#coz I cant leave him out LOL

[maplesyrupsainz]

˖⁺｡˚⋆˙ur my northern star | CL16˖⁺｡˚⋆˙

pairing: charles leclerc x singer y/n reader (she/her)

genre: social media au, established relationship, relationship on the rocks

warnings: fluff!! mention of violence aka punching 👊 thts all. this is part 2 of coz i cant sleep in hotel rooms <3

summary: in which they do all they can to try to mend the broken parts in their relationship

a/n: did anyone even ask for a part 2 be real but i couldn't leave it like i did so i hope u like it regardless 😭 sorry to lando norris for making him my enemy but also am i sorry

song

my masterlist

part 1!!!

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f1updates charles leclerc spotted out recently with friends following crash in the monaco grand prix and his alleged breakup with y/n y/l/n.

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user1 i miss y/n

user2 why are we in charlesy/n limbo rn

user3 fr i jus need to know what's going on

user4 he's better without her imo

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lilymhe sending u all my love

charles_leclerc thank you lily

lilymhe have you spoken to y/n?

charles_leclerc i will see her when im back in monaco, i believe she is waiting for me before returning to the uk

lilymhe ❤️❤️

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yourusername so dont drive away .. u dont know how much i need u

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landonorris meow

yourusername strange boy

landonorris :)

user5 he is never beating the norizz accusations

user6 i miss u y/n

yourusername miss you all, working on some stuff :)

user7 😭 i jus know that any new y/n music is going to break my heart

arthur_leclerc maman asked are you coming to dinner tonight

yourusername well of course

user8 OH???

user9 charles probably isnt there isnt he in paris this weekend with pierre??

user10 THE CAPTION??!

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charles_leclerc 🇫🇷🥖🥐☕️❤️

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user11 so nice to see charles doing well 🥹

pierregasly eiffel for u

charles_leclerc nice one

user12 we miss you charles ❤️

user13 i need him & y/n back together 😭

user14 leave him alone on his own post fr

user13 doubt he's reading all the comments 👍

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f1wagupdates lando norris and y/n y/l/n seen out together in monaco today following y/n's breakup rumours from charles leclerc.

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user14 grid bunnyy

user15 can a girl not have friends now

user16 scummy after leaving the paddock after charles' crash

pierregasly no way lol

user17 pierre??

user18 pierre's comment lolll everyone knows lando has been thirsting for y/n since before her & charles got together

user19 embarrassing like she does not want you bro

landonorris

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landonorris celebrating for celebrating's sake

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user18 urmm?

yourusername such a fun night out i rly needed some fun with friends <3!!

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pierregasly hahah delete this.

arthur_leclerc for real

landonorris ?

yourusername private texts exist

pierregasly sorry y/n/n

user19 omg

user20 are they all arguing or is it a joke hahah

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f1wagupdates charles leclerc and y/n y/l/n seen tonight in monaco sharing a tender embrace outside a restaurant following a meal together. sources say it seemed like an emotional conversation and are not sure of the outcome. we are sending all of our love to charles and y/n at this time!

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user28 OH MY GOD MY PARENTS

user29 omg i feel so awful for them going thru whatever this is in the public eye😭

user30 my poor y/n/n

user31 she's been fine frolicking with lando lol

user32 i think if charles is ok with her then nothing happened lol.

user33 my favourite f1 couple of all time

user34 she's the best wag fr

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f1wagupdates sources claim they caught charles leclerc and y/n y/l/n out in monaco tonight kissing! alleged rumours due to images not being clear enough to prove identities but we have our fingers crossed for the couple

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user42 omg i hope this is real

user43 my babies🥹🥹🥹

user44 my parents🥹🥹🥹

user45 hope this is fake lol im tired of her

user46 lol why?? she hasnt even done anything

user47 she cheated on charles

user48 SINCE WHEN???

user49 some of u need to keep y/n's name out ur mouth

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yourusername my lifelines .. london is lonely so lonely without uuu

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user50 i thought she was in monaco

user51 i think she is it's jus a reference to one of her songs

yourbff i love you & i am so proud of u

yourusername thank u my sweet girl!

lilymhe u own my heart

yourusername and im never giving it back

user52 i love y/n & lily's friendship ❤️

user53 the best f1 wags of all time

user54 omg she's just a girl like us guys

user55 no fr she is so cottagecore cosy girl

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yourbff i love you

yourusername i love you more

lilymhe I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU GUYS

yourusername me too come over ASAP

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yourusername ❤️

landonorris can we talk soon?

charles_leclerc fuck off lando you've done enough

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lilymhe beautiful night for a beautiful girl

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user59 WTF CHARLES AND Y/N KISSING

charles_leclerc thanks lily

yourusername i giggled

lilymhe (re-)hard launching you guys cause u wont do it urselves

user60 omg my parents made it

user61 the way i love these ppl LOL

user62 my parasocial relationship with someone else's relationship is insane

alex_albon beautiful is one word for it

yourbff for the record i do not feel beautiful today

alex_albon you dont look it either

lilymhe take that back you evil boy

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yourusername my new song "into your room" is out now & available on all streaming platforms! this is the second single from my upcoming debut album thank u so much for all of the support i couldn't do any of this without u all ! live show announcements next i think?;)

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user67 OMG AN ALBUM

lilymhe SO proud of u cant wait till i can watch u live on ur own tour🥹

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user68 so glad i discovered u y/n ur so talented

user69 LIVE SHOWS PLZ PLZ❤️

user70 i will follow u ur my northern star😭

user71 throwing stones at ur window to get u to notice me😭

charles_leclerc ❤️

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user72 without u my soul is eternally doomed ur the centre of this universe my sorry ass revolves around you😭

user73 the way charlesy/n gave us the best songs

charles_leclerc

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charles_leclerc the rumours are not true

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yourusername i love you

charles_leclerc i love you and that's the only rumour that will ever be true

user74 MY PARENTS ARE BACK FOR GOOD

user75 never been so happy in my life

pierregasly thank god

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lilymhe i knew u guys would make it <3

landonorris happy for u both

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THE END ❤️

#f1 #f1 fanfic #f1 fic #f1 imagine #f1 smau #f1 x reader #smau #alex albon #lando norris #daniel ricciardo #charles lecrelc #charles leclerc #cl16 one shot #cl16 #cl16 smau #cl16 x y/n #cl16 fluff #cl16 x you #cl16 x reader #cl16 imagine #cl16 edit #cl16 smut #f1edit #ln4 #ln4 x reader #pierre gasly #maddie's smau

[craniumflight]

old knife

they are unhinged your honor, chapter 218

xie wei: am i that much of a villain to you?

jiang xuening: you are peak villain

xie wei: (quiet ouch)

jiang xuening: if i sleep with you for 2 years, will you get me out of your system, then i can leave?

xie wei: you just want to escape, you coward. Yeah just deserting like what you did with zhang zhe.

jiang xuening: stfu. i dont want to be involved with you. being with you put me in unknown danger.

xie wei: what if you just try?

jiang xuening: only fools run into danger

xie wei: (drags her to an iron forge)

xie wei: look you are not a broken unfixable porcelain you idiot. you and me both are iron! we have to be destroyed, melted and smited in order to be strong. we are the same. accept yourself. im the only one who understands and loves you as you are. cant u see?

jiang xuening: im not like you!

xie wei: that's why a coward like you can't be with zhang zhe! either he sees through you are as stupid as you!

jiang xuening: stfu

xie wei: hurts doesnt it?

jiang xuening: let me go!

xie wei: escape all you want even if you go to the ends of the earth!

jiang xuening: you just want to drag me down in your madness!

xie wei: what's wrong with being buried with you?!

jiang xuening: holysht you're crazy

xie wei: pls

jiang xuening: if you wont let me go then what if you just kill me?

xie wei: ....

xie wei: (gives her the dagger)

xie wei: come, kill me

jiang xuening: you fckng piece of...(stabs him)

xie wei: (tries to reach out to her but fails)

jiang xuening: (walks away, blood on her hands, and hangs out with her girlfriends.)

lu xian, jianshu and daoquin: (panicking)

lu xian: who tf did this?!?! find them!

xie wei:(bleeding to death) find ning'er

lu xian: holysht

jiang xuening: (sipping tea)

daoquin: miss, please

jiang xuening: is your master still alive lol

daoquin: yes T.T

xie wei: (weak coz lack of blood) where's ning'er? did she leave?

daoquin: uh no she's sipping tea with her besties T.T

xie wei: so she didn't leave then... fck yeahhhh (passes out)

lu xian: bruh.

#story of kunning palace novel #story of kunning palace #xie wei #jiang xuening #lu xian #jianshu #the were so unwell here #but its so funny if u think abt it #ppl that need ancient china pyschological therapy

[luminnara]

So this looks like a job for 💛 anon.

I hope you're ok with this but this is operating under the assumption that the reader can have a period ✌🏻

At first I reckon the boys are just, so confused bless them. They're like 'Marko, did you bring home a snack? Like, the cave smells like blood and (Y/N) is CLEARLY fine, so did you bring an arm home or something' (Marko is a messy fucking eater)

Billy is just a bit clueless. He lives with women but he also doesnt pay any attention.

Stevie boy though. Not only does he have Nancy and Robin (who I think probably openly discuss this stuff with each other and steve just overhears), but he also has to second hand deal with el and max coz they're his charges.

Hes the first one to put two and two together. And lets be real, hes probably the most sympathetic. He isnt a vamp so he will go out in sunlight and buy everything you need and he will be comforting.

Billy, I love him, but he definitely knows nothing and hes like 'come on it cant be that bad can it' and then he incurs the wrath of steve and the reader and honestly probably Dwayne. Him and marko are the two likeliest to find themselves in the dog house for that week (marko is probably constantly still trying to shag them coz of the blood)

Dwayne is nice. He tries his best. Let's be real, vampires run cold (or at least I assume they do) so if the reader is overheating (which has happened to me during it), he is like a human ice pack. They probably prefer a steve cuddle most of the time but the boys are on hand.

Paul as well is a sweetheart. Hes like 'what can I get you oh my god so this is a monthly thing? Well why does that happen? You've got to deal with this for most of your life? Ew. You want chocolate, sweets, blood, sex, cuddles, movies, books, me to leave, anything?'

David. Well. Bless his heart he tries but the most he can really do is keep Billy and marko in line and be there for the breakdowns

I feel like the boys definitely know what periods are and at least know the basics, because they can probably smell it whenever somebody is going thru it, but they wouldn’t know the details or how people deal with them in the modern world. They would be like “cramps?? Just soak a pad in opium, what’s the big deal???” And the humans are like ….what the fuck is wrong with you

But yeah, Steve is ON IT when it comes to buying you whatever you need, and Marko is just busy making sarcastic remarks and joking around with Billy. You tell them you’re gonna make them understand your pain, and you definitely make good on that promise lol

And Dwayne gives killer massages 😚

#stranger things x lost boys #lost boys x reader

[frostbite-the-bat]

rambley post idk lol

NOTING STUFF TO MYSELF BC IM TRYING TO FIGURE OUT THE APPROX DATE WHEN GUZMA BECAME MY NAME IN 2018. THIS IS PERSONAL SO DONT MIND IT IM LIKE INVESTIGATING STUFF USING ONLY STUFF I SENT IN MY OLD PERSONAL DISCORD SERVER BC ALL THE OTHER SERVERS I WAS IN AT THE TIME R GONE... anyways!! this goes into other Guzma Lore As Well because I Have Bad Memory And I Like Looking Back At What I Used To Do

around in 2018, july, when i was on vacation...i was... NOT WELL! MENTALLY! AT ALL! LOWKEY DEPRESSED AS SHIT THERE! a lot of my uh.. past "drama" happened around that time, if you know what i mean. cough... and other than THOSE people i had... not many people to talk to so i said fuck it lets join a furry server! coz yknow im a Furry. (bad idea but whatever)

but WELL a few days BEFORE THAT i? randomly got hyperfixated on team skull/guzma during my general pokemon fixation? i changed my name to guzma for a joke and because i liked him a lot and some of my friends changed their name and icons to "grunt A" "grunt B" "grunt C" and so on. we memed around a bit and i kept this name - and then i joined the furry server. i began talking there a lot i mean i had literally almost 2k messages there in one day i did not leave the room we were staying at all i did that day was chat there and use the pokemon bot there.

thanks to these cool people i met... the name guzma just STUCK. without that server and without those people guzma wouldn't be solidified as my (at least online) name. and WELL. this was even before me accepting myself as trans and nonbinary so LMFAO.

and well i am not sure WHEN i joined the server but i spammed a bunch of team skull memes i stole from tumblr (i wasnt even active here?? im sure the acc i used back then is looong deleted also.) onto that discord server. that was july 17th. but im not sure if that was the date i set guzma as my name for the first time - just my brain rot starting. and i already had some icon edits by the 26th - so i began the inside joke around that time, i assume? not sure? which means i set my name that way there already? LIKE. BY THAT TIME I WAS ALSO DRAWING MYSELF IN GUZMA'S OUTFIT AND SUCH. LIKE. c'mon...

AND! OFFICIALLY BY THE 29TH!! I sent the icon i would use that i KNOW i used on the server a 100%. like when my name got solidified. wouldnt be it without it. so like.. i always say the day is the 29th even if i set the name guzma a while before that... its hard to SAY but i always just say that like... july/august is the Guzma Anniversary.

i know this Heavy Guzma Brainrot also went thru the entire august. then i got into... detroit become human??? then gorillaz which laster 2 whole years. which lead to the creation of this blog. and then its deletion. and then its recreation. yeah. but at that point i was just Guzma.

fun fact, this was like? my first post on my old blog in 2018. i wonder if its still reblogged somewhere on an old gorillaz blog despite my old blog being gone.

not sure why people rbd this its not funny

anyways also speaking of which. wanna know how i used to draw MYSELF. i cant draw myself as Human anymore thats Not Me The Guz Beast but PLEASE LOOK

you can smell the gender identity crisis from them so badly

[whipbogard]

(Belated) Day 7 entry for @dcdreamdaddy : Backyard BBQ with sexual tension 🥩🍔🍑🍆

No cape suburban dads uwu <3

#PUSHING MY OT3 AGENDA REAL HARD #bruharvtommy #harvey dent #bruce wayne #tommy elliot #thomas elliot #this is also somewhat jason dent au #coz I cant leave him out LOL #wppyart

[ducknotinarow]

Musical Scholar for Bailey and Richard uwu Bonus if it's NOT a Todrick Hall song uwu

| Musical scholar RUDE THAT THE VIBE FOR THE BOYS JUST GONNA GIVE ESSAY FOR ALL HIW SONGS AND HOW THEY FIT >:V okay but anyway I have a song uwu Lost and Found I was staring at my sneakers Scared to death to go and meet ya Everybody had their someone There was nobody for me here but you But you, my darling Then I called you out We were drunk Your hair was wild yeah You took me by the hand saying "Let's run away tonight Don't have to go far, wanna see the stars" -Richard always said he wasn't looking for someone when he was younger, but in truth he was scared about the idea because of his hang ups and such. He thought he met that person but he was mistaken. But that wasn't the right person he met this person long before when they were kids. And again he met Bailey the stars always lead them back to each other ;3;-

I was looking for someone Then I crashed into you -depsite Claims Richard was looking for his someone and they LITERALLY CRASHED INTO RICHARD-

Don't you know You give me something I can't live without My heart was waiting in the lost and found for your love It was your love that pulled me out The lost and found -Richard was broken and left in a lost and found bin where he felt he should be love wasn't for him. And in a sense Bailey felt the same having been hurt and broken themself and used, but someone found them and pulled them out of the bin because they were exactly what the other was looking for.-

I was hoping I was wishing Though I didn't wanna risk it Coz before I kissed your lips I didn't know what I was missing was you It was you my darling

-These two are massive idiots they tried to have a casual thing between them but they both knew even if denying it for a good while what was there between them and could see that with every kiss and it's why they kept going along with it, the risk was scary because what if they got hurt again? yet they just cant help but hope and wish that maybe for more?-

Oh oh oh The lost and found Oh oh oh

I need your touch You fixed me up Baby I can't get enough Oh, I hope you never go -Bailey ones said they are like kintsugi, and again said Richard's cracks where filled with gold, these two were covering up their crack up but they could hid it from the other who helped them fix those cracks. No crack was too much work and no crack ever will be. These two are so sickingly in love they never get enough of the other always needing to lay on their love and they never wanna lose the other-

Oh you know, You give me something I can't leave without My heart was waiting in the lost and found for your love It was your love that pulled me out The lost and found (lost and found) -When they were babies they met but they ended up losing each other. (lol childhood lovers au when jk jk jk) These two are soul mate, best friends, star crossed lovers. No matter what they are a soul pair and will meet and fall in love again ;3; they always find each other they were honestly just lost until finally be found again ;3;. - I wont break it down but here was the song I originally was gonna do till hearing the lost and found one Thinking out loud

#aflockoffeathers #madamkezzie #[mocha i wanna feel like this forever aflockoffeathers] #meme answers #((also I wanna say it here my playlist is officially in the 200s cause of the dumbs XD)) #muse| richard evans alder

[bebaexoexo]

Shit Oh Sehun did only in the first half of 2019

because I gave up and this list is way too long already why is this boy such a mess also it's not basically 2021

His team in exo arcade kept losing so he sulked (baby had to be comforted by his hyungs)

Refused to wear potective gear and made his hyungs worry

Acted cute as a punishment for losing exo arcade

Billboard master sehun

Somehow convinced ksoo to wear a cute birthday hat

Boyfriend insta live with ksoo on his birthday

Red suit at smtown wow

EXO LADDER ANTICS (@exo2018subs youre doin great things for the fandom uwu)

"There are no cameras here... are there cameras here?" Says in a room full of cameras

Jongdae "shrimp fishing"

Sehun "sehun fishing?"

Cuddles his giant self on baekhyuns tiny shoulders

LA Vacation time with suho

Kai KNEADING sehuns knee on tv

ROUGEFASHIONBOOK

PCY "Sehun-ah"

Sehun "whose this?"

Convinces the members to take a punishment because he just wants them to

Members "why should we?"

Sehun "because youre my members"

Sehuns laugh

Chanyeol gave up his solo stage because he wanted to perform 'we young' w/ hunnie

Ksoo wants to travel with hunnie more ahhh

"Ive told exo-ls this before, 'i hope that you all will find what you want', and that's what I wanted to say to the hyungs too"

MADAME FIGARO

Constant insta lives of him being VIVIs dad

Sehun throughout Coffee friends 'i love this, i like this, this is nice yea i like thi-'

Vivi *ignoring him in every livestream*

Sehun 'oh wow so handsome. Guys vivi is so great look at him'

Sehun *finally joins the ladder*

The rest of exo *standing ovation*

Sehun *sees his hyungs* *rolls on the ground*

'I like it fairy' on Coffee friends

Ate half the tangerines he was supposed to peel on Coffee friends

Couldnt understand why everyone wanted a big fancy room to themselves as a reward on Exo ladder

Won the biggest fanciest room for himself

Desperarely begged members to sleep with him, too scared to sleep by himself

'Anyone who wants to sleep with me has to jump in the water'

'Ksoo hyung if you jump into the water you can have my bed'

'Ah im going crazy x1000'

'Guys im really scared. Are you sleeping on your own? Can you do it?'

'Okay rock paper scissors and the winner sleeps with me'

'IM GOING HOME THEN'

Finally suho gave in coz he felt bad for his little baby. i cant hes too much

Used pool water to tidy his hair, baekhyun 'wahh a real man'

'I have a feeling ill win 300 000won, I know it, everyone watch me I just know wow'... wins the least amount of food allowance

Pretend to know all about deers at a deer farm but then started screaming and running away scared as soon as they got close

Members kept stealing his answers in capture the moment so he just melted into the sofa, stomping his foot, screaming at the camera. RIP Hint Fairy

After begging someone to sleep with him...

Sehun @ Suho: 'I'm sorry but dont touch me or I'm sending you to the floor' *play fighting* 'ah fuck it I love you'

'I suddenly want to become a fish"

Suho 'whales are so smart...they have IQ of about 60-90... very similar to Sehun I think' *que Sehun pulling faces and making noises at the whales*

Bet all his allowance in order to get wanton noodles -> lost, and then bet 2 wishes (pds make him do whatever) and lost twice more... left with nothing

Starts drinking from bath pools just because they're called wine and beer

Okay but Sehun just being an actual child playing the pools in exo ladder and laughing and messing around just warmed my heart so much

Pranked poor leader Suho by constantly putting shampoo in his hair while he was showering. Suho ended up trying to wash it out for half an hour like 'why wont the shampoo stop!?'

When the activity and healing team split on the last day of Exo ladder... 'even without Chanyeol and Jondae theres not much of a difference' LOL

Kai 'sit down and cook the food'

Sehun 'you know I have a standing up illness'

Kai 'attention seeking illness?'

Sehun 'yes'

Suho delivering a very deep and emotional reflection, Sehun falls asleep

LADDER

Sehuns charming points according to xiumin 'tall, handsome and cute'

New nickname 'Chip' aka little baby teacup

Giggly cute reuinion with Mina @ seoul fashion week

Brought his most expensive champagne for xiumins housewarming

Starts appreciating cooks after 25 years of life just because he made tteokbokki one time

Another insta V Live with VIVI or just... Vi coz half of vivis fluff was shaved off

Went to support JD for his solo with ksoo hyung

Recommended Peter Pan to Exo-L's for their 7th anniversary

Spends ages looking at sunglasses and posing in a shop but leaves with a lollipop

Q: 'Whats Exo-L to Exo?'

Sehun: 'if y0u kNoW iT alr3Ady tHen why'Re you asKinG'

According to Chen, Sehun is the driving force of Exo uwu

Won 'overseas male artist' @ the weibo awards

Omg but Ohsehunbars birthday project for sehun. A party at an aquarium WITH MERMAIDS

Sehun:

EXO-L:

Coex artium for sehuns birthday: (눈_눈)

Solo choki performance at dne's concerts

Topped "April 2019 Netizens Favourite Magazine Cover" hosted by Weibo for his Cosmopolitan China cover

SHIRTLESS SEHUN IN THE HAWAII PHOTOBOOK

Okay but OT9 being together on Xiuweet time did something to my heart

When asked to say something to xiumin as a goodbye 'I have a soft heart so I'll probably cry too'

Sehun cracking jokes and being a strong little brother for a stadium full of sobbing fans and hyungs

Volunteered at a children's home, Sunduk Home, for children's day and danced to Love Shot

UM APPARENTLY EXO-CS IS HAPPENING?

*uploads an Exo-CS spoiler on instagram*

Yeol: 'ya take that doing the company's gonna scold us'

Sehun being a lil bitch: 'no turning back now'

Okay but EXO-CS IN WKOREA!?

Chanyeol uploads a picture of him and Sehun from WKorea...

Sehun 'if you upload a picture of my face without my permission you'll be in trouble'

Met Donald Trump

Joint dad live streams with chanyeol and their sons Toben and vivi

Just Sehun with meerkats and racoons

Was supposed to cook with chanyeol but kept eating all the ingredients instead

Username 'Sehuns Anus' makes a 2019 comeback

#exo #sehun #exo k #kyungsoo #baekhyun #exo vine

[sup4l3e]

I’m Crazy...

I’m insane...

I've lost the plot..

I'm hopeless..

I'm worthless..

I'm unloveable..

I'm pathetic..

I'm weird..

I'm strange..

I'm not okay...

I'm a psycho... (ok this one for me might be true... question it, go on try it! i dare you! ;0 lol)

BUT...

I AM!!!

Those are just some of the things my own mind tells me on a daily basis ... yes here it comes a blog about anxiety and depression... omg!! i know right the cliche of it all. like who hasnt written a blog about depression before ...

oh woe is me! am i right?

well... thats where you're wrong!

(before i start i want no sympathy im not writing this for the "aww's" and the "bless her" comments, i dont want sympathy or empathy ... this is simply because ive experienced and lived with depression for about 14 years and if i can help one person feel better about themselves by reading this or help someone realise that they are not alone then, well, i can rest easy tonight. If anything i want to empower people)

I lived for so many years in the dark, keeping all of this too myself and you know what it did? absolutely sweet FA apart from making me so much worse, it gave ammunition to those little voices, telling me all of the above, making them win!

i didnt realise until about 2-3 years ago that talking about my experiences and how im feeling would help.

i didnt realise until about 2-3 years ago how many other people around me were going through the EXACT same thing.

Two and a half years ago i was a completely different person, i was sheltered, i was in a very toxic relationship ... with myself. Most people would disagree, they'd say i was actually in a toxic relationship with my ex partner; but i cant blame him. Dont get me wrong he was toxic and looking back i was lucky to get out when i did, however i am also grateful too him, because he showed me exactly what i dont want in my life. and being fair to him i'd lived with my own toxicity in my mind for a good 10 years before him, so god forbid i'd give him the satisfaction of all that praise coz by god did i do a damned good number on myself without any of his help. ;)

In all honestly though, i do blame myself and my own mind, because 2 and a half years ago those little voices in my own head were the only thing i was listening to, they were winning. I wasnt listening to my family who were worried sick about me, who were practically begging me to tell them what was going on in my head, who i shut out, ignored and pushed away because i couldnt cope and you know what? they didnt deserve that at all. i live everyday regretting that i put them through that, So i now live everyday hoping to make them proud of me and live each and everyday with a promise. I do however live every day regretting that i didnt let them in earlier because if i had of i wouldnt have gone through the hell i did and i wouldnt have genuinely believed "this is what i deserve" "no-one else will love you" "no-one else wants you" "no-one cares"... i wouldnt have had too live a LIE.

The lie was people did love me, i just couldnt see it, people did care about me, i just wouldnt hear it, i needed their help, i just wouldnt speak it; because at that point in time my own mind was telling me that i didnt deserve any of that, and that nobody would ever want to do that for me. So i found sactuary in a toxic person who in the long run made me the strong person i am today because if it werent for him i'd never have the confidence in myself knowing what i overcame, and if it werent for him i wouldnt have seen my family and loved ones take charge and say "Leanne enough is enough" .. they gave me the metaphorical slap across the face i damned well needed and brought me back to reality, they categorically wouldnt allow that behaviour to carry on anymore and for that i will forever be grateful!

i made a promise to them that day that i would always tell them when i was getting low again and i made a promise to myself that day that i would keep them in the forefront of my mind in all of my decisions and i would also promise to try and help anyone else who was ever in the same position i was in.

depression is a funny old thing, everyone will experience some form of depression throughout their life, some people are genetically wired to experience it, some people will experience it from a young age, some dont experience it until very late on in life, some experience it from sad/happy/overwhelming life events, some unlucky souls just never find happiness. but no matter what EVERYONE will, at somepoint experience depression. in this blog im going to try and explain how i've learned to manage and cope with mine.

A bit of a backstory of my depression, it started around the age of 14-15, my depression. I dont know where it came from but it was right around the time of my GCSE's, college, boys, hormones, and being diagnosed with PCOS (for those of you who dont know what that is its Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) i was told at a young age of 14 that i had some sort of syndrome which "would only matter when i got older", and that i had some of the prettiest ovaries the sonographer and gyneacologist had ever seen... in hindsight that wasnt going to be the compliment i first thought it was or the dismissive statement they portrayed it and brushed it off as, at all! THAT diagnosis changed alot of my life, however i will get back to that.

As most teens do around here I started studying for my GCSE's at just 15 years old. i was so stressed out i started actually hearing a screaming voice in my head. i suffered panic attacks daily, sometimes a few attacks a day, and that is where my anxiety started and then, good old depression smashed me in the face. i found the more stressed i became, the more id hear that screaming inside my head which then lead me to thinking " holy fucking shitballs im hearing voices im actually insane" therefore leading to more anxiety and panic attacks. so much so i would come home exhausted at 4pm everyday crawl into my pyjamas and climb into bed ready to do it all again the following day. (dont get me wrong i sat most nights on msn using the latest flashing emojis for EACH and EVERY letter of the alphabet, to the point it looked more like hyroglyphics and obviously getting the colours just right with the codes to make your name and status show in a rainbow. but that was all done in pj's curled up in bed because i couldnt manage much else ... however, if my mam asks i was revising and doing my homework THE. WHOLE. TIME, not talking to my friends about how hot a certain crush's bum looked that day ha! am i right! :P xoxo)

This was all a massive thing for me to go through aswell, due to the fact my dad has mental health issues and lives with schizophrenia, so, naturally at this point, you can imagine i was picturing myself in padlocked straight jackets and padded cells, talking away to the screaming voice in my head. the funniest thing was this screaming voice wasnt saying anything nasty or bad it was just my thoughts screaming at me like everything was angry, so genuinely just everyday life thoughts but those screaming at me, like, imagine thinking "leanne dont forget to pack your PE kit" but in the voice of Gunnery Sergeant Hartman from Full Metal Jacket... it. was. TERRIFYING!

Anyways, so yes high school was a massive contributor, then i made the choice to leave college at 17 because i, like many others, didnt have the faintest clue what i wanted to be when i grew up (little did i know id live the life of peter pan and neverland would be my sesh house OIOI!!!) In leaving college i went into full time work, as a 'temp job' until i decided what i was going to do... unfortunately, 8 and a half years later i was still their prisoner! haha, Nah, dont get me wrong i met some absolutely amazing people in that job and i did love it but i knew at the end, if i didnt get out it was going to kill me off. I'd gotten to the point in that job that i cried myself to sleep knowing i had to go back in the next day. that place contributed alot to my depression not because it was a bad job but because id made a wrong decision and was stuck there. i had to leave.

my next massive contributor, and this is where i divulge some of my REAL heartbreaks. PCOS - Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome or what i like to call Poly fucking Cystic fucking Ovary fucking Syndrome or "lets just fuck shit up!" (no im not bitter about it at all lol) because of this shit, from the very young age of 14 (like puberty isnt hard enough - spots, hair in places you never wanted boobs growing overnight, bleeding once a month being the biggest inconvenience) i have also had to deal with weight issues, hersuitism, depression, anxiety, hormones that sent me bat shit crazy, pain, headaches, fatigue, you name it i had it. but the biggest heartbreak, being told that id always have difficulty concieving and carrying a child. Anyone who knows me, and knows me well, knows i have always wanted to be a mam. (and not the sesh mam who looks after all my drunken idiotic friends on a night out ... coz i swear thats all they ever think i do lol) I mean a real mam, to a real baby. and being told at a young age that i had the prettiest ovaries the gyneacologist had ever seen wasnt the compliment i thought it was because it turned out my ovaries were absolutely covered in cysts. And for years i have tried to have a baby but alas nothing ever happens. i've had a few close calls and ive miscarried, or at least i think i did, the test came back positive but then about 3 days after that pretty pink second line, i had the heaviest period i had ever had for around 4 hours and then my body went back to normal as if nothing happened. it broke my heart.

They say the human body is delicate and intricate and should be treated with respect... i say its a machine and its a absolute twat at times, and why should i respect what in essence has caused me heartbreak from a young age FOR NO FUCKING REASON. but hey ho... life. goes. on.

so... thats my life story or just a snippet of it. and some of the reasons why i have depression.

heres how i cope...

Well, for a long time.. and i mean a VERY LONG time i didnt. i hid it, i hid away from the world. i drank alot. i avoided family, i avoided my best friends, i avoided anything that would have brought me back to reality.

For a long time though, thats what i needed. now im not saying running away from your issues is easy and thats what you should do because its definitely not. im saying i NEEDED to do it at the time because i had no other way of coping and i NEEDED too to learn what not to do in the future. So masking, for me, was better than facing things 'alone'. In that time though, i made my issues alot worse and in fact caused more issues. it hurt my family, my friends and well hurt myself too, because in the long run i still had to sober up and i still had to deal with the same issues that got me down in the first place, i ended up in debt which contributed further too my issues. I did some very silly things which when i look back on them now i could have hurt so many people. i took an overdose of painkillers at one point around 2 and a half years ago. I felt so weak i saw no other outcome but instantly regretted doing it and made myself sick so that they came back up. i've told my mother and close friends about this previously but i think to really show how much i've learned and to reach out to anyone who is feeling the same way i did, to tell them IT REALLY DOES GET BETTER AND EASIER. i think saying that, shows my honesty throughout this post and allows for my experience and honesty really show that i want to help anyone going through the same thing.

Masking just makes the pain go away for a short period of time. learning from your pain and making it your strength is how you really overcome your own mind and depression.

It wasnt until i realised i was never alone, just how selfish and stupid id been all that time, because in masking, hiding and running away, id stupidly stopped myself from a faster recovery, less heartache, less pain and mental and physical torture. and really i stopped myself from helping others in the same position as me.

it wasnt until i learned to make my pain my strength that i truly found peace in who i am.

i still have days where those voices wont shut up, and they win and thats ok.

i still have days where i cannot climb out of bed and thats ok.

i still have days where i cry and the pain is too much and thats ok.

because i learned all of it really is ok! everyone has those same thoughts the same feelings the same illnesses. and i know that tomorrow WILL be a better day.

you just need to learn how to make it and own it as your own!

nothing has changed for me, all of those things are still true they're still real, my body hasnt miraculously healed itself, i still made poor life choices, it hasnt changed my hormonal imbalances but it has changed my mindset. it has changed my life. i made a choice to change my mindset and not let it beat me i decided to let people in. my family are my guardian angels because they never gave up on me, they dragged it out of me and frogmarched me to the doctors for the help i needed but some people dont have that support in their lives.

i'm lucky enough now, to have lived with this for long enough to know my signs, and when i know what i call, "going dark" is coming. basically when i start slipping and losing control of it again, i identify it and know how to manage it head on. unfortunately my body because of the stupid "intricate machine" i have and how broken it is (believe me the day i can swap out into an AI robot body imma sign straight up for that shit imma have me a body like Jennifer Anniston) my body however tends to go into a meltdown, i end up with more migraines, pain and infections. i also get extremely tired to the point i can sleep for a good 15-20 hours a day and thats not me being lazy (although if sleeping were an olympic sport i'd be the universal champion of it BED=LIFE) thats really me needing to reset. at that point in time when i know this is coming, thats when i reach out; i tell my friends and my family "I'm not okay" because i know now i can do that, i can talk to them.

i, personally, take medication daily, and for some reason we live in a society where people are actually shamed for doing so. i know if i dont take those 2 little tablets every day i will lose control and become a shell of who i really am. my seratonin levels drop and i practically become a robot barely functioning. so why should i be ashamed of those 2 little 'happy pills' which make me the person i want to be and know i truly am! no chemical imbalance is going to get the better of me! if i can have the help, im damned sure going to take it. along with the happy pills, aswell as alot of sleep, sunbeds, spending time with family and friends whenever i possibly can, i now have a job that i love, i also retrained as a beautician, and i love going to the gym and swimming whenever i can, ive found i can manage mine alot better. one thing that massively changed my life was limitting when i drink. i rarely go out drinking anymore and the reason is because i know deep down i will end up in a very low state afterwards. alcohol is a depressant and i wont allow that kind of thing to get me down. so now instead i choose to drink once a month if not less. i havent cut out the drink completely i just know if i want to get blinding drunk i need to be in a very happy place to do so. so i am careful where i drink, who i drink with and what i do whilst im drinking and unfortunately much to my neighbours disgust that tends to be in the house whilst singing along to whitney houston or disney songs at the top of my lungs, but thats how i know i'll not plummet the day after, and lets face it anyone whose heard me singing knows whitney had nothing on me ;)

In all seriousness though, the best advice i can give anyone living with depression is talk to someone, talk to your family, talk to your neighbour, talk to your friends, talk to your doctor, talk to your dog, your cat, the postman, the man on the bus who sits oddly close too you... just talk to anyone. tell them how you are feeling tell them your experiences. tell them what is getting to you. Find someone who you can trust, find a stranger. write it all down in a blog. video it. GET IT ALL OFF YOUR CHEST! SAY IT OUT LOUD! Just. Bloody. Talk! please!

everyones experiences with depression are different some people mask it, some people show it, some people (like me now) shout it from the fucking rooftops because im not afraid of my emotions anymore.

everyones ways of coping are different too, some people find the gym helps, some rely on medication, some rely on talking therapies... there are so many different ways of coping out there now... the only way that doesnt work is not admitting something is wrong and fighting your own mind without help, knowing something isnt right but still doing nothing about it. The only way of not coping is living a lie, you dont have to do this alone!

Basically do those things just for you, the ones you've always wanted to do! get that tattoo you wanted, quit your job, retrain, change your hair colour, buy that car, buy that dog, book that holiday.

do what makes YOU happy!

live for you and open up, people would rather know how you are feeling than see you struggle or ultimately not be here.

open up you never know someone might be feeling the exact same way you are and it could bring you closer.

but remember most importantly:

You ARE NOT Alone..

You ARE NOT Crazy..

You ARE NOT insane..

You HAVE NOT lost the plot..

You ARE NOT hopeless..

You ARE NOT worthless..

You ARE NOT unloveable..

You ARE NOT pathetic..

You ARE NOT weird..

You ARE NOT a psycho..

You ARE NOT strange..

And..

You ARE okay...

You ARE Beautiful..

You ARE Worth it..

YOU ARE Loved

i hope this helps...

thank you ☺

[mspbandj]

More on The Mandalorian Season 2 and Why its so Frustrating and Also Why Lucas Film Should Just Hire Me as a Writer Goddman it coz this is My Blog and I have Feelings™

Okay so again, this pertains to the finale of The Mandalorian Season 2 so............ spoiler warning.

Lets talk about Dins face

I feel like that final scene, when [redacted] came in and took Grogu away to train as a Real Jedi rang really hollow. It didnt feel rushed so much, but it just felt really anticlimactic. We all knew it was coming (sure we didn’t know for sure it would be [redacted] but we knew someone was going to come get Grogu) but even with that knowledge, they had real potential to make the scene super emotional and touching, which the final cut just didn’t really have and heres why.

Most of the emotion was supposed to come from Din taking off his helmet to let Grogu see his face. Baby Yoda had never seen his Adopted Dads face before, and this moment was set up to be a really touching moment of connection and vulnerability. But it was dampened by the fact that we had already seen his face, multiple times, and in detail. We the audience. And because of that, we couldn’t relate to what Grogu must have been feeling in that moment. 

Like, for Grogu, that must have been such a Big Deal yk? He’s spent so much time with this man, they’d been through so much together at this point, but he hadn’t even seen his face because of the very strict Mando Creed that Din had been raised under (the cult or not cult thing is a discussion for another time btw.) So this must have been huge for him. For Din to finally make the decision that Grogu was more important than his Creed... thats a huge thing!

But! For us, the audience, Din removing is helmet was old news by now. He’d taken it off twice before (in Season 1 with the droid, and then in Season 2 at the Imperial Stronghold (dont even get me STARTED on that craptastic episode)) so we didn’t have that sense of anticipation or importance. We were very much treated like we werent in that moment with them, and I find that hugely underwhelming.

So here’s how I think it should have gone, because that moment could have been set up perfectly all throughout the series.

Din very much could have taken his helmet off the first time, with the Droid. The whole arc there was about What Makes a Life, and Are Droids Counted as Living Things right? The Mando cult Creed dictates that no other living being can see the face of a Mandalorian (with very very few exceptions, and with death being preferable to being exposed.) And the argument in that moment is that the Droid is a machine and not technically a living thing, even tho it acts and behaves like a living thing, and is capable of the same “emotion” as a human. In the end, the Helmet comes off, and we are left to make up our own minds about whether this is a violation of the Creed or not - that was my take away.

But by allowing us, the audience, to see Dins face also calls into question our own place in the Mandalorian Universe. Are we Living Beings here? Apparently not, according to this we’re not a part of the scene at all, which is a decision I disagree with because, as I said above, it dampens the emotional potential of the entire show. Allowing us to be an exception to the Strict Mandalorian cult Creed limits the use and/or very purpose of the Creed at all.

How I believe that scene should have gone is more like this:

The Is a Droid Alive philosophy is discussed, and as they talk it becomes urgently apparent that the only way to save Din is to take the helmet off and allow the Droid to attend to Dins wounds. We see a close up shot, as we did, of the Helmet being raised, with a cut away at the crucial reveal moment - denying the audience a view of Dins face. The next shot is of the Helmet being laid down beside them, which informs us that Dins face is now definitely fully exposed, but we are not allowed to see it, which confirms our place in the Mandalorian Universe, and gives the sense that we are very much there with them in that moment.

Cut in some extreme close ups of a hair line, a patch of cheek, some disinfectant being administered, with further voice overs of the discussion, and we’re golden. The scene takes on a much more intimate feel, with a heightened sense of anticipation. We get a tease of Will We Ever See Dins Face, and are left with the question of What Will it Take to Make Him Cast Aside His Creed, which is raised in light of the knowledge that a Droid does not count, but we the audience do. We ponder this for a moment and then the next time we see The Mandalorian, hes restored to full armour, and we’re reminded that this is The Goddamn Mandalorian motherfuckers, and hes here to Fuck Shit Up with his Little Green Gremlin Child.

As for the Imperial Terminal WELL

This was a very good opportunity for a second removal, and I definitely think that part was a good choice however the execution of the scene was poor as shit.

Having Din change out of his armour was a good start, it showed us that he was Serious about finding Grogu, and that he was willing to bend the rules and push the boundaries of his Creed without technically breaking it. This was discussed pretty well in the script, so it was a strong start.

Now, again, I dont disagree with the decision to have Din remove the helmet at the terminal in order to complete the face scan and access the information he needed - in fact I agree with that part entirely. Again, is shows us how far Din is willing to go to get Grogu back, and it’s a solid recall to the What Would it Take to Have Din Cast Aside His Creed question from Season 1. Furthermore, it really drives home the fact that Din will get Grogu back at any cost. Its exciting, and emotional, and drives his character development.

So heres how I think it should have gone:

Mayfield makes his attempt, sees his former superior, and turns back. Tells Din that no, it wont work, he cant do it, just as the scene originally goes. Din says no, fuck that, I havent come this far to turn back now, Ill go do it. Mayfield says lol good luck, the terminal needs a face scan for access so have fun with that, Din hesitates, and then very deliberately makes the choice to go - this is all pretty much in the scene.

Where it differs is after the failed face scan when Din still has the helmet on. The Countdown starts, Din hesitates, clearly torn between his Creed and Grogu, and we leave him there. Next shot is of Mayfield in the doorway when he looks over and sees the back of Dins head. We see this too, and we know that holy shit the madman actually did it. Hes *exposed* and his body language tells us he knows this. Maybe throw in an extreme close up of a drop of sweat on his chin, give us a lil glimpse of his bottom lip even, more than we got the first time he took his helmet off, but still not the full thing. Really get that anticipation going, you know?

As soon as Din gets the info, and the officer dude comes over to investigate, we get a half shot of Din turning while simultaneously stuffing his helmet back on his head, and the scene continues as it did. Maybe we see the same section of chin and neck in the process, maybe we dont, but the helmet is firmly back in its place, and so are we. I strongly feel like these events would have ramped up the emotion of the scene and, like i said above, the anticipation. We got closer this time! When will be the next time? Third times the charm right, so we can conclude that the next time he takes his helmet off will be The Big Moment™ so whats it gonna take???

Lets skip to that moment now.

The Final Scene. The Big Reveal. The Reunion, and the Parting of Ways.

Imagine the series went the way I just described. Imagine that in this Final Scene of Season 2, you, personally, had not seen Dins face. You’ve watched this Mandalorian trek and fight and blast his way through the Universe, been there in the room when hes been at this most badass and his most vulnerable. You’ve come so so so close to seeing his face, of seeing him break the Creed he’s clung to for two whole seasons, but you never have. Not yet. And now you’re watching him reunite with Grogu, Baby Yoda, The Kid. The one thing in the entire Universe that Din cares most for. Its a touching and emotional scene, after the fight, after the reveal of [redacted] after it becomes clear that This Is The End.

And then... he reaches up.... is he going to??? is he going to????? HE IS!

He lifts his helmet. Theres no danger, theres no threat, theres no pressure or incentive. This is completely his choice. This is Din, The Mandalorian, raised under the Mandalorian cult Creed, choosing to reveal his face, not only to Grogu, but to everyone in the room, including you.

How much more personal is that? More intimate, more emotional. We get to experience the moment that Grogu, who we all love and care for, is experiencing. We get to feel like we’re in the room. Everyone in that room knows how Strict the Creed is. Sure, the other Mandos dont live by it, but they know what it means to Din, so even they know the sheer significance of this act.

As it is, we the audience dont get to experience this on the same level. We have to think about it after the fact, after we’ve calmed down from the hype. We’ve already seen Dins face, many times, so we dont get that same intimacy. And its a real, real shame.

#mandalorain spoilers #mando #mando spoilers #sigh #how things Should Have Been #my thoughts #alternative ending #im so disappointed #its such a shame #personal #clown on my post you will be blockethed #and dont even get me STARTED on the Ball from the Razor Crest #could you IMAGINE #din unmasked has his moment and puts grogu down and lil grogu trots off #and then after R2 and Grogu talk or whatever #they turn to leave #and din shouts WAIT #and Grogu turns back #and din fucki #he fucking... #holds out the ball and offers it to Grogu #and grogu uses the force to take it from him #just like he did those others times #and thats what tells us its all going to be okay #i am EMOTION #why cant anyone WRTIE #im cry now

[sweetandsavageautistic]

Who’s ready to lose more braincells thanks to Twitter? (CW: Pedophilia mention)

"I'm Alive Because of YOU!"

The Innocence of an adult with autism and his BFF Lost & Found EMMY ;)

Love You, Love You My Boo Bear  

Mommyand (aka) #SMAARTMom

Meet My son Dustin & My Inspiration for Creating the Autism Welcomed Decal Symbol

Oh, decedents of men she loved/trusted... what a great idea!

To me, there's just something about what the innocence of a child would bring to that kind of a role. Or even a high functioning teen or adult with autism...

#WritingCommunity

Lauren, as a mother of an angel with disabilities, I would like articles about parents and adults with #Autism who share success stories. What makes a positive outcome?

Son went out with his grandad today amazing how are kids adults with #autism behave like angels for there grandparents lol.

As the parent of an adult child with autism I always tell young parents to never underestimate their child Our children CAN They are true angels sent to us by God

I worked as a parapro for three years and have seen people on every part of the spectrum- the way he spoke and carried himself should NOT influence anyone’s decision on their theory of his guilt or innocence. His demeanor is very typical of someone with high-functioning autism.

One thing I know about people with Aspergers is, they dont lie, they are often shy at 1st, but once they know you, they arent the type you ask "does my butt look big in this" coz they'll tell you outright that if does with such innocence & charm.

The innocence of people with autism is truly incomparable, it's their raw emotion that's sets them apart from the rest of the world.

@realDonaldTrump

hope you can meet Ganesh. #helpganeshmeettrump

Brother godbless ur boy.His curiosity is apparent and his calmness is heartwarming to see he realizes this isn’t going to hurt us.Autism holds a special place in my heart for my niece is also Autistic and any child,I see an innocence about them that makes me smile.Good job dad

You’re not alone , we autism moms are in this together and know exactly the heartbreak you are feeling

give it time and a lot of therapy Jenny, things will get better !! Just remember that his innocence is soo pure that he’s an angel here on earth for you

Not just autism but any diagnosis/disability. My saying is "do not look at my child w/ different eyes when u see him do something that's considered out of d norm" & also "don't break away his spirit because he can still see the Innocence in life better than you" -Margarita Rubio

Same here brother. My youngest son is autistic and I cant imagine how anyone..especially a "father" could do something like this My son has random seizures and everyone of them rips my heart out Autistic children have more heart & love than anyone on earth Innocence of autism

The ABC series "Love on the Spectrum" was / is a beautiful uplifting and inspiring work. The wonderful openness, hopefulness and general innocence of the autistic folk is a lesson for everyone. Love for everyone has challenges. I hope people don't use autism to express contempt

I love being around people with Autism. They radiate pure energy and innocence.

My son has autism and he is just beautiful in his innocence, thank you very much!!! He does not have black coal for a heart and not beholden to Satan

When Quamaine helped me with the snow shoveling. He was happy to help. I adore him and his innocence. I hope he knows that. #adultwithautism #autism #adultoconaitismo #autismo #quamaine #autismaunt #snow

Mothers of children with autism know their kids intimately because they cannot leave them with anyone. They protect their kids fiercely, because they are vulnerable due to their innocence

Sarah's effective portrayal of an autistic role clearly depicted the charm, candidness, innocence and frolicsome attitude of people with autism.

Autism. A neurological condition where purity and innocence collide to form an abstract masterpiece.

THE REAL CHAMPIONS IN THIS WORLD ARE CHILDREN LIKE KAYLENE. WITH AUTISM  SPECIAL NEEDS & CHILDREN FIGHTING CANCER SO MUCH MORE LOOK AT HER SMILE SO INNOCENT

The people with autism can understand a lot of things very clearly. Autistic children tend not trust adult humans becoz for them they are constantly in movement which doesn’t allow things to sync with them. BTW they are fantastic human beings with a child like pure heart.

People with autism are the most perfect human beings on the planet to me bc they don’t bother a soul or hurt anybody an is purely innocent 💯‼️❤️

I have a soft spot for people with Autism.  We aren’t worthy of their creativity, intelligence and innocence

I love being around people with Autism. They radiate pure energy and innocence.

Thank you

God bless you too!

I believe people with autism are special gifts and their purity cannt be denied]

I’ve been the happiest in my life being around people with autism. If you don’t have a friend, brother, or neighbor like them you truly haven’t experience the purity in life.

People with down syndrome, autism, etc, arent capable of hate, malice, greed, intolerance, etc. They exhibit all the things that those of us "normal" people try to be but cant. They're not equipped to be evil. They can only show purity.

I dont know, that's my take on it.

By living with people with autism, we are be able to regain the purity

True, but at the same time these aren't necessarily different things: pedophilia, anti-pedophilia & dumb-girl-philia can stem from one & the same mental trait, i.e. the idealization of childlike Innocence; which in turn is arguably a form of autism: other people can't have minds.

#Undateables #TheUndateables I adore this show. The pure honesty love and kindness of these beautiful souls blows me away

. Their innocence and hopeful view of this world is something that could teach many. Appreciate what you have

#autism #specialneeds #learningdisability

Which film? I love the innocence of kids. Every day my kids say it as it is and their attitude keeps me so grounded. We could all learn a lot from autism x

This sickens me 2 the core.Trump started this he is to blame. We are one let us not forget this. We need 2 learn again from our young who see no difference. My son with autism never sees any difference. Such innocence. The world will not change him .He listens to me I accept all

My son who has been diagnosed with #autism loves painting.He is lifting my spirits with his joy 4 his work he has done.Some he started this week & finished. R #Hamilton #Ticat #Football colors. Love the innocence its so grounding 4 me. Blessings 4 all you are doing

Pope john paul the second said children with autism were closer to god than any other. They have a innocence about them.  We should take notice and learn from there how love and live

And now, some tweets from people who think Greta Thunberg is being exploited just because she's so passionate about stopping climate change:

If This Little Girl GRETA really has AUTISM How Terrible Easy For Adults To Manipulat Her IT IS A PARENTS JOB TO PROTECT THE INNOCENCE OF OUR CHILDREN IM SO ASHAMED AND SO SHOULD THE CLIMATE CHANGE COMMUNITY GOD FORGIVE HER PARENTS. THEY KNOW NOT WHAT THE DO

Democrats like John Kerry are using an innocent little girl with autism to feign innocence while the Democrats just voted to spend 738 billion dollars on environmental destruction. How ridiculous.

That's a good argument? Because it's what SHE *wants* to do? She is a child who does not yet fully grasp the perils of public life or climatology. She's also a child diagnosed on the autism spectrum. She deserves privacy and protection of her innocence. It will end poorly.

I've started to suspect she was selected for this job because of her autism. She can play innocence whenever someone publicly calls her out for the childish nonsense that comes out of her.

Greta is a 16-yr-old kid with autism who is being used by her parents & the crazy adults around her as a political pawn. She's not a savior. She's a kid who is having her innocence and anonymity stripped from her by a**holes pushing their stupid climate change crap.

I think she is being used. The fact that she has an Autism Spectrum Condition should be respected. She is very articulate and very focused partly because she is Greta and partly because she is autistic, but she also has the innocence of a teenager and someone with an ASD.

#climate change is real karen #autism innocence bullshit #autism #autistic #actuallyautistic #actually autistic #sweet and savage autistic

[sexysilverstrider]

Psst please tell me you have more Claudeleth fics in the works? Because I adore the way you write them and I’ve reread the Heron Cup and the Goddess Tower fic like 5 times they’re just AMAZING!! The slow burn pining for both of them and Claude’s inner thoughts are just 👌 and I just love it a lot akdjaksk. I’d love to see more!! Even if you don’t I’ll still be on the look out for anything else you write cuz I really enjoy it! Sorry for getting rambly lol and I hope you have a great day!

AAAAAAAA ANON THIS MADE MY DAY YESTERDAY AND DAY AAAAA!!!

god thank you sosososos much for reading n enjoying my fics AND taking your time to give me such a heartfelt ask!! ;w;

tbh i have. a lot of ideas ehehe. im just a bit busy w work now but ill get to it! eventually. i hv the carrying byleth back to the monastery idea (hilda cant be found when claude called so its up to claude to carry his teach ehee)

i also have the uhhh his pov about watching byleth sleep from outside her room to check if shes theres. that hes nt dreaming. hes so happy n smiling but at the same time he wants to cry coz he missed her. a lot

OH and that cute byleth tried to wink but instead she blinked w both eyes n this leaves claude clutching his heart in love

OH OH and the '4 Times Claude Held Byleth In His Arms and the 1 Time Byleth Held Him In Hers'.

for angsty i wanna write byleth fainted due to excessive use of divine pulse which leaves claude panicking. only for byleth to wake up a day later n being sad coz she kept remembering she used her pulse coz claude kept dying as if the grim reaper screamed at her that it was truly his time. both are sad and hugging each other. byleth didnt tell him but she hugg. theyre still pining Hard

#sjwjdhsus man if not for the fact that im working tmrrw #aaaaaa thank u again for your enthusiasm!!! #i really really appreciate it ;w; #maybe ill do a kiss fic about them too #nice people #ask #anon

[daughterofsinsloth]

Hi! It's stated in your bio that you analyze fics, so I just want to hear about your fic recs for Soukoku? Preferably fluff, but other genres are also fine since the ship is full of angst and smut lol. Thank you!

 Hello hello anon-chan!! How are you? Mm! It does, thank you very much for asking! Fluffly fluff heh? (my ultra favorite!!!!!!) Okay! Here are some fics! Enjoy ^^

Of sleepless nights and warm embraces by Konoha79 : 

this fic.. aaah this one is a true gem!  just amazing! its about Chuuya working really hard do he can have some free time will his boyfriend Dazai on Christmas Eve. this one has protective!Dazai and cute!Chuuya in.its really well written and the writer made their emotions appear well. another thing that I like is that the writer with only a few sentaces put a nice history behide and you dont need more informations. they write about an episode and thats it, without confussing the reader. the characters are build well and the bit of crack in there is really funny. Dazai is gently, something that we dont see often, and Chuuya is soooooooo cute, that gets your soul full! ITS A MUST READ FIC!

Oops by Witheryvine :

another good fic. in here Dazai and Chuuya are secretly married, but it slips off Dazai, while he trys to play the matchmaker to shin soukoku in front of EVERYONE! Mostly crack in here, but the fluffiness is located at protective!Chuuya Kouyou I can explain dont kill him and at how Dazai treats Chuuya. its short but full at the same time. well writen and the writer made a great job giving us some skk background. also also kunikichuu friendship!!!! THE BEST!

Captured by Witheryvine:

(AU) another short story by the same writer. Photographer!Dazai capturing lawmajor!Chuuya on camera and some good flirting!! well writen, cute and of course sweet.  its … “soft” and calm. love it.

Shared Gravity by writingfromtheshadows  and ZODIACHUUYA:

(AU/multe-chapter) okay  this one anon-chan! they start as academic enemies to enemies friends with benefits to lovers/couple. well writen. they portrait skk’s inner thoughts and fears really weel and realistic. this is like some friend of yours talking about their story and if this is not GREAT i dont know what its gonna be. they take turns with the chapters as Chuuya and Dazai PV, but its in perfect harmony. doesnt have much smut, if not at all. this one is a favorite coz it shows how you fell in love unexpected, hard and uncontrollable. Gin is the “come on you idiots you love its other!” in a cool way. its great that we can see her, coz not many give her spot time. im telling you this fic is GOLD. and leaves you with a healing feeling. complite

the opposite of alone by TheGreatCatsby:

short fic, cute fic. Chuuya can’t sleep, so he decieds to texts Dazai. its really sweet fic. Dazai immediately runs to were Chuuya is and they are all sweet couple but not really. its more about the feelings that are there but they cant get out, yet its all there for people to see.its an amazing fic and the best thing it is that it gives you the feels from the first part! also we are talking for thegreatcatsby, of course its well written, well structured and soooo satisfying. 

This by sodenoshirayuki_23:

okay anon-chan hear me up.this fic here is one of a majestic kind of story. BUT! THE WRITER!!!! has sooooooooooo many good fics that i couldnt choose. her angsty fics are masterpiece one by one. and please, i  beg you go read “heavy”; its angsty you die but you go happy. HIGHLY RECCOMENDED.  this one, tho, is AU and an mpreg (sorry if you are no into it) and its sooooo sweet and fluffy you could die. the children are sskk and spoiler later kyouka . well written.really nice story. fluffy fluff with fluff on top. what more can i say? its just sooo cute. the characters here are really interesting. and the episode is great. MUST!!!

Margin Of Error by izanyas:

its not fluff just to be clear. but its SO HIGHLY RECCOMENDED THAT YOU FLY TO ANOTHER PLANET. its AU,mafiaboss!Dazai anddoctor!Chuuya.After a failed assassination attempt on his person, Dazai finds himself recovering in an unfamiliar place: a hospital where criminals abound, staff and patients alike, and Dazai’s own doctor is a little too attractive. when you finish this, run to the writer’s other fics like Usen Bolt. they are soooooo talented. not so fluff but GREAT nonetheless. ruuuuun! ah! when you see Owe No Debt you will know that you reached the paradice.

This Time by stargazerlilith:

another MUST READ writer. this on this cuteness overload. well writen. another with workaholic!Chuuya and great boyfriend!Dazai. sweet and fluff compinate to an amazing resolt. read read it!. side note:their other stories and awesome! i storngly reccomend “mine”, which is smut with feelings.

Mother by WhisperingWinds99:

here we have skk relationship from the start. the fluff is of course in the relationship, but mostly coz we see the relationship between Kouyou and Chuuya. she is the ‘mother’ in Chuuya’s life more than the ane-san. its fluff coz you she skk get more mature and you see Kouyou growing old with them. well writen, good story. GODESS KOUYOU IS BACK! 

The art of paint by  Konoha79:

this one i promise you that its the most beautiful thing i have ever read. its skk family. canon universe, skk is married, Chuuya finds a child and everyone is oppose, but they keep him. this takes place two years later and shows us an episode of their life as famly. God its beutiful. when i have a bad day i read this. anon.. anon! read this! its really great. well writen, well build, well partial. you have a clean picture of their life and feelings. its sweet, its cute, its fluff and its a must. honestly,in my opinion,this is one of the best skk fluff stories i have read.

Now let me talk a bit about SoukokuParadise:

she is the fluff goddess of the skk fandom. she writes fluff, and a damn good ones. check out her works; they are great, well writen and well build, some character development and a lots of cuteness. i will talk for her favorite “How to Hate Nakahara Chuuya” and hear me up anon when im telling you that its great! its about Dazai taking care of Chuuya after ep. 21. as the writer says, Dazai speaks with actions (she keeps the characters close to the canon and that's really good, makes them more realistic), small words that speak loud of his true feelings. i really like how she  writes Chuuya. he is unconscious but his reactions are being given to us by Dazai. thats really interest and i havent see many writers do that. interest PV. spoiler Chuuya calls Dazai “Osamu” and im dead. also the endingggggg

lastly but not least!

Insomnia_Productions :

yet ! another one writer that I cant decide which one fic is the best. they are all GREAT and you should read them all! like ALL! the ones I LOVE LOVE LOVE are:

 The New Year’s Tradition (AU)

Not Safe For Work

“Ah… I Think We’re In What They Call A Hate/Love Relationship.” (AU)

Disney’s: The (Totally Not Little) Merman (AU)

How To Obtain A Child And Husband Entirely By Accident

  one is greatest than the other. well writen, like watching a movie. you “get into the character” and you are so into it that you cant leave them after the 3rd time you read them. trust me, this are the fics I always go back reading them over and over again and its always amazing. like the first time you read them you will be soooooo satisfied and sooo happy. perfect I tell you.

EXTRA: kiss me on the lips(and show you love me) by photography_tea:

this one is also a favorite of mine. its smut but more than that its making love. it has character development and realization of their feelings. crack and fluff combinate into love that leads to the unlimited epitomy of fluff, the lovemaking. being one with the other. loving and being loved in return. the writer did an amazing job at showing how in their mafia days skk find a small light to keep moving. oblivious!chuuya and hungry!Dazai are often a subject to write but here they are on another scale. their “play” shows more about their weird relationship than they would admit.  its a hell of a great fic! must read!

also! if you would like you can check my fic : Can you sew my suit? by alchemy_omi:

it has fluff in it with a bit of crack and liiiiight angst. also sskk are in it. its about their wedding. Dazai is the best man but he went for his suit the last moment. not being able to find a tailor shop, Akutagawa send him to his good friend Chuuya and the two fell in love. (AU/multe-chapter) 

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand thats it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh

hope that you like my reccomendetions anon-chan and happy reading!! please tell me your opion about them and ask me again if you are happy! I gave you fluffy suggestions but you can ask me for another gender if you want!

have a wonderful day and take care!

bye bye :)

#fic rec #highly recommended #bungou stray dogs #soukoku

[ekel-a]

What You Think Of Me Is None of My Business

We all care what people think about us, some a little more than others.We stop and listen to the little whispers, we keep appearances to not disappoint our ‘image’  We try to please the crowd when we can and we have mental breakdowns when we hear the wrong things about ourselves, Yes. It eats us alive.We worry too much what others will think so we limit ourselves to a certain people, certain places, certain crowds.

We live our lives in patterns of people’s expectations and for what? I never really understand, do you? Can someone explain this to me.I had a friend who went clubbing Monday to Monday even when he was flat broke bless is heart, just so people wouldn’t think he has …whats the word ..oh yes ‘Kufulia’ Quite a nasty little word that one.We’ve become slave to people’s views of us.

I have quite a number of facebook friends (5000 +)  I still don’t know how it got to that number but its fascinating seeing the lives  of random young Tanzanians out there the contrast is awakening and Just last month I saw this young man’s status on facebook and I quote

‘ Unajifanya uko too busy Kuingia facebook kumbe una simu ya mchina haina intanet,’

And later on the boy  whom the status was directed to got a new phone and went ahead to one prestigious club in Dar took a picture and posted it with caption

‘Nina Pesaaar Xana’ via blackberry

…I detest the use of X  for S by the way, infuriates me, I could kill a fly.The drama was quite interesting, I was following closely… especially because it later unfold that the phone he took the picture with was not his…(don’t even ask how we onlookers found out)…and he was willing to go out of his way to borrow a phone and go to some club take a picture make it look like he’s living large to please just one person who earlier criticized him. Sadly this is the case for most us, we’re willing to go out of our way when we hear things about ourselves to prove them wrong, how many people will we prove wrong? But I’ve got message for you, What people think  about you is NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!  If talking about you makes them sleep better at night let them be merry, if that makes their Christmas don’t take away the Santa, don’t pull away the tree, don’t go through the trouble. Focus on making yourself better for you.Our ego's feed off people's opinions. They constantly feed on the need of approval and disapproval  but we should keep in mind that someone's view of you is not about you but about it, its about them, its their perception.

What you think and what you feel is your business. When I’m worried about how you feel about me, I’m in your business. And if I’m busy living in your business, how am I present for my own business?

Now I’m not saying all negative criticism should be unheard. Criticism Is good, it builds you, it helps you shape yourself but be listener not a hearer, Know what to take in and what to leave out, when you start letting  others take control of your actions, you’re losing. When we start allowing people to instill insecurities and fears on us it affects our performances, our persona. No one should define who you should be.  People take feedback so differently, some let it build them some feel the need to defend themselves for others to see, defend our actions our wrongs, the defense mechanism differs from person to person but be open minded and take criticism feedback and whispers lightly. I used to be a bit of pessimist in the sense that I automatically de-motivate myself, yes,  I murder my own hopes, and no I’m not going to blame it on my childhood or a dead relative or some long untold traumatic experience that’s been eating me up since I was 5, coz its not. Some people were just born that way, and slowly have to learn to change and adjust ourselves…You’ll find its even harder to move forward when the criticism is coming from your own mind, but that’s the point, you cant let everything get you down. At least be selective with what you’re going to let get to you.

I end with a sad little sob story of how I tried every sport in school just because some ’friends’ said I suck at sports only to finally stop after trying absolutely everything and yes …even ping pong (and in my book anything that makes you sweat is a sport..lol)… I went to one of the game rooms and started playing tennis out of boredom and I really liked it and was really good at it since then...but that was after I stopped trying to prove them wrong..probably not such a life changing 'sob story' there's no

'and then i became a world champion'

but you get my point right?

[raspberrybrownie]

Project X Plan

lol its been like ages since my last post. ok not sure who will read this post but definitely he wouldnt. i hope my friends that in a 0.0000001% chance that might see this will keep it a secret too.  lol briefly read through my past posts and find it funny. ok shall start with me post.

i thought of writting it but then will need to start on a book but i lazy to write. ok so here it goes,.

on 7/7/2018, he proposed to me. it was epic coz was it rained heavily during the event. he got all my friends and his to help out, with tent in ecp, hand made roses, slides etc. it was all good, A for effort. i would have said “yes” if not for the rain lol. anw i said “okay”. but i told him to pass the “touching” part then i may say yes. anw we do went to resize the ring to a smaller size coz it was overly big, 57? when i am 47 -.- dunno why so much difference when i alrd given him a sample of my cheapo ring. seriously?!? anw managed to get 2nd free laser engraving lol if not ill be :(. ok so idk when he will do the (final) proposal again, but i think i will most probably say yes lol coz i dont have a choice? well of coz i do but then... lol it will be yes la. anw then i have this thinking, i can do better. eh! dont get me wrong wor lol it sounds bad. actually i mean if i were the one doing the proposal, i can do it better, then i tot, why must be the guy that propose, why girl have engagement ring while guys dont? why girl have to wear it and show that she is “taken” while guys can continue not wearing or can be seen as “single”? anw my point is gender equality yo! but i know it wouldnt be as we are biologically different, still i hope to make things slightly equal. and so... i tot of doing a counter proposal, aka i propose to him once he pass the touching part. maybe kiv the night before his bd or near the bd on a day which he has class. aft class maybe? ok or aft his bd also can (for anni also can) haha but well i may get lazy and not do anything, so i hope if u read this, pls keep it to yourself as i maybe 3 mins hot. so i googled abt men egagement ring coz i tot of getting it, but then damn ex lol at least 1k? ok cant be compared to the one he bought for me, but then sry i stingy. i will do a low budget but max effort for u too. and anw i saw blogs saying that men woldnt wear so much rings de, so no point getting it, which i agree upon too. if he were to wear a ring, then i rather it to be the wedding band. and anw menengagement ring is just slightly fancier than a wedding band. ok so i have recently ( yst night) set up a carousell acct with weird name coz i may be using it to trick and organise the whole plan. the rough plan is as such; get to know his class timetable, day time venue course. the event will be aft his class near his bd, hopefully will have a class a day before his bd, then nx day his bd can get leave. use carousell acct to meet up with him as a buyer in nus. ( i may want to get 1 helper to stalk him from afar, take photos of him and also make sure he follows the plan.. someone not suspicious and he doesnt know well...someone damn free and willing to help. hmmm (oh shit just “realised” that his bd is on mon)hmm or maybe can ask his friends to help aft his gym? or gym is fake de. hmm abit trouble his friends leh. i paiseh. ok we see how it goes, hope on his bd he got class lol. if not chage plan to sun ask his friends to help. oh yah, to be interest to buy a small item, so he woulndt bring a whole heavy item lol. although i tot buy book makes more “sense” coz i student.

plan X: say meet at outside (1st place)( the block) of the class venue (or nus conveient place) ( lets say 6.15pm if he no class). i can go over coz i study there stay at hall. then suddenly message him say meet at another nearby venue (less ppl) . ask him for a favor, say sth like do u see a book on that table?( and pencil box? lol so ppl will tot somone sit there study and will not clear it?) i think i left it there, was studying there then now left that place coz my friends looking for me, then i realised i lost the book (and pencil box). if its there can help me take and bring over to the new meet up place. (which is very near by, may be just around the corner). then at 2nd place, put a soya milk or sth, then message him say sorry got sth last min urgent issue, can meet 5 mins later, ask him help himself with the unopen drink coz i dont want it alrd but dont want waste it. sorry abt it , take it as i treat him a drink ask him wait for me for awhile. 5 mins later message again ask if got finish the drink coz once finish, he will see the hidden message (which i have think of. happy bd? happy anni? or 3rd place? or ask him open the book pg (a sig date/#) to see next hidden massage of 3rd place? idk yet) think by the time he will find the whole thing damn weird alrd, so at the 3rd and final place, it the real event. (hopefully a not so many ppl, quite dark place. (hmmm ok this is damn hard. or it can be on a no class day. coz if got class, very hard to prevent him from eating before lesson. or say i got a learning session at nuh (since last time also have) then ask to meet around 730 late dinner aft the talk at nuh. so he will wait and meet me for dinner. ok this sounds better. then the student buyer will still be same plan. ) so at final place there will be lights on the floor (<3?) maybe nearby can have table for me to put selfcooked dinner. then when he saw the lights, i walk out from hidden place (behind wall?) holding flowers or sth liddat and open a ring like box, inside not ring though, maybe muffin or sth practical as a gift to sub as a ring. ok. my plan sounds damn good lol.  but then i hope can do so in ntu coz i more familiar with ntu la. but ntu not practical unless he got sth there and i can make an excuse say to meet there. and ntu more meaningful for us. hmm.... or how to trick him go ntu like how he trick me go ecp? hmmmm. ok that will be for now. jaja

[lizzybeth1986]

Quick Thoughts on TRR Book 2, Chapter 13

• We’re getting closer to finding Tariq fam! Why is everyone so certain Liam’s engagement to Madeleine will be broken when he confesses tho?

• Ima go on a huge but very repetitive Hana rant towards the end of this post. You’ve been warned.

• “The Art of Drinking Tea”. Hmm okay generic title. I was hoping for some references to Cordonian tea ceremonies (Liam mentioned it during his date last book) but alas.

• “After a cursory security check, Bastien pronounces the room safe with a nod”. You may have removed a lock, paid a reporter to take private pictures of me and generally put a zillion security breaches in place at what was supposed to be a secure building, but check my hotel room by all means, Bastien.

• That said, Bastien is taking the fall for being loyal to Constantine…or as he puts it being loyal to whoever is Cordonia’s king.

• “Tariq had more wool coats than friends”. Lol I can see why, Liam.

•

Is it me or is Liam perhaps one of the few people so far in the books to point out Maxwell’s strengths (Hana might have done so in the truth and dare scene, and the MC may have done so in quite a few conversations with both Bertrand and Maxwell himself)? This IS very true. Maxwell not only has a way of getting people to talk, he has a way of charming them into talking more than he does so he doesn’t have to spill out *his* secrets.

•

Esther, babe, you called him and Penelope “silly” in chapter 6 😑 Stop acting like you knew this all along ffs.

• Maxwell about Bastien: “A double agent! Nice work, Esther!”. Is it just me or did Maxwell slip in a TCaTF reference there? (Raydan would be VERY offended, Maxwell).

• More pearls!

• LIAM I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT YOU’LL DO WITH THAT BLUE GROTTO PEARL NOW. (it’s in my custody tho. You’ll have to take it from me to do anything with it lol).

•

HANA HGGFgbJjBhgffh THIS DRESS IS GORG AND YOU DESIGNED IT YOURSELF ZOMG. I’m kinda sad this is a diamond option coz imagine saying no to something poor Hana spent ages making you!

• Also Hana’s black cheongsam with gold and red detailing is SO. EFFING. BEAUTIFUL. She looks like a princess. 😍😍 AND SHE MADE THAT ONE TOO.

•

Carved green jade gemstones have some very deep meanings in Chinese culture, but I won’t elaborate on that now. I’ll leave that for a mini-essay!

• “No one loves Cordonia more than Liam!” Glad to have canon establish that lol.

• Oh Hana. Poor, dear Hana. Trying so hard to tell her dad she doesn’t think neither suitor is what she’s looking for and never being able to. I’ve been there 😞 But don’t worry darling you’ll do an amazing job of it this chapter.

• Penelope reappears to tell Kiara about her poodle outfits xD xD Kiara stop looking sad about it even you know that sounds adorable xD

• Yknow I think Hana and Penelope should together start an online store

• Olivia: I find you less insufferable than Penelope, MC

Drake: Coming from you that’s like an expression of love

Fighting like an old married couple already, eh? 😄

• Whyyyy is Maxwell talking about the investigation in public where everyone can hear them? And immediately after that he says “hiding deep undercover”. THERE IS NO COVER HERE MAXWELL I CAN’T EVEN

• I love this group sometimes but their tendency to just share personal stuff (like Liam’s dad’s condition, which would have been okay if Liam had consented or the Queen hadn’t made it extremely clear that no one should know) or investigation stuff without even considering where they are is ridiculous.

•

I’m surprised Olivia just complimented something that didn’t come from Lythikos.

• GAWW @ Drake sharing his tea with Maxwell and not liking “buddy” xD

• Line of the day: “There will be no hugging at this table” - Olivia Vanderwall Nevrakis, Duchess of Lythikos.

• I get relationship points with Adeleide?? Wow I wonder what this means in terms of how they’ll develop her. I mean I do find her sketchy at point and I feel there’s more to her than she lets on, but having her as an ally…I wonder how this will progress in the story and what secrets we might learn from her.

• Soooo we get a little tidbit on what Madeleine was like as a child. “A serious girl” who became more serious as her chances to become Queen became more possible.

• “For Madeleine it’s all state dinners and policy” and not the amazing expensive drinks she could be chugging (I’m paraphrasing here). I hate Madeleine but Adeleide that’s what Queens are supposed to be doing.

• Maxwell tells us Adeleide had a lot of sway even before Madeleine’s engagement with Liam. I’d like to hear more about this.

• Also is Madeleine’s dad dead?

• “All these lessons in small talk over tea were for a reason”. Xinghai Lee you have zero chill.

• Also it’s interesting how we see both Xinghai and Hana crack here. There has been some serious tension that the two have been able to put off until now, but in the presence of Neville (the present suitor), Liam (the man Hana didn’t get) and the MC (the bad influence/Hana’s true love, depending on her equation with you), those cracks are bound to finally show.

• Because I didn’t do the romantic options with Hana, I guess my version of the scene would be less powerful because it really is meant to be a coming-out scene. I’m cool with that.

• Imagine how life changing that is on so many levels. She’s coming out. To her dad. In public. I mean not many people get to hear what she’s saying but the fact that she did it even with the danger of someone they know listening nearby, speaks volumes of how monumental this moment is for her.

• I liked this scene also because along with showing us Hana telling Xinghai what she thinks and what she wants, the writing shows exactly how hard this experience is on her. How much it’s taking out of her. How difficult it is for her to do this and how much she stands to lose. Her hands are literally shaking while she’s doing this. It may have been considerably easier over a phone line to her mother, but having the same conversation in person feels different.

• You know that Nelson Mandela quote about courage and fear? “I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear”. Well Hana definitely faced her fears head-on in this chapter and how.

• Sometimes you have to find your own way in life. No matter how hard or scary it can be. This is my life, and I need to decide what kind of future I want. Who I want to be. This is right up there with Liam’s dialogue from last week for me on power-packed dialogue. There is fear, there is confusion. There is uncertainty. But Hana’s message is loud and clear: it’s “I would rather spend my life trying to figure out who I am then be trapped in a prison of certainty”.

• I also love that we see Xinghai as a man who is clearly struggling with this change in his daughter, torn between their way of life and this revelation that their daughter wants something completely different. He is devastated by Hana’s words, but doesn’t force his presence on her the moment she states that she wants some time alone. And while he believes the MC’s influence is negative, he doesn’t project his frustrations onto her, just respectfully maintains his distance and leaves. I was hoping we would see Hana’s mother at some point but maybe they’re leaving her for Book 3. There’s plenty left to this plotline, after all.

• I also find it interesting that Shanghai is where all three LIs have confrontations/ conversations revolving around family. There are very marked parallels between Liam’s argument with Constantine last chapter, and Hana’s with Xinghai. For both children this is a first. Both have cracks in their relationships (with their parents) that are beginning to show now. Both conflicts involve the MC in some way. Both LIs are battling questions of who they are, who they want to be, beyond the influence of their fathers. Liam wants to prove he can be a better man and a better king, Hana wants to be her own person. Drake, due to the loss of his parents, concentrates on fixing his relationship with Maxwell, who - if Savannah and Bertrand do get married - will be family to him.

• @ Olivia claiming that “Hana seems to have finally found a backbone”: what, you didn’t get the memo on that when she verbally slaughtered you in Book 1 Chapter 18? (if you chose that diamond option) 😂😂😂

• I’m not going to say anything about Liam’s diamond scene, but I will relate to you something it reminded me of. Liam compares the MC to dragon carp in the scene - and given that my faceclaim for Asian Liam is Daniel Henney - I was instantly reminded of a scene from his first Kdrama My Name is Kim Sam Soon. He plays a Korean-American doctor called Henry Kim there, who is in love with the hero’s ex-girlfriend, Hee Jin.

There’s a scene featuring the two of them at an ancient palace somewhere in Korea, where she jokingly asks him to get her some dragon carps from the nearby pond, and he’s so in love with her that he agrees to do it immediately and she has to stop him. Even though Henry and Hee Jin are not together at this point, viewers of the serial mentioned that they did find this sequence interesting, because of the symbolism behind dragon carps (which I refuse to elaborate on rn) and the fact that koi (esp blue koi) can be an, ahem, reproductive symbol.

• After everything that’s happened between Hana and Xinghai today if stands to reason that she won’t want to stay home. I thought the bit about how even her bedroom doesn’t feel the same for her anymore was a nice touch. This wasn’t how Hana felt post-Coronation, surprisingly enough, it’s something she felt after her trip to Capri and Paris. That’s makes sense! Before this world trip, she was still struggling with who she was. But post Capri and Paris, she is still confused but feels more comfortable in her confusion and is glad it exists, because then the possibilities for her are endless.

• I won’t say anything about Hana’s scene at the restaurant now. I DO have plenty to say with regards to this being her last, and only, diamond scene in Shanghai later on in this post.

• Is there a chance I’ll see Lady Liberty with Liam again? 😁 Given that their first kiss happened there (on their VERY FIRST DAY) Lady Liberty has already witnessed our outdoor kink (yes. my MC has a pretty huge outdoor kink too xD).

• Madeleine’s fucking wedding ring…are you fucking serious. 😒

/Rant ahead/

Ooooookay. So I would have liked this chapter. As a stand-alone it hit some of the right spots for me. The gifts were lovely. The group bonding at tea was cute. Adeleide opening up to you about how she feels about Madeleine gives me something to look forward to in the coming chapters. Hana’s coming out to her dad (if she’s your LI) is phenomenal. Liam taking you to the West Lake is beautiful. And the Hana scene is fitting, given that for once Hana just wants to forget about her home and family and concentrate on where she wants to go from here. If this had been part of a series of chapters set in Shanghai, I would have been happy with it. But it’s not.

Look at how many chapters we have spent in Italy and France. 3 in Italy (2 spread over the same day, one showing us the bachelorette party) and 4 in France (the Savannah conflict itself is spread over 2 chapters, and the remaining parts are resolved in Shanghai). In comparison we get only 2 in Shanghai. Our first day goes in not one but two group scenes, and in neither of them is Hana herself the focus. And then we get this scene on our final day here, which gives us practically nothing, doesn’t really help us understand where she is coming from and what she grew up with. No understanding of the cultural backdrop that she might have grown up experiencing.

There are things I like about it. It’s a great role reversal - this time the MC gets to coach Hana, and asks her to just be who she is in NY rather than worrying about protocol. I’m also happy because there is some progress in the relationship at least in the sleepover scene, and we get to see Hana fighting her desire for the MC because she wants them to be really free before they can finally take that major step. I love how Hana, whose first time it is, gets to have a good conversation with the MC about whether she is ready or not. This is a big step for her. But as the last Hana scene in Shanghai, I expected much, much more.

China is Hana’s home. She grew up there. And her conflicts could have been much deeper than “my parents don’t understand me” and could have explored her upbringing and her culture. I was hoping for childhood stories. For Hana showing us her favourite childhood spots. For little legends and fairy tales she grew up believing in. For foods she used to eat that remind her of happier times. For quaint traditions that she could lead us through and that would mean something to her. Anything that would help us understand HER as a person better. I understand there aren’t a lot of chapters left and they’re looking to wrap up the mystery soon, but the imbalance is pretty glaring. As someone who wants Hana to have the limelight for once in her own home, it makes me uncomfortable.

Unfortunately, we barely get two days in Hana’s home city. We barely get any time to know her in her home turf. Her only diamond scene tells us precious little about her, and more about the upcoming America trip.

That stings.

/end rant/

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Senses Sansa’s presence Oh I need to tell her “I’ve arranged for you to sleep in the Lord’s Chambers” Me: Wait, what? Isn’t he the Lord of Winterfell? Is he trying to ask Sansa to marry him? Hehe, oh he wants Sansa to take it because she is the Lady of Winterfell…take off your shipper googles girl… but why bedrooms of all people show come on! My mind went straight to the gutter…

Sansa was not quick to respond either because she did not understand or was thinking exactly what I was thinking or was at a loss for words for the offer of Jon… so she played it cool… “You mean mother and father’s?” You should take it.

Jon thinking nice try with that move *wink she is throwing the sibling card…

“Im not a Stark” “You are to me” Jon internally screaming what I have always wanted her acceptance…

Ok i need to find out if she trust this littlefinger and what their relationship coz I sure dont like him hell i despise and hate his guts he sold My - Sansa. Keep it cool, snow

“Do you trust the little man?” Nope. Good. Sansa, he must still be upset about me not telling him about him and the KoV “I’m sorry Jon” with puppy dog eyes and face

Jon.. no not the puppy dog eyes I cant resist that I must resist that oh stuff it need to kiss her… yeah yeah to comfort her … no dont look at her lips just her eyes good good you are doing good now hold her beautiful face gently…oops i cant help but caress her hair that’s ok… must comfort her ….then kisses her forehead… in Jon’s mind “I will protect you. I promise. You are all that is precious in this world. I wont let anyone touch you ever again except me of course as you can see im touching you for comfort you know… you are the most precious person in the worl- wait oh im kissing her too long… quickly stop… then looks at her eyes again drowning in those beautiful magnificent blue eyes and those lips … oh stop go go now before you do something you will regret…

"We need to trust each other” Forehead Kiss that took forever Jon looking at Sansa’s lips

Thank you show.

I find this part of Jon very funny as he cant wait to leave Sansa after showing that moment of tenderness and longing to her…i mean surely he must know that Sansa came to him up there to tell him about something right? But i guess he forgot to ask in his haste to leave lol..

Sansa has to stop him and tell him why she went to him.

Sansa flirting Winter is Here Cue Jon flirting back Father did promised didn’t he?

You know what else Ned promised Sansa?

A knight worthy of you who is brave gentle and strong.

Thank you Ned for keeping your promises.

#jonsaisendgame

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