#don't look at me I'm coping

[fellfromavent]

They really do be going through it huh?

#don't look at me I'm coping #I spedran this #double life tango #double life spoilers #double life smp #tango #tango tek #tangotek fanart #tangotek #double life fanart #trafficblr #nox art

[cinnamonsikwate]

"why couldn't shuro have just been honest about what he felt with laios and falin it's not that hard" are you. are you White

#dungeon meshi #shuro #toshiro nakamoto #look you can hate him for other things but this is very clearly a case of cultures (& personalities influenced by these cultures) clashing #shuro is japanese/east asian-coded and laios is european white boy #i am not japanese but i also come from a collectivistic society #pakikisama is a filipino value both prized and abhorred #it relies heavily on being able to read social cues and prior knowledge of societal norms #shuro being from a different country/culture is important to his character #his repressed nature is meant to contrast with laios' open one like that's the point #they both had similar upbringings but different coping mechanisms #shuro explicitly admits that he's jealous of laios being able to live life sincerely #anyway the point is they were operating on different expectations entirely and neither had healthy enough communication skills #to hash things out before they got too bad #re his attraction to falin i personally believe he unfortunately mpdg-ed her #she represented something new & different. a fresh drink of water for his parched repressed self #alas not meant to be #i'll be honest the way ryoko kui handles both fantasy & regular racism in dm is more miss than hit for me #i don't doubt that a lot of the shuro hate is based off of marcille's pov of him #marcille famously racist 😭 #characters' racist views don't often get (too) challenged #practically everyone is casually racist at some point #anyway. again if you're gonna hate shuro at least hate him for being complicit in human trafficking & slavery #he couldn't help falling for the wrong woman goddamn 😭 #calemonsito notes #edit: upon further reflection i take back what i said about toshiro mpdg-ing falin! #i'm sorry toshiro 😭

[posletsvet]

Going through a 'Trigun → Jujutsu Kaisen' hyperfixation pipeline is.... uhm. Understandable.

Hand gestures

Fake smiles

Villains starting off as deeply empathetic

Said villains' delusional goal to create a 'better' new world by genocide

'Sworn friend' / 'my one and only'

And my favourite: tragic gays

#don't mind me i'm being silly #i'm tossing it out into the void and retreating back to the oblivion #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #tristamp #trimax #satosugu #vashwood #millions knives #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #geto suguru #gojo satoru #look this is how i cope alright? #i can afford to be silly at times. as a treat

[sciderman]

I swear I have read your big post regarding Peter Parker's neurodivergence and why it is best to avoid labelling him, but he definitely has a weird brain

Can't find it and feel kinda sad about it cuz I deeply related to it

i know exactly which post you're talking about and i can't find it either! i've raked through my archive, and it's just - nowhere to be seen. i think tumblr eated it (it happens.)

really, tumblr's search functionality is so so useless, i don't know what to tell you. there are plenty of keywords i can search to find it that post, but the search functionality actually just does not work!

undiagnosed audhd-addled peter parker, my darling, my light, my life, my everything.

i think peter parker's such an interesting creature to write, because a lot of people will point to a certain behaviour about him and say "this is an autistic thing, right?" but a lot of those behaviours are actually, in my head, tied to certain traumas in peter's life too.

people say "oh, the food thing, peter's a picky eater because he's autistic" and yes, absolutely. but also it's tied to his trauma with his parents.

peter gets overstimulated, and yes, it's an autism thing, but also he was bitten by a radioactive spider and his senses are dialled to 11.

it's a similar case i've found for myself, too – where a lot of friends i have kind of diagnose me because i have autistic traits, but actually - i'm hesitant to claim the label or pursue diagnosis because, actually, i know where these certain behaviours come from, and they come from certain traumas. there are events i can pinpoint in my life and say "yep. that's where this behaviour comes from."

so - i think there's a lot of overlap between trauma and autistic traits. the brain is very complex! i think the reason for that overlap is maybe as simple as the fact that people with autism and people with trauma are both doing the same thing - developing behaviours to protect themselves or soothe themselves. so - i think it's nice to be able to see a character like peter parker, who may or may not be autistic, but recognise behaviours in him and see yourself in him.

people who go undiagnosed for whatever reason - people who are really good at masking - so good, in fact, that they have no idea they might be on the spectrum - everyone and anyone at all can look at peter parker and recognise themselves. because i think we discredit the thought that every single brain does the same thing! develops certain behaviours in order to survive. every brain has that same software - we've just all been faced with different hardships that we need to overcome, and that's were all the differences come in.

autism is a spectrum, i guess - everyone falls into it to some degree. and i think events in your life probably push you along on it. but i don't know, i didn't study brain science. probably what i'm saying is very stupid and uninformed. of course there's brain chemistry involved. but i know people in my life living with autism and certain events in their life have exacerbated certain behaviours or made coping with it a lot more difficult. so maybe trauma is a catalyst.

#a lot of my traits have been exacerbated lately and i remember it was much easier for me before #and some of my friends have said “oh it's because you've been masking too long and now you're facing autistic burnout.” #and that made sense to me i think. #but then i found out about the stress thing. me overproducing stress hormone. and that's a very physical thing. #and that explains why i've been overstimulated more than usual lately. and why everything feels like too much. #and i wonder how many of these traits of mine are going to subside once i have lamar removed #and it makes me wonder a lot of things. and it's so weird how much your brain is tied to your biology. #i wonder how much i'll change. i wonder how i'll feel. i wonder if i'll still feel like me. i wonder how much me is me right now. #and how much of me is being altered by weird freaky hormones. who am i?? who will i be?? #i'm almost looking at this as like. a superhero origin story of some sort. like this is my spider-bite moment. maybe. #will i be different? will i cope with things differently?? now that my body isn't fighting something anymore?? #maybe i'll be normal. i don't know. i don't know. #i don't know what it'll mean for me. #but all of these things mean i relate to peter parker in a certain kind of way #i don't think you have to be diagnosed with autism to recognise and empathise with those traits i think #i think everyone can see themselves in peter. and i think that's the benefit of having characters that aren't diagnosed. #because there's so much overlap in the human experience. and certain feelings aren't exclusive to just one group of people. #peter has such a rich identity actually. it's an autistic thing. it's a queer thing. it's a jewish thing. it's a trauma thing. #there are so many overlapping parts of peter's identity that inform who he is and how he behaves and it's never just one thing. #it's a product of all of his things. #just like me! just like everyone. #so me? i guess i can be a million things. you can explain what i am in a million different ways. #a hundred different psychologists can all come up with different ways to explain why i be the way i be. #i don't think it's something that can be simplified. #sorry wow. i'm really going off here in the tags. #i hope people don't think i'm stupid. i don't know brain science. i'm just philosophising as usual. #sci speaks

[kyouka-supremacy]

So no sskk?

#😭😭😭 C'mon 😭😭😭 #We deserved it!!! After what the anime did to us!!!!!! #On a different note Dazai finally died 🥳🥳🥳 Love wins #I guess I'll look at that panel of Akutagawa carrying Atsushi bridal style (not really but I'm coping) till the new chapter comes out. Eh #I wanted them to fight... We really can't have nice things #Ugh. WE REALLY CAN'T HAVE NICE THINGS I'm okay actually I just. Nnnggggggghhhhhhhh #I /know/ the manga doesn't revolve around sskk (unfortunately) but I can't help but wish they'd have more screentime... #By the looks of it. Since Dazai absolutely can't die. Some ada ally is going to write on the page to rewrite everything soon #(page that they acquired somehow in the meantime. Don't ask. I just don't think there's any other way this could go. #A Ranpo ex machina or something) #And the arc is going to be soon done with. But I don't want it to end yet I want my juicy sskk conflict... #I wanted them to deepen the “I know you're still in there” “Why did you save me” plotlines... C'mon... #(((I wanted homoerotic bloodsucking))) #(((If we have a whole vampire arc ending without even a single scene of homoerotic bloodsucking in it #you're never going to hear the end of me))) #Alas... Maybe there's still hope. #I hope the skkers enjoyed the skk (╥﹏╥) #random rambles

[daily-hanamura]

#p4 #p4g #persona 4 #persona 4 golden #hanamura yosuke #yosuke hanamura #look everybody else has a special line in this scene telling yu how special he was but this esp hit me the hardest because i'm yosukebraine #it's in the last line “don't go partner” LIKE DUDE the way it calls back to yosuke's cut romance dialogue when he says “don't go” #im not saying that yosuke has separation anxiety but uhhhh i also think the trajectory of his story arc has been about the ppl that left hi #and how he copes with it and grows and matures and moves on but BUT BUT #yu is different #yosuke has managed to let go of the superficial friendships that he held on to from the city #he's learnt to let go of saki #he's learnt to live for himself and for the people that have come and gone BUT. BUT YU. yu has changed his life so much #and it's not even because yosuke actually hasn't grown or accepted that people in his life will come and go he has it's just that #he doesn't want yu to be another one that leaves. bcause he knows what it feels like to have someone leave and how it feels to “get over it #and he doesn't want to get over yu #and i'm #just #sitting here #sobbing #he's good with his queue

[theknifeclown]

Remember that time I turned my Sona Jagged into a candy clown?

Haha hahahahaha ha

I'm normal I swear

#jagged! #clown oc #Clownsona #fionna and cake #Candy Clown #Ha...HAHA uhhh #Don't look at me.. #I'm still coping after the ending

[lovelaceisntdead]

So. Chappell Roan.

#my friend took most of these because my five year old samsung could not cope #i will be talking about this forever btw. i don't leave my house ever. #yeah these photos are awful sorry we were being in the moment #i had SO much fun #this was a HUGE deal for me too and I'm really proud of myself #i managed to stand the whole time! #didn't faint didn't lose any limb function didn't even really dissociate that much #also. does anyone know the bassists @. asking for a friend. #i also looked really fucking hot i would like that on the record. #posting these mostly for me and also B #Chappell Roan

[furiousgoldfish]

what I thought traumatized me: Violence, Threats, living in a state of constant anxiety and terror, thread of insults and everyone agreeing I’m worthless and deserve to be punished and also asking for it

what also traumatized me but I didn’t know it did: Neglect, emotional abandonment, lack of attachment to any of my caretakers, lack of a safe caretaker to be able to attach to, lack of acceptance, lack of community, lack of positive touch, lack of acknowledgement, encouragement and attention, people around me being treated differently without an obvious reason, social isolation, lack of clarity, withheld knowledge,  inflicted guilt and shame for not knowing, blame for the abuse, being denied my own vulnerability and helplessness, being held responsible for the abuser’s feelings and actions, gaslighting, lack of love, being completely ignored while in great amounts of pain, lack of continuity, lack of clear and easily followed rules, lack of resources, being alone in developing traumatic disorders, lack of protection, being forced to feel unlovable and disgusting from how my environment was treating me, lack of parental love, lack of family, lack of justice, lack of conversation, emotional pulls on my compassion and care, lack of anything I could count on, nobody being on my side, being forced to see myself only thru the abuser’s perspective, not having access to knowledge of human rights or any kind of protection I was entitled to, being exposed to toxic culture of victim-blaming and abuser-defending, emotional manipulation that planted catastrophizing as sabotage in my head, being smear campaigned, society turning their back on me and letting me figure it out all on my own.

#trauma #child abuse #abusive parents #toxic parents #neglect #emotional abuse #psychological abuse #damaged psyche #starved of everything human needs to develop #of course one would develop anxiety and fear of society #but i mostly didn't realize how much neglect has hurt me #nobody looking at me with concern or wondering how was i doing #how i was coping with all that violence #how was i surviving it #if i needed help getting thru #if i needed help being told that i'm not that bad and i don't deserve it #that is what buried me #if i had one ally #it would have been different #but there was nothing and nobody #just me and my dissociative disorder

[pixelsjoy]

Me playing Tears of the Kingdom: As much as I miss the champions, it makes sense they're not mentioned much. It's been a hundred years since they died. Even if they survived the Calamity, most of them would probably be dead at this point. The only exception being Mipha, who would have been the only one that would still be alive if she survived the calamity due to her age. The reason they're still remembered so much in Breath of the Wild is because the Divine Beasts, one of the last remaining connections to them, are still active and looming in Hyrule. Impa also said that their spirits feel uneasy knowing their task of defeating the Calamity wasn't done. They were at peace when the Calamity was defeated and passed on. They're not brought up from that point on because them and their era are over and can be laid to rest.

Also me playing Tears of the Kingdom: - holding back tears - Damn I miss the champions

#LIKE YEAH. I GET IT FROM A THEMATIC POINT. BUT FROM A 'SIR THOSE ARE MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS' POINT. I AM ACHING #I love the sages in TotK! Don't get me wrong! #I mean look at my icon tee hee #But I've grown so attached to the champions their absence feels so off. I'm fifty-fifty on it #I wanna be clear: Big agree with people who say the Sheikah Shrines and tech being suddenly gone feels off #It's unexplained and feels far too significant to easily write off #I feel similar about the champions and how little they're mentioned in game #I don't think Zelda even has a single line of dialogue that mentions them. #She and Link lived through the calamity and knew them as friends #At least a tiny mention would have made sense since she does briefly talk about the Calamity with Sonia and Rauru #I guess it makes a little sense?? In regards to the developers wanting to be hush hush about BotW spoilers for newcomers #But the way they went about it is like they tried to forget it happened. It doesn't feel right. #This might also be my biased speaking cause the original sages? Cool and all #But they feel so hollow compared to the characters that the champions had #Anyways I am still VERY in love with TotK. It's consumed way too much of my time #But I also wanted to talk about this gripe dhdjfjejfjd #Thank you for coming to my TED talk. I'm sorry this is a whole wall of spilling #Anyways will I cope by remembering Age of Calamity is a thing despite how much it obliterates the timeline? #Dang right #Tears of the Kingdom #Breath of the Wild #TotK Spoilers #LoZ TotK #Loz BotW #BotW Champions #Long Post

[cronenfag]

okay peace and love i'm never posting like that again

#now i look like someone who's like. “my 🌟trauma🌟 made me funny” #or a someone who just says “ed” loosely but doesn't mean it and/or brags abt being anorexic #things got way bad again at a speed i didn't know it would have. that's a bit of what i've been up to lately #@cronenfag blog is the worst bc in like april 2023 i made a post like “that's it i swear off recovery i'm better off being worse” #and then in like late 2023 i was posting like “yay ^_^ i'm gonna get better FORREAL. i'm seriously gonna try this time :)” #and now we're here #the entirety of 2023 was a back and forth of that #to be fair even when i was in the “i wanna get better” stage i was directed to a clinic and was like “i don't need to go i'm normal now” #when really i didn't wanna go mostly bc it's like. a coping mechanism i don't want to let go of in case i need it #i don't think i ever truly wanted to rule out the idea of reeeelapsing and i knew that obviously #i've dug myself so deep i have no idea how long this whole mess will go on for. because i don't want to die like i used to #but it's all still been engrained in my mind over the past few years #whatever #m

[hazeism]

GRAAGHH WHO CARES ANYMORE

#a few weeks ago i was like okay haze make a finished piece and i had a lot of fun doing lineart #and then I remembered I'm a hackfraud (not an aspersion) and I don't want to color ever i haaate coloring i haate finished piece #so this sat doing nothing but fuck it there's like four people on the face of the planet who will look at it #so i'm going to cope seethe mald or whatever (teeth grit) peace and love on earth #asimov chronology #cleon I #i love my wife cleon I at least. #eto demerzel #visual #finished #queue #lyrics btw come down forever the ninth wave love you shoegaze it makes me think of them #the way i can't make meaningful artistic decisions in the visual medium because i am a machine

[byanyan]

byan absolutely coating themself in body glitter to cheer themself up when they're sad, send post

#something something 'if i'm stunning and sparkly enough no one can see how depressed i am' #it's a similar flavour of denial to their 'if i wear enough eyeliner no one can tell i've been crying' #they...... cope a lot while they're miserable thru making themself look cute #if they feel cute enough nothing can touch them... not the depths of their own despair and certainly not the consequences of their actions #ok ok the day has gotten away from me... it's been a Weird one... but i'm gonna try to get at least some writing out this evening #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[santonali]

[sandro’s goodbye vignettes 1/?]

a love lost is love, still. it always will be.

#ac milan #sandro tonali #acm #acmedit #sandro's goodbye vignettes #DON'T LOOK AT ME i'm coping okay

[conop-8888]

that comic about imagining your favorite character softly encouraging you but it's your own sona who's as positive and cheerful as you wish to be someday

#don't look at me i'm coping and prayin' I pass the other 3 classes from this semester #nops art #persona

[coldflasher]

the flash should have ended with barry quitting his job at ccpd to become a stay-at-home husband and that's on that

#the fun part is it genuinely could have ended like that. i have no idea. still haven't watched it #NOBODY TELL ME BTW #THAT IS NOT ME ASKING FOR SPOILERS. I'LL GET TO IT #but honestly it's the only thing that makes sense. i have genuine reasons for this #namely: how the fuck is iris. an incredible but ordinary non-speedster woman. meant to look after a baby speedster #ordinary babies are already making it their life's mission to die. eating shit they shouldn't. rolling over and suffocating. #idk i don't know about kids but i know babies are breakable and will roll off tables and god knows what else #now imagine you have a toddler and she can literally move at hundreds of miles per hour #how the fuck was iris meant to cope? #i still maintain that when they did the 'she put a power dampener in nora' plot it should have been like. not a control thing #but also yeah. literally a control thing because HOW THE FUCK ELSE WAS SHE MEANT TO LOOK AFTER HER BABY #if barry is gone and she's a single mother. assuming no other speedsters are around to help her. what the fuck else was she meant to do? #of course she had to suppress her powers because how can you stop your toddler running into traffic if she can run 1000 times faster than u #how do you keep her in her crib at night if she can phase through the bars? #in that sense. yeah it's fucked up. but you can understand it. you can empathize. what other options did she have? #so yeah stay-at-home dad barry is the only thing that makes sense for genuine safety reasons #he is quite literally the only one who can keep up with the kids #they dropped the ball on nora is all i'm saying. again. fic that lives in my head where original nora's death actually means something #and we get a new nora who is ACTUALLY a different person. as she would be considering her whole upbringing was different #and she has to somehow live up to the memory of a version of her that was erased from time #part of barry and iris can't accept that that specific version of their daughter is gone and it's not her #THE ANGST POTENTIALLLL #in my head she doesn't even go by nora because she's like. THAT'S NOT ME. SHE DIED. WHY CAN'T YOU ACCEPT WHO I AM AND LOVE ME FOR ME #she goes by dawn bc yeah im still kinda sad they didnt use that name #fictional characters give ur kid an original name instead of always naming them after dead ppl challenge #my fics #my meta