#ffs the boys are so fucking brilliant in this song

[babysnowred]

I think some people have forgotten how much of a game-changer Spring Awakening was, and respectfully to them I say: Miss me with this bullshit.

... Oh, by the way, I will protect Touch me with every fiber of my being 'till the day I die. It's a fucking masterpiece and it deserves to be sung AT THE FUCKING TONY!!!!!

#spring awakening #ffs the boys are so fucking brilliant in this song #SKYLAR AUSTIN WAS BORN TO SING THAT SOLO OK???? #BRIAN JUST... IF HIS PART IN THIS SONG DOESN'T MAKE YOU FEEL SOMETHING IDK HOW TO TELL YOU THIS BUT YOU'RE DEAD INSIDE #JON AND JOHNNY SINGING TOGETHER WILL NEVER NOT OWN MY ENTIRE FUCKING BEING #GIDEON IS A FUCKING ANGEL #and the lyrics #and the music #Only hymns upon your lips #A mystic wisdom #rising with them to shore #Baby just tell me #All is forgiven #Consume my wine #Consume my mind #I'll tell you how #how the winds sigh

[b0nten]

2 HIGH 4 YOU

[SYNOPSIS] ˚⁀➷｡ the boys with a short s/o

[NOTES] ˚⁀➷｡ hakkai draken and baji being tall, me projecting because i’m short

HAKKAI

let's face it - it's almost impossible you're taller than hakkai.

ffs, he's 183?!?!

my 158 ass could never..

this smug, cheeky little bitch

he LOVES to take advantage of his height.

you can't reach the cereal? it's okay, hakkai the gentleman will be there to help you <3

yeah, no .

he will help you, that's for sure.

but don't expect him to do it just like that.

he'll swing whatever you want to have over your head to make you jump up

then he'll bend over you to stick out his tongue and taunt you.

again, he's an insolent little shit but he will give you your thing under one condition.

he wants a kith <33

as i mentioned in the hugging headcanons (don't mind the self plug😇😩), he loves and adores to carry you on his back.

piggy-back rides with hakkai are 💯/10 would definitely recommend.

i don't know if it's physically possible, but for the sake of this headcanon we'll pretend it is.

he's the type to grab you unannounced and then walk around with you as if you're a fucking shoulder bag.

literally.

he will hold you under his arm like a big plushie he just won at the arcade.

loves to crush your lungs & the air out of them but it's totally okay because he's cute and apologizez after leaving you (literally) breathless for twenty minutes.

uses this as punishment for when you don't give him his 'thank you' kith for 'helping' you get what you want off a shelf.

i'm not just gonna not mention this..

HIS HANDS ARE SO BIG AND PRETTY

HE'S THE ONE WHO COMPARES THEM ALL THE TIME BECAUSE HE LIKES HOW SMALL THEY ARE AND HOW FRAIL AND DELICATE THEY LOOK.

likes to come down to your height to kiss you.

or he lifts you up so hard you have the impression you're about to be catapulted into outer space.

he most likely calls you shorty or shawty or some other dumb shit he's heard in a song and googled its meaning on urban dictionary.

conclusion: he teases you a lot but sometimes he's cute 🙄

DRAKEN

he's 185

im out 🧍‍♀️

why are they all so tall?

the difference between draken and hakkai is that draken is mostly RESPECTFUL

(hakkai better take notes smh.)

HE'S SUCH A GENTLEMAN

looks at you with heart eyes because you're so small and cute he could crush you just by stepping on you (in a cute way) and because of that he wants to protect & treasure you <333

doesn't tease you (unlike others) and if you can't reach something he'll simply give it to you and kiss your forehead.

you fit in his lap perfectly.

back to those hugging headcanons (no im not stopping with the self plug😇🥀), he rests his head on top of your's.

that's the only thing he does to tease you and even then, half of the time he's just really tired from balancing his head on that long ass neck.

why did i think that was funny.

cuteness overload draken will sometimes analyze your fingers and compare them to his .

once he got mad when you said his fingers look like very long McDonald's french fries.

he forgave you with a kiss tho😇

BAJI

baji "only i get to make fun of your height because if someone else does, i'll tear their limbs off" keisuke likes to tease you about your height as well.

googled his height earlier today.

175

I'm walking myself out 🥳🚶‍♀️

i can't do this they’re way too tall.

baji doesn't tease you nearly as much as hakkai, but when he does, it's painful.

one time you and baji were sharing a crepe in Harajuku and this mf had the brilliant idea to start mocking you.

took the crepe and moved it from left to right above your head and when you tried jumping up, he had the audacity to lift his long ass tree-branch arm up.

he stopped when someone stepped in thinking he was bullying you.

you hoped that was the end of keisuke baji's torture, but nope😇🙏

this bitch

once you were hanging out with chifuyu and baji literally said 'i think you're so smol and little because you shrink every time you take a shower', and you had never wanted anything more than pull his hair out.

meanwhile chifuyu was out there almost choking on his yakisoba noodles because of laughter.

if someone you aren't too good of friends with dares comment on your height while he's around, he'll beat the shit out of them and probably call his homeboys to watch it as well.

one time he was walking you home from school and you ran into a classmate of your's.

baji liked how you two got along, because it's important to get along with your classmates, but all that happiness was gone when he (the classmate) made a comment on your height, which led to one about your body.

that's when he saw the sparkle in your eyes get dimmer and dimmer and they started to swell with tears, so keisuke said 'fuck it.'

he called his friends and told them he's 'about to beat a bitch up. a bitch, not a guy, because guys don't comment on one's insecurities and know how and when to stay in their lane.'

punched that bitch in the nose & took you home to cuddle <333

likes the feeling of holding your small frame in his arms so it's hard to convince him to let go if you're cuddling.

#tokyo revengers x reader #tokyo revengers headcanons #tokyo revengers imagines #hakkai shiba #hakkai shiba x reader #ken ryuuguji #ken ryuuguji x reader #draken x reader #draken tokyo revengers #baji keisuke #keisuke baji #keisuke baji x reader #tokyo revengers baji #tokyo revengers #tokyo revengers baji headcanons

[chicken-poncho]

thoughts whilst watching jet trash

holy shit, is that cparks doing the voiceover

Great, we're 30 seconds in and I'm already dying inside

Why the fuck is he taking about bears

I'll be ur baby bear Craig

Oh god he's so gorgeous

Who is this child

IS THAT HIS CHILD

OMG KLAUS IS IN THIS

why are they playing Christmas song

oh it's Christmas Eve

SMACK ATTACK

I want to spend Christmas on the beach with someone

@whumpnthings i choose you

Robert 'i just masterbated in the ocean' Sheehan

This film has no subtitles i am :(

'hes found us' i want cparks to find me

cool vibin montage!

TITLE CARD ✨👄✨

'idk the rules but that excited me'

c r a i g omg h e l l o

mmmm drugs

Who is this cool gal on bike?

OH NO SHES LOOKIN FOR ROBO

who is mike, helo mike

why everyone so fuckin hot in this film

where the fuck did mike get that knife from oh my god

ITS HUGE

that's what she said

'i have no idea what day it is' welcome to lockdown

this film is so pretty? WHAT

oh no, they fell of the bikes

plot twist- it's not

sick omg tarot cards

its the eye fuck bit, aaah

Robert Sheehan struggling to speak? same, dude i am a fuckin disaster

you fuckin fuckin fucks i felt that in my soul

please tell me cparks + rshee got married

Shame on them, what cowards

cparks yelled and i jumped

that's a very dead cow

hope they don't get into any, uh, beef

MiKe yOu fUcKeR!

drugs + parties + people make me so nervous literally I'd rather hang w my few mates and do em rather than w a bunch of odd people in a field

Actually that sounds fun, i am a wimp

I was expecting robo Sheehan to hit someone with it and i was gonna laugh

Alas, i was WRONG, this is not a lindsay denton tribute

so, cparks, you want someone to dump a body in the lake? Well, the 1975 said there's no point in buying concrete shoes so

incase you were wondering

aw shit it's the motorbike gal

why is this film so pretty

OmG Hi mIKe

mIkE yOu cAnT FuCkInG sWiM

bye mike

that fuckin buzzin noise is back ffs

oh no mike drowned?

oh no that's DRUGS IN THE SEA!

the sound on this film is so janky wtf

its so soft and quiet and then fuck my ears hurt

mike literally is Tilda Swinton in doctor strange what the fuck

'you are going to prison'

what, is this gonna be ghosted 2.0?

i don't object

anyway

'i don't care what car you drove'

Yeah but them hot pink range rovers are sick as fuck and very very cool

HANG ON, THESE 2 ARE MAKING OUT AND I'M PRETTY SURE THERE'S A BODY IN THE BOOT

eh, crime is seggsee

the fuckin BOOT JUST OPENED

abort abort abort abort

oh thank god, he's not dumping her body?

ARE THEY GONNA BEAT UP CPARKS

hold up boys, I'm coming with you!

lemmie just

guys

GUYS

it's the hottub scene!

oh sorry Craig its a jacuzzi

My bad

oh GOD

why did i think craig was going to smack him

there's bubbles oooh

who is the guy in the sunglasses 😳🥺

CrAiG sToP cHoKiNg LeE

'guys wanna bang girls and girls wanna stay the the uk'

well, isn't that disgusting

erm, wow its getting ✨violent✨

Excuse me he just fell in the pool

i know he's not dead yet but there's a

(and his name is ✨Craig Parkinson✨)

why are cows so fuckin CUTE

guys, lee sucks

it was shay oh no he took the money

where is Craig CMON HURRY UP

Nice, they just referenced the films title!

'im so so sorry' cool story bro

AYO HES HERE

oh wow it is his kid

Craig, you suck

MIKE NICELY DONE MATE!

jesus that kid is gonna have so much trauma after that car chase scene

RIP CRAIG, WHY DO U ALWAYS DIE

oh good he's not dead

this small child really fucked them over wow

is he gonna kill the kid CRAIG NO

EXCUSE ME

STOP

STOP TRYNA KILL A KID

Im No LiAr no but you suck

bye bye Craig, stop dying

god bless this woman for getting outta that shitty relationship

that kid is so cute

this is a vaguely happy ending! w0w

THE KID STOLE THEIR MONEY? nice

brilliant, 10/10 mother+daughter bonding

mkay that's it, idk if you made it til the end but ✨thank you if you did✨

#Spotify #welcome to the shitshow #Jet trash #Jet trash reaction #live blogging #Film commentary #i think dylan is in trouble wouldn't be proud of that shit show #Craig Parkinson #Robert Sheehan #welcome to the illegality tag #this film is so beautiful

[lightwoodsmagic]

Hi! So I agree Liam is queer, and the pink🔺in his video compels me not to ignore it. I saw one of your Ziam posts making its rounds after the SIU video, so I thought you were the person to ask. I only joined the fandom after Zayn left, and I’ve always had a hard time finding info on why and how that played out at the time (nobody seems to agree). Could you elaborate (or link to previous posts) on why you think Ziam is still a thing, and how they are telling us? Thanks for your insight so far!

 Hi anon! 

Thank you so much for thinking of me! I’m sorry it’s taken me a little while to answer, but it took me a bit to gather all the info I wanted (while I should’ve been working oop).

Okay, please know that this post is gonna be loooooong, so I’ve popped it under the cut.

You’re right about nobody agreeing on Zayn leaving the band, and it makes sense that people have differing views. It’s such a complicated thing; there was a lot happening at the time. 

I’m going to start by saying there’s a brilliant masterpost about Zayn leaving here. It’s incredibly detailed, talks about pretty much every aspect of it, and there’s so much to look into. It’s also wonderful to demonstrate how much the boys and Zayn still hinted at things and loved each other, like Harry using Zayn’s mic one night, Liam talking about him fondly in interviews, Niall still calling him by his nickname, and Louis wearing his clothes.

It’s a long read, but incredibly worth it, as it this stunting timeline.

Everyone is absolutely entitled to their opinion, so I’ll just give you mine. I’m gonna keep it (kind of) short though. A lot of what I’m about to say can be found in the masterposts I’ve linked above.

I believe that Zayn leaving was out of his control, and was never completely his decision. I believe that he was set to return, but for some reason, the plan changed. Mind of Mine was apparently written before he left, and while I think he would’ve been working on solo music before he left (and that all of them were to some extent), to tease an album right after the announcement that he left makes no sense. A contract like the one that 1D had/has with Syco would cost an obscene amount of money to get out of, and Zayn’s net worth didn’t change at all. They made it seem so simple in the very few interviews with Zayn afterwards, saying he just called his security, got on a plane, and left. I think Zayn struggled a lot with everything, they all did, but I don’t think he could’ve just left. There were articles put out about his new album that mentioned Simco and everything, but when people pointed out that it didn’t make sense with the narrative that Simon felt ‘betrayed’, the references were removed straight away. 

There’s also a very solid theory that MoM was counted as One Direction’s sixth and final contracted album, and it really stands up. Check it out! 

Look. There’s a lot to unpack with the whole situation, and I’ve hardly touched on it at all, but I really do encourage you to look into it with everything I’ve linked above  💞

Okay, now onto the second part of your ask! 

Ziam. My loooovveesss.  

I’m going to start by saying that there’s a lot of ways that Liam and Zayn have hinted that they’re still together, and honestly? The boys ain’t even subtle about it. I’ll start by talking about heaps of ways they’ve done that since Zayn left!

Alright, let’s start with the fact that they WILL NOT STOP LIKING, REBLOGGING, AND RETWEETING POSTS FROM ZIAM ACCOUNTS. 

(x) (x)

These aren’t subtle Ziam accounts, and it’s not just these examples. This also isn’t just something in the past; that bottom right one references Stack It Up.

They’ve also both reposted fanart from a well known Ziam where each drawing referenced the other one. 

(x)

The Zayn art says ‘Love Payne’ on the beanie. Well then. 

And the Liam one? That he posted on his personal insta? The artist added the ‘love’ tattoo from Zayn’s hand onto Liam’s. It’s obvious, and it’s not like Liam wouldn’t have noticed that suddenly there was a new tattoo added ON HIS OWN HAND. 

Not very subtle, hey.

It’s also not the only shady social media activity related to the boys  👀

There was the time that Liam explained why he’d written ‘personally’ twice in a thank you post in his insta story to Bvlgari. 

But he hadn’t. What had happened was that Twitter account @TheZiamNews had made a small mistake, and had actually written it twice. The only explanation was that Liam saw it on a Ziam update page VERY quickly, thought he had made the original mistake, and then explained. Interesting that Liam keeps up to date with them. 

There was also the time Liam blocked an account for talking absolute shit about Zayn, or when Herbie Critchlow (a producer from Icarus Falls) retweeted a tweet about Common being about Ziam. Also can’t forget Brandon Colbein posting on insta about some songs he’d written, and somehow there was one for Zayn and one for Liam. 

Oh, and when Liam’s friend Andy (who seems to…split the fandom, but alas) posted a video of him listening to Icarus Falls, or every single mirroring insta post Liam and Zayn can’t seem to help making.

And their eyebrow slits! 😊 this goes allllll the way back to One Direction days.

(x)

Now, this is a constant, recurring thing for them over the years.

It’s usually at the same time, and it usually signifies something. 

Zayn went ALL OUT one day, just after Z*gi ‘broke up’, and put a slit in his eyebrow, but it wasn’t a normal one. It was in the shape of an L. That fucking sap. Not to be outdone though, Liam popped a lil’ Z in the graphics for his show last year in Japan. 

SAPS, THE BOTH OF THEM.

Now, jewellery. 

OOOOOF are we in for it now. You’re probably regretting this ask already. 

Cartier. 

Say that single word around someone who believes in Ziam and you’ve lost them forever. 

Back in 2015 (so yes, a while ago but bear with me) during the OTRA tour, Zayn suddenly started wearing a gold Cartier bracelet. It was interesting because Zayn didn’t wear bracelets at the time. It was particularly interesting because Liam had been seen earlier that day with jewellery bags buying a present. Curious.

Or obvious. 

Either or. 

A similar thing happened when Zayn attended the ‘Straight Outta Compton’ premiere, one of his first appearances after he left the band. He was wearing a Hublot watch, which was also interesting because Zayn didn’t wear watches either. 

But GUESS WHERE LIAM HAD BEEN 2 DAYS BEFORE THE PREMIERE?

You’re damn right, anon. It was Hublot.

Now, the Cartier love bracelet. 

This picture was posted when Liam was getting ready for the Brits in 2017. For those that don’t know, the Cartier love bracelet has little screws, and can only be undone with a little gold screwdriver that comes with it. 

Liam wore it everywhere that year, and so often. It didn’t make sense for it to be ‘given to him by Ch*ryl’, because they would’ve used every opportunity to show that damn screwdriver. 

But they didn’t, because she didn’t have it. Zayn did. 

There’s also the other matching bracelets they’ve worn by Alexander McQueen.

And also the other time Zayn wore Cartier in his film clip, or the fact that Zayn started wearing a ring on his right ring finger that was sold and marketed by Cartier AS A WEDDING RING. 

They also share watches if Zayn decides to wear one, because they’re cute like that.

Now, they also share clothes. 

So many clothes, ohmygod. 

(x)

A prime example of this actually happened just last year! TWICE! IN NYC WHEN LIAM WAS THERE (obviously to see his husband). Both times, Liam was out and about wearing two of Zayn’s jackets. 

It’s also absolutely not a coincidence that when Zayn was staying at G*gi’s apartment on Bond Street, Liam stayed at a hotel a few minutes away a number of times, but when Zayn moved to Soho, Liam suddenly switched hotels to one in Soho, a few minutes away from Zayn’s new place. Just can’t stay away from an old band mate you hardly talk to, hey. 

Also can’t ignore Liam wearing numerous Kooples shirts during the time Zayn was doing promotional stuff for them. Husbands givin’ gifts.

 NYC isn’t the only city that relates to Ziam though! 

Ahhhhhhhh. Ziami. What a time, what a time, what a time (for you and I).

Anyway. 

At the start of last year, Liam and Zayn were both in Miami at the same time filming music videos for Let Me and Familiar respectively, arriving either at the same time or a day apart. It was at a time when Zayn was all over his socials, posting poems and selfies and generally being his relaxed, gorgeous self, which wasn’t incredibly common for a while. 

People were convinced they could hear Zayn in one of Liam’s insta stories, talking in the background just before Liam realises and raises his voice. It’s definitely not firm though, and Liam has someone in his team with a similar accent, but I’ve linked it so you can judge for yourself! Regardless, we knew they were both there, but it was a fun lil’ talking point!

Anyway, according to people who live in the area and know the coastline, they were in the same area at the same time, and we also knew that Liam wasn’t with Ch*ryl because she was back in the UK. Now, Liam posted an Instagram story the next morning half naked in bed, his 4 tattoo (we’ll get to that) and roses on full display, and saying he’d wrecked his voice. 

Well then. 

He also posted this. 

It was a video, but it was Liam, in his room ‘alone’ with two desserts for breakfast at a time when we knew Zayn was there and no one else was, and he suddenly had no voice. 

Okay okay, we get it. 

They also consistently reference the number 25, and honestly, no one knows why the fuck.

Just casually on Liam’s jackets and shoes, Zayn’s shoes and a shirt that was sold (even the red and yellow, ffs Zayn), and also Zayn’s NECK, which he got in 2018. There was also chevrons on a collection for Zayn, just like Liam’s tattoos.

Speaking of tattoos Zayn got in 2018. 

That big, red wolf on his chest just up there?

One of the biggest Ziam things to ever happen. 

Red was Liam’s mic colour in 1D, everything they fucking do seems to be related to red, and Liam’s nickname is Wolfie because he’s from Wolverhampton. 

It’s a red wolf, directly on his chest, and it’s 100% for Liam. It’s not the only red wolf tattoo Zayn has; he also has one on his leg with feathers, just like Liam’s feather tattoo. 

The media often talk about the eyes Zayn has underneath that, and that they’re for G*gi, but the eyes underneath are so much lighter than the surrounding ink, the shape fits easily, and to me, it seems clear they’ve been done in a way that they can easily be inked over. It was designed for a cover up, and hopefully it’s coming. Zayn also has Liam’s name literally inked into his skin. 

They also have coordinating hand tattoos. The mandala on Zayn’s hand and the roses on Liam’s are explained brilliantly in this post. The two of these together mean ‘Symbol of Eternity’. Fucking hell. 

The three roses on Liam’s hand also translates to ‘I love you’. FUUUCCCKKKKKKK.

Liam also wore a ring for a while, until he was forced to take it off, but then he rebelled anyway, and got this.

It’s important because not only is it on his wedding finger, it’s also what he said about it, and when he got it. 

Now, not only is 4 as an angel number about changing the only things that you can in a situation, but Liam directly said that’s what it was. He can’t wear a wedding ring, so he did the next best thing. 

It also came when Liam and Ch*ryl became ‘official’, and when he’d already quashed marriage twice in an interview. Interesting choice, then. He also spoke of the 4 and a ring forming a halo, but still somehow shut down marriage talk? 

…….okay then. 

Some incredibly brilliant people pointed out that it also came just before Valentine’s Day.

And just before he started wearing the Cartier bracelet from earlier. 

There’s also the blatant references to a gorgeous, loving relationship throughout Icarus Falls, especially in Common and There You Are. There You Are was pushed as a Z*gi song, but people realised it was impossible when they found old pictures of the name of the song on his original plan for Mind of Mine, and realised it just hadn’t made that album. It doesn’t fit their timeline at all, but it does fit Ziam.

We don’t see Zayn very much at the moment, and I’m glad that he’s taking his time just doing what he’s doing! It does mean that we hardly see them interact or reference each other much, but I have absolutely no reason to believe they’ve broken up. The fact that they’re both still going through PR relationship bullshit, and the timing of Liam getting a ‘girlfriend’ right now instead of just rumours is very interesting to me, because Z*gi officially finished again not that long ago. When one is ‘single’, the other can’t be, it seems. 

This isn’t even everything, anon. They’re not subtle; Zayn just isn’t in the public eye as much. 

Everything they do screams love, devotion, and commitment to each other. 

And it’s fucking gorgeous.

#ziam #zayn leaving #ziam tattoos #ziam coincidences #zayn malik #liam payne #ziam evidence #masterpost

[sionnables]

So… 

Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist, you guys.  

Let me explain something first: the Broadway musical First Date is my SHOW.  I mean, it’s NOT-- I had no part in the creation or performance of it, obviously.  But it’s “mine” in the way that people tend to take possession of things they like, you know? 

“That’s my song!” 

“That’s my precious fictional baby!”

Or, I guess, like that weird thing sports fans do when they insert themselves into their favorite team, like, “we need to box out the endzone and get some points on the board” or whatever.

First Date is mine not only because I loved it, but because it felt like the creators reached into my heart, plucked out all my experiences and emotions, and put them up on stage.  I mean, it went to TATTOO LEVELS, so you know it’s both serious and a little ridiculous. 

 Six years later, I still fucking love that show. 

(The intensity has gone down a bit, but that’s probably the best for everyone.)

So when I happened to find out that the book writer of First Date was the creator/writer of Zoey’s Extraordinary Playlist AND it was a musical, I obviously wanted to check it out.  It was delayed slightly by a deep-dive into a Schitt’s Creek hyper-fixation (David and Patrick can have my entire heart and, like, overall existence), but I finally started watching a few days ago.

And it is delightfully First-Date-y.

It’s also a really good “I can’t handle anything too sad or heavy right now due to reality” option.  There’s some romantic angst and family tragedy thrown in, but it’s not like This Is Us: The Musical or anything (thank christ-- seriously, how does anyone watch that show? It’s Ugly Cry Central over there).

I’m not going to do the plot summary thing because Google exists.  But here’s the thing: yes, there are multiple tropes here that have been done to death (*cough*lovetriangle*cough*), but you know what? The show is cute, the cast is really talented, and the writing’s pretty effing funny. I don’t need groundbreaking television to be entertained. And I’m a sucker for “nice comedy” nowadays, you know? Like, I could never get into Glee because the characters were HORRIBLE to each other. I can’t do a show full of selfish, mean people, it just doesn’t work for me.  Give me a well-written ensemble comedy where everyone messes up but they’re ultimately trying their best and growing, and I’m pretty much in.

That all being said, here’s what I need to discuss (spoilers ahead, obviously):

1) Zoey’s definitely got that whole Zooey-Deschanel-adorkable thing going on, but you have to appreciate a show that is like, “STEM Women FTW!” because we need that.  Also, maybe it’s Fellow Millennial Empathy, but I appreciate that she has no idea what she’s doing and is still trying so hard to be a functioning and successful adult, WHILE dealing with family tragedy, AND sudden musical powers, AND being a woman in charge of a department full of men (girl, been there done that), AND confusing mushy feelings. It helps that Jane Levy is so talented that I was convinced she was British (she is not).

2) Mo. Is. Everything.  More representation of gender-fluidity is wonderful to see, for one thing. But he’s also the smartest character on the show, as well as the most well-balanced and emotionally mature.  And his VOICE, okay? I love that it seems like Mo is going to sort of be Zoey’s guide through all of this, and I’m looking forward to seeing their friendship grow.

3) Simon is a gorgeous, gorgeous man.  If he was at ALL single, I’d be like, “Zoey, hit that IMMEDIATELY”. But I don’t love the direction that their relationship is going (HE IS ENGAGED, FFS) OR the whole Jessica vs. Zoey thing they’re pulling.  I’m willing to give the first part a pass because both of them are grieving and emotional instability can definitely equal bad decisions (we may not like it, but you can’t say it’s unrealistic). But that second part? Simon is way more to blame than Zoey. No more girls hating on girls, okay? Like, I don’t want Jessica and Zoey to necessarily become besties (that whole “it’s always about your dad” comment was way too awful for me to like her THAT much), but you know what I mean. The longer this goes on, the less I like Simon.  And it’s such a BUMMER, because I feel like Zoey and Simon could really use each other, platonically. 

4) Speaking of not liking people, Zoey’s brother is a dick. Not ONLY because of the shit he pulled with going out to bars instead of being with his PREGNANT WIFE/STRUGGLING MOTHER, but that whole thing about him having to “convince” his wife to have kids when she didn’t want them? YUCK. He’s the one character I do not like at ALL and I hope that Emily leaves him and ends up an awesome single mom with a hot boyfriend. I’m glad Zoey told her what was up. GOOD. WHAT A JERK.

5) Zoey’s mom is amazing and deserves the world. That is all.

6) Full disclosure: I am 100% Team Max. But within that 100%, I’m 50% Zoey Is Clearly Not Ready To Date Him Or Even Process Her Feelings About Him Right Now So He Needs To Just Be Her Friend and 50% Zoey Is Clearly Terrified Of Feelings And Max Might Need To Push Her a Little To Get Her To Get Past That.  This is coming from a place of experience, because I was once terrified of feelings and commitment and basically my husband is only my husband because he chose to ignore the many, many times I tried to break up with him and was very persistent with me. Please note that this DOES NOT MEAN that Max needs to be all pissy about “friendzoning” and/or pushing TOO hard, TOO quickly. Which he’s sort of toe-ing the line with, at the moment.  I don’t think that Zoey ever really gave him the impression that she was interested in him romantically before the whole “flash mob” debacle (I cringed when Mo said that touching his shoulder and having him come over to watch a movie was leading him on, because please don’t do that, writers, Mo is too smart and progressive for that BS), and the flash mob itself was a really weird, out-of-character move (at least thus far) for him.  Look, I get the whole “omg, Max can hear her/no wait, there’s real singing” thing was an unexpected twist, but I’m not a fan of twists over characterization. Max knows Zoey, and I think he’d know that declaring feelings in public while making her the center of attention would not be her thing (but I find public proposals super cringe-y, so maybe that’s just me).  I’m sort of not happy with that. What I DO think is appropriate is him asking for some time/space after she asks to just be his friend-- I count that as being respectful of her decision and needing some breathing room to disconnect his romantic feelings towards her. I also don’t blame him for being upset that she knew his feelings way beforehand and didn’t say anything, or for being upset after seeing her sing to Simon. The singing thing is not Zoey’s fault at ALL, but that is some serious emotional whiplash! Nevertheless, I hope these two are endgame and don’t hurt each other too much in the process. That boy will do ANYTHING for her, and I kind of love him for it. Please don’t turn him into a “Nice Guy”! Also, can we all agree that he outsang EVERY SINGLE ONE of the Jonas Brothers with “Sucker”? Goddamn!

7) Tobin is so stupid, but WOW is that character a brilliant representation of every single, straight, young, insecure, emotion-denying, Reddit-using, product of toxic masculinity gamer boy that you’ve ever met in your life. Holy SHIT. They’re nailing it with him. He is 100% the guy that yells a “make me a sandwich” joke in front of his friends and then goes home and cries about not having a girlfriend. I have met 10,000 versions of Tobin in my life and he CRACKS ME UP. Bless him.

8) Leif is Draco Malfoy and I hope that Joan is using him for sex and then ditches him in a humiliating fashion. IF THEY MAKE HER FALL FOR HIM I SWEAR TO GOD. She’s too smart for that. I want Joan and Mo to take over the world together.

9) I don’t want to talk about Zoey’s dad. HE’S FINE. EVERYTHING’S FINE. HE’S TOTALLY GOING TO GET BETTER. THIS IS A HAPPY SHOW. 

Okay, I think I got all of my thoughts and feelings out. Until next week, at least.

#zoeys extraordinary playlist #zoeysplaylist #ZEP #this is too long #i apologize #but i mean #we're all stuck at home so at least it wastes some time #mention of a broadway show that i will not tag because reasons

[fineosaur]

2019 year in review

thank you for tagging me, lovely @thesilverrqueen !

(none of these are in order cause my indecision doesn't let me)

Top 5 films (did i even watch 5 movies last year??)

1. shutter island (i had been meaning to watch this one for years and finally did, god.. such a brilliant movie. definitely a fav)

how to train your dragon 3 (httyd franchise coming to an  end??? biggest rip but also cute asf i could rewatch all 3 over and over without getting bored)

spider-man: far from home (a spider-man movie with jake gyllenhaal??? excuse fuckign me of course this is on the list he looked gorgeous w his hair and beard. fuck me jacob.)

ek ladki ko dekha to aisa laga (a lesbian bollywood movie?? in my brown house hold??? thank fucking GOD. cried a lot at the end, still think about it till today and not to mention how much i love sonam kapoor and rajkumar rao)

el camino (GOD... the hurt i felt watching this and looking at jesse... man how i missed him. the pain was caused mostly by me remembering the kid in the yellow oversized hoodie who smiled and laughed and then seeing the traumatised man he’d become. just.. breaking bad sequel done right.)

Top 5 TV-shows (literally the only shows i actually ended up watching this year

peaky blinders (i started a while back, life happened then watched the whole thing again this year w the sis. fuckin wow, i cannot. i miss u john)

fleabag (if you havent watched fleabag???? sis wyd, STOP what you're doing and watch it now. this will probably go down as one of my favourite shows, humour, cynicism, love??)

derry girls (teenagers being allowed to be teenagers for once ffs, not giving us model looking supposed 16 year olds?? thank god. also giving glimpses of how the conflicts of that time affected their lives. just nice)

that 70s show (the episode names really just .. i couldnt stop. season 8 doesnt exist pls and thank u.)

the haunting of hill house (a horror show thats actually good?? it exists?? yes it does. and plus they let me stare at kate, carla, michiel and oliver for 10 episodes.)

(game of thrones who???)

Top 5 songs (can u believe only FIVE SONGS??? this shouldve been 5 albums but i’ll concede) 

mission - catfish and the bottlemen, the balance (ugh that beginning??? van u kill meee, “im sure you know what you’re doing now, if there’s a wall son, knock it down” & “you know i’ve shown you the ropes enough to know that almost dont count for nothing now, so go ahead make the missus proud” then the beat?? ugh i listen to this on repeat and just die;)

2all - catfish and the bottlemen, the balance (hits HARD and in the best way. all of the balance is just so dear to me i can’t imagine this year without it and will definitely be sad not to have new music from the boys until they decide to bless us. “i gave my love to all, all the ones that stuck around” which is also a quote i’ve stuck on my laptop.)

social cues - cage the elephant, social cues (i’ll just say it now, but cage the elephant kills me,, and matt’s voice is just always good to me. so when the album came out ofc i cried. “hide me in the back room, tell me when it’s over. dont know if i can play this part much longer” the way this bit is.. with the change in beat and matt’s singing just thank you. black madonna from the album is another fav)

wars - of monsters and men, fever dream (of monsters and men came out with a new album;........ WHEN I SAY I DIED --I REALLY DID. their music always has been transcendental to me so this one did what was promised. “love you on the weekends, but im careless and im wicked,” just... neato i cannot)

vulture, vulture - of monsters and men, fever dream (favourite song on the album, has been on repeat all fucking year. “i dont know about these heavy hands..” god the line, the way it’s sung just hits me)

Top 5 books

the glass menagerie - tennessee williams (hit me too hard and too close, the whole thing and the ending absolutely wrecked me ,,, tom wtf)

a storm of swords - george r.r. martin (everything about these two parts were just damn, i needED THAT. damn u george)

salt to the sea - ruta sepetys (oh god, i read this in a day whilst listening to handkerchief thief WHILST there was a storm, i got so immersed into it it was fuckin insane. ending is amazing and still sits inside me. the writing is beautiful i could reread this one over and over.)

the magic of reality - richard dawkins (dawkins is just.. explanation of everything in the best way possible for a fellow agnostic/atheist)

the fall of house usher - edgar allan poe (do i really have to elaborate? short story that leaves u unsettled)

5 positive or happy things that happened this year!

came out to my best friends  (who were both supportive as hell)

finished school! (good fucking riddance, cannot think of the last 2 years without getting nauseous)

got closer to a few friends that always manage to make me laugh stupidly (one of which is one of the few people actually staying in the country with me for their studies and has noted that i am now stuck with them for the years to come)

met some incredible people through tumblr (yknow who you babes are)

wrote for someone other than myself and got to practice something i love so dearly (thank you allll so much for allowing me to do so and enjoying something so dear to me)

im tagging @thelandofnothing @yanak324 @jjclarku @starkyards @aryasbadbenergy @princess-of-winterfell99 @watersandwolves and anyone who wants to do this, names aren't coming to me 

#tag games #about me #2019 in review

[rocinawanda]

the end of an era

game of thrones finale. spoilers of course

I loved the finale. I cried multiple times. The first half of the episode moved a little slowly but after Dany died it picked up and got to where I thought it would be.

I feel like this post needs to be really long to convey all my emotions regarding this show like how hearing the theme song at the end continued to bring me to tears. So i’ll just go character to character to make this easier.

Daenerys. I still love her. I loved her all the way through the series and that hasn’t changed. She needed to die and I was not surprised that it happened I started suspecting it two years ago. Because I saw it coming I didn’t feel much sadness when Jon initally killed her but when Drogon came up and started nudging her with its nose I started bawling. I’m still hurt I felt Drogon’s grief and him burning the iron throne was amazing and so poetic agh I cannot. I am so glad they didn’t kill him because I was wondering before the episode what would happen to him after she died. My theory was that they would “set him free” and I guess it pretty much came true he took her body and flew off east. Probably towards Valyria or something I don’t know but I’m glad he’s alive and away from Westeros.

Jon. I’m sad. I kept saying “it’s not fair!” but it is. Sending him to the wall, bringing it full circle. I’m sad for him that he’ll never marry or have children and ffs he gave his life for the nights watch once just to end up there again its bittersweet justice. However, seeing him reunite with Ghost I SQUEALED AND HIT EVERYTHING HE GOT HIS GOOD BOY PATS and riding off with Tormund and the Free Folk almost felt right for Jon like there was no other ending that would suffice. Like they could’ve made him king simply because he was the heir but this felt right for the end.

Sansa. or should i say QUEEN SANSA QUEEN IN THE NORTH LADY OF WINTERFELL OMG. I’m still yelling. I was wondering why she was hesistent to Aye Bran becoming king but yes I remembered she wants the north to be independent and I can agree with that. and HOLY FUCK IT FELT SO GOOD. DID YOU SEE HER MY QUEEN. Whenever I think about it I start yelling. She got the ending she deserved. She has been shown to be the best ruler the North could have like lets be serious. I’m so happy for her. Its also very funny like a Stark is King of the Six Kingdoms and the last kingdom is also ruled by a Stark aka HOUSE STARK FTW.

Arya. When she started the “what’s west of Westeros” line I started sobbing I knew instantly that she was going to go find it. I can see that is where she would want her life to be. Because honestly, I didn’t know what Arya would want to be I couldn’t come up with any theory because I had no idea, I know she didn’t want to be a lady, I was sure she didn’t want to be a killer/assassin anymore. But an explorer? I can fuck with that. Sad about Gendry I was hoping the shots around the boat would show him beside her but that would be pure fanservice he is Lord of Storms End now and I need to accept it lol.

Bran. All hail the king. UNEXPECTED. He was probably the last person I would expect to become king but damn they made it make sense. He will be a good king. I don’t know if he can be helpful strategically but hey the last king after a war was Robert Baratheon and he was only good at war and was a terrible king so I think Westeros could benefit from one that is very smart, wise and can recall all of the mistakes their ancestors have made in little time. Also his comment at the end that he may be able to find Drogon made me think he was gonna try to Warg him but like from how far away lol. Also when Tyrion said ‘Bran the Broken’ I did start crying because idk I felt it, like damn he really is the king and that is his title.

Tyrion. GLAD he didn’t die. Being hand of the king is his position lol that last small council scene was brilliant although I am still surprised they actually gave Lord of Highgarden to Bronn the whole scene was hilarious. Gold. But damn Tyrion, he’s been hand of the king twice now and hand of the queen. Also Glad Davos is a lord now and on the small council he deserves it.

Grey worm. I was worried what he would do in the end but I’m glad he accepted it and him and the unsullied are going to Naath.

Game of Thrones. I have loved this show. I have watched since season 4 aired so around 5 years now. I will miss this show so much. My blog name is literally thronesense for game of thrones and sense8, two shows which have now ended. I don’t know if i’ll eventually end up changing it, probably. Nevertheless, I have loved watching the world of this show grow and the characters grow with it. So many twists and turns that I have enjoyed SO MUCH. I will allow it to live on for me through me rewatching it over the years and the fanfiction i’m sure people are already writing lol.

Altogether I can say that my favourite seasons of game of thrones in order from my most to least favourite go S4, S3, S6, S8, S1, S7, S5, S2. I can say this now after rewatching and seeing all of season 8. Each season had parts I enjoyed and parts I didn’t it was just that some like season two had more parts that I didn’t find interesting than ones I did. Altogether they make up an incredible tv show that I won’t ever forget.

#my name is thronesense #thrones comes from this show #and i will miss it so much #got spoilers #house stark #game of thrones #jon snow #daenerys targaryen #sansa stark #bran stark #arya stark #got #and now my watch has ended #until i binge the whole season and show again #tyrion lannister

[lifeinahole27]

CS ff: “On the Two” (Chapter 4/9) (au)

Summary: He’s one bad trip from ending up in AA, and she’s one performance away from a solid job and moving closer to home. Their paths were unlikely to cross until Camp Hope brought them together. How and why they meet and intertwine is against the odds, and definitely against the rules, but will that really stand in their way? A Dirty Dancing inspired modern au.

Rating: E

Content Warnings: Borderline alcoholism, very brief mentions of past relationships, mentions of the loss of a limb - this fic is primarily tame but I’ll do my best to tag anything that might need tags.

Chapter Specific Warnings: None!

A/N: The dance lessons begin! I am so excited to share this chapter. It’s one of my favorite parts of this whole fic. Thanks to all of you who are reading, commenting, liking, reblogging, and messaging. In a lot of ways, this fandom has gone very quiet, and the support is much appreciated. I worked on this thing for a year and that it finds any readers is something that means so much to me. I hope you all continue to enjoy it!

Catch it on FFN & Ao3! Or find the previous chapters here on Tumblr!

Chapter 1 | Chapter 2 | Chapter 3 | 

Of course, Killian’s not terrible at dancing. Not by a long shot. They spend the first day on basic steps, with Killian staring intently between the mirror and Emma as they work on form and movements. He’s even better with his hips than she initially realized, which makes her job a little easier.

The biggest struggle is working on something much simpler than form or footwork. Killian is terrible at eye contact. And the longer he avoids actually looking at her, the harder it gets to teach him the easy stuff. It doesn’t help that the air conditioning chooses this hour to fuck off, and Emma spends a minute stretching, going one more time to fiddle with the knobs in hopes of getting some cool air into the room, and then she switches the music.

Killian, still in front of the mirrors, doesn’t even look over. His expression is one of determination and irritation, and she’s curious as to why those two are mixing together. But first, she needs to get her partner to trust her. She watches him stare down his reflection, his feet moving repeatedly in the simple pattern she taught him to start, a furrow of concentration wrinkling his forehead.

“Hey, come over here for a minute.” She waves him over as she spreads a couple yoga mats on the floor right under where the fans circulate so they have a nice breeze. She grabs a second water bottle and hands it to him, smiling as he drinks it as if he was stranded without for days, taking a singular moment to appreciate the way the sweat drips down his temples. Then she’s back to business, sitting down on one of the mats and looking at him expectantly until he folds his legs and sits down across from her.

“Hold out your hands,” she instructs, waiting until his hand and prosthetic are stretched in front of him, his elbows resting on his knees. She turns his hands palm up, placing her hands in his immediately after. He flinches, immediately trying to pull away from the touch, and Emma lets him.

“What is this?”

“A trust exercise. When you’re ready, put your hands out again, and make eye contact with me.”

She watches him, never wavering, keeping herself calm even as she feels the way her ponytail is sticking to her neck and a drop of sweat is traveling down her lower back. She knows that if she flinches, the whole thing will fall apart.

He exhales heavily, grabbing the towel she placed next to the mat for him and swiping it across his face. He takes another drink from his water before he shrugs his shoulders and settles back into the same position he started in. After a couple seconds he slowly, ever so slowly, holds out his hands again. Emma gently places her hands in his again, still steadily staring at him and waiting. After a few more deep breaths, Killian finally looks up and meets her eyes.

Three, four, five, six… She holds his gaze for ten seconds and then nods to let him know that it’s okay to break the contact. He looks down, but doesn’t move from her hold.

“Tell me more about this job,” he prompts.

“So there’s this old contact I have. She fits the Type A personality descriptions too well, but she’s opening her own hotel. She wants to make it like old, upscale hotels used to be, with live entertainment in a lounge setting. The day I went into town to do my laundry after we uh, first met, there was the email basically inviting us to audition.”

As she talks, Killian looks up and holds eye contact with her. “Why do you need me to dance with you?”

“With Ruby out for a month, that would leave maybe a couple days for her to get ready to dance. While she knows what she’s doing, she’s going to have to work her way back up to speed. I don’t want her dancing that soon after being cleared for putting full weight on it, just for the sake of a job possibility.” She waits a beat, figures she can push it and get him talking a little bit, and then asks a question of her own. “You can choose not to answer this, but why the rum?”

“I’ll spare the details, but I will say the loss of my hand and my heart left me a little empty. Drinking has been a way to fill it and waste away the days.”

His heart. The loss of someone close. And she doubts it’s as tame as her shitty breakups. She doesn’t ask him to clarify; besides, she doesn’t have time to when he asks his next question.

“You got rather defensive when I said I wouldn’t dare dance. Why that response?”

With a whoosh, Emma blows a lock of hair out of her eyes. Before she can answer, Killian squints his eyes and looks at her closely.

“An ex-lover, correct?”

“Two. Two ex-boyfriends. One is the big regret of my life and the other was just an ass.”

He nods, following her lead and not asking for further explanation. “Tell me something else,” Killian says, clearing his throat. He’s managed to keep his eyes locked with hers the full time and she doesn’t want to break the streak they have going. “Anything. Tell me anything.”

She doesn’t know where the words come from but all of a sudden it’s coming out in the open. “I was raised in the foster system until David’s mother took me in. Uh, David Nolan. One of the owners of this place. Ruth adopted me and I finally had a family in her and David, and then after he got married I had a sister. And I’ve had Ruby by my side all this time, too.”

She shrugs and smiles, fighting with herself to keep looking straight at him when she suddenly has the urge to look away. Open up about exes? Sure. Open up about her family? No, thanks.

“A lost boy always recognizes a lost girl,” Killian says quietly. “My mum died when I was young, my father left not long after, and it’s been me and Liam as long as I can remember.”

“Why do you hate the camp so much?” Emma’s not sure why she’s even asking, but for some reason she feels the need to know.

Sadly, Killian finally breaks the eye contact that they’ve been holding but it’s to chuckle. He shifts his arms, but doesn’t let go of her hands. His fingers squeeze her hand and he sighs restlessly as he looks back to her. “I’ve not been in a good place for a long time, obviously,” he says plainly. “Liam tricked me. Told me we’d be going home for the summer, but instead dragged me all the way to bloody Maine.”

“That’s the funny thing about Storybrooke and Camp Hope, they’re the home you didn’t know you needed,” Emma tells him, not realizing how true the words are until her heart constricts. “That’s the other reason I want this job so bad. It’s down in Portland, and the trip is half as long. I want to move closer to home.”

They’re both quiet for a long time, and Emma smiles not just because she wants to keep Killian at ease but because he’s already doing so much better at looking at her. From the hunched, grumpy man she pre-met at the grocery kiosk to this moment right here, there’s already a marked difference.

“Well, then you better teach me how to look like a professional so I can help you get that job.” His smile after this statement is genuine and brilliant, and Emma can’t help her own from mimicking his.

Without further ado, she clambers up to her feet and holds out her hand to help him up. After he’s standing again, she shakes his hand in agreement that it’s time they get to work.

“I’ll be here after dinner,” she says, noting that she has a lesson starting in just twenty minutes and she needs to get food in her stomach before that time. “We can at least get some extra footwork in if you can spare the time.”

“I look forward to it, Swan.”

As the next week wears on, the lessons with Killian get better and worse. By all standards, it’s not the worst experience Emma’s ever had teaching, but yet…

“No,” she says for at least the fifth time in a row. “No, no, no. You move on the two, not the one. Try it again.”

Despite looking frustrated as hell, Killian resumes his hold, sucks in a deep breath, and exhales as they wait for the song to start. She catches a glimpse of them in the mirrors from her periphery. Her ideal aesthetics that she imagined before asking him to dance with her are purely figments of her imagination at present. They’re both sweaty right now; his cheeks are pink from the exertion, her hair is falling out of the shitty bun she put it in earlier to get it off her neck, and they could both give a kid nicknamed “Pit-stains” a run for his or her money right now.

It wouldn’t be nearly so bad if the humidity hadn’t rolled in full-force the day before, blanketing the whole camp in a heavy haze of summer warmth. The meager air conditioning in the studio is struggling to keep them cool, but with how long they’ve been at this today, even the ancient unit is no match for their activity levels.

They start again, and though Emma just told him not to move on the one, he still flinches, his foot raising up, and she can feel the movement without looking down to see it. She glares at him in the split second it takes for the second beat to occur because now he’s thrown off – now they have to start over. Again.

She doesn’t even move from the hold, just angrily jams the button on the remote that will start the song at the top again. While the stereo system takes its sweet time to configure, Emma tries her best not to glower at him the whole time. “Do I need to start counting out loud again?”

His reply is something along the lines of “No, mistress,” but the song starts again and she holds firm as the count begins. He does his best to hide his smile in a look of pure innocence, and suddenly, she has to fight her own smile. Despite her grumbling and bickering, he’s still been injecting the whole lesson with quiet humor and thus, keeping her from tensing up too much. This time, he moves on the two.

The next day, they almost manage to get through the new section of the routine in one go. He messes up a bunch, but they don’t stop, and Emma counts that as progress in her book. With the performance just three weeks away, she needs more runs like this, and faster.

Maybe that’s why she snaps when he starts fidgeting around, but mostly it’s because of the heat and the looming deadline, and the worry that someone is going to notice that whenever there are gaps in her dance lessons and class sessions, she’s pretty much not leaving the studio. If David or Snow have noticed her skipping breakfasts and lunches, only relying on whatever Killian grabs from the dining hall, they haven’t said anything yet. Maybe they just assume it’s because she’s picking up Ruby’s lessons, now. Whatever the case, she needs them to stay oblivious for a little while longer.

She turns around from taking a deep gulp of water from her bottle to see Killian with a storm cloud above his head, his expression lost and faraway. He may be keeping practices light, but she still catches these moments of his, and while she assumes what it must be about this time, she still asks.

“What’s wrong?”

They’ve gotten extremely good at communicating since Emma’s little trust experiment, so Killian doesn’t really hesitate before he speaks. “They’ll all be staring at my hand, or lack thereof,” he says, his eyebrows furrowing and his lips drawing down into a frown. He’s fixating on the fake flesh of his left hand, having switched over to this attachment after the first couple sessions instead of his hook. She doesn’t care which he uses, as long as it’s going to be where it needs to be while they’re dancing.

“No, they won’t,” she tries to reassure him. She sets her water back down and wanders closer, trying to get him to center in the moment rather than whatever dark place he’s gone off to. He barely even glances at her this time. While they’ve shared a lot in their time together already, there’s still so much buried beneath his surface – there are demons waiting at every turn, much like she deals with when she’s all alone at night.

“They will.”

“They won’t. They’ll be so focused on your movements they won’t even realize one of your hands isn’t real. You hear me?”

In fact, Emma constantly forgets that he doesn’t have two hands, not because she’s insensitive to his lack of hand, but because they’ve managed to edit any movements that would make him uncomfortable with it. She forgets because it’s part of him, and she accepts him exactly as he is. She just doesn’t understand why he can’t see that. She moves to stand in front of him, her hand reaching out to touch the prosthetic in a move of solidarity.

“Yeah,” he responds, not even bothering to try and look at her this time.

“Hey,” she stresses, stepping into that personal space they’ve worked so hard to establish between them. She makes sure she’s got his full attention now, his eyes locked with hers, her hands gripping the open sides of the button down she can’t believe he’s wearing in this heat. “You hear me?” she repeats, her tone leaving no room for argument.

His eyes are wider than she’s ever seen them, and his breath smells like the coffee he chugged down a minute ago. It whooshes out of him and brushes against her with the closeness of their proximity. “I hear you,” he says softly, his tongue darting out to wet his lips.

The warning bells are all going off like crazy, but for once she doesn’t listen to a single one of them. Instead, using the leverage she has on his shirt, she pulls him forward the rest of the way and kisses him. And oh, what a kiss it is. Where he’s still this side of timid on the dance floor, there’s no hesitation in the way his lips move against hers. Even less when he’s the one to initiate some tongue into the action, just requesting entrance before mapping out the roof of her mouth. She feels his hand come up to tangle in her hair and she’s hyper-aware of the way she’s on the tips of her toes, damning herself for not being in heels at this moment. Her muscles scream their protest but all she can concentrate on is sucking in a deep breath before diving back in for more.

She’s kissed before, and she’s been kissed before, but this is the kind of kiss that songs are written about. This is the kind of kiss that would come with the swelling of instrumentals and a panning shot of the sunset or rainbow in the background of the sappy rom-com she and Ruby like to watch in their downtime.

Hours may have passed since this first began and she wouldn’t even know it, but when she does stop, the reality of the situation slams back into her. He still looks a little dazed, like he’s floating on a cloud, and when he starts to speak he only gets out, “That was…” before she cuts him off.

“A one-time thing,” she says, forcing herself to release her grip on his shirt and step back. Lost in the after-effects, she can only turn in her own haze of emotions. “Don’t follow me. Wait five minutes and then take the rest of the day until after dinner.” “As you wish,” he says, his voice strained and longing in those three little words. She bends and picks up her shoes and water bottle on her way out and doesn’t look back. It’s only once she hits the door that she realizes she tasted nothing but the coffee, and wonders when he stopped sipping rum before their sessions.

-x-

Killian’s had some bad ideas in his life. One was not tucking and rolling out of the car when Liam told him where they were going. The second was listening to Emma when she said he could do this. Judging by the way her face is pinched for the third day in a row, he’s pretty sure she was overzealous. They haven’t been able to move onto a new section of the routine since that kiss, but the day is still young and he’s come to the dance studio with a new brand of determination.

And by “determination” he means that he’s had way too much coffee and he’s been practicing in his cabin all night.

As they warm up, he stays focused on the task at hand. From the corner of his eye, however, he can see Emma looking at him. They’ve never talked about the kiss, preferring instead to both pretend it never happened so that nothing has to be more complicated than it already is.  

By the time they’ve made it through all of the routine that he’s learned so far, he feels like things are finally on the right track. He doesn’t shy away from the steps or the eye contact today. He pays attention to every little cue Emma gives him. He definitely does not think about how she felt when she clung to him during the best make out session he’s ever had in his life.

He can’t speak for her, but Killian is much more aware of everything that she’s been trying to teach him. He’s more attuned to her body’s movements, and without realizing it, on the third run-through, he follows the muscle memory that she’s been instilling in him this whole time. After just a half hour of working, Emma smiles at him – a genuine smile that he hasn’t seen for days now – and claps her hands. This expression on her face is worth the fact that the entire front of his t-shirt is soaked through.

“Okay! On to the next part.”

Hiding his activities from Liam has been both the easiest thing in the world and the hardest. It’s simple because Liam is so lost in his own adventures that he doesn’t notice Killian isn’t drinking himself into oblivion anymore. It’s difficult, though, because while Liam hasn’t noticed he’s not three sheets to the wind every day, he’s definitely picked up on the fact that Killian isn’t at the cabin for much of the day.

Most days that he leaves, he wanders out in the clothes he’d be wearing if he were going for a walk or down to the main lodge. As it is, he shows up at the studio having to damn near strip some days as he enters the space with the malfunctioning air conditioning.

Today, the whole spacious room is cool and breezy, and Emma quips that they’ve finally gotten a maintenance man to look at the AC. “It won’t make it to next summer, but it’ll do for the rest of this one,” she remarks as they set up for a new section of the dance.

They get lost in their practicing, until Emma’s phone beeps an alert from near the stereo. “Okay. Let’s run the whole thing, best you can, and then I have to clean up and get the studio ready for a yoga class.”

This has been the system for the last two weeks since they began this process. They practice in snatches between Emma’s schedule and the studio’s, having to scurry away and clear out before someone else needs the space.

He follows her lead, figuratively speaking. She doesn’t invite him to her cabin to keep practicing, doesn’t offer to come back to his. And so they stick to whatever time they can use the dance studio and then go their opposite ways for whatever length of time they don’t have that space available.

After they make it through the choreography to Emma’s satisfaction, she lets the music play a little longer as she continues her steps. When it comes to something he obviously would’ve been part of during the dance, she finally tapers off, her shoulders sagging as she finally relaxes.

“Good. Getting better. By next week we should have the whole thing together and it’s just a matter of making sure you look perfect and professional up there.” She makes a noise of surprise, and while Killian doesn’t see anything amiss, there’s obviously something that has just gone off in her mind at her own words and he wonders, but she doesn’t share.

“What time later?” Killian asks, retrieving his t-shirt from the floor where he stripped it off earlier. It had taken a great deal of self-pep talks for him to take it off at all, but even with the air bringing relief, this is the most physical activity outside of a bedroom that he’s had in ages. If his watch is to be trusted, he’s also burning enough calories to allow him to eat for hours on end without making a dent in the progress. He’s noticed, also, that some of his clothes are fitting looser than they were when he got here. It’s all exhausting, though.

“Six. I have two more lessons today but I also have to run into town and get some things done,” she says, grabbing a dry mop from the storage closet next to the stairs. He holds out his hand for it, knowing she still has other tasks to complete in order to leave the studio clean for the next instructor. She hands it over gratefully, going to stash her gear and clean up their discarded towels and water bottles while Killian pushes the dry mop over the polished floors.

“I should have shoes for you before next week so you can start to adjust to those,” she says as if going down some mental checklist of things as she works. She takes a cloth and cleaner to the mirrors, finding all the spots they would’ve made by accidentally (or not so accidentally) leaning against the reflective wall over the last hour.

While Killian usually has no difficulty pushing down his attraction for Emma, as soon as he sees her facing that wall, seeing the way her image is reflected back with her sweaty hair and her pink cheeks, he works on finishing his task faster in order to escape. All he can think is how pretty she’d look, flushed for a whole different reason, with him behind her in that mirror, and he has no room for those kinds of filthy thoughts right now. Not when he’s determined to hold up his end of the bargain and work as hard as possible to make Emma look good and get that job.

“All done,” he says shortly after, stashing the mop and pulling deeply from his bottled water before throwing the empty container in the recycle bin by the floor. “Need anything else?”

She looks at him, not turning from the mirror, her eyes meeting his in her ditto image with a familiar flash of heat in them. “No,” she says at length. Finally turning away from her cleaning and moving to put away the solution. She gathers the towels and rag and turns to him with a distracted smile. “No, that’s it for now. See you later.”

He waves on his way down the stairs, and he’s just opened the door when he nearly runs head first into someone else.

“Killian?”

“What are you doing here?” Killian asks, trying to hide his nervous surprise at seeing Liam at the studio.

“I could ask the same, little brother. Taken an interest in dancing?”

“Thought a lesson or two might be fun,” he says, managing the lie easily enough. He’s positively matted down with sweat, but either Liam doesn’t notice or he thinks Killian really is that badly out of shape.

“Good on you,” he says, a smile lighting up his whole face.

“Killian, I forgot to ask… Oh. Hi.”

It’s difficult to not lock up at the sound of Emma’s voice yelling out behind him, especially when she was clearly not expecting him to be so close with another pair of ears in attendance.

“What did you forget to ask?” It’s Liam that asks for the clarification, since Killian’s throat seems to have closed up entirely in the shock of the moment.

“Ah, just if he still wanted to learn the Waltz, too.” While her voice stutters just a bit, Emma is clearly better at getting through this situation than Killian is. “I’m Emma, one of the – well, the only dance instructor right now. You must be Liam.”

She reaches past Killian to hold out her hand, her body heat nearly pressed against his back when she moves to get closer. Her hand rests on his lower back to hold her steady as she leans forward, and Killian wonders if Emma’s heartbeat has sped up at the contact like his has. Liam shakes her hand, an almost wary look entering his eyes as he does. It probably doesn’t help that Emma looks just as sweaty and disheveled as Killian does, and his eyes widen at the picture they must make and what assumptions Liam is probably jumping to right now.

“That I am. Nice to meet you, lass. My brother’s being a gentleman, isn’t he?” That tone, of course Liam thinks he’s shagging Emma.

“This one? Meek as a mouse sometimes,” Emma says with a hint of a laugh in her voice. He wants to remind her of the night at the staff lodge and that kiss she started and see if either of those moments were “meek” but he has to settle himself with an aggravated noise and a forced smile. Her hand twitches where it still rests on his back.

“Wonderful. Well, if that’s all, I’d like to escape this bloody humidity,” Killian says, turning to give her a look that says everything he can’t right now. With the grin she gives back to him, he’s pretty sure she knows. “Until next time, Swan.”

He starts to wander in the direction of his cabin, but before he walks two steps, the small blonde that runs the yoga sessions is bounding up the path and exuberantly greeting Liam. The words die in her throat when she sees Emma at the entrance of the studio and Killian just in front of them all.

“Oh, hi. Am I early? I know you said you’d be here at ten til, but I’m not double booked, am I?” She’s breathless and smiling, even if she looks puzzled beyond reason.

“No,” Emma says quickly. “I slipped an extra lesson in during my lunch break. We were just heading out. Studio is all yours.” He looks at her while she says it, really looks, and so that’s the only reason he sees the expression that crosses over her features. It’s something like suspicion, with her own hint of guilt. He wonders what’s just gone through her mind, but he decides he’ll ask later when he comes back.

With a vague wave, she’s moving around the back of the studio and off towards wherever her cabin is located behind. He watches her go until Liam clears his throat, but before he can say whatever he clearly wants to say, they’re interrupted again. More voices on the path announces the arrival of the rest of the class, and he notices again the bashful look on Liam’s face and the light flush to Tink’s cheeks.

As the younger of them, Killian wants to beat Liam at giving him the Look, the one passed down through generations of Jones men that means there’s clearly need for them to talk in private, but he’s met with the same expression on Liam’s face.

“I’ll see you for a late lunch in an hour?” Killian inquires as he starts moving down the path.

“I’ll see you then,” Liam affirms, turning to follow Tink into the studio with the rest of the class walking in behind them.

While he wants to poke around and find Emma, he also knows his boundaries. He also needs a shower, and fresh clothes. With that thought, he pulls out his phone and finds Henry in his contacts, already working on figuring out how to handle laundry as he makes his way back to his side of the camp.

“Yes sir, Mr. Jones?”

“Henry, it’s Killian,” he says, extraneously, as the lad will never loosen up on the title. “I was wondering if you could tell me where to take my laundry so I can have some fresh clothes. I seem to have gone through my supply of certain items and Liam is the one that’s been handling all of that.”

“Of course, Mr. Jones. I’ll meet you at your cabin with my cart and I’ll take you over to our laundromat. All free of course, for guest use.”

“Excellent. Just give me twenty minutes and I’ll be ready for you,” he says, picking up his pace and actually jogging across the campgrounds towards his cabin.

He showers as fast as he possibly can, grabbing whole armloads of all the clothes he’s soaked through and shoving it in the laundry bag he finds at the back of his closet. He’s just barely ready when Henry knocks on the door, and he greets the young man more enthusiastically than he did the first time he met him. That Killian feels like someone he forgot about, quite frankly.

He’s thankful for the ride to and from the laundromat, and Killian assures Henry that he’ll be fine on his own to go switch and retrieve it later on. He makes sure to press a ten dollar bill into Henry’s hand, giving the young man another genuine smile as he checks the time. Liam is due back at any minute, and he knows that whatever they talk about will shift how the rest of this vacation goes for them.

Having slacked on the grocery kiosk order for a week, Killian hobbles together a quick lunch consisting of nothing more than peanut butter sandwiches, thankful for the very last of the bread and jam. He’s refilling his own water glass and setting another for Liam when the screen door opens and his brother walks in.

“So tell me about your sudden interest in dance. Or should I say a sudden interest in dance instructors?”

“If you’re insinuating what I think you are…”

“You know I am. You know they can kick us out if you’re sleeping with the bloody instructor, right?”

“Aye, which is why I would never think to jeopardize our time here by doing so,” Killian says. He’s surprised by this sudden turn in the conversation, but he’s not sure why. He should’ve known Liam would automatically assume he’s doing his best to muck up a good thing. He’s becoming more and more aware of the fact that Emma is that off limits to him, so he doesn’t need the reminder that he’s falling for her shoved back in his face.

It takes a moment, but he realizes they’re both standing behind their chairs, glaring daggers and breathing heavily as if setting up for a brawl.

“I’m not fucking her,” Killian says, making sure to speak the words calmly.

Liam stares at him for a solid ten seconds before his shoulders relax. “I believe you. Can you tell me why you’re suddenly so keen on lessons?”

“No. Because it probably is against the rules, but it’s nothing to do with romantic entanglements. I promised Emma I would help her with a predicament, and that’s why I’m spending so much time with her.”

Liam looks at him for another long moment before dropping his chin to his chest and exhaling loudly. “Fine, fine. You keep your secrets. Just as long as you’re not breaking any laws, I can’t really complain about the fact that you look like you’ve lost nearly a stone since we arrived.”

Killian makes a loud noise at that. “It’s not been that much, you arse.”

Instead of answering, Liam finally seats himself at the table and motions for Killian to sit, as well. The rest of lunch is passed by Liam talking about what he’s found to be his favorite activities, including the yoga sessions that Tink runs in the afternoons.

“Before you jump to your own conclusions, she’s easy to talk to. I’d agreed to help set up the studio with her today which is why I was there early. Had I known the studio was already occupied, and by you no less, I would’ve barged in to say hello.”

“Well, don’t start skulking about hoping to catch us up to anything, unless you want to see some terribly dreadful rhythm.”

“I doubt that, brother. You were always good with learning new things, and you were born with mum’s rhythm in your blood.”

The words help, somehow, knowing that even though Liam doesn’t fully know what he’s up to, he still believes in him.

“Perhaps we should start up lunches together after your yoga sessions,” Killian offers when their sandwiches are gone and they work together to clean up their mostly-tidy kitchenette.

And while the afternoon didn’t start exactly how he imagined it would, when Liam agrees that would be a great idea for them to start connecting again in their own way, it turns out better than he could’ve hoped. Liam even joins him to take his own clothes that need laundered and they spend the rest of the afternoon before he’s set to meet Emma again talking of everything and nothing. Despite having been together all this time, it’s as if the brothers had spent years apart, and Killian wonders how long it’s been since they truly talked like this.

Too long, Killian decides as he dresses in clean shorts and a t-shirt, sliding into socks and shoes before he bids farewell to his brother on his way out the door. Far too long, indeed.

Chapter 5

#cs ff #cs ff au #captain swan ff #sarah writes ff #cs multichap

[jolteonjordansh]

Okay so with all of the Directblogging I’ve done and how much I’ve been screaming about Smash you must be thinking “Where the hell was JJ during the Smash Direct? Where was all of the all caps, nonsensical screaming on my dashboard?”

The short answer: RL happened and I wasn’t able to be around to watch the Direct live and wouldn’t be home for several hours. ;-; Sooooo I took a blackout from the internet until I could get home and I’d just write my thoughts down on it as I watched, kind of like my Direct liveblogging but just really, really late. So get ready for walls of caps lock below!

*rips shirt open as the Smash logo shows up* I FUCKING LOVE YOU DADDY SAKURAI PLEASE SHOW ME THE WAY I’M READY

 LUIGI RUN HOLY SHIT DUDE

LUIGI’S MANSION 3 IS LOOKING SCARY AS SHIT

I CAN’T BELIEVE LUIGI IS FUCKING DEAD. DEATH RUINED LUIGI’S MANSION 3.

HE’S HERE BOYS where’s the Captain N alt

HOLY SHIT IT’S ANIME BELMONT???? AKA BEST BELMONT

OH MY GOD SAKURAI’S EYES ARE ACTUALLY KIND OF RED LIKE HE SAID. Poor guy. ;-;

Dude I am loving all of this Castlevania love in the stage holy shit.

34 CASTLEVANIA SONGS??? JESUS. That is so many fucking good songs right there holy shit.

COOKIE MONSTER DRACULA IS IN THIS TOO YEAAAAHHHHHH.

ALUCARD ASSIST TROPHY KICKASS.

tbh I’m more excited about anime Belmont than Simon.

MY BITCH HUSBANDO MADE IT TO THE ROSTER GUYS. I’M SO PROUD OF HIM. (I’ll miss him as Robin’s Final Smash)

THEY GOT RID OF SAMUS’ DARK ALT AND ASSIST TROPHY FOR A REASON!!!!!!!!

GREAT BAY LOOKS SO DAMN GOOD AAAAA ;-;

OH FFS. BRINSTAR DEPTHS WITH KRAID IS BRINGING CHILDHOOD NIGHTMARES BACK IN HD.

YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAH NEW DONK CITY BOOOOOOYSSSSS

FOUNTAIN OF DREAAAAAAAAAAAMS ;-;

HOW ARE YOU SUPPOSED TO SELECT FROM 100+ STAGES!?

OH OKAY. THE STAGE CAN JUST CHANGE. SURE. (This reminds me of one of the few things I actually liked about PlayStation All-Stars Battle Royale)

800 SONGS!? HOW BIG—900 TOTAL!? HOW BIG WILL THE GAME RIP OST FOR THIS GAME BE??????

SAKURAI YOU’RE A FREAKING MADMAN. YOU NEED TO STOP BEFORE YOU GET YOURSELF KILLED.

I’m kinda iffy on stage selection coming first but it’s really not that big of a deal to begin with?? Sooooooo

Chargeable Final Smashes??? Oh okay.

These are all really good additional modes! I like this a lot!

THE BANANA WAS A FUCKING GUN FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

WHERE AND HOW THE HELL DID NESS GET DEATH’S SCYTHE?????

THE RAMBLIN’ EVIL MUSHROOOOOOOOOM

ALOLAN EXEGGUTOOOOOORRRRRR

TWO VULPIXES AAWWWWWWW

DITTO’S REAL NOW THAT’S RAD AS HELL

ZERO LOOKS SO FUCKING DISPROPORTIONATE NEXT TO MEGA MAN FSDFHSDKJFHSDKFJHDSKJFHSDKF

KAPP’N JUST KIDNAPPED AND MURDERED MARIO HOLY FUCKING SHIT.

THE MAJORA’S MASK MOON IS A GODAMMN ASSIST TROPHY

RATHALOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SAKURAI WHAT’S THE BLURRED THING. I NEED TO KNOW. I NEED TO KNOW.

THEY DIDN’T ACTUALLY DO IT.

THEY DID.

WAIT NO THEY DIDN’T

WAIT YES THEY FUCKING DID.

I HOPE YOU ALL REALIZE HOW BRILLIANT THAT TRAILER WAS WITH KING DEDEDE FAKING KING K. ROOL. BECAUSE SAKURAI FUCKING VOICES DEDEDE. SAKURAI HIMSELF WAS FAKE TROLLING US ONLY TO TROLL US OVER TROLLING US.

I AM CONVINCED THAT SAKURAI IS THE MOST BRILLIANT TROLL ON THIS GODDAMN PLANET

 SAKURAI PUT CHROM NEXT TO ROBIN. EVEN HE SHIPS CHROBIN. DON’T ACT INNOCENT.

OKAY BUT I WANNA KNOW WHAT THE FUCK THAT EXTRA BLURRED MODE IS. THIS IS GOING TO KILL ME UNTIL SAKURAI REVEALS THIS SHIT. SAKURAI YOU CAN’T JUST LEAVE US LIKE THIS. SAKURAI!!!!!!!!

#Shut Up JJ #Directblogging #long post #caps lock #caps warning

[randomrecordreview]

This album reminds me of my first girlfriend, my first proper relationship in fact. There’s such a warm rush of nostalgia on hearing it, I could be time-travelling back to the early 90s. Ah, that simple time, before public internet, when mobile phones were the size of a three-door hatchback, and when watching Neighbours in the afternoon was considered a viable choice of entertainment. This is their second album, undeniably their best and most successful, when the duo of Siobhan Fahey and Marcella Detroit hit their stride. And they strut the fuck out of that stride as glamorous goths singing alternative pop, with a devil-may-care attitude. Stay was the massive hit single from this album. And Stay it did, at the top of the charts for eight weeks. The song and the equally brilliant video for it became so etched on everyone’s eyeballs that it had the honour of being spoofed by French and Saunders, one of their highlights to this day. At the time, and in subsequent reviews (that I’ve read recently) it’s always mentioned that both artists were pregnant at the time of making this album, which explains its “moody”, “melodramatic”, “emotional” songs. And some even that Fahey’s vocals “sounds like a man.” FFS. Clearly these reviews were written by men, who perhaps had never been close enough to a pregnant woman, or indeed a woman, to realise that this is just what female artists do when they are creating for themselves, and not for some record company dictated fanbase of either teenage boys or should-know-better 40-somethings.   The music is varied, accomplished and great fun to listen to. Far more than merely a nostalgia trip. Goodbye Cruel World is a great opener and classic early 90s alt-pop. Catwoman seems to be channelling glam rock, and Black Sky and Moonchild are a kind of glam-gothic hybrid. Other than Stay, the highlight for me is its closer: Hello (Turn Your Radio On) not just because it’s a great gothic ballad, but because my girlfriend at the time put it on a mixtape for me (remember them?) so it’s also a clarion call from the heart.    @shakespearssisterofficial #shakespearssister #indiepop #nowlistening #recordcollection #randomrecordreview https://www.instagram.com/p/CNsxSU2MM6F/?igshid=bq13cpjrtjdn

#shakespearssister #indiepop #nowlistening #recordcollection #randomrecordreview

[bofursunboundbraids]

85 Statements

I was tagged by @catthefearless Thank you!!

rules: answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

LAST

1. drink - Sparkling water.

2. phone call - Ummm...probably ordering dinner to go from Giovanni’s last week.

3. text message - My mama asking if I want to check out a new coffee place when she gets off work. (Answer: Fuck yeah!)

4. song you listened to - “Wrong Crowd” by my beautiful child Tom Odell

5. time you cried - Uh...last week after my employment counselor appointment. Cuz insecurity is a mutha!

EVER

6. dated someone twice? - Yes, because young and stupid/insecure (see a pattern forming?)

7. kissed someone and regretted it - There are a couple I side-eye, but regret? No.

8. been cheated on - Yes, but I’ve also cheated.

9. lost someone special - Yes.

10. been depressed - I experience bouts of frustration and disappointment, with and in life in general.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up - A number of times. I can no longer drink rum.

FAV COLORS

12. Midnight blue

13. Emerald green.

14. Lavender.

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15. made new friends - Yes! Thank you tumblr!

16. fallen out of love - No.

17. laughed until you cried - Maybe?

18. found out someone was talking about you - No.

19. met someone who changed you - No.

20. found out who your friends are - Yes.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook friends list - No.

GENERAL

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life? - Most of them, I think. I’m still waiting for the day the website, along with Mark Zuckerberg, gets shot into the sun.

23. do you have any pets - My genday conure Butchie my Buddy bird.

24. do you want to change your name - I dumped my last name last fall for my maternal grandfather’s birth name. My first name is 500% me.

25. what did you do for your last birthday - Got the slip-on checker board vans I’ve wanted since junior high and had dinner with my mom and nephew at Cracker Barrel cuz that shit is my JAM!

26. what time did you wake up today - 8am

27. what were you doing at midnight last night - Reading “Kidnapped by the Pirate” by Keira Andrews, a most excellent mlm historical romance.

28. what is something you can’t wait for - To be employed, earning decent money, so I can FINALLY GO TO NEW ZEALAND FFS!

30. what are you listening to right now - I’m watching “It Came from Outer Space” (1953)

31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom - This is funny, because I was recently trying to remember when the last time I knew someone named Tom was. Junior High maybe?

32. something that’s getting on your nerves - I haven’t been to New Zealand yet, which is really starting to piss me off.

33. most visited website - Tumblr, Twitter, Pinterest, YouTube.

34. hair color - Currently John Frieda’s Brilliant Brunette (3N) which is a wonderful deep chocolate brown, what I call Arwen/Frodo brown. It’s dark without making me look washed out. Perfect.

35. long or short hair - It’s a toss up between a Louise Brooks bob and mid-neck length. Anything longer, on me, is pointless.

36. do you have a crush on someone - I’m kinda torn between Martin Freeman, Jack White, and NY attorney general Eric Schneiderman.

37. what do you like about yourself- I can’t give up and I will never settle.

38. want any piercings? - No.

39. blood type - O negative. I’m UNIVERSAL BABY!

40. nicknames - Steesh, Bobeesh

41. relationship status - happily single.

42. zodiac - Pisces

43. pronouns - she/her

44. fave TV shows - Hawaii 5-0 (original), Wild Wild West, Route 66, Perry Mason, X-Files, Twin Peaks, Hannibal, Streets of San Francisco, WKRP in Cincinnati, Unsolved Mysteries...

45. tattoos - No, but I have a list of the ones I want.

46. right or left handed - right

47. ever had surgery - I had an emergency appendectomy right before my 13th birday.

48. piercings - 2

49. sport - my ex was an Aikido instructor, so I have a brown belt, but I gaven’t trained in a really long time.

50. vacation - About a year and half ago, Mum and I went to Boise, Idaho to check it out as a possible place to move to. It was nice, but we’ve scratched it off the list. Now we’re looking at Virginia.

51. trainers - since Nike bought Converse (fuck you very much), I am now a 500% Vans girl.

MORE GENERAL

52. eating - The last thing I ate was chicken shawarma with basmati rice and hummus. So freaking good.

53. drinking - I’m a coffee girl and I love a good lavender mocha.

54. I’m about to watch - it’s bed time. Gotta do my Italian (Duolingo) then reading.

55. waiting for - me to be at a point where I can start being paid for building freaking websites so I can go to freaking New Zealand!

56. want - To be paid.

57. get married - I’ve never believed in the institution.

58. career - I wanna make pretty, responsive web sites that achieve high seo rankings - AND GET PAID!

59. hugs or kisses - I like them both, as long as it’s someone I want to be doing it with. I would kind of like to kiss a boy whose name I don’t know and then never see him again.

60. lips or eyes - For me it’s the holy trinity; eyes, nose, lower lip.

61. shorter or taller - At 5’7” I feel taller than most other women. If we’re talking guys...I’ve had both, but prefer taller.

62. older or younger - Age is irrelevant, unless they’re really young. I abide by the equation (half your age plus 7)

63. nice arms or stomach - How about hands?

64. hookup or relationship - I’ve never experienced a hookup, but I never say never.

65. troublemaker or hesitant - I’m game as long as no one is getting hurt and no laws are being broken and no assholery is being committed.

HAVE YOU EVER

66. kissed a stranger - once, a long time ago.

67. drank hard liquor - Yup.

68. lost glasses - Sunnies? Yes. Readers? Between Mum and I, there are like twenty pairs floating around the house, so that’s a big no. Have broken quite a few, however.

70. sex on the first date - Ewww, no! Unless...

71. broken someone’s heart - Yes. My one big regret.

72. had your heart broke - Yes, but no.

73. been arrested - No

74. cried when someone died - No

75. fallen for a friend - Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN

76. yourself - Fuck yeah!

77. miracles - No.

78. love at first sight - I believe in the chemical reaction that happens in the brain when physical attraction occurs.

79. santa claus - Fuck yeah Santa RULES!

80. kiss on a first date - Yes.

81. angels - No.

OTHER

82. best friend’s name - Her name’s Shannon and she’s my mom.

83. eye color - Green.

84. fave movie - The Three Musketeers (1973), The Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit (Jackson), Casablanca, Jaws, Dracula (1931), The Big Sleep, Snow White and the Seven Dwarves. I’d also like to give a big shout out to the entire genre of 40s/50s Film Noir as well as 1950s SciFi and teen exploitation films, that shit gives me life!

85. fave actor - Humphrey Bogart, Raymond Burr, Jack Lord, Elizabeth Taylor, Marilyn Monroe, Katherine Hepburn, Cate Blanchett, Mads Mikkelsen, Peter Lorre, Bela Lugosi, Jack Lemmon, Martin Freeman, Richard Armitage, Laird Creager (btw...if you don’t know who that is, Google him! He was a queer actor who died way too young, right before his career was on the verge of really taking off. Some say his would’ve been not unlike that of Vincent Price, another one of my most very favorites. Check out “The Lodger” from 1944. It’s a take on Jack the Ripper and he is BRILLIANT! It also stars George Sanders and Merle Oberon.)

I’m not tagging anyone specifically, therefore I tag EVERYONE! Let us know who you are, and please tag me if you do!😍

#ask lots of questions meme thing #why are there no questions regarding #books/writers/reading preferences #or music

[irenewsky]

The Untamed: part 2

Hello. I wrote my thoughts and reactions on the first five episodes of this show and now I’ll continue to do so for the next five. I’m really enjoying this so far.

[Disclaimer: this post contains spoilers! Also some swearing]

Ep. 6

The chaotic trio is back and they’re drunk!

*cackles* exposing Jiang Cheng like that! I love this brothers dynamic. 10/10

Ah, yes, the ”quick, act natural” moment I’ve heard so much about

Drunk Lan Wangji! This is the most expressions that I’ve seen on him

”No women would marry you” oh boy, do I have some news for you Wei Wuxian

The Wei family. Lemme just cry here

Oh no, now Zewu-jun and Lan Qiren knows about the liquoir. Fuck fuck fuck

Can you just imagine what this cold spring scene would have been like had it been exactly like the novel’s?

I’m pretty sure LWJ doesn’t care about the beauties in Yunmeng unless it’s you, Wei Wuxian

”What’s happening?” I’m asking the same thing, Wei Wuxian. I don’t remember this from the novel. I mean, a magical guqin and rabbits?? A mysterious cave?? Wtf

Oh? OH. The headband is now around their wrists

Okay, so... that’s Lan Yi and her story. Encounter like this did not happen in the novel, right?

Ep. 7

Small world, huh, Lan Yi

There’s so much happening right now

I’m seriously confused right now. I’m raking my brain to try and remember if this happened in the novel but I’m coming up empty. I don’t think this happened at this point or at least not like this? Then again, it’s been 2 years since I last read the novel so I wouldn’t trust my memory

But if I recall correctly, Qishan Wen sect’s Discussion Conference and the whole Xuanwu thing should be nearing us?

Is this Jiang Cheng being afraid that his brother will leave him behind

Aw, Wangji smiled

”Wish that I can graduate successfully and don’t come back here again” me back in high school

Shijie protection squad is back and fighting Jin Zixuan

Jiang Fengmian appears! Father of the year! (can you hear my sarcasm)

”Marriage is important” says Jin Guangshan, the man known to have many sidechicks. Madam Jin deserves better

”Let’s cancel the throt” Jiang Cheng and I seem to have the collective ”no!” ringing in our heads

”You’ll have a beautiful lady to marry you” does Hanguang-jun count?

Ep. 8

”Lotus Cove” it’s Lotus Pier wtf

Don’t throw the rabbit around like that! I almost got a heart attack!

Jiang Cheng with a bunny! I can die happy now

Aaand Wen Chao’s back. Great.

Lan Xichen’s probably cursing you off in his mind as we speak Wen Chao. You don’t just come into someone’s home and do that to their carpet. Rude.

It still bothers me that they’re already calling LXC ”Sect Leader.” Their father should still be alive at this point of the story

The plot has gone so off the rails at this point (compared to the novel) but oddly enough I don’t mind

Wei Wuxian and Nie Huaisang know nothing but trouble. They also seem to share one braincell when they are together. I don’t know who has it most of the time

Fuck, Lotus Pier is a beautiful place

Nie Huaisang.exe has stopped working

Lan Wangji standing in the rain of flower petals? Unparalleled gorgeous and elegant gentleman indeed.

Sure, let’s follow this crazy old woman into this seemingly deserted village. What could possibly go wrong

Sure, because staying the night in a place with a murderous statue is a great idea

Now would be a really good timing to have some of Dage’s teachings in memory, wouldn’t you agree, Huaisang?

I’m starting to feel like I should read the novel again

Ep. 9

Wait, Wen Qing is controlling them??? Yiling Matriarch Wen Qing

Wen Chao might be a big douche but I actually kinda like his robes (shut up, red’s my favourite color)

Are these the Wens WWX will help in the future?

And is that A-Yuan I see?

Ah, the chaotic trio and their one braincell

Ep. 10

Xiao Xingchen! With his eyes still there!

And Song Lan! The whole crew’s together! Or as we Finns might say ”koko lössi koossa”

Xue Yang is a smug, cunning bastard, isn’t he

Also, this scene with Xue Yang all tied up always brings my mind back to this one post about bdsm and Xue Yang’s gay awakening and it never fails to make me laugh

”Yet Clean Realm” it’s Unclean Realm ffs (these youtube subtitles, I swear)

I don’t trust Meng Yao

DAGE! NIE MINGJUE! In the brilliant words of Krazie.wes on twitter: Stan Dage fighting on a horse!

Unclean Realm looks so much like I imagined it to

Meng Yao really got a lot of shit for just being his mother’s son, huh

Fucking called it! Don’t 👏🏻 trust 👏🏻 Meng 👏🏻 Yao 👏🏻

Don’t tell me that that’s the Core Melting Hand Wen Zhuliu

It is. Shit.

Part 1

#iida watches chinese drama #mo dao zu shi #the grandmaster of demonic cultivation #the untamed #cql

[notprincehamlet]

a post about elisabeth because we love a tradition

and because empirical evidence shows that these posts really do help me when I’m feeling shitty

This is still kinda surreal to me tbh. Pia???? As Elisabeth???? I saw it???? Wild.

First of all, I was an asshole and was late to the show :)))) I KNOW. I’M AN ASS. I didn’t miss a lot though, they were just starting to sing the prologue as I was getting to my seat, but I missed the very beginning + I had to disturb other people, I still feel awful about it u g h

(the reason behind that was that I kinda underestimated how far into the park the palace was lmao I had to do a lot of running and asking random people for directions)

This tainted the experience a bit but what are we gonna do now  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

The crowd was H U G E though

And my seat wasn’t as far off as I initially thought!! Brilliant.

pia: comes out in her cute little als jij dress me, tearing up: legendary. amazing. brilliant. life changing. such acting. love my bae.

(I still hadn’t processed that i’m looking at Pia Douwes playing Elisabeth by that time because i was still thinking about being late. oh well.)

*internal screaming during Niets weegt zwaar because !!!!!! So cute!!!!! I love Pia Douwes!!!!!! And suffering!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*

Alle vragen zijn gesteld fucked me up because it’s my favourite ensemble song and it also hit me that i’m SEEING ELISABETH WITH PIA WITH MY OWN UNWORTHY EYES

btw the sound was Good and the orchestra was amazing!!

De laatste dans was SO DRAMATIC ffs stanley (I loved it)

I also loved all those dips (also dramatique)

I didn’t think I would ever hear Mijn leven is van mij/Ich gehör nur mir live wow wow wow #humbledandblessed (well, she sang the multilanguage version at the concert last year, but it’s….. not the same thing)

The part right before Er valt een zwarte schaduw where Elisabeth screams for Sophie became one of my favourite parts of the show (it’s always the little things, I guess)

“NEE IK WIL NOG LEVEN” MY GIRL

I’ve been waiting to hear the Mijn leven is van mij reprise ALL MY LIFE (okay, five years) OHMYGODBNHIFETHB i wish i could see Pia’s face during that part (well, during the whole thing but yeah) but nevertheless it was amazing i almost cried she looked so good IM DEAD

Stanley was so casually lounging on that couch during Mama waar ben je, I laughed #dramatic

Stanley is my satanic laughter goals though

And the boy who played little Rudolf was sweet

DURING KITSCH PIA CAME OUT RIDING IN A CARRIAGE WITH TWO ACTUAL BLACK HORSES AND WAVING TO THE CROWD, LIKE YAS 👏🏻👌🏻👍🏻 YOUR MAJESTY 💜✨👑 F U C K  M E  U P💦😍🔥

But honestly, how appropriate was that for a song called Kitsch lmao

And just as appropriate for the actual queen of the universe Pia Douwes. LEGENDS ONLY

I love me some dramatic hand waving in Als ik dansen wil :“) imo that song was one of the best parts of the show, plus Wenn ich tanzen will was the first Elisabeth song I ever heard, so that made it special too

Pia’s Elisabeth was so angry during that song, amazing

*dramatic dip*

there were no horse props during the weirdest scene of the entire musical, so the actors were moving without them and it looked like riverdance gone wrong or maybe RIGHT, it was hilarious

I loved Nur kein genieren (whatever the Dutch song title is) so much, and it wasn’t even because of the pretty girls in corsets :)))

I love the outfits Pia used to wear during Maladie and I was kinda looking forward to it but for the sake of the show she was already wearing the Nichts nichts gar nichts dress *cue slight disappointment*

The whole Maladie scene though DAMN GIRL

The dutch version of Nichts nichts gar nichts never resonated with me the same way as the German one, but still. Goosebumps. I love suffering.

Pia!Elisabeth seemed 10097999x times more bitter than usual during that song, which I LOVED

Er valt een zwarte schaduw was 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥 SO GOOD. I LOVE THIS SONG. SO BLESSED. SO MOVED. SO GRATEFUL.

I was still harbouring a teeny tiny hope they would include the Als jij reprise because I just. Love that song. So much. Especially the Dutch version. But they didn’t include it 💔

But then Pia came on stage in that DRESS and in that WIG and HOW DARE SHE and WHY CAN’T I SEE THE DRESS PROPERLY, I NEED TO INVEST IN OPERA GLASSES

Anyway, Was ik jouw spiegel maar is SO important to me, I cried many a night because of that song, both the Dutch and German versions. Even early in my Elisabeth days when I called it “the spiegel song” because I only knew like two words in German… Ah. Memories.

So yeah, hearing it live with that cast was very special

I kinda liked the way they changed the moment of Rudolf’s death, although I’m not sure what were the reasons behind it? Anyway, I was really feeling the coffin in the carriage thing

Pia!Elisabeth hugging the coffin was not okay in the slightest, and neither was I after that

SCHEPEN IN DE NACHT, another important song!!! Why is Pia so good, why is this musical so sad, who allowed it

And why does she look so good in those mourning dresses

When Stanley sang the second line of De sluier valt Pia made a Sound of relief and I felt a sudden urge to climb in the aforementioned coffin and d*e

THE CURTAIN CALL 😩😩😩 

What have we all done to deserve Elisabeth in Concert :’‘‘‘‘‘‘)

#the great pia meltdown 2k17 #~ #it's almost been a week but do we care? we do not.