#heavily on durgetash

[hua-liansimp]

the torture when you like a ship and you want to read fanfiction about that ship but you like the ship in a specific way and that way isn't the popular one:')

#imma be doing whole searchparties on ao3 #i will never give up #wolfstar #fugio #harry potter #inotan #haino #cytham #ayaitto #xuexiao #beiguang #harlivy #liushen #chilumi #jojo #only hualian doesn't belong here because i love every and all flavours of hualian fics #fanfiction #fic #ao3 #radiostatic #durgetash #heavily on durgetash #i just want to read more about the default big lizard durge subbing for gortash #am I alone in this misery? #jiuyuan

[sgnl---lxst]

#durgetash #enver gortash #drow oc #fell asleep 2 hours ago when conversation started x haven't slept for the past decade #im very normal about them #bro missed his murder husband and want to show him cute little robots he made #hc epilogue when they killed the brain and blew up half of the baldgate out of spite #fuck that city tbh #and they are not heroes and plan sucked heavily anyways

[getetteroo]

its so funny to see durgetash with heavily modded durges because without fail it looks like this.

#this isnt hate please continue having fun #i genuinly couldnt care less if your durge is a baddie #it just always makes me think of them #bg3

[daemon-in-my-head]

One thing that's heavily slept upon in regards to durgetash is Durges relationship with money.

Bhaal likes money. The novices are taught in ways that scare or awe everyone who watches and relay the message that any offered gold may make the Lord of Murder look away for today. And Durge too follows these teachings, which makes it even more scandalous that they gave away money at least once.

Like Bhaals whole bit is respect or fear and money. Bhaal is the mafia-like crime lord out of the dead three (even if Bane wants to be that so badly).

So I propose the following; a Durge who can literally be lured with a trail of gold coins. A Durge that makes Gortash buy them shit, cuz he got money. A Durge that actually decks out Gortash in his own golden gauntlets cuz yk Black is tacky, be stylish for once Banite. Gold is all the rage (and Durge just really likes the look of it). And whenever Durge feels rebellious they plunder the temples treasury and donate to the poor. Not cuz they're a good person but out of sheer spite for daddy dearest. They're one of the main providers for the temple, as any good child of Bhaal should be. So they'll use their bf to buy them fun stuff instead. And Gortash is 100% up for it cuz he doesn't like indulging himself, but that doesn't mean he doesn't like the Bhaalspawn indulging. Also the whole "look I bought this for them cuz I fuck them ain't that pretty?" Bit.

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #enver gortash #durgetash #bg3 gortash #bg3 durge #lord gortash #gortash x durge #durge #dark urge

[butilikedyou]

Bruises - Durgetash

Paring: Enver Gortash x The Dark Urge (gender neutral)

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3

Word Count: 1,021

Description: Gortash in the wake of The Dark Urge's apparent death. "But I hope I never lose the bruises that you left behind."

Other Things: Inspired by "Bruises" by Lewis Capaldi. Angst. Hurt/No Comfort.

Warnings: Self harm (no blood, it's mild, especially for Durgetash), alcohol, depression. No happy ending in this.

(Finally posting this on tumblr since I finally made a Gortash blog. Also posted on AO3 here.)

Slamming his office door shut behind him, Enver sighs and heads for the cabinet with his whiskey. The amber liquid is in the glass faster than he’s paying attention, his body moving automatically. 

He sits heavily in his chair, taking a sip of the liquid as he looks at the empty seat in front of him. 

He moves his arm, and frowns at the sensation. 

He strips his rings, gauntlet, and metal sleeve from his skin quickly, and regards the fading bruises on his arm unhappily. 

Taking another drink, he presses into the largest bruise forcefully with his thumb. Grinding the digit into it until he feels the familiar sting. But he continues to irritate it, insistent on bringing back the color the bruise once held. 

He couldn’t lose it. It’s all he had left of them. Of the last night before…

Their body trapped under his, bruising grip on his arms as he drove into them.

He curses and takes another sip. His eyes closing as he continues to abuse the patch of skin. 

The way their breath hitched near his ear, their legs wrapped around him.

Losing them was never something he’d actually considered. They seemed larger than life, a master of death itself. Untouchable by its icy grip. He’d always assumed only time or they themselves would take the Bhaalspawn. 

He hadn’t been prepared for what the reality of life without them would be. Hells he hadn’t even realized how ingrained into his life they had become. Now it felt like ten years had come and gone in an instant.

An entire decade of the most captivating and infuriating being he’d ever met. From a fragile tentative alliance to reaching for them on the other side of his bed many mornings. 

He missed the way they brought out the worst in him. The absolutely vile and wicked schemes and thoughts they stoked like fire within him. Even joining in on the bloody path they carved, and reveling in the gleeful smile they fixed on him when they both stood covered in viscera. 

Though he loathed to admit it, he missed the… other feelings they brought out in him. Not the wicked or lustful. But the softer ones he tried to fight away for the longest time. 

The feeling that coiled in his chest as they looked at him with a softness he didn’t know their features capable of. Knowing his own face reflected the same weakness. Yet ultimately… not caring that it did. 

The touch of another had always been violent, lustful, or seeking. That is what it always was to him. He himself used them to his own advantage. 

While their arrangement started with a lustful frenzy… something they often repeated, it evolved over time. 

Their touch went from just violence and seeking release to the softest brush of their hand on his back, careful fingers fixing his hair, and the softest brush of their mouth against his own to wake him in the morning.

The irony that a being created for murder had touched him more softly and meaningfully than any other in his life wasn’t lost on him. 

Before he knew it, the Bhaalspawn had became one of his primary focuses. The vision at the end of the plan was no longer him standing alone ruling over all in Bane’s name, but them standing beside him as equals. 

Bizarre thoughts of domesticity plagued him. Living together, waking to their face every morning, marriage. Things he couldn’t admit. Things Bane nor Bhaal would ever allow. But things he wanted nonetheless. 

But he grew used to what they had. Their form under his most nights, holding onto him with a bruising grip as he held them to that moment. Where only the two of them existed for a short while. Where he’d pull them to his chest and wake to them still in his arms. The way they’d linger long enough in the mornings to shave his face and lace his shirts. Since they insisted they just wanted to hold a razor to his throat, and he couldn’t be trusted to lace his own shirts properly. 

Then they’d shave him so gently. Their gaze focused as they did it perfect every time. Not a single cut on his face. A fact they would act disappointed about, but one he knew was a lie. If they had wanted to cut him, they certainly would have. 

He was unsure exactly when they’d seized so much of his subconscious thought, until they were gone. He was never truly aware how alone he was most of his life prior to their entrance into it. It was just how life was, how he was. Until they were there for a decade showing him something different. 

He spent all day surrounded by those already tadpoled, blackmailed, or just plain stupid. Everyone beneath him. Those who agree implicitly or would be horrified to find everything lurking beneath the surface of him. Everything he’d done, everything he planned to do. He might as well been alone. 

Then each evening his chambers were empty. Void of he himself most nights now, opting instead to go to his workshop or stay in his office. Sleep came seldom, whether it was the threat of Orin, the amount of work he had, or the aching sense of incompleteness in his chest.

As he sat in his office pressing on the reddening marks on his arm, he feels a sense of shame he pushes past. Shame that this behavior is ridiculous. He’s the Chosen of Bane, he should feel nothing about the death of a Bhaalspawn. But they plague him nonetheless. 

He woke up each day and followed Bane’s will, marched ever forward on the plan of the Absolute, to rule Faerun in his name. He took no time to grieve, he’s worked tirelessly. He’s shown no other his despair. 

This… this one thing he needs. Those final bruises on his skin couldn’t fade away. He wouldn’t let them. It was all he had left of them, and as long as they marked his skin, his Bhaalspawn wasn’t entirely gone. 

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My AO3: Lykao

#enver gortash #lord enver gortash #gortash #lord gortash #durge x gortash #durgetash #baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 gortash #gortash x durge #dark urge x gortash #fanfic

[whathebeep]

Y'all I need some GortashxDark urge stuff right NOW so here's my rabbles under the cut - spoilers for sure, this is gonna be about their relationship prior to BG3

Is this heavily based on my dark urge, Nyx? 100% I love her evil ass (if anyone else is dealing with the durgetash brainrot DM me asap)

-They are SO fucking toxic to each other but I love it

-Durge 100% fantasizes about murdering him- to the extent she takes on a little fixation of killing people who look just like him. She gets sloppy with some of them- leaves their bodies out to be found, narrowly escaped getting caught, so on- and Gortash absolutely takes notice. He's absolutely flattered, as twisted as it is

-Durge doesn't /do/ romance. Not that she hasn't in the past but love and lust are exclusive for when she's murdering. So when she feels these things towards Gortash, she hates it- which feeds into her fixation on killing people who look like him.

-nothing physical/romantic happened between them until after the first heist into the museum to steal back the bhaal relics.

-They both flirt with each other like they're the cats and the other is the mouse- it's a power struggle, and something about this dance makes them both certainly like it a lot more.

-When they first met it was because Durge was instructed to form the alliance by her father. Gortash was expecting her, as he was also told his best way to a tyrannical reign over the city was with an alliance amongst other chosen. She killed one of his black hands and infiltrated his study in disguise, and he didn't realize until her blade was in his desk.

-For the alliance Durge would kill in both Bhaal and Bane's name- murder and blood spilt for her father, and political rivals sliced down to make way for Gortash. Between this and the murders she commits of men in who look like him, Gortash sees it as worship in a way, and he loves it

-There is 1000% a time when Gortash and Durge see each other at an important event. A gala/ball of sorts, their eyes lock from across the room type vibe- and Gortash seethes with jealousy when he sees her dancing with some random noble. Of course he learns Durge was doing it to get close to the noble to murder them, but he truly becomes possessive of Durge after this. HIS favourite assassin, after all

-durge threatens to kill him in many ways- to gouge out his eyes, to slice open his stomach and stretch out his innards, to strangle him, etc etc and he loves it

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #enver gortash #bg3 gortash #lord enver gortash #bg3 durge #durge #durgetash #dark urge #nyx

[enduringmoth]

If it’s not too much to ask and if u weren’t already planning on it, I’d love to hear that secondary post about the consequences of the party’s actions regarding Durge’s reveal 👀👀 the first post rly resonated with me and honestly I’m a little obsessed with the idea of what drastic actions a redeemed!urge might take in the face of rejection,,, it was a rly interesting read nonetheless!

hello there!! i'm happy to talk a little more about it, absolutely! ^^

for those who didn't peep at the tags of my last post, in which i discussed how painful it must be to a seeking-redemption durge to be so heavily rejected by the party, i wrote in the tags:

this might not be exactly what you were looking for but i will do my best!

at the absolute least, i believe the minimum consequences of this interaction involve durge shutting down and withdrawing from most of the group. thinking in particular of my seeking-redemption durge, asha, she carries guilt interwoven with resentment -- she knows she has done wrong and that she deserves to bare the brunt of their rage, but she is also so furious with the idea that these people do not know how much she has done for them since waking up in that pod.

how many urges has she squashed? how many easy kills has she passed up on? does anyone other than gale (her romance interest) even begin to comprehend how painful it was to resist killing isobel, killing gale himself, and yet she did it anyway? because it was the right thing to do?

and yet here, when they all learn the truth -- durge included! they have fucking amnesia! -- it's almost like not a soul left there cares that they've clawed and fought and bled for the entire party at every point.

i think a lot about the dialogue durge has with astarion the morning after realizing they're a bhaalspawn. of all of the companions, he is the only person to realize something is wrong from minute one, and he asks about their sleep and their weights they carry. he then proceeds to empathize with durge, saying they are alike, and that he believes they will succeed.

and yet it seems no one else in the party feels the same, and that has to be agonizingly isolating for durge.

now, onto gortash.

at this point in act 3, the durge has (likely) found the prayer for forgiveness in balthazar's lab in act 2. this scrap of their past lets them know enver gortash was a source of tension in their following of bhaal, enough that they are begging for forgiveness from their father over their admiration and fondness for him.

for us durgetash enjoyers, this is a romantic entanglement. for those who do not see their relationship as romantic, it's still a clear platonic attachment for durge that shook their faith in bhaal's plans.

the people who have traveled with the durge for weeks are (seemingly) regretting that decision, and blaming them for things they cannot recall doing. enver gortash greets them like a friend, offers them a metaphorical and literal hand, reaching out to them when others are pulling away.

at minimum, it creates tension. gortash is "bad" and their party members are "good", right? certainly the durge cannot go on to support gortash in damning the world when that's the "wrong" thing to do -- right?

and yet.

if even those who the durge may have started to believe should be able to understand and accept them, due to having similar-enough struggles in their own past with domineering patrons/gods/masters -- if even they cannot understand, what hope is there for anyone else in the world besides enver gortash offering them that same acceptance?

why save a world that cannot and will not open its arms to you?

thusly, the next step is for the durge to minimum consider what gortash is offering. for me, the durge is most likely to kill orin before gortash anyway, so the first steps here are simple.

depending on how the party continues to respond, the wedge may deepen or back out. depending on how the durge continues to be exposed to enver gortash, they may be more drawn into him or pushed away.

another step up (or down, as it were) would involve who orin kidnaps. we know that she may take gale, halsin or lae'zel, or take the child, yenna.

a particularly bitter durge might let them die. why waste their breath on someone who could not find it in their heart to forgive them?

we proceed apace. i know it's (huge spoilers ahead) canon that gortash is slain by the netherbrain. but if we pretend that that can be avoided one way or another, i believe the second-to-most-nuclear option here is the durge taking over the world with gortash as he originally suggested. in turn, choosing to reject redemption (largely, considering they are still sparing gortash and bhaal wants everyone dead) purely because the party could not see them as redeemable.

(and let's not even get STARTED on how this would involve killing astarion too, the one party member who even got close to seeing her, because the pain drowned out his love too entirely.)

the most nuclear, of course, would be the durge deciding they could not even trust gortash, and instead killing him and embracing bhaal entirely, drowning the entire world in blood as bhaal would have wanted.

now, the bittersweet twist on all of this would be something of a happy ending with a redeemed gortash twist, as so many of us love. perhaps the wedge drives them closer to gortash, but along the way the party is able to prove their willingness to support and accept the durge. but now durge is tangled up in enver, and the only path forward, it seems, is to attempt to free both the chosen of bhaal and the chosen of bane from their masters.

(essentially the consequences of their semi-betrayal being that durge gets in too deep with gortash and they (read: karlach, mostly) have to accept that, but they all live happily ever after because the power of friendship yadda yadda-- my durgetash brain needs a crumb of fluff now and then.)

anyway, this is as disjointed as my sanity but i do hope you got some enjoyment out of it!

#durgetash #dark urge #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #enver gortash #asks #anonymous #moth approves #i just have many thoughts ok???? many #bg3 spoilers 4585656

[thywheelof-fate]

swears with an upraised hand (this is not enough)

swears with an upright hand (this is not enough) on ao3

Pairing: Dark Urge/Enver Gortash, Dark Urge/Astarion (background)

Rating: Explicit

Tags: Rough Sex, Knifeplay (Gauntlets), Bloodplay, Light BDSM, Biting, Office Sex

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If you’re so determined to learn about your past, why don’t we make another deal? “What do you want?” Lennox arched an eyebrow. “You already have my soul. Probably.” Oh, if only. My proposal: I show you a snippet, and all you have to do is keep your mouth shut about it. I’ll even sweeten the deal and show you something you can get back after all this nonsense. It’s a deal that appears to be tilted heavily in Lennox’s favor, which made it all the more suspicious. “I’m guessing this won’t be a useful memory at all.” Usefulness is subjective. I think you might enjoy it. But perhaps you’d rather stew in ignorance.

Lennox slowly learns about what being a warlock means and the creature who holds the other end of his pact. An offer to experience one of his forgotten memories gives him a chance to learn about the person he was outside of killing. But who was Enver, and why was Lennox hooking up with him in his office?

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This is the promised rewrite and extension of my fic of the same name, which can be read here

It still remains a piece focused on the fact that Lennox is a warlock, but fleshes out his relationship with some of the other companions and his patron more. I also wanted to explore Durgetash in a slightly meta way by having Lennox play voyeur to his own memories- who does he assume Enver is to him, when the context of their history is stripped away, but their own sort of affection remains?

I'm a bit out of practice of writing smut, so the Prodigal Son series has been an unintentional opprotunity to flex that muscle, haha. I'll probably alternate between pre-canon and canon timeline works, so my next project is aiming to have Durgetash exploring each other's bodies as Chosen of Bane and Bhaal.

There are little things I want to write about my fics, but I don't know if meta analysis on my own fanfiction is a bit too self-indulgent. Vague textposts I make is probably me hunching over my keyboard and mumbling about the motifs of it all.

Comments/kudos/asks are always welcome :)

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#oc: lennox amafete #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #the dark urge #enver gortash #the dark urge x enver gortash #durgetash #fanfic

[kittlesandbugs]

Fanfic Writer Questions

Tagged by @sidestepping & @askweisswolf, ty for thinking of me!!!

1. How many works do you have on AO3? 62, but if you unstack the one shot compilations... 138ish? if I can math right.

2. What's your total AO3 word count? 119,010, and the bulk is FHR lol

3. What fandoms do you write for? Currently Baldur's Gate 3 and Fallen Hero, previously TWC, Dragon Age, Mass Effect/Andromeda, Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic 2

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Gonna cheat a little and do one per fandom because this is heavily slated towards Mass Effect Andromeda just from age lol

Sleep it off - Mass Effect, Shepard/Aria T'Loak, Shep gets drunk at Purgatory and Aria babysits her

Little steps to the side - FHR, Chargestep/Argentstep/Chargentstep, currently 55? little one-shot fics, usually prompts, sometimes tiny ideas I get in my own head

Space snippets - Mass Effect Andromeda, Jaal/Ryder, a few prompt one-shots that picked up big steam when it finally went Explicit lol.

Bottles of Thedas - Dragon Age Inquisition, Solavellan, 20 short one-shots inspired by the collection of booze you can pick up off the ground throughout the game (minus the Warden mixes)

Business and Pleasure - Star Wars Knights of the Old Republic 2, Exile/Luxa, a re-write/better ending for Luxa gift fic for an exchange

5. Do you respond to comments? I am absolutely terrible at responding to comments because I see them in my inbox and I'm like oh yeah I'll reply to that later when I have time and then.... six months go by... the shame happens... I love every comment I get and I am so sorry alkdsfjoajsdfl

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? Ehhhhhhhhhh most of my fics are in-between things, not really stand-alones on their own. Probably the one I milked the hardest for the ending of it specifically is Words not spoken (FHR, Chargestep, Ortega visits Riley's apartment post-Heartbreak)

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? Again.... in-between things... the Mass Effect Andromeda and TWC fics are largely feel good fluff, so most of them?

8. Do you get hate on fics? Not that I'm aware of, lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Typically fluffy and/or hurt/comfort character exploration, although sometimes I feel a need to go for a whump

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? I haven't written a crossover since I was 13. I'm 37 now. I don't remember. It was pre-AO3 time for sure. XD

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? Not that I'm aware of.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? Not that I'm aware of.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? No, but I've written fanfics to fanfics by @ellstersmash and @sidestepping because they're both so talented and I Felt The Compulsion

14. What's your all time favorite ship? Whatever I'm currently writing for, in this case... any combo of Chargentstep aaaaaaaaaaand Durgetash lol

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? Me, staring at my endless folder of WIPs, some of which having not been touched in five years

16. What are your writing strengths? Character explorations, snappy dialogue, short and sweet and punchy

17. What are your writing weaknesses? Writing long-haul, we're here for a good time, not a long time

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Love it when other people do it! Very rarely do it myself!

19. First fandom you wrote for? Megaman X back in.................. 2000-ish? Very bad self-insert script fic lol

20. Favorite fic you've written? I think Time doesn't heal (FHR, Chargestep, all the Rangers and Riley experiencing the 3rd Heartbreak anniversary) is one of my biggest brain moments for writing fic, but Bottles of Thedas (mentioned above) has a special place in my heart for being the first and perhaps only large project I've finished.

Gonna taaaaaaaaaaaag... @astarien, @the-rebel-archivist, @gingerbreton, @rab-bitly, @catastrofriend

#meme #thank friend!!! #writers meme

[oogalaboogalabich]

Posting my current list of things i wanna draw cause honestly, id much rather see someone elses take on a lot of them.

Most of these are labeled under "degenerate art ideas" so take from that what you will.

Please feel free to use any one of these.

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- The Kiss from fallout. If you know you know. Bane and bhaal with a dead durge and gortash.

-Comic: Astarion in trouble and drizzt comes out of nowhere all heroic and saves him and hes all doe eyed n shit.

-Halsin and mr meadhoney. "Do you have a particular fondness for large and...heavily armed men, mr. Meadhoney?"

-Lucretious the necromancer and astarion dancing the tango together with the skellies in the back playing music."The dead are always such superb dancers."

-Comic: Lucretious topping astarion, bent over the stages edge. "What if we put you in my show darling. Im sure we could find something for a star like you...something youd love as much as the crowd."

"Youd make a spectacle of me?"

"In front of THOUSANDS who come just to see the most perfect beauty in all of the planes."

"Oh yes i quite like the thought of that."

-Comic: "Orin: you suck up the tyrants vapors like a babe sucks milk."

"Durge: tch fuckin yeah i do."

"Astarion: D:<!!?"

"Orin: *quinten terantino scowl that she does*"

-Vellioth as the "i yearn for the urn" tiktok

- astarion amputee doodles (thank you godey for that idea)

-3 musketeers quote "i love that in a man." "What. Passion?" "Violence" but ghoap or durge. Maybe make a version of both?

-when (doodly dude) hit me real hard that one night and my jaw rattled in my skull all nasty, but make it durgestarion hehehehehehe

-Astarion licking blood from durge in one of the pools of blood (idea from mignon scene)

-Durgetash comic of demon slayer masochism abridged thing with the lady man demon

- bg3 crew bein a bunch of rly cute parrots doin dumb cute things.

-same idea but theyre all shoebill storks.

-comic: "Mighty sanctum" bit, then durge pulls astarion into his lap and kisses him. "Fairly certain you would castrate me if i tried to fuck you right here like i want...im still not sure if thats a deterrent or temptation" but ya know...better written.

"bloody degenerate...unhand me."

"Let go of my neck then."

"No"

"Well then...")

-Mungojerrie from cats and astarion both comolimenting each others pearls and casually holding something they swiped from the other. Riumpleteaser and durge are snickering and sharing a look, while RT has swiped something of durges, durge is pulling out his/her dagger

- Durge/Tav painting astarion in gold, and feeding him blood in a hedonism date night. he thinks the gold paint is just for tav. But he keeps saying "i just want you to see yourself as i see you." And stuch things.

He leads him to a giant ass mirror and lo and behold, there he is. In the flesh. The colors arent there of course. Hes looks like a statue, but its still...its more than the statue, its more than a portrait.

-Lyrical comic of durgetash ritual by ghost

-comic: Astarion is walking with the gang. He looks up to see something and narrows his eyes. He suddenly bursts into bats, flies up onto the space he was trying to peer at and reappears in a panic. Somethin like....

"I was eight bats...how...fuck...gods how am i supposed to even process that!?

Astarion are you alri

"I WAS IN EIGHT FUCKING PLACES AT ONCE TAV I AM NOT ALRIGHT"

-comic- Volothamp talking to tav about a rat exodus from "a mysterious "red castle" " where their bretheren kept going missing. So they gave up the territory and moved to a "red cave" just beneath it, where blood flows even more freely.

Astsrion recognizes the palace, and remembers a time where rats were in such short supply that cazador had simply switched to insects for a while. Well with astarion he had, the rest had been treated to cats and dogs, in order to lessen the threat against the local rat population. Durge in the meantime, has an odd memory about commanding rats to find reconnisance if they wish to find safety with (fuzzy writing that doesnt quite translate to words)

-Astarions ascension but its happy with evil hugs.

-Durge reacting to the gnoll birth holy hells that was funny.

-Durge eviscerating astarion while he arches off the ground as if in ecstacy rather than pain. Theyre both laughing in wild, crying hysterics and theres those timasks spores everywhere.

-Comic: A -Astarion in the mirror frowning and looking distressed, even a little pissed in a mini panel, as he pinches a small amount of belly fat. Hes a very healthy weight but like 200 years o trauma dawg. Next pannel he looks thoughtful (considering that hes never had enough to eat before to warrant gaining rather than steadily losing weight), third panel he looks up in a catlike manner and fingertip taps his stomach near his hip. Very silly smug cat face meme feels here

-Chaste kiss canon durgestarion/tash vs nasty canon durgestarion/tash

-Comic of vellioth uncovering mummystarion from crypt.

-Comic of astarion fucking posessed n bound durge in the shar library.

-An archer in general doing leg archery. Maybe two goofballs doin it at each other with silly faces. I can see any combo of minsc and lazel and astarion doing this weirdly enough.

-spit/ blood exchange between s/a astarions.

-That moment when astarion is blissed out in the sauce under durge in the grove. Maybe a pov where theres drops of blood mid fall, and theres two hands smearing it all over his chest.

-A astarion sitting on bhaals altar while durge and gortash dogfight.

-Gortash with his hand inside a lasceration in durges belly, squeezing himself off all slowlike inside durge. bloody handprints everywhere, though some have turned to black sooted handprints. Theyre kissing all disgustin

-Slayer and a predator Shilouetted gwtw style

-Astarion getting railed by a Predator.

-Lazel getting railed by a Predator.

-Honestly just put everyone in every fandom with a predator at some point like fu c ks sake

-Comic of the superimposed cazador murder/thunderstorm blood frenzy xex scene from that one fic i never finished

-The king E x Ragnar bath scene but nasty. (Also durgetash?)

-Astarion with floorlength hair and dripping with pearls, looking a little emaciated, or perhaps just extra slender themes to the art

Two smaller panels where vellioth h it away and carefully styles it while figaros corpse lays in the corner. Vellioth should look younger but less pretty.

-Durge slips his hands into astarions back pockets (in this comic he has invented ass pockets) "butt"

He goes "no, butt." And walks away. Durge looks down at his hands that are still right there where his butt was. And he squeezes the air with a smile

#thats alotta brainrot #astarion #durgetash #enver gortash #tavstarion #durgestarion #art #art ideas #blorbo #plot bunny #bg3 #baldur's gate 3

[defira85]

On Repeat Playlist Tag Game

Rules: Shuffle your repeat playlist 10 times and tag 10 people. Tagged by @flymmsy! ❤️

Hmm. This is going to be an indication of how heavily BG3 has taken over my playlists because I'm looking at this list it's given me and like... only one of these isn't a ship song. No wait, two aren't ship songs, and of those two, one is still a song I use for writing Kass. So really one song that isn't BG3 flavoured

Tagging: @sithrightsactivist @angelicfangirl @thegingerjedi @mhara @darkfeanix @tiefighter @zeowynda @anarchyinplasma @maeglinhiei (Mae why will it never let me tag you) @meredoubt

It's Durgetash, it's Kass and Enver, I can't pretend that it's not. It's both of them mourning the lost months, it's both of them convinced they're the ruin of the other. It opens with a verse about corrupting an angel and dragging them down to earth, and yes it's Enver thinking about seducing a demi-god, but it's also Kass ruining herself by becoming Torm's valkyrie so she can fight Bane

God, I was going to say this is THE Durgetash song for me (and god the music video does a lot of the heavy lifting in that regard too) but there's still 8 songs to go so I can't promise that. Needless to say I have been known to put on a 1 hour loop of this song when I'm writing Kass and Enver

Insert Llamas with Hats gif "I Will Not Apologise For Art". This song fucking slaps. I've loved it for years. It's Kass and Enver

I actually got into Teddy Swims from some of his covers, I LOVE his cover of Make You Feel My Love and was hoping that would turn up but I do love this one. I have this one on Rhyme and Gale's playlist, Carmela and Astarion's playlist, and Kass and Enver. It is really good

Tommee Profitt is genuinely one of my favourite artists, and his collabs with Fleurie are always golden. This cover of Avicii's Wake Me Up is just haunting, and it turns such a bop into a song that will linger in my soul forever. It's one of my solo songs for Kass and also for Rhyme, because if I'm not torturing one of them I'm torturing the other

This is the song I had playing when I wrote Enver's death. I had Kass say "come home with me" because I was crying that much over this song

I love The Hu, and I've seen people drag this version because they think Jacoby Shaddix looks out of place but it's??? Fucking great? I mean my favourite song by The Hu is Song of Women ft. Lzzy Hale but this is great. I played it a lot when I wrote the Battle for Baldur's Gate scenes

This is it, the ONE non shipping/non Baldur's Gate related song on the list. Paris Paloma is fantastic. I play this on repeat CONSTANTLY.

This is one of my more generic 'set the mood when writing' songs, so it's not really a song that belongs to anyone in particular. Although for some reason it seems to come up a lot when I'm writing Carmela, which fits. Golden paladin suddenly confronted by the uncomfortable shades of grey morality in the world

THIS IS THE SONG KASS AND ENVER FUCK TO, THANK YOU AND GOODNIGHT

#Defira does a meme #also no pressure my loves #I just got on Cade's spotify like a month ago so I'm revelling in my new power #Spotify

[daemon-in-my-head]

The only reason I wanted to play Durge was because of that dialogue with the temple door I saw, specifically how Durge can be an obnoxious sibling and literally say Daddy Bhaal said its my turn gtfo Orin (I'm paraphrasing) but as an older sister, this line just resonated with me.

Fast forward a couple months and I have a blog somehow kinda just filled with Durgetash brainrot, multiple fics about these two fucks, lord knows how many WIPs in Procreate or PS and my brother introduces me as reformed Gortash stan. Idk if I'm insulted that this implies my Astarion simpling was bad or because my actual irl family (or at least one part of it) knows how down bad I am for a fictional villain and racoon man. He's met Gortash a while back, he's heavily judging me now, but even he enjoys some Gortass (yes of course I showed him.)

Listen atp my irl friends are praying I'll drop BG3 and regain a normal personality. Last weekend when a friend called me he literally opened by saying "I hope I'm not disturbing you while playing BG3". But I'm so sorry. Their little tragedy captivated me.

(Also I'm actually living my life over here. Grown as a fucking person thanks to my emotional support gremlins wtf)

#bg3 #enver gortash #bg3 gortash #bg3 spoilers #lord gortash #durgetash #gortash x durge #bg3 durge

[rinwellisathing]

Side character compendium for You're Awful, I Love You

Hey so of you've been reading my Durgetash fic, I realize a lot of the characters in the background tend to be OCs apart from the ingame NPCs so far, so here's some concepts for each of them:

The Siblings:

Jakael 'Jackal' Silk, renamed Jackal Shadowsworn when he reached the surface. Sentry's 'brother'. He is a Drow Bhaalspawn and cultist and the oldest in the group. He is generally ignored by father and considered a failure, but has excellent tracking and hunting skills and was a fairly prolific serial killer before his initial capture. His first kill was his abusive wife, who really more so owned him as he was the third son of a struggling noble house who was all but sold to her as an amusement. He generally dislikes Sentry, sometimes to the point of outright abuse before Sentry fully comes into his power, though backs off and falls in line when Sentry is stronger than he is.

Commander Gabraela is a fellow Tiefling Bhaalspawn, but older than Sentry. She is a middle aged woman who killed her husband, daughter, and Flaming Fist regiment in her father's name. She feels guilt over the loss of her child and acts as a protector to Sentry, using him as a surrogate son. Violent and vicious, Gabraela has no mercy for anyone but her charge.

Tomi Kisaragi is an enigmatic and beautiful Bhaalspawn who appears as an elf, but is rumored to be something else entirely. One of the more prolific killers of the family, she acts on her whims and flights of fancy more often than not. She dotes on Sentry and acts as a good big sister towards him because he does not get in her way and is more than happy to share hunting grounds if she shares materials.

The Previous Families:

The apprentices of Commander Ojeda were fellow paladin trainees who tended ro bully and abuse Sentry when he lived at the temple, they did all this without their Commander finding out. Sentry murdered them the day he left.

Commander Evagria Ojeda was Sentry's adoptive mother and the first person to show him kindness. She was a devoted paladin of Ilmater and a friend of Father Lorgan, who also treated Sentry well. Evagria was the only person who could ever make Sentry's urge fully quiet.

Lakhesis and Thanatos Mortis were Sentry's Bhaalist parents and were heavily abusive, viewing him as nothing more than pureblood breeding stock. They were his first kills and his first work of art. Their preserved bodies still hang in Sentry's childhood home.

#baldurs gate 3 #baldur's gate 3 #oc #durge #tiefling #dark urge #drow #elf #writing

[xanfeursel]

heard you were bored so here are some questions :) (i realized halfway through that these are all durgetash because those little shits have taken over my mind) do you like leaning into the angst of durgetash or do you prefer the more lighthearted (aside from the atrocities) dynamic? if larian dropped a gortash romance, is there any icks that would absolutely ruin it for you?

or conversely, what would be the best thing they could add in a hypothetical gortash route?

what were your biggest inspirations for lophi and vyper? do you prefer one over the other or are they equal in your eyes?

(hopefully you won't have to answer these since you'll get out of work soon)

HELLO ANON. im sorry to tell you infact waited till i actually got home to answer these because i have!!! THOUGHTS and OPINIONS about the questions asked . thank you very much btw these are all really good questions ill have fun answering

FIRSTLY, it all depends on the kind of durge gortash is being paired w imo. with vyper i tend to lean more into These Two Are Fucking Insane while w/ lophi i lean more into the sort of melancholic 'angsty' side of durgetash that i think can be real yummy too. and it's all because of who vyper and lophi are as characters pre-tadpole, too. vyper liked being a loud insane freakus while lophi was a lot more reserved and kind of a miserable mess, and that informs their relationships w/ the characters around them. i think both are good and fun to explore and i definitely like exploring the more angsty side w vyper x gortash and vice versa w lophi x gortash, so. i guess both. really. LOL .

secondly, going to answer both of the gort romance related questions in one, but i think i'm probably in the unpopular opinion that gortash doesn't really neeeeeeeed a romance and i could go without it in game. i do think he deserves more content and screentime, but that's something i can say about orin also, and frankly a Lot of parts of act 3. me and act 3 have a toxic on/off again relationship. alright.

that being *said*, if i was mr larian and i was to implement a gortash romance, i'd have it be something exclusive to a durge/evil run. or at the very least, have it have consequences with your party (i.e karlach leaving or something. love gort but i do not think you should go off romancing him scott free).

i Do think having it be exclusive to a more evil-aligned run would help add more actual content to doing an evil run (and god knows we need some with how bg3 seems to like punishing people who just want to do the evil options They Gave You) and would make the most sense, but all in all i'd just hope it's handled better than the mizora sex scene cause god how that whole thing is handled still pisses me off. hopefully this all makes sense

tl;dr, its a fun idea but i can very easily go without it especially knowing how the game treated its one other antagonist romance option

now for the lophi and vyper question... i do obviously have my biases towards vyper /looks at my blog theme/, but i genuienlly cannot pick favourites with them besides that... i use them both to explore different aspects of the durge origin in different ways bc despite what some other people say i Do think you can be very flexible w durge as a concept despite the pre-established lore for them ^_^ and i think it's very fun to play around with.

as for specific inspirations, lophi takes a lot of insp from vintage pierrot art + has accidentally gotten a very 1920s makeup vibe in My Mind. i should also note her name comes from the scientific name for anglerfish, cuz thats what i had in mind when giving her those freaky sharp ass teeth i always draw her with

and while of course, both of my durges are trans, lophi specifically was birthed from my want to make a dark urge that leans in as heavily as she possibly could in the whole trans allegory thing. so theres that as well!

vyper's specific inspos are harder for me to pinpoint cause he's much more of a 'made up as i went' character than lophi, given he was my First dark urge and i didnt really fully know what i was going into all this yet while making him (and also i was maybe a little bit high while doing so...lol) THAT SAID THOUGH, i did initially make him with akira fudo from devilman in mind. he has the horn style he does because it reminded me of devilman ... although the akira insp is very lose and barely effects his character now.. ~_~ despite bg3 being my main fixation atm devilman is still a very very important piece of media to me so vyper being loosely akira-pilled is not too surprising if you know me well enough lololol

#rev txt #THANK YOU AGAIN FOR THIS ASK THIS WAS REALLY FUN FOR ME TO ANSWER #oc:lophi #oc:vyper #long post

[daemon-in-my-head]

So, about the Tywin Lannister parallels, hear me out. Yeah, it's a long one buckle up. Also GoT/ASOIAF Spoilers tho I'm tryna keeping it on the low.

Tywin is deeply convinced he's doing the right things, and objectively speaking, he isn't even completely wrong. He did save and elevate his family's name, and he's constantly cleaning his children's messes. Was the red wedding a rather vile move? Yes. But did it also save countless lives from a war that could drag on for months, years, if not decades? Also yes. He's incredibly manipulative, and he's not above using the perceived weakness of someone else, like their children, against them. He already rose to one of the highest positions but he's still constantly trying to increase his influence and conquer more Houses, more kingdoms. He's pretty much fighting his battles with words and threats rather than swords, but he won't shy away from picking one up or getting blood (and gore) on hus hands if the need arises. And it works. He's a scary and yet oddly charming and a beloved villain.

And that's kinda like the BG3 Tyrant. Both Tywin and Gortash are beloved villains in part because they're so human. Because they're so convinced that they are doing the right things and once again, objectively speaking, they are. They come with a motivation that is oddly understandable because both of them do what they do out of a desire to be safe and protect rather than being evil for evils sake.

The patriars of Baldurs Gate were deeply corrupt with hardly any of them not falling on the lawful evil spectrum. Gortash's massacre was a win for the regular and poorer citizens of the Gate because their main oppressors had been removed. If you objectively look at what this man did or attempted to do, while still utterly vile don't get me wrong, his actions did have "positive" goals or effects.

The Steelwatch did strengthen security. Employing the Temple of Bhaal did reign in the murders and kept them to "useful" targets that were pieces of shit anyway, using the Absolute and threatening the gods had the effect that they took action for once, see Elminster, the Chosen or former Chosen in your camp, Jergal who's just chilling with you, etc. Did he threaten you at the Coronation despite being able just to stomp you? Yes, which was very nice of him actually because he so didn't have to. Nobody there would've batted an eye if he had outright killed you. Did he supplant and remove a different underworld organisation, namely the Knights of the Shield, from the Gate and its environs entirely? Also yes. Give him a few more weeks and he would've probably gotten rid of the Zhent and some parts of the Guild as well.

Is Gortash convinced that he's a Hero? Yes. Does the common folk think of him as one? Also yes, and once again they aren't entirely wrong, they heavily profited from what Gortash did.

It's this humanisation of villains that works and draws a fan base in. It's the reason why Durgetash works because it shows that this vile being has a very human side that is still very much capable of affection, similar to how the man that couldn't smile was known to do so for one specifc person. The patriars and common folk siding with him strengthen his image of a perceived hero because, well, he is. He thinks of himself as one and isn't wrong because people see him as one. It's kind off the Tywin and Arya ark, but make it BG3.

And the amount of people drawn to Gortash or Durgetash despite there just being crumbs is a testament to the great concept of the characters. They didn't go full out, and he doesn't need a proper arc like Ketheric for people to still flock to him. Cuz human villains who think themselves righteous are beloved. They're understandable. It allows you to emphasise with them, just like it does with Gortash or Tywin. A lot of people value their own safety and that of those they deem close or their family. Nobody wants to live being the laughing stock. They make sense in their motivations.

Bonus; if you know Tywins backstory it resembles that of Gortash quite a bit. 2 great power-hungry men who would go over corpses with the most significant parental issues you've seen in media. And both dying the most perfect but anticlimactic death possible.

#bg3 spoilers #bg3 #bg3 gortash #durgetash #enver gortash #lord gortash #bg3 durge

[rinwellisathing]

You're Awful, I Love You: Part 2

Part 2 of my Durgetash fic so far. Enver Gortash/Trans Male Tiefling Durge

'Chosen of Bane, Your intel is intriguing and quite appreciated. An evening of my company is really worth that? Come on, I don't believe that for a moment. You seem a clever man, so you shouldn't assume I'm not one as well. Clever, I mean. What angle is it you're actually working? Could it be you see myself and my dear little family as an asset on your dizzying climb to power? More intriguing still, if I'm correct! Speak plainly then and lay it all before me. I'm terribly creative and I'm sure between the two of us, we could be a force to be reckoned with.

Yours, Sentry Ojeda, The Executioner, Chosen of Bhaal' “Hmm...doesn't seem long enough and the wording isn't really refined, but then again if I'm asking him to spell his intentions plainly, it must look better if I do as well.” The Executioner, Sentry when things were cordial, thought outloud. With a sigh, he turned from the writing desk and stood, striding towards a large half painted canvas in the corner. A scene played out unfinished across the stretched material, not true canvas, but something far more leathery, of a hellish scene. A triptych he had been working on for the better part of a year. The sufferings and trials of the god Ilmater. Prayer books and books he'd had as a child lay open on the floor and side tables around. The god was depicted in the form of a tiefling, rather than the more commonly depicted human form and the scenery around him was tinged heavily in reds, browns, and coppers of varying saturation levels of The Executioner's special paint mixture. He regarded it thoughtfully before producing the vial he'd gathered earlier and uncorking it, selecting a paintbrush from atop his pallet and setting about detailing raw and bleeding wounds upon The Broken God. His walls were littered with former works, scenes of Bhaalist history including a portrait of Sarevok at the height of his power. One piece seemed out of place among them, a portrait of a serene and beautiful old human woman with dark brown skin, long grey hair, and golden eyes. She was dressed in the armor of a paladin and wearing a symbol of Ilmater. This portrait hung directly over Sentry's bed, though easily hidden behind the bed curtains if need be. A small gold placard beneath read 'Evagria Ojeda, Commander Mum'. Outside of the private quarters of The Chosen, the family was disrupted by the arrival of another member. The sound of bare feet on stone echoed, accompanied by the wet squelching of blood. The beautiful elf was the first to look up, a playful smirk playing across her pleasing features. “Ah, sister Orin! Welcome home. I trust today's hopefuls were less dismal than the last...or did you bring me a failure or two to play with?” She batted her eyelashes coyly, sauntering towards the pale figure. “Pathetic, worthless flesh-things unworthy of our father's gifts.” The newcomer sneered. “Well, not YOUR father, per se, Orin, dear.” The elf giggled, her lithe form dancing just out of reach. “Which of course is why darling brother Sentry is chosen and not you.”

The woman's pale eyes flashed for a moment. “The filthy breed-spawn forgets its place. But it will not be chosen when it matters.” “Oooh, careful, sister, remember what happened to the last sibling who talked that way about the little runt.” The male drow snorted from the battered and dusty seat he currently lounged in. “Not that I disagree or nothing.” He added under his breath.

“Yes, of course. I forget myself, slaughterkin.” A twitching smile crossed her lips. “It is the strain of watching these pretenders, unfit even for sacrifice.” The tall female tiefling did not break the gaze she kept focused on the changeling, however. Her expression was distrustful and though she stood still, a tension flared in her main hand, ready to reach for her scythe at a moment's notice. She kept to the shadows, however, eyes never leaving her quarry. “Now now, it is for your dear father to select his chosen, and our putrid prince Sentry fills the role most ably!” Sceleritas cut through the tension, a tea tray in one hand, which he set on the table nearest the lovely elf. “I, for one, can't imagine a better fit.” An ugly expression crossed Orin's face and she inhaled sharply before turning and skulking off towards her own chambers in a hurry. The beautiful elf giggled musically and sat back down at her table, dipping her porcelain pale hands into a round shell filled with warm, red liquid. The drow rolled his eyes and returned to an open journal beside him, pressing a lock of red hair onto the page and beginning to write something. The female tiefling breathed deeply and lowered herself to a sitting position, laying her scythe across her lap and beginning to tend to it. Sentry set down his brush and smiled with satisfaction up at his work, tongue slipping from between his soft lips to lick an errand splatter from his face. “This could be my masterpiece, it very well could...Just a few more and I can complete it...But” His expression fell and he chewed on his lip uncertainly. “But then what would I paint? Ugh...not a creative rut, I can't stand it!” He clutched his head and arched his back dramatically. His mind felt foggy, almost blocked. Tired. That was it, it had to be. He had had quite the busy day after all and it was late. The sun would rise in just an hour or so. Time to sleep. He slipped out of his clothes, his bare, smooth chest decorated with two well healed scars beneath his pectorals, which stood out among the many far more raw and tattered scars across his back and belly. He did not remove his pants, instead making his way over to the bed and wriggling under the covers. Once safely beneath them, he wriggled and kicked, pushing his pants and underwear off the bed without lifting the blankets. Once he was comfortable, he reached up behind his crimson silk pillow and grabbed a well loved plush dragon, dirty and stained with years of wear and tear. Holding it close against his chest he curled his knees and elbows to his middle and buried his head in the stuffed toy, closing his eyes as his breathing began to slow. His dreams hurt. They always did. The dark, cold cage, the hands groping and pawing at his flesh, the pain and fear. A time when he wasn't the most frightening thing in the room, a time when his father's family had had different plans for him. Sometimes if he was lucky, his dreams ran red and he remembered his escape. If he wasn't, the pain and the cold enveloped him. Tonight, he was awakened only by the sharp bite of his teeth into his now bleeding lip as he subconsciously bit back a cry of terror unbecoming of father's chosen. He sat bolt upright in bed and blinked warily before his eyes fell on his writing desk. The letter. Yes. Recovering those artifacts, spilling the blood of their captors, that would make him feel better.

He didn't even need to call out, Sceleritas was at his side in a moment, awaiting his orders. “See that this reaches that Gortash fellow we met yesterday, will you?” “At once, young master. Might I recommend the hand axes for this endeavor? Your beloved halberd, while fearsome, will be so cumbersome to wield in those close quarters.” Sceleritas bowed. “Hmm...throwing hatchets, perhaps?” Sentry pondered aloud. “An excellent decision, oh wretched one!” The butler clapped his hands together and inclined his head before making his way to the desk and collecting the letter.

#baldurs gate 3 #oc #tiefling #baldur's gate 3 #durge #dark urge #durgetash #enver gortash #gortash x durge #fanfic #writing