#fucking sigh

[djsangos]

//oh in case anyone wanted like. a Health Bullshit Update

was able to get my appt moved all the way up to yesterday afternoon, only to find out the doctor also has no fucking clue what's wrong with me so she's sent me for imaging for which i have an appointment on the 21st and will cost me fucking

almost 200 bucks, at a discount because i don't have insurance

#ooc text #i've been holding onto my tax return bc i wanted to save it for something but i guess i'll have to use it for that #fucking sigh #this whole bullshit has had me bleeding money for the past 2 months why does my body have to hate me

[ihavea-natural-curiosity]

me looking at the fact that the only disabled characters in the atla la were cast with abled actors (as far as i know):

it just really hurts to think about how actors who are in wheelchairs, and even actors who are like me (not in wheelchair but still are actually disabled and have trouble walking) feel about this.

like how many disabled actors auditioned and were so excited to finally have a chance and have a roll but some abled guy got cast instead, i don’t even have a wheelchair yet and im upset, i can’t imagine how they feel. (i’m not upset at the actors for this, im upset at the directors and other people in charge of casting people)

i probably shouldn’t have put so much faith in netflix to cast things like this well, but still. i don’t even have the energy to be upset about things like this anymore, im just. tired.

(also if either of these actors are actually physically disabled, please tell me, i really hope i’m wrong)

#as a young disabled actor #(i act in physical theaters so it’s different but still) #if there was a role casting for a disabled character and some abled kid got cast #i can’t even describe how upset i would feel #let alone on a big name show like this #i’m personally against the idea behind (most) live action remakes #but if they’re gonna do it i wish they’d do it right #i’m just so fucking tired of young physically disabled people being so ignored #fucking sigh #natla #avatar the last airbender #atla #teo atla #toph

[300iqprower]

Even in the Spinoffs, Fate makes sure to make the objectively more interesting characters get sidelined

#fgo #fate samurai remnant #fucking sigh #why the fuck is 'rogue' saber infinitely cooler

[ratbastarddotfuck]

Today I said to my doctor "yeah I've had like a dangerous mental health crisis any time I've been in long-term employment, and also my physical health seems to suffer quite a bit due to all the Conditions I Have, and both of these things make each other worse," and she really did turn around and say "hmm, we have a long way to go to make you healthy so you can work".

🙃

#like she genuinely means so well. and i can tell that she is a good doctor. #she is Going To Sort Me Out. she's Making Lists. #and i also know she only cares about the work thing because she knows that finances are difficult #and mental healthcare is expensive #but it's like. what am i meant to do #this only works if i can hold down a job first and i definitely can't do that #fucking sigh #at least shes bulk billing me #free doctoring is nice #otherwise that appt was $80 that i dont have #oof #sorry for the vent I'm fucking frustrated #i just want to make art and be gay is that too much to ask #anyway I'm just having a very. anxious moment needed to air it out #the system is fucking broken #I'm just too disabled to work a normal job why will people not accept that #'i want you to have a fulfilling career' I DON'T WANT ONE #i just want to like. organise things. just let me sort files or cards or books i will do that !!!! #just let me listen to a podcast and work reasonable hours and take regular breaks and sit in a comfortable spot!!!! #just be a human!!!!!!! #god fucking dammit!!!!!!!!!!! #vent #capitalism #disability #work #chronic illness #medical #the system speaks

[moanforme2]

No sex on my bday is an actual crime

#fucking sigh

[rinhaler]

it would seem I’m incapable of having a good day

#🧚🏽‍♀️ — luxe chit chat #fucking SIGH #ugh it just really feels like every time things are going even remotely okay #a higher being is like haha sike #so sick of being me lately it’s exhausting

[ladyofthelake]

Yay a notif! Time to read some fun tags or see if my gifs and posts have been reblogged :)

funkydarlin69 followed you *blog empty, bikini avatar*

#prn blogs back I see #fucking sigh

[anzheshyphae]

lmaooo just like i predicted i can't actually access the little mushroom manhua chapters bc kuaikan doesn't accept international cards. apparently applepay works but guess who doesn't have an iphone (and will never get one bc they suck). unbelievably depressing to see people who can access it post pics and scream about it on twitter while i can't read it myself. guess i'll stay on tumblr and go back to my good omens posting

#i mean i knew this would happen but i didn't expect the very first chapters to cost coins #fucking sigh

[blissmontage]

I just wish things were different. That I had done things differently.

#fucking sigh #am I ever going to stop fucking feeling like this? #personal #bliss.txt

[aerodaltonimperial]

#fucking sigh

[cutthroat-coquette]

I would love for you to ride my face and cum all in my mouth then kiss me and slow stroke you in missionary so I can see that pretty face

I feel mad soft rn and this hit different, ngl. 🥺

#anon ask #ask answered #the fact that you crave it #missionary slow stroke like … #fucking sigh

[jenovacomplete]

daylight savings is actually truly one of the most evil things in the world. just casually forcing us to confront the fact that time is fake while torturing insomniacs, autistics and schoolchildren across the globe. when will the agony end

#speaking! #please my sense of time is fucked already #that part of my brain doesn't work #please stop fucking with what little i have #sighs. every year. #hall of fame

[thingswhatareawesome]

oh look, another shit 10 warp. a qq eidolon i DON'T NEED bc she's already maxed what the fuck does it take to get freaking ting yun???

#i literally have no interest in the 5* i just want ONE damned 4* #and i'm so fucking tired of all these 10 warps that gets me ONE shit thing #like not even *two* shit things ever or like a 4* i can't care about with a 4* i do? #like other people get multiple items in their 10 warps WHY DON'T I EVER GET THAT #i'm so fucking tired of my shit pull luck in this game #like i can't even get the damned 4* i want #and now i'm at 60 or 65 pity and i'm going to not be able to try for ting yun anymore? #bc i'm risking my guaranteed 50-50 going to a 5* i don't want instead of being saved for argenti #and i really don't want even though her dmg is stupid good #bc the character pissed me off in the story and i'm too petty at this point to ignore it and play her anyway #(ok well i use her as a shared char from someone else but i don't want to put work/resource into her) #i'm just so TIRED of getting shitty light cones and duplicate 4* or shit for 4* char i don't use #how hard could it be to get a 4* character i thought #like happens all the time when i'm trying for a 5* right #fucking sigh #istg can they just put ty in the exchange so i can buy her at this point i swear that's the only way i get what i need #please ignore my sr bs

[scruffylookingpiratecaptain]

I think people have truly lost any ability to be patient with storytelling.

‘I don’t understand this’ They’ll explain it if you wait.

‘I don’t like how this episode left things hanging’ There’s a continuation next week.

‘This character is flat’ Wait for them to be fleshed out.

So many of the complaints I see about shows lately are people being confused by things THAT THE SHOW WANTS YOU TO BE CONFUSED BY THATS THE FUN OF MYSTERY AND FORESHADOWING YOU ABSOLUTE GOBLINS THE MAIN CHARACTER IS ALSO CONFUSED AND THEYRE GONNA DO A BIG REVEAL AND EXPLANATION LATER IF YOU WOULD JUST FUCKING WAIT

#i can’t anymore #anti fans #anti fandom #venting #I fucking hate impatient people #sit your ass down and wait #anticipation is fun #I’ve heard about so many people who gave up on wandavision after the first two episodes #because they didn’t understand what was going on #like #*sigh* #you weren’t fucking supposed to understand how stupid could you be to not get that #1k #10k #50k #100k

[notherpuppet]

Lucifer is a great muse to relay sorrows

#sigh I need to do my fucking taxes #and send that email #radioapple #appleradio #hazbin hotel fanart #alastor #hazbin lucifer #my doods #liked by creator

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

he's squeaky toy. to me.

#aough i love him so much.... #i will never be able to recreate this style/design i already know #my love for him is so great that it renders me unable to draw him consistently #it took all of my willpower not to clutter this with heart scribbles #himhimhimhimhimhimhimhimhim- #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #scribble garnish #welcome home fanart #welcome home wally #wally darling #NOOOOOO I MADE HIS CARDIGAN TOO DARK. FUCK #itsfineitsfineitsfine No One Will Notice #sigh. anyway... #i love his lil ascot and bizarre hair and cat smile and- #i have decided to put Slightly More Effort into my doodles. i think it might be worth it #even if the sun is up and my wrist hurty and im tired. i have been drawing for hours und hourz #and putting that right after more hours und hourz of crocheting? Ouch My Tendons