#flailing & freaking out

[arthursfuckinghat]

The pain of not playing as Arthur anymore aside, I keep forgetting completely that John cannot swim to save his fucking life

#hunting and all was going well #elk went in the river shot it and went to get it #john starts FLAILING like he's been dipped in lava and freaking out over a river #meanwhile I'm confused then all of a sudden I'm rushing to get this pathetic lil man out of a river before he dies #jesus john #I love you dearly but get some floaty armbands or something #it is funny though #dripping wet meow meow #john marston #arthur morgan #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #no spoilers please #liveblogging

[alexkablob]

Other favorite bits from the Dorley reread: Lorna's Paranormal Investigator Arc™

#tfw you're the only normal trans girl in a story about a forcefem kidnapping ring #and you're dating your ''cis'' girlfriend who gets you hormones ''from the internet'' #and slowly noticing how there's things she's not telling you and how her and her friend group are all weird about the same things #and then one day your girlfriend's equally cis friend is tired and distracted and asks your girlfriend if she can use some of her ''pills'' #and they both briefly freeze and then awkwardly smooth the interaction over but you KNOW #your whole social circle is trans people you go to trans rights rallies on the regular you KNOW that social interaction #you know this cis girl just asked your cis girlfriend if she could borrow some of her estrogen and what the FUCK #and all the little things are adding up and you start digging and they're all connected to this one dorm on campus-- #and IS MY GIRLFRIEND IN A CULT??? #WHAT IS HAPPENING #you're infiltrating this incredibly foreboding institution and all these girls are smiling too evenly at you and trying to steer you away #and IS THIS THE STEPFORD WIVES??? ARE THEY GOING TO HUMAN SACRIFICE ME??? WHAT IS GOING ON #because that's what Dorley is like looking in from the outside #and then all the while you see from the other PoVs what she's up against: #just the stupidest most neurotic group of codependent trans girls who are flailing rapidly in a comedy of errors #trying to figure out how to tell you the truth without you freaking out #or without it sounding stupid as hell #they're so fucking stupid Lorna I cannot emphasize enough what a pack of idiots these girls are it is NOT a slick operation #dorleyposting

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

i've really dithered around the puppet rabbit hole for my entire life, sometimes sitting by it and dangling my legs over the felted abyss, but by worm am i jumping headfirst into it now with perfect diving form

#& by perfect diving form i mean Flailing and Screaming #ive always loved puppets but i've always denied myself this simple love #or had this love denied due to no one around me neither friend nor family nor foe exposing me to its beauty #so i had to gaze upon the puppets from afar #dhmis baited me closer to the edge... then the professor #and then welcome home shoved me in when i wasnt looking #now im watching muppet compilations. i want to watch the movies. I Want Puppets. #theres just something about them!! #theyre friend shaped in the most bizarre way! #whats really strange is i dont like dolls. sentient or otherwise. they freak me the fuck out #but puppets? which from an objective viewpoint are scarier or at least are way more in the uncanny valley territory? #i cant be scared. or unsettled. they're Friends and thats It. end of story. they could be out to kill me and id still be 🥺 #absolutely unprompted #i like it when they get violent tho. its funny #my favorite dhmis moment is the friendship fight #and watching these muppet compilations... when they throw down... hell yeah fuck each other up!!!! #my desire for viewing blood and violence meshes wonderfully with puppets. theyre so <3<3<3<3 #gripping dragons in one hand and puppets in the other #hey speaking of both maybe. maybe i should share my one (1) welcome home oc. maybe. #actually fuck it yeah! i will share! cringe is dead babey!!! viva la zestforlife!

[clair-de-lunar-tears]

the poor pods in route C, they know something is very wrong but they don’t know what to do. Ladypod starts sounding so dead inside, they even got a good actor for the floating computer thing. 

#during the whole psychotic break in the soul box she doesn't even say anything #like buddy is just flailing around freaking out and she's like uhhhhhhhhhhh help me 042 #it's sad because they really do want to somehow make things good but they don't know how #nor do they really grasp the extend of what's wrong #anyway it's novel in the tags day ig #nier automata #automata spoilers #pod 153 #pod 042 #9S

[simplyghosting]

Mom: here help me pick up this bag of dirt

Mom: oh there’s a hole in it

Mom: oh well

Me: *picks up bag*

*ants immediately begin pouring out from hole onto my chest and into my shirt*

#ghost posts #i couldn’t even be that freaked out it’s not the worst that’s happened to me #fortunately we have a fence so no one saw me flailing about getting the ants out #they were sugar ants I think. no bites fortunately

[ihaventsleptinweekz]

literally watched good omens and thought GAY PPL the whole time

#Also I like. Started enthusiastically signing about how gay they were every scene. Which freaked my dad out a bit #He just turns around to see me silently flailing my hands around and staring wide-eyed at the TV with a grin #insomniac ramblez #good omens

[gay-victorian-astronomer]

pros of eating dark chocolate before bed: I think I just solved a plot hole in a fic idea I’ve been turning over in my head ever since I joined the disco fandom

cons of eating dark chocolate before bed: it’s 3:36am and I am Wide Fucking Awake

#chattering #it doesn’t help that I got crappy sleep last night #I made the same mistake and Did Not Learn #but I was not nearly so productive- I just flailed in bed for hours #typed up a bullet point outline for it so I don’t lose the idea but I have no idea how this WIP-juggling will work #that’s for Morning Aster to figure out #also the cat keeps jumping off things and skittering around and it’s freaking me out a little lotta bit #so we might not achieve sleep for a while #… maybe it’ll be 2pm Aster who ends up figuring out the WIP juggling

[verynonyideas]

So cool! 🥰🤨🤔…wait a minute ::zooms in:: 😳

RELAY CONSTRUCTION?!?!?!

😳😳😳 IS THAT THE NORMANDY SR2?!?!?!

#Youtube #mass effect #n7 day 2022 #N7 Day #Mass Effect Continues #Happy N7 Day! #I’ll be over here freaking out #::fangirl flailing::

[coloursofaparadox]

lil rant about dog training oops

#so. my 80lb gangly-ass dog is a gigantic baby for any kind of grooming or healthcare stuff. #and he was only getting more and more frantic the more i tried to get him used to it #doing it on the couch when hes sleepy? nope. starts frantically flailing around and panting wildiy #trying to introduce it slowly? nope. trying to distract him with lots of treats/a lick mat of peanut butter? nope #and this dog is prone to ear gunk and eye gunk :(((( #ive had to essentially pin him a couple times for his own good to give him eye drops for an eye infection #and i felt so bad about it both times and he was panicking but like. fuck. #so. before that happens again. ive been working with him on co-operative care. #which for me looks like putting a treat on a face height chair #and while he's staring at it #ill slowly in very small stages introduce whatever i need to do (ear wipe ear drops eye drops nail trim etc) #and frequently every time i make progress #like he lets me tap his nail with the clippers or lets me get the eye dropper close to his eye without flinching #i say 'okay!' and let him eat the treat he has a couple inches from his snoot #and replace it #and repeat making as much progress each time as he'll let me #whenever he needs to take a break and its too much for him he'll back up and lie down #and i take that as a cue to put down my tools and wait #and sure enough. eventually he'll get back up and be ready to go again #its a huge time sink but honestly still so much easier than wrestling a squirming freaking out dog who's nearly as big as me #and absolutely zero panic attack level freakouts on his end that end with him stress panting for like half an hour after #using this i managed to get him to let me to wipe out his ears entirely within like 15 minutes #and same with eye drops which is HUGE because he fucking hates eye drops #like. he voluntarily stood there and let me do it. zero holding or forcing he just stands there and lets me. #anyways. idk what my point is other than despite this taking a lot of patience on my part this is so so much less stressful for both of us #and is going to create much much better habits in the long run and isnt going to create a dog who is insanely fear reactive at the groomers #and also also fuck my ex who insisted that it took too long and wasnt worth it and as long as we had two people to hold our first dog down #it didnt matter if she was panicking bc we could just overpower her #idk. dogs will do a lot for you if you just put the smallest amount of effort into working with them. #lucas the land seal

[un-pearable]

my brother said we should make paper snowflakes with legomen so. prototyping time

#look at my little guy. appreciate him #sry for being particularly impassioned today i am fully embodying that one knuckles panel where he’s just flailing his arms in the air #freaking out. from the mega drive comic #uh. im normal i swear.

[riverdale-retread]

Saw your post about the hoop dreams ep (this my main blog my rvd one is kevin-keller-artistic-director)

1. Riverdale takes heavy inspiration of Dawson's Creek which as show is guaranteed coded piece about teenagers who learned heterosexuality through watch old cinema as kids to avoid their parent's

the subtext is addressed through the movie nerd way possible and they even use Subtext in the characters lingo it's a masterpiece and recontextuatises rvd in way make it feel more campy

2.aI saw you mention Veronica behavior was similar to Samantha from Sex and the City which is both from early Dawson's creek because her character is very much like the early ark of Jen lindely

2.b Samantha Jones exists in my opinion in fascinating spot wherein she is lesbian who represents a sort homosexual man party scene type of energy but it also lesbian who's overcompensating for her dykeness by constantly talking about having sex men but also there is man who does drag as her so she is also drag queen persona and I thought that V performance of gender which is also like season 1 joey in dw could be something to note

i *love* it when people give me valuable pointers like this. I didn't watch Dawson's Creek so this is a fantastic ask. I didn't' know Dawson's Creek was at this level either - learning straightness through watching old cinema so you don't have to talk to Mom & Dad (!!!!).

Samantha Jones as lesbian as a closeted dyke!! Veronica performance of gender!! (I am way out of my depth on this one because gender discourse is beyond me but this is a lot to think about). I think Mae West's screen persona also did inform a lot of early drag performances (but I know Mae West better than I know drag) so I think I was thinking along these lines too (just not at your level).

Thank you for stopping by!

#ask #i get the best asks #also omg kevin-keller-artistic-director sent me an ask!?!? #flailing & freaking out #'tis an honor

[justassorted]

I've said it before and I'll say it again; I'll get this thought into my head that most of my muses curse a lot. (And, I mean, I guess maybe they do, I don't know. My parents curse constantly and I didn't curse aloud hardly at all until I was like 22, I don't have any reasonable frame of reference. >_>;)

But like.

Then I'll write Mirian for three paragraphs, and uh. She.

She kind of skews the scale. xD

#writing flails #ooc #(...my mom literally tried to bribe me to curse when I was like 7 and I still refused) #(I don't?? know why I was like that?? like seriously my parents Did Not Care) #(so either some teacher or daycare person freaked me out abt it or I was just Like That all on my own ssdlkghf) #Mirian #about the mun

[kiingbiing]

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#talks #btw just watched kill bill #why tf has no one kicked my ass for not watching the movie #THAT WAS FIRE #ougggh so gooood #fun fact #when I was really young my dad tucked us in and went off to watch kill bill in the living room #and I heard the noises and was miffed that I was missing out on the film #so I snuck out of bed and took a peak from the corner to try and watch the whole thing without getting noticed #he’s watching the volume 2 #I look and then I see her eye get snatched and she flails #she’s thrashing and freaking out while the bride watches #and then she drops the eyes and steps on it #I get physically ill and went back to my bed to sleep #and now I don’t like eyes EVER #gore mention #ig?

[crickets-everywhere]

I forget about me being autistic and then someone asks me about bugs, and I get too excited to talk

#autism #the maniacal giggles that come out of me when someone meantions any little critter ever #i just watched a 12 minute video about pre-historic bugs and i was kicking my feet and flailing my hands around #while shes trying to not be freaked out by sea scorpions and such #bugs #bugblr #crickets everywhere

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sigh... i just feel i could learn so much easier if i didnt get distracted by my thoughts every 5min #i dont even kno how it happens. i kno that i do it and so im like ok im gonna pay attention and not think things at the same time #but then my brain starts talking and my attention gets divided and then suddenly i blink and realized i dont kno the context for whatever #was being said. how? how does that happen? and whats worse is that im not even thinking anything interesting bc my thoughts tend to b #cyclical and dont tend to progress unless i write things down. which is frustrating and makes me feel stupid #bc its like is ur brain so tiny that u can only carry out one conversation with yourself over and over and over? #it just makes me think of that b0 burnh4m monolog abt shutting the fuck up. can anyone? any single one? any single person? shut thr fuck up? #shut the fuck up. just shut the fuck up. about anything. any single thing? but its me @ my own brain #i dunno. my short term working memory is just fucked. today i opened google earth to plot something and opened my phone to pull of thr #points and forgot what i was doing like 3 times while i was sitting there. i open documents and scripts and i flip back and forth between #tasks bc theres too much to do and i cant triage. i just need someone to lock me in an empty room not let me out until i finish things #i dunno. i cant control my attention. weirdly im not that distractable tho. like i get internally distracted by the thoughts in my head #but if im having a conversation and something happens thst its distracting to any normal person im like. i have to let it go knowing the #other person is likely to get distracted and thr Subject will change. and ill hold onto distracted threads of conversation. bc it really #bothers me for conversations to be flexible and flowing i guess. i dunno its weird. i was the freak who would b extremely focused on getting #school work done while ppl i was working with were chatting away. like if i have a focused goal ill sit there until its done #ill sit there doing something until its finished but if u give me options i flail #options r the enemy. that perhaps contributes to my control issues. i say i dont like a lot of things just so i have less things to make #choices abt. bleh. this is y i wanna go to somewhere like antarctic to a research station where i would just do science all the time #force my focus onto research only. except id probably lose my mind bc i cant b around ppl that much #whatever. i dont even feel that bad. its just a thing ive noticed on top of my control problems being rather bad rn. and as i said ive got a #tiny goldfish brain so it helps to write things down so i can understand what's happen bc im not stupid the information is in there but its #hidden from me bc my neurobiology is fucking annoying. whatever. #unrelated

[english-history-trip]

Ever see a depiction of St. George and the Dragon? It's pretty fair to say if you've seen one, you've seen them all: Georgie on a horse stabbing a flailing dragon creature, princess piously kneeling in the background, vague landscape alluding to the homeland of the artist's patron.

The most varied part is the dragons. No one had a real definition for the thing, it seemed. For your pleasure and entertainment, I have ranked some medieval depictions based on how impressive George's feat seems once you see the dragon.

Paolo Uccello, 1456

This is a terrifying beast. The hell is that. Uccello was one of the first experimenters with perspective, so the thing also looks surreal, like it's taking place on Mars, or a Windows 95 screensaver. I would not want to fight that, I would not want to be tied to that. (Sometimes the princess is tied to the dragon for some reason.) 10/10

Horse thoughts: Maybe if I look at the ground it will be gone when I look up

Unknown artist, c. 1505

This is a rare change of form for the dragon; it's the only one I've seen actually flying (or at least falling with style). It doesn't look particularly deterred by the spear through its throat, either. Also, George looks appropriately nervous. On the other hand, it hasn't got teeth, it seems to be fuzzy rather than having scaly armor, and George is bolstered by his army of Henry VII and his children, most of whom definitely didn't actually die in infancy. Still, wouldn't want to fight it, wouldn't want my pet sheep near it. (Sometimes the princess has a pet sheep for some reason.) 9/10

Horse thoughts: I am so glad I wore my mightiest feather helmet for this

Raphael, 1505

We are coming to Dragons With Problems. This guy looks about comparable in size to George, and does have wings, but doesn't seem to be using these things to his advantage (and has he only got one wing?) And how does he deal with the neck? He does have a comically small head, but holding it up with such a twisty neck seems complicated at best. But most egregiously, he is doing the shitty superheroine pose where he is somehow simultaneously showcasing his chest and his butt, with its unnecessarily defined butthole (more on this later) (regrettably). 8/10 bc it's Raphael

Horse thoughts: AM I THE BESTEST BOI? AM I DOING SUCH A GOOD JOB? WE R DRAGON SLAYING BUDDIEZ

The Beauchamp Hours, c. 1401

We had a spirited debate about this one at work. Again, the dragon has gotten smaller, and this one hasn't got even one wing. He's basically a crocodile. So the debate became: would you want to fight a crocodile if you had a horse and a pointy stick? Would the horse trample the animal, who can't get on its hind legs, or freak out and throw its rider? Would the pointy stick be enough to pierce the croc's thick hide? In this case, George seems to be controlling his horse and putting his pointy stick in the dragon's weak spot, so we can be impressed by his skill and strategy. However, his hat is dumb. 7/10

Horse thoughts: Dehhhh

Book of Hours, c. 1480

Here we have the same kind of croco-dragon, but George's focus on his strategy has gone out the window. He's flailing around, not even looking at his target, he's about to lose his pointy stick, he hasn't got a hand on the reins, and his sword seems to only be poking the invisible dragon over his shoulder. All he's got going for him is that his hat is slightly less dumb. 6/10

Horse thoughts: Yay, new friend! Come play with me, new fr- what is happening

Final dragons put behind this Read More for your safety:

Rogier van der Weyden, c. 1432

I'm thinking this guy is at least semi-aquatic. Webbed feet, wings that seem more like fins, bipedal but top-heavy, jaws that seem more for scooping than biting. Maybe she's crawled up here from the nearby body of water to lay her eggs, and this is all a big misunderstanding. Moreover, George's dagged sleeves seem entirely impractical for the situation. 5/10

Horse thoughts: i got my hed stuk in a jar and now it is this way forever

Unknown artist, c. 15th century

I hate this. I hate everything about it. Why has it got human eyes and teeth. Why is its nose melting. Why has it got a dick on its face and balls under its chin. The fin/wings are back but they look even more useless. Also, George is shifty as hell, schlumped over in his saddle with his bowler hat thing over his eyes. The baby dragon at the bottom eating some hapless would-be rescuer is kind of metal. 4/10 at least the thing is gonna die

Horse thoughts: I Have Smoked So Much Crack

Book of Hours, c. 1450

Remember what I said about the buttholes? First, sorry. Second, yeah, we're back to that. I'll admit this one is less about the danger from the dragon itself than the very specific choices the artist has made. They didn't need to do that. It's a lizard. They don't even have. And it's like they had an orifice budget and they skipped an exit wound for the spear to focus. Elsewhere. It's so detailed. And George had an even dumber hat. 2/10 take it away

Horse thoughts: I Have Smoked So Much Weed

Book of Hours, c. 1415

This is just bullying. There isn't even a princess. That is clearly an infant. Look at that smug look on George's face as he swings his sword that's bigger than the whole little guy. This is the equivalent of when DJT Jr. hunted those sleeping endangered sheep. 1/10

Horse thoughts: ....yikes

And this is the previous one, but now the baby dragon is cute. He's chubby. He's got toe beans. He's Puff the Magic Dragon. His eyes have already gone white, implying that George is just kicking its corpse around for funsies. What's the difference between the dragon and the lamb in the background? That the dragon is dead, like our innocence. This George is truly deserving of the dumbest hat of all. 0/10 plus one more butthole for the road

Horse thoughts: Perhaps it is we who are the buttholes.

#art history #nonsense #hot takes #I am doing a St. George painting and have been wading through reference material #manuscript #fuck me I didn't notice van der Weyden managed to sneak a butthole in his too #the definitive list #when knighthood was in flower