#could be like a metaphor or some shit

[the-punforgiven]

Realizing it's my own fucking story and I can worldbuild however I want is SO fucking dangerous I could say that curses are incredibly easy to perform in this world but they require you to know someone's face to cast them and then it'd be a small leap to say that masks helmets and other face coverings are commonplace because of this and bam I'm already like halfway to never having to draw a fucking face again

#I have never even once drawn a face that I didn't detest #20 fuckin years of trying and I still can't make one that feels acceptable #Plus idk I think it could be really like #intimate and romantic to show your face to someone idk #a sign of trust or a symbol of a covenant #could be like a metaphor or some shit #could also have wizards who deliberately DON'T cover their face because they wanna show off their Sick Magic Skills #or at least their ability to ward off curses #Hell could even be used to market themselves as a cursebreaker for hire #Could also have illusionists who change their faces completely #Or shapeshifters who have a whole different complex set of ways they interact with the latent curses that fill the world #But the best part of this #*I'd never have to draw a face again* #pun's text posts

[possumsarenice]

It’s nice to that The Sun and Moon Show has some cis representation with Moon. I mean, he’s the only one in the entire cast, but it’s still nice

#SUN IS TRANS DAVIS TOLD ME IRL/j #But like CANONICALLY SPEAKING #Lunar goes by he/they #Earth goes by she/they #Monty is genderfluid #I saw a post talking about how Eclipse could be a trans metaphor (but I would like to add that this could specifically be the #“Trans egg who’s trapped by internalized transphobia” experience) #Bloodmoon is just the “Numerous Bees” meme #and the nano-machines add to the trans vibes #And KC’s arc could hit with some trans peeps #Gemini was probably using gendered pronouns to “make things easier for Earthings” #AND EVEN IF SUN IS JUST A FEMBOY ITS STILL A LITTLE FRUITY #BUT TRANSFEM SUN WHO DOESNT WANT TO COME OUT OR EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE IT BECAUSE SHE NEVER GOT THE COURAGE TO TELL OLD MOON AND NEVER WILL #GOOD SHIT #sun and moon show #sams #the sun and moon show #tsams

[bigskydreaming]

But also I’m just saying, Scott McCall did not smirk like a smug asshole at the twins after taking apart one’s motorcycle to lure the other into getting caught with their motorcycle in the school hallway just for ppl to act like this guy was new to Shenanigans. Like. That was a Scott-Allison-Isaac group project, Stiles was nowhere near it, I know its been 84 million years since then but the myth of Scott having no sense of humor or prankster energy of his own will always make me itch irritably.

#im just saying it was like fifteen years of filing off this kid's every hint of an edge just so ppl could claim he has no edges and thats #why they dont like him #Scott was a conniving little shit in early seasons before the show turned his deliberately overdeveloped #sense of responsibility into an ouroborous that devoured him whole and overshadowed every other character trait #they'd previously packed into him #this metaphor possibly got away from me at some point #maybe #who can say really

[venturelovebot]

Idk how to word serious posts anymore because my brain is so overtaken by memes ┐(´∇｀)┌

#rambles #well this is certainly out of no where but #but my mental health has plummeted to the point i can't handle anything anymore #so for my own safety i am Taking A Break (boooooooo) #idk what else to say other than sorry #if i sincerely didn't want to [DATA EXPUNGED] over a video game character then i wouldn't be in this mess but here we are #fuck my life. and fuck having feelings and fuck not being born normal #but most importantly #fuck being born in the first place #... #if you got this far sorry you had to read this #i just figured people deserve some sort of explanation ig #if you unfollow i understand. i promise not to post such depressing shit in the future. it's just what's happening right now #i can't really word it in a way that's positive and cheerful and funny. like i sincerely just hit metaphorical rock bottom #idk how to make it into a joke i'm sorry!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAA #i could make a venture joke i guess #*hits rock bottom* *venture voice* this rocks!!! #anyway this isn't a cry for help. i'm already receiving it. it's just not beneficial for me to expose myself to triggers rn #especially when the biggest one is Lurking Right Around The Corner #*ominous music* #okay i will shut the fuck up now

[gracebriarwoodwrites]

My voice is a goldfish grown up in a too-small bowl, plucked from the pond and moved behind glass walls. I was told my voice was too old and too low. I bound it up in a higher pitch until it wasn't worth comment and now it has settled too small. It's beautiful--still-- but not in its trembles of pitch or its consonants that blur or the Rs that still rumble with a lost potential roar. My voice is beautiful in its golden light.

#poem #poetry #spilled ink #spilled words #voice #i've honestly thought about doing some voice training to get back to my natural voice #this poem is one of those ones that's literal but ALSO metaphorical ooo #it gets close to my natural voice when i'm tired which is why i can't make long form videos and only film any tiktoks when i'm tired lol #i COULD make long form videos i'm just a coward and also don't have anything to say that other people aren't saying better #gotta stick to my true art form i've concluded #YEARS after buying a fucking expensive camera lol #yeah anyway growing up with my voice was rough #i got teased by kids and adults would describe my voice as sultry until they were like oh shit she's nine can't be saying sultry #it was a cool voice and i miss it lol #fun fact the poem changes with my voice #maybe i'll read it for y'all lol but the sounds in the first verse bring it closest to my natural voice the second and third bring it up #to the register i like least by virtue of the sounds #the fourth really showcases the weird range #and the last one just IS #now let's see if i ever get the courage to read it to you all lol #like my voice is okay but i have to hear myself talk all my day for my job and i've gotten really self conscious of how the register change #based on situation #changes #i shall stop rambling in the tags of my own poem #i do love what i did with sound here though it's been a hot minute since i wrote a poem and i'm proud of my craft

[origami-butterfly]

Ok but sometimes the most infuriating political stance a person can have is point blank refusing to discuss social issues with you when you bring it up because they "don't want to get political". Don't open the tags unless you want to read a rant

#my random stuff #vaguepost #vent post #like... babes. how do i explain EVERY DAMN THING YOU DO can be considered political by some metric #YES that includes your silence #also the fact that they will happily talk about being a socialist and fuck the tories and everything #but then if i ever want to discuss something that doesn't directly affect them they will literally just shut me down #like i know our normal friendship consists of sunshine and rainbows and silliness #but I'd fucking appreciate if you didn't ruin that friendship by refusing to agree with me about things that should be a no brainer #I can't even discuss fucking JK ROWLING with them!! because their sibling loves harry potter and they always say “it's just a kids series” #and “let them have their nostalgia” #OH I'M SORRY. #DOES YOUR FUCKING NOSTALGIA MEAN MORE TO YOU THAN MY LITERAL SURVIVAL AND HEALTH??? #like. I'm sorry but there's more important things here #babygirl i don't know how to explain to you #that if a political party said they were going to kill all lefties people BUT give all right handed people unlimited access to horror films #you would vote for them wouldn't you? #even though I'm left handed you'd say “of course i support left handedness how can you even question that” #<- shit metaphor. i know. #but i could point out “yeah they want to kill me” and they'd say “I just don't know enough about it to discuss this; sorry” #like??? if you don't know enough #maybe. fucking?? educate yourself??? by having discussions about it??? #PLEASE pull your head out the sand sweetie #saying you care is just empty fucking words #i shouldn't be saying this; they're one of my oldest friends but GOD. #if you can't even agree with me about jkr being a fucking holocaust denier we're going to keep having problems

[running-in-the-dark]

okay I need to know this now. can't stop thinking about it (haha....) since I read that post.

so. you're supposed to just be able to stop thinking about things?? whenever you want? like. anything? even the really bad things? just. decide to not think about it anymore/at that moment/whatever??

#I'm being so serious right now I genuinely can't believe that's what that person meant #that's kinda. wait that makes some things my therapist said make a lot more sense. fuck is this another thing like when I thought my whole #life that people were speaking metaphorically when they talked about their minds eye and shit? #like. idk we worked on strategies to distract myself from some of the thoughts and stuff but it was always like. I was supposed to stop #thinking about whatever it was that was making me anxious and I didn't think it meant like. I don't know!! I don't know what I thought!! #I didn't think you could just not think about the really bad thoughts?! because. how??? #I can do it with some things I guess especially with my anxiety meds but the bad stuff?? no way #personal

[around-your-throat]

the thing that sucks the most is that you will finish the introduction and get half-way through the literature review before realizing the thing you're advocating for is actually just like. a bunch of baseless bullshit

#also boringggggg #while we're here there were some topics i wanted to write about but wasnt quite sure if i could get any advisors on them... #one of them was different music genres' effect on english learners' metaphor comprehension skills. so i can make people analyze fob lyrics #part of the problem was finding a wide range of people who listened to different english music genres + proving the correlation/causation #the only easy thing is that people who DO listen to alternative genres are annoying enough about it to give all the info you want #i also wanted to write about the pop punk accent and its place in the genres identity but likeeeeee you can just listen to a playlist lol #also also my topic is entirely orchestrated by someone else i didnt choose to write about some boring shit #i saw another student's paper about gaming as an english learning aid and was like AAARGGHHGHHH pukes blood from jealousy

[livvyofthelake]

also fun fact. you can effectively punch holes in plastic glow in the dark stars using a push pin and a rock and just pressing it really hard into your carpet or something so it doesn’t damage anything once it penetrates the plastic. in case you ever needed to know that

#i hope all my actors come to the premiere because i do not think i will be finishing this shit by sunday when we stop filming #going to need to tell them i have surprise presents for them all and use that to make them come see my mid short film #i have to stop putting down my own film. it’s not going to be mid. it’s going to be good. perhaps not as good as some others in the class #but it will not be as bad as the annoying ‘men’s mental health story’ bs one group is doing #frankly i don’t give a shit about men’s mental health but whatever #actually it might not be bad as a film idk their skill levels. but i won’t care about it due to there being no women in there #actually another group is making a film with no women (except the firdged mom) but i think theirs will be good #they have a cast of two people it’s not insane that there’s no women so i’ll allow it #and also of course that guys script was very good and he was actually my first choice when we voted on who’s scripts to make #no i was not my first choice…. i was trying to be humble…. #also i wouldn’t have had to be director on his film. i could have been the bitchy production manager….. #i also would have had to go on multiple hikes due to the locations they needed. so perhaps it’s a good thing my script got voted in too #and i know i complain but i do actually like my group they’re great people to work with #even if the Annoying one and i clash sometimes. i like to think of our dynamic as Divorced Coparents #which sounds more sexy than it is. it’s not sexy at all. there’s no sex going on metaphorical or otherwise #i just mean. we clash sometimes but we also have good rapport. it’s like a tense middle school friendship #and the other guy. he’s great. cringe at times but we love him #i wish i’d known him before this semester so we could have had more time to become friends this timing kinda sucks #anyway. i don’t remember how this post started. #ok bye

[bl00dw1tch]

more monkey thoughts. Dont look at me im just trying to explain/figure out More reasons why they (moreso LEMH) make me go crazy (again)

OKAY Full disclosure. this was spurred by some posts ive seen floating around and they are Objectively correct and i agree with them, but the wordage they use is what bothers me and makes me think--its about the general and growing frustration and dismay over LEMH's portrayal and like... increased Importance in LMK, at the expense of like, literally all the other characters new and old.

Again, objectively that is INCREDIBLY true and i feel it 200%!!!! Its frustrating because they just yoinked aspects of SWK's relationships with characters like DBK from the original JTTW and Shoved them on LEMH like theyre Tropes that can be shifted around without consequence--it seems fine and interesting when you first watch LMK with no context or background knowledge, but after knowing what his ACTUAL deal was in the book, looking back on LMK makes what they are doing with LEMH feel lazy and Genuinely poorly researched, rather than an intentional divergence from the original story--because as a general rule of thumb, even if the fans dont Like what you changed, you still want the things in your story to be done On Purpose, like you at least Tried to put effort into it! Its about showing the audience that you think they deserve a narrative that was crafted with Care, not just slapped together and thrown out for a quick Hype/Cash grab, yk???

Anyway So THATS the thing, and thats all cool!!! My issue (and i cannot stress this enough this is Me being Silly and Obsessed with the Six Eared Macaque im a chronic blorbo haver there is no Cure) is that those posts Also tend to talk about LEMH as though... he is a boring character. As though he's just kind of "eh". Or at least thats how my Admittedly biased eyes read them--no beef! Its just gotten me to thinking and now i want to try to write out What im thinking and Why, bc thats a helpful thing to do when you're struggling to figure in your head, obvs obvs

And im of course willing to admit that Yes, in the original text, he is just kind of There! He serves his purpose (aiding in SWK's character development) and then he dies and he doesn't come back again! Hes kind of a metaphor but hes also just an annoying guy! Hes not presented as anything special! I get that that is what is Canon, and thats theres no way to really like... read anything deep into it. Bc theres literally nothing there.

But my problem is that i cannot let characters like that just Be. Especially if the premise of said character could be absolutely FASCINATING if you take it all Completely seriously and At face value--if you try to see whatever is going on for them through their eyes, their minds. Its like.... You can buy a shirt from the store as is, and some might be fine Wearing it as is--while other's might see that shirt and decide it needs a bit of hemming and perhaps some embroidery on the sleeves. Altering it does not change the fact that the original design is what it is--thats just One altered shirt that one person is wearing and perhaps lending to a friend or two, yk???

I love metaphors l. Sorry that dragged on, back to monkey--

To me? LEMH exists in a nebulous state of inevitable connection with SWK--because i like to take the "LEMH is SWK's ~dark side~" thing seriously. In my eyes, they are literally the same person, the same qi, split into two bodies.

There are stories that exist today that explore this idea, characters with this kind of relationship--and i find them incredibly compelling! Because i adore stories that play with the question of what makes a person a person. What seperates you from your maker/origins? What is your purpose in life when you are intrinsically connected to another person, at your very core? Does that mean you exist For them? Do they exist for you? How does thinking that way affect a person, mentally and emotionally? How does it affect these characters, specifically, in conjunction with their personalities and the lives theyd led up until the point they knew about this connection? Have they always known about this connection? Only one of them?

How much more drastic would it affect you if you were essentially a nobody--and the person you are connected to is a public figure? Like Sun Wukong?

Id go crazy. Id go fucking insane? Can you imagine. Its about the potential!!!!! The potential of what knowing something like that would do to someone!!! Im losing the words im apologize i need to calm down--im Not done yet.

What i am getting at here.... is that LEMH would likely work Best as a character who's metaphorical aspects are taken Very Literally--especially so if the story also decides to lean into the idea of his hearing reaching through to the past and future, in any way. He is a character that would thrive on being portrayed in a way that allows him to be a bit Meta, if that makes sense

Yes, you Could just let him be a silly monkey who decided to start shit with SWK for giggles one day--that can absolutely have its merits! But that does not satisfy me, and that is why i am so passionate about him. I want to take my little guy so so fucking seriously because i think it would be SO fucking cool. And a very useful and convenient way to explore ideas about relationships with The Self--since in my eyes, that is what his relationship would be with SWK.

AND ALL THIS STUFF ABSOLUTELY HAS ANOTHER SIDE TO IT, HOW IT ALL COULD AFFECT SWK ON HIS SIDE??? LIKE HOLY SHIT. HOLY SHIT i dont know if i want this post to be That long so i might stop here and come back later to talk abt it from SWKs side in a rb or something--

anyway point is. I thank LMK for introducing me to the Six Eared Macaque, but upon further analysis the way they did him is actually pretty garbo, and im biding my time for till someone introduces me to or Makes a version of him that takes him to his full potential. thats all thanks for coming to my TED talk, get out of my house please

#horse.txt #jttw #xiyouji #liu er mihou #six eared macaque #sun wukong #god this is missing so many smaller thoughts and ideas and shit but i have no idea where to squeeze them in. #theirs lots of stuff going on in my head but its a pain to organize #lemh needs to be a tragic angry antagonist who feels slighted by the world for being dealed the unfortunate hand he was dealt. #even if the fact that he doesn't have what he wants is still technically his fault. kind of like a petulant child but more drastic #and of course SWK having to come face to to face with all that and recon with how lemh doesn't just remind him of himself #in a way he literally IS himself--just with some parts switched around or more prominent than others #he could still kill him or not--theres lots of ways to play with that (personally im curious about the angle of it being a metaphor for sh) #(and/or repression of the self in the Bad way--at least for a short time--because that seems realistic in relation to the original meaning #of that chapter) #with sanzang trying to get him to be less violent and cruel to their adversaries because it is detrimental for his spiritual development #the fact that him Killing lemh (a part of himself) is the tipping point for him to be less murder-happy is very interesting to me #and i like to think that while it was good for him in the long run it may have had very negative and Painful immediate consequences as well #because becoming a better person by Any method is never a straightforward one and done path--backsliding and mistakes are inevitable #itd be nice to see more stuff on the side of the fandom ive been in that explores that more #especially since that was like... the whole point of jttw in the first place #so much for not making this post any longer WHOOPS

[tibtew]

*sigh* something something the two-dimensionality of saeru's characterisation is a writing flaw, not a feature, and trying to pass it off as a feature whilst berating anyone who sees it as a flaw is uh. A Choice

#like we all know jin's writing isn't exactly stellar #kgpr got popular because of the characterisation of the Protagonists #but jin writes saeru poorly. I've never believed otherwise #he only really tried to do something interesting with the character in the manga... but saeru was always more of a symbol. which is Boring #but again #not the Main Point of kgpr so it's not a big deal #but that isn't to say that making saeru interesting weakens the narrative??? #just that the story functions without him being overly complex and stuff #some of themes however are so Fucked by his character it's so sad #could write a whole essay about how shit the whole idea of monsterhood becomes when saeru is presented the way he is outside of the manga #that entire spiel seto has about “real monsters” in novel 8 is so eugh #I'd love to pretend that's just his perspective but it's so clearly word of god #I also feel like shutting down arguments in favour of deeper characterisation with “well he's a metaphor for trauma” #inadvertently oversimplifies trauma #I have more to say but I'm tiredddd #txt #not tagging and shit because I don't want people in my notes arguing with a wall #idc if you like your saeru simple I just hate the fact that people frame it as right/wrong thing #I think when people complain about complex saeru weakening the narrative they're more so annoyed that some fans #want to give him the same sort of complexity the protags have #like I promise you I'm not trying to turn him into a hero here lol I just think jin couldn't write him very well #and there are things to explore with the little things jin Did write #idk why the concept of even thinking about those things annoys some people sm #“he's a murderer” he's a narrative tool within a story. some guys in a corner brainrotting over him won't make Your blorbos less interestin #or make his actions widely justified/glorified #I Promise

[catboybrain]

sniffles sadly. every day im so sad that fnaf didnt go with placing vanny into aftons role.... god forbid women do anything ! ! !

#just saw gtlive finish the first ending n like. urgh #maybe if i liked eclipse more i wouldnt mind how prevalent they r but woof man #like i get it its charlie and evil baby or whatever in the same body but come onnnnn #that and the candy cadet stories just bashing the same kid going into woods framework into the ground #i miss when it was like. this dude sewed 5 kittens together! this lady melted 7 keys! stuff like that yk that was different and scarier #i do rlly think the series is going toward this like polished marketable thing instead of the grimy sludge i liked .... </3 and the AI stuf #is sooooo boring like fuuuuck its so boring. i wouldnt mind if its charliebots bc at least theyre interesting !!!! #but mimic as the new villian? bro. dude. thats so boring come on... afton was interesting bc he was fucked up severly #and robots r just like. theyre just robots dude its not even scary its just a thing being programmed smh #without the afton behind it its kinda just ..... bleh #honestly i wish they would cap the story? like make vanny take aftons role; do some shit; end it in a tragic but cathartic way #and then if they want to make more games do either other families in universe (like fazbear frights) or prequels/ world building shit like #something set in circus babys pizza world or w/e .i mean you could argue its about cassie now but if her dad is bonnie bro we're still stuc #in the afton central place. and i dont like that hteyre moving on without wrapping up the 102938120 loose ends they already made URGH ! ! #is it too much to ask for a fnaf game thats crusty round the edges and really metaphorical for theorists to dig into but logical enough it #can be solved and also creates a good plotline . yeah i guess hell will freeze over before that #d.txt #sorry im sooooo normal about fnaf <- is abnormal. fuhnaffs theories r GREAT thoguh i love that guy he makes me happy about the franchise :o

[icannotgetoverbirds]

breaking news! local white man discovers folk punk and cries

okay so apparently that channel just makes all sorts of playlists like that? who knew that there was so much folk punk music to listen to??? not me!!!

what a wonderful world to live in, where one wonderful genre that it took me ages to learn about, that i had to look up if it existed because i generated the combination out of my own mind rather than someone telling me about it, has more songs than i could ever listen to!

what a wonderful world to live in where the channel whose playlist is one of the first results when you look up said genre, is still posting playlists to this day!! what a wonderful world where they were still taking recommendations for bands in the video that i found!

what a wonderful world to live in, where orchestral string instruments are fairly common in folk punk bands, where i could realize that, given the proper people and circumstances, I could start a small, casual, folk punk band. where i could find someone who's better at writing music, find some other instrumentalists, find someone who's better at making working poetry out of prose and clever plays on words, and get to experience something like that?

to know that maybe, just maybe, despite everything, i could find a way to collaboratively make art for art's sake. that i could find an opportunity to be a part of something larger than myself again.

#byrd chirps #im pretty good with metaphors im sure i could be useful in the lyric-writing process #as for writing melodies and harmonies someone else is gonna have to do that cause i ain't know shit abt music theory #i'd love to learn how to play a million different musical instruments but i can't teach myself beyond some basic mechanics #maybe simple melodies #tbh with some lessons on music theory and in various instruments i could probably produce on my own #but i want to like get a group of friends together and do that shit

[terapag0s]

OMG I KEEP STOPPING AND STARTING, STOPPING AND STARTING WORK ON X EYE SEED AND ITS BECAUSE THERES THIS CERTAIN SUBJECT MATTER IN IT THAT I JUST GOT TOO AFRAID TO TOUCH. SO IM LIKE COBBLING A STORY TOGETHER TO REPLACE IT, CONSTANTLY CHANGING MY MIND. I WANT IT TO BE AS COMPELLING AS BEFORE, BUT DIFFERENT, AND I THINK I GOT IT. IT HAS MORE OF A FOCUS ON THE PSYCHES OF EACH CHARACTER INSTEAD OF "BAD STUFF HAPPENING ALL AT ONCE"

#ITS SOMETHING THAT COULD BE CONSIDERED A METAPHOR FOR A REALWORLD PROBLEM #AND EVEN THOUGH IT ISNT (IN MY MIND) I DONT WANT IT TO BE MISREAD AS SUCH #🕳.txt #I WANT IT TO BE SO EVEN IF THE BAD GUY IS A PIECE OF SHIT U CAN AT LEAST SEE WHY #LIKE SOME RELATABILITY FOR SOME PEOPLE #BUT OBVIOUSLY NOT ENTIRELY BECAUSE I HOPE MY READERS AREN'T SO BAD LOL

[grimmjowjaegerjaquez]

Remembering the brief period in my life when i was obsessed with ashido, the only filler character with rights bc kubo originally planned to include him in the manga but had to cut him for time

#bleachposting #maybe its time to think about him again since i think about arrancar and hueco mundo so much #maybe its time to make him interact with the rest of them super begrudgingly #hey soul society we found one of your guys living in our basement. yeah he couldnt figure out how to leave. yeah for like 100 years. #do you want him back or. #listen i think hed be kind of upset to see how many parallels he has with the arrancar #wrt being stuck in survival mode for so long and trying to figure out how to be a person again #like can you see it. can you smell what im saying. #and also more frustrations he tries to ignore regarding his zanpakuto still not telling him its name #and it wont until he kind of. accepts some things about himself. #also maybe he should have cool fights with them and gain a mutual respect. listen. im right. #i remember wanting to make an rp blog for him #and it did exist briefly but i was so nervous about it #i dont think i ever advertised it on my other blogs. does it still exist?? did tumblr ever nuke it?? i cant remember the name #anyway during my brief obsession with him i projected on him super hard and made him trans. why? because. i could. #will i keep him that way? probably. just in a different way. #he hasnt had to deal with normie societal expectations in a long ass time. gender is whatever to him. thog dont caare. #he may have been holding onto the duties of a shinigami as a last straining tether to his sanity but like. that shit is going to snap. #its just a matter of when. and only THEN will he be able to move forward i think. instead of just being stuck the way he is. #like yeah he is literally stuck since shinigami cant make gargantas. but he is also metaphorically stuck. see it writes itself. #APPARENTLY HES IN ONE OF THE LIGHT NOVELS AND TRAINS A BABY CIEN?? THATS SO CUTE WTF

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

not to parasocial on main but I Am Worried About Her!

#and the thing is. even if Joe cheated I'm like... like... I really think there is some Shit going on that like… #my point is she's reacting in a way that I think probably isn't healthy #and I get why! It's a huge traumatic trigger for her #but. also. #IDK I feel like playing up how terrible whatever Joe did or didn't do was just in a sense… #Like it could make HER feel worse about what happened to a non-productive degree #because he might've been very shitty to her but if she finds herself feeling more and more hurt because #she and the whole world keep over-analysing it. Yeah #and that's not to say she can't express herself on stage – but I think maybe people are over-empathizing in a way that's sensationalizing #and will ultimately worsen things #I'm worried she might be metaphorically primal-screaming is what I'm saying. #taylor #fiona.docx