#fix me fix me fix me fix me please

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

#cw: suicidal ideation #cw: suicide #cw: self harm #cw: mental health #cw: depression #i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it #i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague #it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves #so. please dont #for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic #with the state of the world as it is #having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful #but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full #and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead #i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us #there is no fix-all #and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile #i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it #thank you for reading #and please stay alive #stillindigo art #stillindigo comics

[lutzlig]

i think it's time to migrate

#if ANYBODY knows which xkit extension will fix this Please tell me #or else im hopping off to cohost

[super-psycho-lov3]

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#i cant get my fucking head to shut up #i dont really want to fucking die #but fuck igdjgn #i wish i was dead i should be dead i deserve to be dead i dont #fuck fuck fuck i need this to shut up #really bad bpd episode just #fuck #suicide mention #suicide ment #suicide #vent #feel like im gonna be fuckin sick #dunno if ive ever been good for anything in my life #dunno if ill ever get go find out #i fucking hate being crazy #i hate being delusionali hate having intrusive thoughts i hate having mood swings i hate being fucking *INSANE!* #why am i fucking *like this?* whats wrong with me? *fuck!* #fix me fix me fix me fix me please #im so tired. im so tired

[souvenir116]

Charles being sassy for 39 seconds:

all vids are from Clara 🤍

#PLEASE I LOVE HIM 😭 #he's my queen #unhinged and bothered 😽 #don't mind me typoing thursday please I'm so lazy to fix it after posting already <3 #charles leclerc #formula 1 #f1

[taee]

the repair boys

#btsgif #bangtan #bts #ipurpleunet #namjoon #hoseok #yoongi #94z #namseok #ptd on stage in the us dvd #tq:cr #DORKS SDFSFDG #but yes please fix me <3

[cozystars]

luigi didn't get the whole ‘furry’ thing till now

#doodles #super mario bros #JP&E #WHOOOOOOOOOO IS THAT GIRL I SEE. STARING THERE. BACK AT ME #not really canon(??) but i am highly considering mario being able to draw #mario paint..all that #cosmo creates #update: added an image desc! please tell me if i need to fix how i do things cause im VERY new to this #comics

[fastdrawfarmboy]

For your consideration.

#honestly harry does his fair share of fixing too but like bridge officer fixing not engineer fixing #and geordi suffers but not quite as cartoonishly as the other two #please tell me if I'm doing this alt text thing right I'm bad at describing things #star trek #star trek voyager #star trek deep space 9 #star trek the next generation #harry kim #miles o'brien #geordi la forge #ds9 #tng #id in alt text #my memes

[bonfire-beret]

Happy birthday Eiffel! You are now the star of a 80s scifi paperback

Alt version under cut

#this turned out kind of janky please dont tear me apart in the notes. i cant take it anymore #i cant fix it. if i spend 1 more second on this i will start massacring random passerbys #w359 #wolf 359 #doug eiffel #douglas eiffel

[creacherkeeper]

is this old religion, are we calling it love?

{sweet movie, alisha dietzman / @gaphic / tiktok / @iamalivenow / on earth we're briefly gorgeous, ocean vuong / @manywinged / these violent delights, micah nemerever / the reader, bernhard schlink (trans. carol brown janeway) / hestitations outside the door, margaret atwood / a self-portrait in letters, anne sexton}

[ID: ten images of text together in a litstack

1: Confession: I will think of you forever

2: a post by gaphic: It’s only tragedy if you convince yourself, for even just a moment, that everything could be ok, despite knowing it won’t be. Tragedy lies in ‘so close, yet so far.’ It’s avoidable because it would only take a tiny alteration to prevent disaster, but human nature is in the way- not maliciously, not knowingly, despite trying so hard.

3: a tiktok comment and answer: Are they lovers? / Worse

4: a post by iamalivenow: gay sex won't fix this. it'll probably make this worse. that being said don't you want to see how much worse it can get?

5: Sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you've been ruined.

6: tags from manywinged: #technically they know and understand each other better than anyone else alive #but they communicate that in the most fucked up insane unnecessarily complicated way and think thats normal

7: I don't think you've ever felt anything that didn't hurt you. / We've found each other, out of everyone else in the world. Does that hurt, too?

8: "I'm not used to being loved. I wouldn't know what to do."

9: Should we go into it together / If I go into it with you I will never come out

10: of course the love is there. / still, / still, / still.

end ID]

#litstack #web weaving #quote compilation #i love giving these vague taglines and then in the tags being like yes this is about blorbo from my games #its Funnee. when they escape containment. 2 me. #lizzie/onion/brandi #lost township #yes this is about the messy dyke girlbestfriend situationship everyone please join hands and pray for them thank you #characters who are either gonna get fixed or get sooooo much worse (or a combo of the two!!) and only time and the dice will tell #faun are you happy now. make me the onion/lizzie playlist.

[bananasofthorns]

live Scar reaction to the Etho kleenx box mic stand

#goodtimeswithscar #ethoslab #stream liveblogging #banana made a post #cleo and scar are trying so hard to convince etho to fix his damn setup. they're like please god we will BUY YOU a mic stand #and he's like but hear me out--

[mrpsychokiller]

#sorry i had this mental image in my brain #anyways LET ME INNNNN PLEASE I NEED TO FIX SOME STUFF #🧃

[legendaryangelphilosopher]

Hiii🧡🧡

I've been wanting to make something for @somerandomdudelmao for some time now!! So!! I finally decided to give it a go!😁

Cass, thank you for everything you've made and for all the inspiration you've brought to so many!!🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

I hope everyone who sees this likes it!!🧡🧡

(Click for better quality!)

I used a drawing made by Cass as a reference for this drawing.

(the art below was made by Cass, not me)

#cass creature #fanart #If anything is credited wrong please let me know! I'll fix it immediately!

[dappermouth]

Guyssss I messed up...! Miscommunicated with my tapestry printer about bleed lines and it led to some misprints going out (tapestries with white borders on one or more sides). I'm pretty sure I've emailed everybody that it might've affected but if I missed you somehow, message me so I can get you a replacement!

#jentalk #i goofed babes #it's fixed now #orders from March 31st onward should be perfecto #but it's super important to me that i replace any misprints — so do please reach out if you got one!

[conjuring-ghouls]

I have it so bad for him

#excuse the quality #this fucking new editor is ruining all my gifs :c #the band ghost #ghost bc #ghost band #papa emeritus iv #copia #cardinal copia #papa iv #papa 4 #popia #my gifs #oh please #he looks incredible #it's not even fair #him fixing his jacket in the last one had me losing my mind #the things i’d do for this man

[il-predestinato]

Max Verstappen teases Charles Leclerc about his race engineer in the cooldown room at the 2024 Saudi Arabian Grand Prix. 🎥: F1TV

#charles leclerc #max verstappen #lestappen #f1 #* #my edit #saudi arabian gp 2024 #fave #laugh tag #you two are ILL 😭 #i almost feel sorry for xavi! two demon twinks gossiping about him behind his back 😭 #max's face as he walks away: he's so pleased with his stupid little joke 😭 sdkjfsdkf #sorry about the horrendous colouring #don't get me started on the horrid red tinge in the cooldown room #it is beyond my skills to fix

[sonic-fankid-showdown]

The Sonic Fankid Showdown: Round 1!

These are the match ups for the first round of the tournament! The polls will go up this Wednesday, April 24th and will be active until May 1st for you all to vote for your favorite fankids!

Image transcript under the cut.

Blair Acorn Rose (@icednebula) v/s Comet the Hedgehog (@sonicanon)

Gina (@meetje-rotyourbrainhere) v/s Cipher (@altairsarts)

Comet the Hedgehog (@sonic-polis) v/s Sunny the Chao (@wereh0gz)

Wafer the Chao (@pokeypoqi) v/s Leonid the Cyborg Hedgehog (@deimostes)

Sakura (@estellardreams) v/s Leo the Hedgehog (@aexonn)

Nova Rose (@spicychimera) v/s Blur the Hedgehog (@muffin-gods)

Spike the Hedgehog (@valerytheweirdo) v/s Spark the Sable (@sci-twi)

Flicker Prower (@burning-stars98) v/s Scrap the Hedgehog (@the-gay-ghost-king)

Fletcher the Fox (@susahnasomething) v/s Amelia Solaral (@lethalbreadkills)

Violet the Hedgehog (@t4tsurge) v/s Horizon the Jackal (@scorpiolight-madd)

Mordred (@mephiles-the-jester) v/s Lapis (@time-of-your-life-au)

Stellar the Hedgehog (@emthimofnight) v/s Rapidfire-Harley Davidson (@confused-bagel)

Nymph the Cat (@einelitas) v/s Sasha the Hedgehog (@sapphanimates)

Star (@sonicgetsrawed) v/s Punchline (@iihavenomouth)

Pegasus (@transzsonix) v/s Chroma Prower (@m3tr0n0m333)

Saydee (@kuroshirae) v/s Echo (@a-crow-with-a-pen)

Neso the Hedgehog (@foolnamedjoey) v/s Aryan (@totaleclipse573)

Dill Picke (@sonilver-yuri) v/s Smith (@koreyeet)

Winter the Lemur (@sonicrewrittenau) v/s Alice (@invisableartist)

Whistle the Wolf (@khalewren) v/s Calamity (@alex-chullin)

Splotch the Hedgehog (@thefakehedgehogaroundhere) v/s Tom the Hedgehog (@ShadowAndSonic96)

Twitch the Child (@colorfulplasma) v/s Mav the Hedgehog (@val-va2)

Vallerie the Hedgehog (@so-called-egg) v/s Aurora (@adhd-sonic-the-hedgehog)

Ebony (@idrptr3) v/s Castor Niclaw (@spiritofrainbursts

Emmie the Hedgehog (@head---ache) v/s Silhouette Rose (@galacticghoste)

Tulip (@silvers-starrway) v/s Sunshine the Hedgehog (@yellowvixen)

Pacífica the Cat (@saku0115) v/s Midnight the Android (@kristhesheep)

Aster (@afuntimepartyy) v/s Beau D'Coolette (@mischeva)

Blitz (@jestopolis) v/s Juice the Hedgehog (@sonlc)

Jade the Hybrid (@carnation-damnation) v/s Autumn (@artist-fan146)

Kaiko (@somemismatchedsocks) v/s Gigi (@w0lp3rtinger)

Ember Robotnik (@the-sky-queen) v/s Sprout "Sept" the Jackal (@snowpearart)

See you on wednesday, everyone! And good luck!

#sonic fanchild #sonic fankid #sonic oc #sonic fankid showdown #also!!! sorry there were some people it wouldnt let me tag properly #please let me know if i misspelled your url or something so i can fix it