#i actually really like this one fr

[mayasaura]

I don't wanna further hijack that poor poll, but the thing about Harrow's schizophrenia is that it's canon. The author has confirmed it, and shared that it's based on her own experience.

It's a pretty obscure bit of canon, so of course there's no shame in not already knowing, but that's why I'm so obnoxiously persistent about letting people know.

Whatever else is up with Harrow, autism or cptsd or any number of likely headcanons, she is also schizophrenic. I feel like that's too important to be handwaved away as a difference of opinion.

#like of course not everyone knows I'm not the kind of asshole who gets mad about someone not having heard about an unrecorded con panel #not knowing is one thing #erasing or ignoring that aspect of her is something completely different #like yeah she's incredibly relateable in that way #and I know how comforting it can be to project your own dx onto someone and go 'wow shes just like me fr' #but I really feel like doing that re: Harrow's schizophrenia is a huge lost opportunity for growth #and I hate that the takeaway for so many people is 'Harrow is autistic' #and not 'oh cool didn't know autism and schizophrenia had so much overlap in experience' #relate to psychotic people without flinching challenge #anyway. tl;dr: #if you didn't already know then I have the coolest new fun fact about Harrow to share with you!! #if you do already know but have elicted to ignore it then a little bit fuck you actually #but I will ALWAYS assume someone didn't know before assuming they're being a dick #the locked tomb #harrow nonagesimus #harrowhark nonagesimus #harrow the ninth

[crunchworldsupreme]

FinFin has been thinking thoughts [Audio recommended]

#you love finfin 🔪 #he is your best friend #come and see him #Adore him fr. what a little guy #but also he gives me feelings about the past and the future and everything that's going on in between #and the relationship that people have with art and technology and their ideas for the future #and why they make things and for who #like yes. ok. finfin was just capitalizing on a trend #but even in doing that they made something really unique and charming with lasting appeal #he's more than just a marketable product... and he was even then #he was a genuine curiosity for the tech featured in the game #it doesn't actually work the way it pretends to 😂 but still. The effort was there #fin fin #finfin #fin fin on teo the magic planet #windows 98 #windows xp #microsoft agent #I should have spent longer cleaning this up. It's still pretty rough #but it's one of those things you can tweak forever and never be happy with so :/

[lavender-rroses]

//dunmeshi spoilers? eyestrain

desire

timelapse under cut

#delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #farcille #marcille donato #falin thorden #falin touden #what’s the right one? i’ll never remember #lavrose art #I LOVE DUNMESHIIII YEASSSSSSS #YURI WIN #fanart #art #i’m so normal abt them fr #this took me so long and tbh idk how much i actually like it but oh well #dungeon meshi #it’s so nice to have an anime that updates every week i miss being insane #((my haikyuu phase)) #dunmeshi spoilers #dungeon meshi spoilers #sorry i didn't put spoiler warning before i didnt really know if it was needed or not #dungeon meshi fanart

[vynnyal]

This is likely the hardest I've laughed in rain world yet. Basically, you can glitch a spear into a quantum state using a dead bat body, allowing stabbed enemies to follow you through tunnels. So I tried bringing a leviathan to Moon. And the game really, really didn't like that

#rainworld #rain world #game clips #I cut out the moment I died because the footage froze for a solid 20 seconds right at that moment #I was so close!! But I accidentally went back through the tunnel and got crushed. #And for some reason while grinding this out I somehow glitched the game into thinking I died 200 times #So my score is like -130 which is really funny. Like I can casually speedrun hunter with 1 or 2 deaths to this point #Game fr said ''skill issue'' #God no am I gonna try actually speedrunning this game. The actual advanced movement tech is crazy hard #Anyways welcome to my gaming channel please like and subscribe /j #I posted a hk highlight clip but then realized that since I'm shifting fandoms I'm likely spoiling the hell out of my new followers #Sorry if you saw that LMAO #I have another video of torturing moon that I found really funny but it's like 5 minutes long #And no way do y'all have the patience to watch that. Especially without context #So that's a friend-exclusive #Or maybe I'll put it on my literal YouTube channel with like 300 subs for. Some reason #OR THE ART ONE LMAO ''it's been three years check out this completely unrelated video''

[eridude]

eqitav...... im an eqitav truther btw tavquius? horse and bull and then they kiss on the lips or whatever (i think equius engraved a cuitemark onto tavroses legs)

HI EQUITAV IS SO REAL. equius literally built his legs that's gotta count for something.

#fr i think they could actually get along really well #everyone else gets up to a lot of ANTICS and that feels like it could be tiresome for both parties. so. find peace and quiet in one another #also i feel like out of all the characters tavros would be a good person to give equius the what for abt the hemospectrum #n equius could help tavros learn to speak his mind or at least abstain from the chaos. #homestuck #my art #daily post #equius zahhak #equius #tavros #tavros nitram #equitav #day 217

[larsnicklas]

man sacrifices his own blood for a four minute power play and no dice...

#jt miller #vancouver canucks #canucks #nhl #nhledit #hockey #hockeyedit #meg.nucks #meg.gif #meg.all #blood cw #injury cw #he's so!!!! #and honestly i can't tell if he knows he's THIS hot #like he does have SOME vanity about this. no man who doesn't goes bucketless in warmies. #but idk if he knows that he's like top five hottest men in the nhl. he's number one to me but i will acknowledge differing tastes #also sorry the coloring is everywhere on this set LOL. lots of lighting changes in that arena those game ops folks are my enemy fr #also i actually made like 6 more gifs than i included. sometimes u have to spare the dash. #also having to pretend last gif didn't make me feel Some Type Of Way. ugh i really used to have dignity

[mattodore]

he had his little movie makeover montage off-screen

#simblr #ts4 #ts4 cas #ts4 edit #river dipping #🦇 #theodore doe #echthroi #HE'S SOOOOO GORGEOUSSSSSSSS #when i said changes i didn't mean anything crazy dfkdnhj i mean to ME i can tell the difference immediately #but i also stare at theo a lot so. i'm not sure if it's really noticeable to anyone else #all i've done is add skin details and moved his nose up a tad and moved his jaw forward a bit for a better side profile #finally fixed his hairline so it matches up better with his new hair and i think i also changed his lashes to shorter ones #i actually wanted to add more beauty marks to his face but i'm gonna do that myself i think so it matches up properly w/ his other marks #also note the lack of a mirror on the cas bg <333 vyx i owe you my life fr #should i share what matthias looked like after the changes........ he's gonna go back probably so it's a little pointless i think #honestly he doesn't look that much different... it's just face shading and a little change to his ears that's it #these aren't srwe'd btw... i was just taking these pics for myself kdjgfhkjnf but figured i would share #there's actually........ hang on actually let me show the silly pics i took too <3

[worstloki]

My issue with Thor not ‘realizing’ why Loki was acting off in Avengers 1 isn’t that Thor didn’t recognise Loki was acting unlike himself—Thor did note that—or that Thor didn’t figure out what was wrong—he did try asking—it’s more along the lines of Thor giving up, and that he accepted Loki was bad now within two days while knowing something was off when Thor himself behaved just as bad for much longer before without any specific compromising event.

#Thor was happy go kill for so long and Loki waited for Thor to get better and then Thor KNOWS something is up #and he still accepts Loki is evil now and never questions or visits Loki in prison again #he moped around about it because of duty and depression but that he had such little faith in Loki #like either his little brother really did go mad out of jealousy and rage AND is permanently like that with no resolution between them #it’s ridiculous #I like the Thor in my head who never believed Loki had actually gone mad and went after the infinity stones bc he suspected #the one that would not only trust Loki to get them off Asgard in TDW but knew Loki had the throne after and let it be that way #bc he knows his brother and wouldn’t stop believing Loki can ‘get better’ even if he’d truly gone mad #like I get that Thor in Avengers 1 would have been conflicted and could’ve taken everything at face value #Loki was DEAD and now he’s not of course Thor isn’t going to be thinking straight #it’s easy to look at Loki and assume he spent a year plotting revenge after faking his death #but Thor had time after to cool down and only gave Loki a chance in TDW when there was no other option #like did he genuinely think Loki will try to kill him #is Thor scared of Loki now or what #Thor’s spending so much time thinking of what he’s lost that he develops depression but doesn’t ever voice or support the idea that maybe #Loki was forced to do the invasion #AFTER he asks ‘who controls the would-be king’ like come on Thor just ask a follow-up question #Thor autistic king distracted by ‘YOUR father’ discourse fr #T-T #I simply don’t think Thor would have given up on Loki even if Loki stabbed him sorry #it wouldn’t even be bc he’s naive it’d be because he knows and loves his brother #and he’d keep hoping for a change of heart #he wouldn’t ditch the issue unless it was to go under the radar and that’s never explicitly implied #unfortunately #:(

[solarwreathe]

christmas with no limits

really, this art was all an excuse to show you this image. i miss when old movie promo photos were awkward as shit.

#home alone #wet bandits #merry christmas #christmas art #christmas movies #really what do i tag this as #'solar is everything okay? you've barely drawn any weird ugly men lately' #no but fr i need to fetch an ugly man muse every few months to keep my art alive. this is the molting part of my life cycle #im proud of how i caricatured harry but what you see of marv is my 4th attempt and i'm still not satisfied. it doesn't look like him! #he veers more towards the pompous brand of bearded villain than the weed smoker he actually is #anyway little anecdote: home alone is one of the first movies i remember watching. we saw it in school on one of them old tellies on wheels #i didn't know much of america yet. being a toddler. so the whole time i was like: #why's it such a big deal the family's trapped in paris? it's an hours flight...

[hallwyeoo]

Ellie’s memory of the golfing scene and what it tells us about her.

🚨spoilers for tlou2🚨

I think Ellie’s flashback to Joel’s death is very telling of how she internalized the event and the meaning she applied to his death. It’s also a good demonstration of her relationship to autonomy. Let’s break down the elements that were inconsistent with the actual event:

The stairs/hallway are much longer than they were. This suggests a sense of helplessness, an inability to get there fast enough. Joel is constantly out of reach.

There is blood on the floor outside of the door. Not entirely certain on this one but my hunch is that she blames herself for not seeing more obvious signs of violence/not knowing something was wrong sooner.

The door is locked, another roadblock in her path to Joel. She can’t access him, she can’t help, he needs her and she isn’t there.

Most importantly. Joel yells “Ellie, help me” (which he didn’t in the actual scene, he just screams. He doesn’t say a word in the actual scene)

Ellie hearing Joel scream for her help, calling for her while being horribly beaten, and her being repeatedly impeded on her way to him suggests that what she took away from his death is that she wasn’t enough. They always helped each other, always had each others backs, always got up. Ellie views his death as a failure. She was too slow, too weak, not smart enough to save him. She failed him when he needed her most. She is absolutely helpless to save him, just like she was helpless to save Riley, Tess, Sam, and Jessie (and Marlene, and humanity, and and and-).

Once again, Ellie makes a decision (staying with Riley, going to the fireflies, staying with Joel, being the cure, trying to forgive Joel) and once again her autonomy and ability to find closure is ripped from her.

This is the inciting incident of tlou pt2, this is the moment where Ellie’s whole world shatters the same way Joel’s did at the start of pt1. Ellie enters into the same cycle (which I like to call the “Joel cycle” because… yeah.) that he did, and throughout pt2 she stays in the “20 years later” phase of the cycle. She is changed, she has lost her light, lost what she fought for. She lost her chance to genuinely forgive Joel and rebuild their relationship. She is stuck in a gruelling and violent world that she has no anchor in, at least not anymore. His death is so sudden and so incredibly violent that it practically gave her (and me as well, tbh) whiplash. She’s in a state of total shock.

On another devastating note, this is one of the three times in tlou that we see Ellie beg (that I remember). The first is begging Joel to get up at the university of Eastern Colorado, the second is begging him to get up and for Abby to stop, and the third is begging Abby to not kill Dina because she’s pregnant. (Two times she begs Joel to get up, one time he doesn’t. Two times she begs Abby to spare her family and one time she does. What a beautifully haunting contrast)

To wrap up, every person creates an internal narrative, a story of their life that is crafted from their context and lived experiences. The meaning we derive from those experiences doesn’t always reflect the truth, and that can sometimes bite us in the ass majorly when we experience a traumatic event. We tend to want to find someone or something to assign blame to, some reason or rationale to why it happened. We tell stories. We write them in our minds about ourselves and what happens to us and what that says about us.

But Ellie is wrong. Joel’s death happened in response to a conscious and willing choice he made. It is in no way her fault, and there was absolutely no way for her to know or to stop what was happening. I think Ellie knows that much on an intellectual level, It just doesn’t change how devastated she is over the whole event. It can’t change the fact that she FEELS as though this was all her fault, that Joel did what he did to save her, that she could have saved him. That she should have.

#this isn’t a new thought #like I’m p much just stating what happened in the game #this is not some super deep meta analysis of tlou #it’s just. #Ellie’s relationship to autonomy is so so so good #ellie the last of us #joel the last of us #ellie williams #joel miller #tlou series #tlou show #tlou1 #tlou spoilers #tlou analysis #I have SO MANY drafts that are like. walls of text #we’re talking Great Wall of China long #tlou2 #marlene the last of us #marlene tlou #basically what I said in previous posts about how ellie picked up Joel’s stoic attitude and emotional constipation. #ellie’s screams lolol. my heart breaking in real time. #joel goes golfing HD!!! #the way her voice breaks as she begs… OWIE #Neil druckmann needs to pay for my therapy fr!! #I edited this because it had some… really bad grammatical errors #syntax??? what’s that???? #anyway normally I don’t put much thought or effort into my actual wording of Tumblr posts #because like maybe 10 people will see it. who cares. #but this one is one I actually care a bit about and this whole thing could be written about in so much more depth. #so I went in and tried to clean it up a bit and added some thoughts.

[my-lonely-thoughts]

I was today years old when I found out allos go on dates with people they find attractive to get to know them better/see if they're compatible 😐

#i thought dating was... actually i dont even know #something like #you go on dates to...... #OMG WTH WHAT DID I THINK DATING WAS????? #like fr???? #dating never really appealed to me so i never really thought about it before 😭 #but i guess i now know at least WHY people go on dates! #at least one reason lol #aroace #asexual #aromantic #lgbtqia #my lonely thoughts

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

So was anyone going to tell me Faust is a bigger menace than EVERYONE in the game put together or like. Was I supposed to play the Impossible Choices event (Vincent and Charles ver) myself. I LOVE that he's the definition of: 'being smarter doesn't make me more mature or helpful, it just makes my inherent lust for chaos/entropy all the more unstoppable' This shit FUCKS

I think this is the first time I've ever seen a character make Shakespeare's life a living hell and the latter didn't expect/see it coming, that was AMAZING. Mf was out here like "What the hell??? You lot don't make me suffer I make YOU suffer. Let a man obsess IN PRIVACY" and then nobody cared. Peak comedic interaction, no notes everyone pack it up

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp faust #ikevamp shakespeare #i got issues with his main story route (the problem is me to be clear--also god i cant stand catholicism) #but i gotta say he's hilarious in other events #im so used to incredibly intelligent characters being wooden/mature/stoic #but this guy really out here like 'What If I Made Everything Worse. As A Treat.' #and sincerely i love it for him--mad scientist is such a limiting label #i also find it fascinating he just casually said 'don't stress out the butler' to charles #WHEN ALL HE DOES IS ACTIVELY STRESS OUT THE B U T L E R IN HIS RT #aight to be fair its prbly actually favoritism considering he [insert sebas rt spoilers] #but in my defense that was not clear until like chapter 20 out of 25 #i still remember being like 'faust you are arguably one of the hottest 2d men ever conceived. HOWEVER. if you hurt my nerd friend -> #and fellow ace icon i will be most put out with you.' #and then as soon as sebas was better i was like 'aight we fk heavy let's go' #also love that shakespeare lowkey wanted the company despite grousing he's just like me fr

[dragonseeds]

there’s a horrible sickness in me that makes me want to stop and replay da:i whenever i start a different game. how am i supposed to resist the story of my own unwilling apotheosis? especially as lavellan, who doesn’t believe in the maker and who has every right to hate and mistrust the chantry but chooses to use what power they have to try save people, to fix what’s broken, no matter how afraid they are or how careful they have to be. walking side by side with the great trickster god/adversary of your people without knowing, befriending him, changing his mind about this world but ultimately not his choice. he understands what’s happening to you because it happened to him once and he gives you his castle, built over the place where he sundered the world, and paints your story there in frescos that will last long after you’re gone and after the story has been retold and reshaped so many times that the truth of who you are and what you did is lost—just as he did his own story, which was lost and perverted by war and propaganda, and he shows all of this to you knowing you’ll understand because you’ve lived through something similar, grown into something larger than yourself and your true name, and it doesn’t change anything but. he wanted you to see him just for a moment, even if he can’t tell you everything (or almost anything) and you can’t save him—because he owes it to you as a someone who is a friend, almost an equal, and because there’s no one else left who knows: a direct result of what he did to your people and which he now seeks to undo at the cost of this world.

#dragon age #solas #literally i am ILL #i love religious trauma and stifling hypocrisy and walking carefully so carefully through a place i don’t belong but i’ve chosen to be #and questioning everything and losing and discovering myself over and over #and accidentally becoming friends with my work colleagues #and most importantly dating an actual god who is just a nerdy little guy who keeps fucking everything up #he’s such a liar but he wants to badly to tell the truth but he can’t he won’t #yet he only really lies through omission and speaks carefully so as not to give himself away #ok and also he very much wanted the anchor and manipulated that whole situation #but he also shows you who he is and tells you a sliver of the truth #and he didn’t have to do that! but he chose to—he wants you to see him and on some level to save him from his path i think #also i debated sooo long about the phrasing ‘almost an equal’ because i think he does consider everyone as worthy of life & choice as him! #but ultimately he is making the decisions of a god whether or not he acknowledges himself as one #he is deciding for a whole world—so i think there’s some cognitive dissonance there #and i went with almost #i’m fr stalled out in the middle of bg3 like i miss solas i miss my work friends

[justaz]

just reminded myself of the fact that percy (CANONICALLY) doesn’t know what annabeth sees in him and doesn’t understand why she likes him and i wanted to share that with the class

#percy jackson #annabeth chase #pjo #percy jackson and the olympians #hoo #heros of olympus #percabeth #angst #percy angst #HES JUST LIKE ME FR #except no one actually likes me #… #anyways- #not even a hc like it’s literally canon #mark of athena on their lil date in rome at the restaurant #read it and weep bitch #i’m on a percy angst train tonight #i am Sad #i feel like percy’s trauma and mental health gets skipped over a lot bc his internal monologue is very sarcastic and witty #but he’s like. really suicidal and self deprecating #damn. he really is just like me frfr

[helpmyinterestsareverywhere]

Ah wow, I just finished building the Dragons Rising Destiny Bounty LEGO set - it looks SO GOOD and show accurate, I can't wait to see it more in the sho-

....

#this came to me as I was putting up on my shelves to display #“I really like how this looks - I had so much fun building it and it looks so nice!!” #“It's definitely one of my favourite bounty designs - I can't wait to see it mor-” #“...oh - oh no” #for a good minute i had an internal battle about whether i actually smash it for the joke but i think i would genuinely cry #(it took me 3 days to build) #anyway i can't to see the new bounty design when they inevitably build again 🧍‍♂️ #(she's just like william afton fr) #hmiae rambles #ninjago #lego ninjago #lego ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising season 2 #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago dragons rising spoilers #i think?? are we still tagging spoilers 🧍‍♂️ #also i dunno if this even counts as one but hey-ho #you can never be too sure

[cladnplaid]

Me shit talking the new One Piece show to then watch it and thoroughly enjoy it

#my brother literally came over and forced me to watch it and im ANGRY because it was actual GOOD #opla #one piece live action #one piece #like fr ONE PIECE is the anime-live-action adaption to preak the curse? REALLY? #after they tried and failed SO MANY TIMES #death note and fullmetal alchemist. frikin COWBOY BEBOP! #BUT one piece?! with its looney tooney absurdity WORKED?! #i'm confounded. Bamboozled. befuddled even! #i embarrassingly want to see some bts break downs of the vfx and stunt work so frikin bad! #and dont even get me started on the costumes!😩👌 #and thEN THE HAIR AND MAKE UP😙👌 #it had NO BUSINESS being that good! #im not even mad at the typos in this #im just smashing my phone keyboard #rambles