#dont mind me just psychoanalyzing myself

[eggnoodles0up]

its kinda interesting, i think with fanart i prefer the more fluffy and silly stuff, but with fanfiction/comics i tend to be more invested in the angsty ones

#dont mind me just psychoanalyzing myself #egg noodling #i mean ig it seems more realistic for actual writing to be not all sunshine and rainbows #where art is just like a little snippet of their life yknow? #i do like the occasional angst art as well but like when i draw it myself i usually feel rlly embarrassed abt it after a while #its probably just abt exposing my emotions to a bunch of stangers on the internet tbh #wish it wasnt though!!! i really wanna try making art thats impactful and makes u feel things !!!! i love that shit !!!! #im always kinda anxious abt being too “edgy” tho #this is what happens when i think too much past midnight

[fencecollapsed]

[whacking myself with a newspaper] stop being wishy washy about having a hatchetfield oc in public, stop cringing at yourself be free

#i was thinking about this last night mfjskdn i think i have two versions of him partly cuz im. embarrassed dksmfn #like if hes not Just a hatchetfield oc its more acceptable for me to post about him?? if i post about the non-hatchetfield version #i dunno #i need to stop doing that #i think im gonna drop the Original Version for a while #i wanna do things with it later on i have a lot of ideas ill come back to it later #but for now i should just let him be what he is hes my hatchetfield oc he doesnt need to be Two Things #its not embarrassing for him to be an insert oc its fine im just not used to it dkdksmfn #dont mind me im psychoanalyzing myself #cj says stuff

[justyokorebirth]

Dun want to go to shrink coz recently when I talked with the hoe coz sleep meds she asked about muh family and when I said I dont want anything to do with my dad's family and him and I wish we never were forced to be in each other's life she psychoanalyzed me like a tiktoker and said its because I cant forgive my dad (prob meant him having new family and leaving my mum) which is literally not true i just dont want to interact with people i paid no mind most of my life (also they are bleak and annoying and souless retards that i literally cant act like myself around which made my soul and me shirnk when i was there all these years and all these depression naps no one cared abojt coz they are all retards watching tv and the worst is i hate how my relationship with my dad was and i wish i never know how soulless it coupd be blahabpahabl), and did only coz I was literally forced to by law, and I dont ever want anyone assume my life and my pains are as simple amd devoid of nuance as the plot of evey ukryta prawda episode amd also just be so wrong and typical

[suzakushimon]

i hate it when im bothered by something on the internet so whenever i come across a take or ship that i really dont like i psychoanalyze myself to try to find the reasons why i dont like it. anyways the reason why i dont like the most popular ship from star railing

be warned im a hater down below

i already blocked a bunch of variations of the ship name but somehow it keeps jumpscaring me so ive been forced to analyze the ship objectively again

it looks sooooo SOOOO incredibly ooc to see dan heng blushing bc of blade, or blade and dan heng being lovey dovey. like, THATS NOT MY FAV CHARA BRO.... DAN HENG!!! GET BEHIND ME!!!!!!!!!

BUT after thinking abt it i realized i could and would eat a hatefucking fic between the 2

so the thing i dont like isnt necessarily the ship itself, but the circumstances they r pictured in

so in my mind they can be enemies with benefits (that will NOT turn into enemies to lovers) and they can hatefuck and try to kill each other until one of them is dead

but they can NOT be in love. canonically there is no affection between the two so any depiction otherwise is SUPER ooc to me and i get pissed seeing my fav charas personality warped so bad bc if blade was some rando enemy then like fine but dan heng has been living in fear of this one specific dude for years so i forreal cannot imagine any sort of secret love or whatever. (dan heng GET BEHIND ME!!!!!!!) i for the life of me can NOT imagine blade harboring any positive emotion towards dan heng, and the same goes for the reverse. ESPECIALLY the reverse.

so what i actually dont like isnt the ship itself, its the most popular fanon interpretation of the ship which is that dan heng has residual emotions from dan feng and secretly likes blade/blade has residual emotions from yingxing and secretly likes dan heng...... bc i rly like canon which strongly pushes that they both are separated from their past lives and tht the only bond that ties them together is blades ongoing vengeance and elio's script

99% of fic and art tends to lean towards the happy side of things (what if they were secretly in love, love that persists through death/reincarnation, happy endings, etc) and the same goes for hsr meaning most blade/dan heng stuff. like yeah a lot of it is angst but its angst w a happy ending. instead of just enemies its enemies to lovers. instead of the sins of the past have been washed away its we'll fulfill the unfulfilled wishes of our past. like...... the core concept of what would make the ship good to me is not there at all in most of the fandom stuff....

plus i just rly dont like how even though the game reasserts dan hengs identity as an individual again and again ppl still mix him into dan feng just for ship material... i might be projecting onto him or smth bc idk why i take it so personally but it feels so wrong. ingame he keeps repeating again and again "i'm not him", "i'm not dan feng", and then the fandom goes "actually, 30% of u is dan feng and that 30% is in love w blade" like what???????

so thats why the ship bothers me so much. the OOCness + the OOCness + the OOCness + if they like each other then its OOC + the themes the game present are ignored in favor of another bland gay ship formula

#my mumbles #having somewhere i can be a hater (here) is v refreshing #also realizing which aspects i can tolerate will make me feel less upset by seeing the ship on my tl #which is good. yay self reflection

[intergalactic-chameleon]

sorry i was snooping again and i think what always so deeply depresses me about r*df*m blogs is the inherent lack of joy i find on them. which is understandable bc we live in a patriarchal hellscape, but still. constantly talking about how men abuse and sexualize women with little reprieve and, in particular, cherrypicking to find trans women who they deem irrevocably porn sick and undoubtedly Male Brained and trans men who they believe are women with cases of internalized misogyny so strong that they end up using gender (Tool of the Patriarchy) against themselves to mold themselves into a man… (meanwhile not knowing a single trans person IRL, and particularly no transfemmes at that) is just so fucking DEPRESSING.

like, yea, trans ppl can in fact have issues !!! shocker !! it’s almost like we’re ALL groomed since birth to embrace our coerced sexual roles, and it just so happens that some of those people who choose to break away from their imposed sexual/gender role still hold on to harmful mentalities and behaviors. but 1. i dont understand how that makes them any more freakish or sad or “degenerate” than the cis ppl who also harbor harmful qualities and 2. why are we ignoring all of the ppl who break free and are not only happier, but are legitimately healthier people (emotionally, mentally, etc) ??? like. why are we acting like trans women in particular are almost More degenerate than cis men. for every trans woman who r*df*ms decide to hyper-fixate on and deem as a Sexist or a Perverted Sex Pest, there are at least a hundred thousand trans women who are literally perfectly normal and are just living their lives in peace, minding their own business. r*df*ms are so chronically online and Theory Pilled that not only are they morbidly obsessed with any sexual “degeneracy” they come across, they feel the insufferable urge to pathologize EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. personally, i love to psychoanalyze ppl and deconstruct societal behaviors and widely held beliefs/mentalities myself, but holy fuck dont you people get TIRED? it feels like every analysis i read on a r*df*m blog is a spinoff of Freudian psychoanalytic theory…. it’s intellectually unnecessary and harmful !!!! but i suppose that’s the entire point.

#cw transphobia #personal #ranting

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] hope you'll get a good nights rest soon aly i totally do not mind being subject to ur lil xiaolumi psychoanalyzation idek what type of enjoyer i am LMAO ALSO???? IM READING THROUGH THE FIC YOU RECC and im in awe,... i love lumine's character sm ur right shes like. such a nice rendition feels better than ur own portrayal of her bc it fits the background the author intended,.... a more quiet and reserved twin so real whos also fragile to her brother so Real and paimon oh paimon my beloved shes so nicely written so much like a Person im hugging the lil nugget actually true to her promise of being a guide and a companion,.. im like. not even a Smidge in the 30k liyue chapter BUT I JUST GOT INTO ZHONGLI'S INTRO AND IM????? UEUEUUEUE??!?!??? SOUNGD OF CRYING SOBBING ON HTE FLOOR I STILL HAVENT GONE DEEP BUT THE!!!! BUT UHUHUHUUUU IM BOUTTA IN FOR A BIG RIDE FOR THESE TWO AUAUAUURURGEHFHHSHFHCJSKFKSJFJ CHOKES AND EXPLODES AND DIES i dont actually go about these type of twin aus bc renditions of them being celestial beings/immortal gods ive seen as of late, especially if xlmi context, are written in Such ways has been giving me the pretentious impressions (cus duh theyre Gods)..,.. but it doesnt work that way for this fic and i rlly liked it uhuhufhdhhfhdh they just Exist and thats all there is to it 😭😭😭😭😭

one of these days i will ruin myself and everyone around me attempting to psychoanalyze xiaolumi enjoyers and it will be SO fun fr

AND I KNOW RIGHT ?????????? paimon written like a person and everything abt lumi's characterization is so <333333 AND YEAH ZHONGLI'S INTRO IS SO. SO . SO. SO. makes me cry every time genuinely

and YEAH ive seen it done in ways im personally just. Nawt a fan of tbh but this fic specifically and the way it goes about portraying their characterization and their power is sooooooo. they not only make it absolutely fascinating but it just works i love it so bad...

it def influenced my own thoughts on the travelers and their powers and how strong they were Before teyvat and how its changed them after its just. god. its So Good.

#i keep lumi and aether in that space between mortal and god #theres so much wiggle room and them as gods outside of very specific portrayals doesnt feel right to me #but theyre definitely VERY powerful and very inhuman imo #partially bc vibes partially bc. #um. well. yeah :sob: #girls when xiao is neither mortal nor god #feeling sooo normal #parasocial bestie tag

[hopeididntscareyou]

Ima be lazy with this because im in the middle of a nauseating migraine and im typing with only one eye opened but lets see where it goes.

With todays culture where people always try to dig shit from the past, ez nitpicking and armchair diagnosing, I'm always going to come off as contradictory. Not that i'm majorly concerned about that. Ive met people who tried to profile me but it never ended well for them. Trust me, its just not a good idea to psychoanalyze me. I'm not going to stop anyone from doing what they wanna do but also you need to realize when you're wasting your time speculating and making yourself look like a deluded fuck. Unless thats your goal then congratulations.

I express myself solely because its therapeutic for me, not because im trying to convince people to believe an avatar that doesnt exist. Its a form of art, an art where you do it for yourself and not for others. Its the same thing as singing in the car/shower or dancing at home in your alone time, these are your private moments where you don't think about what people have got to say. You just do it because you feel like it and thats where i'm at right now. I dont care if people would believe me or not. Im always going to be contradicting myself, not in pathological lying way but more like being honest about my constantly evolving mind. What I say right now wont reflect what i'll say tomorrow and thats just how it is, im not going to try to connect the dots from past to present to just explain myself about everything. i aint got no time for that. The only thing i don't like people commenting about is my relationships, because its not just about me anymore, its involves another person and thats just too much burden on me so fuck it. I'm extremely private about dating now, especially because i don't really get involved with traditional relationships. Its something people don't understand and its none of their business anyways.

To some extent I do actually admire people who live in solipsism because they don't really care about external factors outside their reality. I strongly believe that people are limited to function the way they do regardless of morality, thats why a lot of people can't really admit their mistakes, they genuinely believe theres nothing wrong with what theyre doing and they have their own reasons (again disregarding morality). They're a product of their society or how they learned to live their life for a long time. Its really more about nurture than nature than psychology make it out to be. Blaming it to nature is just one example of psychology's incompetency. There is no such thing as a born psychopath. The psychology media would show you documentaries of psychopathic toddlers to make you believe people are naturally mentally ill and thats just all chemical imbalance and therefore the only solution is for you is to take the pill and be drugged for life! I dont buy that bullshit. I dont care if some kid tortured animals and murdered their family, it dont make them a psychopath. theyre kids for fuck sake with underdeveloped brain, what do they know about morality? We all did fucked up shit when we were kids. I had genuinely dark fantasies when i was young. Some people grow out of their behaviors and some dont because of their own reasons. When a person is not behaving like a regular functioning adult in the society, they always have reasons. I dont believe that a 'mentally ill' person have to be heavily abused as a kid to form some kind of trauma. Everybody suffers in their own way and nobody can truely know that when that suffering only exists to one's mind.

As i grew older i became too distrustful of anything psychology says because fuck psychology and psychiatry. As depressing as it sounds, science is heavily controlled by politics, from medicine to astronomy, you onIy get to learn about what the government choose to share with you. Unless you're the scientist yourself then youre one of the only few who could know the truth. These days we are flooded by misinformation on the internet that you don't know what to believe anymore, but solipsism dissolves that problem for you because it separates you from the idea of relying on the outside world to function.

I don't judge whats right and wrong. I'm just observing facts. Notice how mass shooters and pedophiles blames the society. In questioning, they could tell investigators that they don't know what went through their head. But they always have reasons, otherwise, why would they have the 'victim of the society' mentality? Its pretty evident with pedophilia as a lot of pedophiles claim its a disease that they just cant control. Also child wives were acceptable in the society centuries ago, old men get married to young girls as young as 9-12 years old all over the world, royal families get married when theyre just children. were the people back then were mentally ill then? i'm not defending pedophiles saying its right or wrong but I see why they would rather say 'they dont know' or that they know they're 'wrong' to the police. Some mass shooters have manifestos as well they're willing to share but the public easily pull out the "you're a psychopath/narcissist/incel/mentally ill"card. If people around you are like this why even bother explaining shit? Lets be honest, the average criminal in prison has lived their life more with integrity and honesty more than your local politician/celebrities/CEOs. These people have as loose morals who can do heinous crimes with an actual patterns of disturbing behavior unlike the criminals in prison who dont have the power and money to do it as much and get away with it.

With all these being said, the 'your own reality' realizations gave me a big break from the constant trying to seek knowledge and learn everything. In fact, the more you learn (especially when it regards to physics), the more you realize how little you know and that you actually can't possibly learn everything about the universe in this lifetime. I find that again, solipsism goes well with this and as ridiculous as it sounds, is supported by some quantum mechanics. I don't live my life solely in this philosophy though, philosophically, i lean more towards Nietzsche's and Dostoevsky's concepts of existentialism, they definitely have changed my life for the better more than stoicism, absurdism and of course the pills ;-; but right now, i'm tired of everything reactionary and over-philosophizing bullshit. I am feeling a need of a complete retcon and i dont know what would that be but i guess its time to get on with life and breathe a lil differently

[did-i-do-this-write]

As a writer and an aspiring social worker, practicing social work concepts on fictional characters has become a legit hobby of mine. So that's how my life is going.

#its a problem honestly #probably why all of my stories focus on characters and conflict resolution #rather than plot angst and tragedy #dont mind me #just over here psychoanalyzing myself #carry on #writing #writing problems #zac speaks

[angstics]

im very selective with my pairings

#i very carefully did not say ships because that word is so over saturated #anyway my point here is that i care very very much about who i care for #and i make the selection pretty immediately #my opinion my shift but the connection is still there? #like i think my opinion on archie comics/riverdale pairings is a good example #always have been for beggie and varchie #and when i got on here i saw the appeal for jarchie and reghead #AND BERONICA #and that's it #i dont care for any other pairing as i do for those #and it's all so very dependent #im psychoanalyzing myself here dont mind me #or more recently skam and its remakes #i only give attention to og skam; skam espana; and druck #without even watching those shows or the ones i ignored #i just saw them and chose to only care for those #what facet of my brain limits these things? it decides things subconsciously #this of course interrupts real important things #like school and my ambitions #but thinking about it in a less serious way (ie TV SHOWS) is much easier #i always feel like theres something wrong in my head #i just cant control myself #long post #ish

[big-meows]

God I'm just so fucking weak for tender childhood-friends-to-lovers shit, the sweetness of coming of age, discovery of developing feelings, absolutely fucking drunk out of my mind on it, sorry not sorry if that makes me a boring vanilla bitch, its fine, it just sinks its sugary little claws into my heart, hollows me out and nests in my chest cavity and I fucking thrive on it

I could psychoanalyze myself to hell and back over why (being queer in the 90s meant I was repressed and developed romantically later than my peers, being friendless in school means I'm always seeking stories about enduring friendships, being ace in adulthood means I'm looking for stories that are inherently sexless (untrue)) but I shouldnt have to and I won't because it doesnt matter. I love these stories I love these relationships I love these characters

I have nothing but respect for everyone I know who is into adventurous horny stuff, I have nothing but respect for people who make """weird"""" art and ship """"weird"""" things, Im a huge advocate of YKINMKATO, I think you're funking champions, I dont think I'm better than or purer than, on the contrary, I often wish I could be one of you because you seem to have so much fun and the fluff spaces are full of weird puritanical pro-censorship weirdos who think Im a sex predator for even watching cartoons, its just that this is what makes my brain sing.

#three childhood friends to lovers ships in a ROW i am just admitting this is my drug and im living my truth #i dont know how I didnt end up in Reddie fandom #by all accounts it should have happened #this is another 'if you think shipping children is gross' post then get the fuck out of my life #i love stories...gosh I love art.

[daxieoclock]

Also! If you like to! Top 5 Hunters moments so far?

(Screenshot isn't from the scene but it', i dont think i can put this question in any particular order

honorable mention to the moment where everyone collectively realized Puck was a child because it's a player moment and not a PC moment but it was still fucking hilarious to experience. Literally everyone but me thought he was an adult and I assumed everyone thought knew was a child and it was...really fucking funny to watch

A: Sammy meeting privately with Prim.

(Screenshot isn't from the scene but it's related and also very funny)

I originally planned for Prim to be a character who showed up before each major boss fight to give a bit of cryptic lore and vaguely steer the party in the right direction or keep them from overextending themselves, her introduction in the first dungeon was so impactful (and fun!) that I felt I couldn't resist and included her as an "Arcana-holder" for the party to bond with. And especially seeing her friendship with Sammy develop from that very first encounter has been...fucking amazing, I love it so much.

B: Blake requests that Prim spare their teammates.

On the subject of Prim, her introduction was one of the most fun parts of the campaign to date, just having this mysterious individual psychoanalyze the entire cast, upping the stakes in almost every possible way, it was so fucking fun. But Blake's response stands out to me as a fucking amazing encapsulation of their character, through all their development. The pride, and anger, and absurd intelligence and – beneath mountains and mountains of shame – the unwavering compassion for their friends. It's a fucking amazing bit of writing, and I love how much it just...epitomizes Blake Leto in a single paragraph.

C: Lena breaks Lucien's nose, and Ilse meets with Stephen.

The introduction of Team Trinity was a fucking blast, and while Kaya had some fun moments too (and will hopefully have a few more soon), both Lucien and Stephen's introductions were absolutely fucking iconic. I knew from the start of the campaign that I wanted to have a rival team of Persona-users show up to periodically harass the party, and give an insight to the type of people who Daedalus's structure cultivates and rewards, and Ilse having a named childhood friend in their backstory was too good of an opportunity not to return; and I feel like the reveal of their shared history went really well. Lucien wasn't planned to have too impactful of an introduction, mostly just as the most abrasive of the three to start things off on the worst foot first, but Dave's snap decision to have Lena punch him in the face for a borderline skeezy comment was...fucking amazing, and perfectly in character for Lena.

D: Camellia and Sakio at Frey's grave.

It's a quiet moment, one that I didn't expect at all at the time, but it definitely sticks out in my memory as just...solemn, and beautiful, and potent. (And it definitely makes me so fucking excited for @shinyvibrava to return to the campaign so we can have a ton more moments like it!)

E: Sammy's introduction.

I don't think there's been a more hype reveal in the campaign so far as Sammy's existence, everyone lost their fucking mind and I don't blame them! It was a blast to plan things out with Nyanko in secret, and I adore how excited everyone was to see everyone's favorite goat friend for the first time.

F (because I couldn't limit myself to five + honorable mention I'm sorrryyy): The Hunters unite with the common goal of Fucking Up Jabberwocky's Day.

Sammy getting KO'd and promptly revived, leading to the most fucking triumphant, amazing fight scene in the entire campaign so far as every Hunter took their turn in the round to land a chain of really fucking high-roll attacks (while I had changed the boss battle music to Counterstrike from P5 Strikers on a WHIM) and Sakio pulled out a taste of her own strength – which she'd been limiting in front of the party up until that point? It was just fucking AWESOME and probably the most jazzed I have been during a session so far.

#the hunters #erin sakio #sammy cabra #blake leto #camellia pavel #ilse belanger #lena tarr #prim #lucien punicia #stephen alting #kaya nari

[transsexualhamlet]

25 & 34

Oh hello!

70 horrible questions

25- Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yeah, definitely, all the time. I miss the friends I used to have in elementary school and 6th grade before I changed districts without saying a word. I was such good friends with them and I have no idea what happened to any of them or what they're doing anymore. I also have camp friends from a long time ago who I used to be pen pals with, we exchanged letters for the longest time until they just. Stopped sending letters and god I hope they're not dead because I knew they were in a god awful situation but I will literally never know. I just. I shared so much of my life with so many people who I will never know or see again and they might have just disappeared into the void like ghh

34- Who/what was your last dream about?

Feel free to psychoanalyze me for this one, it was fucking Odd

The last dream I had that I remember was... really oddly vivid man, and I know it came about because I was thinking about auditions for the school musical upcoming (they were today, I didn't do Terrible ig) and so I had a dream that I was like. In a production of hamilton

It didn't start out as a production of hamilton, and I dont really know what it was, but we were in a giant room lit like the backstage of a theatre, but it was also an entire microcosm where there was legit some sort of war going on. Although we were all in a dimly lit backstage looking place we were all really small so it was basically a whole world. And then I got caught by the police or something and Died For Realsies and apparently in this world when you die you kind of go off like in a play where you just get dragged under the back curtain

However unlike in a real theatre where there's nothing but a wall behind the back curtain, there was a literal whole ass world back there. And you know it was one of those "oh i died" moments where basically what happened was I had this im dead :) thank god :) moments and idk i just got to relax and lay down and bleed out and watch people cry over me and that was really nice and i got to watch the rest of the whole war happen which ended up like. Turning into a play in my mind when it was originally like. the actual real thing happening?

So then in my mind somehow i was like oh yeah, that makes sense, we're not in a real war, we just made it to the end of act one of hamilton obviously beause that makes perfect fucking sense

Anyway so that means that I think i was Laurens????? Makes sense he definitely didn't want to survive that war (exposing myself as someone who knows way too much history behind this godforsaken musical, Laurens committed suicide via cop except the cop was a redcoat. slash serious bestie i know way too much about this)

Anyway so I guess I was way too into that but! After hanging around as ghost laurens for a while it somehow metamorphosed into being the actual play and then it was a school play with all the people i knew from drama in it and instead of coming back as phillip i just literally played hamilton? And it was one of those theatre dreams where you dont know your lines or choreography or cues yet somehow everything goes fine and i had a blast somehow? Then I ended up messing around backstage and fucking losing my costume somehow but I remember performing nonstop and then i woke up

Sorry that was way too much detail about nothing anyway I think the point of that dream is hamilton will never leave my psyche and has scarred it forever also i want to die (?) (like... yeah)

#rowan gets yelled at #ask game #shdiofohfgofhsadghfaf i love ask games it's oversharing time

[archidendron]

hey guys oversharing time. i need a therapist.

i realized recently that after i say or do or choose anything, my mind intantly repeats that sentence in a mocking tone in my mothers voice. i was freaked out over this for a couple days, but i was mostly over it.

and Then my mom told me that ever since i was an infant she would explain what she was doing or why "ok im changing ur diaper and this wipe is gonna be cold" etc etc

look. maybe im psychoanalyzing myself too hard, which i am. and yes i did luck out with a very caring and nice mom. but also i feel like maybe this is why im so nervous when there arent rules or guidelines before i enter situations. "nobody is telling me whats going on so i dont know whats happening !!!!!!" like i have actually zero common sense. i would probably have died from jumping off a cliff unless ppl told me it was bad.

i just feel like a lost frantic chicken all the time man. maybe im just in college i dont know.

also if u know me in real life no u dont <3

unless ur preston in which case help me.

#diary time

[thorne93]

The Stars Made Us (Part 13)

Prompt: In this world, you’re one of the “lucky” ones who got a soulmate, but what if the universe gives you more than you bargained for?

(Prompt challenge – You live in a world where your soulmate can write on their skin and you will get the writing on your own and vice versa. Where they can wash away the ink on their own skin, however, the writing is forever scarred onto your skin until you meet face to face)

Word Count: 1043

Warnings: angst and language throughout

Notes: This was supposed to be for @sorryimacrapwriter​​​​  and their challenge like a year ago, I think? I still loved the prompt though and have been working on this story for quite some time. This aesthetic was made by @dontshootmespence​​​​, thank you so much! Beta’d by @like-a-bag-of-potatoes​​​​, couldn’t have done it without you, as well as @carryonmyswansong​​​​ and @arrow-guy​​​​ and @mrs-dragneel-stark-solo​​​​

Also, I’ve never really liked the whole soulmate AU thing idea, but this felt so right and it was amazing to write. I hope y’all love it too!!

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After the headache of moving, closing leases, and everything else was beginning to wrap up, all you had left was finishing up the packing. However, early in the afternoon on Thursday, the day before you were set to head back, you got a text from your parents. 

“We’d like to invite the two of you to dinner. You pick the place. See you at 6!” 

You stopped everything and stared at your phone. 

“What’s the matter?” Charles asked, noting the change in your demeanor. 

“My parents just asked us to dinner.” 

“Oh, well that was nice of them.” 

“Nice, yeah,” you murmured. “But right after we had a huge blow up? Right after they basically said they’ll disown me for being with you?” 

“Maybe they’ve come around.” 

“Why would they suddenly do that?” you asked.

He shrugged, smiling. “I don’t know darling, they’re your parents,” he stated with a laugh. 

You narrowed your eyes. “Why do I feel like you know more than you’re saying?”

“Know more about your parents? Why on earth would I--”

“You’re avoiding the question with a question,” you challenged.

“Don’t psychoanalyze me,” he ordered in a stern tone.

“Not all of us can read minds, Charles, so we’re left to use other devices,” you snapped with a twitch of an eyebrow. “Tell me.” 

He sighed, his shoulders sagging. “Alright, I may have talked to your parents the other day, by myself. I went over to their house and just… had them hear my side of things.”

“You ambushed my parents?!” you asked, getting angry.

“Not ambushed! I spoke to them, calmly. No one was angry when I arrived or when I left, I promise. I also didn’t use any of my powers on them. I just talked to them man to parents, I swear. I saw how badly you were hurting. I just wanted to help. Please don’t be angry.” 

“Charles,” you groaned, putting your hand over your face. “This wasn’t your place.”

“I know. I might’ve over stepped a boundary, I understand that. I just couldn’t stand to see you in pain and I thought maybe if they heard it straight from me, it wouldn’t be like you fighting my battles. Their issue is with me, and how I handled a situation. I wanted to shed light on that for them.” 

You peered at him, your lips pulling to one side of your face. 

“It’s not so bad, I guess. Something must be good to come from it,” you noted. “I just… I want them to like you, that’s all.” 

“Well, we’ll see what this night has in store,” he offered with a smile, his hands lightly gripping your biceps. 

You replied back to your parents with a place in mind. A place you hadn’t been for some time but would love to show Charles. You two set to work, trying to pack quickly and then dashed out to meet your parents. 

They got up to give you both a hug -- Okay, this is different, you thought. 

“So, what’s with the dinner date?” you asked with a slight laugh and smile. 

“Well, we just wanted to let you know we support the two of you being together,” your mom informed, gripping your dad’s hand on the table.

“You are?” you questioned, surprised. “Why?” 

“Well we talked about it, after Charles came over, and we remembered how we’ve had our ups and downs too,” Frank informed. 

“Yeah, but all couples do and you still were against it, so why the change?” 

“Well couples fight, but what you two had was different, and we remembered that we’ve had some rough times ourselves.” 

Tracy chimed in with, “People can still hurt each other deeply, and still be very much in love.”

“That doesn’t mean you can keep doing it,” Frank reiterated earnestly. “But, at the same time, we can understand where both of you are coming from. We respect that, and we’re glad you’re trying to make this work.” 

“Well, to be honest, there’s nothing to ‘make’ work,” you informed, looking at Charles with love in your eyes. “Now that Charles is healing from his depression, we’re rather happy.” 

“We’re glad to hear that, honey,” Tracy responded. “Now that all that’s out of the way, should we eat?” 

“Absolutely,” you said with a laugh. 

And the rest of the night went smoothly. They got to know Charles much better, talking to him about his work, his studies, even his family a little bit. The dinner was actually fun and Charles got a few laughs from your parents and by the end of the night you felt better about everything. 

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The next morning the movers were there bright and early to pack up your home. It was bittersweet. This was all you had known. With little furniture and only some boxes, it was a quick load. Before you knew it, they were ready to leave. They set forth towards the mansion several hours away and you and Charles headed to your parents to say goodbye. 

It was tearful for your mom and you but you assured them you would video chat and visit as much as possible and with that, you left for your new home with Charles. 

The ride was a long one but when you got there, the whirlwind began. Just as you started to direct the movers to put your armoire in your bedroom, suddenly, Charles turned to you and said, "What if we put that in my room?" 

"Your room, but…" 

"The way I see things… we will end up there anyway, at some point, correct? So why move your belongings twice?" 

"Well yeah but… are we there yet?" You asked nervously. "I know I love you, but i just met you not too long ago. You dont think this is rushing it?"

"Rushing what? 10 years of connection?" He asked with a smile before brushing your hair behind your ear. "Look, we’ll try it out and see if it works out. If it doesn’t, we’ll move your things back to your room.”

You nodded slowly. “I’d like to try this out,” you informed. 

“Excellent. Alright, take that up to the last room on the left, upstairs,” he instructed the movers and by the end of the day, you were moved in.

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i think you might just be my favorite person cause like your mind ??? hello. fuck yes. AND I’M A CANCER TOO YUH 😌 cancers ARE shady as fuck, mwah ‼️ when’s ur birthday, omg. AND AND AND YOU’VE READ !! THE GRISHAVERSE BOOKS !! WHO’S UR FAVORITE CROW N GRISHA RN ‼️‼️

BEST FRIEND???????? HIIIII also i read grisha before i read the rest of the ask and thought u were talking abt grisha jaegar....got scared for a sec

CANCER SOLIDARITY !!!!! and june 23!! im just barely a cancer lol and im more loud on here cause its cringe tumble hehe but june cancers i find tend to be more on the stereotypical “””crybaby””” end of things??? but only a little, july cancers tend to be more the heartbreaker types yk?

i DO think im (not 2 toot my own horn) an evolved cancer???? it’s the trauma 😁😁 no but fr ima hybrid between empath and ?realist??? if that makes sense. i will psychoanalyze the fuck outta somebody with complete objectivity and then be like “well lol can’t hate u now cause i know why ur like that but also ur being in my life is hurting me so be safe✌️.” not in the “crybaby” phase anymore yk???? (its also the aqua rising in me methinx). 

AND GRISHAVERSEEE!!!! I HAVENT READ S&B YET BUT I ADORE SIX OF CROWS and omg dont do this to me...............uhh UMMM i love love love kaz but that’s such a typical answer im gonna say......either jesper or wylan. i need 2 reread and re-familiarize myself with their characters to like know for sure yk????? also i envy everything abt inej she’s literally how i make myself as an oc LMFAOOOO sneaky intimidating bright eyed spy with KNIVES!!!! KNIVES WITH NAMES!!!!!! WOOOOOO!!!!

#<3.theo #can u tell i love talking abt myself #embarassing !!

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your tumblr crushes - rants about random things that are bothering you - an embarrassing story

tumblr crushes:

well i’m very Eyes Emoji about she ra right now so two blogs i check when i dont have much time for tumblr - 1) swordlesbean for some absolutely killer meta, especially very ouch adora feels 2) lesly-oh because their art makes me VERY gay and is just consistently very very good and is also my phone lockscreen rn 

rant: 

I GUESS I ASKED FOR IT BUT MY ROOMMATE JUST PSYCHOANALYZED ME AND ABSOLUTELY COLD CLOCKED ME WITH IT. OHKO. he was like “so do you think you love garbage male characters so much because while theyre bad morally a lot of their bad actions are driven by trying really hard to be good dads (joel, marston, logan, arguably booker, dndads crew, characters from his books, etc) but your dad has never made decisions with you in mind” and i was like. okay. okay. much to think on. hmm. time to completely deflect and ramble about enneagram for like 30 minutes because ow but probably true 

embarrassing story:

so one thing you should know about me is that i dont really get embarrassed. like ever. i’m incredibly difficult to embarrass because i like making people laugh and laughing at myself so i frequently do ridiculous things on purpose, and when theyre not on purpose i still usually am in very good humor about it 

most of my “embarrassing” stories are injuries or illness but i dont want to squick people out 

so i suppose i will just leave you with the facts that 1) i was a mitzvah clown in elementary school 2) also in elementary school i performed “get off of my back” from the movie spirit at my school’s talent show with a giant stuffed horse 

#thank yooouuu #Anonymous