#fuck acrylic PAINT tbh

[grymmdark]

i love using acrylic paint because i can just fuck around and treat my materials like shit and as long as i wash my brushes before they dry it's fine

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #the way i paint w acrylic would probably give any art teacher a heartattack tbh

[jennaajoseph]

ㅤㅤㅤ ❛ Home. ❜ ⸻ Holden Worther x F!Reader.

── ﹙౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ MASTERLIST&INFO.﹚. ☆

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ SUMMARY. ⸻ Holden comes home after a long time at the mental hospital.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ PAIRING. ⸻ holden worther x f!reader.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ CONTENTS. ⸻ fluff, kinda sad if you ask me, bf!holden, generally sensitive topics, mentions of: mental hospital, drinking, rehab, failed suicide attempt, female reader.

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ A/N. ⸻ an universe where Holden got help he deserved tbh. Can y'all write more fics for Holden pls??

This one has quite sensitive topics, feel free to correct me if it's needed! Thank you!

Also it took a longer time for me to upload smth cuz someone requested Holden and I wanted to post it first!

(also I think about doing a part two on that, we'll see.)

౨ৎ ⋆｡˚ CREDITS. ⸻ photo - pinterest (cropped by me) , divider - @/cafekitsune.

ㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤㅤ ﹙©jennaajoseph﹚

After a failed suicide attempt caused by Holden's drinking problem, he finally agrees to get proffesional help. You were happy that he finally went to the mental hospital, where he was slowly getting better, going to rehab and therapy. Even if that meant not seeing him a lot, you were still happy that he was willing to work to become a better version of himself.

When Holden was in the hospital, he wrote you a lot of different stories. Your desk was always filled with sheets of paper. As time passed, his stories began to be less dark than before, and you took that as a good sign.

Sometimes he wrote you letters, writing about how he's feeling, and asking how you are feeling, how much he missed you, or how much he finally wants to finally see you and "kiss your pretty face". From the letters, you also found out that he started to really enjoy crafting. He sent you his every work; drawings, origami or small paintings made with acrylic paint.

Your room was full of things from him, and every time he sent you something new, you missed him even more.

⭑⭒⭒

Finally, when it was time for Holden to come back home, you couldn't hold your excitement. You were willing to help him with everything he needed, and support him all the time.

You and his parents drove to the hospital to pick him up. Of course, you were way more excited than them, but you were still glad they helped Holden get the help he deserved. They didn't show much emotion to anyone anyway, even themselves.

All of you were in the waiting room. Your leg bounced anxiously as you bit your nails. A bad habit of yours. Holden's parents were reading a magazine, not really caring about the world around them.

"Here for Thomas Worther?" A doctor appeared in the room, looking at some papers. Your head immediately jolted up when you heard his voice. Holden's mom confirmed, the doctor nodded, disappearing from the room the second after.

You let out an anxious sigh, but also a small excitement washed over you, finally being able to see Holden after a long time was something you were looking forward to for a long time. You couldn't visit him because of the policy. Only family members were allowed to, which was also quite limited because of his condition.

The door of the waiting room opened again after a while, Holden and a nurse entered the room.

"Okay Holden, wish you luck!" She smiled at him, and he nodded. The nurse turned to his parents and gave them some papers to sign, also talking about his therapy and rehab that he's still supposed to attend.

Holden quickly dropped his bags on the floor when he saw you. "Oh God, y/n" he quickly rushed in your direction. You stood up from your seat, and he wrapped his arms around you squeezing you tightly. You hugged him back as he hid his face in the crook of your neck. "I missed you so fucking much."

"Oh, Holden." You tried to hold your tears back, it was the first time you held him in almost 4 months. "I missed you too." You whispered, running your hand in his hair.

"I was scared that you won't be here." He gave you a pleading look, and your heart broke even more.

"Holden, I've been waiting for all this time." You cupped his face with both hands.

"I wanna go home..." He whispered, pressing your hands on his face harder. "...with you."

"Okay, we are going home soon, I promise." You reassured him.

"Tom," You both turned your head towards his parents and a nurse. "I think it's time for us to go home."

He quickly nodded grabbing your hand, and picking up his bags, everyone was ready to leave when the nurse spoke again. "Take care of yourself, Holden." She looked at him, then at you. You smiled at her gently.

"I will." He responded softly.

The car ride was filled with Holden's stories from the hospital. He sat very close to you, tightly holding your hand the whole time. He told you everything. What was his routine, his doctor visits, how his therapy looked like, what he learned. You couldn't stop listening. You missed everything about him.

⭑⭒⭒

"Let me grab this." His father said, when Holden wanted to pick his bags up from the car.

"Thanks." He said quietly.

His father carried his stuff into the house. When Holden stepped inside he didn't quite know what he should do with himself now, so his eyes just wandered around the house.

"Do you need something, Tom?" His mom asked from behind.

"No, no, i don't need anything." He replied.

His mother quietly nodded. His father stood next to her and sighed, placing his hands on his hips. "If you need something, we will be downstairs." He said.

"Okay."

There was a quite long silence afterwards that was interrupted by you stepping into the house. "Let me help you with the bags, Holden." You grabbed his backpack.

"Oh, right." He grabbed the rest of his stuff and slowly headed upstairs.

You took the last look at his parents and smiled gently. They returned the smile.

You went upstairs, right after Holden. He placed his bags on the floor and looked around. You quietly placed his backpack in the same spot.

He said turned back to look at you as you stepped closer to him, cupping his face with both of your hands. He gave you a pleading look again, and went silent for a second. "Did you cheat on me when I was away?"

A shocked look appeared on your face. "What? Holden-"

"Please be honest with me, you don't need to lie." His voice was getting cracky as a few tears rolled down his cheeks

You furrowed your eyebrows in sadness. Your heart broke at his words. The thought of cheating on him didn't even cross your mind. "Holden I could never do that to you."

"Please just tell me if you did." He buried his face in the crook of your neck as he broke down crying.

You held him, gently caressing his back, holding back tears. "I swear to God, baby I didn't."

"I was away for almost 4 months, how could you not." He sobbed against your neck.

"Because I promised that I'll be here for you, and I love you with my whole heart." You grabbed his face gently to make him look at you. This time you gave him a pleading look. "You are my home."

His bottom lip quivered as he pulled you closer to him.

"I promise you, I would never do anything like that."

He nodded his head slightly. You two sat on the bed as you helped him calm down a little.

"You promise?" He whispered.

"I promise, my love." You kissed his lips gently, and he held you tightly by your waist.

"I can't express how much I love you." He said, his grip getting harder on you.

"Easy, Holden, you are gonna crush me." You chuckled quietly, wiping his tears.

"I'm sorry, I just need you really really close." He said in almost begging tone.

"We can cuddle for a bit, is that okay?" You brushed your thumbs against his cheeks. He nodded instantly.

You both cuddled on his bed, his face buried in your chest, his hands holding you around your waist, this time not that hard.

"Did you saw the gifts I sent you?" He changed the subject, looking up at you.

"Of course I did!" You smiled.

"Did you like them?"

"I love them, Holden." You caressed his cheek with one of your hands, and he blushed. "You are very talented, you know that?"

"Maybe..." He murmured against your chest.

You rolled your eyes playfully, and placed your head on top of his. "You are."

"Okay" He grinned slightly. "I have something I didn't send you."

"Really?" Your eyes widened.

"Do you want to see what is it?"

"Of course I do!" You sat on the bed excitedly.

He smiled and grabbed his backpack. "I made it in one of my art therapy classes."

"Show me, please."

His hand was searching in his bag, after a second he pulled out two colorful bracelets. "I hope you'll like them." He held them up for you to see.

"You made that?" You took the bracelets from him, smiling. "They look wonderful!"

"They have yours and my name on it." He pointed at the beads with letters.

"Oh, that's right!" Your smile got wider as you saw that one of the bracelets has "Holden" written on it and the second one "y/n". "That's the cutest thing I have ever seen."

"Really?"

"Yeah!" You said, sliding the bracelet on your wrist. "I'll keep the "Holden" one and you'll keep the "y/n" one." You slid the second bracelet on his wrist too. "Now we match!"

He smiled widely, and held your face to give you a kiss. You quickly returned it.

"I'm so lucky to have you." He mumbled between kisses.

You smiled into the kiss. "I love you, Holden."

"I love you too, y/n, so, so, so much."

You giggled as his kisses got all over your face. "Easy baby, I'm not going anywhere."

"I know I just, I missed you so damn much." He pulled you closer to him, panting slightly as he stopped kissing you.

"I missed you too." You gave him a soft smile.

"Do you think you can stay for the night?" He gave you a sad puppy look. Begging you to stay with him. "I know that you have work-" You quickly cut him off.

"I can stay for how long you need." You whispered kissing his forehead. "My home is right there, with you."

⭑⭒⭒

After two weeks, Holden got more comfortable being at home. You drove him to therapy once a week to help him with his mental illness, and after that he went to alcohol rehab, helping with his drinking problems. These days were the most busy, you just sat outside the room he was in, and waited for a couple hours, but it was worth seeing his big smile when it was time to go home.

He also needed to fix himself a new routine, which you helped him with. You always reminded him to take his meds every morning.

He also didn't quit his hobbies. Every day he did something new for you, a drawing, story, poem, painting, bracelet or small origami. You always were excited to see what he did, and he was always excited to give it to you.

Holden was basically glued to you all the time, from the moment you woke up, to the moment you went to sleep. On the days when you had work, he woke up at the same time as you, made you breakfast and helped you get ready. Sometimes, in the morning, you two took a shower together which usually led to heavy make out session before work, or even sex when you had more spare time.

He always told you how much he appreciates that you are still here for him after what happened, and he tried his best to make you feel loved and safe, showering you with kisses, hugs or literally any physical contact — his favourite way of showing affection.

His parents were also glad for your help, even though you didn't really talked to them, you knew they were happy with your presence. They didn't really mind you staying for that long, but to be honest, you wanted Holden to move into your apartment when he finds himself a job. Your money from working at Retail Rodeo wasn't much to cover up for you two, and for safety reasons you wanted Holden to stay with his parents a little longer.

⭑⭒⭒

You finished showering, and dressed in your pajamas, quickly went on tip toes to Holden's room.

"Okay I'm done, you can go now." You closed the door behind you and saw him lying on the bed, smiling sheepishly. "What?" You grinned at him.

"Come here." He opened his arms, suggesting for you to cuddle with him. You quickly jumped into his arms and he rolled you over so now he was straddling you.

You sighed with a smile. "We are not fucking."

"Who said that I want to fuck?" He grinned and started kissing your cheeks.

"I know you Holden, you are a very horny person." You giggled.

"It's hard not to be around you." He looked into your eyes. You gently ran one of your hands through his hair and smiled at him. He stared at you for a good couple minutes before finally speaking. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen."

You rolled your eyes platfully. "C'mon, I'm not that beautiful."

He rolled his eyes, mocking you. "Yes you are, at least for me."

You smiled softly and caressed his cheek. "You are very handsome to me too."

He grinned widely. "Thank you."

"For what? Complements?"

"For simply existing, you helped me a lot." He tucked a lock of your hair behind your ear. "I'm very happy it was you."

You couldn't help but smile. Holden appreciated literally everything you did for him, even if it was something small, he would be head over heels for you, and it's allways been like this. He would always return the favour with something bigger than you usually did for him.

You grabbed his face gently, and pulled him into a kiss. "I'm very happy it was you too." You mumbled into the kiss.

"I'm excited for our future together." He smiled sheepishly when the kiss ended.

"You have no idea how excited I am too."

#holden worther #holden worther x reader #the good girl #jake gyllenhaal #jake gyllenhaal x reader #jake gyllenhaal x you #jake gyllenhaal fanfic #fluff #fanfic #fanfiction

[art-that-fucks-you-up-tournament]

SET FIVE - ROUND ONE - MATCH EIGHT

"Belfast to Byzantium" (2022 - Rita Duffy) / "Freedom" (2023 - Anastasia Trusova)

BELFAST TO BYZANTIUM: The photo is mine, because I couldn't find any online, but I really need everyone to appreciate the fact that this is 123x184 cm (48x72 in) and the red is much more intense in real life. The painting itself has this beautiful and horrific quality to it. The ship is packed full of people, emulating cruise ships, the titanic, slave ships, refugee boats. It is this awful mass of humanity, and a chaotic Bosch-esc vomitting of so many fears and tensions of our world. 

It is a part of a tryptich, and I think this particular piece focuses much more on global warming, exploitation, and immigration. I feel like i can look at this piece for so long and i'm still seeing new things in it. It is something that makes you stand and stare for a solid few minutes. My personal favorite details are the people(souls?) in the smoke stacks, the way that the human form gets twisted and consumed to keep this terrible ship going. Similarly I think the hands in the water are fascinating, (again a titanic allusion), with a few swimmers, but most drowning. And that its the ship that these lightning esc veins are coming from, a ship that could save these drowning people, but instead seems to be hurting them more.

It just glows, and there is so much happening that I get pulled in whenever I look at it. (@travelingsmithy)

FREEDOM: i adore every piece of her work and honestly just wanted to nominate her on her own FJKGJFK but i think this one combines my obsession with her mastery over light and colour and depth and texture and AUGH idk as a very amateur acrylic painter myself i feel a bit crazy insane looking at this tbh.. to buy any original piece of her work is so expensive but i would lay down my life to own this. tbh. (@whimsicalpdf)

("Belfast to Byzantium" is a painting by Northern Irish artist Rita Duffy. It is held by the Crawford Gallery in Cork, Ireland. This photo was taken by the submitter!

"Freedom" is an acrylic on canvas painting by Anastasia Trusova. It measures 60 by 70 cm. (23.6 x 27.6 in))

#art that fucks you up tournament #polls #atfyu polls #id in alt text #cw horror #cw blood

[69dias]

the boob tattoo chronicles - jjk

w/c: 1.3k

warnings: dumbification, jk tattoos OC and fucks her in the chair go health guidelines, jk is kinda mean tbh! but all my jks are sorry for having issues.

jungkook has a bit of a possessive streak. not that he'd ever admit it, no way in hell, but there's something that stirs deep in his gut whenever he can reaffirm that you're irrevocably, unquestionably, his. it's not a new concept either, ever since you two started going out, and even before that, when all you had between you were lustful encounters, naked bodies molding with each other's, he had a way of making sure he left his mark on you. and this was both figurative and metaphorical, sometimes leaving your neck littered with hickeys and love-bites, leaving your ass splotched with his handprints from when he'd bend you over his thighs, or spraying your clothes with his cologne, letting you leave drowning in his clothes.

but it just so happened that his job, his biggest interest, also gave him an opportunity to mark you, and that's what led you to this predicament, his body over yours on  the soft leather tattoo chair at the back of his studio. he had one hand over your neck, the other gripping tight onto your

hand, intertwining your fingers as he swallowed down your small whimpers, drinking them in as if your sounds were the reason he was alive. the way your body moves against his drives him crazy, letting you have your way, running your own free hand down the expanse of his chest, acrylics undoubtedly leaving scratches on his covered skin when they travel down to his belt.

but alas, jungkook thrives off of control, and he feels like he was on top of the world when he pulls your wrists into his large palm, pinning them above your head as he pulls away, pressing his forehead against yours and his lips to your cheek, metal cold against your blushing skin, eyes shut in refusal to meet your confused ones.

"let's not forget why we're here baby, hm?"

he knows he's being cruel, downright mean if you had any say in it, and he'd be lying if he says it doesn't get him a bit riled up, navy sweats tightening up a little more than he's comfortable with as he imagines you, thighs pressed together as he presses his own ink into your skin, marking you forever, forever as his. it's a bit riveting to imagine you lying on his chair, panties sticking uncomfortably to your folds after there's something on your unmarked, miles of skin that belongs to him, licking you and letting you chase your release, belonging to him.

and maybe jungkook wants you to feel that way, pretty head all clouded with arousal as you think of him and only him, whimper out in pain for him, as he paints your skin dark with his ink. him, him, him. it should only ever be him.

///

"okay, I'Il start now, baby. tell me if it hurts, hm?"

it was nothing big, just a simple tattoo of his initials on the top of your ribs, underneath your left boob, but jungkook sure as hell took advantage of that, using his gloved hands to grope you, getting you all hot and bothered even after leaving you high and dry when he'd pulled away from the make out session; he's fucking cruel, how he held your tits in his hand, rubbing his rubber-clad fingers all over your chest, tsk-ing at you when you made any noise, grabbing your jaw in his empty hand to tell you off for 'being a filthy girl'. he'd eventually laid off, letting you lie back in the chair as you'd been previously, prepping you and applying the ink stencil before he got his tattoo gun up and loaded, before he prepared to mark you entirely as his.

when he got on with it, needles pressing into your skin, it honestly hadn't been as bad as you were anticipating. granted, your brain was just a little jumbled from jungkook's previous ministrations, lips still bruised and wet from how he'd kissed you, head a tiny bit fuzzy from how he'd scolded you, and

you were beginning to think that it was all purposeful, his twisted way of getting your nerves settled before he tatted you. your thighs are squeezing together uncomfortably, feeling rushes of wetness between them as you remember how he'd treated you only several moments ago, trying to take your mind off the slightest of aches near your chest.

///

it's only when he wipes the first letter, a block printed 'J' and presses his tattoo gun right next to it to completely brand you that the needle starts to ache. it roams over the bones of your ribs, the typography of this letter requiring a bit more pressure and you unknowingly hold your breath in, shaky fingers grabbing onto the leather armrest. it doesn't go unnoticed by jungkook, no, he has a history with first timer clients, trying his best to never hurt them more than he inevitably has to by pressing literal needles into their skin, and he pulls away to push one hand against your ribs.

"breathe out, angel. you're doing great, I just have a little bit more to go," his tone is a little playful, like he's dumbing you down to being a little girl in a doctors office getting your shots, but you can't say you don't enjoy it, thighs pressing together even further than they had been before when you eventually let out the breath of air you'd been holding.

"that's it, good girl. you alright to continue?" 

he waits for you to nod, before he resumes, taking no more than 3 more minutes to finish off his initials on your skin when he's pulling away and singing your praises

"that's my girl. you took it like a champ, didn't you, baby? good girl. my good girl."

and it's true you are his, his in theory, and his in the form of the initials that are now wrapped up under your sweatshirt as he takes you like he promised himself he would before he started tattooing you. he has one hand dimpling your bare thigh, lip ring cold against the soft skin there, drinking in the soft whimpers you let out

when he finally lets his tongue make contact with your folds through your panties. they're filthy wet with your arousal, and he doesn't let it go, continually scolding you, dumbing you down for being so needy, being his desperate little girl, getting off on him putting his name on your skin. his words are only a bit muffled as he bites your clit softly through your underwear, letting you buck your hips into his face, knowing how badly you like the tinge of pain that it brings, before he's pulling his tattooed fingers to your panties to bring them to one side and continue making out with your pussy.

it's almost embarrassing, the sounds of your wetness as he shakes his head between your thighs, and you'd be a little bothered if he wasn't making you feel so good, trying your hardest to muffle your moans out of fear of being found in a position like this, but one sharp strike to the back of your thigh has you reeling, hand falling to his russet curls to pull you in closer to your pussy so he can bring you over the precipice of your own pleasure.

when you do cum, it racks through your body in violent shivers, losing feeling down all the way to your toes when you come down from it, jungkook letting you ride out your high with a cry of his name. his name, just like the one that's inked on your breast. his, his, his.

after all, you do belong to him, and he only reaffirms it as he fucks you into the leather of his chair, cleanliness be damned when he finishes with shallow ruts inside of you, pushing any of his cum back inside of you with two of his fingers, murmuring sweet nothings into the skin of your neck; my angel, my girl, my baby.

#jungkook smut #jungkook drabble #jungkook oneshot #jungkook x reader #jungkook/reader #bts #bts jungkook #jeon jungkook #bts smut #jungkook drabbles #jungkook oneshots #jungkook #jungkook au

[crucified-bloodhound]

Hello Everypony

hi. despite the intro to this post i have little to no interest in horses or anything to do with them. i am jackie. jackie is gay that is all you need to know. however if u are intrigued by my peculiar nature and penchant for poetic horniness i encourage you to read further.

DNI:

cishets, terfs, exclusionists, and the otherwise bigoted

I AM:

white, he/she/it ze/hir boygirl, anarchist unlabeled fagdyke from the midwest

anywho

let's get down to business shall we

i love and fuck who i please, freak4freak

i hold a love for all things strange and the gentleness in violence

anything absolutely depraved i'm probably into, except for handcuffs, feederism, and stuff with bigoted undertones (u know who u are, dni)

both the homoerotic and the romantic/platonic are very important to me.

im asexual and a switch/service top; i love power plays, size differences (im 5'2.) and body worship, and im a little puppy :+3

my inbox is wide open and i am into many other things!! just don't be an asshole or send nudes w/out asking <33

hobbies now! i am in art school and i have so much audacity so No i have not chosen a medium concentration and i will only do so on a whim and when absolutely necessary

my favorites at the moment are photography and black and grey ink. i hold a special place in my heart for acrylic paint and luv designing tattoos. recently got cyanotyping chemicals so that'll be fun once the sun shows her pretty face. also had a beading phase so if your collar needs fixing i've got pliers <3

talk to me abt ur art form!! whether u do slam poetry or short films or math rock or interpretive tap dance. im serious about that last one it's impressive.

i also like working out! this is usually at the gym but i also love hiking and walking as well as sparring and dancing! i'm mediocre at all of it but must be able to trek the long trail at which end i find the boygirl of my dreams and swoop him in to my big strong arms

i like teeth. if ur new here, u will never hear the end of it. if you frequent these parts, welcome back. let me put my hands in your mouth. :+).

i periodically download the mobile games my mom plays (on triple match rn. fun asf) but i also love coolmathgames and rhythm games but my phone storage cant handle cytus ii anymore

i love alternative music!! from gothabilly to post-techno punk to dad rock and hair metal. i love music is general. composition is lovely but brain small. same thing as with other arts: TELL ME ALL ABOUT IT

and tbh! that's all i can think of. my memory is feeble and i must awake at the early hours of dawn come tomorrow, so i bid thee farewell and hope you will indulge my neurotic-erotica. also my cis man aspects are not using directions and thinking about the roman empire (i took latin in high school).

#dyke #queer #butch #lesbian #butch dyke #butch4butch #gay #trans dyke #butch lesbian

[wormonastringtheory]

if you wanna show me a post please tag #wormielook!

welcome everyone new

important note: i am deeply dedicated to liberatory and decolonial movements and as such i post about mutual aid, protests, etc quite a bit. it's okay not to understand everything, if you have questions message and I'll forward you resources written by respective communities and to organizers/writers who discuss their liberation/literature

i am way too obsessed with MCR. I'm also an archivist for multiple interests. I'm way too interested in ultramarathon running (even though I cannot participate), tornadoes, robotics, and fall out boy. ok a bit more about me

basics:

-23 y/o

-disabled both physically and mentally (HSD, likely autism, severe brain fog, long haul COVID symptoms, a mast cell disorder, tourettes, Metatarsalgia, ADHD, IBS, POTS, OCD, GAD and Depression, PTSD, and a suspected brain injury, amongst other things)

-artist! i do digital art, textile work (making patches and v basic hand sewing), traditional drawing and painting (usually acrylic on canvas), crocheting, and collage

-loosely bigender. my gender is fluid and expansive to some extent so labelling is complicated. Kinda a butch, kinda a trans man.

-he/they/xe/vamp pronouns

-sapphic as fuck and that's important to my identity, lesbian I think. again beyond that not into firm labels. mostly t4t or queer4queer, and ace/aro spectrum

-polyamorous

-one of the biggest joys of people in my life (and my trusted sources for media reccommendations) is @milfsrights

-my best friend, platonic soulmate and other half is @frilly09

-irl bestieeee and loml is @anour22 ❤️❤️❤️❤️

interests:

-tornadoes. literally anything about them, and most natural disasters tbh

-harm reduction and street outreach, mutual aid organizing

-theology

-history (especially queer history, revolutionary actions and protest movements)

-zines (IM NOT NORMAL ABOUT ZINES)

-minatures

-seals

-antarctica

-library sciences

-music!! fall out boy, mcr, mitski, lianne la havas, willow, frank tichelli, nina simone, the staples singers, stevie wonder, against me!, pure hell, the muslims, the mountain goats, elton john, paramore, yana perrault, anju, the jerry cans, tessa violet, ruby waters, status non-status, r & b, punk, and soul

-tv/movies: repo! the genetic opera, goldfinch, best in miniature

-plays/broadway: wicked, hadestown, waitress, had a major deh phase too

-robotics! i am a mentor of a team and volunteer at competitions

-rare disorders, diseases, and conditions

-plushies! i am a collector, i have 109, most of them were gifts from friends and family or from my childhood

-disability justice

-biology, especially reptiles, foxes, spiders and amphibians

-linguistics! currently learning hebrew

-running and athletics

-gentle parenting and montessori (i am not a parent)

-crochet and fibre arts

-anarchism

-transit

-mountaineering disasters

-orphan sources/radiological incidents

-songwriting

-house shows/diy culture

-tattoos

-dan and phil

-safiya nygaard

[itslillyillustrates]

hello! i really like your art :D and I just wonder what do you use to make your art! (like traditional and digital!) just wondering !!! ~ thecoolestpuppeteer!

thank you!

my digital art is done on autodesk sketchbook, i like the user friendliness. i use custom brushes i've fiddled with over the years on there.

traditionally, i kinda use all sorts of different stuff depending on how i'm feeling or the piece, but my favorites include

lineart: tombow fudenosuke brush nib liners, gelly roll white pen

alcohol markers: winsor and newton, dick blick

paint pens: posca

colored pencils: prismacolor

watercolor: winsor and newton, prima watercolor confections

gouache: winsor and newton??? i forgor

3d props/art: cardboard, crayola model magic, crayola air dry, liquitex acrylic paint, mod podge. tbh i just fuck around with my 3d stuff it til it looks okay, got no real routine there

#lillyasks

[thelostboys87]

realistically in a couple months i will look at this little acrylic mountain painting and be like wow this kinda sucks ass but i had fun and i was me and i felt connected to my best friend from my novel who is always painting little acrylic mountain scenes......tbh never liked paints as a child/teen cause art class never taught us how to actually fucking use them LOL so im also like wow i actually blended stuff in and it looks good

#im realising now that the only paints they ever gave us in school were watercolours #but they never like...explained that specifically or said how to use them specifically GIRL #my like natural approach to painting was v much not suited for watercolour LOL but acrylics r fun #bobby is just such an acrylic guy to me idk how to explain it. i think he would dabble in oil too #dont think he likes watercolour LOL. except maybe watercolour pencils #i think hed have fun with pastels too....he was not meant to be this arty it just happened #the generalised lore is that bobby is good at drawing and painting most things except portraits and faces LOL #i will let him have one good self portrait though for the thematics of it #buried in tags but bobby's emotional reason for enjoying art is because he's always felt #like he had a very internalised experience of the world and was like. In His Head compared to people around him #so art + hands on creation feels like a way to take things out of his head and bring them into the world #bc he always felt a bit like an outcast even in the spaces he was included in lol closeted queer childhood vibes #he does like 99% scenic stuff though. but wondering if he gets more abstract at the end of his life WAITTTTT

[coldvampire]

on nines' wiki for fic stuff, have some copy-paste of me going Feral about him and kat in discord

crying thinking abt how genuinely kat will compliment her man & how inadvertantly Serious she gets bc she really does sincerely mean it & it would be easier to process if she was actually doing it to fluster him but no sometimes she just gets into a certain mood

also the idea of her like hgjhkj absolutely backing him 100% when other barons push back on shit like this, knowing that her reputation is in a very strange place where too much will be seen as in poor form but not really caring bc she knows how to exude enough bad vibes to get people to shut up lmao. his coterie might feel the same as she does but they dont have the same effect on audiences, the ventrue aura of 'listen to me or Else' comes in handy and he gfhjk doesnt quite know how to feel abt it being used for him lmao

she does love how much he cares tho,,, its a very sexy quality its not smth shes used to. she might not completely Agree with him all the time but the way she completely trusts him overrides that so it doesnt actually Matter. & i think she also sort of uses that as a better moral compass than the one thats been trained into her, like inherently she sees herself as a semi-bad person bc of how shes able to detach from certain decisions and thats just not how he operates & she has a lot of respect for that (& probably also misses the fact that if we're comparing traumas hers are a lot more. uh. Direct lmfao.)

also god love her but she is Not a Car Girl TM. she will sit there in the garage trying her hardest to follow along & ask questions but rly truly, she has no idea wtf he is saying to her. she recognizes that he is talking about parts and seems Excited & shes just glad it requires minimal thought on her end beyond very basic open ended questions. im pretty sure he thinks she understands a Lot more about mechanical stuff than she actually does bc shes very good at picking out important words and repeating them gfhjjfdgfhg shes not TRYING to bullshit interest she just doesnt have the heart to tell him she have 0 comprehension of anything he said just now. he is so stressed so much she wants him to be happy & relaxed whenever theres an opportunity for it :(

also he listens to her interests gfhgjh even if theyre significantly less technical lmao. she likes dissecting the manufactured drama & relationships of reality tv and stuff like that bc it reminds her of a Much lower stakes version of kindred politics & the pettiness is entertaining to her. he also gets to hold her while they watch on the couch or in bed while she goes & picks apart all of the 'fighting' and production tampering & he loves hearing her talk in general but its kind of fascinating to him how she can take something so shallow & dissect it, loves how Perceptive she is when it comes to people in particular. i think sometimes if she's maybe squirming a bit much or maybe if he just feels like it he'll offer to paint her nails. she's really on top of keeping up a manicure but doesnt always do acrylics & i think he would actually get fairly into the fact that 1. its essentially just Hand Holding for a reason and 2. it requires a decently steady hand & attention to detail so it doesnt get messed up and as someone who restores bikes with tiny intricate mechanical parts, hes surprisingly well suited to this. i bet he would do little designs too if he had the tools for it. it just feels good to do something for her :')

she knows jewellery even if she doesnt know fuck all about mechanics. firmly believe she just buys him stuff all the time & shes stupidly good at nailing what someone's preferred style is. like i dont think hes ever had someone who just casually gets so many things bc 'i saw this and thought of you' and again acts like its nbd??? because it is?? shes like yeah ofc why Wouldnt i? & tbh i dont even think that the gifts stop with him either once the rest of his coterie realizes shes cool and not a camarilla mole lmao they also start getting little things. jewellery keychains shirts Whatever, all usually just dropped into their hands mid-conversation with very little acknowledgment from her. if you mention youve had your eye on a bracelet or smth she'll just grab it without thinking. if Really pressed she'll probably brush it off as 'i wasnt spending my money anyway' (girl likes to take cash when she feeds from the wealthier Reverse Orphans TM especially if theyre also cheating gfhjhj) but rly. she just enjoys making people happy, which is also something her adores about her. its the casual way its just ingrained into her personality & how she doesnt make a huge deal about it, its just how she is.

ofc he always makes sure to take care of her back, she clearly expresses affection in gift giving and acts of service but she likes quality time & physical touch for herself. which is absolutely okay by his book, he was never even close to being as touch starved as she was at any point whereas she went literal Years without being touched in some way that wasnt negative or hurtful in some form. its overwhelming for her initially & she doesnt really know how to Ask for contact but by god she gets it through him. he's always loved holding her; she just seems to tuck in Perfectly into his arms. if she's maybe getting too overwhelmed with that then he's also good to switch gears to maybe just having a hand on her back or leg or holding her hand bc there's a period right when they first officially get together where she's still trying to level herself out after so much isolation. & he's such a constant reassuring presence, it almost doesn't feel real.

tbh if he wasn't as stable as he was im not sure she would have been able to heal properly after killing her sire, she had spent so long tethered to that man and shaping her life around running from him that she didnt quite know what to Do with herself when he was gone. nines didnt explicitly provide a 'purpose' for her life, he just gave her a place to rest and recuperate while she figured herself out and started to understand the fact that she was finally safe. & that's another thing, her sire might have been a genuine threat to the point she didnt want to risk his safety, but everything else? i doubt there would be any stopping his protection instincts. sometimes thats a concern to her, but again, she needed to be with someone who would be able to be that type of support & strength while she finally released literal decades of repressed trauma & a constant fight or flight state. he cant protect her from her own mind, but he can put a stop to any outside threats. she's never had that. he might have been abandoned by a ton of people in his life, but she would have taken that over the active harm/passive allowance of harm. understanding that, to him, she is someone worth protecting? its a wild learning curve.

im also sure theres some angst to be found in his history of being abandoned + her former commitment fear that evolved into the constant need to Be Around Him but also consider: the amount of comfort he would finally have knowing theres a 99% chance if theyre at home he just has to walk into the next room to see her (assuming she isnt already closer) & how she openly admits to wanting him on all levels, like shes not just gonna be someone else who walks out of his life. absolutely her favourite spot in the world is curls up beside him, like thats where she considers Home to be and ohh man. i think that just stirs smth up in him internally. ofc he cares about a lot of people and a lot of people care about him back but this is Different. in retrospect, knowing what she went through just to be able to sit here with him? even though there was a chance she would be rejected for not being transparent with her situation prior & never fully committing (even if she otherwise would have)? knowing he might be Too Hurt to let her back in and trying it anyway & letting him take the lead on the pacing and decide what it was He needed, that's insane. but she wanted to be with him so badly it was a risk she was willing to take on, which is telling bc her whole thing was caution to the point of being detrimental to herself.

it's like,,, he knows how it feels to have followers. but just like he did with her, she was able to peel back layers and layers of public-facing personality traits & see who he was in the privacy of his own home, and Still wanted him. imo even though he knows how to command a room, he's still not 100% positive what it is about Him Specifically that makes him so special to everyone else aside form being the guy who was in the right place at the right time to make a reputation for himself. but she's like. the one person where he actually feels like he maybe understand why she looks at him that way, & its still a nebulous feeling, but its more Concrete than what he gets from starry-eyed fledglings. kat is not and has never been someone who gives people more credit than they deserve or who blindly follows people. she's harsh and she has to have a Reason to do that.

if theres ever a situation where she has to drink blood outside of her restriction, you know he's gonna be the one to take care of her. she's not a fan of it, she's in pain and she feels gross and doesn't want him to Watch the whole episode, but why would he be put off by it? they both came from big families with plenty of kids, the threshold for being grossed out by that stuff is really goddamn high for them both lmao. also she looks completely Miserable curled up on the floor like that, if she needs someone to hold her hair and rub her back a bit then okay! she will have that its what she deserves! she's gonna resist a little at first bc she was always the one doing that for her sisters being the oldest with no mother/mother figure for most of their lives but like with a lot of stuff he does, she will relax and melt into the touch after a bit and start to physically decompress. if she's up for up she will also be carried to whichever soft surface she desires, no questions asked.

theyre so domestic it Hurts. fully believe the only actual regret she has about the relationship is missing the boat on them both being human & getting to live that normal suburban family life bc she know she would have completely abandoned her Rich Husband goals & it would have been fine in the end + her dad would have loved him. theres a very deep part of her psyche with a list of names that would have sounded fantastic for theoretical children like fdgfhgjh god. she is so far gone for him, 'vampires dont love' my ASS. not to be cheesy but he's It for her, even when theyre in a rough spot she literally cannot imagine being around anyone else or giving herself to someone so fully like that and trusting that they won't use that against her or shatter her heart in the process.

i just gfsfdhgfrwhgqsahxgfghgfejgwdshhjgrf theyre so in love. SO in love.

#oc tag #katerina irakleidis #nines rodriguez #i love them sosososososo much #this is just gfhgjh pure gushing under here lmao

[guckygarnes]

Fucked up how most basic acrylic paint sets don’t include cyan or magenta like tbh I would rather have those than red or blue

[grymmdark]

i love using acrylic paint because i can just fuck around and treat my materials like shit and as long as i wash my brushes before they dry it's fine

#grymms spectacular fucking posts #the way i paint w acrylic would probably give any art teacher a heartattack tbh

[dilfsuzanneyk]

16, 20, and 22 for the art asks!

hi gray, thanks for the ask!!

16. favorite media to work with when drawing traditionally

i love using acrylic paints :DD it takes a long time for me to finish a traditional painting and i only just recently figured out how to properly use them, but i like the way they turn out looking in the end!! also painting traditionally has a different kind of feeling and sense of "trust the process" than digital art. a whoole other genre of fuck around and find out, tbh. so far i only have one properly finished painting, and it's of Noodle from Gorillaz!! i'll reblog this with a photo of that painting later because i don't have one on my right now.

20. a piece from this year that you're really proud of

really very proud of this one!! it's a redraw of a drawing i did when i first got csp and my wacom stylus and i looved doing it and seeing the progress and improvement that i've made in the past few years :D

22. what inspires you

jamie hewletts art inspires me a lot!!! i picked up quite a bit of my little art style things from him, as well as the way i colour and stuff.

a lot of his earlier gorillaz stuff is my main source of inspiration when it came to learning and improving!!

but his original works like tank girl helped me a lot too!! especially with poses and expressions and stuff.

#ask games #does my art vex you

[yinyang-08]

14/06/2022

Today, I tried acrylics for the first time. I painted sunflowers with some leaves and tiny pink flowers for the background. In the beginning, it was a complete mess because tbh it looked ugly as fuck without the black lineart. Everything was blending into one another and the petals looked so weird. But in the end, i pulled through lol 🤣. Its not bad and i really like it! I will try to paint with acrylics more and maybe even make something with the gouche paints i got for my birthday!!

Mata ne!

~Lavanya 🌸

#journal #sketch #notebooks #mixed media #nature #painting #acrylic #acrylpainting #sunflower #yellow #flowers

[1hellofacookie]

1, 5 and 7 for the ask game????

Art programs you have but don't use

Krita on a very slow old laptop. Never figured out how to turn the canvas so I gave up. Used it years ago and never touched it again. Did do some art on it tho for a while

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

Right now I post maybe... 30% or less. Had a time where it felt weird to share my art but am getting back into it again. (but i am also very lazy tbh, I should really post more)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

Oil painting and watercolor, and probably more but these r the first that came to mind. I wish I could work with it but 1. that shite expensive as fuck, 2. what the fuck is colour theory and 3. why are oil paints so weird?? I do enjoy working with acrylic paint tho

thank you for the ask <3

#anon #ask #I love this #ask game

[pugszler]

1, 10, 19, 21, 26, 31, 48 💖💖💖 (from the “weirder asks” ask game you just reblogged! 😍🥰)

1. who is/are your comfort character(s)?

hm since i’ve been having a particularly rough time lately, i’m gonna take this question a bit more seriously than most ppl would and try to recall characters that i literally seek comfort in by thinking about them when i feel like i’m about to hit a breaking point. and well. obvsly the default is kohei. i still constantly think about him and whenever i feel like i need to go to “a happy place,” i just... imagine any one of my many dumb scenarios where i get to be w kohei and be happy w him and live happily ever after w him. 😢 other than that hmm.. i don’t rlly think there’s any one specific that i seek comfort from? i could mention some fave characters of mine that i think about often but i don’t think i rlly consider any of them “comfort characters?” haha sometimes u love a character sm but GOD does thinking about that character stress you out or make you sad or just feel like death lmao

10. would you slaughter the rich?

oh absolutely

19. imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

yes! altho i’m not very good at painting nails tbh... i’m Very messy and i kinda just. leave it that way lol. i also dont know how to do all the fancy styles or the things w the stickers or whatever and i DEFINITELY don’t know a single thing about acrylics what even are those???

21. something you’ve kept since childhood?

uh i don’t think i have any cute answers to this lmao. but i do have a bunch of old ass plushies that i’ve prob had since i was a kid just sitting up top of some shelves in my room but i never rlly think about them or touch them. tbh i kinda want to get rid of most if not all of them bc they’re so dusty and crusty and i’m terrified of the idea that maybe they’re just filled w bugs or something??? also another item i’ve had a while and okay i actually like this answer bc it Does mean a lot to me but it’s still kinda gross to everyone who isn’t me, but my favorite blanket is this one comforter/duvet that used to be on my parent’s bed when i was a toddler, then it became my dad’s blanket when he stopped sharing the same bed w my mom, and then i eventually stole the blanket from him lol bc i always fucking Loved how that blanket felt bc it’s like... smooth and cool to the touch? like it’s. it’s the Only kind of texture i wanna sleep with now like i Need it. unfortunately i have No idea what type of fabric the blanket is made out of so i can’t easily buy a brand new one w the same texture i like.... so i’ve kinda just been sleeping w this same. exact. old ass stinky fucking blanket that’s been in constant use for almost my entire 28 years of life, if not longer.... it’s uhh... kinda in rough shape tbh lmao but i can’t part from it yet. not until i find out how to find a similarly textured blanket somewhere in the world.

26. a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

i........ well i mostly just replay scenarios i’ve thought of involving kohei.... which. yknow... could be fluffy or silly or maybe even a little angsty w some plot and yeah sometimes def naughty stuff too lol. other than that i’ll usually just think about fanfics i really like and replay scenes of those in my head. or i think about my own fic ideas!

31. what type of music keeps you grounded?

loud and angry music. hard rock w/ lots of screaming and just. angry sad emo shit. this is the kinda music that soothes my soul idk how to explain why. also my go-to “grounding” song is scapegoat (and it’s basically one of my all-time favorite songs) like i specifically will play it on loop whenever i am in a Very Bad mental place. like it makes me not wanna die as much and it’s just. it never gets old for me. every single time i play that song it’s like it’s the first time i’m hearing it and it FUCKS HARD every time

48. when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

ehh i guess it was in my early 20s that i got curious enough to want to try it so every now and then whenever my mom would have a beer or champagne i’d ask if i could have a sip. 

an alternative answer to this question, when i was a little kid i’d go visit my grandma all the time and she had these cute little tumbler glasses w/ pretty pics of fish and other ocean-y shit on em so i’d always use them to drink water or sprite out of (idk those were just my favorite drinks at the time. i can’t stand sprite current day) so like one day i go in the kitchen for a drink and i see one of those glasses w ice water in it and i’m like hey that’s mine time for a drink and i took a big swig and it was suuuper weird and gross and i was like ???? wth grandma the water at your house sucks. later i find out that my grandma just really loves vodka and she was basically just always drinking it out of those cute little glasses that made it look like she was just drinking water all the time.... 

(ask game)

#THANKS SO MUCH RAYE UR THE BESTTT <333 thanks for always indulging me these kinds of ask games #replies #ask game #alcohol

[cerealmonster15]

fuuuufufufuuu it’s my partners bday in a few weeks and i have NO IDEAS, I just remembered while i was in the shower and was like o fuck wait it’s march now, shit

idk my mind always goes to food for gifts but aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa 

straight up can’t remember what i got him last year

for christmas i crocheted him a snorlax but that took like weeeeeeeeeeeeeks and weeks and weeks of time bc im slow lol

thought about commissioning a drawing or something from someone for him , but hhhh money,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but also imma be spending money on gift anyway so hhhhmmm,,, hmmm mm m mm,,,,

#2bad i cant fuckin draw nice things LOL urk #coming up with gifts is HARDDDDDDDDD #he likes mtg so i might get a pack of cards with something else #hhhhhh #pain.................................... #slams my head against a wall i am the Least Creative person in the World #man wtf did i get him last year #i really cant remember???? #was it just snacks or something??????????????? #maybe that's when i made him cookies................................. #even then i feel like it was cookies + something #OH WAIT NO i got him a little shuckle #it sits on his desk #but even still hes not like one to get super into stuffed animals i dont think #he has this painting tho of a hedgehog in a sweater and glasses #it's this tiny painting on his wall and it's so fucking funny i love it #and i have several odd little canvasas i could paint with my many acryllics #but. i am not very good #and what could top that hedgehog tbh #nothing. it's perfect