#delayed grief

[lunarproject]

i've been thinking about my grandfather a lot as i have gotten older; this piece explores a bit of the delayed grief i've been experiencing. it's currently up on my ko-fi for moon tier members. it'll be up for everyone on new years day!

#writblr #writing #poetry #writers of tumblr #grief #delayed grief #inspired in part by taylor swift's marjorie #my writing #inspired by taylor swift

[rosesraeken]

you know the real fun part about having a dead sibling? realizing they were the better child who had their life somewhat together but you, the one who is alive for some fucking reason, are the one who is basically useless and the family disappointment 👍😅

#also realizing they probably could’ve helped you with the shit you’re struggling with #i hate it here #sibling grief #delayed grief #autistic #actually autistic #autism #vent

[dialectical-material-gworl]

Why is it that I don't cry at a funeral? Why don't I breakdown when she told me she doesn't want us anymore? Why is it that every grief hits me on a random Tuesday after five months? Why am I crying about my ex from 2020? Why am I still grieving a friendship breakup from when I was 18? How do I justify all this sadness after all this time?

#i walk past the place i and my childhood bestfriend hang out at and i suddenly can't breathe #delayed grief

[byierficrecs]

❝ beneath these boughs, my devotion blooms ❞ author: @perexcri

link: archiveofourown.org/works/46500775

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#note: this was submitted in may. apologies for the delay #📚 #byler #byler fanfiction #byler fic rec #will byers #mike wheeler #stranger things #r // teen #r // one-shot #r // finished #r // 10-15k #t // fantasy #t // gods and goddesses #t // dnd #t // grief/mourning #t // fluff #t // angst #t // happy ending #w // blood #w // non permanent mcd

[topnotchquark]

No way your thesis is not now kitten daddy is a shell of his former self

Except it literally is lol.

I've expounded on it a bit earlier too. But life was. Not. Kind. To Vale post his final title.

See the nature of power is that it is a potent drug and even the ones most deft at handling it definitely take psychic damage. When you're someone like Vale who was given a free reign since young adulthood to do whatever you want, you get used to it. He basically got Jeremy Burgess as his mechanic on a whim, and even though Yamaha had their strict Japanese ethos he was able to drive design decisions (colors, gimmicks, cartoons, the works) as he wanted. He was allowed these things because he won.

When he came to Yamaha from Honda, he managed to turn a midfield team around to deliver instant wins. He was able to shut everyone up who thought his wins with Honda were due to the bike.

I guess that's what he wanted when he made the switch to Ducati. A continuation of the magic. Flip a backmarker around, deliver even more on top of the existing 9 championships. Solidify in the minds of the people that Valentino Rossi is the sport and he will win irrespective of circumstances and competition.

Anyway none of that happened. And listen, there are healthy ways to process something like this but whatever that healthy thing is, is not embedded in the mind of a man doing 300kmph on a death machine while also entertaining crowds. (Btw if we compare to similar motorsports champions, Schumi quit after losing in 2005 and 2006 because who wants to have that after basically conquering the world. Lewis' 2021 loss was something that clearly affected him and he's doing what he can to reclaim some of that lost pride and power)

So eventually what we're left with is a man who after 9 championships has to contend with the fact that new and aggressive opponents exist that he can't win out against as easily. And that he's older, and that the world's eyes are on him as usual and now he doesn't have the form and power to dictate how people see him.

Now imagine amidst all this shit show, comes the most gifted rider of generations. Who makes heart eyes at you while you have to contemplate your own mortality. I'd chew at the bars of my own enclosure too.

#what even is this #anyway enjoy #brevity is not my strong suit #I didn't mention Sic even though I cannot overlook his importance on Vale's life #because it feels immoral to speak of him and his death in relation to Vale #I do constantly think about it however #the machinations of grief #but there is a way to talk about it and I wouldn't ever want to he cavalier about that #anyway! #daddy is a shell of his former self! #I love any and all Vale anons! #thank you for sending this sorry for the delayed reply I was fighting demons this entire weekend #valentino rossi #vale #motogp

[void-tiger]

Shiro and Allura should’ve been 27-32. No I won’t be taking criticism on this.

#chronic pain bad because PT make clunk get worse before hopefully better #guess who allegedly had a chronic illness? shiro #guess who definitely had chronic pain? shiro #guess who had intense grief that had to be struggled through anyway? allura and shiro #and well. as someone who couldn’t Begin to think enough to tackle this until my late 20s and blundering through as a 30 #I just think these two should be my comfort blorbos #nevermind Shiro is Insanely Young for an Insanely Young pilot #as someone who knows pilots. they BARELY got to be commercial airline junior pilots at 25 26. with like. no gaps #there is No WAY shiro’s chronic illness didn’t cause SOME ‘delays’ istg

[elitadream]

I can't rememeber if you have been asked this before, but what kind of story would you want a Mario Movie sequel to have? Or what kind of themes or message would you want the film to convey?

First of all, it would depend whether the first film would have to be taken into full consideration for that or not; because if so, that would admittedly limit my ideas quite a bit. I have my own interpretation and imaginings regarding how I would have pictured the main story to go, you see! 🤓📝

But either way, if I had to start at a point that would initiate its own new adventure as a follow-up to the first one (regardless of what it was), I would make it so that the story revolves once again around something that we are closely accustomed to as gamers, and transpose it in a way that would give this universe a new sense of emotional depth and complexity.

The exact theme? Life. Or should I say: "additional" lives. 🎇

Their sheer significance and all-changing capacity. How we often take those for granted as gamers, until we can no longer afford to. What we would do if we had just one more. How we would have played the level differently if we had known. How it impacts our gaming experience as a whole and what it means if we stop to look at it from the hero's point of view. What would happen if they were given a choice. Etc. I've always felt drawn to the idea that these characters could actually die, and have thus made the 1-Up mushroom a massively important element of the lore that I have compiled for my version. Its origin and very existence completely shrouded in mystery. Endlessly sought-after by all. A power-up largely rumored to be real, although nobody can be sure of it nor even claim to have ever seen one.

My aim would be for this story to take a more somber and more mature route while retaining some of the levity that makes this franchise so charming and appealing. Have its narrative acknowlege the seriousness of the addressed theme and embrace its solemn tone. For it to be handled with care and respect; to allow for the characters to express a level of humanity never seen before, and its message to strike a chord with everyone. 💙

#apologies for the delayed response!^^; #I had to think about this one for a bit #and even now I'm not entirely sure how to formulate my thoughts properly - as you can see! xD #I hope this answer suffices! :3 #also I have indeed talked about this in an earlier response! #though tbh it was a while ago 💁‍♀️ #asks #mario #story #concept #headcanons #1-up mushroom #life and death #second chances #drama and angst #family #friendship #romance #grief #inner growth #thoughts and ramblings

[spamgyu]

Bestie. You are very close to committing war crimes. (Regarding Jihoon one shot) Also what the fuck was that?😭😭😭😭😭😭 Where do you get these ideas from? 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 You got me ugly crying on a Sunday afternoon when I'm not PMSing. And the ending? The delayed onset of angst? And the weight of it? You took me back to places I never wanted to go!!!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

I'm would have certified you as a sadist if I had the authority 😔

-🐭

I would like you to take this moment to thank all the men who have hurt me in the past. Without them I wouldn't have this wonderful opportunity to hurt my friends through my work.

I will continue to be the best spamgyu for you all to cheer on this year.

Thank you so much.

Say the name—(gunshot)

#KFNWNFNNT im guessing this was sent in before the other two (vernon and cheols) #most guys have delayed relationship grief so.... deserved LMFAO #spamasks

[batwynn]

I’m re-reading my own 87k word fanfic so I can write a summery/ending for it because it hasn’t been updated in like 10 years, and trying to stop myself from completely editing some truly shitty parts because that’s not what I’m doing—that’s not what I’m doing.

#fml #I hate editing #and yet the brain wants to rewrite huge chunks #I’m just adding an ending for people #that’s it #you can do it #anyway I have an appointment today and I’ll get back to people who emailed and such #sorry for delays I keep getting hit over the head with grief #and I lock up and do nothing for hours #I’m genuinely trying my best right now #it will probably be better after the end of April

[gontagokuhara]

me just trying to get through this week while the universe keeps launching airstrikes directly into my crumbling mental health causing critical infrastructure damage

#one job edging me on an offer letter. another harassing me 1) as im en route to put my dog down and 2) this morning to tell me i have to #respond to his offer by friday morning after apparently not getting thrown out after that abysmal interview #havent heard back from either promising prospect from the library jobs which is what i Am desperate to hear back from #my house is empty and i miss my dog so fucking bad and im sick and im on my period and my tax return is being delayed and im fucking broke #and on a new medication and dealing with my whole familys grief not just my own and and and [hyperventilates until i die] #i need to be sedated

[lunarproject]

grandfather clock

my grandfather passed away when i was 11, and i never said goodbye. this poem is that goodbye; it took me over a decade to figure out what to say. support me on ko-fi!

you built a home and a life from an empty shell decades before i was born. 

your laughter seeps into the furniture of that room, and i am pulled towards it.

but the house is silent. and this room has been empty for a lifetime.

my makeshift nightstand, a stool you bought me. i will pass it on to my first born.

a coat of yours hanging in my closet, given to me by your son. it will never fit.

a small taxi sits on a bookshelf. i know you are in the driver's seat.

#writblr #writers of tumblr #poetry #my writing #delayed grief #inspired by taylor swift's marjorie #inspired by taylor swift

[rosesraeken]

well this one hurt👍 another drawing of me and my brother. i guess this is my way of dealing with grief since my grief was fully delayed by almost ✨6 fucking years✨until this year

#name on it is my art insta #gogywhy #digital art #digital drawing #my art #personal post #personal art #digital illustration #procreate art #sketch #doodle #sketches #doodles #siblings #grief #delayed grief

[remembertheplunge]

self employed, self unemployed. it's all play

“Western morality tends to put all better things up high and worse things down low.”  From the book "The Soul’s Code”

Monday 2/4/2008 1:15pm

Arturo died 14 years ago today. I’m alone with it. So.sigh.ety won’t hear. Tough cold. A good thing— It’s mine to cherish!

6:30pm

Well, interesting day. Kinda slow, lazy. Arturo’s day Just couldn’t “motion”. (Motion to with draw a plea for a client) Just didn’t feel like it. Oh well! Self Employed. Self Un-employed. It’s all play! I think for Arturo day that I did enough.

“And, when Is there time to remember, to sift, to weigh, to estimate, to total?”

Tillie Olsen:  quoted in the book “Women Who Do Too Much” on the February 3 page

End of entry

Notes. 4/19/2024

Arturo was my Stanislaus County Aids Project (SCAP) match who died February 4, 1994 from Aids. As a SCAP volunteer, I helped Arturo through his illness and was with him at his death. 

I was a deputy public defender for Stanislaus county in 1994 and was preparing to write2 a motion to withdraw a plea for a client in the above entry.  

#Aids #Volunteering support through illness and death with person with Aids #delaying work to remember the loss of a friend #Women Who Do Too Much #Tillie Olsen #The Soul's Code #Alone with the grief post death of a friend #2/4/2008

[pixelatedquarter]

no way. the worst tragedy in the history of aviation. the homophobia of it all. they said "no snakes on THIS plane puto"

hey fob has powerful contacts in the music industry surely we can get one of them to use their private jet for good and fly gabe to the boys?

#going through the 5 stages of grief at gabe's flight being delayed to the point where he's saying it wasnt meant to be :(

[outstanding-quotes]

My kitten baby a few summer ago, chillin on a copy of Mary Oliver’s Devotions

You and I will always be back then 💖

#okay just a warning im going to talk about sad stuff now #cw pet loss #so he passed away unexpectedly on tuesday #:( #i was crying so hard that I had to skip one of my classes #i emailed the professor for my next class basically like ‘uh hey im coming to class but i might cry’ #he never responded to it which is awkward but the least of my worries #anyway I definitely saw this cat being part of my future for the next ten years of my life at least #he was the sweetest cat ive ever met #my bf and i found him one day in 2019 roaming the neighborhood. he was really skinny so we fed him. #we realized he was really friendly and affectionate so we just had to take him in #this cat helped me through the deaths of family members covid and just everything I’ve struggled with in the past 5 years #and whenever we had friends over he liked to sit in the middle of all of us. he just loved hanging out with us #also my nephew is almost 4 now and has a speech delay. he cant say many words #but he can say ‘kitty’ because of how much he loves this cat #he was my best friend and there’s never going to be another cat like him #anyway sorry my blog is slowly morphing into something much more personal than just a literature blog #but idk i think it’s important to express grief and grapple with the realities of death #and i just wanted to memorialize my little buddy

[inamindfarfaraway]

TGWDLM AU where on the way to Professor Hidgens’s house, the group see Infected Pete and Ted has a complete breakdown. These monsters got his little brother and he wasn’t even there, he didn’t protect him, didn’t look for him, didn’t even think about him - he was too busy thinking of himself, like always. Now Pete’s gone forever, because clearly whatever happened to Sam isn’t something you can come back from. He swore, he swore after Jenny that he would never feel that bad again. But this is worse. At least she didn’t die! *Audience members cringe* His brother, though, is dead. At sixteen years old. It couldn’t be Ted, the useless bastard with nothing good ahead of him. No, Ted wanted to survive. And Pete - earnest, brilliant, loving Pete, perhaps the last person on the planet to give a damn about him - paid the price for it.

This forces Emma, who has been spending the whole last year dealing with the pain of losing her sibling and not getting to say goodbye because she was off being selfish and neglecting her relationships, to realize: ‘Oh. Fuck. The sleazy asshole has feelings… that I can empathize with. Ew.’ So she tells him about Jane. Although she still hates everything else about him, a) nobody deserves to suffer through that alone, which she knows from doing it alone, and b) maybe if he starts to see her as a person with feelings too, he’ll be slightly less insufferable. And it works. The solidarity lays the foundation for a slow-burn friendship. Will they always annoy each other? Oh yes. But it’s hard to understand someone on such a raw, fundamental level and not reach out to them when you yourself also need support.

Due to his external and internal walls being shattered, Ted has to become more comfortable with vulnerability; he has to be more appreciative of and sensitive to other people. He really, really values the few relationships he has left. He and Charlotte connect more deeply while she’s concurrently processing her complex feelings about Sam and his death, and he might not leave her alone with Sam, imagining how he’d feel to be alone with Pete’s body and the alien inside it. He grows to be an actual friend to Paul and… well, Bill might not have enough time for that, but nevertheless. Maybe in this timeline, a handful of Hatchetfielders get to the PEIP helicopter together. Maybe the Hive doesn’t escape the island. Maybe PEIP figures out how destroy it.

Pete was the good one. Pete was the one with hope. But if Ted’s the one who survives, then he’ll just have to live for both of them.

Or he could let the Infected get him right away and the brothers could sing an epic duet.

@dontsteponthatfish @awigglycultist @blueskiesandstarrynights

#i think they could have reached the helicopter before the hive #if not for the delay of ted’s betrayal and paul and emma then having to escape the infected including the army #also i don’t believe that he knew pete died in canon #or we would have known about it #you think this egotistical mess of self-pity and dysfunction wouldn’t have made it very clear that he was suffering intensely? #yes he recoils from emotional honesty but he can do it when really hurting as seen in ‘time bastard’ when he talks about jenny unprompted #and when he does he Wallows #his drunken breakdown was just about charlotte #losing her hit him Hard #but if he knew that he lost pete and then lost her? #he would have been on a whole other level of grief and despair #pete is about a year younger than alice #i bet ted would have brought him up when arguing that trying to rescue alice was pointless #because of the parallel and to make the situation about him #i love him but i do think he would do that #bastard man. stinky bastard man #not a healthy coping mechanism in SIGHT #but this au idea revolves around my hope that if he knew that he’d lost pete he would be much more invested in his other relationships #and his only remaining significant relationship at that point is charlotte #so he wouldn’t leave her in danger and she wouldn’t die #therefore changing his trajectory from ‘PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN’ to ‘awkward begrudging healing’ #ted spankoffski #pete spankoffski #spankoffski brothers #spankoffski bros #emma perkins #jane perkins #the guy who didn't like musicals #tgwdlm #time bastard spoilers