#first realisation of the year

[chaeul]

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#first realisation of the year #as I -slightly buzzed- listen through a 00's playlist for old times' sake: #maybe #just maybe #(absolutely) #I didn't simply record the music video to Dirrty and rewatch it multiple times a day back then #simply because I was obsessed with the song (which I was) #maybe (100%- hindsight and all) I also did it because I liked looking at Christina Aguilera in those outfits #being so obscene and confident and HOT #crazy that it took me 21 years to realize haha #personal #(have you seen her? holy fuck!)

[that-nerd-who-writes-fanfiction]

Lancelot: Wow, you're so brave! You didn't even hesitate to throw yourself in danger.

Merlin: That's because I have no regard for my own personal safety. You can ask Arthur.

Arthur: I have never been more stressed in my entire life.

#this is when they first met before Lance realised he could get up to shenanigans with Merlin #a day later and they’re committing identity fraud like they’ve known each other for years #bbc merlin #lancelot #sir lancelot #merlin #merlin emrys #prince arthur #arthur pendragon #merthur #mercelot #arlance #i’m bad at tagging #merlin bbc #incorrect merlin quotes

[0hpotato]

it is complete! [8/8]

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#digimon #hikari yagami #tailmon #gatomon #digimon 02 #krita art #anime fanart #digital art #mine #gotta post everyone together soon #um just realised the first one i drew was 2 years ago ;v; #it took so long partly cause of irl stuff and i had long periods of no art in general ;v; #it wasnt really art block but i was just so tired and couldnt muster the energy to draw #i can feel the years slipping ...

[pierog]

tiny comic about eating toast with friends

#i have sooo many more thoughts about this but i couldnt be arsed making a longer comic..a few ppl seemed to relate so i will put it here #comic #art #artists on tumblr #axolotl #studyblr #academia #<-why the fuck not. it's set at uni #furry #mine #personal #i do wish i spent more time on this but i got 80hd #anyway the experience of loved ones + food is so important to me #and those little moments which you don't realise are so special until they're gone #i'm very bad at living in the present.. always have been.. gotta learn to appreciate wot i have #my hall experience was a mixed bag - loads of fun but also problematic as an institution and i dont miss it #im lucky to have heaps of friends who i love :) #but it's my first year as a Real Adult outside of academia and im trying not to be scared of growing up

[trainwreckgenerator]

sorry for what, bud?

hello hi um hey i just finished dungeons and daddies season 1 today. and uhh ummmmm uhhhhHHHHH

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #dndaddies #henry oak #lark oak #sparrow oak #dndads spoilers #not like really actually spoilers cause this happened like ten months ago but its still big spoilers for anyone still in their first listen #as i was until recently. #the project i REALLY want to tackle next is a best of glenn animated but im realising that the scope of what im picturing amounts to #basically a 5 minute short film that would take nearly a year to produce #so liiiike maybe not. i have like. a job. #my art

[lunarharp]

What led to this (orufrey comic, cw an uncomfortable/creepy scene)

#witch hat tag #orufrey #er.... i'm too tired to have anything to say..i worked several days on this. #wait.. didn't i say just recently here that i probably wouldn't ever depict 'what if alaira is qifrey's sort-of ex'. What's going on #i don't even remember deciding to draw this..it's all a blur..i'm not sure why i WOULD decide to draw delicate scenes in my head #that i wouldn't really want to share with anyone/discuss so why did i draw it... #some part of me really really wants to draw things that are more and more true to myself... #maybe because of my alienation with most romance/shipping/dynamics the rest of the world depicts. #orufrey really is perfectly suited to me - what i read in the text and what is in my head. well anyway #i am TIRED of drawing poses and angles and..maybe now i will actually take a break from drawing bc of the tediousness of Angles #btw it really is a 'stretch of time' . . . assuming witches graduate age 18-20 #well orufrey are canonically 30-ish. they've only had agott around for presumably about TWO years (?) bc she took the test age 10 #and it feels like oru moving in/unknown atelier acquisition/building (?) .. i guess that could be a year or so before agott at most #(she was the first disciple) so... ????????? What about the other 7 or so years ?!?!?!!?!?! Unemployed Brimhat Hatred era #that time is very nebulous. after qifrey went to the tower i feel like it's been implied he and oru drifted apart a little. #certainly they didn't live together at first... no way. that doesn't feel like how it is based on things oru has said about becoming Eye #idk. I'm tired now. i don't usually think of alaira as necessarily qifrey's ex and this being how things went in that 'sliver of time'. #i usually prefer the idea that they have their first kiss with each other in their 30s cause That's Just The Orufrey Lifestyle #just felt like making a more relatable alternative view of my own Cai Orufrey Canon one time. btw im a big monoshipper and it hurt a bit #let's leave it there. this is surely the most i've worked on a 'single' art - though now i realise just how much longer the fic took :')

[hagstones-and-howling-hills]

How are there people out there who don't like Danger Days? Every song is a banger? You don't like bangers? You don't like Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na N a Na Na)?

#listening to the whole thing all the way through for the first time in years #and realising it may be my favourite album actually #it's prolly due to the punk sound but it still rocks #like yeah i know it's different from their previous music #but i love it #mcr #my chemical romance #danger days

[sexy-sapphic-sorcerer]

1: Magic is a Metaphor < 2: Morgana is a Lesbian < 3: Merlin is Gay < 4: Arthur is Bi

Do you remember when you were bullied in middle school? Because if you're reading this, I think it's fair to assume that you were. And your parents would say to you, 'that boy is just being mean to you because he likes you'. That's what this is.

Arthur is just so repressed. He has really bad daddy issues, and he doesn't know how to express his emotions, and he's really uncomfortable with physical intimacy, especially with other men, especially with Merlin. And this isn't me trying to psychoanalyse away his heterosexuality. It is a very evident part of his character.

And another big part of his character is that he has inherited all of these bigoted ideas about magic from his father that he has to work to overcome. Because, of course, Arthur himself is born of magic, but his dad is so ashamed of it that he hides the true circumstances of his birth from Arthur. Honestly, I don't know exactly how that would fit into this whole metaphor. I do have a half-formed theory that it could be interpreted as an allegory for intersex identity, I know that a lot of people headcanon Arthur as trans, so idk there could be something there. But regardless, it is only through his relationship with Merlin that he is able to overcome this magicphobia, because he realises: how could it be wrong when everything about Merlin is so right. And I just feel like there's a metaphor in there somewhere.

Of course, I have to mention this iconic quote from the audio commentary of the final episode: when the executive producer refers to Arthur taking off his royal seal to give back to Guinevere as passing over "the last vestige of his heterosexu- oh sorry, I mean his marriage." So, they knew exactly what they were doing.

I also thought I would just draw your attention to the fact that at one point Arthur says, "I only care about my men, they're more than friends, more than brothers." Now, I think we can all agree that out of context, that is a very gay thing to say, and yet somehow the context is even gayer, because Arthur is pretending to be talking about the Knights of the Round Table, but he's actually talking about Merlin, how Merlin is the only person he cares about, more than a friend. And then Merlin responds, "I understand. I wish I didn't, but I do." It's barely subtext at that point. This of course, brings me to my final argument:

Arthur risked his life to save Merlin at least eight times. It could be more than that, I genuinely lost count. And you have to keep in mind that Arthur is the King of Camelot and he doesn't have any heirs. It is quite important that he stays alive. And yet anytime that Merlin is in the slightest bit of danger, he will just drop everything to protect him.

And it's really only in those moments where he's faced with the thought of losing Merlin that he shows him genuine emotion. Such as in this scene (which was cut out of 4x02 purely because it was too gay) where Arthur is planning to sacrifice himself to protect Merlin, again, and he gives Merlin his mother's sigil, the only thing he has left of his dead mum and he wants Merlin to have it as something to remember him by. Also, apparently in medieval times giving someone your family crest was basically a marriage proposal, so that's pretty gay.

You know what else is pretty gay? Telepathically communicating with Merlin and then immediately leaving Gwen in the middle of an active war. This is literally the last time that Arthur and Gwen ever see each other. Poor Gwen.

In conclusion, Merlin is the story of gay sorcerers and bisexual knights getting into love triangles. Everyone in this show is queer and you cannot tell me otherwise.

#because I realise this is the first post you'll see on the dash: this is all taken directly from a tiktok I made over a year ago #my thoughts on this point especially have developed a bit since then. and this is written for a more entry-level tiktok audience #so it's very lukewarm takes to my fellow soldiers in the trenches #but I'm not expecting this to get much notice and idc/idk how to articulate my thoughts better so just take it for what it is #arthur pendragon #merthur #bbc merlin #merlin #merlin meta #the magic of metaphor

[dragzo]

oh Red Son no-

#i like to headcanon that for years after dbk’s imprisonment #red son didn’t do anything but work on his engineering skills #or just wallowed within his home #pif didnt give a rats butt about what he was doing because she was already miserable dealing with other people #so red son didnt go out much to socialise or learn from the world #meaning there was a lot of things he didnt know about life and himself until after his father was freed #red son has never had any experiece with having feelings #romantic or platonic or anything. he only recognises familial love thats pretty much it #not because he doesnt feel them (duh) but because hes had no one to feel that way about #so becoming friends with goldendragon was pretty hard for him. but he still pulled through #but recognising his feelings for mk being more than that? that was the hardest yet (for everybody) #of course mei figured it out first. and eventually mk did too. but even red son had no clue until they both had to intervene #so red son realising he is no longer as straight as he once thought because of mk is a very real possibility LMAO #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk fanart #mk lmk #lmk qi xiaotian #qi xiaotian #lmk red son #lmk spicynoodles #spicynoodleshipping #monkie kid spicynoodles

[bacchuschucklefuck]

riz gukgak is SO distressing to have as a favourite character I can never funckign rest out here

#not art #smthing abt his character being motivated so equally by truth and fear #and he keeps looking for an institution that'd both help him seek the truth and assuage his fears #with him first being a PI bc his mom was a cop and then a junior agent with blessings from his dad #and hes like on that precipice of realising that its not just the people in the seats its the concept of it from the ground up thats fucked #so hes inclined towards conspiracy thoughts and an end-justifies-the-means pattern of action #like. man. hes just so fucking filled with anxiety. he guards the things that make him happy with ferocity #and the thing is! the world encourages this! every time hes paranoid he turns out to be right #that paranoia that already came from having very little control over a world thats unkind to you #honestly all the bad kids were prime radicalization/cult materials in freshman year but I feel like riz is even More so #theyre so fucking lucky they ended up together like that. there are so many things you can promise a kid #who already had plenty of things taken from and kept from him. a kid with an overworked mom and a missing babysitter #if riz didnt run into the bad kids it would be childs play to isolate him. gods. head in hands I cannot fuckign be here dude #this is why the ''small'' comic I tried to sketch ballooned up to almost 30 panels lmao needed to stuff someof this somewhere #but also skip is my favourite from ASO so maybe I just like experiencing hardship and challenges in daily mental exercises

[thekingfischer]

alejandro fell first

#tdwt #td alejandro #total drama #td noah #total drama island #total drama world tour #alenoah #literally fight me if u think noah fell first hes so stupid itd take him six years to realise #tdwt fanart #td fanart

[oifaaa]

The irony is not lost on me that i complain about how oftern Tim takes over Jason centric stories only to then go out and buy the deluxe version of death in the family which is the version of the book that is half dedicated to tim becoming Robin

#dc #dc comics #also the fact i didn’t realise this until now #despite owning the book for the better part of a year #in my defense #i have 2 copies #the deluxe edition #and my original copy #gotta see my boy die as many times as i can #but yeah just so funny #dc the first offenders #of the #hey what if this jason story had more tim

[sincapjelly]

I just imagined this I'm gonna cry...

One weekend, not so much after the events of BTSV, Gwen's in Miles' universe and he's drawing something or doing his homework while she's resting on his bed. Then Gwen starts laughing to some random video so much that tears come down her face and Miles hears her even through his headphones. He turns back with his chair and starts smiling to her laughing and kicking her feet and tries to ask what is it that's so funny. She says that she doesn't even know what's so funny about it but that she just can't stop laughing.

Miles enjoys seeing her like this because after all that happened, this is the first time she laughs this much.

After she finally can stop herself, she catches Miles looking at her with heart eyes and asks why is he looking at her like that but Miles just says "nothing" and he lays next to her as she continues to scroll through videos.

#no but fr he would be seeing her laughing this much for the first time that he'd be so happy #he just loves her so much ok?? 😭 #Gwen probably did not even realise it but it's the first time she really laughed like that in years maybe #across the spiderverse #spiderverse #ghostflower #gwiles #gwen stacy #miles morales

[aftg-stuff-lol]

HC that Nicky struggles with chronic depression and Erik is the only one who sees how dark it gets. When Nicky doesn't feel the need to clown around for an audience he just crumbles.

#excuse me but I feel like we moved past the little detail of conversation therapy too fast #growing up with two parents that never loved him unconditionally #devouting the very first years of his adult life to two cousins that torment him non stop #we all understand Nicky is fucked up #I don't think we realise how deeply fucked up he is beneath his stupid jokes and easy laughter #nicky hemmick #all for the game #aftg #the foxhole court #andrew minyard #nora sakavic

[dailyserirei]

Ooh what if Serirei just talking with their past selves, it could be chaotic with past Reigen being extremely energetic, but just imagine kid Seri too being so anxious and his future self helping him out. Now past Seri has a friend weee

OUGH!!!!! ageswap au is great actually that i went a little too far made a comic something like this

Serizawa to his 14 years old self (quite long):

Reigen to his 14 years old self:

#anon #ask #crystalv01d #serirei #tried my best make wawa young hair like a little mullet bcus both of them born at the year early 80's btw #yes i calculate that its insane they're so fucking old in the year 2023 #reigen arataka #serizawa katsuya #age swap au #mp100 ageswap #kind of #mp100 #mob psycho 100 #wawa pov: toichiro understand abt his psychic power and drag him to join his organisation and using his power a battery #good part abt what toichiro did to serizawa is let him go out to be socialize. its getting there but he didnt do shit so #toichiro didnt change wawa that much #when wawa met mob he finally realised how he got manipulated by his president #so basically after he met mob and became friends he tried to becoming brave enough to do something #and thats the first part hes trying to change: as in saving reigen's life #and the thing that serizawa is the only one who decided to join s&s so he can be employee in any work he can do #and also decided to go back to educate more as in going to night school #and THAT BOTH PART IS ACCEPTED BY REIGEN!!!! what the #so basically when he improving himself better reigen let him. like reigen said from ova hes not being used badly like before. #all reigen want when serizawa working there is to just make him exorcism and take care. thats it #sorry for the lame ass long tags about this like meet mob opened his eyes. and reigen did the silly diys changed his life. idk #isHOULD STOP

[very-uncorrect]

One of my favourite early years Sonic and Tails dynamics is Sonic deciding he's gonna adopt Tails after approximately 2 seconds of knowing of his existence whilst little toddler Tails is terrified that Sonic is gonna abandon him like everyone else even after months of them travelling together

#little fox doesn't realise this dude would lay down his life for him in a moment's notice #sonic calls him little bro for the first time and tails is caught so off guard (but is so so happy after gettong over the shock) #sonic and tails #miles tails prower #sonic the hedgehog #tails the fox #unbreakable bond #they're brothers your honor #cosmic truth #tails has abandonment issues #he starts crying once he finally realises that he's got a permanent family #this 8 year old fox can fit so much childhood trauma in it