#do not let your emotions control you

[yeslordmyking]

My dear brothers, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow... [ Read devo thought and prayer for this Bible verse ]

#God #Jesus #christianity #faith #control your speech #control your tongue #kind speech #godly speech #slow to anger #self control #guard your heart #do not let your emotions control you #represent God #bible verse #heartlight

[lord-squiggletits]

OH, I am so interested in your idea for SG Tarnma.

Okay so my exact ideas for SG Tarnma vary a lot, because I think there's two different canon varieties of Shattered Glass: the original Fun Publications SG where everything was completely flipped and turned into crack-canon, and then what IDW later did with Shattered Glass IDW1 where it was more or less just role reversal IDW1 with only some "complete flipping" of lore and personality. There's also my own personal Shattered Glass universe that I built for Pay Unto Evil, so I could also answer this question as "what would Tarnma be in the SG PUE universe."

That being said I'll do my best to explain all of the different ideas I've had for SG Tarnma. All of them are pretty different so I'm not really particularly attached to any one, but here goes

Version 1: FunPub complete role reversal style. Pharma was originally a mere energon farmer get it lol and has a very meek, shy, unconfident personality. He got enlisted by the Autobots, but he spoke too quietly when they asked for his name (Farmer), so they started calling him Pharma. Then at some point Ratchet is like "yo I'm gonna make this completely untrained guy do medical operations. No I'm not gonna send him to medical school he can learn on the job!" And so Pharma becomes Ratchet's apprentice and develops even more anxiety from the hundreds of times he murders patients either on accident bc he literally has no medical training, or on purpose bc Ratchet made him. He's literally just trying his best and doesn't even want to be here. Meanwhile, the SG DJD is known as the Decepticon Jokester Division, formed as a sort of circus troupe meant to bring good cheer to the Decepticons in a time of depressing war. The members of the DJD are codenamed after the first cities they toured right before/when the war started. How reluctant medic Pharma and literal clown Tarn meet in this universe is anyone's guess.

Version 2: IDW style. Tarn and Pharma still have basically the same backstories as canon IDW1 except that Pharma is a professional assassin instead of a doctor (yknow, role reversal where Pharma is an expert at killing people instead of healing them). Also this universe's Pharma has the posh and aristocratic personality fandom thinks he has in canon lol. Maybe Pharma finds out about Tarn having a secret t-cog addiction, and he starts bringing t-cogs to Tarn in exchange for Tarn providing him intel (or some other service, idk). Maybe in this universe instead of Tarn torturing Pharma into insanity, Pharma somehow develops guilt for killing people because of Tarn, then defects from the Autobots willingly? Or they kick him out like in canon

Version 3: Pay Unto Evil SG. Tarn and Pharma would have their FunPub style backgrounds (though maybe Tarn's would be slightly more serious) with the added caveat of Pharma having the evil Matrix's mind control embedded in his brain. He still didn't join the Autobots willingly and wasn't even trained to be a doctor. Somehow he and Tarn meet and fall in love across faction lines because Tarn sees how much Pharma is suffering under mind slavery and feeling like he doesn't belong among his cruel comrades. It's a bit of a tragic one though, as Pharma warns Tarn that the Prime can look through his mind at any time thanks to the Matrix. If he finds out that Pharma is Tarn's vulnerability, he could use that against him somehow, or worse, mind control Pharma into trying to kill Tarn himself. They were both devastated when the universe swap happened and they thought they would never see each other again. Though Pharma secretly felt some relief that Tarn was now a universe away and can find someone else to love who isn't a mind-controlled walking time bomb that could try to murder him at any moment.

#squiggle answers #shattered glass #tarnma #these are really rough and most of them i havent even written down or explained to anyone before so #hope any of these strike your fancy. if they do you can ask me more and i'll try to come up with more lore #also to clarify the way the matrix mind control works in PUE's universe is that SG OP is hooked in #at all times. but most of the time he lets his soldiers be or at least only exerts passive mental/emotional control #individual autobots still have personalities they just have little pieces of Primus in their brains watching at all times #hence why sg pue pharma is able to be in a secret relationship with tarn. bc he's forgettable and unimportant #but if sg OP took notice he could definitely reach out #and just mind control pharma to be unthinking and unfeeling and try to kill tarn

[8rujaa]

my therapist really saved me….

#tw abuse // tw sa #i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking about this. #like i probably would’ve not been here if it weren’t for her #i started seeing her january of 2023… my life has changed entirely since then and she was definitely the one who got the ball rolling #literally so much has changed since then and it’s all because of her #i was so dissociated during our first few sessions #thanks to her i was able to get diagnosed and medicated for adhd. i was able to realize i was in an abusive situation and plan a way out #i was able to focus on myself and my healing and she’s helped me reframe so much of my negative thinking #i was able to process a lot of emotions and become a better version of myself with each session #she’s truly incredible. #i remember the first comment she made about the relationship had been ‘’so it’s like there’s an imbalance of control in the relationship’’ #i had put my partners on such a high pedestal that i had no idea they could be doing anything wrong #and i asked her what she meant and she said ‘from what you’ve been describing it’s sounds like a strict parents and child type of dynamic’ #she told me they didn’t need to understand why i wanted to leave and they didn’t need to make that decision. if that’s what was going to be #best for me the only thing i could do is let them know my reasoning and simply leave. i didn’t need their permission.’’ #i remember being so confused at that realization bc like… i had been putting their emotions over mine the whole time i had forgotten simply #doing what’s best for me was an option… l #ever since then i’ve been putting myself first and it’s been a steady uphill from rock bottom… i’ve made an incredible amount of progress #when i first started with her getting out of bed and walking to the kitchen was incredibly difficult and took all my strength. #yesterday i conquered a mountain!!!!!!! i hiked all the way to the top!!!!! :D #me a year ago thought it was going to take me years and years to recover. as soon as i left i made leaps of progress #im incredibly proud of myself and grateful for her. and my reiki lady she’s also been a great great help. #the silver lining is i realized who really matters. and the relationships i cared about deepened. #my sweet virgo friend was the one who was always like ‘THATS A GROWN ASS MAN WHO CANT UNDERSTAND BASIC CONSENT???’ #LMFAO i would be like ‘but he has trauma and bla bla bla’ she looked me dead in the eyes and said #’jess you said with your last boyfriend that you would never make excuses for a man who was hurting you again. stop defending him.’ #she’s really a gem and i treasure her with my life. i hope she knows i love her. she’s family at this point #she’s also literally saved my life before (like deadass called 911 for help) #im glad i had the support system i had. that was a rough situation with so many layers and im glad i got through it #my 22nd year of life was by far the worst of my life and i don’t ever want to put myself in that situation again. im glad i learned.

[amrv-5]

survived Badly (argh) but going to work on fic for as long as I continue to enjoy doing so then switch over -- see if I can find somewhere to watch The 400 Blows and probably cry forever and dehydrate and feel soooo sad and then feel better after. Thank you French New Wave

#boooo whatever saying nonsense nothing matters delete later #somebody should invent a proximity to your parents that doesn't immediately make you so emotionally weird forever #overdramatic. Im feeling fine im eating some crackers and lying around chilling. Just. Weird. Off Balance.. #Mild Disturbance in my Year of Exceptional Emotional/Mental Chill #not gonna let it break my 2024 streak of feeling generally Pretty Freakin Good and mostly Recovered From The Lost Year #Which btw. can I say... have i said...? Genuinely having one of the nicest years of my life so far... feeling really pretty good #mfw having more control over your life + surroundings + choices + living circumstances means you can genuinely #meaningfully improve ur day-to-day lived experiences and find what works for u to keep u happy + healthy + excited about life... magic #anyway. brief Huh I Feel Kind Of Bad And Sad In A Deeper Way Kicked Off By But Unrelated To Events Of The Day moment earlier #really made me realize how exceptionally good I've had it so far this year... i think... it's possible... things Do Get Better #anyway. ok done Tag Blogging now. just hope everyone enjoys a nice treat or something. get good sleep enjoy ur time change if it applies #watch a movie or something. idk have fun guys have a good night

[yuridovewing]

Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks

#brokenstar tigerstar hawkfrost darktail one eye etc etc would all be so much more interesting if they werent so one note #and just had ‘’born evil’’ slapped on as their explanation for being evil #‘’ew why are you woobifying tigerstar’’ because i think a villain who feels emotion besides ‘’evil’’ and ‘’angry’’ and actually does care #about his clanmates but is also a bigot that deserves to be beaten down is more interesting than canon #to get like real world political here… abusive people and bigots like. are not one note born evil demons #they have loved ones and reasons for turning out the way they did. and im not saying that to go ‘’so you need to give them grace!’’ #im saying that because the line of thinking that every bad person is a super obvious mustache twirling villain with no soul #makes it so that people justify abuse and crimes from REAL people. like ‘’oh my friend says some racist things but he isnt BAD! he loves me! #would an abusive person be nice to his wife in public? of course not!’’ #and its rhetoric like that that lets abuse and bigotry thrive. if you put the world in categories of born evil and born good #then you will dismiss all the ‘’good’’ people in your life who have done horrible things with ‘’but she donated to charity once’’ #i mean. hell this LITERALLY happens in wc where the ‘’born good’’ characters are abusive and murderously xenophobic #where characters like clear sky and blackstar just get a sticker like ‘’oh you cant be TOO mad at them! theyre good at heart!’’ #‘’ignore all the times they killed vulnerable people for the crime of being born somewhere they didnt like! they were nice to a kid once!’’ #the message there is literally ‘’bad people cant REALLY be bad if theyre nice to people sometimes’’ #like. im not even mad at clear sky being motivated by witnessing his loved ones starve to death for why hes such an abusive control freak #thats an interesting reason to become a villain especially since the change happened when he was put in a position of power #the problem is not him having a sad backstory. the problem is the erins think his sad backstory means he was never that bad #and anyone who’s upset at him can go eat shit and die cause he looked sad #like. i get this line of thinking often comes from writers doing this for abuse apologism and just wanting to see abusers be held accountabl #accountable #but how exactly does it help victims of abuse to portray abusers and bigots in a christian ‘’touched by the devil’’ light

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

There always seems to be one kid who just screams like a tornado siren, all day long, at any given opportunity. Like, kid, I love you, you are precious and deserve all the happiness in the world; but please for the love of god shut up. There are people trying to learn here and you’re not helping them or yourself.

#I don’t like being harsh with people in general but if one child is raising the tension in the room to a fever pitch every single day #making it incredibly hard for the kids who are trying really really hard to focus when they already have focus issues #and because I know this specific kid gets absolutely spoiled rotten at home and is allowed to do whatever they want #you know… sometimes it helps to show the kid how they sound to others by demonstrating the obnoxious nature of The Scream #because when the parents do Jack Shit about teaching their kid discipline and courtesy; you have to be a parent in their stead #But do NOT continue to scream. You are an adult with adequate emotional control. Screaming should be be done EXTREMELY sparingly #and only utilized for demonstration purposes or to stop a brawl; not for bullying or intimidation #Don’t do a JoJo Siwa and TRY to make kids cry even though you may get stressed enough that you want to escalate on purpose #Again: you are an adult with adequate emotional control; don’t escalate unless the overreaching plan is to deescalate #if eliciting a startle response will stop harmful behavior and “snap them out of it” for long enough for you to get through #or if they just need to let all their emotions out at once so they can lose enough of that high energy to think critically #then sure #but you have to guide them back down very carefully and calmly; it’s a precise science #Don’t be mean about it; be genuine in your feelings and don’t go overboard. Genuine ≠ mean unless you’re evil #Or if you don’t feel emotions very strongly (like I do) then react like a “normal” person. Lie about being angry or sad if it is appropriat #Again: Your goal should not be to get the kid to do what you want; the goal should be to get them to feel good enough #so they are ABLE to do it in the first place #And the goal should also be to show them how their actions affect others if they are not aware of it #“Teach a man to fish” and all that. Don’t always check them; get them to check themselves #If a kid hits another kid when they’re angry at something completely unrelated; then 1.) redirect destructive behavior #and 2.) walk them back over to the kid they hurt and say: #“Look at [name]; look how sad you made them. [name] didn’t do anything to you #It’s okay to be angry but we CANNOT hit people when we are angry because it hurts and makes them cry.” Works great #Always remember there is a power imbalance inherent in EVERY child-adult relationship and NEVER abuse it #And if you’re not patient or emotionally stable enough to work with or have children; then don’t. Please don’t. #Children are not cute little dolls to play dress-up with; nor are they perfect angels; nor are they your personal stress ball #Having children is NOT A GAME. They are PEOPLE who will grow to be your age one day and everything you do affects them #Sorry I’m just tired of all these parents who shove iPads in their kids faces so they don’t bother them. You’re giving them an addiction

[murobrown]

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#let me vent here real quick #bachelorette/bachelor parties are one of the most stupid concepts we ever created #it's disgusting and humiliating to me #if I'd have a person who loves me enough that they decide that they want to spend the rest of their life with me it's like an ultimate win #i mean what more do you want to achieve in life? isn't that like a main goal? #I don't even mean marriage that's useless but just that safe warm loving feeling #and then you gather all your friends and you're going to look at it as game over????? #so anyway I should attempt a stupid bachelorette party this weekend and it's useless and incredibly expensive #and it's full of activities that are totally outside of my comfort zone like drinking and dancing and being half naked in a spa #and you have to wear some dumb accessories so that you also humiliate yourself in front of everyone #and first I thought will be able to handle it but yesterday I panicked and asked if I can be excused from all those activities #and people don't understand that my concept of fun is different from theirs #and i don't mean this in any negative way towards those people #it's just different for me and I'd love you to understand that #but... it's also not nice from me to ditch them last minute and let down my friend that's getting married #but yesterday I just had this moment when I thought fuck no I'm going to think about myself for once and it's just not right #because then you make people upset... #the actual wedding is another thing I dread...it will be an actual nightmare and there's no way I will ever escape it #so yeah I'm just full of emotions and I don't know what's the right thing to do and how to keep others happy and myself calm #at least last night I dreamt about Jake Bugg hugging me and if that's not the sign I'm going spend the rest of my life with that man... #i also decided to survive both of those events sober just to make it more challenging for myself #alcohol has way too many calories and i just want stay in control of my brain #i will see if the only three friends i have will resent me after this #i needed to sort my thoughts here even though I know ot doesn't look like so #i hope that you all are having a wonderful day and doing fantastic ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[crowshoots]

man. sometimes i think about the end of soc and about the possibility of jesper leaving. but because he wanted to see this through, because he wanted to right things, because he wanted to see inej again and know she was safe, because he wanted to show his father that perhaps he wasn’t entirely a failure who only did reckless things, because he wanted something more for his friends. he went on

#i think. once inej was saved there really was this sentiment of #do i want to be here. Is this what i want because on god #the end of soc jesper got shown that he was shoved to the bottom of the list in terms of trust and that hurt #sometimes i think about the fact that kaz not only kept the wylan-kuwei thing quiet from jesper but also LET EVERYONE ELSE IN #ON IT #besides jesper. And let jesper go through the emotions of thinking that wylan and nina were dead on that ship. just to punish jesper. #for several cruel moments. He wanted jesper to hurt #like. Imagine ur jesper. and you learn that the guy youve led your life beside #decides to keep you in the dark over a mistake (that you see is a mistake and know is one) but then yknow who he decides to tell #the guy you broke out of prison 2 weeks ago who nearly choked out one of your friends and perhaps a month earlier would have no issue #with hunting you and putting you on trial to burn for something you cant control #its more complex than that but in the heat of the moment. Thats what jesper would be thinking about #if i were jesper!!!!! holy shit i’d be so fucking upset!!!! I’D LEAVE #oughthth lads the soc brainrot is so back

[the-trans-dragon]

What’s the appropriate way for me to respond to customers handing me religious pamphlets/cards? I’m not worried about getting fired btw.

#sorenhoots #I was considering eating the pamphlet but that isn’t fun in practice. only theory #I considered crumpling it up and throwing it in their face but that might count as like. attacking lol. #like I have so much to say. maybe I should just vent at them about how Christianity left me broken and hopeless and [redacting details]. #not for their benefit. just to drag them through my incredibly painful emotions. maybe to make them suffer with me. maybe just to vent #without worrying about how my vent will impact them. #the first one took his card back when I said no. the second left his pamphlet and the TONE he used when he told me to read it. THE TONE. #was like a parent telling a toddler to eat their vegetables. ‘we’ll give it a try. it’s good for you. it’s got good stuff in it’ #god I wish I had facial recognition so I could refuse to check him out next time. #the first guy has a memorable appearance so I’ll never check him out again. #but that fucking second one. ohhhhh I was so mad. I went on break and went straight to the warehouse #to break down boxes for the bailer. exercise is very regulating for me! I felt much better afterwards #BUT I WANT TO SAY SOMETHING NEXT TIME. either funny. or scathing. or rude as all hell. or anything. #anything that will let me feel like I have some control over the situation. I can’t make them take back their pamphlet… well I could. lol. #Sir do NOT leave your trash here. I am not a trash can. you can throw it away down there #where our trash can is located. #anyways another guy tipped me $2 so that was real nice

[thosetwofirefighters]

WIP Wednesday

tagged by @mooshkat, thank you so much friend!! <3 I've had the first draft of this (which is for @the-likesofus) open for at least a week now, and I just can't bring myself to edit it (mostly because my life has been a ~shit show~ recently) anywaaaaay here's some of what will be a very late 6.14 coda :))

“I’ve got a list, if you’re interested,” she continues. “I know being set up by your old tia might not be the most attractive idea, but you’ve just gotta find the right woman.” She grabs his hand, the one not wrapped tightly around his coffee mug. He lets her keep it, takes comfort in the familiar pressure of her hand in his, and tries not to worry that this might be the last time he’ll be able to. For a moment, he feels guilty about worrying—this is Tia Pepa, his favorite aunt, the one person who has always been on his side—but then he remembers what his parents—his father—had said when he’d tried having this conversation with them at nineteen. He knows Pepa and trusts her so much, but he’d trusted his parents too.

no pressure tagging (and sorry if you've already been tagged lol) @the-likesofus @lilbuddie @shortsighted-owl @jacksadventuresinwriting @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy @wheelsupin-five <3

#idk i feel like pepa is a lil ooc (maybe not in this snippet) but idk what to do about it #but also i havent read this in a week so maybe i should just like. do that first? #it's literally less than 1000 words idk why its so hard #actually i do its because any thinking beyond consuming media and avoiding real life is Too Much Thinking rn #literally went to work yesterday and went home a half hour later because I cried the whole time lolllll #but today is better !!! and also today my boss commended my attitude yesterday so like. i feel so much better about the whole ordeal #the capitalism rlly got to me i was so guilty for leaving work #but my boss was like 'dont worry it was a situation you couldnt control but you can control your attitude and you were great' #she was like 'you tried sticking it out and thats more than enough' and i was like ok let me go cry some more now out of relief #i just. would really like emotions that don't overwhelm my brain because like. i cry at literally every heightened emotion ahaha #anywaaaaaay sorry to anyone reading these tags i'm just a bit unhinged atm #tag game #wip wednesday #mine

[micwrs]

rotating akechi in my brain so hard

im afraid to try my hand at actually writing him but oh he is in my head. he's crazy. im crazy. and i would let him take my hand and lead me into the depths of our shared craziness

i diagnose him with bpd and he's in love with yet despises the phantoms

#how can they be so GENUINE #after ALL they have SUFFERED #how can they manage to find happiness with each other after all theyve been through. how can they CARE so deeply for others #others who ultimately dont even MATTER to them. others who are USELESS. #positive emotions make him sick yet he desires to feel them- deep down he truly does #at least i think he does. i think some part of him wants to be able to find that kind of happiness #he just doesnt believe he's able #and also he's so full of hatred and self-sabotage #hes like a self-fulfilling prophecy of misery i think #and i dont think thats something hed be capable of fully getting under control #i think hes doomed himself to misery bcs he refuses to try #i dont think hed have the conviction to make himself better-- which is funny bcs he has insane dedication to literally anything else #think thats part of what makes him have extra complicated feelings abt joker specifically #he keeps trying to push him away and joker refuses and it really ruins the self-destruction when those around you wont let themselves #just be pushed away or do whatever thing u want in order to fulfill that negative prophecy yk #im all over the place my head is just all over goro akechi rn bro #「that’s right everybody. it’s your favorite boy.」 ― out of character

[acekoomboom]

characters that are very me-coded but i can't explain how:

Thanks for tagging me in @outer-edges ;) Gah I wanna explain why they're all me so bad but I can't bc that's not how you play.

@watatsumi-island and @the-portal-rule-book you're next :) if you wanna.

Wendy Darling, Peter Pan (2003)/ Peeta Mellark, The Hunger Games/ Jane Villanueva, Jane The Virgin/ Kara Danvers, Supergirl/ Samwise Gamgee, The Lord of the Rings/ Melissa McCall, Teen Wolf (TV)/ Dawn Summers, Buffy the Vampire Slayer/ Sailor Jupiter, Sailor Moon (1992)/ Angela Montenegro, Bones.

#wendy darling my love #she is the master of storytelling #Peeta Mellark my forever #he's the epitome of staying a good person when all of your options are evil #jane my girl #i'm also waiting until marriage from a vow i made to myself as a minor #kara danvers gah #she's so silly and cute and lets all of her inside self be on the outside #samwise gamgee #who knew all along what frodo should be doing if he would just listen to his best friend #melissa mccall what an angel #she's such an emotionally supportive mother to both her son and his momless best friend #dawn summers my baby #no one chooses you everyone abandons you and you try so freaking hard #sailor jupiter mi amor #you're so feminine and so masculine in a way that you never monitor or control you just are #angela montenegro the gorgeous #you're completely guided by your emotions and you love people so deeply even strangers and i adore #characters that are #characters that are very me-coded but i can't explain how #peter pan #the hunger games #jane the virgin #supergirl #lord of the rings #teen wolf #buffy the vampire slayer #sailor moon #bones #not only do i love them all so freaking much but I see the parts of myself that i love in them

[msfcatlover]

Web!Bruce keeps... tethers, for lack of a better word, on the people he cares about. The same strings a lot of Web avatars use for manipulation, he... tries to limit his use of. Let the strings sit lax, present in case of emergency, there if needed, but not to be used. When his worries get the best of him, he coils them around his fingers, pulling the tethers just tight enough to feel the life thrumming at the other end, the current emotional state of that person, just as a check in. A quick twist to make sure Dick’s okay. A light tug to make sure Damian actually went to bed. A small pull when Tim’s been quieter than usual and Bruce can’t figure out why.

It soothes Bruce’s nerves to have those silent check-ins.

It also means that despite never being prone to pyrophobia before, cases involving fire fray Bruce’s nerves more than anything, as the longer any of his people spend in close proximity to flames, the more chances there are each of their tethers might burn away. A nightmare he’s encountered more than once when he went for a check-in and found only a slack, frayed thread where a sturdy tether was supposed to be.

(Bruce has on occasion yanked all the strings attached to someone hard enough to physically force them closer to him. If he holds them tight enough, he can induce paralysis. If he winds them right, he can leave someone all trussed up and immobilized. In his weakest, most paranoid moments, he has used this to try to force someone to stay safe, but the Fear... the Fear of someone else having control over your actions, imposing their will on you, of knowing your weaknesses & taking advantage... that’s what the Web wants. Realizing he’s Feeding on someone he cares about is usually enough to snap Bruce out of it, and when it’s not, the resulting damage to their relationship is punishment enough for him to resist the urge for years to come.)

#batfam crossover #tma crossover #tma #batman #bruce wayne #bruce wayne's control issues #Web aligned Bruce Wayne #my writing #mine #// #Bruce is 100% the person you want around if anyone else has been exposed to mind-altering substances as he can restrain them harmlessly #and to a certain degree tamper with their emotional state to make it not so bad. Bruce is also the one everyone is genuinely scared of havin #to deal with when he's been drugged for... basically the exact same reasons. You do not want to be around Web!Bruce on fear gas for example. #Bruce's specific aspect of the Web is actually having your trust used against you but he mostly Feeds on the fear you're being set up. #Due to the former he can actually /only/ attach lasting tethers to people close to him. Short term tethers can be attached with a touch and #are very useful in a fight but fewer threads means worse control and like I said they only last a few days at most. #Everyone knows Batman controls Gotham from the shadows. Everyone knows he has a finger in every pie. If anything happens it's because Batman #wants it that way. (And just like every other avatar of the Web Bruce is largely being given far more credit than he deserves.) #Being /THE/ Bruce Wayne does make him one of the most trusted people in the city though so he has more control than you'd think. #He's rich enough to be useful. He's too stupid to be a threat. People let themselves be vulnerable thinking they're manipulating him. #And Bruce gets one or two thin but lasting threads on them just in case for the future. #This is for the record why the Court of Owls ended up being one of his first cases. Which is how he met Dick. #Bruce knew he'd really fucked up after he tried to take Robin away & force Dick to stay on bedrest...and Dick took a lighter to every thread #before climbing out the window & heading back to Titans Tower. There was a good few months where there was no tether between them. #Bruce spent the whole time metaphorically sinking his teeth into his own fist to choke down the bitter loss of control. #Bruce avoided Dick for fear of that Fear. He did not want to look into Dick's eyes & feel the fulfillment of his own aspect being invoked. #Which also lead to Bruce not apologizing for... a while. 'Cause the next time he saw Dick it was because of Jason. #(Dick was almost suffocating in how protective he was towards Jason specifically from Bruce whenever he was around.) #(Jason felt a lot less protected than he felt like a prop in their arguments truth be told.)

[scorchedhearth]

i wanna try to read task force z again because the panels from its ending i've seen do interest me a lot

#i love utrh jason to pieces #i love young and angry and deeply damaging to himself and other people jason i love him #but im really curious to see what jason who tries to heal might go #because he was convinced he was going to die. and now that he's alive well. what does he do? #and i think he will continue the damaging lifestyle the one that takes and takes and hurts until he cannot take it anymore #i think he'll come to a point where he realizes that he cannot continue without consuming himself and he will make the conscious choice to #live. maybe not the first time but someday he will and after that well. what does he do? #i do not want to see him go soft and stop killing and give up this new mindset of pro active actions and this view of justice and society #but i do want him to sort of mellow out. grow older and calmer #maybe let some of weight of the task he decided to shoulder go. let himself live. meet new people. have connections #that is firmly a middle to late 20s jason in my mind this is when he's done a loooot of way and work #but it's something im interested in you know #the 'and now what?' mood #you've challenged your father you've challenged your city you've challenged yourself and this left you with nothing to claim for yourself #so now what are you going to do #and i think. a healed jason will have taken out the clown himself and then done some self reflecting and learned to properly love and care #learned to forgive himself for what happened and be more grounded. he wont let emotions get to himself so easily and overwhelm him #he will get a real home for himself and maybe a pet or two and continue his idea of justice maybe not being a kingpin #but still very much controlling his city #idk im thinking of 27yo jason and who he might be

[caruliaa]

yk i think like. im trying desperately not to depress people around me w how close to doomerism i can veer but like. at a certain point its like. the effort and exhaustion that goes into maintaining just being alive in this world is not worth what comes from being alive and like. girlies we may have reached it. el oh el.

#like obvs its different for everyone like. what i really mean is that i have reached it or like. tht was always inevitably the case #for my life. which ik feels really depressing to say nd im sorry tht it makes ppl sad but idk like. its just true at a certain point #absolutely not from a lack of trying from the good things within my life to be clear not at all like. ik have sm great parts to my life #tht like. just mean so so much to me and im so so lucky to have but as upsetting as it is to say and think abt #at a certain point having to choose between being trapped in a situation were you can never authentically exist or like #have any control over your life and exist on your own terms even in v small ways while having to constantly be around people whove #caused you so much pain and trauma and hurt and being is a situation were like. at best your constantly working to afford living and you #are constantly exhausted by this and have no time for being yourself anyway and at worst you just cant afford anything and you die #and that could happen to you at any point idk like. these are my two options and i cant change anything about that fact #no matter how much i want to and that feeling is just. so so crushing and inescapable and just idk i dont know how to deal with it #like. idk iv done everything to try to but its only ever a temporary distraction #bc the problem isnt fucking like. mental or emotional its the facts of my reality and that cant be changed #so ofc im going to be constantly fucking miserable things just. are misearble #and idk. im sorry tht thts something other ppl have to deal with when it comes to like. knowing me bc genuinly its like. #they dont deserve that its sm pain for somoene to deal with and if that someone isnt. somone whos come to term with what #my fate invetiably is like have ik its too much nd im sorry for like. putting that on ppl i just. idk im sorry #idk what up with me suddnely. i mean i do but like. idk why i cant just hold it together like. this has always been the case idk why #im letting it upset me sm suddenly . ig bc i let myself have hope at some point. like an idiot. #idk im sorry. and its nearly 1am so i think im just going to go to sleep.im so sorry for just. all of this. #lucy if your reading tihs im so sorry for not sending and answering asks but i want to say that i love you so so so much. and im sorry #flappy rambles #vent #ask to tag

[wantonlywindswept]

help i’m being tempted back into star wars by well-written din/luke fics

Tho I was also so caught up in the euphoria of being immersed in star wars stories again that for a moment there I forgot about the ~fandom racism~

#i'm sorry but in what galaxy would din be an aggressive possessive person #did you see how Soft he is #did you see how he let his son go despite it killing him #the man is the emotional equivalent of a steamed pudding #he is so Good #and luke is also Good #luke is So Good #but luke's goodness is both innate and a very specific choice #luke knows what he is doing and is very much in control of himself #luke is a Badass Bitch who Causes Problems on Purpose #and would not take aggression lying down #YOUR ASSUMED DYNAMIC IS BAD AND YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD #let din be emotional and gentle and let luke be in control and unwavering 2k23 #'din is aggressive and domineering and savage--' bitch i'll fucking kill you