#good changes! but stressful ones

[galoots]

yoo how've you been doin?? any cool projects lately?

No 😭 I've been busy with work, my new partner, getting a chronic pain diagnosis, and starting T. I am doing good though! Probably happier than I've been in a long time.

#i do miss writing #my life has been changing a lot recently and things like this blog have fallen by the wayside #good changes! but stressful ones

[stuckinapril]

Growing up w no Instagram does SOMETHING to a bitch like I really get taken aback by how second nature it is for people to whip out their phones and take pictures of the most mundane things. Not because I judge them for it but bc apart from selfies, pictures w friends, and obligatory pictures on trips I literally forget to take pictures of my life period

#I’m not the kind of girl who’ll be studying at a cafe and thinks to snap a picture of my cute latte art #I’m never somewhere and go Ohhh this would be a good angle…. Like I just don’t do that #At first the way I rationalized it is I don’t wanna stress myself out taking aesthetic pictures but now I’m like #Compared to other people I don’t rly have proof of cute little tender moments #And one day I’ll be old and decrepit and I won’t have many of these diminutive memories still #So I rly wanna change that by being more intentional ab taking photos #And maybe sharing some of them SPARINGLY bc I want it to mostly be for me #But just making it more of a priority to capture little things I’ll look back on when I’m older #I think taking more pictures is part of my 2024 resolution anyway I just haven’t implemented it thus far

[moonlume]

tumblr said draw something bad so I did but I'm mad I still didn't feel anything

#man i started tagging this and i cant even bring myself to do it. hashtag art hashtag illustration hashtag capitalism. #sorry to be sadposting... tumblr is the only place i can admit ive actually been really really struggling with my love for art... #i should be grateful. i should be thankful for the fact that i can do art as my job. i shouldnt be whining about it like this. #but theres a hole in my soul where my joy for creating used to be and i dont know how to fix it. i want to love to draw again. #its been like this for probably over a year now and i dont know what to do. i cant abandon everything ive been working on for 7 years. #im also unemployable. so its not like i would dare to quit moonlume...but i just want to find joy in it again... #but capitalism has dug its wretched claws into my skull so badly that everything has been feeling incredibly soulless. i hate it. #anyway. might delete this later. its unprofessional but this is the one website where i can let go of professionalism for 5min and be human. #i dont hate what i do and i really am thankful..i just i wish i wasnt so stressed about making everything look good and perfect and sellable #but at this point its subconsciously connected to my survival that every time i think about drawing i stress myself out before i even start #ugh idk. neither here nor there. cant quit but dont feel connected to my work but cant change what i do or i will alienate my audience 👍

[ancientbygone]

and everything that's here is rising in tone and saturation it's an aching, it's a violence, it's a longing to erase the separation

a companion piece to Cicadas, of sorts. closeups under the cut:

#sleep token #sleep token art #sleep token fanart #sleep token vessel #sleep token him #bygone art #bygone beloved #eyestrain #eyestrain tw #ask to tag #this one took more time than i'd like to admit. i'm usually pretty quick with my art because i tend to get consumed by the process #but this time i was consumed by other things as well. i suppose it's good that i decided to take it slow #crywolf's new song (tenebrescence) inspired me to finish this. lyrics from it are also in the caption #also to stress it further this piece is connected to Cicadas in a way #same colors (in places) & composition inspired by page 1 & the theme is similar #Cicadas is about how every vessel is expendable and how there's always someone before and after and there always will be #this is about the change of a specific one. he was someone before and he will be someone after #and he'll be himself again. a different himself than he started as but himself nonetheless #it will be okay but it will be different but it will be okay #the intense feelings (good and bad) coming from your being someone else will go away but you will be okay and you will be you #ah fuck my eyes hurt

[coquelicoq]

i've been dying for a poll option ever since i saw my followers' answers to that text post from february 2022 asking people whether they pronounce beloved as "be-lov-ed" or "be-loved". many people were emphatic about only using one option, and many others use both but were not always able to articulate when they use 2 syllables vs. 3. so out of the goodness of my heart and my insatiable lust for knowledge i have gone through the notes on that post and written down some likely contenders! you're welcome!!!!

BEFORE YOU ANSWER! think about how you would pronounce beloved in the following syntactic contexts:

noun, talking directly to the beloved: hey there beloved

noun, talking about rather than to the beloved: my beloved lives in a pineapple under the sea

adjective in a noun phrase: my beloved x lives in a pineapple under the sea

verb participle: x is beloved by y

okay poll time! there are no wrong answers!! and apologies in advance if i didn't capture your truth, i only had 10 options and life is a rich tapestry!!

#oh man i could have easily come up with another 5-8 options but they cap you at 10. which is probably a good thing #one person said they say 'my be-lov-ed x' but 'my much be-loved x'. the only difference being the 'much'. couldn't fit that one on here #someone else said they use 3 syllables in a possessive noun phrase (my be-lov-ed x) but 2 if it's not possessive (the be-loved x) #one person said it depends on whether it's past or present & i wasn't exactly sure what that meant. 'x is beloved' vs. 'x was beloved'? #i also think there's likely a distinction for some people between 'x was beloved' and 'x was beloved by y' but couldn't get into that #oh and then there's 'beloved by' vs. 'beloved of' #and since some of these are syntactic distinctions and some are semantic or otherwise i'm sure there's a whole matrix of combinations #like '3-syll noun if it's a person but 2 if it's a thing. 2-syll adjective/verb participle for both people and things' #that was beyond the scope of this poll lol #but mostly why i'm so curious is because people will very emphatically say something that might not mean what they think it means #like for instance i got the impression that at least some of the people saying 'be-lov-ed when i'm talking to them‚ be-loved when i'm #talking about them' actually mean they use be-lov-ed as a noun and be-loved otherwise #and some of the people saying 'always 2 syllables' probably have exceptions that they weren't thinking of at the moment #in particular 'dearly beloved' #and i'm very curious to know if 3-syllable people still use 3 syllables in the construction 'he was beloved by all' #so i think people's answers might change when given a list of more detailed options #fun with pronunciation #prosody #my posts #also i stressed for so long about what to call beloved in the 'x is beloved by y' construction #but settled on verb participle because i think it's fairly descriptive and accurate #so hopefully that's not too confusing? like it is a verb participle but for a verb that doesn't exist anymore (other than the participle)? #and even in 'my beloved x' beloved is a verb participle being used as an adjective if you're thinking more etymologically #but a lot of people were distinguishing 'be-loved as a verb' from other forms and i assume what they meant by that was 'x is beloved'

[8bit-mau5]

Err I hate to have to make a post like this, but I'm low on funds for groceries and food stamps don't come in til the 11th of next month.. I wanna raise at least $80 to hold us over for the next couple weeks! Every dollar helps tons and I just need $15 to get the house smth to eat tonight.

If you'd like to help out, here's some links below!

You can buy me a coffee on Kofi [HERE]

I have 3 bust adopts available [HERE]

I have a P2U base available in my shop [HERE]

20/80

#8bit beeps #The last of my funds were given to my grampa for his job and to get my mother back to the hospital after a pretty bad episode #but she's finally seeking help today after months of this. which is very good! however! we are struggling $$$ as a result of being so #stressed that ppl here havent been able TO work. doubled with having to scrounge up all our change to get my mom her medications #as always boosts/RBs are greatly appreciated. i know a lot of ppl are struggling rn #but ive been so exhausted and in pain myself that i havent been able to make more adopts just yet TO cover groceries OTL #i might try to doodle up some smaller + cheaper ones on-base..

[finchers-ipad]

my brain is plagued with the thought of the narrator wearing glasses because of that ONE LINE in the book where he mentions having contacts. just imagine the narrator wearing these silly-ass glasses. I WOULD EAT THAT UP. tyler would LOVE the narrators glasses.

#tyler would think he looked so good with them on i cant stress this enough #if i could change one thing about thre film it would be for the film to be the same just with the narrator having glasses #the ‘narrator wearing glasses’ brainrot is real #fight club #the narrator #soapshipping

[artistdove]

Watcher Grian, a chaotic being that tries to protect those he cares for but ends up creating trouble regardless.

Once admin of the Evo server, he watched the server until it ended and now governs the Life Series server.

#my art #sketch #dove rambles #grian #watcher grian #he is one decent terms with other watchers but the life series seems to have change them #sup tag readers I've been stressed to kingdom come and my laptop is breaking ( ；∀；) hope y'all are good

[crows--den]

The ssum really is just "That tamagotchi is a whole ass man"

#The ssum #it's cute! #def more like a mysme themed idler tho. #you get a chat at the turn of each of your routine segments so you get one when you wake one at lunch one at dinner and one before bed #which is sorta nice it's not like mysme that you HAVE to check throughout the day #I'm assuming there won't be any real plot because like. 200 days of chat?? how you gonna do a plot in that? #no real good or bad ends i assume. #but my tamagotchi boys eyes changed color so!! #v exciting developments. #I like it so far tho man it makes me miss mysme #the fun of staying up way too late for absolutely no reason and the low key stress of the apartment bomb plot the first time through #I'm absolutely going to try not to compare them too much because they're obviously separate titles and universes but #the comparison is an easy one to make.

[13eyond13]

People hate on Light for many many (mostly valid) reasons, but you can't deny that he's so incredibly organized and so determined to handle most things by himself that being his admin or his receptionist or his assistant would probably be a dream

#this post brought to you by me being a receptionist for a couple of extremely opposite people #and the one who reminds me of light i find is SO NICE to work for #the extreme organization and planning ahead and clear boundaries and expectations my god #never burdens you by venting emotionally at you or changing his mind about things half a dozen times just makes clear decisions #and keeps most of his stress to himself #i feel like yeah light's scary in many ways but that when it comes to working in an office with him it's like #can't say enough good things about the guy he's just pleasant and reliable and responsible af #of course he might say something to you like 'uhh sorry all the receptionists look the same to me' #and there wouldn't be a whole lot of idle chitchat or lazy down time or being pals with him at work #BUT as long as he isnt a pain in the butt in all the other ways then we'd be good lol #light yagami #p

[whywishesarehorses]

She's looking pretty good at the moment!!!!

#blm mustang #mustang horse #horse #thea #equestrian #horseblr #number 88 was a short ride because I wrecked my body with stress #number 89 though was a good one! lots of other folks around. got some flying lead changes

[hunsa-jars]

Howdy peepers, I've been feeling pretty down lately but I think I'm on the right path to snap out of it!

See yall on monday hopefully

#to be honest recent political news got me anxious and just.. disheartened #not gonna lie rather depressed #but i guess that's a normal reaction #god it's just so awful #change of subject- i might be a bit burned out too because of all the stressing i subjected myself to this month #but worries be damned my grades ain't overall half bad #THO you just can't catch a break when it comes to college it seems #like we have to sign up for our classes on this website #based on your major obviously #and some people just don't pick the right classes hhhhh #and you see the waiting list for the class you need to sign up to is full because the goofs don't know what their course code is #which is weird like 😭 maybe there's a GOOD reason why your group mates' names aren't on the class list #because you didn't pick the right one aaaaaa #get outta here fella pleaaase #also on an unrelated note: it turns out i have a mild case of rosacea #it's not that suprising skin conditions run in the family #my mom's side of family at least #like my grandpa had rosacea. my mom has it too. my sister had acne (not anymore tho). my older brother too has something going on #i just thought i got lucky and inherited my dad's skin but guess not 💀 #funniest thing is that almost everything makes rosacea act up #heat? cold? spicy food? stress? exercise? stress? alcohol? GODDAMN SUNLIGHT??? #you name it #so yeahh not pleasant #if it won't get better mom will make an appointment with a dermatologist #uhh.. i guess that's all i wanted to say #for now at least #miss you guys hope all of you have been doing well :'> #random squeak

[wereh0gz]

I don't think I've seen anyone go into what physical symptoms Sonic experienced as a werehog. Have I posted abt that before I feel like I might've done that

Anyway here's a list of the symptoms of Sonic's werehog form, since I don't see many hcs abt that

Faster fur, quill, and nail growth

Increased body temperature

Increased appetite and intense cravings (not specifically for meat, but for foods he enjoys)

Sensitivity to light, sounds, and smells (easily overstimulated)

Chronic headaches

Joint and back pain due to changed bone structure

Toothaches, also due to changed bone structure

Muscle tears from transforming

Sore throat from vocal chords changing

Blood turned green (like Dark Gaia's blood)

Most of these don't fully go away when he turns back. During Unleashed, the pains lingered post-transformation and made it hard to get up in the morning a lot

Post-Unleashed, Sonic still deals with his fur, quills, and nails growing much faster than average. His bone structure in normal form is slightly different now too. His joints still hurt a bit because of it, especially his knees. Also his teeth are a lot sharper (not just fangs, all of his teeth)

#ramblings #i'm. not the only one with hcs abt this specific thing right #anyways rejoice werehog hcs be upon ye #these hcs also apply to rue but i'm not tagging them bc the post isn't abt them lol sorry rue ily #i think ppl tend to focus more on how his mind is/could be altered by this form #which is all fine and good but i like to think abt the physical effects it has on him too #in fact i like the idea that any mind/personality changes he displays don't come from dark gaia directly altering his mind #but as a reaction to the physical symptoms #like him being more irritable bc he's stressed from the pain and hunger that comes with the transformation #or he's less focused than usual bc he's overstimulated and has a hard time thinking bc of a headache #that kinda thing #bc ppl aren't usually like themselves when they're sick y'know

[lupinfits]

That was Lupin III: Voyage to Danger!

Outfit count: 3.5 (3 full outfits, plus various accessories)

#this was VERY fun. i loved the dynamics between all the characters and it was overall suuuuper enjoyable. lots of funny moments n slapstick. #but the main conflicts are taken seriously enough to have weight. it feels like a good mix for a lupin movie! also it was really #well animated i cannot stress that enough. i love the style of this movie. OH. and i should also mention. the other characters in this movi #had a TON of outfit changes. every character got to have a little outfit fun. like my blog focuses on lupin so i dont rlly screenshot the #others on here but WOW. actually. let me count fujiko's outfit count because i was keeping track of that one. 10. YEAH DAMN!! #anyway anyway very fun!! i would totally recommend this movie yippeeeee #lupin iii #lupin the third #lupinfits #voyage to danger

[hyacinthsdiamonds]

Seeing the same people who perpetuated or sent vicious misogynistic hate to Hannah Schmitz, as well as disgusting racist abuse towards Yuki and Alex because of FUCKING CONSPIRACY THEORIES and those who just straight up ignored it, now up in arms regarding whatever the fuck is going on between the FIA and the wolffs is beginning to piss me off. Because now that it's not someone red bull affiliated involved, it's somehow now unacceptable.

#f1 #formula 1 #formula one #who knows wtf is going on not the fia and not the teams but anyways #i will say toto needs to be investigated because of previous info breaches #but I've been saying that for years long before F1 academy was ever a thing #there's just been too many instances of him having info he shouldn't and things quietly and quickly changing for his benefit #I'm tired and stressed with trying to finish everything up for the semester hence why I've been less active #but this is just pissing me off #i never forgot or forgave the bs and abuse hannah yuki and alex got and i won't ever forget or forgive #i remember after monaco 22 i saw the anti red bull gang were claiming toto fucked up by “allowing' alex the Williams seat #apparently it was alexs fault ferrari fucked up and red bull were turning the tide smh #the bullshit ted began about hannah and yuki he will never see heaven i swear #and i know not everyone calling out the situation partook in the aforementioned but I'm seeing certain people who did #and they don't seem to notice their hypocrisy or double standards #anyway i get my one annoyed post that I'll probably delete later but at least I've got it out and can now return to watching the clown show #and ignore those with doublestandards #anyways bed now because i think I'm slowly losing my mind #it's not a good sign when you hear the imperial march in your head when thinking of college work is it

[louwhose]

Happy Pi Day! Or... is it pie day? White day?

Whatever, today is something and I'm celebrating whatever it is with this ship I'm far too obsessed with for how little screentime they have.

#dwight in shining armor #disa #chlodwig #phoebe #....STILL need to figure out a good ship name for them #phoewig? chloebe? #the “oe” in both of those is the long e sound in my head. for clarity #well then just in case I will tag this post with both of those options #phoewig #chloebe #okay maybe that second one could be more of a. chlO-E-be #idk its an incredibly made up ship name why am I stressing over it so much #also if you are reading this far I shall serenade you with some history about this piece #it took me months and several iterations of this piece to finally finish it #which was incredibly frustrating because it felt for a while that everytime I came back my art had leveled up enough that I had to restart #from scratch because the different components simply would not work together #but finally I finished it. #...over a month before posting it BUT DANG IT PI DAY WAS WORTH WAITING FOR #also pretty sure that this is the last thing I completed before my friend forced me to figure out the pressure sensitivity in my tablet #and that changed my art style completely again it feels like but. alas. this is definitely the last of its kind #lou draws #WOWWWWWWW forgetting my own art tag #at least it's impossible to forget about this piece with how much I went through for it