#for several cruel moments. He wanted jesper to hurt

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man. sometimes i think about the end of soc and about the possibility of jesper leaving. but because he wanted to see this through, because he wanted to right things, because he wanted to see inej again and know she was safe, because he wanted to show his father that perhaps he wasn’t entirely a failure who only did reckless things, because he wanted something more for his friends. he went on

#i think. once inej was saved there really was this sentiment of #do i want to be here. Is this what i want because on god #the end of soc jesper got shown that he was shoved to the bottom of the list in terms of trust and that hurt #sometimes i think about the fact that kaz not only kept the wylan-kuwei thing quiet from jesper but also LET EVERYONE ELSE IN #ON IT #besides jesper. And let jesper go through the emotions of thinking that wylan and nina were dead on that ship. just to punish jesper. #for several cruel moments. He wanted jesper to hurt #like. Imagine ur jesper. and you learn that the guy youve led your life beside #decides to keep you in the dark over a mistake (that you see is a mistake and know is one) but then yknow who he decides to tell #the guy you broke out of prison 2 weeks ago who nearly choked out one of your friends and perhaps a month earlier would have no issue #with hunting you and putting you on trial to burn for something you cant control #its more complex than that but in the heat of the moment. Thats what jesper would be thinking about #if i were jesper!!!!! holy shit i’d be so fucking upset!!!! I’D LEAVE #oughthth lads the soc brainrot is so back