#grad school life

[legogradstudent]

Collaborating on a project with several colleagues, the grad student is unable to identify exactly what he is contributing.

#LEGO #PhD #PhD life #grad student #grad student life #grad school #grad school life #graduate life #grad life #teamwork #collaboration #group work #coauthors #contribution #what am i doing here #free riding #when will everyone kick me out

[vamptoll]

Thinking about when Venus Xtravaganza said "I would like to be a spoiled rich white girl. They get what they want whenever they want it" and every feminist scholar in the world (including the nice non-radfem ones) got ABSOLUTELY furious and Superior over it

#just the obvious transmisogyny of it on one level but #also on the level of just a woman who was murdered wishing she could have privilge was treated like a clown #for haivng the wish at all #the transgender complaint #grad school life #that too bc we have to read those schoalrs because it really is EVERY feminist scholar and It is a struggle not to mention it

[ravingxfxbrickxwall]

Princess Bubblegum really captured the exhausted, eldest daughter with religious trauma, an empath (possibly INFJ) who seeks academic validation and wants to save the world

But in reality, sometimes you have to save yourself first before you protect others

#raving of a brick wall #repressed emotions #conflicting emotions #eldest daughter #Princess Bubblegum #Eldest daughter syndrome #anxious attachment #infj #academic validation #imposter syndrome #grad school life #grad school #trauma

[atundratoadstool]

It’s such a trip to start a dedicated Dracula blog, to use the obsessive interest in the novel that I cultivate there to leverage my way into graduate school, to take some time away from said blog as life events and shifts in academic work drive me to other pursuits, and then--nearly ten whole years after I started--to return to find tumblr undertaking a mass reread of the book just as I’m entering the final year of my dissertation work.

This is such a wild time for me. I’m so glad to come back and find so many enthusiastic readers just... here. Gosh.

#Bram Stoker #Dracula #Dracula Daily #personal #grad school life

[dreams-of-klag]

#Graduate school #grad school #masters degree #Phd #Grad school life #academia #chaotic academia

[kaladinstormsblessed]

it is prelim defense day!!! t minus one hour and i am Nervous.

#grad school life

[thereadersideofvee]

here to dump my sad thoughts again:

I’m living with roommates for the first time. And now I’ll be moving out for three months for work. So will one of my other roommates. Now people are very vocal as to how much they will be missed and stuff and I can’t help but wonder is anyone even going to notice I’m not there too? I mean not that I’m much of an entertainer anyway but I’m a “presence” too, right? And if it’s this time when I’m just leaving for three months, what will it be like when we all eventually go our own ways to different cities. Is anyone ever going to miss me or my presence anywhere? I don’t think anyone else apart from my immediate family misses my presence back home too. Have I been such a bad person at making genuine relationships? I’m smiling a sad smile sitting in my room alone rn when outside in the living room, people are discussing how much they are gonna miss each other over the summer. It’s a weird thing, adulting and grown up relationships. sigh.

#grown up #all alone #grad school life #living alone #no friends #will anyone miss me #will I be missed? #I wanna be missed #ahhhhh #sadgirl #most of these tags are me being over dramatic

[mysteriouseggsbenedict]

lowkey mentally done with this term even though we have 2 weeks left

#grad school life #everything is fine my classes are good etc etc #just kinda worn out

[kit-fell-in-a-well]

God, it's really fucked up to have a background in public speaking because like, I'm sitting here unfairly judging people's presentations in class, and like no one is comfortable public speaking and you know you shouldn't be judging them, and you're yelling at yourself for judging but it's like a part of your brain that you can't shut off and the only thing you can do is never voice that criticism

#public speaking #grad school life #competitive public speaking will break your brain y'all

[scholarlyhobbit]

I'm in a truly incomprehensible graduate class on creativity, and the prof never spelled out what we're actually studying, so it's been a whole semester of arguing what is creativity, how do we know it when we see it, why does it matter, and how mental illness intrinsically linked to it, but in a way where "creativity" as an idea has lost all meaning.

I now get dry heaves whenever I'm told to "be creative" and cannot imagine "being creative" because *I don't know what it is anymore* and what if everything I do is just my PTSD and anxiety manifesting in weird ways and not actually creativity and what if what I make doesn't match my intent what if that's not creative but just mental illness???

I have an MFA, for the record. And I don't know how to be creative anymore, what being creative means, and if people praising my creativity in the past were just fetishising my trauma and illness because that seems to be all creativity is in 90% of the readings we've done.

This class has nothing to do with my dissertation and has fucked me up more than my whole goddamn MFA did. And I did studio art and ballet as an interdisciplinary degree, some of the hardest shit you can do.

I hate my brain. And I hate this class so much.

#my life #academia #graduate school #go to grad school they said #it'll be fun they said #creativity #art #mental illness #anxiety #ptsd #complex ptsd #just anxiety things #grad school life

[studybugaboo]

10.25.22

Tranquil’s Studyblr Challenge Day 9/10

Day 10 Q: When did you create your study blog or tumblr account? Why did you create it? Has the blog fulfilled the goals you've set out to accomplish so far?

Funnily enough, I originally created this study blog back when I was a senior in high school. That was around the time when I discovered Studyblr and that my love for aesthetics/moodboards/etc could also translate into academics. Creating this study blog for me was a way to explore that, cultivate an excitement/curiosity for learning, and connect with like minded folks. I’ve definitely ebbed and flowed on how active I’ve been, but overall since having created it I would say it’s been more than fulfilling. I’m excited for the way the online “academic” community has evolved to embrace messy learning, unproductive days, disappointment, and imperfect learners. I’m equally excited for all that’s to come 🤍

It is officially 48 hours until my Praxis exam!! We are cracking down on revision, I cannot wait to have it behind me and no longer have to worry about it.

Today I am grateful for: Unexpectedly getting out of my internship a little early, it’s funny the difference a few extra hours makes but it’s made me ecstatic. I’m at the laundromat now but I’m looking forward to arriving back home SO much earlier and having the chance to curl up with my cats 🤍🤍🤍

#tranquilfallbuddies #studyblr #studyspo #graduate student #grad school life #gradblr #slp2be #slp #cozyblr #study inspiration

[historian-in-pearls]

There’s a Last of Us ambiance video on YouTube with rain/thunderstorms and clicker sounds interspersed throughout, and maybe it’s because I’m deep into TLOU hyperfixation but I must have it on to study right now?? Like this is getting me through my WWII graduate work single handedly

#the last of us #tlou #elizabeth studies wwii #grad school life #july 2023

[vamptoll]

Oh girl no, everyone else for the interview project totally cut out all the dialogue and just turned in Question- Answer format. I left in every faggy pause and laugh. I'm double the length of the next longest, and 4 times longer than the average.

#grad school life

[hazy-siren]

11/3/23

It's windy and rainy, but isn't nearly as cold as it's been. One of my favorite cafes is closing today so I dropped everything to visit one last time

#diary #mypost #sweets #nature #flowers #march #food #drinks #scotland #mydiary #studyblr #grad school life

[atundratoadstool]

Finally got the nerve to clean up and e-mail my chapters (including the Dracula one) to my extra-departmental reader today. This whole Dracula Daily is really contributing to my ability to enjoy being an academic again.

#grad school life

[justsome-di]

was very excited the other day that I got a 100% on my first assignment only to find out that apparently instructors at my school mark every assignment like that no matter what

#grad school life