#he’s literally completely alone

[caeslxys]

I’ve mentioned this elsewhere but it feels relevant again in light of the most recent episode. Something that’s really fascinating to me about Orym’s grief in comparison to the rest of the hells’ grief is that his is the youngest/most fresh and because of that tends to be the most volatile when it is triggered (aside from FCG, who was two and obviously The Most volatile when triggered.)

As in: prior to the attack on Zephrah, Orym was leading a normal, happy, casual life! with family who loved him and still do! Grief was something that was inflicted upon him via Ludinus’ machinations, whereas with characters like Imogen or Ashton, grief has been the background tapestry of their entire lives. And I think that shows in how the rest of them are largely able to, if not see past completely (Imogen/Laudna/Chetney) then at least temper/direct their vitriol or grief (Ashton/Fearne/Chetney again) to where it is most effective. (There is a glaring reason, for example, that Imogen scolded Orym for the way he reacted to Liliana and not Ashton. Because Ashton’s anger was directed in a way that was ultimately protective of Imogen—most effective—and Orym’s was founded solely in his personal grief.)

He wants Imogen to have her mom and he wants Lilliana to be salvageable for Imogen because he loves Imogen. But his love for the people in his present actively and consistently tend to conflict with the love he has for the people in his past. They are in a constant battle and Orym—he cannot fathom losing either of them.

(Or, to that point, recognize that allowing empathy to take root in him for the enemy isn't losing one of them.)

It is deeply poignant, then, that Orym’s grief is symbolized by both a sword and shield. It is something he wields as a blade when he feels his philosophy being threatened by certain conversational threads (as he believes it is one of the only things he has left of Will and Derrig, and is therefore desperately clinging onto with both bloody hands even if it makes him, occasionally, a hypocrite), but also something he can use in defense of the people he presently loves—if that provocative, blade-grief side of him does not push them—or himself—away first.

(it won’t—he is as loved by the hells as he loves them. he just needs to—as laudna so beautifully said—say and hear it more often.)

#critical role #cr spoilers #bells hells #orym of the air ashari #cr meta #imogen temult #ashton greymoore #liliana temult #this is genuinely completely written in good faith as someone who loves orym #but is also about orym and so will inevitably end up being completely misconstrued and made into discourse. alas #I could talk about how Orym’s unwillingness to allow the hells to actually finish/come to a solid conclusion on Philosophy Talk #is directly connected to one of the largest criticisms of c3 (that they are constantly having these conversations) #all day. alas. engaging with orym’s flaws tends to make people upset #it is ESP prevelant when he walks off after exclaiming ‘they (vangaurd) are NOT right’ #which was not only never said but wasn’t even what they were talking about #he even admits as much to imogen like ten minutes later! that he is incapable of viewing it objectively #which is 100% justifiable and understandable but simultaneously does not make his grief alone the most important perspective in the world #also bc i fear ppl will play semantics on my tags yes the line ‘i hope she’s right’ was said but it was from ASHTON #who does not believe they are at all and wasn’t saying they actively WERE right. orym just heard something to latch onto and ran with it #ultimately there is a reason orym only admitted that he was struggling when he had stepped away to talk to dorian #who has not been around and thusly has not changed once n orym's eyes #and it isn't that the hells never check in or care. they do. they have several times over #it is dishonest to say they haven't #the actual reason is that all of this is something He Is Aware Of. he doesn't mention it bc he KNOWS it's hypocritical and selfish #he says as much! #EXHALES. @ MY OWN BRAIN CAN WE THINK ABT MOG AGAIN. FYRA RAI EVEN. FOR ME. #posting this literally at 8 in the morning so I can get my thoughts out of my brain but also attempt to immediately make this post invisibl

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

something i've been thinking about:

Wally is set up as a sort of "main character" by the whrp. he's said in the site's description of the show to have introduced the main theme/lesson of the day's episode, and then the rest of the neighbors join him on his escapades. but then we have our first glimpses of everyone's actual dynamics and characters through the audios and you look at Wally and its like

first of all, thats an npc. second, nearly everybody else has severe main character syndrome

but its fascinating how Wally is just kind of... There. he doesnt talk much. he doesnt contribute beyond a couple of lines. its more like he joins the others on their shenanigans. he fades into the background. he's off to the side while everyone else holds conversations & leads the moment

Wally, despite being described as Thee character, is borderline background.

& whats even more interesting, within his individual secret audio files and interactions - he's almost chatty. not only that but the way he talks is more confident and faster paced. he's taking initiative. he can be kinda pushy. when talking to the qa/whrp/Us, he acts more like the character his descriptions portray. he acts more like a person instead of a puppet waiting for his next cue

I cant tell if - when around the neighbors - his tepid milk behavior is a purposeful act or if he's masking. and if he's masking, is it deliberate or involuntary? and in regards to both, why is he acting so different? It could be tied to what he's trying to accomplish. if he's trying to "restore" Welcome Home, it would make sense for him to act as he does around the neighbors - he wouldnt want to clue them in that he knows so much more than he's letting on, would he?

but then that begs another train of thought - what if he isn't acting or masking? if there is a time discrepancy between Wally's interactions with the qa/whrp/Us & the more 'official' audios, that could explain the difference in behavior. we could be getting glimpses into "future" (read: current) Wally, who's had much more time to figure himself out since we can safely assume he started out as a blank slate. we could be seeing a more experienced Wally than the one seen with his friends.

of course that line of thinking loses some merit when considering the 14 "bug" audios. or it could lend to it... if we're seeing a more experienced Wally but his friends are only seeing what he allows them to. it's still him, just... a carefully curated version.

in general it could really tie into the themes of identity and change and being other, to me. when you're so different - or you feel so different - that you can't bring yourself to be your most authentic you around your friends. when you feel like you have to hold back and be who you think they expect you to be, or what would be most palatable. most normal. will they accept you as you really are? there's always the fear and terror that the people you consider closest to you won't. or when you're so scared of change that you'll shove down & lock away parts of yourself so that you can keep things as you are. because once they know you've changed, so will they. and really, do you want to even accept that you've changed? what if that's what scares you most of all - that you're different, you've metamorphosized, you can't go back to the way things were because you yourself are no longer the person you were before. there is no reversing this no matter how much you try or pretend

#its just so fascinating #the whrp: wally's The Guy! #wally (with his friends): the most lukewarm dude ever #then he's alone or alone with home and its like Hi My Name Is Wally Darling & Welcome To Jackass *off-tune guitar riff* #bbg has ✨problems✨ #and like - im giving all of his stuff a re-listen to make sure im not misremembering or completely talking out of my ass #but his phone call? the way his VA is delivering the lines seems So fuckign different than in the shared audios #his tone is flatter. he sounds more sure of his words and himself. he Sounds like he's in control and knows it. #immediately going from that to a shared audio where he puts more inflection in his voice & doesnt talk much #and when he does talk its slow. meandering. his lines are more befitting of his audience surrogate role #which only makes me feel more like he's acting/masking (again: if that time discrepancy does indeed exist) #which - as someone who kinda compulsively masks around Literally Everyone no matter how much i want to Not - it kinda hits hard! #i suspect that he Is masking instead of acting. he's The Most Autism as we all know so it would more than fit #and that could add an extra layer if it's automatic and he can't turn it off. or if he doesn't want to turn it off #but also acting... a misplaced attempt to protect his friends and world? not feeling like he can share his 'true' self? augh #wally darling you make me unwell. i want to dissect you #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #homebogging #and then listening to his little record audios #he starts out talking like he does in the shared audios and then slowly gains confidence until he's speaking more like he does in the call #just. wally not being talkative in the neighborhood to the point where everyone's like 'yeah wally isnt much of a talker' #vs him chatting away to the qa/whrp/Us #of course it could be because he has to carry the entire conversation on his own #But. but. you can still carry a one sided conversation and be hesitant or awkward or um. missing the word rn but short-sentenced #brief? succinct? concise? #wally's fully trying to make conversation with someone he knows can't reply. which is interesting #so many ways to take that. well. three #maybe he doesnt feel listened to in his day to day life / he feels more comfortable and can relax / hes been alone for a long while #anyway there may be more ways to take this but this is all my tiny poppyseed brain can reach atm

[aureentuluva70]

The Lay of Leithian Part 19: Luthien's Escape from Hirilorn

<<&lt;Part 18. Part 20>>>

(Credits to Ted Nasmith, Robert Cornelius, and Elena Kukanova for the artwork)

#lay of leithian #leithian #luthien #tinuviel #daeron #silmarillion #tolkien #leithianedit #silmedit #tolkienedit #ok but the guards should have seen it coming the MOMENT she asked for something as specific as 'water from esgalduin at midnight #brought in a silver bowl in complete silence' like cmon you guys are useless #luthien literally tells daeron to his face that she was making a magic cloak and he's just like 'thats a little sus but sure whatever' #either they didnt think that luthien would actually try to escape(let alone succeed) or they just really were that stupid

[jankwritten]

I think that Jason has a stuffed animal that one of his guardians in New Rome have to him when he was a baby. A wolf or a fox or some other dog/cat-like creature - maybe even a stuffed hellhound or something, something that he rediscovers on accident while in the 5th Cohort’s barracks, something that makes him sit down on the floor holding it in his hands and cry, for some reason, something he can’t even remember but he knows was important to him once upon a time.

#pjo #jason grace #hoo #definitely not brought on by my own comfort object being a stuffed white rabbit I’ve had since literally the day I was born #if I ever lost her I think I would burn the whole world to the ground #but Jason definitely was taught that boys shouldn’t like stuffed toys like that do he just secretly kept his instead #I feel like he had 2-3 sets of guardians who would look after him and each one had completely different ways of parenting #which just makes him feel more alone and alienated because he was never perfect enough for any of them either

[ilikebobcuts642]

This will probably be a hot take but I will actually flip my shit if Dragona gets with anyone, especially Usagi. They better stay uninterested in dating till the very end.

#jjba #jojolands #dragona joestar #aro dragona #completely biased post #I’m not even going to deny it #Dragona is aro and there’s nothing you can do to change my mind #she literally says he and Jodio aren’t interested in dating #I say especially Usagi because the amount of people who saw Dragona reject him and thought they were in love is insane #character a could be screaming at character b to leave them alone and mfs will still think they’re in love

[vaguely-concerned]

I am so mad about how desperately into pan I am. he was specifically made to fuck me up. they dangled him in front of me like 'hey would you like to see a sad clown trickster with emotional intimacy issues and a heart of, if not gold, then some mysterious alloy with qualities not at all unlike those of gold at the end of the day?' and I went 'boy would I!' and now I'm lost. I'm on my knees he's like if reyes vidal was actually redeemable instead of just a 'release my man he did do all of that but I don't care' situation

#the way he seems so genuinely *delighted* by grace finding her voice and wants her to be able to make her music again #even when she's not the muse anymore............ what the fuck that is the sweetest thing I've ever heard in my LIFE dude #low-key grace's biggest fan musically at least fhsajkd #stray gods #stray gods pan #(this is not a slam on reyes btw the fact that he's unconscionable is part of the appeal in that specific case lol) #I went into the game mostly blind and from what I had seen I fully intended to romance freddie #and then... this bitch shows up for literally one song and I have to restart the whole thing before I even get to challenging a queen #because I now desire the goat guy carnally and I want to duet with him for the rest of forever thank u #also I don't think I can ever not romance him now seeing the contrast between what he gets up to in the endings #what do you MEAN if you don't romance him he just goes off and no one knows where he is. he's still just so alone??? no not on my watch #(if freddie is dead ( :( ) and you romance him there's an *adorable* part in the epilogue where he tells you hekate has him running around #getting lost relics back in a series of distinctly indiana jones-esque misadventures and it sounds like he's having the time of his life #if this is what it takes for him to actually talk to his family without anyone being complete dicks about it I must solemnly accept #the terrible burden of kissing him on every single run through of this game. it cannot be helped it's out of my hands now)

[olealoa]

made a big compilation of Evil Morty and Morty Prime SORTA being friends (along with foreshadowed friendship). im not too keen on how tumblr works so i have no idea if any of this is gonna make sense, but just bare with me. also, for the sake of not typing the same names a billion times, EM = evil morty and MP = morty prime.

first off, just to start, this is a little frame that always stuck with me. EM is the first morty MP has actually met, so of course he’s curious about another version of himself.

and next is the BIGGG video. im not going to force you to watch it, so ill state my thoughts on it first and you can watch if you want to analyze more.

PART ONE aka when EM lead MP to the morty room

- to start, MP is obviously trying to make conversation

- EM is keeping that together cold, calm character probably to both not be forced to elaborate and to control evil rick

- MP states his ideas of rick, showing rebellion unlike other mortys. EM obviously took this to heart, even if he didn’t let MP leave.

- that strange stare EM gives MP

PART TWO aka when EM talks about “sellout mortys” (didn’t add the whole montage)

- EM refers to MP as a “sellout” morty, which is obviously an insult

- however he states he can’t hate him for it due to most mortys being “bred for it”

- gives MP the chance to see his issues with rick more clearly

PART THREE aka when both call rick a liar

- not much to say, just that they’re both in agreement and they jinxed eachother which is like totally a friend thing (im coping)

PART FOUR aka when EM states how MP probably relates to him

- it’s true, MP has been “evil” countless times

- EM puts enough ideas in his head where MP’s relationship with rick truly starts to get more shakey

PART FIVE aka when EM offers MP to come with

- do i even need to explain? he offers to MP that he’ll let him come, completely unmalicious

- even though EM says that second seat was a toilet, he still offered to let him come nonetheless

- MP literally calls EM cool

PART SIX aka when MP “tees up” EM

- once again not much to say, other than EM making snide remarks to rick and MP being curious as always

PART SEVEN aka MP and EM going into the same “fighting room”

- i know it’s realistically what would happen since the two mortys count as one rick in the machine, however they were still paired up so

PART EIGHT aka when EM kills nice rick

- EM could’ve literally killed MP so easily but he didnt

- kills nice rick once he admits he was just going to use the two, once again not a lot to say but EM protecting MP and himself in a way

PART NINE aka “the worst turd is a pizza”

- MP as always attempting to engage in casual conversation with EM

PART TEN aka when MP steps into EM’s portal

- there’s not a whole lot in the beginning, just EM explaining to MP stuff

- EM saying how he “doesn’t care” if MP comes or not

- the portal closing on MP, causing EM to immediately open the portal back up to once again offer to let him join

- morty explaining his dork ass reason, EM letting him come with

- although there’s probably a reason, EM acting like he doesn’t gaf and then opening up the portal 5 seconds later just to let morty enter. istg.

PART ELEVEN aka EM and MP regrouping with rick

- once again EM acting like he doesn’t really care, definitely not letting rick know he gave MP a second chance to come with

PART TWELVE aka “rick’s cheering section”

- EM stating “WE brought ourselves”

- really giving MP those free will points, defending both him and MP

PART THIRTEEN aka MP using a rick prime bot to save evil morty

- i don’t think i need to elaborate much, MP literally saves EM

- does the two fingers salute to EM, probably saying “you can trust me”

PART FOURTEEN aka EM doing a body swap thing

- we really don’t know enough about what EM actually did to figure this out

- it could be that they completely bodyswapped and EM was just in MP’s body now, but then he wouldn’t have his wires

- either way, they swapped shirts, see that in whatever way you want, friendship love, sibling love, bromantic, romantic, whatever way you view their relationship

- EM thanks MP, it’s hard to tell if it’s sarcastic or not because EM is always flat toned

PART FIFTEEN aka EM blows up the omega device

- MP, as usual, trying to engage in casual conversation

- lets EM know about the pretty visual, really trying to connect with him

- EM states “THIS didn’t make us friends”, maybe implying something like “THAT could make us friends” in a future season?

CONCLUSION

im full of cope, im practically losing it, but im so certain they’re trying to handle EM’s and MP’s relationship in a way where they aren’t purely acquaintances. and although MP makes him attempts at friendship more obvious, and EM refuses to act like they’re friends, he has almost as many “friendship” like moments on his own. i really hope we don’t have to wait for another season to pass for EM to appear again, he’s become alot more vital, especially since the main threat that we know of (prime rick) has been eliminated. i know the writers are probably gonna be kinda silly and just make EM the main villain, however these last few episodes have been purely to develop the characters rather than the plot, and EM’s and MP’s relationship has so much potential for something fun. i don’t think something like the freaky mortys theory will happen, however there is a lot of room to wiggle around in and develop their relationship, because it will ultimately develop both MP and EM which is definitely what the writers are wanting to do. anyways feel free to use this video, feel free to reblog with your own thoughts and ideas, these are just mine!!

#rick and morty #evil morty #morty smith #rnm #rick and morty spoilers #morty prime #morty #morty c137 #rick sanchez #rick prime #i love them so MUCH #i will die on this hill alone if i have to #I SWEAR THEYRE GOING TO BE FRIENDS #pls pls pls writers don’t fuck up evil Morty #he’s like one of the last things keeping this show together #em and mp best friends forever bff necklaces always hanging out playing games they’re LITERALLY besties #also im pretty indifferent to the evil morty x morty ship #i am more interested in the friendship relationship but like #there’s nothing inherently wrong with shipping them #theyre completely different characters #also all good with the sibling headcanon #and ofc the bromance

[bipolarediaz]

so when buck in the dream goes to the diaz house and there’s a random family he doesn’t know living there

and then when he gets to chim he asks where eddie and chris are

and chim just gets stone fucking cold and isn’t humoring him anymore, because how fucking dare this random guy bring up eddie

eddie, who died alone, bleeding out in the street after he was shot, without a single member of his team there

eddie, who chim now thinks of the same as kevin, another brother he lost who he couldn’t protect, and now this dude he doesn’t know is pushing him to talk about him

so what then

#911 spoilers #911 #IF BUCK WAS NOT THERE #EDDIE NEVER WOULD HAVE EVEN GOTTEN INTO THE TRUCK #LET ALONE TO THE HOSPITAL #HE WOULD HAVE BLED OUT IN THE STREET COMPLETELY ALONE #honestly if he ISNT dead in the dream i’m calling bs cause like… come on #that’s not even me pushing an agenda that’s literally just what happened in the scene #i am going to Scream

[ywpd-translations]

Ride 721: Bottles!!

Pag 1

1: To deliver the supplies they're carrying, and their hopes, they're franticly chasing!!

Pag 2

1: It's too hot for this jacket

2: I'll take it off

Even though the forecast said it would be a little cooler..

Thanks- with this weather I already want to eat an ice-cream

3: It's starting to blow a hot south wind from the sea, suddenly

4: It's humid, too..... I feel the sudden heat of this season in my body

Pag 3

1: For the cyclists running it must be much more hard

Pag 4

6: The tempersture is rising higher than I imagined

Since earlier some people, because of the heat....

Pag 5

1: Got separated from this pack

Senpai, I can't do it- the heat.... my leg is cramped

Do your best, Nishikawa!

2: Senpai, at least take my bottle and go

Nishikawa!

3: I'm sweating a lot

4: And earlier I emptied my second bottle, too

5: Onoda's expression isn't showing feelings, either

6: “If the forecast was right and we're without supplies...”.... you're thinking that, right?

7: Yeah

Like this, we probably won't last... until the finish line

Yeah

Pag 6

1: Right now, the thing I want the most....

4: is water bottles

Pag 7

1: Straight road!!

2: Two people from Sohoku jumped ahead!!

What's with that speed!?

They plant to reach the lead!?

Pag 8

2: The guy in the lead

3: his legs are so thick!!

4: And the guy behind him

Pag 9

2: Why does he have his jersey on his head!?

I can only see his back!

Is that a new diversionary tactic!?

3: Don't think!!

4: Just pedal!!

Pag 10

3: Alright!!

4: I can see the lead!! Rokudai!!

5: Imaizumi-san and the others will be among....!!

Gau!!

Pag 11

1: Them!!

Pag 12

4: They..... they.....

5: They're not here....!?

Well.... sorry to keep you waiting, teh!!

Here's the supplies, teh!!

Alright, alright

6: I'm- I'm so glad, we were so scared our race was over....

Pag 13

1: Not yet, Rokudai

2: What? This hand

3: Is it to eat?

5: This is the second pack; Imaizumi-san and the others are in the pack that's even more ahead of this!!

Pag 14

1: Gau!?

2: It's not the time to eat my hand, Rokudai

The “lead” is further ahead

They've probably

3: already entered the mounains!!

4: Dammit!! We have to deliver these things!!

What do we do!! From the road map, I saw that this time in the mountain is a winding climb!!

5: My “straight road” can only move us streight ahead, so it won't work on a winding road!!

6: What do we do!!

Pag 15

1: Ah

Gau

2: Gau!!

I’ve been told I'm a “climber”!!

Gau

That's true!!

4: Let's go, Rokudai, don't give up yet

Run up the mountain until we reach the lead pack!!

Pag 16

1: Gau!!

Two people from Sohoku are moving forward!

Wait, what's with that speed!!

Pag 17

1: They're so fast!!

2: Hn!? He really is fast

Wait, this guy

3: He's faster than he was during the first years' race!?

4: I'm pretty out of breath, it's hard for me!!

6: I mean, I told him to stop being all “hyaa hyaa”, but

This guy!!

Pag 18

1: He's faster when he's pedaling without thinking of anything!!

2: I wonder why, but I feel like there's a bottomless  wildness in Rokudai

Gau

Teh

3: Alright, I'll name that “Beast Mode”

4: Anywa, this is bad, I'm falling behind!

Wait, Rokudai

Gau

Pag 19

1: Naruko ran away... I can see the first chasing pack

There's a lot of people

It's... nine people!!

Gooo!!

Kamogawa do your best!!

2: Sohoku sent one cyclist ahead alone, Naruko, while two others are here!! Two people?

Amazing! They're rock solid!

3: As expected, Sohoku is so confident

And there's Onoda, last year's national champion

He'll jump ahead any time now- Onodaa!!

4: Jump ahead...!!

Pag 20

1: Right, if they jump ahead now...  if they come together with Naruko now, it'll be the perfect battle formation

So why

2: Why aren't you moving, Sohoku!!

Are you too confident!?

3: ….. or maybe

6: Could it be that their bottles....

Don't tell me that it's the opposite!!

7: One person is jumping ahead!!

Pag 21

1: The man who inerited the name of the fastest man on Kyosumiyama, the third one of the Kanogawa Honda siblings!!

Honda Ryouzou from Kanogawa high school!!

2: My brothers' dream of partecipating in the Inter High

I'll make that dream come true!!

3: This Inter High qualifiers are held in Kanogawa, our hometown, so I feel like it's destiny!!

4: Honda from Kamo High is accelerating!!

5: He left them behind in a twinkle!!

The defending champions, Sohoku....

6: Aren't moving!!

7: They're not moving!! Sohoku isn't confident!!

#yowamushi pedal #yowapeda #yowamushi pedal spoilers #yowamushi pedal manga #yowapeda manga #yowamushi pedal translations #ride 721 #this is one of the funniest ywpd chapter really asdsfgdhgfhg #what do you mean rokudai completely lost his brain all of a sudden lmao #okay kinaka told him to stop thinking and just pedal BUT NOT LIKE THAT #hes literally the no thought head empty meme #WHY DID HE BITE THE HAND WHY IS HE MAKING WEIRD VERSES SDASDFDSGF #Also why wasnt kinaka shocked that he bit his hand- is that something that normally happens between them? #'now isnt the time to bite my hand' when would be the right time???? huh?? #theyre too funny this is so ridiculous and i love it here thanks watanabe #also 'oh no a mountain what do we do!' *looks at rokudai* :O #'ive been told im a climber' sadasdfsgdfg THEYRE A TOTAL MESS #WHO THOUGHT IT WAS A GOOD IDEA TO LEAVE THEM ALONE #cant wait to tsee them both in the IH lmao #also also #why are imaizumi and onoda's bottles already empty halfway through the race! #they knew they probably wouldnt get the supplies in time! so why did they drink so much! #naruko jumped ahead right away and is still ahead! they diodnt do anything yet! so??? #also that random guy at the end still has strength and water so.... why are imaizumi and onoda suddenly so dumb? lmao #are they now gonna pull a machimiya and ask that guy for some water?? asdsfagsfdgsdf #everything about this chapter is so funny to me i love it

[sysig]

One better (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #Blood #I knew going into this and it was still so distressing :'0 #Who needs plot twists when you can create such an intense sense of Dread #Probably doesn't help that I read this At Night In the Dark lol - actual shivers #Gods this was a hard scene to read - there have been several instances of my face hurting from furrowing my brow so hard haha #The way that ''Doctor'' is written is So skillful - I'm so impressed by everyone's prose and quirks and syntax! #Not to mention when he breaks character in a later scene to apologize for taking a bit to move the scene along haha <3 Play!! #It really does speak to just how much skill and effort is put into everything <3 It's so well done all the way around!! #Anyway to the actual scene at hand lol ow :') Drawing blood is always fun but I wish it wasn't his ;u; #Ugh the way he takes the surgeries is so well written - fear of course but a kind of stoic suffering as much as he's able to - #Until it comes to his eye #Ugh the /break/ of it all he goes from so eloquent - almost snarky and silly! Still trying to find an out make peace do /something/ #It all goes completely out the window he's so /reduced/ and nothing hurts worse than that ughughugh #For all his intelligence and wit and prior successes and charm and just - everything that makes him /him/ to be dissolved into abject fear #It's so sad ;; And so well done <3 #And he still holds enough of himself to know what he'd be losing wegh it's so sad!! He's so defined by his vision as most VUX are it's fjdsl #Zelnick is already gone by this point but I wanted to throw him in for extra sad flavour :') #Plus - I've mentioned his post-Op was one of the ones from the gallery that Actively kills me every time I look at it #Can you imagine my heartbreak to find out that he didn't have his Captain to comfort him after this in actuality? That he was fully alone? #''Are we home? Is it over?'' ''N...not yet'' - The Absolute Devastation of realizing that Never Was not really #Just tear my heart out why don't you ugh I'm fully bleeding out 💔 #That last one is actually meant to be Max but it's open to interpretation :) #I think it's such a waste that his eye was just disposed of! Someone else could've used that (lol) #I do think there's something to the idea of seeing what used to be a part of your body elsewhere - like the Leftovers! #Even just keeping as a memento tho - a trophy - insult to injury but literally #Just points to no one being special and nothing being sacred I suppose

[bisaster-energy]

Merlin but Merlin loses it when Arthur dies and instinctively starts a time loop and every time Arthur dies it automatically resets...for angst purposes it could stay tragic..no matter what he does to change the past kilgharra was right. no one can change their destiny nor can they escape it. or by starting this time loop at all he's doing is preventing the rise of the once and future king so by staving off Arthur's death he's actually preventing anyone from ever really living again. a never ending story with one character aware of the narrative but powerless to change it. a puppet with a brain but no autonomy to put it to use. A tragedy of his own making instead the one prophesized

#so that it doesn't work on the first try maybe morgana remembers and interferes or #maybe future Merlin is a sort of apparition that can only act if his old body lets him. he talks to past him like a ghost or demon even #so what he's saying directly contradicts kilgharra or gaius so present merlin probably distrusts him like crazy #merlin becomes another old annoying person in his own ear #who he doesn't even know if he can trust #OR he ends up sending arthur back by accident and arthur is in the past trying to fix shit #and this CHANGES something because now there's warnings of a great ending of all things coming for Camelot and by extension albion #and arthur knowing about Merlin's powers after keeping his knowledge to himself (cos he died RIGHT after learning about the magic) #finally understands the burden merlin had without having to try and understand based on Merlin's summary of an explanation alone #he understands morgana and mordred even nimueh like he GETS it gets it #anyway time goes on canon events are rewritten and the 'great evil' rips a giant hole in space and time and it turns out #future merlin was the cause. because he was smashing alternate realities to pieces looking for arthur is desperation #not knowing where the hell he even sent him breaking any known laws of time and space and reality consequences be damned #arthur cannot kill merlin. he cannot do it. not even for Camelot #so this can be angsty too like merlin loses himself completely in the search for arthur (paralleling the og timeline where Merlin ends up #singularly focused on Arthur's safety instead of his true mission) #and it literally swallows him and their entire known world up #or they get through to him. arthur AND past merlin. seeing that past him was able to diverge from the set path. live more for himself #than just arthur or for the sake of camelot be a PERSON outside of that. and have knowledge that he DID change arthur's mind. #not just as a useless deathbed confession but as something that actively changed and SAVED albion redeemed him of the mistakes he made and #proved that arthur is the man the KING he told every antagonist he was #future merlin sacrifices himself to destroy the black hole he made and it's like that future never even was. #just a bad nightmare you can't really remember. #just thinking about Merlin god bless #bbc merlin #fic ideas

[hella1975]

the closest ill ever get to being a pick me girl is the joy that fills me when the chefs at work so clearly favouritise me. like im there nicely cleaned up in my smart-casual uniform just a 20 year old waitress smiling my customer service smile and behind me spawns Scary Dog Privilege 10x in the form of several burly middle-aged chefs at least three of which have criminal records and would all stick a bread knife in someone for bothering me

#like it's really funny bc i worked HARD with back of house bc i knew my job would be significantly easier if they liked me #(it speeds your orders through. you can ask for things without being told to fuck off during a rush. they'll get you food on shift etc) #and also there's a stereotype especially in fancier places where floor staff look down on kitchen staff and i think that's shitty #so i was always going to be try with them and be nice but ALSO when i first started my job it was in a peak era so while these days #we're struggling a lot and have had to employ a lot of college kids that dont know what they're doing #when i joined it was all private school girls that would swan about the place very snootily. so the divide between front and back of hosue #was INTENSE when i joined. and there i was a little state school girlie and the chefs immediately recognised that #and took me under their wing. so even though the class angle doesnt exist so much anymore and theres majority state schoolers #im still very much in with the chefs in a way not many of the other floor staff are. and there's also the fact im not scared of them #like chefs ARE rude and a lot of them DONT like or even respect floor staff but i will GLADLY tell them to fuck off if i think it necessary #and that's a language they understand like ironically there's one chef that doesnt get on with ANY of the waitresses #(i talked about him on another post he's the soup one) but he likes me bc when he tried that rude dismissive act i told him to shove it #and now the other waitresses literally SEND ME TO TALK TO HIM when they have questions/want something bc they know he'll listen to me #and me and the head chef are besties and the one kp will talk OVER THE OTHER WAITRESSES' heads and completely blank them #so she can talk to me and it's all just really funny bc the kitchen staff LOVE me and that's not even me being arrogant #it's like a known thing at work that they love me and im just. a 20 year old 5'2 waitress with my little pearl necklace and blouse #and some tattooed ginger mohawked 6ft chef is there getting angry for me when i come in complaining about a table #or the kp that is literally on probation will give me a sticky toffee pudding and tell everyone to leave me the fuck alone LMAO #hella slaves to capitalism

[mightbesmall]

Neige The Monsterfucker???

Genre: Fluff, crack.

Character: Neige LeBlanche

Warnings: Mentions of monsterfuckers, there isn't any actual monsterfucking though. Just reader being flabbergasted and calling neige out.

Summary: In a world where the monsters are slain by the heros, you did not expect this outcome.

Additional Notes: I was told to write this by tumblr user spadewalker1, so i sighed wistfully into the distance knowing none could hear me, before opening up my notes and begrudgingly wrote this.

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Neige found himself in a woods, running for his life. He never expected that the creepy cottage would house a monster. Whom immediately threw itself at him before he could even apologise.

He only just managed to slip out it's grasp with a shriek.

Which leads to now, he can hear the thwumps of a body into trees behind him as he glided across the floor. He could see the trees getting less dense before he was body slammed to the floor.

Looking up through his teary eyes, he saw the monster from the cottage. They were snarling down at him as they held him in place with one hand, claw. He was shaking from fear by this point.

The monster leaned in closer, their breath fanning his face as their grip on him tightens slightly. He probably should be beyond petrified but he couldn't help but feel... flustered. His naturally rosy cheeks turning into a fiery red as his breath caught got in his throat.

The monster reeled back, a look of what the fuck spreading across their face. He had the audacity to look sheepish, flashing a nervous smile with his face still aflame.

They squinted at him before gliding a claw over his chest, clearly a show of how dangerous they truly are. He shivered, excited for some reason.

The monster blinked slowly before groaning.

"Oh great, another monsterfucker." They sighed.

His entire body was set on fire as warmth enveloped his chest, leaving him feeling embarrassed and seduced. They fixed him with a bewildered stare.

"You do know that I could kill you in a heartbeat."They stated, raising their claws threatenly. He swallowed before smiling softly at them, catching them off guard.

"But will you do that?" He inquired with a sweet smile. They stared for a bit before releasing a low, long groan. Grumbling some more as they got off him, picked him up and set him down on his feet. They crossed their arms, huffing angrily.

"You're so weird. I like that in a man." They declared with a halfhearted shrug.

"Oh.." He responded, becoming more bashful as he held his closed fists to his chest like a maiden.

They hummed before wandering off. He panicked slightly thinking they were leaving him behind before they turned to him and gestured for him to follow. He did so with no hesitation, how naive.

The journey to the edge of the forest was peacefully quiet, with him occasionally glancing their way not so discreatley. They were still a bit put off by him though that feeling eased a bit through their walk.

"Here we are. Go home little human." They said, bending down to eye level. His cheeks that finally calmed down became that strawberry red once more. It then dawned on him that he never gave them his name nor got theirs.

"I'm Neige. What's your name?" He asked with his hand stretched out. They huffed in amusement before putting a claw into his hand in a mock handshake, whilst introducing themselves.

"What a lovely name."

#twisted wonderland #neige leblanche #reader insert #fluff #crack #neige is like 6'3-6'4 canonically I think? #he's still a short king in my heart though #btw you can choose if you want your monster to be more humanoid or complete monster #if you want your monster to be an eldritch horror or some furry beast like the beast from the beauty and the beast #i wrote beast way too many times #i literally searched for fancy words to describe how you rizzed up neige but settled on seduced although it doesn't really fit #i wrote this at 3:16am leave me alone😭 #brrr’s writing

[wherenymphsroam]

do NOT think about leon struggling with identity issues. because he totally doesn’t. noooo way.

#he does because I’m projecting LMAOOOOOO (sobbing) #no but seriously #he went into the force just wanting to help other people #his sense of justice was so strong #literally tried to lock someone up in the middle of an apocalypse #refrained from freeing another prisoner even though his chief was likely dead #likely ​completely unaware to the rampant corruption both within the police force and the society outside of it #went through all that training only to have everything he knew and strived for ripped out of his hands on the first day #and for what? #to relive the horrors of that day time and time again? #he sees the same shit on basically every mission #fighting the same thing for fifteen+ years with no resolution in sight #he’s a victim of not only people greed for power but the governments corruption #how are you supposed to see yourself as a separate entity with a life and feelings and something to share #when all you are is a weapon? #when everything you are told you can give is your strength and your skills and experience #where does passion or love for something or someone else fit in there? #let alone appreciation or gentleness extended toward himslef? #yaps. ˚₊‧꒰ა ☆ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚˚

[morninkim]

In 1997, Metropolis got its own superhero, the first costumed crime fighter in decades, a flying man who would call himself Superman.

Later that same year, the Batman of Gotham first appeared, his methods much more brutal than the Man of Steel’s chipper and friendly demeanour.

A year later, in 1998, Diana of Themiscyra, the Wonder Woman, returned to Man’s World after nearly a century away, having aided the allies in the first World War.

Though the three were from very different worlds, their activities and efforts to make the planet better would usher in what many would call the Silver Age of Heroes!

#dc comics #superman #batman #wonder woman #justice league #redesign #my art #i've got a rough timeline for my version of the dc universe (i call it earth 101 for funsies) #which starts at superman's first appearance in 1997 and goes until a couple years in the future (2027-2030 ish i haven't decided yet) #its mostly just to justify designing a bunch of characters lmao- #ANYWAY #i've posted clark before but his suit is very much inspired by the fleischer cartoons + the classic suit with some homemade charm to it #goal was to make him look approachable and friendly - so guy in a sweater and undies works well for that #he's charming and goofy and a complete klutz #it literally takes him six years of dating lois to propose to her #(and even then its only AFTER starro invades and he properly realises he could lose her at any moment if he isn't careful) #bruce's suit is based on battinson's suit + the original suit from the 30s #i imagine he would use a gun at first but stop using it once he realises how fucked up that is of him - #after gunning down the red hood - oops! #he also wouldn't be alone for long - he adopts dick very shortly after dropping guns #so he can start projecting a friendly billionaire (look! he took in this little orphan boy how he cold he beat up criminals every night #when he's got a kid to look after huh?) #but ya - he's a freak and his posture's terrible from being hunched at the batcomputer for hours on end (he's workin on it) #diana was the easiest i think - i just wanted to basically redo her silver age design and do my own spin on a few of the details #nothing too fancy for the moment i imagine she gets a lil more ornate in future #but for now its simple bodice and boot-sandals #also HAD to make her taller than the guys i HAD to #so clark's like 6'2 and bruce is the same when he isn't slouching - but diana edging on 7 foot #she's BEEG #she's literally a living statue basically so y'know

[bumpscosity]

FINISHED PORTAL REVOLUTION A BIT AGO IM

#SHAKING THIS GAME AROUND #like ​THE ENDING ALONE- #literally day one and i already have 8 hours in it #portal stories mel has a lot of nostalgic/sentimental value to me so it's hard to get even close to it but porev did it #i only have 1 achievement left (fingerprinter) i'm gonna do it tomorrow im too sleepy to figure out what the description means #i was nervous stirlings voice would get annoying but he's PERFECT 0 complaints #i wouldn't say the puzzles are EASY (got stuck on quite a few of them) but they're simple. they're hard and simple and i rly rly liked them #sassy speaks #portal #porev #for the record it took me ~6 hrs total to complete and then i spend the other 2 getting achievements and generally just dicking around #and i'm like. average portal stories mel stan so i probably did it faster than someone who's only played official portal games #bc like. as much as i love psm those puzzles are BRUTAL advanced mode makes me want to die (affectionate)