#Plus idk I think it could be really like

[the-punforgiven]

Realizing it's my own fucking story and I can worldbuild however I want is SO fucking dangerous I could say that curses are incredibly easy to perform in this world but they require you to know someone's face to cast them and then it'd be a small leap to say that masks helmets and other face coverings are commonplace because of this and bam I'm already like halfway to never having to draw a fucking face again

#I have never even once drawn a face that I didn't detest #20 fuckin years of trying and I still can't make one that feels acceptable #Plus idk I think it could be really like #intimate and romantic to show your face to someone idk #a sign of trust or a symbol of a covenant #could be like a metaphor or some shit #could also have wizards who deliberately DON'T cover their face because they wanna show off their Sick Magic Skills #or at least their ability to ward off curses #Hell could even be used to market themselves as a cursebreaker for hire #Could also have illusionists who change their faces completely #Or shapeshifters who have a whole different complex set of ways they interact with the latent curses that fill the world #But the best part of this #*I'd never have to draw a face again* #pun's text posts

[the-worms-in-your-bones]

I am once again going down the rabbit hole of trying to figure out the ages of the Gallifrey characters

#idk why my brain gets so caught up on this but it does #I’m also talking like start of gallifrey because I’m not getting into all that for them now #what bothers me the most is that we’ve got basically nothing on Narvin #I can’t remember for sure but I don’t even think we know what regeneration he’s on #I don’t think it would be hard to assume his first but also it could not be #like for brax we know he’s older than the doctor so that puts him at at least 1000 #and romana is around 600 years younger than the doctor so she’d be around 400 #and then I’m going with 50 ish for leela because we don’t know her actual age so I’m using Louise jamesons age plus the time she spent #married to andred #also with romana that’s assuming that her and the doctor experienced the same amount of time in between them traveling together and the #start of gallifrey #I guess that could also count for brax too but whatever #for narvin what we’ve got is that he was above the rank of a junior agent under vansell during the time of the fourth doctor #(at least probably) #so we can make the assumption that he wasn’t fresh out of the academy/cia training #which makes me inclined to say that he’s older than romana #but that’s really all I’ve got on him #doctor who #gallifrey #romana #irving braxiatel #narvin #leela #clearly this is a subject I am normal about #if anyone else makes it this far in my rant and has any insights I’d love to hear them

[mokeonn]

I fucking hate the tetris effect so much. Like oooh lemme play this funnie little card game rogue-like, ooh it's so fun it's gonna be the only game I play for weeks now, oooh what do you mean I'm fucking duplicating multi-card holographic sevens in my dreams

#simon says #yeah this is about balatro #i think it sorta taught me that I do in fact really enjoy roguelikes and i am pretty decent at them #at least I think I am #i only have 3 more card decks to unlock and the black deck is a FUCKING NIGHTMARE #i am not going to 100% this game because I hate the black deck so fucking much #that -1 hand is gonna be the death of me and has been the death of me #it's like I either fumble my first round and have to start over because I keep forgetting I have 1 less hand #or I get a nice groove but lose around round 5 because the boss bind was too tough #anyways I only really watch 1 youtuber play it so I have no clue if im actually pretty decent at the game or if im like #okay or something #idk all I know is that I am going to do my damnedest to beat that black deck #also I wanna try to unlock all of the collection because it's very annoying that challenge mode doesn't count #and I wanna do challenge mode but it is just annoying that it doesn't count anything towards the collection #but yeah im REALLY vibing with this game and every time I play it while high it makes me wanna stream again #anyways I have it on switch (because I could use the nintendo coins to get it at a discount) but I looked at the achievements on steam #i wish cross platform saves existed because if I had it on steam I would have all but like 4 achievements lmaooo #anyways im just autistic and really like card games and roguelikes so this is like the perfect game #plus big number go up

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[death-himself]

Nico probably has the weirdest concept of money, like he was raised in a likely really wealthy home, and he's the son of the god of riches, so he probably has something of a rich kid mentality. But at the same time he was homeless during the most vulnerable time of his life. I wanna know what goes on in that kid's head when he's making any sort of big purchase

#plus he grew up in WWII and money could get you different amounts then than it can nowadays so he'd have to adapt to that too #this also begs the question of whether hades gave him some sort of allowance while he was homeless #considering hades didn't really like nico a whole lot at the time i don't think he did #but he might've idk #pjo #nico di angelo #percy jackson #heroes of olympus

[fakeoutbf]

five stages of grief but it’s five stages of social anxiety

#walk with me #this morning i got a bouquet delivered to me at work randomly out of nowhere #the note basically said that i could count of the person even if for just some words of advice or a gesture that could make me laugh or mad #count on the person** #i immediately knew it’s from one of my coworkers and ngl i have a very charged?? relationship with them #in the sense that it’s very intense and we can be laughing joking and teasing or we can be really angry and pissed with each other #it can have very extreme emotions even if we just chill most of the time #idk why i think this whole year i’ve been leaning on them more?? and we started texting more often too #so we’ve been more properly friends lately #and for one i was SO EMBARRASSED for getting flowers bc my coworkers tease the shit out of everyone myself included and i’m not used to #gestures like that so obviously they were on my ass all day about it #and everyone asked about them and it’s EMBARRASSING to get that much attention #(me: i wanna be a singer / also me: can’t stand to be the center of attention) #anyway the person that sent them avoided me yesterday out of nowhere??? idk if they thought i was mad bc i didn’t reply to their texts all #weekend but i literally never reply to anyone and pms was a bitch and i just wanted to be alone #so they didn’t talk to me on monday i was mostly just working listening to music bc i was still emotional whatever #and today i did talk to my other coworkers bc it’s the day when my favorite coworker comes in and i talk to them a lot so i engaged more #and they were still ignoring me and then the flowers came in and we didn’t say a single word to each other today we just texted #they told me they sent them and that ‘they forgot’ what they sent and that it was just meant to be a nice gesture #and that bc they wanted to ‘surprise’ me and make me feel better bc i said i was sad at one point?? idek #i literally just want to tell them I HAD PMS ITS FINE I FEEL SUICIDAL ALL THE TIME and move on #bc now i’m second guessing everything they’re saying bc i thought we were friends and there’s no reason why friends can’t send each other #flowers or whatever but they’ve been avoiding me and then they keep answering my texts really weirdly and i always misinterpret flirting bc #i’m never outright romantic with anyone?? plus we’re FRIENDS i should have no reason to think that’s changed #but they’re being so weird and why get me FLOWERS??? idk get me a chocolate or a coffee i don’t NEED flowers #and then i said it was random to give me flowers out of nowhere and they’re like no it’s serious bro what’s serious?????? #your feelings towards me?? or just your will to cheer me up??? #if they don’t reply straight up in their next texts i’m gonna flat out say but it was a platonic gesture right??? #so yeah i’m overthink getting flowers bc what’s the social code for that and what is one supposed to do when they get flowers from a friend #delivered to their joint workplace where everyone can see them and think they’re from a partner or something

[sshireens]

i believe emily carey could have delivered (haha) the most grotesque and real labor scene of aegon ii if that had been planned. i truly think she really could have scared me with it

#alicent hightower #aegon ii #i think alicent not having labor scenes further separates her from rhaenyra thematically #like she is the Mother Above but she is not a mother #rhaenyra is portrayed to have such a closeness with her children #and the birth scenes i think serve that #but alicent DID give birth #and idk. #i wonder #plus aemma reminders #etc #i just think it could have really been good

[coquelicoq]

the sheer number of female characters in orv and the depth of every single one of them is rapidly ruining me for 90% of media. here i am just bopping along not even realizing how resigned i am to a 3:1 ratio of men to women in most media and then orv hits me like a freight train. like okay now i have standards. everybody else get on this level.

#i'm trying to think what it is about it because i *do* read/watch media that features lots of women. it's not just all dudes! #i think it's related to how they're all completely different people. they're not cookie cutter #and they're not just clones of each other with the numbers sanded off (han sooyoung notwithstanding lol) #or idk. like tmbd has lots of women and nb folks. but. though i appreciate how much gender diversity there is in those books #there's something about it that feels very deliberate. which isn't bad per se - it's good to know the author #cares enough about it to go to an effort - but it comes across as kind of clumsy sometimes? #whereas in orv there's just a lot of really well realized characters and oh hey at least half of them are women #it feels organic and effortless. idk if it actually was organic and effortless but that's the effect it gives #plus the fact that it seems the authors of orv never met a guy character that they didn't go #'he seems like he could be a girl under the right circumstances' about #orv #my posts

[modgirlyreposts-revamped]

I don't really go here, but all the members in The Amazing Digital Circus are in a polyamorous relationship methinks

#yes this includes caine an' bubble cry about it- /lh #i have a disease that makes me hc any group of characters i like as bein' in a polyam relationship wit' eachother- #ok but srsly tho i mainly headcanon this cuz the theory that the circus is a hell of sorts really got to me and idk why- #an' even though things could be better between many of them so far i still ship this cuz the way i see it they're all stuck there- #-but they're stuck there together an' instead of lettin' it get to them all they choose to defy their situation by embracin' eachother #like they prove the whole saying 'hell is people' wrong by embracing the fact that they may not click 100% wit' eachother in every way- #-an' that's ok since at the end of the day they do have one thing in common which is that they're stuck there- #-but they're stuck there together instead of being hopelessly alone wit' their own thoughts or in the basement #plus no relationship is perfect an' sometimes it can be a bit messy jus' like theirs since they may be stuck but they're stuck together #an' i jus' think that's beautiful in a weird poetic way #holy fuck i was ramblin' sm in here does anyone actually read these anyways- #the amazing digital circus #tadc pilot #tadc #tadc pomni #tadc jax #tadc ragatha #tadc caine #tadc gangle #tadc kinger #tadc zooble #tadc bubble #i'm tagging all the ships cuz fuck you lol- #tadc pomni x ragatha #tadc ribbun #tadc royalteeth #tadc caine x pomni #tadc funnybunny #tadc bunnydoll #tadc showtime

[symbioticsimplicity]

Y’all what if Lilith didn't choose to take a vaycay in Heaven? What if she got redeemed?

#if she got redeemed and it got hidden by Adam and Lute #then having Sir Pentious pop up in front of Sera and Emily would have been also to keep that possibility from being hidden again #not sure what deal she would have made with Adam in that case #other than maybe to keep the exterminators from cleaning house altogether once they learned it was possible?? #maybe give a double meaning to Adam's line about no one learning the truth??? #and it would make sense Lilith seemed by all accounts a good wife and mother as well as a good queen who wanted the best for her people #so it stands to reason she could have been redeemed especially considering her sin wasn't like...huge #maybe she got taken out during an exorcism since she wasn't technically hellborn she would have been fair game #and it would make sense that she'd want to spare Lucifer the pain of finding her dead so she slunk off somewhere??? #only to then find herself alive in heaven with no means of telling her family #it would also explain why she's just sitting alone on a beach instead of interacting with people when she's clearly a people person #she doesn't wanna be there so she'd rather be left alone #and if her deal was to help spare the rest of hell it would make sense as a perspective for having her go talk to Charlie #plus it gives a chance for her to be a rebellious little shit and tell Charlie her idea works and not to abandon it #if viv wants her and Luci to still be a thing and a healthy thing this would be a hell of an angle to hit it at #as well as giving Lucifer more motivation to take an active role in things #and maybe earn redemption for himself too?? #idk but i think that would be really interesting especially with the fans expectations leaning so far the other way rn #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel theory #hazbin hotel lilith

[bangcakes]

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#down so incredibly bad. he has eye crinkles when he smiles.... nah its the end #trying not to think about it but JDJJDJDJD the way he was waiting for me in his car and like so smiley when he came out. o im gonna !!!!!!! #GOD. im so obsessed. like hes just some guy yes. but also ???? idc NDNDNXNXNNXMXM #its gonna take years tho i can feel it NDJDNXNXNDNND #hhhhh but maybe less time than i think...? idk im so...... i got so shy. couldnt even look at him at points like JDJNXNDNXNZN #im probably sending like... the Most mixed messages but WHAT CAN I DO XJXJJZZMZZ #i get mixed messages from him too. god. it took us forever to be friends bc of this JDJDJXJDKZMZM #getting to More.... lmao good lord #personal #also god why did i have to see that post about consideration being like. a way u know someoje cares. like JDJJDNDN #him being like o i was gonna honk at you but i thought itd scare you. so he waved a bunch instead Ndndnnd #then when ppl kept hounding me about why inwasnt taking my jacket off (felt embarassed bc i looked cute JDJDJDJJDNDN plus it was COLD) n #saying like oh isnt it hot. and inwas like huh really. and he was like... well i wouldnt say its hot. you can feel like the air coming down. #um.... ya maybe these are small but HDJDJDJDNDNNDNDND hes so cute....... like he could have honked at me n scared me or joined in on #everyone sayin stuff to me but BDBNDNDNDND cute....

[junotter]

sometimes researching for avatar redesigns has you 6 layers deep into the Japan's Meiji era allies wiki

#im trying to mess with some of the stuff that feels weird about the ways the fire nation is depicted idk #like i do not feel optically it is good for like them to be so heavily based on japan's imperialist actions #while dressed in clothes that come from places japan colonized #but i dont want it to just be solely japanese though i did draw zuko and azula in hakama but its largely cause i wanted to draw hakama #and like the only place with strong japanese influence being kiyoshi island and my own frustration with the modern day samurai depiction #i think fundamentally it isnt a choice that had as much thought as i am putting in put into it but it does raise an eyebrow for me #anyway i think keeping the thai influence is fine despite the brief invasion japan had into thailand due to thailand then allying with japa #and further allying with the axis due to allying with japan #ugh and ive been told not to think this much about it because its fiction but its also fiction so so so heavily based on real places #and when you base fiction on real cultures you fall into some unintentional pitfalls #i also fucking hate the royal fire nation robes they look so meh and the most costumey out of everything in the show #they look like heavy blankets despite being a supposedly hot nation #theres ways to have heavy robes (heian era japan) but they look like i make them out of fleece and velvet blankets #back to kiyoshi island i think the really only aesthetically japanese reference in the show being an island of noble warriors is lame #plus over done #it feels like nowadays theres a lot of people who get all whiney about people saying fire nation is based off japan #but like dude the creators in the comics and korra like go even more into the japanese influence and clearly it was the original intentions #also i do think you could do some pretty interesting world building by having say there be an older cultural influence on kiyoshi island #from the fire nation especially if the place is established as a central port area then you tie in some okinawan or even hawaiian reference #and gives an explanation that makes sense to why kiyoshi stands out from the rest of the earth kingdom you have long term cultural trading #and it establishes interesting relationships even pre kiyoshi time thereby drawing back onto some real historic references #cause for awhile ryukyu china and japan used to be this trading triangle which could explain some of these various influences going on #i think you can get a really interesting harmony when you create the fire nation out of a mix of japan and thailand #i mean both have these floating buildings due to living on some pretty wet lands and theres harmony in that mix #god i did see one person go like “fire nation is more based on china because theres a lot of red and red is important in china” #my brother in christ red is also important in japan #red is important in like many many asian cultures #i mean of course a lot of that importance stems from china and cultural exchange with china but idk kinda silly to say with your whole ches #like if you want to bring china in then the dragons are the biggest thing like sure some mythos has dragons in japan #but a lot of those comes from china in some way

[todayisafridaynight]

would it be okay if u told me why u like aoki😭/gen😭😭😭😭BEEN TRYNA LIKE HIM FOR SO LONG I JUST CANTT but i love ur art so much so i still consume it otherwise lol

i liked tohru adachi in high school and tbh i think that alone is enough of an explanation for why i ended up liking aoki

#snap chats #haha see i told you last post's tags were relevant #anyway vLKVJEVLKAEJVLKJ IM CRYING ANON youre so funny. this is the funniest ask i coulda got thank you so much #i dont know why i like him either <- yes i do #fine lets get Real Talk about it #well first off all i thought he looked hot rolling out the elevator and i was playing the eng dub and i think his voice sounds hot there #and thats like. not athing that happens to me ever <- literally thought sawashiro was hot two frames into the game but anyway #i like politician characters. or characters that are in a position of power ESPECIALLY if they have to act like they dont suck balls #like i very much love the idea of the power of charisma and that type of thing not to mention the 'strategizing' as aoki puts it #that comes with politics. LIKE HE SUCKS DONT GET IT TWISTED HE SUCKS BUT //shrug emoji// #like its why i love the mine rggo stories i like seeing mine's thought process and how he uses his intelligence #smart's sexy to me idk what to tell you but moving on #its fun watching him lose his cool too ESP IN HIS FIGHT LMAO HE STOMPIN HIS FOOT LIKE A TODDLER SHUT UP #i also really love the arakawa family in general and thinking of aoki's relationship with each of them makes my brain explode #especially him and sawashiro that shit is painful to watch and i love it so much #i also thought him going from goth to republican was the funniest shit in the world like i howled at that AND i was distraught #aokis so interesting to me from the notion that he IS loved by his family but he has so much hatred for himself it eats him up #and as a result he cant be happy no matter what he does- how hes constantly seeking validation even if it's nothing meaningful #his lil. Dog-Eat-Dog world world belief to ichi also appealed to my edgy depressed high schooler brain. sorry. #his speech at the lockers also got to me. unfortunately. sorry everyone i empathized too hard it got too real it wasnt funny anymore #like as much as i complain bout the very end the ending is what solidified me liking aoki if not also cause of ichi's impact in those scene #plus... analyzing him and the environment around him is so much fun too.... #idk reasons for why i like aoki also boil down to personal reasons. he still sucks tho so i cant be upset when people hate him LOL #i probably have more reasons or could elaborate more i love rambling but i mean. who really wants to read all that 💀💀 #maybe for a character that WASNT the worst but. aoki is so LMAO #thank you for loving my art regardless :) im sorry i have to be attached to the worst guys ever

[icewindandboringhorror]

There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.

#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz #ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and #then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc. #Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific #cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or #etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as #you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on #accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have #as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence #of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate #versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a #neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest #ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling #and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for #documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like #sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I #can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If #I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my #ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ?? #Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be #accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor #focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it #were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan #that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is #some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my #kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means #i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m #in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in #one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability #& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER

[lizzibennet]

the thing about each pjo book is that each of them is uniquely the best in what it sets out to do. each is so monumental in what the story ends up amounting to, picking a favorite is almost like pointless. you could not have all 5 work so well if one was missing

#tlt introduces the world and the main trio and the main antagonist #fun adventure in wacky world. normal #som piggybacks off the already established status quo of the world (fun wacky adventure) and builds relationships upon it #explores characters more. more introspection from percy and a lot raised (and answered) about annabeth #plus solidifying percy's bond w grover #ttc was my least fav for a long time because it just felt like idk off #and i now think it's bc it's where the story pivots a bit and becomes more serious #it's still v much haha fun adventure bc it's children's lit after all. but it is once again meant to solidify #percy's bond w annabeth; percy's devotion to chb and his feelings towards the prophecy #as well as being the climax of thalia's character and kind of settling the fact luke really is evil and doing some real shit #exemplified by the fact this is the first book where protags die #and thalia pretty much kills luke. like he doesn't die but she couldn't have known he wouldn't die #so percy now REALLY has an idea of what he's up against #notice how the following two books really couldn't have happened w/o this kind of certification from him #botl is like. AHHHHHHHHHH it is my fav for a reason #i just really love how it doesn't lose the footing w the pace and the fun hijinks but still manages to deepen the relationships between #the characters #especially with the focus on percy's feelings towards nico and annabeth's towards luke #like *chef's kiss* that book is so fucking good please #and with a foundation so strong there really was no way tlo could have been bad lmao #but still the fact the book takes time from Teh Final Confrotation vibes of it all #to make a point to show percy going back to his mom's. luke going back to may's. hestia's presence in the middle of all of it #rick was like this series has a theme and i will show it to you NAOW #and the action scenes in this one??? UNPARALLELED. tlo and botl the most riveting to read #if you remove one of them the story stops making as much sense!! #(i can hear you all going yeah like every other book series and NO. esp ya/childrens lit has SO MUCH filler) #ME? pjoposting in 2023? it's more likely than you think #pjo

[pendraegon]

also. maybe it's because i was a hot fucking mess until i hit like 25-26. so im like...how are you 22 and having your shit together. genuinely like. if ur 22 years old and u have even an OUNCE of an idea of what you're doing. you're doing fucking golden. if you don't, you're still doing fine and there's an entire world waiting for you.

#ah. my cocktail medley of mental illnesses and literally a decade plus stint of literally hitting rock bottom and digging. #idk i think like. the older get the more i realize there's no official one and done buzzer to get yourself into gear you know? #it used to be something that troubled me for so so so long. but like......i dunno. every day is another day i never expected to be alive #for and i can make it in my own time at my own pace with my own needs and in the end. who can really judge my life in its entirety but me? #sorry im rambly today im just thinking of what i would say to 22 year old me who was.........so so so so different and upset and confused #and heartbroken and wondering if i should've died when i did. you know? i wonder what i could do that would have helped even and im not #saying that pain makes you stronger or whatever bullshit but. it gives you perspective perhaps. im 27 and i still feel young and stupid all #the time. i bet i'll be 48 and feel young and stupid too. and that's a comfort to me.