#he is soooooooooo!!!!!

[lunar-years]

I am having so many Roy Kent thoughts this morning. Like, just how deeply lonely has that man been, for a very long time probably but especially the past year? He doesn't seem to have...friends? Like, sure, he has his fellow coaches, and he has Jamie. But it's not exactly like Ted's been in the correct headspace for most of the season to be pal-ing around with Roy in his free time, and Beard is friends with everyone and I expect has a million and one social commitments at all times, dictated first and foremost by Jane. We get the sense in the Chelsea episode of the sort of easy rep Roy had with the staff and community there, but also that he's cut himself off largely from all those good parts of his former life; clean break since the day he left. So by now, Roy's social life is fully just work and his 10 yr old niece...and eventually, Jamie Tartt.

Before he started training with Jamie, though, I fully think Roy was isolated and depressed as all hell, probably much more than he realized or ever acknowledged. Yes, he had the Club, and sometimes Phoebe in the evenings, but the rest of the time? Come home alone to his empty house that wasn't anything like Keeley's, and try to read his book, and make his dinner. Maybe watch some footie on the telly. Yoga once a week, if he's even still going, but in a way even that's lost its charm, because it's not like he can tell the mums anything, they don't even know who he really is! Try not to think too hard about how much he misses Keeley. Rinse & repeat. And the cycle becomes so unbearable that god, does he welcome training Jamie.

But even training Jamie, at first, is just...a way to extend work, isn't it? Work, work, work so he doesn't have to think about anything else, or linger on his own encroaching loneliness with the world. We don't see him and Jamie do anything but train until Amsterdam, which is the start of the breakthrough, and then until the very end of the season. Because Roy very stringently doesn't let Jamie into other parts of his life, even though he maybe (definitely) wants to. Jamie is part of work, not part of his personal life, and he forces himself to keep those rigid boxes up even after they've begun to bleed through. It's Jamie who has to push through them, slowly force his way in past Roy's defenses. And it's a good thing Jamie is a persistent little fucker, or Roy would well and truly have had no one.

And the whole time this is happening, Roy is forced to live with the fact that he's brought this all upon himself. He left Chelsea. He left Keeley. He's cut himself off from nearly every good thing in his life, and the worst part of all is, he can't stop doing it, even knowing it's made him miserable! even knowing he can't go on like this! He still can't bring himself to consciously allow Jamie fully into his life even as he increasingly relies on Jamie and their time together to keep him afloat. They're together all of the time, but for a long while, Roy won't even call him his friend.

Just...god, Roy is the most insane blender of fierce love and arrogance and protectiveness and repression and rage and self-hatred and self-sabotage and isolation and, and!! all the things he won't allow himself to have and all the people he won't allow to love him!! We wasted so much time on Shandy and Zava this season when we should have been cracking Roy Kent's skull open like a nut and examining every inch of his brain, me thinks.

#i need to write a character study of him asap tbh. no one sees how dark and dangerous and mysterious and repressed he is but me! #(jokes) #remember in Waterfalls when i wrote him comparing the end to his football career to an entire family perishing in a tragic plane crash? #in full seriousness? #yeah. that's the sort of deranged thinking I feel is happening in that man's brain at any point in time #he is soooooooooo!!!!! #also I genuinely think jamie saved him this season mentally. i really truly do. #ted lasso spoilers #roy kent #ted lasso meta #ted lasso

[mysterycitrus]

save me 90s tim drake with the stupid hair

#he’s soooooooooo 90s anime coded #this got flagged for some reason when i was adding the images so hopefully tumblr doesn’t screw around (unlikely) #tim drake #dick grayson #cassandra cain #stephanie brown #robin #nightwing #batgirl #spoiler #dc comics #the ask and the answer #msrt

[sunkissedlouis]

harry at the man united vs luton game 02.18.24

#harry styles #harry #*gifs #*mine #hlcreators #stylesedits #hljournal #stylesnews #hledit #he looks soooooooooo good oh my god #the baby quiff :') #ang bango bango ng babie #bub #edit: omg got the date wrong i corrected it + the other post

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

themthemthemthemthemthemthem-

#more of those lil requests i asked for a bit ago #the christmas one was so so fun i was delighted to finally draw ms. beagle being a total wingman for her son #and i got to draw howdy in a turtleneck again which is. one of my favorite things #i imagine that ms beagle will spend the whole evening trying to get howdy & barn under the mistletoe at the same time #oh my fucking god that would make a cute fic. adding a new section to my Thinkings doc #yes wally will be passed the fuck out in the corner after drinking too much spiked eggnog #jk he doesnt sleep #anyway hggggasncjasnclkask theyre soooooooooo ehehehehe yeah.... #i love drawing them Cozy so ty person for the excuse #love drawing characters comfy in bed together... i can live through them... #scribble salad #laughingstock #barnaby x howdy #howdy x barnaby #sometimes im sad. then i think about Them in a domestic setting and im cured

[marisatomay]

for some reason people can’t admit that they think an aging celebrity is still an absolute smoke show so they say the person “hasn’t aged” instead of just saying they’re hot as hell

#get over yourselves!! old people can be very hot!!! #look at paul newman!! #tom cruise turns SIXTY in july and he’s aged! he’s aged and like fine fucking wine! #jamie lee curtis is in her 60s and hot as hell!! #jennifer connelly has aged and eye am Looking soooooooooo #nic kidman sandy bullock annie hathaway angela bassett keanu!! they’ve ALL AGED!! still hot!

[overtake]

[x]

#he is soooooooooo much #max verstappen #f1 #op #red bull admin PLEASE stop putting captions over his face or RIGHT under his chin. i am begging you. #he made so many good faces that can't be gifed because there's words RIGHT OVER HIS FACE. who taught them to do that. it's so weird #shouldn't they be aware that if they want people to turn him into a useable reaction gif that gives them free extra exposure #then they shouldn't do that #anyway.

[vivitalks]

i'm sure this post has been made before but the "the list of people i trust and things i believe is down to no one and nothing" to "i trust angus mcdonald entirely" journey that taako takes in the span of roughly one in-fiction hour during lunar interlude reunion tour is so important to me. adventuring partners and friends who have saved his bacon more times than he can count? nah fuck em. organization that has protected him and given him a purpose and fresh start? new stone of farspeech who dis. this nerdy ass boy detective? "angus i trust you implicitly and here's the 100% exact truth as we understand it"

#taako is such an enigma. he's sexy he's unknowable he doesn't give a shit he cares more than anyone in the world #his relationship with angus is soooooooooo. to me. #stuff #taz #taz balance #the adventure zone #the adventure zone balance #taako #angus mcdonald #like also i know that taako says that first thing and then continues trusting magnus and merle and even barry kinda #but the fact that his verbal statements on trust just leap from point A to point B #within the span of about an hour maybe less and with like. NOT that much information gained in between statements #taako swift: i don't trust nobody and nobody trust me #taako 5 seconds later: o shit i forgot about boy detective. i trust 1 somebody

[gvaine]

5.04 Another's Sorrow

#look at them :)))) boyfriends #merlin #merlinedit #* #5.04 #gwaine loves him soooooooooo so much #his face in the last gif is just like. i kinda wanted to hug but yk what? #he has stuff to do and i respect that. i love him anyway. #merwaine

[wondercircuit]

"하이코리아, 쿠팡플레이 좋아요👍" (translation: Hi Korea, I like Coupang Play!") | happy boy during pre-quali, suzuka 2024

#lance stroll #*mine: video #f1 #suzuka 2024 #thanks @ my little sister for translation LMAO #distracting myself from quali results lol #he's soooooooooo #:(

[dizzybizz]

stuck thinking about this absolute little guy of an ouppy we're picking up next saturday

this one sorta broke out of my usual circle but if you want more of him i post about my pets under #mylittleguys

#its a 10h drive to and from but he #this was just to fuck around with some colors rly #and him ofc #my art #i keep posting about pets lol #this week is gonna be soooooooooo hard to get through uuuuuuuuuuuuuuu #mylittleguys

[godthinksabel]

Low quality Liam

#he’s soooooooooo 🤧🤧 #oasis #liam gallagher #liam gallagher oasis #oasis band #britpop #90s

[eonslice]

mwah!!!!!!!

#sanji looks annoyed but he likes it soooooooooo bad #my art #one piece #op #fanart #lusan #sanlu #monkey d. luffy #monkey d luffy #black leg sanji #sanji #luffy

[not-an-enstarrie]

#enstars #ensemble stars #jesus christ i hope i dontmiss anyone #eichi tenshouin #hiyori tomoe #leo tsukinaga #natsume sakasaki #wataru hibiki #rei sakuma #shu itsuki #kanata shinkai #keito hasumi #nagisa ran #tsumugi aoba #thanks mod arashi and mod negi for helping me cus i dont know enstars lore !!! #also sorry mod arashi i saved the image as a png before i saw you say to put nazuna in soooooooooo #hes here in spirit #mod hokutos sexy sexy dad

[jentlemahae]

MARK LEE @ GOOD MYTHICAL MORNING

#nctinc #mklnet #nct #mark lee #mark #nct dream #tusermlee #useroro #huh in my defence these look better on my laptop i swear #anw he's soooooooooo cute #he looks like a character from a 90s hs romcom #:o #mine*edits

[chronicowboy]

Eddie isn't sure why he doesn't tell Buck about Marisol. He doesn't mention meeting her at the hardware store, doesn't mention exchanging numbers, doesn't mention the many failed texting attempts, definitely doesn't mention asking her out—or, well, saying yes when she asked him out.

A month ago he'd know exactly why he wasn't telling Buck about her. Most likely because a month ago he'd still believe he and Buck were dancing around something, so he never would have blushed his way through an interaction in front of the epoxy shelf in the first place. But now, with Buck and Natalia, Eddie doesn't know why he wouldn't just tell him.

Buck would be happy for him. He knows that much.

And yet, Eddie doesn't tell him, doesn't want to tell him, wants to keep Marisol as separate from Buck as he can possibly manage given how they met those first two times. He just wants to have something that isn't defined by Buck.

(He already has the heartache when Buck mentions Natalia with that little smile, already has the fear of rejection whenever he asks Buck to hang out now, already has Christopher who tilts his head when he's confused just like Buck.)

But its impossible to keep anything from Buck for long. And really, he should have seen this coming.

"Eddie, that is so embarrassing." Buck is shaking with his laughter at Christopher's colourful retelling of Eddie wiping out in the school parking lot the other day.

"For me or him?" Chris replies without missing a beat, only succeeding in making Buck laugh harder. He falls across the length of the couch as he clutches at his sides and Eddie shakes his head from the kitchen doorway. "Besides, if you think that's embarrassing," Chris snickers, and Eddie blanches, "you should have seen him trying to ask Marisol out."

Buck's laughter stops instantaneously, his whole body freezing up, and the silence consumes Eddie whole. He swallows thickly as Buck drags his eyes away from Christopher to look at Eddie. For once, Eddie can't actually see Buck, not the way he normally he can, all he sees is the Buck who can rip his heart from his sleeve and tuck it back into his chest.

"Marisol?" he prods weakly. "Rosa's mom?"

"No, God, no." Eddie shakes his head vigorously, tries to get back on even ground. "You think any single mom at that school would say yes after the Monday fiasco?"

"Who's Marisol?" Buck asks without even a huff of laughter.

"We went and helped her out after we destroyed the house she was fixing up, remember?" Eddie shrugs, ducks his head to avoid Buck's carefully blank eyes. "Saw her in the hardware store a month ago, finally worked up the courage to ask her out."

"Technically, she asked you," Chris chimes in. "I have no idea why."

"Thanks, kid," Eddie sighs.

"Wait, so I can't date someone I met on a call but you can?" Buck butts in, a heat behind the words that makes Eddie's hackles rise.

"I never said you couldn't date her," Eddie retorts, trying not to let his frustration boil over. "I politely tried to remind you that you dating someone you saved never ends well."

"Oh, wow." Buck scoffs. "I didn't save her, Eddie. She had a scratch on her hand, I patched it up. That's it."

"Yeah, I patched Ana's hand up too," Eddie mutters. He glances down at Christopher and feels a tendril of guilt curl around his heart. He's already had to live through his parents' arguments before, Eddie's not making him do it again.

Eddie purses his lips as he retreats into the kitchen, settling back against the fridge to let the cool metal calm him down. He tries to sort through Buck's reaction, but it doesn't make sense. This goes beyond the protective instincts of a best friend, and it feels like more than just Buck's abandonment issues rearing their head.

Everything gets so fucked up when one of them dates. A mess that neither one of them thinks to clean up until its too late. To Eddie, it makes sense. Now, anyway. Now, he knows why he'd hated Abby's ghost so passionately, why he'd U-turned so sharply from finding Ali perfectly nice to a ticking time bomb, why he'd only hated Taylor more with every day that had passed. And, of course, Natalia who never stood a chance when she was hanging onto Buck's death and running away from his life. Because Buck would never hold a grudge, but Eddie does it gladly and without being asked, simmering at the side-lines.

But Buck's reactions never make sense. Not to Shannon, not to Ana, not to Vanessa, not to Marisol.

"Why didn't you tell me?" Buck asks as soon as the kitchen door closes behind him.

"I don't know." Eddie squeezes his eyes shut and tilts his head towards the ceiling.

"Were you going to tell me?"

"I don't know." Eddie sighs, knocks his head against the fridge once for good measure. He cracks an eye open to look at Buck. "Were you going to tell me that you and Natalia bought a new couch together?"

"I did tell you." Buck frowns.

"No, I came over and saw the new couch and you distractedly told me that your mom's couch was covered in Kameron's amniotic fluid. Which you also didn't tell me about." Eddie folds his arms over his chest and takes a deep breath. "Buck, what are we arguing about here?"

"Our girlfriends apparently," Buck mumbles.

"I don't have a girlfriend. Just a date on Saturday." Eddie rolls his eyes, and a sharp thrill of bravery sparks at the base of his spine as he looks at Buck. "What are we really arguing about?"

"I-I don't know." Buck frowns down at his socked feet

"Maybe you should go back to the loft and figure that out," Eddie says quietly, hating himself for the flicker of hurt on Buck's face.

"Just me?" Buck croaks. "So you know what we're arguing about?"

"Yeah," Eddie whispers. He'd been arguing with himself about the very same thing for years before he'd just let himself feel it. Its only fair that Buck does the same.

"And you aren't going to tell me?" Buck asks wetly.

"Its something you have to figure out yourself, Buck." Eddie bites his lip and shrugs. "You don't have to leave now. I don't want you to leave," Eddie clarifies, "but no more arguing. Not where Chris can hear." And then, Eddie thinks that maybe he should give Buck a place to start even if Eddie never got that luxury himself. "He's already been through this with me and Shannon, doesn't need to go through it again with us."

He leaves Buck in the kitchen with the first clue to this little riddle of theirs.

#sami rambles #i want to know how buck finds out about marisol soooooooooo bad #and how his bitchy possessive nature pops out when he does #911 show #911 fox #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie #buck x eddie #christopher diaz #911 fic #911 ficlet #911 fanfic #buddie fic #buddie fanfic #buddie ficlet #buck x eddie fic #buck and christopher #buckley diaz family fic #buckley diaz family

[ronanlynchbf]

#rereading trc while simultaneously falling back into aftg stuff by virtue of reading tsc and thereby transporting myself back to when i #was sixteen but it's fine it's totally fine like it's whatever 😁👍 #r.txt #anyway. me when – me when i – me when i'm trying to tell my best friend that i'm gay but i'm also trying to tell him i can take stuff from #my dreams and i took my now pet raven from my dreams like from my head i'm a dreamer but also that's kind of the same thing but also it's #really not but also it is bc it's an allegory but also that's not the only thing the dreaming is an allegory for and also i'm scared to tel #him like i'm terrified actually and i don't want to tell him but also i need to tell him but also he already knows but i don't know that he #knows and also i was goinggggg to tellllllll himmmmmm arghhhhhhh #this scene is soooooooooo like. like AOUGH. ARGH OUGH AGH AOUGHHHHHH #<- sounds of a guy taking minus xp damage with every word read of this stupid scene. he literally was going to tell gansey 😕......... #trc #ronsey #like i need 2 lay down. he came out there to tell him......the timbre of his voice being described as strange&initially unrecognizable.... #i read this part like. 2 weeks ago idk. smth of the sort. and i'm STILL thinking abt it....you came out for something.....when you'd made u #ur mind to confess but ur mouth betrayed you in the end......associated with secrets and guilt......MAN.....