. And like it’s so interesting how this show hooked me with the first episode (cough cough Bachira cough cough) and now I’m planning on reading the manga which is a huge surprise because I never read sports anime manga cause I feel like watching it is just more of a experience you know? Haikyuu being the only exception for me ofc. I’m currently in a mission to collect all 45 volumes. But it’s gonna take me a minute for obvious reasons. Anyways. But like Blue Lock just came in and swept me away. So like I’m really excited to see what happens in next weeks episode. Also your works were one of the reasons I decided to watch Blue Lock in the first place because they were so amazing to read even though I didn’t know any of the characters. Like your writing is just THAT good. So thank you for feeding into my new obsession 😌. Also I read in your bio awhile ago that you’re a November Scorpio? Happy early or belated birthday!! 🥳🎉🎂 I’m an October Scorpio so reading that was a pleasant surprise. Anyways. Thank you for your kind words in response to my earlier ask, they really meant a lot. Your blog is a huge comfort for me, all of tumblr really, but there are only a few blogs that I actually intact with because I love the vibes and energy and writing and the person behind it all (ie you), it’s just overall really comforting and makes me feel safe. ALSO do you mind if I give you my review and analysis of the episodes as I watch them?? Maybe occasionally?? I cant do that with your works yet unfortunately but I will try to as soon as I finish the first season or give into reading the manga before the season ends, whichever comes first. You can clearly tell that my self-restraint is on thin ice 💀💀. Anyways as always I hope your day goes good! *sends virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

✨ anon !! ૮₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა

Oh yeah the idea I have for the NNN challenge is gonna be a tempting one but at the same time not everyone's cup of tea cause its kind of an old school idea; but at the same time. I know watching this thing made me go 'That's hot.'

Oh yeah i totally know that feeling of seeing someone and just falling for them. Like when I saw Yoichi I was all like 'he is so cute. lil blueberry muffin' and when I saw Kunigami I deadass went 'that's literally football bakugou and there is no way you can convince me otherwise. Cause just look at him, man wants to be a surperhero and looks EXACTLY like him, but he wasn't that much of an asshole' (he gets turned into one later during the series tho) Meguru looked so cute just lying on the floor and I kinda get him and his monster cause its a way of saying that he's in the zone (like the aomine and Kagami knb reference if anyone knows what I'm talking about?)

As for me; the moment I saw Aiku... I was like 'you have my attention.' But I knew something wasn't right cause I knew that this looked a little too good. Then i find out that he is a womanizer. And to add more onto that, he even got slapped and didn't care. He likes summer cause he gets to see girls in bikinis. And I was right about him liking baby chicks

Out of EVERYONE how is it that I get stuck with a person like this (me just proving that I fall for red flags) but i still love him and watch me defend this man .

(like even if you look at my track record with Haikyuu; likes Miya twins, Sawamura Daichi, Kageyama Tobio, Kuroo Tetsuro. Istg I'm asking for it)

So I'm currently reading Tuesdays with Morrie; its a heavy book based on the conversation between a dying teacher and his student and its based more on philosophy and the books I got were the old man and the sea by Ernest Hemingway, the alchemist by Paulo Coelho and books based on psychology. I have a very mixed taste and from the looks of it, its not very interesting is it? my personality is a mess and so is the aesthetic i roll with atp

Which books did you get? Must be some pretty good ones if you can't stop and you need to read 5 more? Is it a manga?

Oh yeah i totally get it. Reading a football manga and actually seeing it animated are two very different things (I wanna see how they animate Aiku cause I already got early spoilers for how everyone else looked. But aiku? I am waiting. I spoiled chainsawman for everyone and I was really surprised that Pochita's voice was so soft cause I was expecting something as deep as Daichi's voice? And same. Even if I get spoilers I will watch the whole thing; its a different story when i figure out the plot tho (i was forced to watch YOU despite predicting the entire plot of season 1 and season 2 in 5 minutes ; its the typical 'if I can't have you no one can' but I watched it anyway cause of my ex. couple goals ) I wish you luck on the journey of collecting all 45 mangas; cause even I wanna get bllk mangas ngl and I plan on buying one this week ig but I keep pushing it off ૮ ˶´ ᵕˋ ˶ა

I- I am surprised but happy that I got you into bllk ૮⸝⸝ > ꇴ <;⸝⸝ づ with time i'll even get you to like Aiku

And we can obsess together

And yeah i am a november scorpio; thank you for you wishes anon!!

( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) we're scorpio buddies

I'm glad you like my writing though cause even if the content and the pace I keep with the posting is according to my comfort, at the end of the day, its an 'x reader' edition and you guys are the ones reading it; so it means a lot to me when every one of you reads my works and likes it ૮₍ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ₎ა and I'm glad that you feel safe here and that this is your comfort blog.

Of course !! You're very much welcome to give an analysis or a review whenever you want and ready!

go wild bb. Tumblr is supposed to be chaotic and that is welcome here ♡꒰ᵕ༚ᵕ⑅꒱

*sending hugs back*

#saint.σ #.lost sheep : ✨ anon

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initforthecache · 2 years

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Minish Cap Manga Rant. I have... feelings

k first I want to set the stage. This is Minish Cap we are talking about. Minish Cap, the beautiful game with beautiful, charming characters, and a really cute and interesting premise. You've got Link, Link's grandpa (he's got an actual grandpa in this game! so cute!) Zelda, the Minish, the Sky Tribe, not to mention Ezlo (who I think they did a pretty ok job with actually) and Vaati! This is the origin story of Vaati! Vaati was actually a Minish! How cool is that???

rest of rant below the cut:

This is also Akira Himekawa we're talking about. When I first read the Himekawa mangas, I read them all back to back, having gotten a giant pack of them for my birthday. Guess which one I read first. Ducking Four Swords. Needless to say I was floored. Shocked. Hooked. Bamboozled. I loved that book. Um, it set my expectations high. Guess which one I read next. (it was actually Link to the Past, but for the purpose of dramatic irony,) IT WAS MINISH CAP. Needless to say, I felt robbed. Bamboozled(derogatory) Shocked. And frankly bored. I remember the first thing I thought after I finished the manga was "wow. They managed to make Minish Cap boring. Impressive" Anyway, let's go through the manga so I can tell you exactly why I am oh so very pissed.

First off, it opens with EXPOSITION. *imagine me rolling my eyes very hard right here* It is at the very beginning, and it is about the Picori, and its not very long, so I will excuse it. It's got some pretty cute art behind it, and I managed to get through it.

But the thing is, right after the exposition bit, we get to Link and his grandpappy and they immediately bring up the Picori. They could have just covered the whole exposition thing here! In dialogue! The exposition was completely unnecessary!

Anyway, after that, we learn the tiniest bit about Link. We learn he wants to 'test his skills', to prove himself. (at the martial arts tournament he was too inexperienced to participate in lmao) Almost immediately after, we meet Zelda. We learn that she and Link have been friends for a while (and that Zelda emotionally manipulates Link into doing whatever she wants 😳) They go off to see the Picori festival together. Now its been nine pages and I feel like I know nothing about Link. (or Zelda. But she's not important cause she gets zapped in like, two pages, so pssh) What is his goal in life? He says he wants to prove himself, but to who? His grandfather already seems proud of him. What are his weaknesses? (other than Zelda's tears lmao) this is basic stuff! To compare this to Four Swords once again, In literally five pages, I see Four Sword Link's motivation and hubris all on full display. I can feel the motivation his character has already! He's full of energy and plot potential, ready to kick off his journey of self discovery and maturation. Where the hell is Minish Cap Link going? Please tell me.

Anyway, Vaati blasts the thing open and poofs away after turning Zelds to stone. Now this would be great motivation for Link, if we got to see him and Zelda bond a bit more. At the moment, his words just sound like what any good citizen of Hyrule would say if their princess was turned to stone. Ok we're moving on from Link's underdeveloped character cause I'm already bored.

NOW FOR THE BEST PART OF THE ENIRE MANGA. We get Link alone, walking in the woods, being his charming self. I always chuckle aloud, when Link screams about not being able to see the Picori with 'these jaded eyes' fearing he's already lost his child-like innocence, I always do, no matter where I am. AND in this same section, we are introduced to the wonderful Ezlo. Ahhh they make such a great pair in this manga honestly. I love Ezlo being this prideful weird uncle type who shows Link the ropes. And he is just as prideful and sarcastic as his cap partner. Honestly they have great vibes together. And I don't really have any complaints about his section. It's some cute fluff that I kind of enjoy.

Here and there we just splashes of the interpersonal drama that I crave. We sometimes get hints that Ezlo is hiding something, we occasionally get hints of what Ezlo thinks of Link. But for the most part, there's very little conflict. And thats why this section starts to get tiring. But for now, this is the most enjoyable part of the manga. They collect the water element quickly with the help of very charming picori. And they help an old smith picori regain his spark and passion for smithing. And it's really sweet, but it lacks anything to do with Link. Like, that's cute and all, but literally anyone could have helped the smith picori out. What did it have to do with Link? What did that add to Link's story?

And now. We are halfway through the manga. And here it begins. AAAHHHHH I HATE THIS PART UGHASHDFSGH *i am clawing, biting and foaming at the mouth* They head toward the library, picori size, and run into a cat which they run away from and then get caught by a little girl (who they literally stab with a sword to let them go (why am I saying them, this is literally all Link's doing)) and then they meet baby chicks and then LINK LOOKS UP A GIRLS SKIRT??? after which they meet a dog and then they finally get to the library and wow its so big and look at this library picori can this one picori lives in a book and he's writing a book and he takes forever to tell them what they need to do and- I DONT CARE OH MY GODDDD.

This goes on for pages and it's been ages since we've gotten even a smidgeon of character development. I barely even see Link and Ezlo's awesome personalties i was talking about! Things are just happening to them! I get that it's supposed to be exploring what life might be like if you were only two inches tall, and I might find this entertaining if was invested in the characters, but I'm simply not. Like, (and yes, comparing it to the four swords manga again) what if the colors were shrunk down to minish size and did all these things? I WOULD EAT THAT UP IN A HEARTBEAT. And I know the four swords manga had two whole novels to flesh out their characters, but it also stands to reason that they had four main characters, and minish cap has half that number, 2, Link and Ezlo) The story did not do a good job of making me care about these characters at the beginning and is now suffering from it. I now want to throw the manga at the wall.

I revive from my stupor when the boring book picori mentions that he recognizes Ezlo's name and voice. Ezlo acts very upset at this and pulls Link away, furthering the narrative that he's hiding something from Link. And when they make it to the temple of droplets, he accidentally, vaguely compares Link to Vaati. And Link was like, who are you talking about? See, now that's interesting! Literally everything that came before and is to come is not.

Now the mayfly fairy in the temple of droplets is cool and fine and all. I really enjoyed this segment. Now, here comes Vaati to screw things up. And- oh wow, I nearly forgot about Vaati. Huh, oh my gosh I know literally nothing about this character. huh. We are more than halfway through this story and I feel like I know nothing about the antagonist. That. Is. Not. Good.

Anyway, here it is revealed that Ezlo used to be Vaati's master! Yes! Good! Angst! and- and they're talking about the light force and exposition crap again. It's over. hhhhhhhhhh ANYWAY he curses the mayfly fairy and its sad.

Now Ezlo tells Link all about how Vaati stole a magic cap of his and betrayed him, cursing him to take the form of a cap himself. Cool! Exposition that matters cause these are characters we kind of care about!

Now they need the wind element which is in the sky oh noooooo- They run into this guy who give them a bunch of kin stones and tells them to go to King Gustaf's grave. There they meet Gustaf's ghost and he tells them how to get to the wind place. They get there and no one is there and they meet these flying monster things that they ride and- Getting bored yet? That's cause it is boring. Anyway, we finally meet the wind tribe people and

IT'S MORE DUCKING EXPOSITION ABOUT CHARACTERS WE DON'T CARE ABOUT.

At this point in the manga where I always reach my breaking point. It's always here. We are slogging through a history lesson about King Gustaf when the drama between Ezlo and Vaati hasn't been fully explored yet and I know nothing about the personality or motivations of the main antagonist. WHY. I FEEL LIKE I AM PLAYING A VIDEO GAME READING THIS MAGNA. IF I WANTED TO PLAY MINISH CAP, I WOULD'VE BOUGHT THE GAME. Mind you Link has not progressed in his personal journey to... wait what was that again?

Ok so now he has all the elements and the fixed picori sword which is now the Four Sword (!!!) They return to Hyrule Castle to find the elemental sanctuary and the King doesn't know where it is?? Sus. Yeah he turns out to be Vaati. Hmmm shapeshifting into he form of Hyrule royalty to make advantage of someone hmmm I wonder where I've seen that before... (im kidding, of course. Vaati disguising himself as the king is in the original game) ANYWAY MORE EXPOSITION YAYAYAYAAY

Zelda has the light force. Vaati freezes the whole castle and then tries to draw the Light force out of Zelda while Link kinda struggles to get over to where he is. He succeeds and now Vaati has the light force. He transformed into this awesome 'Vaati Reborn' thing and looks super sick. But he keeps leveling up and eventually is overcome with power to the point where he turns into a monster. And this is really cool! He lusted for power, but not for the consequences that came with it! (would've been nice if this was set up beforehand, but whatever) Anyway he beats Vaati and frees Zelda. yay

The cursed is lifted on both Ezlo and Vaati and they return to their minish forms.

And here, finally, we get Vaati's motivation. WHY? WHAT?? WE GET THE VILLAIN'S MOTIVATION AFTER HE HAS BEEN BEATEN?? WHY?? Anyway, it's really cute, he thought he could never be good enough for Ezlo, and so wanted limitless power so he could prove himself. They state that true power comes from strength of character, which is why Link was able to beat Vaati (where was that strength of character when Link tried to look up a girl's skirt earlier??) Okay?? Nice sentiment but I wish this was set up earlier??? Link encourages Vaati to keep training harder and not to look for shortcuts. ...ok. So basically Link won cause he worked rlly hard to get all the McGuffins. Nice.

And after a heartfelt goodbye from Ezlo and a tearful one from Link, the story ends. It's really sweet there at the end, seeing the two characters who actually had personalties show off their wonderful chemistry one last time before they depart. Makes me smile.

AND FINALLY IT'S OVER. I'm sorry that was so long, but hopefully now you see my point about underdeveloped characters, wasted time and wasted potential. Thank you for coming to my Youtube Analysis video.

#minish cap #rant #analysis #minish cap manga #the legend of zelda #zelda #loz #tloz #tloz minish cap #loz minish cap #zelda manga #again #sorry this was so long #hopefully you were able to make it through #now i feel like i've done my ideas justice #hhhhh finally

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chidoroki · 2 years

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ahh i’m so mad for forgetting it was tpn’s 6th anniversary today.. i dunno how i can never remember that date. i don’t have anything planned though, which sucks because it’s kinda the most important day of the series ya know?? HOWEVER! i already finished my edit for emma’s birthday last week, so that’s pretty darn early for me! okay so it’s like 99% done, i gotta figure out one final touch, but yeah. and then isabella’s should be next but that’s not til september anyways. i remember very few birthdays..still upset i forgot about today though! i know i can always post something later this week but then it’s late! and that’s even if i get an idea in the first place hhmmm..

but in my defense it was an important day for me for a completely different reason though.. little Kona turned one today!!! love her. she’s too cute. she actually shares a birthday with my late great grandmother so that’s kinda sweet. (maybe now i won’f forget tpn’s anniversary either)

aside from that i feel like last week was real busy/eventful. dad had actually tested positive for covid tuesday so since we had dinner together the day before i worked from home all last week just to make sure i was okay (which i am thankfully). i don’t mind working from home, it allows me to sleep in a bit but having two screens instead of three is always a troublesome adjustment, and annoying if things get too stressful. every now and then there’s also some nights where i can’t even fall asleep and just feel incredible anxious..why i dunno. it feels random honestly.

it hasn’t been all bad though. i decided to read ahead with the paripi koumei manga and oh my god, the love i have for eiko is IMMENSE!! i honestly wasn’t expecting to get more of her backstory, but i’m so happy we did. i thought we were just gonna focus on the summer sonia concert stuff next, but it seems that is gonna be the final goal. so i’m really loving the direction the manga is going now with creating more songs and learning more of eiko’s past/family. it just makes sense. i debated in writing a whole post on it but idk yet, we’ll see. i dunno how often the manga updates, but i’ve only seen sites have up to ch49? but aahh i want her to succeed so badly! i really hope we get another season because i need to hear more of her lovely voice! THEN i forget what day i read ch113 of ft 100yq but MMHHMM that gruvia body swap! their reactions were great and i loved every moment and of course i’m looking forward to see how gray fights with juvia’s magic. i’m eagerly waiting for the day we get a trailer for the anime too.

then finally.. FINALLY the black clover manga is back! and i still think it’s hilarious that the three month hiatus started right as i finished the anime, like of course that’s just my luck! i think i caught up for just two new chapters then poof! break time! my friend has been begging me to watch since the anime started so i pushed it off for years, til something just.. clicked within me? i remember the movie trailer was announced months ago and friend was excited about it and naturally tried to convince me to start the series once more and i dunno exact words, but i’m pretty sure he compared it to fairy tail (which i sorta figured from the start anyways) but then said everyone from the squad got more focus/backstory, and i was like.. oh? so, that kinda did it for me. and damn it, i ended up loving the series. a lot. but better late than never i suppose! (and he totally has the right to say “told you so,” he deserved it. he even predicted that vanessa would end up as my favorite. so he’s right. again.) so sorry not sorry for all the spam. my queue was filled over 250+ at one point and stayed like that for weeks because i just kept adding more to it. it’s finally back around 50ish now because i FINALLY gone through the whole anime yet again (why do i queue all the gifs chronologically? i dunno!! i forget which series i started doing this with but now it feels necessary for me to do so! lowkey kinda hate it, makes it seem like i’m insane ahaaa. but now all that’s left is artwork that i can fangirl over, thank god!)

but now that the manga is back i’m debating on writing chapter reviews for it, though i doubt they’ll be as long as those i’ve done for tpn, but hhmmm. it’s just funny how i decide on doing such a thing whenever a series enters their final arcs. well, i say that but i haven’t done any for mha in.. years. probably won’t start those up though. i still read it sure but the story is meh to me sometimes. i enjoy the characters more and unfortunately those i really love don’t get much spotlight, maybe just a moment or two recently. always debating on reading ahead for no guns life too since i have no clue if the anime is gonna continue, but i definitely won’t for fire force since season3 has at least been confirmed, whenever.. same with tokyo revengers even though i’m getting real tempted with that one. and for the love of god i have to remember to read the psycho pass manga still! or however much i can find of it anyways!

what else is happening in my world right now, umm. almost a month away from splatoon3 thank god. i haven’t played my switch in a hot minute but once i got that then mmmhmm it’s over. then. scarlet & violet a couple months after too. OH! pokemon.. the masters 8 tournament has been bittersweet for me. the battles are rushed, even most take one episode, some of the moves and outcomes are just.. upsetting and strange. like i’ll never get over how dirty the writing handled the leon vs alain match. my boy deserved so much better. lance vs diantha was okay i guess and ya knew cynthia was gonna win against iris no problem. but then that battle with steven and ash.. idc what people say but there’s no way he should’ve won. after all that damage pikachu took from mega-metagross, he wins by one z-move and an iron tail of all things?? what?? (i think? i dont remember, i was annoyed). only bright side are all the cameos we’ve been getting. they only last a few seconds but they grant me SO MUCH happiness! seeing mairin, the johto trio, drew AND harley?? my heart was ecstatic! and i’m sure they’ll save all of ash’s traveling companions for his final match with leon, or at least i’m hoping so. i better see may and serena again darn it!

oh, and no joke but i swear i actually had a fucking contestshipping dream last night, which isn’t too surprising since i do indeed love them very much, but it was just randomly timed? like why now and not last month around their actual day when i rewatched all their episodes ya know?? but whatever. all it was was drew calling up may after some contest lose (in johto im assuming) to cheer her up. then some light teasing of course. that’s all i needed.

sometime during my incoherent rambling i did get an idea for an tpn anniversary edit. so i’ll definitely start on something for it tonight or tomorrow, unless i get caught up playing more pmd sky.. i started a randomizer yesterday and i’m enjoying myself. nostalgia hitting hard. but i would seriously love a new mystery dungeon.

#talking to myself #edit: as im posting this i just noticed a pokemon presents was announced for august 3rd! HELL YEAAHH more scarlet & violet news babyyy!!!!

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lettersfromandie · 3 years

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2020 Highlights

I guess it'd be an understatement to say that 2020 was a really awful year, given the devastating effects of the global pandemic and the innumerable disasters and issues happening in our country. I think we got jinxed with our "2020, please be good to me" posts 🙍

We all started that year still not knowing about the presence of COVID-19, and from then on, it all went pretty downhill after that. From everything that has happened in my life and others', I can frankly say that 2020 was actually the worst 😠 However, while reflecting on it, I can also count some bright days. I guess it wouldn't hurt to kind of celebrate the good ones during that horrible year, eh?

I fully acknowledge that so many lives were (and still are) at stake and just trying to get through that year wasn't easy for us -- even much more for others. I also know that terrible things can still happen regardless if there's a pandemic or not. But I too still acknowledge that despite the horrible year, there were actually bits in my life, however small or big they seem, that remind me to keep moving forward and get through the day no matter how mentally and emotionally challenging 2020 had been.

So I just want to share some of the good highlights I had that kept me sane during that dreadful year, without seeming tone-deaf or tactless:

HK & Macau Trip

Litrato mula sa sandaling bago mag sakuna?? Wow pre-COVID days na we were still not stuck in our homes? and still be able to travel?? Gosh I miss those days 😞

Anyway, this was my first time in Macau and second time in Hong Kong! We went back a year after our first HK trip because our fam loves it there. What I most especially like in HK is its easy-peasy convenient public transportation system -- which, I reckon, is a huge factor why we wanted to visit again since it's less hassle to go to many different places. Macau though, has one of the most beautiful and extravagant-looking architecture and interiors (we only visited a whole day because too laysho for my layf LOL).

With High Honors

I don't have a photo to share for this highlight (well I actually have a few but for privacy reasons I wish not to nalang) but I'm really so happy to know that my hard-earned efforts led to the expected performance and reward! I remember back in JHS I made a deal to myself that if I ever belong in the Top 10, I'll treat myself with a large Sbarro lasagna! HAHAHAH grabe noh kana ra jud haha it's been long since I last ate one (gi dibdib jud ang deal ba) and I actually haven't treated myself one after the recognition program. When everything starts to settle down I hope to get myself one!! hihi (I can only imagine how the food tastes better after not eating it for years!)

Happy Birthday to me!

I turned 19 on May 19th! Ew, I am growing old. Just the thought of me turning 20 this year makes me puke 😖 chz. But this is obviously worth celebrating because I am blessed with the gift of life and the time to celebrate it with my family <3

Passed UPCAT

MOM, I PASSED UPCAT! AAAAHHHHH Well this is unexpected as someone who just skrrrt-ed my way through the Math part and didn't even finish half of it! Luck doesn't always favor me but I'm happy that I got lucky in this 😊 I feel like I don't deserve it but still, thank you so much, Lord!

The Weeb Life

If there's one thing to describe what I did the whole time while I was just at home, I would say... BINGING ANIME! My fave anime characters are my fave fictional companions during quarantine huhu I'm so glad I started watching anime (and reading manga) this year. Honestly at first it wasn't really my cup of tea after watching some anime recommendations but then I tried watching one episode of Attack on Titan and after that MY LIFE STARTED TO CHANGE (HAHAHA OA kaayo noh).

There were actually days and moments I did not include in my highlights that gave me a sense of strength and purpose while coping everything that had happened that year. But I wish to just keep it to myself for these are my little personal winning moments hihi.

Albeit this "wasted" year of mostly spending my days within four-cornered walls, 2020 was actually a year of learning and growth for me. I just hope this year everything will eventually get better for all of us and we'll no longer have to get by with those community quarantine classifications 🙏

Love, Andie

#2020 #highlights

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the-silver-peahen-residence · 1 year

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||Hidden Birthday Present||

Hello everyone, Peahen mom here and It's time for a anon drabble request. I hope you all enjoy it and lets see what we got this time shall we?

||Drabble Summary||

Bakugo's birthday has come once again and it seems everyone was happily celebrating it with him. It seems he was alright with it, even a present from his close friend Van Ink the Dragon. However, she said she had one more present but she said she'll give him a present later or after. She had to finish wrapping it. What could this late present be? Read to find out.

||Warning||

~Strong NSFW is present in this drabble

~First time

~Fingering and over stimulation is present

~Swearing is present

||Guests in the Drabble||

~Van Ink the Dragon belongs to my wonderful Rp partner and friend @demon-blood-youths

~Katsuki Bakugo belongs to and is from the anime/manga My Hero Academia but also me since I rp as him as a muse

((Warning: Drabble will have mistakes and grammar mistakes but this was written for fun. I Hope you understand and enjoy the drabble))

Today was a cool yet wild day after many finds out today is Bakugo Katsuki's birthday! He along with his class was celebrating it while the same for some others here in NYC. He sees some giving gifts to him, some already congratulating him for another year on earth.

He even saw Ink and her friends happily doing the same with Jaron, Melinda, Momo, Midioriya and others helping with cooking while celebrating his birthday.

Bakugo didn't really mind nor cared much about his birthday and yet, it was nice to see that everyone gathered for his. Right now, he was seeing the others setting the cake down for him as they were looking at him.

They were singing 'Happy Birthday' to him while he was seeing the cake themed after him which was cute. After singing the song, Momo looks to him.

"Okay, Bakugo go ahead and blow out the candles."

He only rolls his eyes before taking a deep breath and blowing them out, hearing everyone cheering. Right after, some was eating the food and enjoying themselves while some was passing gifts to him which he didn't mind. As he was eating some food himself, he saw someone walking over to see the familiar navy blue jacket.

He looks to see the leader of the DBT, the wild thrill seeker, Van Ink the Dragon or Ink for short. She smiled while having the hood off her head showing the medium black messy hair.I

"Hi Bakugo! Happy birthday!" happy as she always was, Bakugo didn't mind seeing her here at his birthday party for him to smile.

"Thanks Ink. What it's up?" he asked seeing her sit down in another chair while everyone else was enjoying the party.

"Nothing much. I just came to give you something. So here ya go! Happy birthday!" she smiled showing a wrapped up present as he takes it. The box felt light weight that he was curious as he sets the fork down and begins opening it. He lowers the top to the side to see it was a jacket. Orange and black just like his costume.

"...." He takes it out carefully to see it while Ink smiled.

"I hope you like it! It really fits your costume and its activewear and thermal. It's perfect for outings and exercise since you always train and all that. I do have some other presents like support gear for you but...their still being worked on." she laughed rubbing the back of her head as Bakugo lowers the jacket to smile.

"Heh, thank you. It's pretty cool as me, Ink." he looks seeing Ink smiling that she was glad that Bakugo liked the present. Ink was happy to hear this, knowing he liked the present! Though the party kept going on with everyone having fun and enjoying it. Though Ink blinks remembering something.

"Oh right! One more thing Bakugo!"

"Hmm?"

"Ummmm I have one more present for you but...I am not done with it yet. I'll give it to you after the party or later tonight. Uhhh, is that alright?" Wait another present? He blinks now confused but grew curious to what this could be? Ehhh, he was sure it might be the support gear.

"Sure, why not? You can if you like. You can come visit after the party is done and over with. Is that cool?" he sees her smile to nod.

"Yep! Works for me! I'll see you later after the party!" Standing up, she goes to enjoy the party. However, Bakugo was curious on what the present is but in his mind, it might be the support gear. That was fine. For now, the party continues.

~~Hours later/After the party~~

After a while, the party was done with everyone heading back home or some just saying bye. Bakugo was already back home just getting ready for the evening. He was just getting some soda in two cans while heading into the living room where his guest was.

"Here....figured you want something after coming here. Though, you didn't have to run here you know." Bakugo sits down by Ink who came right after his party.

"I know, I know! I just got excited and wanted to come here or I might have forgot." she laughed with him showing a sweatdrop on the side of his head.

"Uh huh.." He looks to her but sets the soda can down since she was happily holding her while drinking it down quickly with a smile. "Hey, don't drink so fast Ink!" he said but she blinks to lower the can.

"Hmm? Did you say something?" she saw she already finished it smiling that he blinks to sigh.

"Nevermind. Anyway, you said you had one more gift for me so what was it? Did your friends finish the support gear?" he said looking to see she didn't have anything with her or maybe it was being delivered to him?

"Uhhh no no, their still working on it. But, I do still have a gift for you from me and only me though. So.....I hope you like it." she said smiling but Bakugo now looked confused.

"Okay...but where is the present?" he didn't see a box nor a birthday bag with her so what did she mean? Ink said nothing but she sets the can down to look at her lap to sigh. "Well....."

She turns to face him while rubbing the back of her head still smiling. "I wanted to give you a gift....and well..I'm going to give you a gift! And that gift....is Me!" she laughed but Bakugo blinks.

"What?"

"Uhhh Yeah. You see, I know I gave you gift and my friends did but..I wanted to give you a more personal gift from me and only me. Soooooo....I'm giving myself to you for your birthday!" she was serious! She was going to...wait, that was Ink's idea for a present? She was going to give herself to him??

".......You..Your serious? Your giving yourself to me as my present." he asked just to be sure as Ink nods. One of her fingers scratching her cheek smiling with eyes closed.

"Yep! I figure since you are still a great guy I figure I can be your present. I don't mind it though since that means I can do what you like for your birthday tonight. I'm..uhh how does it go, 'awaiting orders?' or something." she smiled. "But I wanted this to be a special gift for you from me personally so....happy birthday?"

"..........." He couldn't believe this! She was serious! Even if he always had feelings for her and hearing her say this, that was....that was a lot. Ink opens her eyes to see him not look at her that she tilts her head. Did he like the gift? Or was it too much?

"Uhhhhh, but if you don't like the gift I can take it back! Hehe, I just wanted you to enjoy a good present so I thought I would be your present! but if your not alright with that I understand..I can just-" As she was trying to take or stand up, she felt Bakugo reach to hold her shoulder and gently push her down on the couch.

Ink winces from the push till she slowly opens her grey eyes looking up. "Ummmm Bakugo? You okay?" she asked looking up at him but he didn't say anything. He did see her black hair spread over the couch looking confused with some pink tint in her cheeks.

".........."

"Ummmm.."

'Huh, maybe he didn't like the gift? I could have given him something else. Or maybe he's angry about it? No, he wouldn't be. Darn it Ink, I thought this would be a good gift for-'

"So your telling me....that your 'my gift' and for this night, I can have you as 'my' present?" he asked clearly for her to understand as Ink blinks to look at him.

"We..Well yeah? I think that's how it goes or to say in short, 'you can do whatever you want with me?' I won't disagree with anything you tell me or want. I can do it...if it helps..."

Oh boy that really got Bakugo flushed but also excited hearing this. His hands kept, holding her shoulders. He could ask for something in return but he was quiet.

"...I see...so anything I want?"

"Ummm y...yeah?"

"Really anything?"

"Yes..anything." she said but Bakugo slowly sighed that he only shook his head. This confused the dragon to see him look at her face or right into her grey eyes. She seriously was a silly dragon but it was...cute.

"As I said, I'm your gift right now so as I said before, 'You can do whatever you like, Bakugo." she said it again but he only sighed to slowly look down at her that he held her hand while keeping his own body pressed against her.

"........You really shouldn't....I...." Looking silent he only sighed to sit up but takes Ink's hand to help her sit up. "Just come on.." he said going somewhere with her as Ink blinks following him. He goes in a room before closing the door. Yeah, he was going to enjoy the present....but also try not to go too wild.

~~~Minutes later~~~

The room was silent but pretty low dimmed light but the shower was on due to the steam coming from it. Ink was in the shower feeling the water running down her head and wetting her black hair as it sticks to her skin. She was twitching while leaning against the shower wall as she was sitting on her lap. Bakugo was kissing or biting her shoulder, slowly making her move on his lap, taking him in deeply as she was soft panting and hissing with eyes closed.

"Nugghh nggg mmmmmmm..." It felt really really weird for Ink but she was not in pain after he did this for a while. That and thanks to the fingering he did to help her 'loosen up' as he says. He grey eyes were covered with her lips parted moaning out in the shower seeing and feeling him moving his hips up as his length was opening her up.

"Grrrr, I only started thrusting into you and your this drenched, Ink. You must be that excited to do this with me." Bakugo was quiet while watching her hips moving, feeling his length go in and pulling out that made Ink twitch covering her mouth with her eyes closed again.

"Or maybe it's due to you being sensitive down here. Even when I move, it twitches and tightens around me." he said thrusting his hips up against her as she twitches feeling him opening her up even more. He felt it dripping again but sees her shaking with her face red.

"*Muffled talking*" she said something behind her hand but Bakugo didn't hear to look.

"Huh? What did you say?" he asked reaching to pull her hands down that she was panting softly moaning as his hips kept moving.

"I ahhh s...said I don't kn..know mmmmm I n..never d..did this s..sort of thing before. I'm ahhhh not...It feels w...weird..it feels mmmm so weird...nummm...." she tried to grab his wrist since his hand was making her hips move but Bakugo saw to quickly pin her wrists to the side quickening his movements.

Ink arches her back to lean back against him, panting quickly as he was doing this. Her voice getting louder as she was feeling his hands moving up against her stomach to her chest to mess with the nipples squeezing slowly.

"So you never even touched yourself before?" he asked trying to find something that should help her feel better. His hands still messed with her body that she leans her head to the side shaking while trying not to show her embarrassing expression on her face.

"N..n..n..noooooo ahhhhh n..no I..n..never did this. I never t..touched myself o..or d..down there. It's just a..all new to me mmmm even w..with you inside o..of hhaaa m..me..." she whispered looking at him dazed that Bakugo blushed that he keeps her trapped.

"Well, that just means from how wet your getting your feeling good right now that's all. It's called you feeling pleasure but..If I hit something down there..you'll feel better..." he said as she was shaking.

"F..feel better? What are you t..talking about? What could you d..do to make it feel..."Just as she was asking this, Bakugo felt something and quickly thrusts up as the tip presses up against a lump and bumpy like area inside.

"Ahhhh!?!" Ink's eyes widen throwing her head back crying out, feeling hot when he hits right there. "H..Hey w..wait a second! What did y..yooo..oohhhhhh n..nmmmm......." Her grey eyes were wide but she had her lips parted while her tongue was showing just a little. She quickly grips his wrists but he only went faster as she was twitching.

"Ah ah ahh gahh hhaa ah AH! AH! AHH! Nugghh!!!"

Bakugo held her against his chest but he tightens his hole to get pressed against the shower door that she yelps. He keeps hitting against it while her cheek was pressed against the door. Her chest was pressed against the shower wall as her nipples were touching the surface as she panted.

Ink was twitching in his hold. Her upper face hidden by her wet black hair as she was shaking. She didn't know what was going on but her body felt hotter and she got more slicker, clenching around his length tightly.

"Ahhhh.....ahhhhhhh..n..no...n..not th...there....B..baku...go...n..not t...there......"

'Mmmm mmmmm w..what is this f..feeling? My b..body suddenly f..feels.....really weird but h..hotter in a good way. W...what did Bakugo h...hit? Why d..does it f..feel..g..good?' she thought while closing her hands into fists as he keeps thrusting deeper and deeper watching her.

Geez, she really was sensitive to moan like that but it was pretty cute. He didn't say anything but he sees her panting to look up at the ceiling of the shower.

"W..what did mmmmm y..you hi..hit in..inside of me? What w..was t..that? What's happening..to my b...body? It feels a l..lot more hotter n..now...." she asked dazed.

"That was your 'pleasure spot' Ink. Meaning, you just felt really good just now after I hit it.."

"P..Pleasure?....spot?..." she asked looking up while he keeps her there. He grips her hips legs still moving as Ink looks to him but one of her grey dazed eyes was looking at him, her hair was still wet and covering the other eye.

"Yes, your 'special spot' where you really can feel good so...that means if I keep messing with it... I can make you really feel much more better." he said as Ink was shaking. "That means I can make you scream for me but if it's too much just tell me..."

"Y..You....feel more b..better? What do you-Nugggmmmm!!!!" He started going harder now hearing the claps of skin as she closes her hands into fists.

"Ahhhhh B..Bakugo! Bakugo!!! W..wait a m..mmmmmmm ahhhhhh!!" She threw her head back crying out in the shower. Her body was shaking, aching and twitching that he was already getting excited himself. She felt his hands still moving her hips back as she was gasping out.

"You feel really good Ink. So nice and warm inside..I bet you feel good too right? Do you feel good?" he asked as she was drooling now looking forward as he was thrusting rougher now. He only sees her taking every thrust and inch of him, moving to press his hands over her own while resting his forehead on her shoulder. His grunts were heard as she was whimpering feeling more but the weird feeling was disappearing into something...different. She slowly leans her head back more but her cries were now moans of pleasure.

'It don't f..feel weird anymore? Mmmm n..no it f..feels...better now. He keeps rubbing against that one spot now that it's making me feel all tingly d..down there....and yet.......it f..feels...' She whines till he quickens his thrusts making her lean back moaning out even worse.

'G..good! It fe..feels really good when h..he hits right there...'

Bakugo heard more of her moans, wondering if he should stop or was she even alright. She didn't say too much but he did hear a faint voice as she was turning her head to start panting against his neck.

"Ink? What's the matter? Do you want me to-"

"Bakugo p..please...I.....I w..want to f..feel more of t..this...the weird f..feeling is g..gone b..but my body f..feels..r..really good...." she whispered but was feeling him buried deep inside as she twitched tightening around him. He grunts to hold her tighter as she hisses in pleasure.

"i..Ink.." he warns feeling her getting tighter as she was shaking in his arms.

"P..Please..I..I need..m..more. I s..said I'm your b...birthday present s..so please...please...." she slowly tries to even bite his shoulder before he suddenly sits back and pulls her on his lap. He forces her to sit down fully that Ink shook gasping out loudly. However, that's when he begins thrusting up harder into her as she threw her head back resting her shaky hands on either side of the shower floor.

"B..BAKUGO!!! Please m..more! Please k..keep g..going m..more!!"

'Tch, damn it Ink...' he keeps pounding away hearing her crying out, her moans echoing in the bathroom as she was feeling him deep inside. She felt really good tightening around him like that but she was leaning back, bouncing on his lap while twitching.

'Damn it, she's way too out of it. She can't even think straight even after I been doing this. I don't want to hurt her but she's just....too hot. It's tightening around me even if she's..' he sees her bouncing on his lap faster but she was feeling her body shaking even more that he was feeling her leaning back more against him.

"Your seriously nuggnnnnn gotten used to it now..your tightening up again.." he said against her ear as she was crying in pleasure twitching.

"I..I can't h..help it. You f..feel so deep in..inside..m..my body isn't listening t..to me.....each t..time you thrust deeper in..inside I can't hhaaa st..stop it.." she moans out only for him to keep going.

"That just means I'm doing good. That means I'm going to be sure you enjoy this. Your so dazed in pleasure your body is throbbing in need for me. But no worries, I'll be sure you enjoy it." He said still moving as he sees her crying out till something started building as he was thrusting up more into her harder and harder.

"B..ba...bakugo o..oh g..god....s..something i..is......if you keep going that rough with m..me s..something i..is gonna.." she felt a weird pressure in her lower stomach as he keeps thrusting into her. She tries to sit up but he only held her still. Oh no, she's not running. She twitched crying out but she couldn't stop even when it felt so good.

"Ahhhh ahhhhh ahhhhh.."

"Don't worry just let it happen Ink....it's going to be good..just keep moving your hips for me.." He said doing that even if she was curling her toes.

"I can't mmmmm t..take it s..something really is h..happening..my body won't listen t..to me..something i..is..c...cumming..." she gasped out closing her hands into a fist as Bakugo was moving. He panted with growls thrusting away but Ink still kept gasping out.

"Ahhhh ahhhh Bakugo..Bakugo I c..can't..I can't......." she tried to warn him but he turns her head to look at her.

"Then go ahead and cum Ink..it's alright..I'm close too.." He suddenly kiss her deeply as she feels him holding her.

"Mfffmmmm!!!!!!" as she whines feeling him kissing her still moving his hips. She feels him stop thrusting to hit her spot hard that she screams behind the kiss.

"MMMMM!!!!"

'My b..body i..is..c...cumming....my body is c..cumming!' she cries in her head before climaxing hard around him as he held her tight, cumming himself. Both her and him shook as he keeps kissing her till he breaks the kiss hearing her panting out heavily to her body shaking.

Bakugo was still grinding against her but didn't let go as Ink was hissing from him doing that. Something warm was felt but she couldn't move feeling the effects of her body climaxing like that.

"Haa haa ah"

'I..I came..I...it feels hot...b..but my body is..still t..twitching...it's throbbing.....' she shook to feel him panting as he was kissing her neck feeling her still tight around him. However, he panted to even feel more excited that Ink gasped.

"H..Huh? Y..Your st..still..." she looks to him dazed but Bakugo blushed.

"This is your fault for being fucking adorable. Though, we can rest up for a moment so we can move this to my bed instead. I'm still wishing to enjoy my present like you said....that was just one round, I'm still planning on savoring this." he said touching her cheek as she was shaking again to blush.

She didn't say anything for a minute to look at him.

"T..then please g..go ahead. I s..said I was your birthday g..gift..so please.....I hope you e..enjoy it.." she said for him to turn the water off but carefully carries her out to head to the bed. From that night, he did enjoy his birthday gift but he did make sure Ink did too. From the weak moans and heated growls and grunts, seems Bakugo had a really exciting birthday.

#IC #silver roses #Drabble/short or long stories #silver butterfly mun #peahen mom #the mansion owner #Hidden Birthday present #katsuki bakugo #older bakugo #van ink the dragon #older ink #The fractions of NYC #peahen writer

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tsubasaclones · 2 years

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my life if i never found sailor moon stuff on that one kids craft site in elementary school

#so like technically i learned about sailor moon from that first #but later i started actually getting into it bc they had some of it at my library #which closed and when it was closing my mom got some of their sailor moon volumes at their closing sale #so now i have a couple duplicates but also some of them are the actual ones i checked out from the library which is pretty fun idk #but anyway when i was 10 i was reading manga online which was a bad idea but anyway i found cardcaptor sakura somehow. i assume i was #looking for magical girl stuff because of sailor moon. i also remember trying to read a little bit of tokyo mew mew too but i didnt really #like it. so anyway i read ccs when i was 10 and i liked it despite the weird parts lmao #and when i was 11 i got the first 3 volumes of xxxholic at a goodwill and from there i found out about tsubasa #and read the first chapter or two back then but i didnt finish either of them until last year lmao #side note its possible i actually found out abt xxxholic & trc on an april 1st. i dont remember the timeline exactly but it was close #bc i went to that goodwill after leaving a sleepover birthday party and that persons birthday is march 31st. except 3/31/2015 was a weekday #so it couldnt have been then if i had school the next day. but thats also around when we shouldve had spring break but i dont remember #and also i think i might vaguely remember being at school before it but i might have made that memory up im not sure #in any case it was very close to april 1st. which is pretty funny to me all things considered #em.txt #and i saw the xxxholic volumes and was like hey i recognize the group that made this so got them #so imagine my fucking surprise when clone sakura & clone syaoran show up all of a sudden and also the (replica) staff is shown #because bestie let me tell you i was not planning for that

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Sakurazuka Seishiro and his destiny as preordained by his Astrology

Or, the Astrology of a Psychopath

Happy (late) Birthday to my favorite psychopath, Tokyo Babylon’s Sakurakuza Seishiro.

I originally planned on posting this yesterday, the actual birthday, but my internet had different plans (basically I had no internet connection).

After my last Tokyo Babylon (TB) re-read, which happened to coincide with a Lunar Eclipse that basically screamed “SeiSub”, I started asking myself that ever-elusive-million-dollar-question that CLAMP just absolutely LOVES keeping the fandom in the dark about:

Did Seishiro love Subaru?

To be honest, I am not sure I’ve come to a concrete opinion about it.

Even though I saw the x/1999 anime a LONG time ago and know what happens and how it happens, I am currently in the process of reading the manga for the first time--so I feel like I have an incomplete picture of the whole thing until I finish.

But in re-reading TB this time around, I caught some nuance I might have missed before.

Like...

Nuance that really got me to start asking...

1. What’s with Seishiro’s obsession with Subaru?

2. Did Seishiro not understand that the attraction/fascination he felt for Subaru was perhaps a primitive version of love?

3. What is love? Baby don’t hurt me...

4. More importantly, can a psychopath, which Seishiro clearly is, feel love?

I’ve already shared how I was blown away to find that the Lunar Eclipse on November 19th, 2021 was Seishiro and Subaru’s eclipse. But, seeing as Seishiro’s birthday was yesterday, I decided to take a deep dive into his Astrology in search for answers to my questions.

Boy... I was not disappointed.

FYI: I consider myself to have intermediate knowledge of Astrology that mostly comes from having listened to Astrology podcasts for long enough to experience how the “cosmic weather” (Astrology) affects my personal life. That being said, I am by no means an expert and sometimes I have no idea what any of it all means.

Still... I couldn’t resist the temptation of looking at the birth chart of a character that is a Triple Scorpio by design.

The Astrology of Sei’s birth chart

I got the exact date, time and place from here.

I just knew CLAMP was very conscious of Seishiro’s true birth date when I noticed they made him a triple Scorpio by design. Sun, Moon and Ascendant sign are all in the sign of Scorpio--in a nutshell he was born at a very specific time and place for this to happen.

In fact, I know the age gap between Seishiro and Subaru can be controversial (especially if Sei started preying on Subaru when he was only 9 and 15ish), but even the age gap between Seishiro and Subaru is an INSTRUMENTAL and absolutely necessary aspect in their tragedy.

This is the insane level of attention to detail that CLAMP put into SeiSub. I have this head canon of Nanase Okawa just going to town trying to find the perfect exact date and time for Seishiro to be born in order to show his inevitable and fatal attraction to Subaru.

Below are some of the interesting bits I found in Sei’s birth chart.

North Node in Gemini--Subaru is Seishiro’s destiny

Let’s start with the age gap.

In a nutshell, the North and South Nodes of the Moon are imaginary points that traverse through the Zodiac in reverse. The nodes typically stay in each sign for about a year to a year and a half.

The North Node, or Dragon’s Head, symbolizes the Soul purpose or the destiny that we are headed towards.

In Sei’s chart, the North Node is in the early degrees of Gemini. This is relevant because, not only does Gemini symbolize “the twins,” but Subaru’s Ascendant sign is Gemini--to me, this particular placement symbolizes that Seishiro’s destiny is Subaru.

In addition, the Pleiades star cluster (which I will address in the next section) is also really close to Sei’s natal North Node.

Finally, to put their age gap into perspective, the North Node of the Moon was in Gemini in 1975 when Seishiro was born. The last time that the North Node was in Gemini before Seishiro was born was from 1964 through 1966. The North Node did not return to Gemini until 1983/1984--at which point, he would have been 9 years younger than Subaru.

In other words, If Nanase Okawa wanted to use this particular symbol, there is just absolutely NO way around the age gap.

Sun opposite the Pleiades star cluster--the tension of opposites

I think it’s interesting that Seishiro and Subaru’s Sun signs are both water signs, and therefore form a trine (positive energy flow) with each other. However, there is something to be said about Subaru’s name and Sei’s Sun sign.

Subaru’s name is the Japanese name for the Pleiades star cluster which happens to be in Taurus, the sign directly opposite Scorpio, Seishiro’s Sun sign (I wrote a bit more about this in the write up about the eclipse). In fact, I think they form a very tight opposition in that Sei’s Sun is at 29° of Scorpio while the Pleiades, in average, sit somewhere around 27° of Taurus.

This is relevant because we already know that CLAMP considers names to be of utmost importance.

To me, this is Nanase saying “emotionally, these two couldn’t be more in tune with one another (their Sun sings form a trine), but they also couldn’t be more opposite from each other.”

The Pleiades star cluster and the North Node in Seishiro’s 7th house--or, Subaru in Seishiro’s house of marriage and partnerships

Here we see the Pleiades star cluster and the North Node featured once again. This time, however, they are both located within Seishiro’s 7th house of marriage and partnerships.

Symbolically, the 7th house is not just about the partnerships in our life, but also about our realization of the significance of others.

Is this a coincidence or by design?

I would like to think that, given these placements, it was Subaru who taught Sei about the importance of others as something more than mere objects. Perhaps it is this placement that doomed Sei to die at the hands of the one he loved most.

4th house in Pisces--”Seeing you suffer like this, I feel nothing”

The 4th house is thought to be the ground of our being that invites self-reflection of the first 3 houses (who I am, what I value, what I think). It is a sort of portal into our inner world that teaches us about how we experience ourselves as separate from others and how we go about integrating and consolidating our sense of self.

Considering Subaru’s Sun sign is Pisces, this is a placement that I feel is important but am unsure on how to interpret.

Perhaps this placement speaks to the lack of groundlessness and dissolving nature that characterizes Pisces. Therefore, this might symbolize how Seishiro cannot tell the difference between other people and objects.

I find this a bit interesting because, as a Pisces, Subaru is the complete opposite of Seishiro in that he can’t tell the boundaries between other’s pain and his own.

Anyways, I could be way off on this one but my intuition tells me it’s relevant...

Venus in Capricorn--Seishiro is attracted to Subaru’s emotional self

In relational astrology, if I remember correctly, Venus speaks to romantic attraction. In Seishiro’s case we have Venus at 14° of Capricorn, which “happens” to be Subaru’s Moon sign. Subaru’s Venus is also conjunct his Moon, so we have a double whammy of Venusian energy “blessing” this relationship.

This is an interesting choice because, from my understanding, like the 4th house, the Moon sign symbolizes our inner, emotional nature.

So what I am getting from this particular placement is the idea that Seishiro had some sort of attraction towards Subaru’s Capricornian inner-emotional world right from the beginning.

Sun, Moon and Ascendant in Scorpio--does Seishiro really not feel anything?

What struck me as the most important aspect about the birth chart, however, was the choice of Seishiro being a triple Scorpio.

If everything I’ve shared up until now doesn’t feel like it was created by design and/or Hitsuzen, then this aspect takes it to a whole new level. ESPECIALLY the significance behind the numerology of the day of birth being 11/22 (or 22/11 depending on how you write dates in your country).

Seriously, remember my head canon about Nanase Okawa looking for the perfect time and day for Seishiro to be born?

That’s because in order for Sei to be a triple Scorpio, he had to be born somewhere between October 23 and November 21* (Sun in Scorpio), on a day when the Moon was transiting through Scorpio, and at the precise time of the day where the ascendant sign would be in Scorpio (I believe this is a 2 hour window). Let’s not forget that North Node in Gemini is super important!

*I understand the dates for each Zodiac sign change slightly, so this accounts for Sei’s birthday being 11/22 back in 1975. What’s interesting is that this makes him a cusper--someone born on the cusp of one sign and the next. Hokuto and Subaru are also cuspers, with Hokuto being born in Aquarius just before the Sun moved into Pisces, and Subaru being born later on during the day when the Sun was already in Pisces.

What is weird about Sei’s triple Scorpionness is that Scorpio is a water sign. The major defining characteristic of water signs is that we are deeply emotional beings (like Subaru, I am a Pisces Sun myself, I would know).

This has really made me wonder whether Seishiro truly does not feel anything. I mean... his triple Scorpio placement is the configuration from hell when it comes to one’s emotional life. Of course, this is not to say all Scorpios are toxic. Both my brother and father are Scorpios, and it is precisely because I am close to two Scorpio males that I can attest to the depth of their nature and their intensity.

In a nutshell, Scorpio symbolizes death, transitions, and sex. If you consider the Scorpion and it’s venomous sting, this also speaks to a Scorpio’s defense mechanisms.

So I kind of have to wonder about Sei here.

Was Sei meant to be poison for Subaru?

Or is Sei’s poison a defense mechanism?

The Astrology of a Psychopath

I did a little bit of reading on the neuroscience of a psychopath when I went looking for answers about Sei. What I found was that psychopaths do seem to have brains that have an impaired ability to regulate their emotions--empathy to be more specific.

I would have to do more research on the subject but, when it comes to Sei, I can’t help but think that an impaired ability to regulate emotions doesn’t mean he doesn’t feel them but rather, he doesn’t know how to read them. This in itself could be a trauma response to his upbringing, of which we know nothing about.

So, again, I turned to Astrology but could not find anything conclusive that would match Sei’s birth chart and any evidence of him being a psychopath (other than the triple Scorpio madness).

But why would Sei have any of the specific astrological configurations of a psychopath? That’s not what Nanase had in mind. I think that would be a whole different birth chart and I am sure she would have found it.

I think that what Nanase wanted to show in Sei’s birth chart was that Subaru is his preordained destiny. As I mentioned in my eclipse write up, they are bound to one another by the power of the stars.

Finally, I truly admire the lengths that Nanase went through to create this OTP and I am looking forward to breaking down Subaru’s chart in February of next year.

Truly, the level of detail in Seishiro’s birth chart and how it relates to his dynamic with Subaru is nothing short of amazing.

#Tokyo Babylon #seisub #Subaru Sumeragi #seishiro sakurazuka #x/1999 #CLAMP #CLAMP manga #anime astrology

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winter-sol · 2 years

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Leviathan Birthday Event Review (because why not)

I didn't want Levi's birthday to go by without a post about it. I couldn't post anything that day or the days before since I've had a lot of workload and well, I don't feel like continuing on the PC after finishing my shift ;(

So here comes the review no one asked for about the event + cards + devilgram stories! yassssss

Pop Quiz!

My rating: 6.5/10

So, the event was about Leviathan organizing his birthday party, planning what activities to do with his brothers, being discouraged in the process because he thought those activities sucked, but his brothers reassured him it was ok, they wanted to do it. They all have a good time in the end, great!

It was funny to see everyone trying his hobbies, I remember the most that scene with Lucifer and Satan decorating their Ruri-chans in ways I wish we could've seen. Levi as an otaku is usually alone with his own stuff, but seeing his brothers wanting to do the same and enjoying it was pretty cute.

Besides that, I won't lie, the event was pretty basic, but I must say, it's better than last year's, specially when it comes to the romantic scenes, this year's was pretty dokidoki inducing. At the unlockable route, there's this scene that I believe was the highlight of the event for us Levistans.

Once the two of us are together is his room, you can ask him if all he wants to do is gaming because, y'know, you could be doing other stuff. He says he wants to (god bless him) but let's you decide because he's a consent king and hear me, if you pass he'll be like

But if you say yes I swear he kisses you like 4 times and tells you the sweetest things I must have read coming from him.

No matter the option, the ending is me loving him more.

But anyway, aside from the romance, for a birthday event it was alright I guess, nothing out of the ordinary, but fine.

UR Card: "Heartbeat✩Creation Time"

Illustration: 10/10

Beautiful, magnificient, gorgeus. The drawing is just so good. When it comes to OM! illustrations, I'm pretty fine with the different styles with get to see. But this classic otome style was done so well this time I can't help appreciating it. If last year's UR (oh how to forget the cursed, bugged card) was pretty, this year's was perfect. He looks handsome and cute, classic Leviathan, but also the unlocked version is just... Ahhh, did you see him? He's drunk! And he looks so pretty like that! Like, what is he saying? is he slurring while talking otaku nonsense? is he trying to flirt and failing? We'll never know (because the devilgram story has nothing to do with it but bah, nevermind)

Overall, great card, I'm glad I got it (it was the easiest Pop Quiz UR I've ever gotten, besides his last year's which was... you know, bugged)

Devilgram Story: 5/10

I'm sorry but after Satan's birthday UR card my expectatives are way too high. That's the standard my mind has set for these kind of stories.

So in his devilgram story, Leviathan tells you about an idea he has about a manga, then puppet show, he wants to make. It's an obvious TSL inspired? (ripped-off?) story. And the plot is quite bad, for being such a cultured otaku, you'd expect better. But anyways, it's an obvious self-insert, the ending is basically he day-dreaming of confessing to you and well, Levi basically telling you he wants to grow old with you was cute, I won't lie. But the dialogue after that is quite bland, you tell him you want that as well and that's basically it? (Do we even kiss? I forgot, sorry)

So, considering it was a chance to impress us with this card that most Levistans grinded their asses for... it just wasn't impressive, there are better devilgram stories for Leviathan (I'm looking at you, "A Virtual Drive" and "Handmade Present!". Those were really good.)

SSR Card: "Devildom's Next Top Otaku"

Illustration: 8/10

The locked version is cute, yes, his eyes and the way he's holding the sheep is awww. But I guess it's nothing out of the ordinary. The unlocked one though is veeeery pretty. The starry background, the pink flower crown, and his facial expression are just. Beautiful (I wish my english was better so I could use more complex words idk). He looks like the king he is, happy on his own birthday. Nice.

Devilgram story: 8/10

Better than the UR, it finally, finally!!! uses a concept I've been daydreaming about for months: Model Levi.

Because why not!! He's part of the Seven Rulers of Hell, basically the most poweful and popular guys in the Devildom, they're all handsome as hell and the otaku rat boy is not an exception. He's unique and c'mon, otaku aesthetic is in nowadays. I like how the photoshoot ends up accommodating him, he's at ease and you can tell he ends up looking amazing. He's actually on the cover of the magazine, and while I ended up wondering if his brothers had planned the whole setup for his modeling in order to celebrate him (is it supposed to be like that? and I was too stupid to get it? hahaah), I think it was refreshing for him. I think we Levistans complain a bit about how he's underused when it comes to him being a hottie and well, at least now we've got some canon material about that ;)

My critique it's the lack of romance , I wish we could've smooched him and have more heartwarming dialogues.

Aaaand a concept we've already gotten last year: Levi pushing his boundaries when doing something new just to abandon it and be like "I'm happier with my simple life with you so I won't model anymore" (or last year's version: I won't become a pro gamer)

Like yes, it's his life, he can do whatever he wants, that's cool. Buuut, and I guess this is more subjective from my part? I just don't like how it's kinda romanticed the fact he'd give up on something because he'd rather stay at home with you. Part of me is ok with that idea because, again, it's his life, I'm pretty sure it must be uncomfortable with his social anxiety, it's fine I swear. But I also wonder if it's one of those "We'll never let these characters grow up and we'll just keep them safe cuz moneeeeyy" solmare moments. Like, yes, he's a full time otaku, but being an otaku allows him to know about sewing, music (instruments and singing), dancing, having a cosplay account, he's good with his hands, knows programming, and besides his otaku interests, he knows about the sea and... military. So yes, modeling, and the conflict it creates within him and how he's able to surpass it, fits his character. It was a good addition just to be abandoned so we'll probably never see it again.

Ah, guess it's not a big deal so nevermind. (see how i ended up being more critical about my higher ranked story of the 3? yes, that's me and my perfectionism)

But yes!! It was a good story. It was my favorite of the 3 of them, I wish the Pop Quiz would've followed this path instead.

Sooooo that's with Levi's event, if you got this far thank you!

For his birthday, I was planning on finally posting a MBTI analysis of Levi's type (INFP) and its cognitive fuctions that's been in my drafts for months but i just didn't have the time and energy to finish it. So if you're interested let me know ;)

Have a good night! And prepare for that Pirate Event! It's time for new skins!

#obey me levi #obey me leviathan #obey me #obey me shall we date #omswd #leviathan #simping levi

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