#feelings are all so jumbled up

[stevecoregirly]

I have to keep reminding myself that time will pass. Whether it's 2024 or 2025, time will pass.

#bts #honestly I've sort of been numb to everything #especially since Jin left #I've expected that the members would enlist but still now that they're doing it #feelings are all so jumbled up #I'm happy for them sad heartbroken and angry at the goverment but still my heart's filled with good memeories and love for the members #time will pass anyway #Idc if it's gonna be 2 hard year-time will pass #if it doesn't and I have to keep reminding myself that it will #Idk what I'll do #Ig it's back to binge watching run bts and bts in the soop and every other show till they're back #I'm so grateful and happy to be a part of their world #I love bts guyss 😭 #like Steve said (or was it Bucky?) I'm with you till the end of the line pal

[ingravinoveritas]

Did you see Neil's tumbler post about autism?? I never knew. Did he ever said anything about it before? My son was recently diagnosed, and Neil saying that he's autistic made me feel... I don't know, connection to him in a new way? Recognized? Hopefull? I don't have the words. Just wanted to hear your thoughts on it. I hope i didn't come off as offensive in some way. English is not my native language.

Hi there! I am slightly behind in Asks, so apologies to folks who have been sending them in over the past few days--trying my best to catch up now.

Firstly, you did not come off as offensive at all, so please don't worry! And yes, I did see Neil's Tumblr post (it's here, for those who might have missed it), and it's given me quite a lot of feelings, for reasons that would probably be expected.

I think what immediately came to mind when I read his post was a conversation I had with Neil when I met him back in November at a tribute to Ray Bradbury. I told him how much I was struck by the story he'd read, as it felt very much like an allegory for autism and resonated so much with my own experiences as an autistic person. He seemed to appreciate my comments and agreed with my observation, but never at any point in our conversation mentioned anything about identifying as autistic himself.

Does that necessarily mean anything? Of course not. I know that Neil does not owe me (or anyone else) a disclosure, and the decision to disclose is a very personal one that each person has to make for themselves. But thinking of Neil's post the other day, I'm also reluctant--for a variety of reasons--to say that it is a disclosure, or Neil definitely stating that he is autistic.

When I got your Ask on Friday morning, I was eager to answer it, though I knew I would have to wait because I was at work. Soon after, I had a difficult, emotionally draining meeting with my two supervisors. I ended up crying at work--which I have now realized is a trauma response--and by the time I got home and was starting to process everything, it was difficult not to look at Neil's post and flinch, particularly at the mention of "superpowers." That day, for the first time in a very long time, I could only feel the "kryptonite" part of being autistic. (My personal stance is that I have never considered autism to be a "super power," but something that is neither all good or all bad, and is part of who I am, yet not all of who I am.)

And from the conversation I had with my supervisors, I felt the responsibility and the pressure of other people seeing me in ways that I never intended--and regardless of whether I want to be seen that way. (For context: This was about my work as a professional speaker and people seeing me as an expert in autism/sexuality, when I never use the word "expert" to describe myself and always tell people I don't have all of the answers.)

The reason I mention this is because I feel like people read that post from Neil and--understandably, of course--saw something. They felt the connection that you described, and that sense of recognition. But what concerns me is that it's going to somehow turn Neil into a representative for an entire community, when that may not be something he wants or feels like he can be. If he is on a journey with autism--whether that means self-diagnosis, or a clinical diagnosis, or not having/seeking a diagnosis at all--that's something incredibly personal. As difficult as that journey is for people navigating it privately, myself included, Neil is possibly doing it in the public eye, which means that everything--every achievement and every misstep--is that much more amplified.

To that end, what I often see with Neil and social media is that he is either lavished with praise or torn to shreds (with very little in between). Being autistic means there is another possible dimension to who Neil is, but it can't be the only lens through which we see him. So I'm just hoping fans don't pin all of their dreams and expectations on him--not only for their sake and avoiding potential disappointment, but also for Neil's. To allow him the messiness and imperfection of being human, instead of a perfect role model.

I hope all of this makes sense. I'm still feeling a little raw from this past Friday, but I wanted to be sure I answered your question. Thank you for writing in! x

#mayaws #reply post #neil gaiman #autism #Friday was also the first time in a very long time that I felt that sense of being trapped inside myself #i used to feel it so strongly and all the time growing up #so it triggers the bejesus out of me to have something put me back in that head space #i'm feeling a lot of feelings #just hoping this wasn't too jumbled #thoughts #personal post #discourse

[oohbuggypie]

super long discussion abt my headcanons for Don's tattoo, as well as Carmen's and Bull's !

WARNING!! these r very headcanon heavy and probably reach-y ideas so if u prefer to stick to canon / r scared of mischaracterization maybe dont read 🩷 also this is SUPER long so im gonna go ahead and put all of this beneath a cut bcuz i don't wanna flood + this is centered around ship talk and i know some ppl don't care 4 that ✝️ pairs discussed are CarDon and BullDon, but emphasis on Carmen and Don bcuz they're mentioned more than once!!

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kay so i always talk abt Don having a tattoo but ive never clarified WHAT the tattoo is of / what it says . im usually stuck between not knowing what it would be;; a religious image or a religious quote ? a cross felt too basic, but an entire passage of text would just be way too much for Don in my opinion,, i don't think he'd ever want such a huge, obvious amount of black ink on his body forever. i came up with the idea that Don's tat in the Monster Hunter would be COLOSSIANS 3:2, and it felt very fitting ; it's small and fairly easy to hide, but it reflects a great amount of his world perception and his ideologies . and i think that the exact same style of tattoo would fit his regular universe character very well too !

so after some consideration and many MANY dumb questions, i have concluded: i think Don's tattoo would be JOHN 15:9 .

John 15:9 reads: "I have loved you even as the Father has loved me. Remain in my love."

so why that quote ??

Don is a very romantic man :: he holds a very deep love for Carmen and he expresses that in his actions , seeming to dedicate his fights to her and celebrating his victories in her name . not only that, but i think his loving attitude is expressed through his non-romantic actions as well; he shows a considerable amount of respect to his opponents, and he recognizes his own mistakes! he's romantic , respectful , and to an extent - humble . i think that that verse fits him so well because it connects to his romantic personality and religious upbringing. along with being raised religiously, i think Don's parents took extra time to truly teach Don the lesson that love is one of life's most valuable and prominent factors. not only did they teach him to show kindness and respect to his peers, but i think they integrated the idea of finding romance very early in his life. they wanted their son to fall in love with the "right person", and they wanted him to treat his lover with deep devotion and respect. so i think that those two factors ended up melding together as Don grew up; religion reflected love, and his love would reflect his religion. so upon the two merging, i think Don made the decision to get that specific quote as a tattoo as means to reflect his two deepest values, and as a promise to himself that he'd find his true partner one day. so when Don truly did fall in love, he felt an even deeper connection to the tattoo.

Don's canonical partner being Carmen is adorable to me, and this is where the second portion of my headcanon comes in: i think that throughout the course of their relationship, Carmen would recognize the true sentiment that religion holds in Don's life and get a similar tattoo as devotion to her lover ! much like Don, to me, she wouldn't want an obnoxious or obvious tattoo simply because it doesn't fit the way she presents herself. so as a way to match her partner, i think she'd get the exact same kind of tattoo but with a different passage.

i think Carmen would choose ROMANS 1:11 - 12, and the placement would be beneath her right breast.

Romans 1:11 - 12 reads: "I long to see you so that I may impart to you some spiritual gift to make you strong - that is, that you and I may be mutually encouraged by each other's faith."

i think the first part of the text ("I long to see you...") reflects the majority of Don's life where he waited to find his true partner, and how he and Carmen were bound to be together; she just hadn't met him yet. the second part of the quote ("...to make you strong...") is super fitting in the context of the idea that Carmen is Don's main motivation that drive his passions, like bullfighting and boxing. and the final part of the quote solidifies their love for each other - by sharing a tattoo, they share the love behind it and they serve as one another's guide of sorts.

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as for Don being in a relationship with Bull, i think Bull would have conflicted feelings about getting a tattoo. Don, by no means, thinks that Bull NEEDS to get a tattoo to encapsulate their love ,, it was never a "required" or expected action to be reciprocated and Don understands that very well! both of them have already given each other deeply valuable gifts as ways to express their devotion. however, if Bull were to get a tattoo, i think he'd prioritize it being very small and very private.

to me, Bull's tattoo would be of the Virgin Mary in colored ink, placed on his inner, left thigh.

this is solely my opinion and i def don't expect anyone to agree, but that one is soo special to me . i think Don would have a very strong admiration of the Virgin Mary as an entire concept, and Bull took note of that love. he decided to represent it by choosing an intimate place that practically nobody else would ever see. neither of them see it constantly, but when they do they're reminded of just how deep their love runs . 🥹

OKAY I THINK IM DONE OMGG . this could be worded so much better but it's past midnight and this was literally ripping my brain to shreds all day so i HAD to get it out immediately 😭✝️ thanks 2 anybody that read all this omg i didn't think i was gonna talk THAT much .. srry but Don and religion r just sooooo good paired i HAD to share 🩷 okay goodniiiiiight

#punch out!! wii #punch out wii #punch out #don flamenco #carmen punch out #bald bull #bulldon #headcanonz #dewdlebug #holy hell this is so much longer than it was intended to be umm #enjoy the poor wording and probably jumbled up out of order ideas.. my brain moves quicker than i can type so everything gets all silly oop #pls remember that these are all MY headcanons and even then these are all supee loose and i dont even 100% stick to them #u don't have 2 agree or anything i just feel the need 2 share because if i dont my brain will literally implode

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Oh I’ve just had a thought about the couch metaphor!!!

So we know that the couch is tied to romantic relationships for Buck, but that it also seems to be tied to familial ones as well. 

Chris being the one to bring up bucks lack of couch, Bucks parents being the ones to buy him his replacement (uncomfortable) couch, Buck falling asleep on the Diaz couch, both Diaz’s falling asleep on the Diaz couch (separately), Eddie not sitting on the couch when he is alone but is talking to Buck etc

We also know that Bucks current couch is the wrong couch - in terms of his romantic relationships. But it is also the wrong couch in terms of familial relationships as well - his parents choosing it for him, not Buck so its representative of Buck not getting to choose the family he was born with - which is why he can’t get comfortable on it before he goes over to Eddies and falls asleep. This is nothing we haven’t already discussed.

But the thing thats occurred to me is; as it seems likely that Kameron’s waters breaking on the couch may play some part in destroying it, that would also be the perfect metaphor for Kameron and Connors family not being the right family for Buck either - the life he helped create not being his family and re-enforcing the idea that DNA doesn’t make a family (double whammy of the Buckley parents and C&K’s Baby not being his family despite sharing DNA) because your family will meet you where you’re at (which also applies to Bucks romantic life but we’re not there yet with him) and that made me think about the fact that bothDiaz’s may comment on Buck not having a couch and that being weird, but they don’t pressure him in to actually replacing it- they just go along with where he’s at. Maddie is the other person - she sits with him on his armchair - symbolic of her meeting him where he’s at as well - she has accepted his reasoning for taking his time choosing a couch because he wan’t to pick the right one.

There is one other aspect in all this - the fact we haven’t seen Buck on the Diaz couch (until 6x12) since the will reveal - we saw him on it a lot in season 4 - playing games with Chris and then sleeping on it when Eddie was in hospital and then anything Diaz house related with buck took place in the dining room, Eddie’s bedroom or half in the kitchen in season 5 (Andrew Meyers I’d like to have a word please because he wrote Chris and Buck on the couch in s4 + suspicion which set up Buck on the couch in 4x14 and then he wrote 6x01 and 6x12 so its likely he is responsible for the whole couch metaphor) and then the first time we see him on that couch again, its in combination with a scene where they actually talk about the shooting - all very telling about whats actually been going on in Bucks head since Eddie ‘Because Evan’d’ Buck - figuring out exactly where he fits in the Diaz family! 

And actually Bucks coma dream and his feeling different in the aftermath all plays into this too - his feeling guilty about Christopher (who he doesn’t refer to by name) and Eddies physical absence - which its implied the Buck has figured out all play into the idea of Buck mentally battling with them being family - the sorry your not real implies that Buck doesn’t believe he’s a father to Chris at this point, but that things start to become clearer in the aftermath - as his math powers fade

So however we see Bucks couch meet its end in 6x18, if we do get to see him end up on the Diaz couch - choose his family - in the end then all those familial metaphors come full circle an that has really been Bucks arc for the season (actually his low key arc since 4x14!)- family and familial love - the thing he needs to feel secure in before he can focus on romantic love.

#this is such a mess of a post #does it even make sense!!! #but my brain is going brrrr #this was meant to be a brief thought and then it spiralled!!! #couch metaphor #family being the thing Buck needs to figure out is so intrinsic to who he is #and once he feels secure in that then he can actually look properly at his romantic love - because at the moment all of its jumbled up #so getting one thing sorted in his mind will give him the strength and freedom to reckon with romantic love! #all roads lead to the Diaz couch which in turn leads to Buddie canon #season 7 I will be over analysing the hell out of the first episode you mark my words #911 spoilers #911 on fox #911 fox #bucks couch #buck #eddie #the Buckley-Diaz family

[skypiea]

really really wanted to build my wiki on miraheze instead of fandom since fandom sucks shit but i feel like no one talks about how hard it is to get a foot in the door w/ miraheze when ur not great at coding OTL ive read thru all their beginners stuff and consulted a lot of external resources and i just dont think im built for it.......got my wiki and tried to set up some stuff but i just feel terribly overwhelmed. waaaugh

#kite.txt #not going to give up on it totally but ive pissed away hours tonight with nothing to show for it so #its not that i refuse to learn this stuff its just something im unfortunately really bad with #all the strings of text get so jumbled in my brain and eyes #it sucks because it feels like i have to pick between. beginner friendly simple easy UI but atrocious ads #or just being tossed out on a desert island but with no ads #urgh. wautgh. maybe you guys just get spreadsheets. whatever

[bombshellsandbluebells]

Thinking about the Ted Lasso finale again and how I feel like it does pretty much land everyone at a satisfying place, just occasionally fumbles getting them there.

And I was thinking specifically about Beard, and how, if we ignore the Jane of it all, Beard and Ted separating IS such a great place for Beard to end the show because of what we learn in Mom City and how it puts so much about Beard into new context.

Beard basically lost all of his relationships when he went to prison. When he got out, he went to Ted because he remembered Ted as a nice guy who he'd had a good relationship with for a time, (and frankly, possibly because he thought he could take advantage of that kindness) and when Ted helped him more than he ever expected, it seems that Beard just stuck with him from that point on. Ted was Beard's ONLY person, and while their friendship is so sweet and wonderful, I think it is so important for Beard to end the series at a point where he feels safe choosing to go a different direction from Ted. He has friends now, a job he's very good at, a community (and, yes, unfortunately, an incredibly toxic relationship that the show can't ever make up it's mind on whether it's a good or bad thing).

In the finale, Beard wants to go with Ted because he's been following him ever since Ted vouched for him with the police, but he wants to stay more because he's finally found connections outside of Ted. And as right of a choice it was for Ted to go home to his son, it's as much of a right choice for Beard to stay in England, a place where he can start anew.

(The problem is that it gets framed as being only about Jane and relationship we don't support. But like SO MUCH about s3, when I actually look at it it WORKS so well for his character, it feels so right post-Mom City's reveal, it just gets messy in the framing/execution. s3 to a T.)

(anyways, I was specifically thinking about Beard because of how many post-canon fics I've read that just casually retcons it so Beard went back with Ted, and I'm like....I don't actually think that's best for him, I think he found a lot more of a life in London than he'd had in America)

#ted lasso #coach beard #so much of the problem of a lot of the choices in s3 isn't necessarily the choice made for the character but the like framing of why or #the execution of the writing and how inconsistently carried through the storylines and themes are #like s3 isn't bad and the ideas aren't bad #it's just kind of a jumbled mess that wants to focus on too much all over the place and so very little feels consisetently well handled #like on the one hand 3 seasons is the perfect arc for the team and therefore the show #but on the other hand they needed to stretch s3 out to like 2 seasons to better handle everything they wanted to include #we're just pulled too thin and so in some way basically every character ends up not getting enough

[nil-elk]

Perpetually humbling oneself due to lack of self-worth is borne from anxiety about one's ideas being ridiculed. It is learned from past (and sometimes present) experiences, but I need you (and I need myself) to know that the people who honestly care about you won't ridicule you. They won't harm you in that way.

It is understandable that you're afraid to contribute, that you're afraid of being overwhelming and too much because you're just overflowing with ideas you've tried to keep contained. Anytime you open up about something, it sounds (to your ears) like a jumbled mess.

You tell yourself that your ideas are stupid, and don't make sense, but really all it is, is you putting puzzle pieces together and there is SO much joy in that. Whether you're doing it alone or with friends, there's an innate joy in connecting those tangential, disjointed thoughts! Some things may not work, but in exploring that, you find others that may.

Learn to see the fun in it again, for your sake especially.

#self-love #self-care #this post sounds all jumbled up to me because so many thoughts and feelings BUT i'll share it anyway

[fivepebsi]

the music in ddlc rlly is soooo crazy good. like the way the Creepy music in act 2 is mostly just fucked up versions of the regular tracks. like slightly sped up or the drums missing. or the main melody blown out. and even in the regular tracks theres some dissonance in the melodies to give u that slighttt uneasy feeling. so crazy cool

#ddlc #in general ddlc is soooo good at that slight uncanny feeling that gets me SO BAD #the way the characters are drawn is justttt on that line of anime/realism that makes it super freaky when like. their eyes move. etc #and stuff like posters changing and text jumbling and stuff just …. ohhh so good #its such a specific type of scary catered specifically to me to make me tear up wvery time i think abt it #SCARYYYY!!!!!!! #its hard to explain if u dont find it creepy 😭 #its not like Ooohhh theyre evillll now ! theyre evil now and they swear and bloooodd!!! #its the knowledge that theyre being changed beyond their control. the way theyre sentient but Not Quite. the constant rewriting of events #the use of poetry in it is soooo good too. how it shows all their personalities and how they warp over time #love this gameeee. so cool

[skibasyndrome]

So one thing I've always loved about uni/studying/learning new things is when you have different subjects or different tiny dots of knowledge and slowly, as you learn more and more, those tiny splashes of knowledge are becoming less isolated, and you realize that it's all connected and - at least with my subjects being in the humanities - you sort of “unlock” this new perspective on a certain aspect of the human condition. And like, that's fun enough and - if I'm being honest - probably my favorite thing about studying already as it is, BUT NOW, now that I've finally gotten back into writing as a hobby this is just ANOTHER dimension for me to expand that knowledge into and to use that knowledge for. And I am absolutely living for it. So happy to be back on my bullshit and so happy to be at a place in my life where these two passions of mine fit so seamlessly together and one passion benefits from the other and vice versa

#god I love that I get to do this #to be less vague: I am taking this course (and a lecture as well) on the aesthetic and philosophy of night darkness dream and imagination #and like that is already SO up my alley you don't even know #but besides getting to learn about the influence of those themes on literature of the 19th century now I also get to practice it you know? #I mean I've always had this fascination for and this... predilection to write about vampires or ghosts or “dark” themes like that #and I just continue to do that now but like???? ugh idk I feel so? /seen/ when I learn about the way people used to do that and still do an #that it's something so... essentially human to be interested in? #which of course technically I knew bcs we have all this media abt these themes. but something about learning /why/ we enjoy these themes an #/why/ there is somehing so very cathartic about engaging with them? something so freeing and so subversive about doing it? #like I love learning things that make me understand myself and my motivations more deeply. also on a creative level #and idk... this is all probably a very jumbled mess but I wanted to share my joy with you in case anyone read up to this point <3 #simon.out. #yes this is about the potential wilmon vampire fic I am plotting out rn and yes I am going to be absolutely unbearable about it #vampire wilmon

[beneaththegildedmoon]

Look, maybe if I had read it by itself and not interleaved with the other books im reading atm it would have fared better, but y'all had me convinced The Secret History was some modern classic and I will not forgive you for it

#i know babel was published long afterwards but i just keep reading sections and thinking “Babel did this so much better” #its giving Catcher in the Rye if the pov character was even more insufferable #its giving the Steven Moffat school of writing intelligent characters #and honestly worse than the piss-poor attempt at some kind of commentary is that its so fucking BORING #a solid 70% of the book is just richard & the gang talking inanely about classics with the air of people who have literally never read them #and the other 30% is stilted dialogue about how woefully difficult it is to cover up the murders they did #and i understand that their insufferability is part of the loosely-defined point but thats not made well enough to justify all this #your characters can be boring assholes or your plot can move at a snail's pace but for the love of all the gods dont do both #the only thing running through my head the whole time is how little investment i have in anything thats happening in this stupid book #how did *this* become the inciting incident for the dark academia aesthetic/subculture?? #how did this jumble of meandering run-on sentences masquerading as a novel become such a Tumblr darling that dozens of you recommended it?? #i feel cheated tbh #cant believe i wasted so much time on this but i genuinely believed it must get good at some point

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey friends is it normal to just feel. numb. because I think that maybe it is not. but what would I know anyway.

#really tho it’s like I can barely feel anything anymore. idk if it’s stress?? depression?? #the enormous weight of adult life suddenly and unexpectedly crashing down on me with the weight of the entire planet?? #I used to feel so *much* all the time and now I feel like I can barely feel anything at all… #and everyone around me is living life so much and I’m just here feeling like I can barely keep up with conversations as they’re happening #I’m tired… I feel like God is a far away idea that I’m struggling to hold onto… I feel like my mind is a bent and jumbled mess #like I grabbed hold of it and tried to crush it into the shape I thought it should be and now all I’ve got is a broken frame #I /know/ who I am and what I believe. I /know/ what my life is. but I don’t feel anything. #the only time I feel anything is sometimes when we’re singing at church I just cry at the sense of glory of something I can’t touch #and sometimes I shake with fear at the thought that I’ve ruined everything that could’ve ever been good about me #I’m oversharing on the internet again but I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired. I want to see something beautiful and feel #the weight and glory of it again. but I feel like I can’t. all I feel is numbness. #I feel like I could sleep for months but every time I wake up I never feel refreshed. and I’ve been having bad dreams too. #adulthood kinda does suck can I please go back to being 5 #gurt says stuff #personal

[claratyler]

Spent like 2 hours making and remaking to-do lists fervently, organizing by categories, by priority, by them being a one time thing i have to do or something i must incorporate into my weekly routine and by jove i've done it. Guys ive sorted out my life

#i mean im as fucked as always dont get me wrong BUT my brain feels significantly less jumbled up #now i just have to actualy do the things #which is also stressful but idk if i dont make a plan of how i have to get things done i genuinely go insane #does anyone else find making lists so essential #otherwise it all feels like a mountain of stuff to do #rather than a series of tasks i can tackle one by one #idk

[20w14a]

Do Unto Others by MSI gives me Elquackity vibes while Pt. 2 gives me Quackity vibes.

#qsmp #qsmp quackity #qsmp elquackity #elq act very holier than thou like the song #not necessarily in a moral scene but he just overall thinks he's superior/right and will try to do so in any means necessary #even manipulating people and do questionable mysterious things like kidnapping an egg etc etc. #the first verse feel so heavily elq to me because of the whole “jealousy” connotations the singer clearly has with “it should've been me” #elq goes a lot into how he IS quackity and will straight up deny anyone/become angry if someone says so otherwise #the phrase "do unto others' has heavy religious connotations but feels very displeased/livid when spoken throughout the song #steadily ramping up until it feels like a rage filled repetitive shout #the phrase means treat others how u want to be treated #but in both elq and q mind it would be the opposite bc in elq eyes the islanders/eggs wronged him while for q the federation did #“You did it unto me / And now I'm doin' it unto you” is very quackity-esque #he took his frustration of the federation out on fred and tubbo #calling tubbo a rat and kidnapping fred #the fact part 2 feels all jumbled and the words are breaking here and there is very quackity-esque after the fed brought him back #idk know why but q/elq with religious imagery is something neat to me i think its bc of the cross necklace/federation giving a certain vibe #sorry for tag rambling id rather not put in the actual post #/seed

[ihatebnha]

I am here to drop more nudist Bakugou in your lap that somehow converts you into being a nudist yourself and then somehow has a baby w you that also never wants to wear clothes either. hm. hi caitie ily mwah

oooooh my god... (sorry to diverge immediately but) I'M ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT BAKUGO'S LITTLE NUDIST BABY!!! I think I mentioned it in the tags of one of my barbarian!Bakugo posts... how they'll always be running around, having all this fun in the nude, and when you go to try covering them up... Bakugo is literally trying to stop you LMAOOO.

Tbh, though? Yeah, he is probably like that in every universe. Gets all pouty when you even just mention a shirt or something, because "they don't need that. Lookit, they're having fun," or even, "we're at home. Stop."

...which just fuels your kid to be bare even MORE, since daddy is always on their side and supportive of it.

("But daddy says it's okay," while glaring at you smh.)

And I'm crying laughing at the thought of... having a kid who knows how to take off their own diaper, too. Like idk, maybe they spill something on themselves, or it's hot out, right? So you let them strip down to their undies... only for them to, five seconds later, rip off their diaper and try to hand it to you, too.

Big "I had an accident" vibes except... without the accident. It's just, "mommy, mommy... here. I dun need," and then they're running back off to do whatever wearing ONLY their little sandals LOL. It's the same with clothes, too... but the diaper always goes eventually.

(Thank god Kiri isn't bothered by this and his kids probably do the same LOL. Makes playdates so much less awkward, even if your kid is the bad influence in how they're always the first ones to do it adkjfaksd)

BUT LMAOOOO... gotta be like, "no, baby. Go and give that to daddy." (since he's the reason you're like this). That being said, however... Bakugo's probably all for it and doesn't even mind. Letting the cheeks get some air... "healthy," as he calls it.

Besides, what is life's purpose (not really) if not to watch your offspring run around nakey...? For Bakugo, at least: ACHIEVED. And he's so contented by it. His own lil nakey buddy.

(God... and the first time you're finally comfortable enough to walk around fully naked in front of him... boner immediately. He has to fuck you. It's honestly sorta concerning how caveman-y it makes him LMAOOOO. Love it though.)

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anyway, boo bear :((( tysm for this + i love u, too!!! how are u doing? good, i hope!💕💕💕

#sorry i went overboard lmaooooooo i just.... ugh it makes me NUTS #i don't think i did a good job expressing it all either but adsfjlkadjfjakda #YOU'RE SO RIGHT!!! #all the time it's just #'they're just a baby stop telling them what to do >:( ' #bakugo. this child is gonna be a nightmare if u keep that attitude up #LMFAO OK U KNOW WHATS BIG BRAIN #bakugo being one of those people who was raised hecka strictly but then.... isn't strict at all #lets his kids do whatever lowkey #makes gramma mitsuki insane. in-sane. #all the more reason for bakugo to keep it up actually but LMAO #tfw he's the mean one to strangers but ur the mean parent at home #he justs like his kids and supports everything they do #doesn't think he's capable of producing a bad child no matter what #questionable but for the most part he's right #theyre not bad... just. CRAZY #and he's a good pops he doesn't care what comes out ... he likes it anyway #also i wanted to talk more about u being a n*dist too ugh #or like... being one for him #but i already feel like this is jumbled #so we can save it for another time #but thank u again boo!!!! kisses forever #ask #caitie things #boo👓 #hanji is life #kids tw #queue

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holy shit

I have NEVER had a character resonate with me this strongly before

everything about this character echos my own personal life experiences and I don't know how I should feel about it

#nimona #some of those scenes HURT to watch because I would just go like #“oh shit that's exactly how I felt” #or “oh shit something like this has happened to me” and it just #I know I already said this but it hurts (but in the good way??) #because I'm watching this and I realize #“finally people can see how I feel” #“finally somebody took the biggest problems of my life and put it into words that others can understand” #“finally I won't be alone anymore" #but then I'm also technically reliving that stuff?? so my feelings get kinda mixed and jumbled (I still think it's good tho) #but man that movie is just amazing in every way #It just takes everything the graphic novel was and cranks it up to 11 and I am HERE FOR IT #and tbh? I'm glad Disney wasn't the one to release the movie #because SO MUCH of those amazing scenes would be censored and it wouldn't be NEARLY as good #I mean I love Blue Sky to death (...literally) but we all know how Disney is

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(before the post starts: to everyone who follows me for stranger things i’m sorry you have to deal with my random adventures into other fandoms — this is for the marauders fandom so if you don’t care about that feel free to scroll 💞 and also as always fuck jkr)

me: this fic is going to be so fucking full of angst and jealousy and toxicity with rosekiller endgame

also me:

It’s silent for a moment— Barty convinced the Gryffindor’s eyes could bore into his soul if he let him stare long enough. “You’ve never needed to simply feel something, Potter?”

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[Barty] lowered his voice, a hand almost absently reaching up to the other boy’s face. His middle finger ran down his jawline. “What does [Regulus] see in you?”

“What-?”

“He’s never looked at me the way he looks at you. What are you doing that I wasn’t?”

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“I can move. Do you want-“

“No, stay.” James laid back down. It was dark, but Barty reached up anyway. His hand started in James’ hair then ran down to his cheek. His middle finger traced his jaw again— like it had that night on the tower. “I can see what he sees in you now.”

me in some tags AFTER i wrote the stuff above:

BRO OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES YOU SHIP IT AND THIS IS HAPPENING

#i drafted this at like 2:30am lmao #enjoy the chaos #HOW IS THAT PLATONIC KARSON HOW #also james is very much dating regulus during all of this and barry knows that #barty* if my phone doesn’t stop autocorrecting barty to barry i will set it on fire #this was completely an accident #but at this point it would make no sense to not have darksun endgame #more specifically it’ll be starkillerchaser #at least i think that’s the ship name for regulus x barty x james #barty is deeply disturbed in this fic because evan started playing games when he was tired of barty’s games #he can dish it but he can’t take it yk #i was about to say evan might be ooc in this but like canonically we have nothing so i can make him act however i want #but like i’m not making him the bad guy #just two dudes who don’t know how to healthily communicate their feelings then everything gets jumbled up #maybe i’ll change my mind and have james be like ‘barty you’re latching onto me because i helped you’ #and rosekiller does end up being endgame #who knows man i just go with the flow because the characters never wanna follow my outlines #if you see this and read all these tags lmk your opinion on what i should do #can’t guarantee i’ll commit but i’d like the input #darksun #barty crouch jr #james fleamont potter #wizarding world #userkarson #karson writes things sometimes