#fic: talk to my angels

[daechwitatamic]

pls enjoy this very real Outline Note from Talk to my Angels

#fic: talk to my angels #jo's writing #trying to get a solid start on this today wish me luck

[hauntedpearl]

I'm such a big fan of immortal cas endgame but he's not an angel, not fully, not the way he was when he came to earth, the righteous man his charge, when the apocalypse was still the most terrifying thing in the world and there was hope of keeping it at bay. but he's not human either, because he can never be, because the body that is his — his — is still not really his. the soul he's grown can't fit in it quite right, not the way a human's is supposed to, anyway.

where does this leave him? somewhere between heaven and earth. with his clipped wings, and his crooked, cracked halo. he'll never quite be human, but he's human enough for his little family of misfits. and he's never going to be an all-powerful angel again, but he's angel enough to teach his son the things he needs to learn, to heal the hurt when he is able, to cross the boundary into heaven when he's called. it's an odd, uncomfortable, terrifying, wonderful place to be. and maybe it's not exactly what he wants, and maybe he longs for his wings and his grace and the power of heaven at the tips of his fingers sometimes, but it's enough, he thinks, considering. he's happy. isn't that kind of the whole point?

#yes i believe this because i want him to have his cake and eat it too #get old w dean and eat his food and feel his kisses and feel the aches of a body the sight of greying hair at his temples etc etx #all the nice human things #but the basic angel things too #anyway #fandom for making shit up amirite or amirite #doe is talking again #spn posting #about destiel #ABOUT CAS ACTUALLY #whatever WHATEVERRRRR #i have a fic planned about this #which. dont know if I'll ever write it but in my head it's SO SWEET #I'll tell you if you ask but it's also haphazard idea so yk be prepared

[valoale]

My bestie and I are sitting next to each other reading

She’s reading the Order of the Phoenix and I’m reading graphic smut

We aren’t the same

#she actually quit reading to read my fic instead #let’s say she was offered better content #I’m back at shitposting #but this is too funny to not share with y’all #drarry #vee talks #bestie tag #she’s an angel she’s helping me bc I’m literally useless with one hand

[shaynetopps]

shayne & damien | angel dust (read on ao3/ playlist)

Damien is in love with Shayne. He also kind of hates him.

#shaymien #smosh fic #mine* #edit* #rpf #angel dust* #this is like my first real angsty fic so i hope y'all like it!! #i like to torture the boys a bit before they can kiss #if you like it PLEASE leave comments or asks #i wanna talk about my boys KFKJDFKJFG

[hannibard]

I found the most perfect geraskier porn au fanfiction with the most delicious jaskier whump from 2020 that I somehow missed till now and when I clicked on the author, wanting to check their other fics, it was an orphan acount

#life is pain #it gave major angel dust from hazbin hotel vibes #especially his song poison (which inspired me to write my current multichapter fic in the first place lol #y'know when you find everything you need in a fic and the author has gone awol? #yeah #text #meme #crispy talks #geraskier #geralt of rivia #jaskier #witcher #modern au #jaskier whump is like a drug to me #i can never get enough #crispy

[mean-scarlet-deceiver]

"Thomas' driver and fireman got along with the local people and married Sundarian women. By 1920 neither one of them wanted to leave Sodor or their beloved engine" You can't tell me these two wouldn't be on demon time, if anything were to happen their little blue tank engine. XD

and anyway they had no job and possibly a prosecution for grand theft awaiting them back home

Thomas's OG crew need more attention tbh. Their IoS backstory is literally just "living every fan's dream." They set the ride-or-die bar. Legends.

And I think TV Series 1 puts some great meat on these characterization bones. I'm too tired to go getting screenshots rn but Thomas's driver really becomes a personality there. The mustache is a great design quirk to make him distinct from the other railwaymen. (It's a shame they failed to use the right lil' wooden dude for "Thomas' Train," which is the story wherein this character gives us one of the funniest bits in the whole season. The way he bounces off a literally bouncy Thomas in this one is hilarious.) Anyway he's such a steady, grounding force for Thomas but especially by the time you get to Ringo's voice for him in the story with the policeman you're like, Oh. Yeah. My man's tired.

Which, valid. Thomas puts him through so much shit. But he would go through the gates of hell for that tank engine.

#ttte #ttte thomas #n.w.r. drivers still angels thank you for asking #if i ever got names and some basic appearance details i felt solid about for these guys you would get fic. like. the next DAY lol #there is a 1945 scene in ffarquhar sheds that lives in my head rent-free #chatter #ttte episode talk #ttte season 1 #the railway series

[wanderingblindly]

i see you reblog a director's cut post, i appear in your inbox <3

pls give me anything you choose as director's commentary on Someone in Seattle because i love her very much okay thank you!!!

see ya, love ya, bye!! xx

oh my god yes please let me talk about the undertaking that was Someone in Seattle i love you so much for this

Usually I kinda give a dissection of the entire fic, but i have a million things to say, so we're gonna start with just one fun fact and one scene:

The Studio Photoshoot:

Originally, their first photoshoot together -- the one with the flowers in the studio -- was going to end in a completely different tone; I wanted some sort of inadvertent confession.

The final version of the scene goes as follows:

“You think I’m beautiful then, Osc?”  Oscar freezes, camera still held up to his eye. Lando’s gaze is sharp but his smile is small, no more than a quirk of the lips; it’s a more serious expression than Oscar’s seen, like his question is earnest. Like there’s more beneath it.  “I –” He starts, lowering the camera to his chest. In a moment of silence, they look at each other, eye to eye. “Fuck off.”  Lando brings his cup to his lips again, not breaking eye contact. “How’s the lighting?” “Getting there.”

But when I first typed it out, there was a slight difference in Oscar's response.

“You think I’m beautiful then, Osc?”  Oscar freezes, camera still held up to his eye. Lando’s gaze is sharp but his smile is small, no more than a quirk of the lips; it’s a more serious expression than Oscar’s seen, like his question is earnest. Like there’s more beneath it.  “I –” He starts, lowering the camera to his chest. In a moment of silence, they look at each other, eye to eye. Quietly, no more than a whispered exhale, he answers: “Yes.” Lando brings his cup to his lips again, not breaking eye contact. “How’s the lighting?” “Getting there.”

I thought it had a lot of potential as a moment because like, Oscar wouldn't really be confessing, exactly, but rather talking about his art. Obviously he thinks Lando is beautiful, or at the very least compelling, if he was willingly to ask him to model for his entire term portfolio. It still would have set him on edge, having to admit something like that out loud, and I think Actual Menace Lando would have enjoyed tormenting him.

It also had the added appeal of like, playing into the conflict at the end: Lando's convinced that Oscar only likes the concept of him, not the actual complicated person underneath. If Oscar had agreed here, it probably would have made that even WORSE.

The reason I didn't keep it is because I didn't want Oscar to start contemplating his feelings yet. I wanted him to continue being an idiot, and I wanted him to be able to pretend that he doesn't feel that way about Lando. Yet.

Oh, and I have some of the Pinterest photos that gave me some inspo for the set up! Here and here and here :)

Soundtrack:

I wrote this entire fic to two songs, which I played for over 1,000 minutes each :) very sane :) I liked the sort of soft wistfulness that both of these have when you zone out to them, it felt very fitting.

#i would love to talk about even more scenes if anyone cares to know!!!!! #or any of my other fics idc!!!! #THANK YOU FOR ASKING ME ANGEL I ADORE YOU!! #ask me :) #directors commentary #Someone in Seattle #Landoscar

[thirteenemeraldcats]

I don't think I’ve seen you post one of those rose for a snippet meme / request things, but just in case you do ever want to share something about any of the fics you’re working on — a snippet or a preview or if you’ve just got any ideas you wanna talk about — consider this an invitation:

🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌷 <- bonus tulip

I said I was gonna get better about using my rose hoard and I WILL! (Also I feel like I owe you in particular for appearing like a common-sense-water-angel in my notes yesterday while my brain was trying to work out why orange was so crunchy 🫠)

From the titled-untitled-technically-redacted-title-jamie-blue-screen-day-fic which I will finish within the week if it KILLS ME.

“Jamie, what’s wrong?” He doesn’t know. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t know. He doesn’t- He’s cold. He’s fractured. His face itches. “Can you hear me?” He can hear him. He can hear him. He can hear him. He can- “C’mon Jamie, you’re starting to scare me here.” He’s sorry. He’s trying. He wants to answer. Really, he does. He wants to speak. Wants to scream. “I need you to tell me you can hear me, lad.” He can hear him.   He can’t tell him.  He doesn’t know how to get his voice working, the distance between his thoughts and his throat is too great; a gaping, yawning chasm he can’t even look at let alone cross. But it’s Roy asking. It’s Roy Kent asking. He tries to speak to him, he really tries but he’s choking on the echoes of a voice that won’t work. That cold thing in his chest is rising up and crashing over his neck again, it won’t let him speak.  He can’t speak. He can’t speak. He can’t speak. He can’t-  He shakes his head. Slowly. Gingerly. He shakes his head. He's still looking up at Roy Kent. At Roy. Tries to tell him with his eyes. He can hear him. He’s sorry.

#thank you again my common-sense-water-angel! #AND THANK YOU FOR THE ROSES #AND THE BONUS TULIP #fic: untitled-jamie-blue-screen-day #rose for a snippet #ask box is always open #i wrote a thing #ted lasso #jamie tartt #roy kent #ted lasso fanfic #readwing #jamiesfootball #real talk how does everyone write so fast #and so CONSISTENTLY #the writers on this website are TERRIFYING #(and i treasure them all)

[leslie057]

miniature. he was miniature.

and when he turned ten he shot a rabbit and cried ALL WEEK. thats a seven day cry. is that not the worst thing youve ever heard.

#i hate it i hate it so much #to make matters worse hes like the best son you could ask for? #like what #stranger things #jonathan byers #text #imagine this is your kid and hes literally an angel and so lovey dovey and quiet and calm and adorable and- #and he- he talks about going to COLLEGE when hes 6 because he is so miniature but he has aspirations #big aspirations and his eyes are so bright and his hearts huge like his hearts the size of texas and he takes SUCH good care of bby brother #and yet?? #you dont love him and you force him to hunt and kill which is the one thing he can barely bring himself to do #because hes that much of an animal lover and has that soft a heart #like i know we’ve known all this since s1 but im just devastated all over again #this is throttlegainwells fault and i didnt even finish their new fic yet because im working my way through it slowly #but its still their fault!

[fearcicada]

God gives his strongest battles to his toughest soldiers (hating j*nmartin in the TMA fandom)

#words #anti jonmartin #ITS EVERYWHERE ITS EVERYTHING. if i find a cool artist i like or a cool tma person with similar opinions to me on some things there's such #a high guarantee thst they also love and post j*nmartin ...even if a tma person does not actively ship it they at least occasionally reblog #and talk about it #only place where there's reliably no j*nmartin in sight is on the jonelias shipper side of things #🙏🙏🙏 #they're always the only mfs with good tma opinions #talking about jonelias shippers as if im not a part of them ha #but its like #looking for fics about a specific ship? side ship with j*nmartin as the main one. or its a poly ship with them. or j*nmartin is endgame #an angel dies everytime i find an artist who draws my fav tma characters really really really well but then i go to their blog and #like 90% of the art is j*nmartin. #^ mostly about having gerry as my fav. the gerry fans are almost always always j*nmartin fans as well #pleaase where are the j*nmartin haters in the gerry loving community #tma #the magnus archives #Jonathan sims #martin blackwood

[angelbitezzz]

Oh yeah I don't know if there's any confusion but the reader in The State of Things is not a self insert for me!! Granted I understand that they share a few of my features, but there is an in universe reason why they look the way that they do! I pinkie promise. (This and the fact that I just didn't want to write a main character who was white, since it's so prevalent in fanfiction for the cookie cutter everyman protagonist to be white)

As for the fact that they have a perseverance soul like my self insert, that's just because I think perseverance is a really interesting soul trait to have, and their reasons for having it are super different from the reasons my self insert has the same trait ^^"

#angel talks #the state of things #tsot fic #the state of things fic #That's also not to mention that I like to hit characters with the “my nationality” beam as it were

[strawbubbysugar]

I say this as someone who always uses anon for questions but uh. I completely understand if you revoke anon privileges after that. I think you should honestly. Good luck, stay true to the story you want to tell, and block anyone who starts shit in your inbox.

Nah. I love getting anons and I don’t want to punish people who did nothing wrong for one person’s actions. If I consistently get more asks like that the. Maybe, but for now, I’m not letting one bad ask ruin everybody else’s fun.

#ask #very sweet of you though thank you Angel #I’ve been told I shouldn’t have responded to that ask but like #I felt like I needed to. both to let them understand that what they said was not in any way shape or form how you should talk to someone #let alone a stranger #but also because I needed to show everyone that it has gotten to a point that I’m genuinely thinking about pausing posting for awhile #because it makes it feel like you don’t gaf about the story or the writing or the plot some people just care about the ending #which. doesn’t feel great #I urge anybody who feels the same as that anon or is upset with my choices to please. just read a different fic #I thought eclipse in so(u)l would be the best of both worlds and also would be the fix for the virus like in the game #and I’m still very happy with that ending #but it sucks to see people so upset

[mossyflowers]

Okay u know what I'm not cleaning this up but still throwing it out because I think it's cool

#ace combat #ace combat zero #cipher ace combat #pixy ace combat #there's so much symbolism thrown into this that i might ramble abt later but we'll see #but yea just like. smth smth being stabbed in the back and being forced to stab them in turn. mutually assured destruction #somethin about angels and bringing salvation (like the reckoning) and demons taking that away. forcing people to stay on earth and 'suffer' #okay i think i need to stop talking before i go insane but yeah i've been having so much fun #more and more tempted to post my fic here everyday because people keep saying it's good #<- the fic is about these two dorks btw. it isnt some random unrelated fic lmao

[achairwithapandaonit]

opened up my google docs the other day to find all my bungou wips from back before i started using libre office (and also switched fandoms) and i immediately began re-writing one of them. like, they all still appeal to me so much in a way that doesn't happen often with my fics. definitely something to do with how many of the light novels i read - those really sparked something in me.

anywayyyy because i'm proud of this little bit i'm gonna share the opening scene for the one i'm rewriting. (it's actually such a struggle not to rant about this one, but if i ever post it i do want it to be kind of a surprise. like i want soooo bad to reveal how i plan to end the fic, but that would spoil the ending. sad)

‘The Armed Detective Agency is innocent.’ It’s funny, the way the book interprets things. The words scrawled over it’s page were written by someone naive, honest, and all around desperate. Simple though they are, they weren’t misinterpreted. The meaning isn’t lost; Dazai doesn’t suddenly become innocent of his laundry list of crime, and none of Kyouka’s victims suddenly find themselves alive. The book erases the crimes pinned on them by the Decay of the Angel, and nothing else. It sought out only what was intended. If someone else had used the book, the outcome may have differed. Different thought patterns mean different outcomes mean different capabilities of using the book to get what is wanted – in theory, at least. Idiots get what they want, because they don’t think deeply. The book seeks no further and finds nothing to complicate. In the same simple way the Detective Agency’s innocence was written, making a person must be easy. For an idiot. It must be simple, for someone who doesn’t think. Or, for someone who isn’t aiming to create much. Sigma wasn’t borne of more than a line. A simple line, like, ‘The Armed Detective Agency is innocent.’. He found himself, in a way only a newborn can. Self-sufficient on the will of his author, he flavoured himself with humanity, gathering personality and experience bit by bit until he became ‘Sigma’. The situation changes when you try to create someone who has already existed.

#it's actually wildly canon divergent now. but when i started writing it it was my speculative post decay of the angel arc au #this au makes me go insane and i can't even talk about it to anyone but aoba ): who is forced to read each and every sentence i write #entirely my own fault for wanting to not spoil it. but ): ): #i'm planning on also continuing the childhood oda/ranpo fic where oda is the emobodiment of /: and ranpo is tsundere about him #it's really cute and writing it was very fun. but it's also by design tragic because oda does not pick up on social cues and really thinks #ranpo hates him just cause ranpo doesn't know how to deal with a crush. and it's also meant to be semi canon compliant as well #watch me never finish writing either of these fics

[iwoulddieforienzo]

Something that makes reading TOA so devastating is how fucking much Apollo feels about Everything. There’s so MUCH. Like I don’t even know how to describe it to you if you haven’t read the books yourself. He has so many complicated thoughts and emotions about just about everything and he cares about everything so much and there is just SO MUCH going on in his head. And yet none of it ever reaches his mouth!!

He almost never says what he’s feeling. What little comes out of his mouth about his thoughts barely even scratches the surface of what he actually means. Like he’ll be having a long ass monologue about how incredible someone is, showing a deep understanding of them as a person and empathizing with them so hard you’d almost think it’s projection but it’s not he’s legitimately just mind melding with this random person he met like a week ago and he’s thinking the softest, kindest thoughts about them like he knows they’re fucking incredible - and what comes out of his mouth is just like, “you’re a wonderful friend :)” AND ITS LIKE. THERES SO MUCH MORE UNDER THE SURFACE. the sheer admiration and adoration he has for everyone around him……… UGHHH!!! But he never VOICES ANY OF IT!!!!!! He never tells anyone about what Zeus did to him……. He never tells anyone except the reader about his realization that Zeus is abusive…. He never even tells commodus about how much he adored him, not then and not now… he refuses to tell anyone when he’s in pain or tries to justify the things he does when he actually had Decent Reasons for why he did something… I’m. I’M. AUGH. AHHHHH

HE DOESN’T EVEN TELL US ALL OF HIS THOUGHTS IS THE THING. THERES EVEN MORE THAT HE IS NOT TELLING US!!!!! THE FUCKING OCEAN OF FEELINGS AND THOUGHTS HE HAS ABOUT EVERYTHING IS THE CLIFF NOTES VERSION. I AM IN DISTRESS.

And YET…. Even what slips out of his mouth is so fucking devastating it is SO devastating. He’s so fucking kind and gentle with Harley and Meg and and other younger Demis and his kids… he’ll act like an obstinate idiot and then turn around say something that drags the core of the person he’s talking to into the light like nail on the fucking HEAD like he reached into their soul and gave them the words to express something that they were struggling to say aloud or that they didn’t even realize about themself. Around the 2nd book he starts putting voice to some of his feelings and thoughts about others and even that tiny fucking sliver is overwhelming to the people he’s talking to bc he’s SO. AUGHHHH

#this is why ‘reading the TOA books’ fics fucking slap btw. because as embarrassing as his thoughts can be #so many of them are just incoherent screaming about how he loves everyone around him. devastating #like imagine helping out ur loser deadbeat dad who you don’t really know much about bc he’s flighty and hard to read #and finding out ‘wow he cares about us a lot more than I thought’ #bc he literally almost dies to save you/your siblings and keeps following you all around everywhere #but he’s still like. your weirdo absentee dad. u don’t know hardly anything new about him other than an apparent suicidal streak #and then u find out that the whole time he was whining about chicken nuggets or whatever he was internally sobbing abt how much he loves u #and every time u were nearby he was going ‘MY BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY… JUST AS INCREDIBLE AS THEIR MORTAL PARENT!!!! BEAUTIFUL LIKE THE SUN! #HOW DID I EVEN MAKE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL PERFECT BABY. UNREAL. THEY CANT BE MINE!? BUT THEY ARE!!! LOOK AT THEMMM!!?!!! IM SO PROUD…… #my beautiful perfect angels… all of their parents best traits and none of our worst…. I am Barely restraining myself from sobbing #i would give u the WORLD if my father wouldn’t kill me for it :(‘ #and it’s like. wow. okay dad. um. would have been nice to know that when we were all dying in The War #Please Hug Me Though. #imagine being a Random Ass Demigod who didn’t go on a big special quest or something like you are literally just Some Guy #and finding out that this weirdo loser god u gave a sandwhich to or something thinks you are so fucking cool #your own parent doesn’t know ur name but Apollo knows u on sight and read ur soul within the 2 seconds yall talked and he thinks you rock #how are you supposed to respond to that. #snack time #toa #longpost

[wanderingcas]

the thing i can't reconcile with early seasons interpretation of destiel is the thought behind dean "teaching cas free will". that bitch was canonically reprogrammed for thousands of years, over and over, before meeting dean. AND he rebelled against heaven without a single blink of an eye, dean just basically gave him a reason to. so it's less like he was the lesson, more like the catalyst? idk. just always felt that way to me??

#in my lighthouse fic i'm writing i have dean being very 'good soldier good son' like he was in the first couple of seasons #kinda pre-angel storyline dean #and i'm realizing he actually was less chaotic and rebellious than cas ever was lmao?? #cas's energy was like i have a molotov cocktail IN MY HAND. tell me where to throw it #obviously spn spanned for years and years and lots of development with both of them happened past s5 #so i'm talking specifically noir spn #but anyway #it's interesting!! #sam rambles #if anyone has thoughts on this i'm really open to discussion because i am curious about what other people think