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some of my favorite replies to this tweet. happy lesbian visibility week!

#they're so beautiful #lesbian visibility week #lesbian pride

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Robert Wun Spring 2024 Haute Couture Collection

#ooooh I don't know which is my favourite #Robert Wun #haute couture #fashion

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Terrible week is over. I have an appointment at last with a surgeon. I celebrated by lovingly painting Gortits

#defira draws #I've gone back and forth on the colouring of the gold pieces a dozen times #I started with white highlights and currently am preferring the overlay mode to give it the yellow burn #but i might go back to an orange underlayer with the white #anyway I drew tits #that saying about how nothing makes you better at drawing than being a pervert about something is correct

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>>FORM<<

I am once again having a sketch sale! This sale will run until the 10th, so get your request in (via the form) by then if you want to nab one.

Rules:

SFW only

Minimal gore

Only Busts have pose WIPs

On completion, I will only make minor edits

If you have questions, you can DM me here or email me at [email protected] Thank you preemptively for any likes and reblogs, and I hope you all have an awesome day!

#signal boost! #get some good good art

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This is incredibly petty and pointless bitching about family stuff but I'm stressed and exhausted and it's making me miserable so I need to vent

So anyone who's followed me for more than 5 minutes knows I like to bake, yeah? Has seen my posts of my elaborate christmas cookie boxes or the multi-tier cakes I bake or the extravagance of my choc cherry brownie loaf and so on? Feeding people is important to me! I won't say it's my love language cause whatshisface was a weirdo christian fundamentalist so we don't believe in love languages but you know. I like to nourish! I want to cook people a big meal and have them feel loved and indulged!

My SIL is having her 40th birthday in May, and she wants everyone to come on a 4 day getaway which is just. I don't understand why certain parts of this family don't understand that people need to work (I do understand, the reason is money, this family has money and so they don't understand that normal people have Mon-Fri jobs that they can't just drop for a 4 day beach getaway for a birthday) but anyway, that's another rant

She's been asking people about the food, and people have been volunteering for certain meals and I've got my assigned meal planned out to the letter (a giant paella with fresh baked olive bread and patatas bravas with a mediterranean salad) and I asked her last night about desserts with the implication that I was asking her what cake she wanted for her birthday, because so far she's just put "icecream/fruit salad" on every meal

She answers "oh I've just got a brownie box mix we were going to make. Also a carrot cake box mix, we don't really need anything else"

Now I've tried to calm myself down by reminding myself that SIL really absolutely does not care about food. Not in the slightest. She doesn't understand about things tasting good, she just eats whats in front of her

But. But. I cook. I bake. I express love with my food. She KNOWS that. And I went to a lot of effort in November to make an EXQUISITE carrot cake for my MIL's birthday when we celebrated her life and the one year since her death, I worked so hard to make sure it was perfect, and she's just like

yeah here's a packet mix. Tastes the same.

Like, does she even care about any of the meals I make? Does she notice? Does what it expresses as a gesture of love mean anything?

I KNOW I'M OVERREACTING. I KNOW I AM. BUT I'M REALLY EXHAUSTED AND MISERABLE and it just hit me a lot harder than I was expecting it to. Just a slap in the face, you know? All the hard work I do, all the love I pour into it, it's just the same as a box she bought at the store and adds an egg to

/throws away the recipe for the salted caramel and macadamia monkey bread I was planning

#Defira rants

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at 23 I have become old. I hate new technology. I hate apps. I hate facial recognition. what happened to emails? just send me emails. I don't want to download your app, make and account, add you to my password manager, enable two factor authentication, and verify my identity through sending a photo of my id and recording a video of my face just so I can access information that could just be emailed to me

all of that for what? so you can spy on me a little bit more? so you can sell me as a product? there is no benefit to me of any of this bullshit. I hate the future

#I will not download your app and also I hate you

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#Island Aumaua!! #although technically she wasn't The Watcher #in our canon she was the reincarnation of Iovara and @tiefighter's pale elf was the reincarnation of her brother and The Watcher #tiny fat aumaua and giant lanky broody ice elf realising they used to be siblings #hilarious AND tragic

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yeah I feel fine, why? oh, my hand tremors? yeah that's just a thing don't worry. yeahh it's a side effect of the dark arcane power boiling like magma inside my veins at all times. it's fine it makes some things hard to do but I get by yknow.

#using this next time someone comments on it

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sketch commission of the lovely kass for @defira85 !!!

#art for me #Kassara Bhaal #OC: Kassara #technically in this she would be #Kassara Ansuran #The Dark Urge #BG3 durge #durge #Baldur's Gate 3 #LOOK UPON MY GIRL AND WEEP FOR SHE IS DIVINE

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i need to catch up on lectures but what if I learned how to use blender and practiced the piano and read entirely-unrelated-to-my-studies papers and started reading a new book and learned how to crochet and took a long bath and booked a spontaneous trip and learned how to dance and went to the 24hr gym and became really good at chess and

#me looking at my cert IV medical admin I've been missing classes on for two years

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no multi option, agonize and choose, no results option, pick one to find out or scroll onward

#I read these out to mr defira and he immediately said brush and I've never been more glad I married him #I also picked the brush #washing my hair is exhausting and time consuming and then I have to take 40 minutes to dry it #genuinely sometimes I go weeks without washing my hair because it's just so much to deal with #anyway we shook hands in solidarity

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Hi! Just finished your fic😍 it’s so well written! I didn’t hope to find such excellent work, but it’s just perfect! I’m dying to know are you planing on writing more about Durge and Gortash? I very much hope so, bc i want more😭 Thank you dear author for you work 🩷

🥺👉🏻👈🏻

OH 😭thank you so so much! I'm so honoured and I'm so glad you enjoyed it!

I am eventually planning on writing more! There were a lot of scenes that got cut out of the story, to save on time or because I felt they didn't fit the tone of the rest of the fic, and I'll eventually get around to compiling them all into a fic or a collection. And that's not including all the other ideas I have for them outside of the big fic. I love Kass and Gortash too much not to go back to them

I'm so happy you liked my story, thank you so much for reading 💜🫶

#biggie-cheese111

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Tragically disappointed that the capsule in Stardew Valley doesn't hatch a blue space cow.

#oh my god #do you know how much less terrifying that capsule would be if it was just space cow #the first time I ever got the capsule was on a multiplayer with angelicfangirl #and we screamed and built a fucking fort knox worth of fences and concrete and lights around it #it still escaped #nightmarish #stardew valley

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What happens when the titan daughter of a decaying quasi-deity takes on the soul of an undead dragon and then pledges her sword to the God of Truth? You get... a big ol' mess of a girl. Or a corrupted aasimar-like valkyrie dedicated to the forces of truth and justice and a ravenous need to tear Bane into tiny pieces

Tea did such an amazing job with Kassara, I burst into tears yesterday when I saw her, and I cannot recommend their art highly enough. It genuinely was such a pleasure💜

sketch commission of the lovely kass for @defira85 !!!

#art for me #Kassara Bhaal #OC: Kassara #technically in this she would be #Kassara Ansuran #The Dark Urge #BG3 durge #durge #Baldur's Gate 3

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10 Songs Tag Game

Thank you for the tag @flamemittens 💜

This seems a little thematic lol it shows the direction my playlists have been trending lately and its all a lot of tragic feeeeeeelings. Couple of these artists showed up multiple times with different songs so I just culled it to be one for each

tagging my usual suspects @sithrightsactivist @angelicfangirl @mhara @thegingerjedi and anyone else who wants to come play

NGL I've had minefields on repeat a lot, its on my Durgetash playlist and I like to hurt myself

#Defira does a meme #Spotify

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Two reported deaths and three moving to palliative care today

Today is a rough one folks

#Defira rambles #cw death

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tiramisu am i right

#you are entirely correct