#except my own

[heckaroniandcheese]

was telling my mother about my tiny living special interest today and I was like "I often daydream about converting large public restroom stalls into tiny homes" and she's like you are insane. well first of all rude. second. the girls who get it get it I guess.

#soooooooooo in love with small spacesss #except my own #its the semi temporary nature of the space as well as being stuck with some very large furniture that isn't well suited to the setting

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[closeted-goth]

i try to be understanding and not be the stick in the mud straight edge guy but at this point idk which is worse: my parents having been high-functioning addicts (yet addicts nonetheless [never around]) my entire life or my partner and housemates being low-functioning addicts for this period of my life.

#and being the pls pick up after urselves police just doesn't work it seems #i am no mans cop but also i am no mans cleaner upper either anymore #except my own #let's see how this goes #is there a healthy middle ground between the two bc all I've seen my entire life are the two extremes

[kugisakiss]

so if you're secretly a cop and he's secretly a cop and i'm also secretly a cop, then what's with the grade schooler running around our ankles exposing us?

#detective conan #dcmk #hondou hidemi #akai shuichi #furuya rei #edogawa conan #look as far as i'm concerned reveals that happened 7 years ago some 700 episodes into a series is not spoiler territory #so yeah real names for everyone for my own sanity #except conan i guess i see him as a separate entity from shinichi #my art

[turtleblogatlast]

I love Raph and haven’t said that enough so to be more specific I love that Raph is a soft boy who loves bear plushies, a gross boy who eats an assortment of things that are definitely better left alone, a smart boy who is more than capable of taking down villains through planning and fortitude alike, a strong boy who is dedicated to training his muscles and fighting prowess, a teenage boy who loves his brothers but is more than happy to tease and roughhouse with them, an angry boy who sometimes lets his anger take a hold of him to cover the fear, a gentle boy who is generous with hugs and affirmations to those he loves, a capable boy who takes on more than should ever be expected of a teenager, a good boy who just wants to be a hero and slowly comes to realize the cost of that duty, a good boy who has no reservations about putting himself in the way of harm coming to his family, a good boy who’s a great brother and son and person and deserves only the best the world has to offer.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt raph #rise raph #he’s so wonderful frfr #my poor boy is traumatized but still so proud of what they accomplished because they’re HEROES #what started as something fun - Saturday morning cartoon-like heroes vs villains esque - soon becomes his calling #and he loses himself a little along the way #because the world is TERRIFYING now #if they don’t do something about the bad things in the world then worse things will come #and Raph CARES too much to let it happen #even at the expense of his own happiness and youth #and he luckily reigns back that fear - knowing his family is there to keep an eye out with him #and he finally lets himself be a kid again #he’s very well rounded and his flaws are so good because (like the others) they are ALSO his strengths #I like how it’s softly implied that bears are his fav animal too bc that’s cute af #headcanon that he likes them so much because a stuffed bear was the first toy splinter managed to get Raph #but yeah one of my favorite things about tmnt is that the characters are well rounded and rottmnt exemplifies that immensely #with raph being no exception!! #amazing big brother and character #there’s a REASON in my tmnt main character tierlist he’s S tier!!!! #hot take but in terms of who should be leader I think it should be less who’s the better leader- #-and more who’s the better leader FOR THIS SPECIFIC MISSION #bc all four can be great leaders fight me on that #APRIL can as well 100% #doesn’t need a designated leader for them to succeed #they just need ~communication~ #one of my favorite things tying Raph and Leo together is that they both *hide* #I’ve talked about Leo’s many masks a lot but Raph has one too #and it’s the mask of a hero - the mask of the protector

[wombywoo]

just some everyday cowboys 🤠

#rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #arthur morgan #charles smith #john marston #sadie adler #my art #ahh my fave thing #drawing characters in modern fashion~ #they're all essentially the same except marston owns a hair-dryer now...

[wyrmswears]

more libber super hell au because i COULD be normal but no i wont be

#i should specify. libber isnt one of the forbidden five in this au. assuming kai and bonzle escape wirhout the blood moon.. theres some kind #of other exit. this serves as her entrance. i havent decided if ill come up with my own reasoning or try use what we get in canon #libber gordon #ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #SORRY FOR THE DOOMED YURI. except not actually. last post i vaguely hinted that she had a crush on maya and now ive gone all in for lily #libber loves all women i believe this truly. #ninjago libber #kai smith #ninjago kai #ninjago au #ninjago spoilers #dragons rising spoilers #dragons rising s2 #ninjago dragons rising spoilers #wyrm draws #libber superhell au

[lexezombie]

Maybe putting a 7ft metal creature on unstable wheels is a bad idea--

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#lexeart #fanart #lexart #sun and moon #fnaf #five nights at freddy's #sun fnaf #moon fnaf #sundrop #moondrop #the daycare attendant #daycare attendant #DCA #DCA fnaf #not a ship sorry lol #I personally see them as some form of related but go ham with your own tags ig #roller skates #roller skating #suns gonna fall #moons good at it #i dont make the rules #except I do lmao #ive neglected the boys for so long im so sorry my loves #but after 80 years ive FINALLY decided on a colour palette and design choices #slight tweaks to colours and little bits #my beloveds

[beebfreeb]

The computer! It is my sona character.

#ms paint #beebfreeb art tag #robot #I don't know what else to tag it as. It's me. The computer. #I own all of the clothing items except that shirt. My red shirt has a different collar I think? I don't think it buttons that high. #Well I can't find it rn to confirm. SAD. #Anyway. I straight up dress weird. Most of my shirts are annoyingly patterned as I prefer. #However my grey shorts and meat socks are my favorite ever #I mean most of the time I am wearing one of my many basket ball shorts but I prefer my grey shorts for cutes outfits #object head

[omaano]

K2 for echorexfives? 👀

Rex would like a refund on his ARCs. Or a nap. Either is fine.

Just imagine for the second one that Rex is on an official holo call or something XD

Help me get back into sketching through some of these polyam/platonic pose prompts :3 (I'm still slowly doing these, they help powering through this little artistic crisis I'm suffering rn)

#There is a Hungarian saying/expression that would be so very accurate for this little drawing both in meaning and visuals #but the best translation I can figure for it is “you are getting too big for their britches” #except when someone complains that you're “growing on to someone's head” it implies that you're a cheeky little shit #AND getting too tall for your own good too #hence why it would fit A LOT BETTER #I couldn't stop thinking about this little detail; impromptu hungarian lesson over #captain rex #arc trooper echo #arc trooper fives #clone trooper fives #echo #fives #tcw fanart #sw tcw fanart #my art #I'm working on my expressions #same face syndrome? I don't know her #answers #insertmeaningfulusername #poly sketches

[mayakern]

last of my wednesday game party doodles: lazarus (he/him), our resident tits out tiefling

#dnd #artists on tumblr #art #doodles #maya draws things #“last” except i didnt draw my own character sdfkjsdkfjdfk #i honestly wasnt planning to draw one for her since this is abt me exploring my interpretation of othre ppls characters #but now i feel sad shes left out lol

[brother-emperors]

--or perhaps,' continues Octavian. 'You're angry that I've outplayed you at your own game because you were too busy fucking in your old master's house to notice anything that was going on around you.'

He smiles suddenly, bright and wide. 'Enjoy the party, Marcus.'

this scene takes place sometime after philippi, and was originally just some historical fiction I was writing last year for fun focusing on antony, octavian, and agrippa. then I got stressed out watching the new season of a show, started drawing while it played, and ended up turning it into a short comic lmao

the dialogue in this scene is referencing this bit out of Suetonius:

In early youth he incurred the reproach of sundry shameless acts. Sextus Pompey taunted him with effeminacy; Mark Antony with having earned adoption by his uncle through unnatural relations; and Lucius, brother of Mark Antony, that after sacrificing his honour to Caesar he had given himself to Aulus Hirtius in Spain for three hundred thousand sesterces, and that he used to singe his legs with red-hot nutshells, to make the hair grow softer. What is more, one day when there were plays in the theatre, all the people took as directed against him and loudly applauded the following line, spoken on the stage and referring to a priest of the Mother of the Gods, as he beat his timbrel: "See'st how a wanton's finger sways the world?"

Suetonius Augustus 68

what a fun group of people!! they should all eat each other

#octavian #mark antony #komiks tag #roman empire tag #WOW it's been a minute since i got to use that tag #the bit of my own writing (technically all of this is my own writing but in the text part of the post) is referencing #some shit about antony letting the conspirators go ahead and assassinate caesar for his own ends #which is fun to think about bc octavian proceeded to pull a similiar move but better #the gods favor one of you for sure lmao #i favor neither of you except for where i sided with octavian bc his narrative potential appeals to me more

[anonoite]

currently obsessed with young tony and older peter from the new ultimate comic run - please go read it, its so interesting so far (ultimate spider-man #1 2024)

#starker #tnpt #tony stark x peter parker #im not really sure its really starker for others since its not the same tony and peter #but in my mind it still counts #i really just wanted to draw them in my own way with hints of mcu likeness #except dilf peter in the comics is really dilf #i toned it down quite a bit because peter in my heart is still baby boi #anyway go read the new comic run its good

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

there is something so so so Appealing about angry/irritated Barnaby. it scratches an itch in my brain. somethin somethin comic relief characters getting to break their mold and be outwardly unhappy

#plus it just looks... Nice on him yk yk #i sat down to do a lil character study and Next Thing I Knew barns was ready to Throw Down #still tweaking how i draw him... still not fully satisfied #except for the center scribble #theres a reason its on its own. its my fav of the bunch #and also the happiest ive been with a scribble in a While! #everybody hold on im shifting into barnaby mode #kidding kidding. maybe. we'll see how i feel tomorrow #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #barnaby b beagle #i like how i keep cycling through which neighbor im Focusing on #lately its been howdy but all this laughingstock is making me 👀 @ barnaby #still patiently waiting for my brain to seize poppy in its white-knuckle grip #please. please. i do not control the Motivation but god i wish i did #still. anyway. angy barnaby. fuck yeah. hes great. #i think i saw that one uhhhh drawing of clown's of barns looking mildly annoyed #and thats probably what made me go Oh I Love This. This Is Incredible. I Think About This Every Day. #he deserves to be upset. as a Treat #all comic relief characters should have a free 'choose violence' ticket

[cemeterything]

i need to be more passionate about math and science. just because i'm married to english literature doesn't give me an excuse to be ignorant. you can't write if you don't know anything.

#🐉 #not a dig at anyone except myself but i refuse to take pride in my own ignorance #drags my hands down my face. i neeeeeed to apply myself to the technical side of my interests.