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#aesthetic

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Perhaps, a lifetime ago, we were soulmates. I feel it in my bones, every time I look at you. But my heart longs for another. Imagine my surprise at myself, a bhaalspawn who fell in love— not once, but twice. Everything about the feeling, even now, is so foreign, so wrong. I know it’s not what I was made to be.

Even though I’m not the person I was before I lost my memories, and maybe the passion between us has changed— you cannot deny that I care about you, and for you.

You cannot say that I’ve never done anything for you.

I’ve defied my very reason for existing for you.

#screaming crying throwing up foaming at the MOUTH. #durgetash #dark urge #enver gortash #PLEAAAASE can more people talk about how devastating it must be #to be MADE in someone's image #and then for blasted affection to get in the way. #love ... cursed forbidden love #poisoning the well #dooming you #and dooming him in turn

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"I have not teamed up with you because you were a bhaalspawn, but because you were you."

I have so many thoughts about this...

#durgetash #dark urge #enver gortash

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you're not ascending to godhood you're just dehydrated

#gale my beloved

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#gods favorite princess shadowheart #mmmmmmmMMMMM

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everyday i wake up thinking about the dark urge and gortash, bhaals assassin who resists the urge to kill and banes chosen, the tyrant who would share his throne?????? PLEASE what an insane dynamic larian i need more of them please im begging i dont know what you need me to do to get that but i am willing

#prequel game?? comic?? book??? blurry polaroid taken at 2am???? #ANYTHING!!! #durgetash

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good morning miserable women with mental problems

#gods favorite princess shadowheart #minthara #ya

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They really patched in another way to abuse my boy huh

#gun 908798 #FDDSRLIKJ SO TRUE #dark urge #astarion

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good grief and alas

#petscop #carrie mark #unreality 435435

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Uh oh! Bye-Bye! 🎁 there will always be a little part of my brain that activates when I hear the name petscop.

#carrie mark #petscop #horror 543485 #unreality 49385

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Hello! I just wanted to say that while I've only seen bits and pieces of Petscop (I rly need to watch it in full some time lol) I thought your post about Paul's transness was really well written. While I don't have the actual evidence from the series, I agree that gender is inherently complex, tied heavily to self perception, and can be affected in at least presentation by trauma, especially someone literally trying to make a person into someone else from the sounds of it

(this ask is referring to my post about the theory that paul leskowitz is trans & how marvin's abuse -- while it did not and could not cause paul to become trans -- warrants a trauma-informed discussion about gender expression and ptsd.)

aww tysm for this kind ask! i tried very hard to be as sensitive as possible with that post when crafting it, as i really wanted to provoke a dialogue but i wanted even moreso to avoid feeding into anything harmful.

nexpo's theory video on petscop brought a lot of people (me included!) into this fandom, and that's such a cool thing. regrettably, though, he also pushed some ideas that suggest some harmful things about transgender people and trauma.

the idea that marvin took an amab child and tried to force said child into being a girl -- certainly that sort of abuse exists, but it doesn't sit well as a "plot tool." similarly to how, yes, alters in a did/osdd system are capable of being aggressive/antagonistic, the usage of them as a "gotcha!" twist/plot device in media perpetuates extremely dangerous stereotypes.

it is canon that marvin was abusing his child, and that said abuse involved trying to warp their sense of self. trying to navigate that minefield in a way that isn't transphobic is hard, but i think it's possible, and that it ultimately gives us a richer story when explained correctly ... unlike nexpo did.

i rambled a bit here, but i want to say again that i appreciate your interest and feedback! ^^

#tjodity #asks #petscop #paul leskowitz #paul is trans theory #transphobia imp 54382432 #abuse imp 458345

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This mans got me in a chokehold ahahahaaa 🫠

don't tell him I said that

#blood 3837376 #astarion

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karlachs!!!

#karlach

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he kinda popped off with this one, ngl

#house always saying shit people need to hear but dont want to #my favorite asshole #house md #ableism imp 384726

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Man really got hit with that Command: Drop Weapon spell and is now fully disarmed

#astarion

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Fun fact: I did not know Astarion had the Charlatan background before picking it for my Tav so every time they acted in-character they both got inspiration and it just became this

#astarion #tav

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Shoutout to Baldurs Gate 3 for having a magical girl transformation sequence but instead of a teenager in a short skirt it's a lesbian aasimar paladin in full plate about to open 13 cans of fucking whoop ass

#dame aylin #lets go lesbians....