#wordy wendy

[musashi]

Hiya. My laptop kicked the bucket today and I need to replace her.

This is the laptop I do 100% of my fic writing on--she comes everywhere with me, I only write out of the house. I do not have any other free time to write. If I cannot replace my laptop, I cannot write.

If you have ever read or enjoyed my writing, please consider donating to my ko-fi.

I am going to try to get something cheap, probably just a couple hundred (my current girl has 2 gigs of ram, I only use her to write) but I am broke as fuck. I can barely pay rent. Luxuries are just that.

Thank you.

#wordy wendy

[vonpharma]

Will you guys still love me if I write nothing but Franmaya for Sicktember? I literally cannot force myself to care about anything else

[musashi]

I actually cannot believe the theater that antis fucking perform. They are SO dedicated to pretending they have never made a mistake, have never had to learn right from wrong, were just born with an automatic moral compass that has always existed since time immemorial.

Everyone knows you are faking. Everyone knows you are hiding. Everyone knows your lashing out and persecution of others comes from fear--the fear that one day that same hammer of justice you wield will fall back on you. You strike first because you are scared everyone will find out the secrets you are desperate to hide.

What a sad fucking way to live. You will be happier if you are authentic. You will be happier if you acknowledge that you were not born morally pure. You will be a kinder person when you learn that you yourself, as well as all others, are never done learning and changing. Right now, though, you are a miserable cunt.

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

not everyone is either butch or femme actually. That's a false dykeotomy.

EDIT:

#wordy wendy #wendys best #anyways i love women #love cis women just as much as normal women even

[musashi]

i also heard my co worker say 'i dont read dead dove' the other day like what the FUCK does gen z think it means??? are they just, like, changing the meaning??? what do you mean you dont read dead dove. you don't read ANYTHING? cause dead dove is not a genre or a trope it's a tagging system fdghdfh like???

#wordy wendy #i think we should make ppl under 25 take fandom 101 before theyre allowed to use AO3 #turning the reblogs off because some fuckwad added some dumb shit onto this post #and it is no longer educational #also if you put the words proshipper or anti in my tags im blocking you. die. go outside

[musashi]

just realized i did not talk about The Name Thing in my fran video bites at the bars of my cage

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

co worker: why do you always type [other co-worker's] last name instead of his first when looking him up?

me: oh, uh, weird situation where i can just type that name faster. more efficient to go last name.

the last name: wright

#wordy wendy #wish i was joking. why did she NOTICE this tho

[musashi]

ace attorney popped the fuck off by doing that thing where certain characters have ‘hidden’ sprites that you only see once in the whole game, usually it’s an emotionally closed off character offering a smile in the final hour of their story to show a sense of peace and closure, but ESPECIALLY they popped the fuck OFF by having franziska von karma break down crying in hers.

‘the angry/mean character is actually deeply emotional and using anger to keep it at bay’ is an incredibly common character archetype but it is so often done in a more shallow manner. like they will just bust out their tragic backstory in the 11th hour and we’re supposed to sympathize because awww they’re sad :( but we already know everything there is to know about franziska pretty much immediately. we know she is a child prodigy, we know she is a genius, we know she is fierce and dedicated and that she loves what she does. and we know she’s lost her father, and we know she’s upset with her brother and wants to see him again. but she does not invite pity, because she does not want it. she lays these details out clearly and concisely when they’re relevant to what is being discussed--they simply are. she remains as she is, and she fights the same way she always has, for what she believes in.

franziska goes through it. we watch her go through it. we watch her lose everything, and then we watch her have to be confronted with the fact that her brother disappeared on her and is utterly remorseless about it aloud. and then we watch her get shot by a violent hitman, and kick and scream and fight while she’s bleeding out because she wants to go to court. she has to be dragged to the hospital by force. never once does she back down an never once does she present anything other than this steely determination and resolve. until the very, VERY end. until POST CREDITS. she doesn’t even crack until AFTER THE CREDITS HAVE ROLLED!

and it is KINDNESS that breaks her! it is softness that makes her cry. i feel like to a lot of people what miles says to her in that scene might seem cruel, but it isn’t about what he says, it’s about what he does.

by franziska’s own admission she has abandonment issues. one of the few single insights we get into her pain is that people tend to discard her and make her feel left behind. miles fled back to his home country and left her all alone in germany to pursue his career, and he wasn’t wrong to do that, but it obviously hurt franziska and she felt neglected and like he didn’t bother to keep up with her. and then when he took his dramatic fucking sabbatical, he refused to loop her into that, too. miles decided without the consent of the people who love him that he was not worth it. he was unbelievably selfish to disappear the way he did, blinded by this idea that he is not loved or worth love. franziska loves him more than anything, and he did that to her on the tail end of her father’s incarceration. she lost both of her favourite people in the span of a few months. 

she ran away at the end of JFA and intended to give up on everything. and she ran away from him because if she abandons him first, he cannot abandon her. but nothing miles says in that scene undermines the fact that he chased after her. he could look her in the eyes and tell her she was scum to him but the fact of the matter is he followed her. he loved her enough to not be content just letting her give up and run away. he chased after her. can you imagine what that must’ve meant to her? 

he didn’t have to chase her. and he didn’t have to bring her whip back. and when he said ‘if you stop being a prosecutor, this is where we part ways’ i think we all knew he was not being literal. i think we all knew he was full of shit. i think what miles meant by that was to light a fire beneath her. to say that he had no intention of stopping, that he would keep on fighting, and that he wanted her to fight alongside him. they’ve always been rivals and they have always pushed each other to do better and be better, and miles knows that rivalry drives franziska unlike anything else. she doesn’t actually want to stop prosecuting, she’s just emotionally vulnerable and struggling to cope and throwing a bit of a tantrum about it, and so he pokes at an old button he knows will clear her head. franziska is a difficult person, but miles edgeworth knows her more than any person in the world, he knows how to love her and he does. he loves her so much.

she has seen a lot of pain in JFA. she has seen a lot of wicked words thrown her way, a lot of pushback, a lot of antagonism and banter and bickering, but the one thing no one shows her is kindness and love. phoenix tries, when he brings her flowers, but he gets nervous and backs out at the last second. gumshoe tries, but he does it out of earshot where she can’t hear. every nice thing someone says about franziska, they say while she is not there to listen. miles is the only person who looks her in the face and says he loves her. 

it is love that allows her the space to fall to pieces. it is love that shatters her veneer and turns her into a sobbing mess. she’s literally just a little girl who was forced to grow up too fast. she’s 18 years old and everything’s so hard. she just needed a fucking hug. 

no scene in ace attorney will ever, ever, EVER mean more to me.

#wordy wendy #pwaa #ace attorney #franziska von karma #miles edgeworth #man. #wendy rambles #kin ramblings #wendys best

[musashi]

pvp is enabled in the aablr server and i am. not enjoying it

#wordy wendy #screenshots incoming

[musashi]

It must be hell on earth to be Manfred von Karma like imagine you fucking stub your toe on your 74000€ Victorian table and when you're done screaming bloody murder the haunted orphan in your house is like "where were you on December 28th 2001" and you have to sic your elementary aged attack daughter on him to distract him

#wordy wendy #simmering sapphire

[musashi]

I always love it when a new person comes into the AA fandom because without fail every time they actually understand the characters and their fanworks reflect that. They're actually in character.

Could you imagine how good the fandom would be if others revisited the source material instead of playing fanon telephone all the time? Instead of always relying on vague impressions of what they remember? God it drives me so crazy but it's such a high when a noobie crashes in. He WOULD fucking say that.

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

Hi Tumblr I need to win an argument

EDIT: stop oversharing about your mental illness on my silly lighthearted poll i made to dunk on my girlfriend. you are not cute or charming and you make people uncomfortable. therapy

#wordy wendy #EDIT: you people are freaks #EDIT EDIT: nvm thank fuck #reblogs off because people are being so fucking weird pathologizing #i hate this shit #you are addicted to your identity as a person w depression #you will never ever get better until you learn #to stop identifying with the part of you that is sick and hurting #i did not make this poll about depression or poverty #i am a depressed person living in poverty and this post is not about that #and even if it was #neither of those things are normal #so if your argument is ''im depressed and poor!'' #either dont vote. or vote what the fuck.

[musashi]

it's so good to see other people making posts about the relative lack of nuance, understanding of interpretative text, and reading comprehension of the ace attorney fandom. y'all know it drives me crazy, how people more or less just project whatever they want to onto the characters and then get mad at you when you tell them it never happened in the games.

but i will say, one thing that a lot of newcomers to the aa fandom are missing, something it took me ages to find out: a TON of the people in the ace attorney fandom... just straight up have not played ace attorney. or, they played one or two games and fell off. even i myself have not played the sequel trilogy yet.

a huge chunk of the ace attorney fandom get the story SOLELY from the fandom. but they do not actually have the text anywhere in their mind. several others played the game ages ago but have not revisited it, and subsisted solely on fanworks since then.

i got into AA in the past few years, and i theorize this is why i feel such a disconnect from the fandom. furthermore, my autistic predilection to infohoard and obsessively play the cases over and over and over again means i have every minute character detail fresh in my head. whenever i find someone with similar bafflement and negative opinions on the fanon as me, it usually turns out they too are a newcomer!

i think the reason the AA fandom is so reliant on incorrect flanderization and fanon is because a huge chunk of them are all playing a game of telephone. literally, character interpretations have been passed around so much and no one is re-experiencing the games, and as a result no one remembers what is canon anymore.

i use this example a lot but it still baffles me to this day: i'm a known manfred liker, right? lots of people try and debate me on if he's a child abuser or not (i don't care as long as it's written well, but i don't think it's in the text) and one of the points they constantly bring up is that phoenix wrote letters to miles when he disappeared, and manfred burned those letters.

this did not happen.

not only did manfred have no part in anything of the sort, but phoenix literally never wrote letters to miles. the only thing phoenix says about it is that he tried contacting miles "countless times," but he does not explain how, when, over what period of time, or any such details.

to me, "manfred burned the letters" is certainly a valid interpretation of the text. but so is "miles edgeworth is a disaster human who 100% would reject any attempts from phoenix to reconnect because he believes a part of him died in that elevator too."

but as previously mentioned, the ace attorney fandom, alongside everything else, has no concept of nuance. characters are either victims or abusers with no gray area in between. miles is a victim (he is) but to reject poor sweet phoenix (also a victim) would tip the scales (haha) toward him being... a bad guy! so we introduce manfred (abuser) into this equation. there. problem solved.

but if i walk into the scene like "hey, that's a headcanon, this did not happen in the text, personally i think it's more realistic that miles rejected phoenix's attempts to reconnect because he is a traumatized adolescent making foolish decisions." 30 people are gonna point at me like SO YOU'RE SAYING YOU CONDONE ABUSE? and i will just sit there blinking, perplexed.

this happens like, three times a week.

tl;dr a massive chunk of the aa fanbase hasn't actually played aa recently or ever they just get all their info from wrightworth fanfic and incorrectquotes posts

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

i accidentally got an ADHD diagnosis today

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

i think the reason the evolving skies vmax cards are so charming is because the pokemon are dynamaxxed but they aren't battling? they're just enjoying Being Big in a purely leisurely sense. that is very cute. i understand.

#wordy wendy

[musashi]

some day perhaps when I am less heartbroken I will write something up here on the uniquely cruel way autistic peoples' compassion is viewed as aggression. Even, apparently, by other autistics.

In the mean time, love an autistic person today for me. love them even when they are not convenient for you. Love them as they question you and love them as they talk too much and too loudly. Love them even if they don't have quirky hyperfixation autism. Please just love autistic people while they are still here.

Happy autism acceptance month. Two nights ago, my autism lost me months worth of memories.

#wordy wendy