#do we need to talk about the fact being blind does not always = total 100% sight loss.

[geese-in-a-frock-coat]

What's your evidence for Watts and Murdoch being autistic? (I totally agree btw)

Hello, internet stranger. Buckle up cause I've thought too hard about this.

Ok disclaimer I have not really sat down and watched the whole thing for a hot minute. Its past nine, you're just gonna have to trust me this one.

Credentials: Mega autisitc

Murdoch:

Does not understand social conventions. Like this ones pretty obvious. He doesn't understand why people keep dogs. Raises his kid in a completely non traditional way. Frequently doesn't get why people care about something that he sees as not being worth it (sports and popular trends and so forth).

Doesn't like small talk

Cares about justice NOT the law. The thing that really makes me think he's autistic is that he cares about things being just and is prepared to break the rules to do so. The main example being he lets that woman out of prison depsite the fact that he could go down for it. He turns a blind eye to Watts and lets Giles go even though they're both criminals in the eyes of the law. And on the flipside he sends George to prison because I think that's what he percieves as justice (if anyone's seen the bridge this really reminds me of Saga at the end of season 2)

Sees through hierarchy. There are so many epsiodes that play out like "I think Mr X is the killer." "But Mr x is extrememly important and influential!" "I don't care he killed her."

Interest in science and inventing. Look I know we joke about stereotypes but like, its a stereotype for a reason. He builds things with an autistic brain. He uses pattern repition through learning about previous inventions and applying them to his own devices.

Visual learner. This is not autism exclusive but he solves cases in such a unique way that it screams ND to me. Murdoch often literally builds a case. They make a joke about clue/cludo but he literally has to make the model of a house to picture where everyone is. He makes all those model of the ladies that were covered in metal. And let us not forget his famous chalk board.

Buzzkill. I say this as a long-term sufferer of leaves parties at 8:45 syndrome. He does 'boring hobbies' which autistic people often have because we don't feel the need to take up traditional ones.

Remember that scene where he attempts to read out his and Julia's book and just absolutely cannot tell that no one gives a single toss about anything he's saying.

Wears the same thing for nearly 20 years. If it ain't broke don't fix it.

Refused to let his wife cut his hair because he didn't want to change from the lady who used to do it.

breather. Part 2: watts.

Cannot read social cues: Frequently insults other station house four people. Pretty sure he called someone's baby ugly but I might have hallucinated that. "You're face is symetrical." Got chucked out of station house because he didn't get on with any of them

Disregard for societal norms: doesn't feel the need to be polite or tactful with anyone or to really follow police protocol. Acts very 'improper' a lot of the time. Only got one shoe shined that one time because that was all he needed. Puts his feet on the sofa, lies on the desk and leans over tables.

Makes limited eye contact.

The man will fidget with anything: Look this is clearly a character decision from Daniel Maslany but its an autistic character decision if ever I saw one. We're talking pencils, cups, fabric, anything. If it is on the set, he will find a way to play with out. And I don't normally like to assign autistic traits onto behaviour implemented by actors but it's basically stimming at this point. I dare you to keep an eye on this man's hands for any scene and I garuntee you they will not stay still.

Disorganised, but not: He always has tiny bits of paper and whatnot in his pockets but always seems to know where everything is. organised but doesn't have to time to be tidy. Same whenever we see his flat, it's equally disorganised. as an autistic person I find things end up all over the place because I don't have the capacity to keep them in order.

Bad handwriting and can't spell

Physicality: Most autistic people will have some sort of problem with co-ordination. He walks uneavenly. He has an odd posture. I always think about that scene where he steps in sick and moves around like a dear on ice. He's clumsy, can't sit straight and has a strange posture.

can't think when being interrupted

can't focus on two things at once.

George realised he'd been possessed by aliens because he was acting normally.

pretzels: dare i say safe food. If not, they're bland, usually the same everytime and take little mental effort to consume.

Strong sense of justic: see william murdoch.

SPECIAL MENTIONS:

Dr Emily Grace: didn't become a doctor becuase she didn't want to adopt a 'cheerful bedside manor.'

Dr Julia Ogden: Married to Murdoch (like calls to like) and sees through the bullshit of victorian society.

Susannah Murdoch: has those two as parents and I have the full confidence of genetics on this one.

In conclusion:

There's probably so much more I could talk about that I just don't remember because there is a lot more of this show than most others. But anyway. Murdoch is autistic because he has to be for the show to work and becuase he often comedic-foils far too close to the sun. And Watts is autistic because there is no way on God's green earth a man who stands like that is neurotypical.

Thank you, internet stranger, I am here all week.

#sorry this is word vomit #there is a reason i shouldn't try and be funny on the internet #murdoch mysteries #cbc murdoch #cbc mm #william murdoch queer icon #william murdoch #llewellyn watts is autistic #llewellyn watts #dr julia ogden #dr emily grace #autistic stuff

[feline-evil]

Clasping my hands together in prayer and wishing The GamersTM weren't also fans of what i'm a fan of

#jay talkin #the pain of being a fan of a specific character who has so many things that The Gamers are Fucking stupid about #constant cinema-sins esque gotchas abt stuff that they think they r so smart for pointing out #when in fact they are being so facking dumb. do u know my pain as a kazuhira miller liker #everyday The Gamers do a 'gotcha' of 'oh he couldnt do that he's blind' #do we need to talk about how uncomfortable that is to hear parroted around #do we need to have a talk about the wide range of sight loss covered under the diagnosises that get you labelled Legally blind. #do we need to talk about the fact being blind does not always = total 100% sight loss. #do we need to talk about Being Normal about a disabled man for once in our miserable lives. #also you can't tell him what to do thats hellmaster fucking miller are you kidding me. #also had to bear witness to people callong him a weeb for being called Kazuhira.... #my brother in christ how are you gonna act like you know shit abt what yr talking abt #when you don't know that kazuhira fuckin miller is a whole ass japanese man with a backstory #that involves the discrimination and xenophobia he faced as a man who looks like he does #a WEEB? A WEEB?? HES FROM. JAPAN. #oh no way the guy from japan has a japanese name? must be weeb shit guys bc our lil racist addled brains #cant understand that japan is a country outside of our commodification of it bc we r less smart than a bird #WHEEZE. SORRY. I GOT MAD AGAIN FOR A MOMENT. anyway. #GamersTM are insufferable and lack the media literacy to actually be metal gear fans so i wish they'd Go Away #putting metal gear but especially kazuhira miller up on a shelf till you guys can learn to behave

[livingdreams97]

Eloise Bridgerton - "The Prince" (Part 2)

Eloise Bridgerton x Male reader/oc

Summary: Two people who have never seen each other before, with the same need and desire to be free in different ways. What could come of that when both people meet each other?

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Dear readers,

The same two words always come to mind for this author the morning after a big party: surprise and delight. And dear reader, the scandalous accounts of last night's evening at Ranger House ( Bridgerton house ) are quite surprising and a real delight.

Emerging from her previous failure with Viscount Anthony Bridgerton, Miss Edwina Sharma seems to have charmed Prince Friedrich of Prussia with her charms.

They have been seen very together at every social event and close sources comment on the success of the diamond of the season with the prince. Perhaps it turns out that the Queen Regent is a very good supervisor and has an eye for pairing.

Maybe this is the queen's redemption, compared to the resounding failure she had last season with Miss Sharma herself; her diamond for the second consecutive year, and the frustrated wedding she was going to have with the Viscount.

Speaking of royalty, we must also mention the presence of Prince Y/n of Hannover and also the queen's nephew in this season. Also remember that Prince Y/n is the future heir to the throne since the queen and the regent king so dictated after his 16th birthday .

Apparently, this handsome green-eyed prince is also looking for a wife and a future queen. The mothers are very attentive to each moment of solitude, to push their daughters into hisarms and try to catch the biggest fish in the place.

But it seems that his attention is fixed on none other than Miss Eloise Bridgerton. It should be noted that this is the second season as a debutante for the second daughter of the Bridgertons and the bad reputation that comes from the people with whom she joined last season.

But that fame does not seem to frighten or matter to the Prince of Hanover, as he has been seen many times on the dancefloor with Miss Bridgerton. They say that love is blind and perhaps in this case it can also become deaf.

How will the queen feel about this possible union?

On the other hand, we have Miss Prudence Featherington who is still engaged to Mr. Jack Featherington and it seems that the nuptials are still some way off. On the other hand, we have Penelope Featherington , who has reportedly been seen in the company of Mr. Colin Bridgerton more than usual. Could this mean something else; or is it just a friendship?

Always yours,

Lady Whistledown.

Eloise's POV

I can't do it anymore. I can't continue with this constant pressure, feeling like every step and every one of my movements is being watched. And not only for my mother, but also for the rest of the people in each event.

It's only been three weeks since the social season began, three weeks that have seemed eternal and one of the heaviest. It seems that three months have passed and not three weeks.

I feel exhausted and totally stressed. I don't want to disappoint my mother again and have our last name put in doubt again because of me. That is what I least want.

But the pressure not to disappoint Mother again, the feeling of being completely watched at all times, and the discomfort I feel every time a newcomer questions me about my "radical" ideals overwhelms me.

The only times I don't feel so overwhelmed and suffocated by everything is when I'm reading in my room and no one bothers or watches me at all.

I can only relax when I am completely alone.

Worst of all, I can't talk about it with anyone, since I would have talked about it with Penelope before and that's it. But after her betrayal, I can't talk to her, much less when she didn't trust her and continues to write as Lady Whistledown .

The fact that she continues writing annoys me even more, especially when she writes about my family and more specifically about me. If anyone had forgotten about her comment last season, about my relationship with Theo and my supposed radical political ideas; with what she wrote about me three days ago, she reminded all of London.

So people looked at me even more and not in a very positive way. But I couldn't talk to anyone about how I felt, because I don't have any friends left and no one in my family would understand.

I can't even tell Benedict how I feel, since he's too focused on his drawing and I don't want to worry him with my problems. In addition to that he would tell me not to pay attention to people and he would tell me something funny to make me laugh.

But that's not what I need right now. What I need now is someone who listens to me, who understands me and can help me with all this that I feel. Because I feel like I'm drowning more every day and how I'm short of breath every time I enter a dance or social event.

And the same thing was happening to me right now.

Tonight was the annual seasonal ball at Vauxhall Gardens, so the whole family except my two younger brothers had come. Even Kate had decided to leave little Olivia at home.

As soon as the family had set foot in the party, all eyes were on us and more specifically on me.

Ignoring with all my might the gazes on me, I comply with what my mother asks of me and dance with two men until the song ends. But neither of the two men are educated people.

Because both of them have spent the dances asking about my ideals and how wrong I am with my radical political thought, since that promotes the extinction of my life as a person of high class.

What ends up getting fed up and in a carelessness of my family I flee towards the labyrinth of the gardens. Where I sit on one of the stone benches of the place and I start to cry without being able to avoid it.

XY: I don't think it's safe or correct that you're out here without supervision.- I hear near me, causing me to jump scared and turn around to find the Prince of Hannover.

Eloise: I could say the same to you.- I reproach with a frown, forcefully wiping away my tears and trying to stop crying.

Y/n: Are you alright Eloise? - he asks with some concern on his face, walking towards where I am and sitting a bit far away; but in the same bank.

Eloise: Of course I'm fine.- I answer clenching my jaw and holding back the urge to continue crying.

Y/n: I'll  believe you and we can go back to the dance as if nothing had happened.- he says with some sarcasm, bringing a glass to his lips and giving a small sip.

Another thing that has changed is my relationship with Prince Y/n. At first it seemed unbearable and somewhat unbelievable. But over time I have been able to learn more about him and have long intellectual conversations about our interests.

So I've started to see him a bit as a friend, since he knows what is said about me and completely ignores it. He has never come to ask me about my radical political ideas, even though I don't have them as such and that is something that everyone has asked me about.

So you can say that I like him a little, although not enough to tell him my stuff and be considered my friend completely.

Eloise: I'm just tired and overwhelmed by everything.- I admit with a sigh and see how he offers me his drink.

Y/n: What has you overwhelmed?- he asks as I accept the glass and take a small sip, feeling a burning pain in my throat.

Eloise: Iugh Yuck.- I say with a gag, giving him back the drink and causing him to laugh at my reaction.

Y/n: Don't change the subject and answer me.- he tells me funny.

Eloise: I feel overwhelmed for not finding a husband and disappointing my mother for a second time.- I answer playing with my hands and lowering my gaze.

Y/n: And why do you think you won't find a husband?- he asks with some confusion in his voice. -From my point of view, you are perfect for any man. You are beautiful, you have your own thoughts and ideals that you defend with very good arguments, you are educated, you like to read and you do not give importance to what the rest of the world says. - he enumerates and I look at him completely surprised, feeling a certain heat on my cheeks and ears.

Eloise: You say that out of politeness.- I played down what he just said, feeling embarrassed and somewhat impressed by his opinion about me.

Y/n: I say what I've seen and what I've experienced with you.- he assures me with a small smile, so I look away from him. -There are very few women like you Eloise Bridgerton and you should be proud of who you are. Because you are worth much more than any of the other debutants with knowledge of pianoforte or whatever they know how to do, because you go further and you don't focus only on learning something to please your future husband.- he expresses and i presses my lips , so that he does not see the smile that wants to appear on my face about what he has told me.

Eloise: That's the problem, I don't want a husband to please and become a boring housewife.- I say with a sigh. -I don't want to have to pretend to be someone I'm not in order for a man to like me, I don't want to make myself less so I can get married and I don't want my life to be left in the hands of a husband who is only interested in himself.- I complain and I can see how he listens to me attentively.

Y/n: So you don't want to get married? - he asks with confusion and with some interest shining in his eyes.

Eloise: No.- I deny with a sigh. -It's not something I want, but my mother wants me to get married and I don't want to stay like a spinster either; because it is not that they are very well seen in our society. - I explain and I see how he nods with his head processing what I just said.

He stares at me in silence for a few moments, saying absolutely nothing and with a certain pensive look on his face.

Y/n: Can I make you a proposition?- he asks me with some caution.

Eloise: What kind of proposition? - I ask a little interested, but also with some caution for the possibilities.

Y/n: You don't want to get married, right? - he asks and I shake my head. -But neither do you want to stay single and "disappoint" your mother by not getting married.- he says and I nod without understanding where he wants to go. -I propose that you marry me.- he says confidently and I open my eyes wide.

Eloise: WHAT?!! - I exclaim completely in shock.

Y/n: Don't yell or someone will see us.- he whispers looking at all sides.

Eloise: Have you gone crazy?- I ask quickly in a whisper. -I just told you that I don't want to get married and you ask me to marry.- I commented as if it were the craziest idea in the world.

Y/n: Be quiet and listen to me for a moment please.- he asks me with a certain plea in his eyes.

Eloise: Okay.- I accept with a sigh, trying to relax my breathing and the accelerated beating of my heart.

Y/n: I don't want to get married either, but my father forces me to find someone and marry her for love.- he begins to tell me. -I just want to travel the world and enjoy life, but I can't do it until I get married; since I made a deal with my father. The deal is based on the fact that if I marry for love, he will pay me six months to travel the world and buy me a house wherever I want for myself and my wife.- he explains and I still don't understand his proposition.

Eloise: And what do I paint here and in your proposal for me to marry you? - I ask still a bit confused.

Y/n: That's what I'm getting to.- he complains with a sigh. -I don't want to get married and you don't want to get married, but for different reasons we don't want to be single either. So it's the best thing that could happen to us. - he exclaims and I look at him still confused.

Eloise: I still don't quite understand the reason for your proposition.- I point out how poorly it is being explained.

Y/n: You marry me and your mother is glad that you marry a prince and future heir to the crown; besides that you don't stay single.- he points to me first . -And I marry you, finally being able to travel the world and having the freedom to live away from my father. We both won.- he exclaims with some joy.

Eloise: But I would still have to marry you and I'm not going to make myself less or become a housewife for you.- I deny immediately.

Y/n: And you won't.- He denies, reassure me immediately. -You will have all the freedom in the world, you will be able to read everything you want and dedicate your time to yourself without having to worry about your future anymore.- he assures me and I observe him considering the proposal.

Eloise: Could I choose where to have the house? - I ask with a raised eyebrow.

Y/n: As long as it's not near my father; yes.- he nods with a smile.

Eloise: I want to review your proposal, okay? - I ask and he nods. -You want us to get married together; because neither of us really wants to get married, but I don't want to disappoint my mother and I don't want to stay single either. At the same time as you , you have made a deal with your father and if you get married he will finally let you travel the world and buy you a house.- I am saying everything he has told me, causing him to nod again. -And I will be able to continue enjoying my books and not being the most feminine woman in the world, without you caring and I will have all the freedom in the world; besides that I will choose where we would live? - I finish reviewing the proposition.

Y/n: Exactly.- He nods with a smile.

Eloise: What's the catch? - I ask raising an eyebrow, knowing that everything sounds very perfect and there must be a catch.

Y/n: It has to seem like we really love each other and my aunt has to accept our marriage.- he responds a bit insecure and I open my mouth in surprise.

Eloise: No.- I deny getting up from the bench. -Your aunt; Your aunt THE Queen hates me.- I point out and he follows my example getting up from the bench.

Y/n: My aunt will adore you if she thinks you're the love of my life and thinks I'm in love with you.- he assures me and I shake my head.

Eloise: Nobody will believe it. - I deny nervous and somewhat disappointed.

The proposal was perfect, but it was too perfect to be true and now it's clearly impossible.

Y/n: Eloise, please listen to me.- He begs me, grabbing my hands and making me look at him. -You are my only hope, the other debutants want to marry me to show off and for the possible power that marriage would entail. And to be honest, I couldn't pretend to love them one bit, no matter how good an actor I may be.- he explains sincerely and I can't help but laugh at the last thing .

Eloise: And with me if you can pretend perhaps? - I ask strangely nervous about his closeness and curious about his answer.

Y/n: Yes, because you have something in your head and you have thoughts of your own.- he answers without thinking for two seconds. -It would be easier for me to fake a relationship with someone intelligent like you, than with someone who doesn't even know what an intellectual and casual conversation is; without it being planned.- he comments and I can't help nodding at the reality of the situation.

Eloise: And what happens if we don't fool anyone? - I ask with an exhausted sigh.

Y/n: Lady Whistledown already believes that there is something between us and as my aunt says, if that lady writes about it, the rest of the town comments on it and also thinks about it.- he answers calmly. -We just have to start being seen more together, take walks in the park together and dance only with each other.- he explains part of his plan.

Eloise: And how will we convince my mother, Lady Danbury and your aunt the Queen?- I ask and I see how he remains thoughtful.

Y/n: I could go to your house for tea from now on, show an intense interest on my part towards you and a notorious approach so that they do not suspect.- he plans and I can recreate the plan in my mind.

I can see how the situation can turn out favorable for us and how we can both win if everything works as he has said. But it can also go wrong and someone discover us.

Eloise: Can I think about the proposal for a few days? - I ask a little nervous and insecure.

Y/n: You can think about it for as long as you want. - He nods with a small smile. -But I'm afraid that to ensure a positive ending in case you accept, we have to start acting now and even if in the end you reject the offer, we'll just distance ourselves a bit and that's it.- he raises and I nod, understanding his point of view .

Eloise: Okay.- I nod and he leaves a light squeeze on my hands and then releases them. -I'll think about it these days and I 'll give you an answer as soon as possible.- I assure him and he takes a couple of steps back, picking up his glass from the bench.

Y/n: Great, now let's go back to the dance and hopefully no one has noticed our absence.- he tells me and we both head towards the dance.

Before reaching the end of the maze, he asks me to go first and that he will appear a few minutes later; so as not to arouse suspicion. And that's what happens.

Ten minutes after I have found my brothers, excusing myself for having been in the bathroom and for the long queue, there he was. Prince Y/n approaches us and asks me to dance with him, which I immediately accept with a smile and beginning the most important performance of my life.

From this moment on, in the following days we will have to be the best actors in the world and make all the people believe that there is something between the prince and me.

I just hope that everything goes well and that in the solitude of my room, I can think calmly and weigh all the pros and cons of the proposition Y/n has made me.

I only hope to be able to choose well and not regret it in the future; either close or far from the decision that I have to make in a few days. Because that decision will dictate my life and future from the moment I make my final decision.

NEXT

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[peachyloveswriting]

Hi there! I was just wondering if i could request headcanons for knives and what he looks for in a partner (not that he would actively look but what would make him fall for the reader) and also what would make him and smile and laugh? I feel like he has the cutest laugh and we all know how beautiful his smile is!

If youre not comfortable with that, thats totally fine! Thank you though!

Yo. I'm doing smaller requests for now bc we went to a family thing today and that burns me out apparently. I'll write the other stuff later. For now I'm rolling with headcanons.

What makes you happy? --- Millions knives

SUMMARY: Headcanons of what knives wants in a relationship and what makes him happy.

To Knives, honesty and loyalty are two of his biggest needs. To be honest with him is to always speak the truth, how you feel, what you think, if he scares you... He wants to know it all and he wants to know it's the truth. Being loyal to him is for you to never mistreat him, it's not about following orders and it's not following in blind trust. Loyalty is to stay by his side, confide in him about your problems, being able to disagree with him and have your own thoughts. He doesn't want a mindless slave, he already has plenty of those, he just wants someone who's not afraid to say what they think.

He likes someone who's independent and doesn't need someone else to care for them. That includes basic needs. Knives likes to have peace of mind that you can care for yourself if he's not there. That makes his day to day much easier not having to watch someone constantly. Knives is however, a thorough enjoyer of keeping his partner company wherever they go. Sometimes, he doesn't want space and others he does. If his partner can understand that then it works out perfectly in the end.

Playing piano is just one of his past times. Though it's often you'll find yourself accompanying him while he plays these well drawn out tunes. This piqued your interest and you wanted to know how to play. Knives was against it at first but later on allowed you to watch him play and copy after him. He likes watching you try and piece together what he shows you and he even watches you try to play when you think he's not around. He enjoys the fact that you take interest in his hobbies.

Knives loves it when someone can sit down and listen to him rant for hours on end without cutting the conversation short or not really listening. You like listening to him talk and watching you intently stare at him when he rants makes his heart swell. Even better than this he loves in-depth conversations, not many are or have been close enough for such conversations to happen so any one who slips into this with ease is of interest.

When you actively try to get to know him, he feels seen or validated by the fact that you want to know him for who he really is and not who he comes off to be. Just mindless chatter while he talks about himself makes him feel content enough to place his trust in them. It takes a lot to fully earn his trust and it seems like there's so many barriers to break down but it's really a compliment to his personality.

When you finally learn to play a song for him on the piano, he's over the moon. To have someone else composing even an already written song for him is so personal. Just watching you intently stare at the keys as you focus is enough to make a smile break out onto his face.

Your curiosity at times makes him chuckle or laugh. You're so persistent to learn about all these different things that he tells you or shows you that it's entertaining. You show a willingness to learn and he loves that about you.

Vash isn't very big on physical touch however he loves it whenever you play with his hair. He likes how you'll braid random strands together for him to untangle later. He smiles every time he sees one, it reminds him of how gentle your hands work away at his head.

Though knives doesn't have to eat he still sits with you while you eat dinner anyways. He likes to sit and listen to you ramble on about your day, it makes him happy when you get all excited to talk about something.

Even though he doesn't need sleep either he lets you use his room for sleeping quarters. Oftentimes he'll lay beside you as you fall asleep the tips of your fingers tracing the design over his skin tight suit. He loves the way your touch makes him feel giddy inside.

When you compliment him he absolutely adores it and chases the attention. His all time favorite is your Nickname for him. "Angel, my angel," there are a few others but hearing you say that makes his heart soar in adoration.

On days where Knives is In a bad mood, he tends to lash out at anyone near him, you included. Yet even in those moments you treat him with care and patience. It reminds him that he doesn't always have to be so violent, that there's a part of him that can relax in your presence.

The others that work beneath him don't exactly like you, this leads to interesting situations. So when you absolutely chew one of them out for trying to do something he can't help but smile with pride.

He enjoys listening to your fixations and generally will get you something to do with that when the chance presents itself to him, he absolutely loves seeing you so excited and happy, it's contagious.

#millions knives x you #millions knives x reader #knives x reader #millions knives #trigun x reader #trigun stampede x reader

[chelseachilly]

THIS LOVE - chapter two | the lights are so bright but they never blind me

pairing: ben chilwell x reader

rating: T

word count: 2.1k

summary: you have to adjust to life in the public eye as ben’s supposed girlfriend...and ben has to adjust to the sight of you wearing his chelsea kit to a game

A/N: thanks for more lovely messages, they really encourage me to update faster lol! i’m sorry this one’s a bit shorter, the next update will definitely be longer 😌 chapter title is from welcome to New York

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The morning after the gala, you wake up in Ben’s guest room feeling relaxed and refreshed.

You always seem to get a better sleep when you stay at his, though you’re not sure if that’s due to his comfy mattress and expensive sheets or the fact that he lives out in Cobham and it’s significantly quieter than your own flat.

This state of relaxation lasts for about five minutes, or until you get a text from your friend Valerie asking if you’ve been on Twitter today.

Bracing yourself, you open the app and already see Ben’s name trending.

You’ve gained some followers over the years when Ben has posted you on his socials, but it’s nothing compared to the way people are currently talking about you all over the internet.

It’s not just on Twitter - your Instagram following count has already grown exponentially, and your comments are filled with everything under the sun, from praise to cruelty.

You know Ben gets shit like this all the time, and Mia warned you it would be coming your way, but it’s still surreal to read about yourself online.

Especially when none of it is true. Even the nice tweets about what a lovely couple you make are based on a lie.

You can’t resist going down the rabbit hole for a few minutes, reading pages of tweets from Ben’s fans speculating about your relationship, some negative and some positive. Eventually, you can feel your brain starting to hurt, and you know it’s in your best interest to shut your phone off for a while.

Begrudgingly, you force yourself to get out of bed and face the day. You make your way downstairs in your pyjamas, stretching your arms out as you enter the kitchen.

Ben is already awake, like he usually is at this time, and he’s standing by the stove in joggers and an old Nike sweatshirt, flipping pancakes that you know are not a part of his diet plan.

“Pancakes?” you question, startling Ben a bit as he turns to face you.

“Morning,” he says with a small smile. “Yeah, with blueberries. They’re for you. Figured it’s the least I could do since-“

“Since I’m being torn apart online by football fans?” you joke - or, at least, you mean it as a joke.

Ben’s face falls, his eyes wide with concern, and he sets down the spatula to walk over to you.

“I am so sorry, Y/N,” he says seriously. “I didn’t know it would be like this. I’ve obviously never had a real girlfriend before, so I didn’t think about it.”

“Ben, it’s-”

“I called Shreya as soon as I saw everything and had her prepare an exit strategy, she’s already confirmed our relationship to the press but she thinks we can back out of it if-“

“Ben,” you say a bit more firmly, placing a hand on his arm. “Why would we need to back out of this? Does she not think it’s working?”

Ben just blinks at you for a moment before shaking his head. “Well, no, actually. Apparently I’m getting great press from it, and you’re the one getting all the shitty comments. But I-”

“I’m fine with it, then,” you shrug. “I’ll just make my Instagram private, you know I don’t really care about social media anyways. I’ll be fine.”

Ben still doesn’t look convinced.

“Are you sure? I hate the thought of you having to read that crap,” he mumbles. “I’m used to the pricks, but you shouldn’t have to be.”

“It’s fine, Ben, I swear,” you insist, squeezing his shoulder. “Actually, some of your fans seem to like me. Or they like that I supposedly keep you grounded or whatever bullshit Shreya fed the press.”

“Well, that part’s not total bullshit,” Ben says with a small smile that makes your cheeks flush slightly. “Thank you again for doing this. And you can still change your mind at any time, you know.”

“I know,” you say, mirroring his smile. “Now hurry up before you burn my pancakes.”

“Oh, shit!”

-

By the next weekend, you’ve gotten pretty used to “dating” Ben.

You go private on your socials as you discussed, with the official statement from Ben’s publicist being that you two ask for privacy as a new couple. Naturally, this only makes everyone more interested, including the media.

As Shreya hoped, the headlines now describe Ben as a “man in love” and someone ready to “settle down with a nice girl.” There are tabloid articles with pictures of you two - some from before you were even pretending to date - and all the information they could dig up on you, including your job.

It’s all a bit weird, but the weirdest part is definitely when you have to actually corroborate your story of being Ben’s girlfriend. Which, as far as everyone outside your inner circle is concerned, you now are.

It definitely feels strange lying when, for example, one of the doctors you work with congratulates you on your relationship. (Turns out her son is a Chelsea fan and she wants to know if you could ask him to sign a kit or something, which you promise to make happen.)

You’re relieved when the only event you have to attend this weekend is Ben’s game, which you would’ve gone to anyways. You’re also going with his sister Alex, who is obviously in on the whole thing, which makes it easier.

She meets you at your flat, which is conveniently only about ten minutes away from Stamford Bridge on the tube, an hour before the game.

After you tightly embrace Ben’s sister, who is like a younger sister to you as well, she grins and passes you a small gift bag.

“You got me a present?” you ask in confusion.

“It’s not from me, it’s from Ben,” she chuckles. “He also said to say he’s sorry and that it was Shreya’s idea.”

You open the bag and pull out a familiar article of clothing - a brand new Chelsea shirt with Ben’s name on the back.

Of course, as Ben’s girlfriend, it would make sense that you be wearing his kit.

“Oh, god, let me go change.”

Once you’ve replaced the plain blue t-shirt you were wearing with the shirt Ben sent over, you walk back out and find Alex with an amused look on her face.

“How do I look?” you ask a bit sarcastically as you do a twirl.

“Like a proper WAG,” Alex laughs. “Let’s go, my future sister-in-law.”

You groan as Alex grabs you by the arm and you depart for the match.

Although you’ve come to see Ben play at the Bridge more times than you can count, you have never felt this many eyes on you as you make your way to your seats. There are people not-so-subtly taking your photo as you walk up, probably made all the worse by the Chilwell kit you have on - though you suppose that’s the point.  

The match begins, and you cheer at the top of your lungs for Chelsea, just as you have from the day Ben signed for them. You never really cared that much about football, and you didn’t support any particular club growing up, but you’ve always been Ben’s number one fan.

Today, he’s playing well, making you as proud as ever. It’s not hard to pretend to be the supportive girlfriend when every flawless pass or run forward has you leaping out of your seat with unrestrained enthusiasm.

At half-time, Chelsea are up by 1 against Newcastle, and you and Alex are happily chatting and catching up over a beer.

“I saw all the pics of you guys at the gala on Twitter,” Alex says with a smirk on her face, lowering her voice so nobody overhears. “I know it’s weird to say since you’re basically part of the family, but you actually look quite good together.”

“Ew, Alex, there’s no way,” you insist, a slight blush creeping onto your cheeks. “He’s…Ben.”

Alex just laughs and drops the subject as the game resumes and the boys come back out of the tunnel.

Around the 85th minute, with the score now tied 1-1, Ben comes running up the side and makes an excellent pass to Conor, who scores and secures the win. You jump out of your seats to cheer as the guys celebrate on the pitch, you rolling your eyes with affection as Ben and Conor jump up and down with excitement.

The whistle blows shortly after with Chelsea leaving victorious, and you and Alex make your way down to the tunnels to meet up with Ben. With this being their fourth win in a row, the atmosphere at the Bridge is electric, a far cry from last year’s rough season.

It’s so nice to see Ben so happy again, and the smile on his face only seems to grow tenfold when he spots you and Alex making your way over to him.

You can’t resist picking up your pace to a light jog as you move toward him, and his arms are already open to pull you into a tight hug that lifts your feet off the ground and makes your heart soar in a similar fashion.

“That assist was brilliant,” you murmur into his shoulder before he sets you down.

Ben pulls away, still beaming at you, his sweaty hair curled down over his forehead.

“Thanks, Y/N,” he smiles, his eyes wandering to the shirt you’d almost forgotten you were wearing.

It’s not the first time you’ve worn his kit - his England debut and the Champions League final come to mind - but those were special occasions, with the rest of his friends and family wearing it too. This is obviously different, and although Ben sent it over for you to wear, his eyes are locked to you like he’s trying to memorize every thread of the fabric.

You can’t figure out why he seems so transfixed, but you don’t have much time to dwell on it before you’re interrupted.

Alex clears her throat, snapping Ben out of whatever trance he was in, and he pulls her in for a hug.

“So, to celebrate the win and Ben’s assist, I’m thinking he should take us out for a nice dinner?” Alex suggests, smiling and nudging your arm.

“Shouldn’t you be buying me dinner?” Ben raises an eyebrow. When you both just laugh, he rolls his eyes and shakes his head. “Alright. I’ll go shower, you make a reservation somewhere.”

After you and Alex have picked out the fanciest-looking sushi place you could find online and collected Ben from the changing rooms, you make your way to his car. Just like after every game, the paparazzi are out trying to get videos and photos of the players leaving the stadium.

This time, however, most of the attention seems to be directed at you.

The lights begin to flash the moment you exit the building, and Ben reaches down to take your hand without a second of hesitation. Whether it’s to flaunt your “relationship” further or just to comfort you, you’re not sure, but it’s definitely working either way.

“Y/N, did you enjoy the match today?”

You know you don’t have to answer any of their questions, but you’d rather not be branded as cold or rude as the media loves to do when a woman ignores them.

So you squeeze Ben’s hand and nod, smiling at the man recording you.

“Of course, the team played really well.”

“And what did you think of Ben’s performance?” they fire back at you.

“He was amazing,” you say without missing a beat. “I always love watching him on the pitch.”

You can see Ben smiling at you as you speak - a genuine smile that you know has nothing to do with the cameras surrounding you - but he startles you slightly when he leans in to peck your cheek and lets his lips linger there for a moment. They’re soft and warm against your skin, and you feel significantly colder when they pull away.

You’ve clearly spurred on the media even more with this sudden display of affection, but Ben begins to pull you along with him and help you into the car before either of you has to answer any more questions.

You breathe out a sigh of relief as you settle into the passenger seat, Ben and Alex entering the car moments later.

“Nice show, you two,” Alex laughs, obviously still amused by the sight of you and Ben pretending to be a couple.

“You okay, Y/N?” Ben asks, looking over at you. “Sorry if the cheek kiss was too much. I know it’s a bit awkward.”

“Yeah, yeah,” you assure him, rolling your eyes. “It’s fine. Of course it’s gonna be awkward sometimes, but as long as it’s helping with the PR plan, right?”

Ben nods gratefully and smiles at you once more before asking Alex for directions to the sushi place.

You’re grateful for her chatting away about how hungry she is, and for the song Ben is playing loudly through the speakers as you drive to the restaurant, both of which are helping to distract you from how alarmingly not awkward this all feels.

A/N: let me know what your thoughts are after this chapter!! things start to heat up in the next one i promise ;)

tag list: @lunamelona @kathb59 @captainwans​ @amandaaa1025 @bbygrlllllll @cinderellawithashoe​ @batmansb1tch​ @ncentic​ (let me know if you would like to be added!)

#ben chilwell #ben chilwell x reader #ben chilwell x y/n #ben chilwell imagine #chelsea fc imagine #this love #my fics

[flumpermergen]

Okay I’ve been wanting to rant about this for a while and I feel like now is the best time to do so after this um… very galpal trailer came out lmao.

But I’ve always found it so stupid when people in the community act as if hoyo would never put any queer coding/queer characters in their games because “they’re a Chinese company so that makes them homophobic (or something); stop trying to spread your agenda!!!!! Not everything has to be queer!!! 🤬" People INSIST that others are just “reading into things too much”.

And listen, I don’t think that any ships or headcannons of mine are actually canon in game and obviously you don’t have to ship characters or think they’re queer that’s totally up to you.

But saying hoyo would NEVER queer code is objectively false. Like, please I’m begging you to look into the HI3 lore/story for just two seconds. There’s even a canonical kiss between Seele and Bronya. They have been creating queer characters for years. I mean come on, you can’t watch that hsr trailer and look me in the eyes claiming they’re dancing in a friendly way lmao.

Yes, there is a lot of censorship from the CCP but censorship is the reason why queer coding exists in the first place. I mean the kiss that I talked about prior I believe is censored in the Chinese release, but the fact that hoyo even tried to include it in the first place is hella commendable and shows that they want to include queer characters in their stories.

That being said, I do think there is a conversation to be held critiquing hoyo when it relates to queer characters such as how a lot of queer coding hoyoverse does is fanservice. I mean hey, companies will be companies and at the end of the day hoyo is trying to sell us a product to get more sweet sweet money. Hoyo isn’t blind; they know when two characters are commonly paired together. Sometimes they play into this to make people more inclined to pull on banners. Black Swan and Acheron are good examples (exhibit a is up above lmao).

I know I’m preaching to the choir here considering Tumblr is not the place most bigots flock to. However, my point in all of this is just to let people interact with media in the way they want to and stop calling queer people delusional when we call out obvious queer undertones in characters. Again, you don’t have to believe said undertones or think any of this is canon, but don’t put queer people down for wanting to see ourselves represented in media.

TLDR: Hoyo is a company known for queer coding and bigots need to let people live.

#honkai star rail #hsr #genshin impact #genshin #hsr 2.1 #black swan #hsr black swan #acheron #hsr acheron #lgbtqia #queer #flump! #I’ve been posting a lot lately can you tell I have a lot more free time??? #anyways I’ve been wanting to talk about this for a while so thanks for reading my little rant #on a lighter note me and who? #I was SCREAMING when I saw that trailer I love women #I wish black swan would kiss my hand :(

[silentwillowwhisperer]

Okay do you agree with me that we were severely deprived of Ezor, Zethrid, Axca, and Veronica content? Because they would be the ultimate lesbian squad like

Do not even. Get. Me. Started.

Too late.

(warning: this is a loooooong post.)

My poor girls, they were so perfect! And don't forget Narti (blind lizard gal) because as much as I think Lotor's whole villain arc thingy was dumb, I will NEVER forgive him for killing her. Never ever ever.

I do refer to them as Lotor and the Lesbians in my head, so I think it's pretty clear what I think about them. (Small note: If they were a band that would be their name.)

And Veronica! She was so cool! You know she steals all the girls her brothers bring home. Like, 'Oh you met someone cool at work? I'm just gonna take her off your hands...' Let's be real, if Veronica was not a fictional character, she would be a notorious lady charmer.

And COME ON. Ezor and Zethrid were LITERALLY DATING. I will take NO ARGUEMENTS. Do we not remember that whole episode where Zethrid went berserk on the paladins cuz she thought Ezor was dead?? And how they looked lovingly into each other's eyes? They had an END SCENE together! Well, it wasn't about them, it was that thing about Keith taking over command of the blade but WHAT-EVER. They were 2 feet away from each other because they were inseparable and in. love.

look at them.

Wait I can do better:

I'm gonna scream.

And, yeah, they were technically canon but this doesn't count. If Shiro and the dude he married (..Curtis?) get a canon kiss then so do Ezor and Zethrid.

Before I start my little spiel and Veronica and Acxa, I'm just gonna leave a picture of Narti here for those of you who don't remember her.

She was the one without eyes who could see through the eyes of her cat (honestly so real in a fictional way, love that for her).

Ringing any bells? Yeah, I cried when she died. (I made a rhyme!)

NOW.

Veronica and Acxa. They would have been SO CUTE together. And even if they didn't get together, at the very least they should have been best friends. Like the kind of best friends where Acxa is adopted into the McClain family to the point at which she can always be found there just chilling in their house like she owns the place. The kind of best friends that finish each other's sentences and know EVERYTHING about each other. GUYS. This was the VISION.

And you know what? I gonna put a picture of them here in just a sec, but you ALL know what I'm talking about when I say that they had a klance-style bonding moment.

Do not even try to tell me that they did not have potential. They're making awkward love eyes at each other.

(Also, the limited fanart that exists of them is SO. CUTE.)

Honestly, if the show really wanted to show representation that bad, then why couldn't these ships be real? Adam is great and all that, but if we're going to introduce a queer relationship in the name of representation, then maybe don't kill him off for the sake of drama after only about 5 minutes total screentime.

In fact, Shiro's whole thing was messed up. Yes, I get that he's a queer icon, but why are these things being forced on him? Instead of putting him with another character that also only got 5 minutes of screentime, maybe his end scene could be something like, 'Shiro went and finally got the therapy he deserved' or 'Shiro and Keith spent quality time together now that they were no longer separated' or even, 'Shiro retired from military business and built a comfortable life for himself as a coffee shop owner.'

He. Does. Not. Need. No. Man.

Based on the fact that he still has that Garrison-issued arm, he is still in relations with them in some way. And maybe he quit and just got to keep the arm, but that needed to be specified. Are we forgetting his previous trauma? His periodic flashbacks? The fact that his body was taken over by alien life and used to INJURE HIS YOUNGER BROTHER? The very same brother that he was a role model to?

And maybe we could have kicked Lance's scene out and instead shown him with his family? That would have been a great place to insert Veronica and show them actually bonding like family. Did anyone else find it weird that we got basically no scenes of them interacting in space? With their personalities, they should have been gossiping and having spa days left and right, but there was nothing of the sort.

Wait, I'm sorry, I got off topic.

Where was I? Oh yeah.

The most talked about example of queerbaiting is always Klance because as main characters, they're in the spotlight, but these closeted lesbians do in fact exist.

Why did we get Allurance but not Ezor and Zethrid? They were SO CLEARLY compatible and they weren't toxic to each other like Allura and Lance. My main argument against that ship is because of Klance, it's because Allura had just lost someone important and rebounded to Lance, and Lance constantly tried to be the rock for her that she wasn't ready to lean on. He finally had what he wanted from day 1, and realized that if he really wanted it to continue, he would have to change in ways he wasn't ready for.

If that kind of relationship gets a kiss, then Ezor and Zethrid should get one too. They spent their whole time on the show supporting and relying on each other.

#vld #voltron legendary defender #voltron #tawny post #asks <3 #thanks for the ask! #ezor vld #vld ezor #zethrid #zethrid vld #acxa #vld acxa #veracxa #veronica mcclain #veronica vld

[amaros-system]

Prison of Plastic Thoughts

So, finished Prison of Plastic. Here are my spoilery thoughts: - I think I understand better why this show is called Epithet Erased. A very core theme is the pain that these powers cause, mainly to the inscribed themselves. - I really like this decision. I was expecting this to go in the direction of "oh no Inscribed hurt Mundies" like so many stories do. This is really tired, and always rubs me the wrong way because of how they are resolved. The notion of somebody's abilities being fundamental to who they are feels very ableist (looking at you, Legend of Korra). Being blinded would change my life, but it wouldn't make me any less. - On that note, I hope we get to see a character actually have their epithet taken away and to not get it back later in the same arc. I wanna see somebody grapple with what not having it means, and grow beyond their epithet. - The thing that unites all of the antagonists, is how they view powers. Mera's epithet causes chronic pain, Zora's sucks the joy out of life, Lori possibly accidentally caused the death of her mother with it. For these characters epithets are disabilities. This has a ton of narrative potential, and I'm immensely curious to see where Jello goes with this. - When you embrace that both Mundies and Inscribed can be the metaphorical representation of disabled people, EE is actually a very compelling disability analogy. Not sure if that's intentional, but I don't care! - Further on the EE-as-disability-analogy, I think this makes Molly the perfect protagonist. The first thing we see Molly use her epithet for is prevent overstimulation. While for other characters their powers are just nice boons or even active hindrances, Molly is the only one that relies on her Epithet. She runs counter to Bliss Ocean's ideals, in an interesting way. - Moving away from disability now! - Lori is so hatable, but also so lovable. Seeing her actually play along with Molly was so such an amazing moment, very sad to see how it ended. - Also, very conflicted on shipping Lori and Gio. They have such chemistry, but also Lori absolutely does not deserve him. I need her to finish her arc so I can see this ship god damn it. - Rick is the best. I envy his energy. - I totally thought Ricks friends in Ocean Country were killed for helping a slave escape for a sec. - Naven has such twist villain energy. Same vibes as Ralsei. The way he talks to Lori and the fact he has Yoomtah as a driver are all very sus. - I really want to see what Trixie’s epithet is, assuming they have one. I’m expecting something super obscure. There’s also that crow, and the possible Songstress connection I’ve seen some people theorize about. - Giovanni kidnapping Molly is so on-brand. He was really great this arc in general, really. Didn’t have a lot of big, bombastic moments, but I actually liked that. Get to see more chill Giovanni. AKA, what makes him so cool.

#epithet erased spoilers #epithet erased #epithet spoilers

[black-cat-aoife]

Tagged by @kathastrophen

Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

somehow I need to write words before typing the number 55 because otherwise this very functioning website fucks up the formatting

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

77,339

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Sad Cops The last ones were for Blind Ermittelt, Detective Anna, Endeavour and Polizeiruf Frankfurt.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

In Which Everybody Regrets Their Life Choices (Daredevil)

The Tale of the Beautiful Professor (Guardian)

Tee Mit Folgen (Tatort Berlin)

Adam, Vincent und die Eule (Polizeiruf Frankfurt)

A Sickbed Visitor (Society of Gentlemen)

OK, technically there's another Daredevil Fic on 2, but it's a collection of shorter fills for a prompt meme so does that count?

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes. I try to respond to all but occasionally fall in the "Oh yeah I will do that later" trap where I...y'know...don't do it.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I had a whole paragraph here, about how I don't usually write Angst and wanted to name a few sort-of-angsty ones, and then I remembered, that I did in fact write Never To Be Told which is very angsty.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

A lot, but Look Not Into My Eyes has a veeeery sappy ending.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

None yet

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

No

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Well, if you equate "crazy" with "nobody but me wrote it" then it's my Ein Fall For Zwei/Tatort Saarbrücken Crossover. But honestly: a crossover between two crime shows that feature abusive dads whose heads make sudden contact with blunt instruments and the resulting fallout from that is not particularly crazy. I also have this idea for a Blind Ermittelt/Allmen one, but as it's so often the case that's all vibes, no plot so far.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not as far as I know.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I once wanted to, and we even discussed some plot ideas, but then I got ghosted

14. What’s your all time favourite ship?

Yeah, Niko/Alex caught me like few others, but I also always will have a soft spot for Till/Felix

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Currently, I'm having a really hard time with my Alex & Sophie pre-canon fic, because it requires writing Alex shortly after the attack, and I am not sure if I can do that.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm quite good at character-voices, both in dialogue and when internal-monologuing

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Getting from one scene to the next. Also in dialogues the right amount of surrounding description. I tend to start off with a screenplay, and then turn it into character says one sentence, followed by three paragraphs of description.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I hate it. Either your POV character understands what is said, and then you can tell the audience what is being said, or they don't, and then you just write "they were talking in XY." Don't make me use Google Translate to understand your fic. And don't make me read phrases like heiße schokolade mit gepeitschter creme, because your foreign language knowledge also comes from Google Translate. (That is an example from an actually published book, but my feelings on that transcend the fanfic/pubfic barrier, and I also read enough bullshit in fanfic).

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Harry Potter. As in write-write. I don't think I ever wrote down any of the Sailor Moon self insert I made up.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Hmm I wrote A Sickbed Visitor with me as the target audience in mind, and considering that, I am quite happy that it also ended up being reasonably popular. Because this is the fanfiction for a romance series that doesn't feature one of the main couples but the friendship between two halves of different couples. (Yeah. Having fun writing something is nice. Validation is also nice)

And Es Wird Wieder ein Sommer is well...it's not the same, because it is an Alex/Niko fic, and I always meant it to be one, but it's also about Laura and her relationship with those two and that was lots of fun to think about and write.

No pressure tag for @cricrithings and @tatzelwyrm

#about aoife #on writing

[marciabrady]

Is it wrong to side-eye people who never before liked Disney but suddenly go all gaga over the remakes? Considering these remakes are horrible copy-pastes of the og classics it just gives me insidious thoughts. I dunno, but after hearing for years from folks how Ariel was "Problematic" for giving her voice for a man and suddenly all these same people adore Remake Ariel (who does the same thing as og Ariel, she barely changed) is just..odd. Isn't she still problematic in their eyes?

No, I honestly do it too because people who are flighty like that feel disingenuous. I find it really strange when people do a 180 on anything they like with no context or natural time for change to actually occur. All the criticisms I've seen about Ariel from the 1989 movie are totally unfounded, and people just hated to hate her (ALSO don't even get me started on the fact that those same people who STILL believe that junk about the original movie are turning a blind eye to the really offensive "fixes" of the remake and how it's still a white director and writing team that's supposed to be telling a black woman's- in this version- story and in doing so stumble SO BADLY, but that's another conversation for another time) but a lot of people have openly said that the main reason they're supporting Halle's Ariel is because she's an Ariel that looks like them and they want to support a film with a leading actress that's a woman of color, and I appreciate their honestly. I mean, honestly, she does a better job than the other actresses they cast in the past and wanting to celebrate talent of color is, in and of itself, always a good thing.

I do know a quotient of white people, however, who go above and beyond to overly compliment the movie- and have done so even before it came out or we saw a trailer- and they never liked the story or the character previously (and were very vocal in expressing their disapproval for OG Ariel, while they literally copied OG Ariel's songs and plot and dialogue in sooo many instances in the remake) and, unfortunately, I kinda feel like it's the 2023 version of "I'm not homophobic, I have a gay friend." They feel like they are subliminally telling people that, by supporting this movie, they're not racist and it's an image correction for themselves of sorts, because incidentally these white people I'm thinking about all have extremely checkered pasts. And when they all parrot the exact same opinions about the film and talking points, it just irritates me because, especially as a minority myself, it's easy come easy go. Fairweather activists and allies definitely aren't what any community needs and that's the only way I could classify people who just generically follow whatever they think is socially acceptable at the time, to the point where anything they say is meritless, and blends in with the cultural landscape at the time, because sometimes the pervasive thought isn't for the better. Luckily, right now, we are in a place where diversity is celebrated, but if that isn't the case in the future, will those people who flip on a dime go back to being the aggressors and the people fighting against minorities? Those types of things scare me and honestly those thoughts are ones I have all the time, especially as a minority. Does this person actually mean their support, or are they doing it to course correct? Do they actually want to become better people, or are they doing it because they feel like they have to? Do they like me/want to respect me, or is it just want approval from me represents for them? Is all of this change and progress for the better and permanent- or could it be taken away overnight?

Also, there are genuinely so many problems with the live action movie and no one's saying anything about it, which is fine like people are allowed to enjoy this movie, but...for all the things wrong with it, especially for a film that's come in 2023, I would like to see more discourse around it so that change can actually happen and improvement can occur instead of this weird "we cast one person of color! Act like you're happy and it's perfect with these crumbs we're throwing you or else" mentality that's circulating. You can approve of Halle in the role and still see the issues with the production and the completed film. You can want more people of color in films and still speak to some of the problematic elements from the live action. And I think the marketing for this film and all the conversation surrounding it has kinda promoted this false belief in people that if they don't blindly support this film, people of color will never be in media again??? Which is insane. Most of the films that are out right now have talent of color as the leads and it's only going to continue, more so, in the future. So again, you can support talent of color and still advocate for when they're being mistreated or when a film isn't where it should be with the other creative talent, the surrounding cast, even if the marketing in and of itself is something that's riddled with issues.

#ask #anonymous

[hermesserpent-stuff]

31 - TSSM

https://youtu.be/ChVV5EVL4W4

Thus always to tyrants: the oh hellos (on mobile)

Crimson Curse is Harry running around with gear from Quentin to try and right the wrongs of the rich and powerful in New York. Now he meets spider for the first time. Spider nephew au adjacent. A bit shorter sorry!!

Thanks for the ask tho!! (To the other person with the same number that asked later, I have a plan don't worry)

Harry is constantly being amazed by how easy it is to break into places. Yes he has good training from Quentin, but some part him had always seen a locked door as some insurmountable object. And yet here he is, the Crimson Curse, sneaking in to yet another place he knows has dirt to be dragged up. ESU's lab is directly funded by Norman Osborn and that fact alone has Harry suspicious. They had been in the news a fair few times. But it had always returned to vaguely normal for the lab. Which is worrying because he knows that something deeper has to be going on and his two best friends could get wrapped up into the trouble. Curse just needs to take a short stroll through their records, find anything he can and go about the business of making any dark deeds come to the light. He knows Kraven is attached to this place, but only has the bairest details of gossip from Sandy and Dan. He needs something more… concrete.

His flashdrive is plugged into the computer to start scanning while he flicks through paper files. A creak has him turning and he is only a little shocked to see Spider-Man.

"Aw great. Someone new. What's your gimmick? Vultures already got the bird thing and Mysterio's our local magician, so fair warning those roles are taken."

"I have no desire to fight."

Good, the voice modulator works. Maybe Spider-Man would leave him alone if he tried to explain things.

"Really? Then why are you breaking and entering if not to draw the attention of little ol' me."

"Osborn has connections with this lab. There is something going on here that has been hidden from people. It is my job to uncover the truth and show the world."

A little dramatic. So sue him. Quentin rubs off on people. Spider-Man tilts his head.

"Wait. Who are you?"

"I am the Crimson Curse. A bane to all who skulk and hide in the dark."

Curse carefully checks the face of his watch. Only fifty percent of the files have been transferred from the computer to his transmitting flash drive. And he had not yet combed through all the paper files. He needs more time. Plus he knows he cannot fight.

"You think Dr. Connors is up to no good? He's a friend. Sort of. Kind of. Look, the guy's not evil."

Spider-Man says, shifting on his feet.

"That may be true but he does not have sole responsibility over this lab. Kraven got an augmentation here from someone. That means some amount of supplies must be missing and notes of that research might exist. I am simply seeking answers, Spider-Man. I will steal nothing but the knowledge of the truth."

"Maybe I can help. Keep the good docs name clear…"

Spider-Man sounds hopeful and Curse decides to let him be. Easier to deal with an ally that is semi blind than a poison filled enemy.

"Alright. Help me with the papers. See if there is any record discrepancy when it comes to supplies. If you try to cover things up… I don't think we will be able to work together again."

"Yep. Yep. Totally understandable."

Both quietly and quickly get to work. Spider-Man speaks up a little bit later.

"I've seen some of your work. I respect it."

Curse tilts his head.

"Thanks."

"Have you tried looking into Thompson Lincoln or Roderick Kingley?"

"They've yet to enter the perview of my spells. But I shall look into hexing them."

"Uh… right. Well if you do, be careful. It's nice to know other people see somethings up with the city. Even if it is a weird witch dude."

Curse rolls his eyes. He upped his magic talk in costume to change his pattern of speech.

"So irreverent."

He teased Spider-Man. Something about him felt familiar. Safe.

"That's me! Super irreverent!!"

And they continue digging.

#spotify wrapped writing #ask hermes #hermes speaks #spider nephew au #tssm harry osborn #crimson curse #tssm spider man #tssm

[sisterssafespace]

salam sister🫶🏼

i recently found out one of my closest friends is telling other people some really private things about my life, and this got back to me after being passed through multiple people already, and as people talked about it the story twisted so now people think something of me that isn’t even true.

i’m so sad that my best friend would tell people about something i trusted her with, and i don’t know if i should talk to her about it and express that it made me upset or if i should just distance myself without really saying anything. if you have any advice please feel free to tell me, i really don’t know what to do

i also don’t know what to do about the fact that people in our community are talking about me, i wish i could go to every person and tell them the truth but i can’t and it just makes me feel so sad, i’m just trying to ask Allah to heal this situation because while i feel helpless His power is limitless :,)

و عليكم السلام و رحمة اللّٰه و بركاته dear sister

I am sorry this happened to you, betrayal is a very serious situation that affects us deeply especially when it comes from people that are close to us. I am sorry you are hurting..

However, I have so many different thoughts on the situation I am not sure which one you are ready to take in. I am taking my time with replying to this because I have oppositional opinions on this topic 😅 but eventually I decided that I am going to start writing and see where my thoughts take me.

The easiest way to go is to cut her off, your best friend. I could tell you that a person who speaks about you behind your back is not your friend let alone your " best friend " and that Allah swt has made sure you find out about this because you reached a point in your life where you need to clear out your circle and reevaluate your relationships and friendships, do a little sorting and reorganizing for the upcoming stage of your life. - but I can't say that. I am not perfect myself to pass judgments about this girl. For one reason or the other I did talk about my best friend(s) at some point of my life even if I never meant to hurt them, probably I was more hurt by them and I needed to vent. We are human beings. We make mistakes. Maybe this girl does love you deeply, but she made a mistake. Can you tell me that you have never made a mistake toward another person in your circle? Idk. I just want you to take into consideration that human beings are by nature 'sinners' and that Allah swt is the most forgiving. And if He swt forgives worse than this, you can totally forgive this incident and not kick this person out of your life - IF you are capable of forgiveness and moving on.

P.s. I am not saying you should act as if nothing happened and I am not dismissing your feelings of hurt and betrayal. You should be angry. I am absolutely validating your feelings. You have the right to feel this way and you should not force yourself to act normal, but at the same time you should not make any decisions when you are blinded by unpleasant feelings (anger, hurt..). So I highly recommend you do not rush, you do not let your feelings control you, you give yourself sometime until you ve calmed down, you can take some space from her, as much as you need, and then you do what your heart feels is right. You can ask Allah swt to guide you, to clarify your heart to know whether she is a good person who just made a mistake or a bad person who has bad intentions for you.

P.s. I did not mention the option of confronting her and asking her why she did that because I am not sure if you can handle confrontation. I personally can not for the life of me. But if you are able of doing that, and if you think confronting her would be beneficial for you and would bring you peace then go for it - but always remain calm and do not hurt her with your words, you have to act in a respectful way that Allah swt would be pleased with. In fact, a good Muslim who follows and tries to copy the prophet ﷺ traits and character should always be respectful even toward the people who did them wrong. The life of our Prophet ﷺ is full of examples of him being kind to people who wronged him, which might sometimes even lead these people to accept Islam. Sübhanallah.

Anyways, let me summarize my thoughts:

a) Did she hurt you on purpose? You have yo check If she didn't do it intentionally to hurt you and she is a good friend.

b) if she did it on purpose and she turned out to be a bad friend then you can keep your space or cut her out of your life or keep her in your life but set boundaries, but whatever you do make sure you do it in a respectful way. You should not react to the wrong doing with another wrong doing yourself. I am sure, from what we know about the character of Our Prophet ﷺ, that if you were to ask his opinion ﷺ , he would have told you to still be kind to her - but to not be close to her again not to get hurt. As he ﷺ said ‘The believer should not be stung from the same hole twice.’

But in any case, you should take your time and make sure you have calmed down before making any decisions.

Now, about the community and the people who kept twisting the story. First of all: THANK YOU FOR THE HASSANAT. As whenever someone is talking bad about you or badmouthing you or gossiping, you are taking from their good deeds.. but what's most important is I want you to remember that You are not responsible for what they say about you. That's only a reflection of them, and their hearts. If one good person with a pure heart and pure intentions was amongst them, he or she would have told them off and broke the cycle of gossip. Also, you should not even care what they say about you. You should only care about how Allah swt sees you, and Allah swt sees and knows your heart. So do not be ashamed, do not be scared, whatever they said should not decrease your confidence or your self-esteem. You have to be sure of who you are and of your own version of the story because that is the truth and that is what Allah swt has witnessed. And you should keep holding your head high, as long as you know you are not in the wrong. And even if you are, it is Allah swt that you should ask forgiveness from. The people do not matter I promise you. They will not share with you your sins nor will they stand in front of Allah swt on judgement day with you. To each themselves and to the believer, Allah.

Before I make this way too long I am gonna stop myself here. I hope that my words helped clear your mind a litte. Kheir in shaa Allah.

May Allah swt save you from everyone who has bad intentions for you my dear. Ameen.

Salaaam.

- A. Z. 🍃

#sisterssafespace

[ramblingdisaster73]

Thoughts while rewatching 4x01 - 4x04 -

Episode 4x04 - this does include thoughts that span the whole arc - so spoilers ahead.

Excellent opening – great set up to the creepy mother/son duo

·  She is so matter of fact about the blood and shovel

·  But so happy for Carlos that he is engaged

·  So polite to his kidnapper – polar opposite to TNT when they were kidnapped in 2x08

·  She is so unconcerned about the dead woman in her pantry

·  Thunderwear

·  Not a fan of the FBI lady that says they are done with Owen in the last ep, then is back to it in this one.

·  The Instagram comment was funny

·  agreed with the FBI lady when she said it would be great if O’Brien was going to get rid of the witness

·  I still think people should only go to Owen for advice about fires, aliens, health food recipes, & skin care.

·  There is a whole ass body blocking the door jam – the only fix to that is removing the body.

·  Rafa does so well in these scenes – his total disdain for the man, trying to sympathize with the mother

·  These creepy fucks are so matter of fact when they talk about how to kill Carlos

·  I guess at least they agree that they don’t want blood

·  At least Marj agrees with TK that something is up with Carlos ghosting him

·  I knew he would get Nancy to call either Carlos or Iris – I even had it in my spec fic

·  The way Mateo realized right away that something was wrong when Nancy asked about the visitor logs

·  Also, how calm Nancy remained when she was getting info that she knew was going to be bad for TK

·  Honestly, I would have made their ears hurt with the bike too

·  I love that TK knows Carlos enough to know that this isn’t right, that the behavior is the opposite of everything he knows of Carlos

·  The Grace call was great – “Its not completely illegal, it’s not completely legal either.” Then just doing it

·  This dude is a dick to his mom – but she still helps him with his murdering (even if it is just not telling on him & feeding his victims)

·  The bluebird song while creepy man is taking Carlos’ car is interesting

·  The scenes with Owen & the nazi biker gang were honestly fairly anticlimactic – only served to take me out of the rest of the episode – Now, had they done some of this when Carlos wasn’t being held captive – then maybe they would have had more of an impact

·  Literally going to everyone to try to find Carlos

·  I love that we are getting to see the Reyes home – I never thought they lived on a ranch – just that they had one in the family

·  The only person with a braincell at that table in the roadhouse was O’Brien – Owen had already used all of his up in the last episode

·  Gee no wonder he wanted to join the MC – you gave him a cool nickname – “Honor pup”

·  “I’m a fireman – our codes are like, Fire!” Was a great line with great delivery

·  We’re screwed – not really, apparently the MC finds ya’ll to be a joke

·  I always apologize to the people for the mess I made when they bashed my head with a shovel. Make more of a mess babe. More mess.

·  I think she does truly regret having to hurt Carlos – but her blind love for her murdering son is her downfall

·  Oh, her again – she needs to be moved to another department – she isn’t that great at finding living missing people – or believing people when they were missing about why they were missing

·  This episode does NOT make the police look good, like not a single one of them

·  TK speaking the truth about how the detective treated Iris – especially as one of the paramedics that treated her.

·  TK was there to watch this detective blow off Carlos’ concerns

·  I love that Gabriel acknowledges his failings as a parent – if only another father will do that this season (I know that Ronen has been teasing a “beautiful scene” that explains their relationship)

·  Of course, your serial killer son wouldn’t like an increased police presence in his neighborhood – he might get caught – at least if the members of the APD that were present were competent.

·  “I love the Gays.” – this just makes me think of SJP in The Family Stone “I love the gays.” Like it is on repeat in my head

·  God, Ronen killed this ep just as much as Rafa – the police station scene was great for him

·  The “you’re not the only that loves him TK” part of Gabriel’s speech was not something I enjoyed – because at no point did TK ever think he was. The rest of the speech was just fine & got the point across without that dig. I know a lot of people loved it, but for me, it just added a bit of you don’t matter – just remember that – to it, for me. He was trying to understand why Gabriel was so calm – he wasn’t acting like he was the only one that loved Carlos

·  Detective TK to the rescue – the useless one just discounted anything about the other victims because of their mental illnesses. Didn’t look at anything as obvious as the fact that they all went to the same pharmacy

·  Details matter detective – a paramedic shouldn’t be doing your job for you

·  Still so polite to the creepy lady

·  That she has to refer to eating the cookies she made as Stealing some of her own cookies says a lot about the relationship with her son

·  Yes, hearing someone screaming in the neighborhood that you are looking for a missing person in, then just shrugging it off is excellent police work – on par with the rest of the police work this episode

·  I like how he could just take 3 vials of morphine like it was no big deal.

·  Carlos is correct – that man is not capable of loving anyone

·  His words about Gwyn & TK were so sweet

·  Finally got through to her, too bad it was when her killer son got home

·  He should have just kept pelting him with the hot pan

·  TK going into paramedic mode, but still doing what he could to comfort Carlos

·  The way that Gabriel started dropping his cop mode once he saw his son on the floor – I think that the gun in his hand was the only thing that kept him in cop mode at all.

·  “You just died” at least TK was able to say that to someone else now. The look like “Wtf is wrong with your” from TK that followed that was amazing

·  The parallels from 2x08 are plentiful – but also to several other episodes

·  Cool – Owen made the 126 targets again – what a surprise

·  So, after watching it all the way through – the thing that would have made the marriage thing totally not a big deal to me – would have been to either have it not be a secret to TK, just to us the viewers (could have been off screen like so many other conversations) or if they had acknowledged it was a lie – even if it was a lie by omission – your legal marital status is kinda important when you are PLANNING A WEDDING.

·  One of those two things would have made this all make enough sense that I didn’t have to do Olympic level gymnastics.

·  Instead, they acted like not telling the person that you own real estate with, that you agreed to marry that your are already legally married is totally normal. Then when this lie caused a delay (as temporary as it may be) to the short ass time frame that Carlos gave them – TK goes to find out why – and then everything else is his fault. Even if it is just to himself & the large portion of the fandom that froths at the bit whenever they can jump all over him.

·  Personal note – I do see this particular issue through my own irl experiences. I am the TK in my life – the one that gets blamed for everything – even the things that are beyond or no where near my control. This is probably why it annoys me so much how eager the writers and a lot of viewers just use him as a vessel of blame.

·  The Owen storyline is dragging on – for at least 2 more episodes – can we please have a break from anything Owen only centric until the next season.

·  No Tommy or Grace in 4x04 felt weird

·  CAN’T FUCKING WAIT FOR 4x05 and Marjan’s storyline

·  The acting is superb

·  If they hadn’t so frequently spoiled that Carlos is fine after 4x04 long before 4x04 aired – I think I would have found this to be more intense or suspenseful – but it wasn’t – knowing that he was going to be fine.

·  However, that did make it so I could just pay attention to the acting, the dialog.

·  I don’t think I can say enough about the acting in this episode – this season. They have all been at the top of their game & I am grateful for it.

·  There were so many quotable moments in this episode that will stick with us for a long time

·  They are doing a lot better job with making us guess on what happens with Marjan than they did with Carlos – she hasn’t been in any stills after 4x05

·  Ready to see more Paul, Marjan, Nancy, Mateo, Judd, etc.

#911 lone star season 4 #911 lone star spoilers #my thoughts

[mydaroga]

For the ask game! 16, 21, and 34

16. 3 drinks you consume the most I’m so boring! I actually really like water. Tap water, if I’m in a place where that’s ok. For a treat I love a good grape soda, like not Crush or whatever but a Stewart’s or Thomas Kemper or the like. For the record, purple flavor is VALID and if you don’t believe me I will happily rant about Concord grapes. And when I want a treat and can’t get a grape soda, I like Pepsi or gingerale. 

21. 3 things you are the most passionate about Ooh I think I’m a fairly passionate person, but how do you define that? What I want to do with my life? What I find important? Which Star Trek is superior? I’m fairly passionate about compassion in the way we interact with one another and the world. I firmly believe in acting in large part as if things are the way you want them to be, without turning a blind eye to the fact they aren’t. If that makes any sense at all. I could say “justice” or “social equity” or any host of things but I want to broaden it out. I’m passionate about how we care for the world and the people in it. I’m also passionate about making considered choices and not just defaulting to what’s easiest or in front of you or you’ve always known. Is that passion? I dunno. It’s just important to me right now, and always. Being mindful in the sense of interacting with the world on terms you’ve considered. This is not always easy and I fail a lot but I’m passionate about it as a goal.And yeah I tend to get really fired up about whatever my obsessions are, to a point where I, a person in their 40s, cannot stop talking about The Beatles or Captain Kirk or whatever it is, so I gotta throw that in there, too. Special Interests are NOT just for teenagers ok.

34. 3 people in history that inspire you the mostTrying to think how much inspo I get from historical figures! So interesting. It’s not that I don’t have people I look up to? But my heroes tend to be, not people whom I want to emulate in total, but people who offer me something I apparently need to absorb.

So like, Orson Welles. I don’t wanna be him. But boy does he fascinate and, I guess, inspire me. T.E. Lawrence, again, do not relate and do not want to, but I have drawn so much from his life (and semi-fictional portrayal) that has fed a lot of my speculation about human nature. And I guess Charlie Chaplin. These are all terrible! But they are all men (oh god) who went their own way and inspire me, if not to be like them, then to consider the ways in which I can exist and create within and without existing structures. 

Wow I am sus. On so many levels. "3 Things..." asks!

#my asks #kris talks a lot

[effrvsnt107]

So I definitely thought they did especially in that scene where she's in bed and he's comforting her...only to find out it's post her aborting Lee's child. But it could have been both. Perhaps some time after that and she wanted comfort. Either way, their relationship was laughably inappropriate and Ellie's faces at their interactions were gold because you could hear her thinking are fr right now?! Having said that, a tryst with Claire definitely would have sent Hardy into cardiac arrest but hey. A part of me believes Ellie wanted to take Claire's assault allegations against him seriously not because she believed he'd ever, but to comfirm that they really *did* have an inappropriate sexual relationship and that was why he was being so dumb about the entire case. I wish they delved into it a bit more because to say Alex was naive isn't even scratching the surface and I wonder if parts of it was because he was vastly underestimating the women around him in a misognyistic way.

I apologise for typos, I can't find my glasses!

Don't be sorry about the typos, that happens to me basically every single ask i have ever sent ever, lmao. I hope you don't mind but i'm going to give my opinions out of order based on what intrigues me, if you disagree that's chill I just like to talk a lot.

To say Alec was just naïve about Claire is a total understatement and does not show just how desperate he was. To set a woman up just out of town secretly, hidden away from everyone as a form of witness protection, when Ellie rightly points out she is a suspect in Sandbrook just tells you everything you need to know about him mindset going into Sandbrook for the second time. Not only did he ignore all logical instinct, but he always intended to keep Claire there, showing how he was always going to back to Sandbrook, because Alec as a character is completely and utterly tethered to his past.

Prefacing this by saying I absolutely adore Alec and believe he had no malicious or condescending intent, but I think he completely underestimated Claire because she was a vulnerable woman and he feels a sense of duty over that. When he feels trusted, he will go to any lengths to keep it and prove himself (as we saw with Sandbrook and also after Ellie finds out Joe is the killer he lets her see him despite it absolutely violating protocol) because of a killer sense of duty and the want/need to be the protector of women. He saw Claire, her husband just got arrested (for a crime she also committed) saddled with a child which she proceeded to abort and that blinded him to seeing certain traits as guilt or suspicion. He saw someone he wanted to protect, and then after your wife and mother of your child cheats on you with someone in a position of inferiority, I think that intensified that sense of duty. Adding to the protector role, hello?? the whole thing with Tess where he took the fall despite it being completely her fault?? He clearly has an issue with this and this rather than being a quirk is a pattern of behaviour.

That sense of duty blinded him completely to the very obvious conclusion that Claire stole the locket because he never saw Claire as a real suspect. What is worse, he knows this is his flaw and he knows too well it will bite him in the arse but he does it anyway and continues to put duty over logic.

I do not think Ellie ever believed that Alec assaulted Claire, and I do not believe it at all, but she wanted to take it seriously like you said just to confirm. Ellie is the character who is a lot more in touch to people and the way they behave while also being able to see Sandbrook objectively, and all she has seen of Claire and Alec demonstrates a very inappropriate relationship. She has seen is Alec and Lee having a dick swinging contest, which can defiantly be attributed to the obvious 'he's the key murder suspect' but it almost feels too personal to be that with the way they behave - coupled with the fact he continued to dodge the question of "did you have sex with Claire?". Not only that, but this type of isolation and abuse is frighteningly common. Then add the fact every man Ellie has a personal tie to is very dodgey (that's putting it lightly), it makes sense why she'd want to investigate. I think it was intentionally written like that because somewhere floating around is a sippet of Chibnall saying in the early stages that was going to be a plot point but got dropped. With this I do not believe Alec had a sexual relationship with Claire, but I think it was written in such a way because of the early development plans.

I personally find him not sleeping with Claire far more interesting than if he did because while a fucked up sexual relationship with a woman who has caused your mental/emotional/physical wellbeing to crumble is very interesting, delving into his motivations without that leads me to a lot more interesting conclusions about him as a person, lmao. Like doing it not out of sexual gratification but out a sense of 'somebody needs me' and trust that she was innocent because he wanted to believe that and he wanted for once to see the good in someone. He felt betrayed by Tess and he assumed Claire felt betrayed by Lee and wanted to find some some joint comfort in that while not know she killed Pipa. Parallels Ellie and Joe a little bit I think.

Despite that, I am always willing to engage with anybody with a different opinion. If English Lit taught me one thing is that I will believe you if you have evidence to back it up (and you defo do because they were very...themselves). I just want a discussion what can I say! I'm a whore for discussing media and seeing it from other peoples POV!

As to Claire's voice waking him up after the pacemaker got installed - no idea mate. And yes, that scene you were saying about after she aborted Lee's child made me felt mildly uncomfortable because I was like "what the hell is going on between you two". Like you said, Ellie's faces were priceless and upon rewatch I was copying most of them. They are both a bit too close to not have you wonder what's going on.

#this took about 2 hours so formulate sorry lmao #ALSO APOLOGIES THIS IS VERY FUCKING LONG #if you ever want to ping me another ask to continue this I WILL BE MORE THEN HAPPY TO DISCUSS #can you hear that? thats me kicking my feet and giggling because discussing media my beloved #nini rambles #🍎

[iron-sides]

ok actually i want to talk differing characterization for a minute bc the last time i watched 92sies was years and years ago and i didnt know enough to pick up on the real reason i disliked it so much at the time which now that im rewatching: jack is a completely different character in the movie vs the musical. like. totally different guy.

jack in the musical is the leader of the newsies because he cares-- a lot. he keeps them running smoothly and this is established immediately as having been the case for a While. they all respect and admire and listen to jack: this is established immediately with the fact that he sleeps in a different place than everyone else (its JACKS penthouse not jack and crutchies so i figure crutchie staying there wasnt actually a regular thing) and then we even get in carrying the banner "jack says to change my spot" which tells us they go to him for advice when they're struggling. hes implied to be one of the oldest newsies operating and he's a Good leader. when they start talking about having a strike he thinks it over for long enough they make a joke about how long he's taking and he never underestimates the seriousness or severity of this task. he's got his thing with katherine but it's always clear that their budding romance is his secondary priority: the newsies are always first to him because he takes care of him, which makes the reprise of santa fe so devastating and is why he seems to have quit being a newsie entirely after crutchie is taken to the refuge: because he feels that he failed them utterly and refuses to risk doing it again.

movie jack is literally just some guy. he sleeps with everyone else he takes ages to wake up hes not in any way a leader of the rest of the newsies until the strike, and any "leadership" he is exhibiting is the same kind popular kids have in high school and talented athletes have in sports: they respect him because he's clever and talented but he's no different from the rest of them and everyone understands that. where musical jack goes for oscar for stealing crutchie's crutch, movie jack does it for fun. movie jack goes into the strike completely blind and has to be Told he needs to think about it and then doesnt 😭. movie jack's character arc is about Becoming a leader-- he starts off as irresponsible and reckless but (im assuming idr the second half of the movie and im not actually done w it yet) over the strike he grows into his new role as leader and becomes more responsible

anyway in short ive grown a lot since i was 12 and no longer require all versions of movies/shows/books/etc i like to be perfectly identical to whichever i saw/read first and i rlly thought the reason i hated the movie was because it didnt have katherine plumber pulitzer and not the fact that the main character is an entirely different guy. i mean i still wish katherine was in the movie but that is absolutely not why i disliked it so much

#my thots #i also remember not loving that the lyrics are different and while i do still prefer the musical's songs (<- bit katherine fan #also just generally the musical feels a bit more polished) the movie's are really good and i loveee patricks mom i just wish they did more #her #showposting