Pairing: Wilbur Soot x Reader
I trace figures on your smile lines. Work a formula to cure me?
It’s hard to measure love, hard to quantify it, to see love as it is and recognize it as solid, as real. It’s easy to question it’s very existence when it isn’t promised at that very moment. What can count as love anyways? Is it shown in actions, in fleeting smiles, in pinky promises? Or must it be said, whispered into your ear, shouted from the rooftop, I love you I love you I love you. When everything around you is measured in actions, in dramatic declarations and seemingly endless tragedy, how can you find that love?
How can you call it love when it never seems to be enough?
You love Wilbur, you love him because of the man he’s become, and you love him in spite of it. It fills your chest during little moments, times you can look back on and times you sometimes forget, because the actions may have been inconsequential but the love you felt for him in that moment was important.
When he giggles after making some silly joke, and smiles at you like he’s sharing a secret and it’s something only the two of you know. When he writes something down, and does a little circle instead of just a dot when dotting his i’s. When he blinks before sneezing, his expression always one of shock no matter how obvious it was he was going to sneeze.
You know it’s love because it’s as draining as it is filling. You love him and it rips and tears at your heart, it swallows you whole. He looks down his nose too often at those he thinks inferior. He grows more reckless with his own life with each passing day. He wants to see what has hurt him burn, until there’s nothing but ash.
He loves you, you know he does, you’ve heard him say it, read his letters countless time. It’s written in ink on paper, it’s in the creases of his eyes when he smiles at you, it’s how he holds your hand. How he would sing and dance with you in his arms, how he’d go out of his way to make you comfortable, to make you happy.
But it’s hard to see when he’s grown so distant. Hard to tell when he claims his latest actions of destruction come from a love he has, for you, for his country.
It’s hard to see the validity of your love when it’s always coming up short.
Wilbur bleeds and he hurts and he destroys, and you can’t seem to give enough love to pull him back to you. You can’t protect him from the dangers of his own mind, couldn’t protect him from the fall out of his election. He loves you, but it’s not enough to keep you from hurting, from exile and it’s effects. It’s not enough to get him to stop, even though some part of him in the back of his brain knows he’s hurting you.
His hands are warm as he cups your cheeks and holds his forehead against yours. You hold his wrists and breathe him in, keeping your eyes closed as you sink into the familiar feeling of him, of his comfort.
It’s not sustainable, it never was. But nights like this, where it’s just the two of you, and nothing else matters, it’s still there. Your love was never meant to bear the brunt of so much war. It was meant to warm the bread you made together, to tug the corners of your mouth into a smile. It isn’t enough to stop him from planting that TNT, it isn’t enough to stop the pain, and it isn’t enough to last. But your love is real.
He holds you with his hands, and it’s real.
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Taggidy tag game 💕💕
Thank you my tin foil pair, @henlex 💕
Song you could listen to on a rainy day?
Day6 makes me sing into the rain and I can't read their lyrics because it makes me extra sad TT_TT (these songs and their covers, man...)
Song that gets you pumped up?
.... am I predictable? Hahahaha I literally listen these songs in order whenever I leave the house.
I HATE going out of my room and when I have to go to work or do errands, these make me happy 💕
Song that deserves a mv?
Need I say more?
Song that you could listen to on repeat?
Rap parts, intro, outro 😘👌👌👌👌👌 I'm sorry did I make you anxious?
Hongseok's part... WooYu rap... the whole fucking song... 😭
Group that you love their entire discography?
Day6 takes the crown 🥂 I listen to everything including solos and covers 💕 my playlist - when on shuffle - is like
Oneus -> Day6 -> Onlyoneof -> Day6 -> Day6 -> Verivery -> Day6 -> Day6 -> ONF -> Day6 -> ???
So many songs... can't hand pick ✊😔
Tagging @hyunubear @junquisite @emeraldbabygirl 💕💕💕
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