Everyone talks about lack of empathy this and hyper empathy that.
But no one talks about detached empathy, where you can understand the emotions via disassociating. Literally putting yourself in their shoes and how they react to things and applying it to the present situation.
Or mixed type, where you can understand that a person is feeling something, but where the response doesn't seem logical from your perspective, creating a lot of cognitive dissonance.
Or for AuADHD the special type, where your object permanence kicks in, so even if you do feel empathy in the moment, if it's not present it no longer exists. Leading to doing insensitive things, because the emotions have been forgotten.
I'm mostly detached type, and no one talks about it, or how to deal with it.
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And I actually like narratives full of characters like that. It might be because I hate purifying fandom talk a-la “this wouldn’t have happened if this [negative trait that is in the CORE of this character] wasn’t there...” like yeah bitch it’s called conflict. So I like DN because literally all of them have this specific “negative” plot-wise trait that is there because they’re morally imperfect and that will affect the plot even if you’re uncomfortable with it.
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jack and maddie fixate on a topic (ghosts) so heavily like theyre in their own world sometimes like wow theyre just like me
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yeahhh idc if it’s in poor taste n maybe im just young and stupid but a small part of me will always wish unwanted pregnancy on pro-lifers. not unwanted birth, thats barbaric. i just want them to have to know how it feels, and then have the option to terminate. i want them to experience what they are advocating other women go through, because atp that stance can only be born from pure detatchment from reality and lack of empathy. like if that was an embryo growing inside you, you would know damn well it isnt a person or even a baby. even if you would never admit it. and if you could look a woman you know personally, distraught from the discovery that she is pregnant and does not want to be, in the eye and tell her she must go through with her pregnancy because “its a human being too,” you are just evil.
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Saitama and emotional blunting
It is pretty sobering thing to keep repeating that Saitama breaks things he loves and likes to do, whenever he feels normal emotions. Like little bit of excitement or anger and does things he likes and loves to do, such as playing games or punching monsters.
The carton of eggs he wanted to make food with, but he had to end up eating them mostly raw over rice and consume them all immediately, else they'd spoil. Because he punched a monster who made a deal about his bald head, something he's really self-conscious about and the shockwave of his own punch broke all the eggshells and ruined his plans for cost-efficient food.
Breaking King's console buttons and controllers that he likes to play with frequently, because King is nice and loans his gaming equipment to Saitama so he can play games and they can play together. One of his favourite past times. Other dudes would not be so forgiving if one constantly broke their expensive equipment and erased their save data. That is a deal breaker, definitely among gamers especially. You don't mess with save datas. It could be thousand hours worth save data, down the drain.
(I love how much focus ONE puts into King being such a nice dude, King is low-key so amazing)
Shredding his ugly shirt that he loves from his own punch's shockwave, to protect the judges who absolutely belittled his character and still not get proper acknowledgement for his deeds. Just because he was really annoyed the monster came to interrupt the whole thing.
And then the worst of them all...almost destroying the entire planet, because he snapped and flew into a massive rage fit and had an emotional surge so strong it destroyed entire star clusters. Almost destroying the planet he lives on.
Because he could not contain himself and stopped consciously inhibiting himself and his emotions and let them completely loose, because this time he wanted to break something and break it hard. He stopped caring about the consequences.
Saitama's apathy is entirely learned behaviour of inhibiting himself. Because he has learned that he breaks things when he feels too strongly about anything, he subconsciously blunts his emotions to be more detatched. But it is a maladaptive coping method and can lead to various issues, HAS led to various issues already.
I can only begin to guess if there is some underlying trauma at hand not just limited to him breaking his limits. But it seems very likely.
Emotional detachment and/or emotional blunting have multiple causes, as the cause can vary from person to person. Emotional detachment or emotional blunting often arises due to adverse childhood experiences, for example physical, sexual or emotional abuse. Emotional detachment is a maladaptive coping mechanism for trauma, especially in young children who have not developed coping mechanisms. Emotional detachments can also be due to psychological trauma in adulthood, like abuse, or traumatic experiences like war, automobile accidents etc.
Emotional blunting is often caused by antidepressants in particular selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) used in major depressive disorder (MDD), and often as an add-on treatment in other psychiatric disorders. Individuals with MDD usually experience emotional blunting as well. Emotional blunting is a symptom of MDD, as depression is negatively correlated with emotional (both positive and negative) experiences.
This detachment does not necessarily mean avoiding empathy; rather, it allows the person to rationally choose whether or not to be overwhelmed or manipulated by such feelings. Examples where this is used in a positive sense might include emotional boundary management, where a person avoids emotional levels of engagement related to people who are in some way emotionally overly demanding, such as difficult co-workers or relatives, or is adopted to aid the person in helping others.
Emotional detachment can also be "emotional numbing","emotional blunting", i.e., dissociation, depersonalization or in its chronic form depersonalization disorder. This type of emotional numbing or blunting is a disconnection from emotion, it is frequently used as a coping survival skill during traumatic childhood events such as abuse or severe neglect. After continually using this coping mechanism, it can become a response to daily stresses.
Emotional detachment may allow acts of extreme cruelty and abuse, supported by the decision to not connect empathically with the person concerned. Social ostracism, such as shunning and parental alienation, are other examples where decisions to shut out a person creates a psychological trauma for the shunned party.
He uses emotional blunting every single time normal person would start to feel pissed at their unfair treatment, for instance. Or overtly emotional about anything, he blunts his own emotions down. Because he can feel very strongly, he forces himself to not feel strongly so he doesn't break everything in sight. When people judge him to be a rotten person at a glance and otherwise. Judge his ideals. His appearance. His heroism. You name it.
Don't be fooled by the dopey, unexpressive face. It's not healthy for him.
Being detatched from his emotions means detatchment from humanity. He is not yet cruel, but it's not a far leap to make if he went down the future route where Genos died, because even at the beginning of the series, he was blase to other people's concerns and their lives. Yet if he does not emotionally detatch, he ends up breaking things.
Important things to him.
His divine power being rooted in his emotions, feeling stronger emotions means he punches harder. But so do the effects get bigger. His strenght is just not limited to just punching things, every emotional action gets magnified.
He is afraid of not only the consequences of accidentally hurting people if he was to let loose and stop inhibiting himself, but also the abandonment that follows once people realise that he breaks their stuff accidentally. Or he could break THEM accidentally. The very few friends that he has made leaving him because he is far too strong for this world. Social ostracization and the fear of being isolated that he keeps facing daily.
His powers are a really cruel mistress.
And yet...
His emotions will also protect things that he cares about if he simply wills it.
Something he hasn't realized yet and did not consciously realize because his memory got conveniently erased.
King was completely in the blast zone of Serious punch that utterly vaporized Elder Centipede and his communicator that he had in his pocket broke, so he was caught in it. Yet he remains unharmed. He pissed himself in utter fear at the effects but unharmed aside from his pride, yes.
Genos core was held by Saitama and withstood everything thrown at him, because he willed and didn't want it to break.
If he understood this, he would not have to be afraid of accidentally destroying things or hurting things that he loves and inhibit his emotions and he could learn how to express his emotions again in their entire range and wholly. Deal with possible past trauma. And become more like his old self again.
Punch the rock-face of his emotional stoicness out of the way.
If I remember that our hearts turn kindness into strength
I feel like I can protect someone more
When I look up, I see the sky that is connected with you
(Yes the opening has metaphors of Saitama punching his inner demons out of the way. One by one. So he can become a true hero. There's a reference to rock-face in ONE's season 3 celebration tweet as well)
(ONE does not give him the easy way out lol, he has to learn his emotions and the connections with his power the slow, painful way)
(My man King is a beast and a true friend, he ate Serious punch, witnessed and FELT Saitama's powers, fears them and yet he still stands by his side and believes and trusts in Saitama that he can protect him)
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Whatever I'll go by Chuun - and yeah literally based on "Chew toy" cause why not. It's kinda funny though our fiance is so used to new faces poping around I'm just like "anyways *waves off* let me listen to my music and do my own thing"
Asshole replies with "YOU DONT HAVE YOUR OWN MUSIC OR YOUR THING" which like fair bitch but fuck off. "My own thing" and "my music" is usually a very specific thing in our system but like, whatever man.
Tbh I'll probably not show up again or be absorbed into XIV or some shit at some point so its more of a formality than anything but *shrugs* (probably) polyfragmentation be like
I do have to say for as much of a hot mess of a system that we are, we are all so fucking egotistical and apathetic so its really just like, we split new parts and rather than freaking out like a lot of parts probably should most of us are just like ".... eh Im here and thats whatever. I'm too good to give a shit anyways"
Also on that note can I say Riku is literally one of the most annoying baseline hosts our system could have? Cause like, most of us in this system are extremely apathetic and detatched from crap - like low AF empathy low AF shits given low AF remorse and huge fucking egos all around - and then there is Riku who is basically an animated sentient definition of a mask and they are CONSTANTLY super energetic, engaged, enthused, and bouncing off the walls and theyre good at looking friendly and personable and so like
When a newbie(?) like me comes floating around its SUCH a high standard to try to live up to if you don't want to deal with having to make a fuss about it. Like I was gonna try to mask around our fiance cause I don't really care for people and shit, but I know I'd last like 2 seconds before he sniffed me out so I was just like "Sup Im not Riku and probably not anyone else noted, now imma go do my own shit until someone whose actually engaged gets out here to do something"
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Chainsaw Man episode 2:
I think the element with the most potential is actually the wierd relationship between Makima and Denji.
Episode 2 introduced what seems to be our core cast, but I think the roller coaster of feelings Denji went through at the start of the episode was the highlight.
Denji has a sense of what good and bad relationships look like, but because he has had a pretty horrible life and few (to no) relationships, the moment he recieves any kind of kindness, any kind of critical thinking in a relationship goes out of the window. He doesn't have much of a sense of nuance for feelings.
Power and Aki are jerks/crazy to him, so they're crazy (and to be fair Power absolutely seems exactly inside as she is on the surface) and he seems to at least understand Aki better after the confrontation with him, but Makima is nice to him once (also because she has boobs), so she's nice, when in truth she is kind of treating him like a dog.
Positive reinforcement via reward: warm clothes, food, nice words.
The most emotionally genuine she seemed was when she hugged him, but even in that scene I got the sense there is a clear cold wall in there and no real genuine warmth behind her actions and Denji isn't seeing any of that.
I read her as super emotionally detatched and that makes sense considering what her job is (and if that's the correct reading I'm curious what made her that way however simple of complex that might might be), but this is also leaning into a stereotype that can be taken into some really annoying directions: women are just cold, manipulative assholes/crazies leading men on.
But it could also go in a way where Makima is treated like a human being by the narrative even if she is manipulative while Denji also learns that chasing boobs is the shallow thing, but also that Makima is actually kinda using him.
There's a scene in episode 2 where Denji feels like even if his dream seems to have come true, there is something missing in his life.
That something is probably not boobs, but a genuine emotional connection with someone and with the info I have 2 episodes in, right now Makima either has a massive wall or nothing in terms of a genuine ability/wish to connect to people emotionally.
Denji is essentially one of the horrible monsters humanity is fighting, but something also tells me Makima's lack of empathy might be separate.
And as said that can be spun in wierd directions (women are cold monsters for not taking care of men's feelings, wierd mysterious creatures whose only purpose is to be manipulative/cruel etc).
But I'm hoping for both complex Denji and complex Makima.
Complex messed up/wierd relationships are one way to get me invested in a story.
And as also said this one has potential and I hope the story does something interesting with it.
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autism is such a mindfuck sometimes
because i as an autistic, dont feel empathy or sympathy or whatever its called
I cant put myself in other peoples shoes because I dont understand what that means
For me to understand a person I need to know everything about them. How they think, how their brain works, what makes them tic. How do their parents affect them? How did where they grew up and where they are now affect them? Why the act the way they do?
I need all of this information, and even then I dont know what to do to help.
Because I now know all of that about them, but I dont know what they need to help.
Or not help, but... i dont know.
When people say "put youself in their shoes" I do, but that does not mean what works for me will work for them.
I have always been detatched to my feelings, I dont feel anything to extremes, i dont grieve like a normal person, I dont work as you do.
Book characters have helped me so much this way, but also ruined me.
Before, I could not understand there were people who thought different than me, who worked differently. So by reading books like PJO I started to understand that.
But now, I need to know everything about them or I wont understant. I need to know their thought process, I need to see how the gears turn in their head.
This makes me see others as characters in a story and not as real people.
The problem is... that I dont see a difference between the two.
People and characters always interest me. I want to know everything there is to know about them if thwy intrigue me. Maybe because I dont feel like they do. Like what they do matters or affects others.
I have always felt like an outsider in life, like a narrator in someone elses body. I never feel completly here, so I try to see people the only way I can, by treating them as a book.
Problem is, I cant understand things like they do. I dont view the world like they do, I dont know what they expect or need form me.
And it also means that I have a body, I have what people view as a soul. But for me, a soul is what I lack. I am not here, I am simply a viewer. I have to make choices as characters do and live with their consequences, but I dont feel them as deep as I should.
I dont get driving with no destination, I don't get movies with no story, I dont get doing things with no goal and I dont get doing things without reason.
This all makes me who I am, which is a shell of who others think I am.
Which is why its so easy changing who I am depending on who Im with. I am clay, I am who you wnt me to be. I am the wise, I am the jester. I am the rock, I am the broken. I am everything you need, yet I always end up lacking.
I dont know if that is because since I am no one, they dont understand me, or if they know I am nothing but an echo of who they hope is there.
I dont remember what I was trying to say, my head is hurting so bad that thought hurt so I will not check. That is all for today I think, imma read more of the characters I have imprinted on to try and feel human. Byeeee
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Does Gellert respect anyone other than Albus? He wants to exalt the wizarding race, and he seems to despise everyone.
We won't know that until the story establishes it.
Overall, Gellert seems to have a bad combination of a superiority complex because of his exceptional abilities and mind and of a hard time with mastering empathy.
Consequently, he does not see others as his equal in sense of power, and caring about them because he likes them, feels for them or appreciates their humanity is not something that comes natural to them.
I wouldn't say he despises everyone. For example I don't thing that he despises Rosier, or Vogel etc. But he clearly does not 'like' them either. He sees their function. To Gellert it seems that most people are the combination of their power, their loyalty and their competence. Those are the things he respects, because those are what serve him. But they are still not enough for him to 'feel' for these people or to love.
Ultimately that's not REAL respect, because it focuses on effective subservience.
I think that it is important for the story to show us Gellert's relationship with his family. There may have been respect to someone there. No matter if it was, it's ultimately important to know what drives him. Was he from a family of supremacists? Did he lose loved ones during WWI and ended up dehumanizing the muggles in his head and getting detatched from people to seek emotional invulnerability after a traumatic experience of loss? We'll never be able to properly understand how Gellert sees people until his past before the summer with the Dumbledores is addressed.
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Something I'm geninuely curious about for those that either have low to no empathy.
How does that work exactly?
Like if there's a tragic event, like a shooting or less extreme, someone died and everyone else around you is sad, do you acknowledge its sad but are detatched from feeling what everyone else is feeling? Is it not active and/or applied empathy but you still sympathize with the person, just can't imagine what they're feeling until you feel it yourself?
I hope I'm not offending anyone, I'm just trying to understand what having little to no empathy means.
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*sees new posted fic* welp, guess I'll sleep later :D
Amazing story as always!!! Haha brainrot strikes again but honestly same. Even though Haitham's story quest was crafted imo I'm always craving more for this man. Lowkey hoping we get a second quest with us exploring around the Akademiya like normal students buuuuut thats just me being greedy. Also, loooooved haitham's POV. I'm always interested in the way this man thinks. Definitely agree with the whole detatched, bored and observant vibe <3
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Hoyo give us Akademiya date please 🙏
And thank you 🥹 I was worried about posting a short fluff
He’s such an interesting character and in a lot of ways I see traits I really admire. The balance of rationality and empathy that he doesn’t outright show.
But even if he sees himself as different than the rest, he never looks down on the rest as witnessed from his story quest.
But remember sleep! Sleep is important!
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Idk if anyone needs to hear this, but... having low empathy doesn't make you an inherently bad person. You can have a strong moral code that is detached from emotionality and get by just fine as a "good person".
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What do you think Zib would have been like if he had been introduced in the show? Do you think he would have been different or pretty much the same?
Idk just something I’ve been thinking about lately :/
Pretty much the same I think.
This might be weird to say coming from me..
Especially since I'm friends/aquantiences with a lot of the Zib squad.
While Zib's fandom interpretations and aus are a whole hell of a lot of fun...and I do enjoy them a lot and I enjoy bastard Tumblr sexy man disaster Zib....
I kinda always prefer the canon Zib the most.
Well, at least his canon age.
HE IS TWELVE
At least, he's exactly the same age as Dib.
I think there are really more interesting character possibilities to explore through the lens of child psychology and a child character.
Like extremely low empathy, lots of unanswered questions about his family, the confidence in which he tells blatant lies towards Dib to just gain his trust.
I feel like everyone is real quick to age up a character to a teenager or their own age just because they relate to that plight more and it's easier to self project to a 20-something rather then an actual twelve year old boy.
But for me personally, the fact that Zib created a system that completely only benefits him and was planning to wipe out all Zims from multiple realities posing as a number one Zim and did all this when he was just a child and lost his family, and apparently seems to not care about humanity and is completely dissallsioned with humans at such a young age is what is the most facinating to me.
And it's pretty common behavior for kids who grew up in neglectful or abusive households to view humanity like this.
Like we don't know entirely what happened to Zib's family. All we know is that Zib defeated Zim and they didn't care. And that's all we got. It's all up to personal interpretation on the events that actually transpired.
My personal headcanon is that Zib's family was worried about his declining mental health rather then whatever alien corpse he was shoving in their face. Cause Dib is thickheaded and can't see past his own truth.
Also, Zib was really overjoyed to see a Dib in the Zimvoid. I don't think that was an act. Zib felt alone and surrounded by Zims he hates, he probably really thought that a Dib would be the only one who understands and gets him, and that crushing betrayal when he finds that Dib is just like "other humans" aka: his family.
Yeah, I don't think I'll ever personally write a story about Zib.
But if I ever get around to making like the two (technically three) animatics I have in my head, you can guarantee he's just going to be a dumb kid who got in way over his head with a fiercely independent streak and a warped sense of justice.
So basically, the Zimvoid arc will probably be adapted like how the Florpus started out as an adaptation of the first comic issue, before detatching from the rails and doing it's own thing
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Tell me about carnage and shriek - what're their life goals, what's their whole deal.
Thank you for indulging me.
Ahem.
Cletus Kasady is a fictional serial killer who was cellmates with Eddie Brock, the first host of the Venom symbiote in the Spider-man comics. When they were in the process of breaking out of prison, the symbiote gave birth to a red symbiote, which latched onto Cletus, bonded and thus Carnage was born.
Carnage is...well. He's obviously homicidal. The reason why varies from comic to comic but roughly he has your standard 90s serial killer mo. He witnessed his father brutally murdering his mother, he pushed his grandmother down the stairs, he killed small animals. Eventually he was dumped into an orphanage after he testified against his father.
He's also a massive dork. He's not booksmart, in some iterations he has barely any reading or writing skills. He's also not streetsmart. He's socially awkward and he's really only ever had one friend in his entire life and he tried to kill him to "save" him.
Cletus is into heavy metal, horror movies and is easily influenced by pop culture in general. (See: "Carnage- It's a Wonderful Life", and "Carnage- Mind Bomb", 1996). When I say he's a massive dork I mean he's HUGELY over the top and hammy. When he lost the symbiote for a time, he broke out of jail, painted himself red and ran amok through New York in his tighty whities. That's how detatched from reality he is.
That being said.
Shriek, aka Frances Barrison is a fictional serial killer who, when shot in the head by a police officer, was taken into the superhero Cloak's darkforce dimension, which awakened her latent Mutant ablities.
Her mutant ablities are the ablity to shoot sonic blasts from her hands, and dark empathy- basically she can grow dissent, violence and the urge to inflict pain in others....and sometimes she can fly.
Frances was terrorised by her mother as a child for being overweight, which drove Frances to drugs. She was a heavy metal groupie and she frequently hung around bands and their hangers on, eventually dealing herself. It's not really any wonder why her mutant powers took so long to manifest.
She has a strong Mother complex. She adopts super-villians and babies them, "feeding" them with her dark empathy to prolong their bloodlust.
Marvel doesn't think she's interesting enough to spend a lot of time worrying over her backstory but I strongly disagree because GOSH that's a lot to work with.
Anyway anyway-
Here you have Cletus Kasady, who's broke loose of his confines in the Ravencroft Institute for the Criminally Insane, which was where all the Spider-man villians who were deemed mentally ill, and is about to make his big escape--when a woman's voice calls out from behind a heavily reinforced door.
He rips it away and finds...well. A woman practically made for him. Metal Chick? Check. Hugely Hammy? Check. Serial Killer? Check.
POWERS THAT LITERALLY AMPLIFY HIS OWN? CHECK CHECK CHECK.
Because she can feel the violence and panic that he spreads. She can feed on it and it brings her more power of her own. Frances is literally the perfect woman for Cletus Kasady and they're a match made in hell.
A parasite for the parasite.
By and large, as is the way for most lady villians in comics, esp Marvel, Shriek usually only gets used when Carnage is about, and then not all the time. When they do appear together it's usually as partners, but the undertone is always that they're fucking on the reg. In Maximum Carnage, they have this whole Manson Family vibe, down to calling each other husband and wife. In Deadpool vs Carnage they're on a roadtrip? Well. A murder roadtrip.
In the 2010/2011 Carnage miniseries, after Cletus is returned to earth from being cut in half (it doesn't matter why, but he now has robot legs which is fun), We get to see the symbiote's imprinted impressions that Cletus has of Frances.
Do they actually love each other? Well. As much as they're capable of feeling anything for anyone. Cletus lacks empathy for pretty much everyone. He cares about the "great truth" - pure unmitigated chaos. His goal, if you can call it that, is to spread chaos via random acts of violence and murder. The random part is key. If it has any sort of planning to it, he's just not interested. If she's not in the comic he's currently in, he usually won't mention her, because his focus is on chaos.
But...he's also weirdly upset when things DO happen to his gothy wifu.
I know I've focused a lot on Carnage's comics here, where he's the big bad but unfortunately, when Shriek appears in comics outside of their relationship, it's usually as a henchwoman or as a stock bad guy for a hero to take down. She and other characters will make reference to the fact that she's Kasady's main squeeze but it's there's rarely any indepth character building there.
The other thing I haven't mentioned is that I fell off the Carnage train for a very long time. I'm not exactly up to date with all the comics because the last time I checked, Carnage cut Shriek's fucking head off. I don't have any context for that, other than Knull stuff. But it was so...weirdly ooc for the sake of a big dramatic set piece that I was like "nope! I'm out, seeya when the movie drops". I may end up reading it at some point because I'm starving for content. I won't be happy, but--
...In conclusion (Was I trying to make a point? Or did I just want to gush on and on...) Shriek is an underrated character, Carnage loves (as much as he can as this is him we're talking about) his gothy wifu and I'm excited about Venom 2.
Thank you.
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please repost, don’t reblog.
𝟑 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐓𝐇𝐒
▘ LOYALTY ➺ a shining trait of james barnes that ( somehow ) survived the passing of time and tribulation. since his early brooklyn days, bucky barnes displayed a steadfast loyalty and dedication towards those he loved and cherished. growing up during a time when there was a heavy emphasis on duty and responsibility, james understood his role as the eldest and only male child of george and winifred barnes - and assumed that role with ease and enthusiasm. this loyalty extended beyond blood though, as was proven by james’ devotion to close friends, the most notorious being his everlasting friendship with steven rogers. hydra had tried to weaponize this gleaming trait, hoping to mold it to their liking and use it to instill a unquestionable loyalty to their cause. they were pathetically unsuccessful - and the chair and cryochamber were fashioned as a result. after his time spent with hydra, TRUST is something barnes deeply struggles with. his trusted inner circle has certainly grown smaller and much more exclusive, but james still harbors this same dedication to those selected few. given his past and his current afflictions, those bonds he does manage to forge prove all the more stronger and resilient.
▘ TENACITY ➺ the serum only enhanced that which already existed within him. childhood was spent surviving the rough and tumble of brooklyn city streets, made all the more grueling with steve rogers as a best friend. as such, barnes learned at a very young age how to assess a situation, adapt to his surroundings and ( most importantly ) how to survive. dance hall skirmishes and back alley brawls were nothing though compared to the brutalities of war. still, it was this grit that helped the young man not only survive but excel as a sergeant. the army soon discovered that this notorious flirt from brooklyn exhibited a certain aptitude for sharpshooting. this impressive talent along with james’ natural charisma helped to build him a trusted reputation within the ranks and respect among his comrades. these talents were also what made the man such a formidable soldier. the bastard - serum amplified these strengths and hydra WEAPONIZED them. years blurred into decades and his skills were hellishly refined thanks to rigorous and ruthless training. the winter soldier program reconstructed the man into a living, breathing weapon capable of handling any firearm, blade, explosive, advanced weaponry, artillery or blunt object. && if he truly found himself limited and weaponless, the cybernetic arm soldered to his body proved a more than capable alternative. in combat, the soldier proved a devastating force and hydra was quick to take the credit and reap the benefits, but this staggering ability to adapt without pause and utilize his surroundings for his advantage stemmed not in the dirty lab of one arnim zola but began on the street corners of the city james barnes’ called home.
▘ VIRTUE / ETHICS ➺ growing up during the depression was not easy for anyone and neither was spending the beginning of young adulthood surviving the second world war. his childhood was marked by some of the worst and most difficult times in history - and yet james never allowed hardship or misfortune deter his regard for hard work, nor did he allow it to pollute his idealistic outlook on life. both his parents worked hard to support the family and that same work - ethic was imparted onto james, who assumed the role eagerly and naturally. luckily, during this time of strife, his family always had enough to provide both him and his two sisters a comfortable lifestyle, with various opportunities to explore and take advantage of - which was more than some families could boast at that time. after the death of sarah rogers, james made the decision to move into an apartment with his best friend. as young bacherlors, they did not have much but together they managed to scrape by and make an honest living. despite steve’s skepticism, james’ choices were never made out of pity or some disgruntled sense of obligation. he worked tirelessly and did what he had to because that was what he grew up believing. a man takes care of the people he loves, no matter what. whatever the cost - working two jobs, skipping a meal here and there, some months spent without heat, selling unnecessary belongings - bucky would do whatever was necessary - and did so without complaint. in fact, he woke up each morning with a smile on his face and a quip on his tongue. for him, there was no better reward or greater comfort than knowing the ones he loved were taken care of. he believes himself unrecognizable when compared to that willful man now, but certain traits of the old james barnes can still be found within him. there is a payout for hard work and the man that he is today is slowly remembering those feelings of satisfaction and fulfillment in honest labor.
𝟑 𝐖𝐄𝐀𝐊𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐒
▘ RUTHLESSNESS ➺ 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑢𝑚 𝑡𝑎𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑡𝘩𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝘩𝑖𝑐𝘩 𝑎𝑙𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑑𝑦 𝑒𝑥𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑠. 𝑔𝑜𝑜𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑠 𝑔𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡. 𝑏𝑎𝑑 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑠 ... before the horrible truth was unmasked, the history books painted james barnes in a favorable glow. he was known for being the young jovial, dashing side - kick of captain america. A PATRIOT - dedicated, noble, brave, honorable ;; an honest, hardworking man who cared about family, duty, honor and sacrifice. && he was many of these things. no one could deny james barnes of his genuine heart of gold. the man was willing to do anything for those he loved. anything. such love was a truly powerful thing, capable of cultivating great beauty. it could also prove to be equally as DISASTROUS. at its purest form, it inspired strength, selflessness, kindness. twisted, it became a deadly incentive. the BRUTALITY of the winter soldier was not born solely from the torture inflicted upon him or the serum he was infected with. beneath his buoyant, sprightly exterior existed a side of james barnes that was seldom exposed, unless provoked. there was a violence that lived within the darker parts of his heart, a ruthless determination to protect the things which were important to him. && if anyone dared to threaten those things ? well ... those details are far less known. if needed, james had no qualms about getting his hands dirty or splitting open his knuckles to send a very clear message. he had an ability to separate himself from his own subconscious and used this talent to become someone almost unrecognizable from his more charming counterpart. this austerity deepened into something even more callous during the war - when the enemy became much more larger and far more deadly. to switch back and forth between these personas became even more fluid and then - it became frighteningly easy. it was a duality that many were forced to adopt in order to survive the TRAUMAS of war. it was only a glimpse of what he was truly capable of though. the extent of his CRUELTY reached its full potential once he was injected with zola’s serum. bucky barnes was capable of great horror, even before he became the winter soldier - but with the serum, the torture && captivity - this capacity was exposed and steadily becoming the CRUX of his entire character. despite the size of his heart of the pureness of his intentions, there still exists a violence inside of him. ruthless and efficient, it has grown, survived, thrived and matured over the years, and still sits within his core today - its potential just as deadly and just as horrifying.
▘ DISSOCIATION / DETATCHMENT ➺ an extension of the adverse trait described above, james started to display this ability to separate himself from his more repugnant qualities early on. he was never known for being VIOLENT. that brutality was extracted and molded once hydra got their hands on him, it was assumed. the historians will tell you the winter soldier was a product of inhumane warfare, experimentation, abuse and indoctrination, but james knows the truth ... in the beginning, james did what he had to to protect the ones he loved. during his captivity, he did what he had to to survive. && now - he does what he needs to to live with himself. && what was necessary in all these occasions required the man to separate himself from his empathy - and later on, his HUMANITY. he relied so heavily on this mechanism during his time as the soldier that the disconnection became more common than not and breaking free from that impulse is something he continues to struggle with today - and something he is hesitant to even relinquish. dissociation makes it easier to exist ;; to move forward - as is expected of him. one day bleeds into another, into another, into another ... and he moves with it, no longer a phantom existing outside of time. instead, an active presence. — but his continued reliance on this crutch ? he exists. but is james barnes living ? IS HE REALLY ALIVE ?
▘ INDECISION ( current day ) ➺ a weakness that only manifested after his captivity, barnes deeply struggles with the burden of choice. freedom. autonomy. ambition. purpose. all the small ( yet crucial ) decisions and preferences that define a person’s character oftentimes feels absent from his makeup. james buchanan barnes used to have strong opinions, about anything and everything. his favorite flavor of pie, best subject in school, favored season, blondes - brunettes ? hell, he even had a favorite color. if someone were to ask this james barnes about those same sentiments, if they lasted and endured the years along with him or if they had changed with the time, james would falter and stare back with vacant eyes. individuality feels like a withered gravesite inside of him, a bottomless pit of nothing. every so often he may hear the flickering echoes of what once was, but the enthusiasm - the passion - feels distant, far - away. for decades, he had been deprived of free will. he was a WEAPON and weapons did not feel or think. weapons did not make noise unless fired by the hands authorized to use them. unbounded, given a NAME once again, a voice - and he knows he should feel grateful. && yet, the only thing he feels is overwhelmed. his mind does not hesitant when it comes to battle ;; TO KILLING. his hands know exactly which gun to reach for given a situation, how much pressure to apply to snap a bone. he no longer needs to run the numbers in his head to calculate a bullets’ trajectory given distance and wind speed. he fires without thought and never misses. he is an expert of wartime tactics. violence is second nature to him, right behind DEATH. now, alive - a free man ... they ask him what he wants and barnes ... does not know - and he inadvertently still finds himself looking to others to supply those answers ( that instruction. )
𝟑 𝐒𝐄𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐓𝐒
▘ SHAMEFUL INCLINATIONS ➺ to admit such whims out loud would flood him with repugnant shame. he knows it is wrong to reminisce and crave the inertia of subjection, but he cannot deny the nostalgic longing that twists inside of him on his darkest days. to think such things ;; to feel such things disgraces the efforts and sacrifices that were made in order to free him from those chains. — but james barnes has always been selfish like that. it is easy to brush off accountability and blame hydra for everything. 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝗁𝗂𝗆, 𝗍𝗈𝗇𝗒 ! 𝗁𝗒𝖽𝗋𝖺 𝗁𝖺𝖽 𝖼𝗈𝗇𝗍𝗋𝗈𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗁𝗂𝗌 𝗆𝗂𝗇𝖽. ▪ 𝚑𝚢𝚍𝚛𝚊 𝚍𝚒𝚍 𝚞𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐𝚜 𝚝𝚘 𝚢𝚘𝚞. ▪ 🇾🇴🇺 🇦🇷🇪 🇹🇭🇪 🇱🇴🇳🇬🇪🇸🇹 🇸🇪🇷🇻🇮🇳🇬 🇵🇴🇼. ▪ 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚜𝚞𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚒𝚗𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚊𝚗𝚎 𝚒𝚗𝚍𝚘𝚌𝚝𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚊𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗. ▪ 𝗐𝗁𝖺𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗂𝖽 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗍𝗁𝗈𝗌𝖾 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗌, 𝗂𝗍 𝗐𝖺𝗌𝗇'𝗍 𝗒𝗈𝗎. 𝗒𝗈𝗎 𝖽𝗂𝖽𝗇'𝗍 𝗁𝖺𝗏𝖾 𝖺 𝖼𝗁𝗈𝗂𝖼𝖾. NO CHOICE. they had absolute control over his body, his mind. (did they?) he could not refuse. (couldn’t he?) the grim reality is that, as years bled into decades, the leash hydra had chained around his neck started to loosen considerably, until the pull barely existed at all. rarely did his handlers need to rely on the early tactics to keep him in line. he COMPLIED without resistance. both masters and soldier fell into an agreeable rhythm, following a trusted routine. it made activation less agonizing, muffled the scratching of chaotic thoughts into soothing white noise. it made his orders simpler ;; made killing easier ;; made existing with himself ... easier. it was a gift ( they told him ) to be relieved of the burden of choice and there are times when he still ( shamefully ) agrees with this. to feel nothing at all, after having felt so much ... ? it is a very dangerous thing. the numbing high of indifference, apathy, inertia - can feel like FREEDOM.
▘ LIKELIHOOD OF RECOVERY ➺ the harrowing truth ... he has lived more of his life as a WEAPON than he has a person. after everything he has gone through, james feels more machine than he does human. he feels the corrosion of rust spreading through him. his body does not feel like flesh and bone, but more akin to gears and wires and metal. thoughts are mere embedded programming ... implanted, artificial. his heart feels like a gnarled knot inside his chest. his soul feels absent. morality is faint, compassion - oftentimes hard to find. to choose requires great effort ;; to think requires effort ;; to care requires effort - and james is exhausted. those on his side tell him he deserves a chance to recover, to heal - but he sometimes thinks that the best thing they could do given the situation is to take this body that feels more like a weapon, decommission it, place it in storage under lock and key and allow it to gather dust. can he heal ? can he recover ? can he exist as anything other than a weapon ? after all this time and after everything he has gone through ? he isn’t sure. optimism hasn’t been his forte since 1942. he considers himself a realist. && if his chances follow his rotten history of luck, the odds do not appear to be on his side.
▘ DRAFTED SOLDIER ➺ he will never admit it. ever. && how befitting - this dark secret. how it reveals the nature of his character ... all the blood on his hands, all the lives he has stolen, the atrocities he has committed - and this is the one thing he is most ashamed of. his head is filled with dark secrets - hydra’s, his own. all of them are shameful, ugly, brutal and yet this one secret stands out the most in his mind. this is the one that GUTS him the most, because it was before ... everything. before the war, before hydra, before the soldier. this reveals james barnes at his core. this is his blemish ;; his most reproachable trait. this destroys his character more than hydra or the soldier ever did. it is a truth he will never admit to, to anyone. he will even go as far as denying it, lying to his dying breath. — but how could he admit such a thing ? after witnessing the bravery and determination he saw in others, in his best friend - to serve, to protect - without the slightest pause or hesitation. all the while he tried to hide from the call of duty, hoping. praying. james barnes never signed up to serve the second world war. it is a secret he has never admitted to anyone. not to his friends, his father or sisters. not to the other commandoes. not even ( especially not ) steve. && it is a secret he will take to the grave.
𝟑 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒
▘ LOSING AUTONOMY ➺ while freedom has proven tumultuous, he still prefers the struggle when compared to the alternative. while under hydra’s control, james barely surfaced, but the rare times he did he saw the world though a murky sheet of ice, drifting in the inertia of the soldier’s compliance. existence felt more like an out of body experience - a resultant of trauma, he was later told. he witnessed his torture, his brutal crimes, the creeping advancement of hydra’s power, more as an onlooker than an active participant. it made certain things ... easier to stomach. the torture, the experiments ;; stasis, the chair. it made following orders ... simpler. he hardly blinked when exposed to his own potential for DEVASTATION. the violence. the breaking, rebuilding and training of more soldiers, the little spiders. torture. murder. during his less lucid states, he ( selfishly ) welcomed the disconnect, but every so often - his old sense of morality would give a kick and he would stare, wide - eyed and horrified. he would honestly try with every bit of strength he had left inside of him to stop himself, to control himself, but even his hardest endeavors failed miserably against the soldier’s rigid conditioning. nothing more than the occasional hiccup in his code, a sudden half - second hesitation - quickly roped back into submission by screaming static. to exist in such a way - condemned to watch as your shadow destroys every bit of light within, fated to feel the rot putrefy your soul, slowly - slowly ... it is a terrible thing. && it will continue to haunt james for the rest of his life. he may struggle to find purpose after his liberation, the motivation and energy to pursue a meaningful life, but the last thing he ever wants ( what he fears ) is to be used as a PUPPET again.
▘ LIVING ➺ he existed in a definite state for a very long time, long enough for him to find comfort in routine, monotony - THE EXPECTED. there was an equation to surviving hydra ( surviving himself ) - and hydra proved they would be true to their word if only he obeyed. COMPLIANCE WILL BE REWARDED. orders were clear and exact and non - negotiable. missions were organized and coordinated, objectives defined well before he was even pulled from stasis. he knew what to expect - how much pain he would need to endure, what followed activation, what proceeded mission completion - and he knew what he needed to do in order to make the process bearable. ( ready to comply ) the soldier did not like it when things did not go according to plan. like hydra, he did not like surprises. lose ends. it required him to make decisions, to think ... orders were simple. all he needed to do was complete them as quickly, as cleanly and as efficiently as possible, AS INSTRUCTED. any deviation from the expected leads quickly into CHAOS and chaos can be as dangerous and as deadly as an explosion. after the failure of project insight, the soldier was forced to adapt to his situation in order to survive. the upheaval of sudden liberation almost destroyed him. he spent those first few months in a mad attempt to regain some semblance of order. he hid out of sight, living as a ghost while struggling with whiplashing whims: the rigid impulse to return to his surviving handlers ( for orders ) or the luring urge to continue to run and observe this new form of reality he had abruptly been exposed to. it was a constant strife between soldier and man ;; compliance and curiosity. the longer he was exposed to clean air though, the more james barnes settled to the surface, the stronger his voice became. the soldier slowly started to come to terms with some truths. he did not miss the chair - or hydra’s drugs. he did not miss the violence. it was enough to justify his decision to run - and slowly, the man started to live. to be alive ( human ) opened the door to many things he did not mind. music, knowledge, the warmth of a blanket, pizza ... but there was a price. james learned in bucharest that he could not continue to live as a ghost. he could not continue to reap the benefits of living without also bearing its obligations. the more he is dragged back into the land of the living, the more responsibility is placed on his shoulders. he is forced now to make decisions that not only impact his life but others as well. it also brings into focus his past, forcing him to start coming to terms with his crimes - and his guilt. to live a life involves many things james is not yet comfortable with. he is forced to move forward, to make choices, to collaborate and trust others, to heal ... all new waters the man is deathly afraid to wade into, because it leads to uncertainty, leads to the unexpected. cause and effect. there is no equation to guarantee success ;; no trusted, proven procedure to follow. to live a full life means making decisions and then being brave enough to live with those decisions. barnes still deeply struggles with the fear of the UNKNOWN, and when overwhelmed by crippling indecision, finds himself clinging to old comforts. that same sickening desire to exist once more beyond the bounds of time, a chimera relieved of the burden of choice all together.
▘ HIMSELF ➺ his potential. his mind, body - everything contained within this cage of blood and bone terrifies him. for him ( && those made like him ) freedom is nothing more than a far - fetched pipedream. zemo shattered all illusions of freedom, and all it took was the whisper of ten choice words. regardless of the small progress he made in the years following his defection, all of it was reduced to rubble the moment he was dragged back into the plane of the living. he was careless, ignorant, sloppy - allowing himself to be curious, hopeful - and six agents paid the price for it in germany when the soldier was reactivated. the great fist of hydra is indeed a terrifying sight to behold, but james understands the soldier is simply a byproduct of himself - and that is what truly horrifies him. even before the serum was introduced into his body, his potential was ... concerning. the things he was willing to do back home ;; the things he was willing to do during the war ... the disconcerting ways he was able to manipulate his own morality. his malleable ethical code. the serum only heightened that which already existed inside of him, but it did pave a space for corruption to thrive. it made him even more dangerous, even more LETHAL. his potential for destruction was exemplified. his ability to survive, his tolerance for pain - expanded. the serum allowed hydra the opportunity to find that seed of ugliness which existed inside of him and feed it, cultivate it. they helped it grow and thrive, and then sowed the deadly fruits. the things he found himself capable of - the violence, the brutality. the things he learned to stomach ;; the horrors he found himself able to commit ... revolutionists. bright minds. visionaries. humanitarians. entire families. innocent bystanders. good people. children. he killed without blinking ;; without flinching - and then returned to the people who issued those orders and waited for more. there were a handful of times when he hesitated, questioned - but for the most part, he completed his orders without question and did so without feeling a flutter of disturbance. i had no choice. hydra had control of his mind. you couldn’t refuse them. it wasn’t your fault. he can hide behind those excuses all he wants, but barnes knows what lives inside of him. he knows what hydra put inside him and what was already there. the winter soldier might be an exaggeration of the worst parts of a person - as captain america exemplified the best - but the soldier is only a reflection of the darkness that already lived within him. && THAT IS TERRIFYING.
𝟑 𝐆𝐎𝐀𝐋𝐒
▘ PURPOSE ➺ ever since his reemergence back into the land of the living, james has struggled to understanding what to do with newfound existence. a name, a face, a place in this world, an identity and yet - on most days he still feels like a weapon. recovery feels similar to deactivation, and the soldier finds himself waiting, constantly preparing for the day when they will take him out of storage, brush off the rust and use him once more. the expectation looms over him like a dark cloud and hinders his progress. — but what else does he have to offer ? what else can he do ? if not for some useful purpose, why does he exist ? if the only thing he knows how to do is fight, kill, DESTROY - what other direction is there ? he is good at what he does. he is good at what hydra bred him to be ... but he does not want to exist for that purpose. he is tired of war, of violence - but without the constant stimulation of battle, time is a slow and dragging endeavor. he does want to prove ( to the world, hydra, steve, to himself ) that he is more than just a weapon made for war, but he finds himself more often than not questioning the validity to that statement, especially when it is the only thing that feels natural to him. the serum defines him. his skillset defines him. his past defines him - and if he has proven one thing, it is that he is a good fighter. A GOOD KILLER. he excels when it comes to battle. he is hard to stop ;; hard to kill - and these types of strengths point to one obvious path. one does not use a blade to paint a magnificent masterpiece. he was weaponized long ago and to try to be anything but what he has been for so long seems ... counterproductive. still, he does not want to keep fighting - and his doctors tell him that is important ( essential ). if he isn’t serving though, what should he do ? time is so painstakingly slow and without stasis, he does not know how to fill in the stagnant space in between. he might lose whatever shreds of sanity he has left - and there isn’t much left to spare. he needs guidance, instruction. he needs someone to tell him what to do ... they tell him it is up to him to decide, but he doesn’t know. he does not want to go back to hydra ;; he does not want to be controlled or manipulated. — but when time starts to pull and drag and his mind is left free to wander ... there are times when he feels desperate enough to long for orders. he hopes to find some kind of meaning once again to his existence and hopes this time around, it is fashioned for something good.
▘ A SENSE OF IDENTITY ➺ he is not sure he will ever truly feel natural within his own skin or inside his own mind. the face he wears now feels more like a mask, stretched to the seams to hide the husk beneath. for so long he existed as a puppet, body moving on command. his actions never felt like his own and neither did his thoughts. for far too long, he was a stranger inside his own mind and body. the strings have been cut, a name placed back on his tongue - but he still feels ... empty. who is he ? what does he like to do ? what are his hobbies ? his interests ? what does he dislike ? what makes him happy ? what makes him sad ? they ask him these questions and all he can hear are the voices of old hydra handlers inside his head. A WEAPON NEED NOT BOTHER ITSELF WITH SUCH MEANINGLESS FRIVOLITIES. — it is not a part of your code. he often needs to be reminded ( reassured ) - he is not a weapon. he is not a machine. beneath skin and bone, he has a heart. he has a mind and both these things belong to him. he is allowed to want, to feel, to explore, to refuse, to challenge ... freely. it is a hard concept for him to remember and to accept, but he has made some strides. he has discovered ( rediscovered ? ) some things he likes: the feel of sunlight against his face, the smell of coffee, the soft scratch of a record player and the fuzzy music which follows, a trusted knife, pizza, warm blankets ... he has also recognized some things he does not like. the building crackle of electricity, paralysis, the stench of death, silence so loud it hurts, eyes watching him, the sudden, sharp hiss of ice melting, prolonged pain ... meager progress maybe, but it is a start - and james hopes to some day feel the same comfort within his own body and mind that his past - self seemed to epitomize so effortlessly. TO BE HIS OWN PERSON - defined by passions, opinions ;; propelled by confident choices made with conviction ... the idea seems so unattainable given how DAMAGED he is, but it is still something he would like to attain. if only to prove to hydra ( && to himself ) that he is in fact his own person and that he does not belong to anyone - but himself.
▘ TO PROMOTE POSITIVE CHANGE ➺ after all the destruction he has blasted into the course of history, the idea seems almost ... laughable. dismissible certainly, for what other purpose could hands sharpened into blades be used for ? && perhaps even insulting, to those whose lives he ruined. like his other emotions, after his desertion his guilt was initially muted, but the longer he remains in this plane of existence - the more time allowed to heal - the more james comes face to face with those directly impacted by his crimes, and each time the discomfort inside him grows stronger. the memories are returning and most of them are HORRIFIC. the lives he cut short, the families he ripped apart. the orphans he abandoned, the parents he made bury their children ... the peace he broke in order to secure continued chaos. hydra was a parasite, feasting on the corpses of war and conflict - gorging and growing - and he was one of the reasons how they survived and thrived throughout history. the fist of hydra, zimniy soldat, the soldier, hydra’s bloodhound. he was unseen from the eyes of the world, faceless - but his actions resonated ;; his reputation notorious, even if only as a ghost story. many of his crimes have been made public thanks to the widow’s data dump, but there are many ( too many ) that are still undisclosed - known only to him, his victims and the hydra higher - ups who issued the orders. he knows it sounds silly, far - fetched, childish - but it would be nice to have some kind of impact on this world that isn’t so violent or destructive. he knows he cannot make amends for all the bad he has done. there is too much blood ( far too much blood ) but if he could do something ... to prove he can be something more than that which hydra made of him, he would like to try. there is no fixing the damage the winter soldier has caused. there is no way to restore james barnes’ promising reputation, but to leave this world knowing he could do something good - after doing so much bad - would feel ... freeing.
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The timeline gets switched around and "The Three" from Misty au (Moth/Hawk/Frog) are the prophesied Three. What would their powers be and how would they / their family react?
ksh to be clear the three in the misty au are not the three from po3. i'm still deciding if hjl are mothpool's, or if they're part of the five f family panclan polycule (altho technically at the time it's the four f family panclan polycule), but.
hawk would have lion's power straight up. he's terrified of being like his father/scaring feathertail, so being unbeatable in a fight would terrify him. at the same time, one of his major flaws being arrogant, so it's character fitting.
frog...i'm not sure. hm. you may know that i like giving cats powers that don't have to be magical, like, that cats could think were just being really good at things. anyway, frog's deeply empathetic, and also very volatile. so i think enhanced empathy for him, similar to jaystorm in ashes.
moth's power should be the most subtle, because of her atheism. (i haven't decided how it works in the misty au, but moth's atheism Always informs my decisions about her, even if she's not an atheist.) i think...i want her to be unnaturally good at finding things. like, she finds the moonpool, she finds (magic plot device herb), etc.
tigerstar would 100% try to convince them that these powers are because of him/connected to him. because of the nature of moth's power, he wouldn't be able to hook into her as well, and frog would pick up on tigerstar's motives fairly early on, but hawk would kind of be seduced by this idea of being able to control his strength, sort of like using tigerstar against tigerstar.
yes, it's terrible logic, teens aren't very logical.
moth and frog do eventually get hawk out, but they have to work for it.
if the reveal is before the events of tnp...
feathertail is proud of them. that's p much it. same for stormheart and stonefur. mistyfoot's even more detatched, because it's like, great! the kits i didn't want to have are blessed by starclan. how fantastic. i'm sure the cats who are probably already judging me for giving up my kits are judging me even more.
(they aren't. judging her, that is. it's just that tiger spent a Lot of time mocking her abilities as a mother.)
they probably wouldn't tell leopardstar. maybe mudfur. he'd probably find out anyway. so uhh...there's no po3 drama to be had, so ig that's it for this.
if it's after the events of tnp...
feathertail gets very fuck you, starclan, because of the quest. so now she's kind of like. cool. cool cool cool. you couldn't save me as a kit, you sent me on a quest that should have killed me, and now you force this onto my kits.
by the end of tnp, mistyfoot has been able to somewhat connect to the three, so she doesn't really take it negatively.
stormheart and stonefur are still supportive and still have no idea what they should do.
uh, yeah! that's basically it.
here's some more tiger and the three dialogue.
They find Tigerstar before they find Feathertail.
"Where is she?" Frogpaw asks.
"Is it so impossible I want to talk to my children alone?"
Hawkfrost sits. "Why do you even want to talk to us?"
Tigerstar sighs, his eyes half-closed. "I died before you were born," he says. "I never got to know you."
"Why now?" Frogpaw asks, half-hissing.
"I thought...I thought RiverClan would tell you stories about me. And I guess I wanted to give you a chance to come to your own conclusions. But you can't do that unless you hear my side of the story."
"Feathertail is scared of you," Mothwing says. Her shoulder still aches.
"I suspect Feathertail is afraid of a lot of things," he says.
She hates that it's true.
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