#god I hate it so much

[da-proti-toku-grem]

venting in the tags again bc i'm literally shaking right now wtf

#god i hate it so much #my exams start on monday and i'm not even halfway through everything i need to know for my first exam #i've had all the holidays to study but i just can't concentrate on anything #i've been in my room all day every day (except the days i spent w family like christmas and new year ofc) #and seemingly i'm studying all day #my family thinks i spend all day studying #but the only thing i'm capable of doing most of the time is stare at the things i have to do w/o having any idea of wtf i'm doing #my brain won't shut tf up and telling me stuff that i know are not true #but i just can't #i feel like i've been having an anxiety attack non stop since this monday #not very bad most of the time but it doesn't really stop yk? #and i feel like i have a weight on my chest that i can't really take off #i've been going to therapy and we've come to the conclusion that the cause of my anxiety overall are my studies #(not counting my social anxiety that's been getting worse every day to the point that i don't even want to go out with my best friends) #which doesn't really surprise me but it's just Too Much #i just want to drop everything but since idk what i'd do if i quit this career i chose to do my exams #bc maybe they are useful if i do change my path #but i just can't find it in me to focus and study because my mind is racing all the time #i just want to lie down and cry but i don't even have the strength to do that #i just feel so weak and miserable ever since i started uni and every day it gets worse and worse #my mind just screams at me saying #'stop complaining all the time. no one cares. everyone goes through stuff like that. you're no different. stfu and study like everyone does' #and i know i could do it if i tried but i just can't #why tf is it so difficult to be normal and do what i'm supposed to do for once ffs.... #venting #maca speaks

[nellysview]

I don’t feel really well. I thought everything will be fine by now but it’s worse. How do I even know if this is true. It feels like it’s true. Why does it feels like my heart is broken but it isn’t. When can I stop pretending everything. I don’t want to. I am so sick of all of this. Why can’t the world be okay? Why can’t I be okay? I have seen a video of me talking to my future self I it feels like this is a other person. This person who is talking is loud and doesn’t care about all of this. This person thinks her dreams are just dreams and that all of this will never come true. This person dreams every night about this girl and can’t imagine her life without them but now.. I should be happy. That’s what they all say. You should be happy. You have everything you want. There is no reason for you to be that way. Should I end it? Should I end her? Idk

Idk anything. Why am I crying all night just because I miss her. Why am I still thinking I don’t deserve her? Why is she still so mean and loud in my head. WHY ARE YOU SCREAMING? IDK! IDK!

Get out of here. Let me live my fucking stupid life and get out. Now.

(Sorry needed this as a diary and as therapy)

Thanks and I am sorry if you understand it:/

#mental heath tw #mental problems #i am fucked #god i hate it so much #i hate her #i hate my body #I hate myself #i am fine #and stupid #sorry for this #anger issues #life issues #overthinking #therapy #feels like therapy #send help lol #or not lol

[allthegothihopgirls]

i think my last straw with tiktok was the whole thing of people being ridiculed for showing interest in things that were popular >6 months ago, as if 1. everyone on the bandwagon weren't all interested in it seconds ago. and 2. the only way to live is to reinvent yourself every week to follow all the microtrends and mass hyperfixations of tiktok.

#this happened with everything #stranger things is the most prominent example i can think of #but also 'aesthetics' #and music artists #god i hate it so much #tiktok has become the overarching device for the bandwagon #its so toxic too because it frames liking the same things longer than they stay 'in fashion' as a bad thing #the trends have become so fast paced too #which makes it 10x worse #as much as it's ok to change what you like. have new interests and hobbies whenever etc #it's also ok to know what you like and stick to it #whether you explore other interests or not #tiktok #anti-tiktok #. #gothihop speaks

[enluv]

memeimessage i hate you

#god I hate it so much #why did they have to mess it up so much #i need someone to make a better app one that I don’t have to PAY for too #chit chat with coco <3

[smilysstuff]

Okay so. Hear me out- in my 'Wash can see the dead AU', I HC that Tex actually has an artificial face that looks hauntingly like Allison's, and I wondered how will Wash react to seeing Tex dehelmeting for the first time on a rare occasion.

Washington at that moment truly thought he just saw a ghost

#red vs blue #rvb #drawing #face headcannon #rvb washington #rvb tex #Horror #tw : slight blood #Ghosts #When we had Lanky North #Now we also have Lanky Allison! #god i hate it so much

[jewishraypalmer]

As a Nathan Scott girlie, I dreaded getting to the start of S5 part of the rewatch and now we're here and godDAMMIT it truly is even worse the second time

#god I hate it so much #although ironically....my favorite insane plot of the entire show is crazy nanny carrie #and it's surprising bc you would think I would hate anything that ruins Naley #but honestly it's so batshit insane crazy pants that I love it #amy rewatches one tree hill

[listen-to-the-inner-walrus]

i personally think that if youre gonna have a character chewing gum while talking in your show or movie or whatever, it should be required for you to have subtitles on for the whole scene so that anyone who has to mute the scene because listening to it feels like their skin is being grated off will still know whats happening.

#god i hate it so much #im holding my headphone several inches away from my ear so i can still hear dialogue without wanting to throw up

[sachsoup]

always mentally dying whenever i want 2 look at fanarts of tom n they're always from t*marry artists or t*mione 😭💔💔

alot of his fanarts always have harry and i just don't like it

#i love being a hater #tom riddle #god i hate it so much #t*marry dni #pls i just want his fanarts

[thekidsare-not-alright]

it makes me angry when people decide fob isn't "emo enough" for the emo trinity anymore like subcultures and genres don't evolve or anything. mcr isn't emo anymore either if you're sticking to what they were in black parade for your definition. seriously. not to mention green day is pop punk just like fob so if you wanna use them as a replacement you're not making any damn sense

the logic just isn't there, stop trying to replicate the past all the time

#fob #mcr #emo trinity #ALSO #every time I research the whole pete wentz 15yo thing #I can't find any real evidence for it #it's all very sketchy at best and some people are using that to discredit them? #idk I've seen a couple masterlists disproving the whole damn thing rip #I'm not saying I'd testify for pete but yeah I just think these people are aiming for any easy reason #replacing panic! with paramore is a different idea entirely imo because they deserved it. they always have been right beside the other two #but people liked panic cause hot dudes #that's what it can be boiled down to #and I think it's time we accept them into it yknow #ALSO again: we haven't gotten new mcr songs besides foundations. #that is ONE SONG. and NOW listen to fob's new stuff #you could argue foundations is some sort of light metal or something #people will Never be happy #GOD i hate it so much #it's new people too smh #like if you're gonna try to get popular in bandom #please don't try to step on history #I am way too bothered by this #bye

[mothmans-cumrag]

Accidentally clicked on tumblr live, 452 dead, 50662 injured

#god i hate it so much #i made a noise of disgust that had my cat looking concerned at me and meowing #tumblr live #fuck that shit so much #jamie posts

[impishtubist]

Petition for AO3 to add a “never show me this fic again” option so I can block all the Remus/Tonks fics that keep ending up in the Sirius & Harry tag every time they update 🙄

#ship hate #god i hate it so much #how dare you do this to remus lmao he would never marry a cop

[musashi]

"unnecessary feelings was about miles being in love with phoenix" 🤝 "franziska stayed up all night working on those locks because she was into maya"

stupid fanon bullshit that the fandom parrots because they care about shipping more than these characters' actual arcs and personalities

#wordy wendy #god i hate it so much

[nellysview]

Tbh last year I thought my life would be bad…now I just wish 2022 would have never end.

#mental health #2022 #life suuuuucks #god i hate it so much #i fucking hate it here

[hitsuyou-fukaketsu]

its one of those days pass the yaoi

#awraaaaaaaaaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg #I HATE GRINDING IN ENSTARS #GOD I HATE IT SO MUCH #last time i did this it didnt end well (leo's fs1)

[dazzlerazz]

I could have been ruder to that "the commonwealth deserves a detective that doesn't have memory problems" person and god do I wish I WAS because what the fuck kind of take was THAT?

#razz plays fo4 #sorta? sorta #god I hate it so much

[l3rking]

Petition to give AI "ArTiSts" on Tumblr the fukin chair

#god i hate it so much #all it does is create vapid noise that makes finding actually talented people that much harder to find #and ya know that and the theft of thousands of works from non-consenting artists