#constant pain

[drawingdaimon]

old ass men

#the comparisons go on #old af #fucked up skin #uh #constant pain #past trauma #and or guilt #havent finished rauls quest yet wont lie #fallout new vegas #fallout #fallout nv #courier six #courier #courier dai #dai #joshua graham #raul tejada

[trashcan-poetry]

Human body is beautiful, human flesh is not someting to be ashamed of it is something to be aprecciated

#beauty #beautiful #beauttiful girls #beauties #artistic nude #amatour #art #artists on tumblr #artwork #chaos #my art #poetry #poet #spank me daddy #spank me pls #constant pain #naughty #naugthy girl #tease pic #sexy tease #little tease

[antiquelover]

I love marching band

Marching band:

#marching band #marching season #band kids #school #constant pain #trombone player #trumpet #mellophone #sousaphone #sport #sports #marching band is a sport

[jamie-rosemary69]

Hey, it’s okay if you can’t get out of bed today.

Even if you had plans

Even if your family shames you

Even if your room/house is a mess

Even if your symptoms don’t get any worse when you stand up.

You are allowed to have a day of rest.

#disabilties #physically disabled #chronic pain #constant pain #orthostatic hypotension #any other disability

[succubus-interactivefiction]

Wait, you mean to tell me that living in constant pain for one reason or another is NOT normal? I'm calling bullshit!! I've been in CONSTANT pain since I was a kid. It can quite literally vary from day to day. As I type it's my jaw which is constantly sore and clicks like a mother, this morning it was my lower back and last night my ankle.

But really, not having pain is supposed to be a thing and I can't imagine that, like at all.

#not if related #constant pain #its a thing #pain #ouchie

[sadistic-softie]

Bro. I am so bad at taking care of myself that I undid half the fucking progress of physical therapy by not keeping up with the exercises when I stopped going. I did them for like, a few days, then stopped for a few weeks. I was gonna do them yesterday and only did a third of them before giving up. I'm literally starting to walk funny again and it takes me for fucking ever to climb stairs and I couldn't be bothered to give enough of a fuck to do something about it for long enough to build an exercise habit. I'm gonna need a fucking cane to walk because of my inability to take care of my own fucking health. I'm gonna be the only fucking person under 30 who fucking walks with a cane because I just fucking sit on my ass almost every time I don't have anything important to do because none of my hobbies require much physical activity except for dancing but I can't dance for longer than 2 minutes without fucking dying. Do you know how embarrassing that's gonna be? Apparently I fucking will. I hate myself so fucking much. I'm too young for this shit. I have fucking chronic pain because my muscles are too weak from being really shitty at working out and not being able to run because of my exercise induced asthma. I used to work out with my own personal routine I made from doing research to help myself lose weight and build strength. I did it every fucking week day for a few years because I was gaining wait. The routine didn't work and helped with nothing. I actually gained more weight. Then I got fucking COVID and my asthma got fucking worse so I can't exercise enough and walking doesn't make up for it. I only lost weight when I starved myself and everyone congratulating and encouraging me has no idea that that's how I really did it. The only thing I have left that can save my body is those fucking physical therapy activities, and yet, I don't even fucking do them. I'm just pissed off at myself rn lol.

#im sorry #tw self destruction #tw eating issues #tw weight #tw self hatred #covid 19 #walking canes #mentioned #chronic pain #my fucking spine is unsupported and tye bone is tilted in #thats why #the pain goes down my legs at various intensities #back never stops hurting tho #constant pain #im grumpy today #lol #mad at myself #insecurity #health issues #asthma #self care routine #or lack thereof #vent #tw vent #sorry for venting #all the fucking time #i should stop

[crystalavengerva]

#konata lucky star #konata izumi #ily konata lucky star #lucky star meme #konata #konata meme #meme #video meme #mp4 #silly #voice #constant pain #voice actress #voice meme #yt

[monophobix]

i wonder if jon can even remember ygritte’s death properly because of how badly his head was damaged literal moments before

#jon snow #ygritte #tormund giantsbane #game of thrones #constant pain

[dexrlybel0ved]

ok but like being in pain or discomfort, or being exhausted all the time CONSTANTLY is so frustrating. nothing helps it, and doctors are often just like,

"you don't have good sleep hygiene, spend less time on your phone!"

"you just need to do some stretches and exercise more!"

"take a tylenol/advil!"

"fix your posture!"

"you probably just have iron deficiency or something!"

idk, there's always a dismissal and even when you do all the things they say to, it's just sort of like "well, that sucks ig. sorry." frustrating af.

#pain #constant pain #exhaustion #chronic exhaustion #chronic pain #unexplained pain #unexplained chronic exhaustion #vent #stfu bree

[dustedmagazine]

Listed: Al Karpenter

Al Karpenter was originally Álvaro Matilla (from Barakaldo). In 2014, Mattin started to collaborate with him and in 2022, Marta Sainz and Enrique Zaccagnini from Santander joined. They’ve spent the years post-COVID in a fever pitch of noise collaboration, working with fellow experimenters Sunik Kim, Dominic Coles and Triple Negative on their album The Forthcoming and with CIA Debutante on another self-titled disc. Jennifer Kelly reviewed both in August, writing that, “Al Karpenter swamps threads of song in seething banks of noise and dissonance. You find yourself focusing on blaring surface noise, while sense and melody percolates somewhere underneath.” Here Mattin picks ten boundary-pushing favorites.

El Inquilino Comunista — “Cruel Off” (1992)

This track was actually in their first tape, which for me, was probably the best thing to come out of Getxo Sound, a small noise rock scene that happened in my hometown around the early 1990s. I remember getting this cassette and being blown away. I got inspired to see that there were bands doing things like this in my surroundings. Then I found out about other great bands like Cancer Moon, La Secta, Lord Sickness and Pop Crash Colapso. Now some of the members of El Inquilino Comunista play in other bands like Basurita and Trampas (where my very good friends Piji and Pablo play).

Hanne Boenisch — A Journey to the North Pole: A documentary about the Scratch Orchestra and Cornelius Cardew. (1971)

This documentary portrays the last tour of the Scratch Orchestra and the heated debates that they were going through, but also it documents the amazing experiments and street concerts that they were doing. After this tour, a split happened between the more Maoist-influenced section called the ideological group around Cardew, John Tilbury and Keith Rowe and the more anarchist and performative tendency that went into forming the Slippery Merchants. The tension between the artistic and ideological parts and their split reminds me of the division that occurred with Situationist International in 1961, in Gothenburg, where all the artists were expelled from the group.

Junko — Sleeping Beauty (2002)

I heard this record at Taku Unami’s house when I was on tour in Japan for the first time in 2004. I knew Junko from Hijokaidan, but this solo recording really cut through everything that I listened to before. It could be said to be concrete poetry or noise, but for me is something else that takes an existential level. What are we as humans when communication becomes only lubrication for commodification? This is not a form of primal scream but rather an expression of the impossibility of meaningful existence under capitalism.

Parmentier — Luxsound: 5 Untitled (1998)

Rosy Parlane and Dion Workman formed Parmentier when Thela — the New Zealand noise rock they both had with Dean Roberts — disbanded after a legendarily chaotic concert in New York in 1997. Parlane and Workman left their rock instruments and started an excellent electronic label called Sigma Editions and their band Parmentier. I saw them live in 1999 at the Sprawl in London, and I was so moved by this amazingly precise electronic music but made with a New Zealand noisy attitude which gave it a very warm character. I ended up becoming very good friends with Rosy, Dion and Dean and collaborating with all of them on different occasions.

Constant Pain — Demon Lover

Another band from New Zealand with Cameron Bain, Greg Cairns and Roddy Pain.

Cameron lived in London and used to play in the bands The Mean Streaks and Heliogabalus with Matthew Hyland (of Triple Negative). Roddy also had a short-lived band called Evil with Liz Matthews and David Mitchel, which was simply incredible. Both Cameron and Roddy took the rock spirit seriously, unfortunately to its ultimate consequences. Noise rock made with love and integrity.

Roberta Settels — “Landscape With 3 Tape-recorders And…” (1985)

I got this record, Isolation! Meinhof In Memoriam, when I was living in Stockholm, and I thought it was the coolest record ever. Settles self-published it on her label Music in Crisis after Caprice Records — an institutional label part of Musikverket (Swedish Performing Arts Agency) — refused at the last minute to publish it because they were scared of the political message of the record. Some of it reminds me of what the composer Bernhard Günter was doing in the 1990s but without any of the esoteric connotations. For me, this is a great example of how avant-garde music can meet radical politics.

Batile Alake — The Waka Queen

When Xabier Erkizia and I got to Lagos in 2014 to record Billy Bao’s Lagos Sessions, the first thing that we did was to go to Jazzhole record shop. The owner Kunle Tejuoso started to play us all these amazing records of Sakara, Apala and Waka Music at full volume, and Alake really struck a chord in us. For some reason, later on, Kunle would not tell the name of Alake as if she were some sort of sacred secret. Somehow, we managed to find out who she was, and since then, we have been in love with her.

Petrona Martinez — Le bullerengue (1998)

After that experience in Lagos, I have been searching for similar sounds that focus on percussion and voice in other places by tracing Afro-Caribbean music. The first thing that I got into it was Cuban rumba, especially Muñequitos de Matanzas. A couple of years ago, I was hearing a DJ session of Amuleto Manuela, an incredible Colombian DJ based in Berlin, and she played Petrona Martinez which is bullerengue from Colombia, and this got me into similar forms of music like Puerto Rican Bomba of el tambor from Venezuela.

Gérard Lockel — Gwo Ka Modènn (A.D.G.K.M - 1988)

Another interesting musical genre from the Caribbean is Gwo Ka from Guadalupe.

I discovered Gérard Lockel when I was researching Bèlènou, a fascinating group from Martinique mixing traditional Bèlè with avant-garde approaches. Bèlènou was founded by Edmond Mondésir and Léon Bertide, and I read that they were influenced by Gérard Lockel, so I went to the source, and it was life-altering. I quickly found out that I was not the only one deeply touched by his music, his records cost between 300 and 600 euros on Discogs.

Elvin Brandhi — Shelf Life (2019)

My friend Miguel Prado mentioned Elvin Brandhi, and she is doing some of the best stuff that I heard lately. She is collaborating with incredible artists and travelling all the time. A noise nomad and a fantastic improviser. The first time that I saw her was with Yeah You — the group that she has with her father — at an empty shopping mall in Glasgow as part of the extraordinary Counterflows festival, and it was magnificent. As far as I know, this is her only solo record.

#dusted magazine #listed #al karpenter #mattin #El Inquilino Comunista #Hanne Boenisch #cornelius cardew #scratch orchestra #junko #parmentier #constant pain #roberta settels #batile alake #petrona martinez #gérard lockel #elvin brandhi #Youtube

[periwinkle-the-11th]

Vent post

I find it a lot of fun when people tell me to get out and do some exercise to help with my mental health like yeah sure that sounds great in theory, but i also have physical health issues. I would LOVE to go on a walk. unfortunately, most days i can't walk from one side of my house to the other. Taking a long hot shower sounds amazing! but some days I can barely stand, and heat makes it 10x worse. Not only do I have to convince myself to get out of bed, I have to wonder whether or not I can get out of bed without the head rushing, breathless, dizzy, disorienting, vision blackouts that haunt me.

#this turned out more venty than i wanted it to #vent post ig #mental health #physical health #they both suck #my body may or may not be slowly deteriorating and my doctors literally dont care #doctors suck #istg once i find out whats wrong with me i'm sueing the doctor whos been telling me i'm dehidrated since the 4th grade #im literally 14 lady #i shouldnt be worried about whether or not the doctors will find out whats wrong with me before my body gives up me #the extreame fautige #muscle weakness #constant pain #nonstop headaches #and everything else thats wrong with me #Aren't worring at all!! #thank you so much for telling me the exact same thing for the past 5 years of my life and doing absolutly nothing to help!!

[bolontiku]

You know what is great?

Being in constant pain. Fucking legs hurt, wrists ache all the time, back hurts, shoulder still in pain. I do stretches to help but it is constant and I don't want to take pills all the time.

I am so very tired.

#chaos journal #pain #constant pain #old lady tiku #old lady #body aches

[stinaposting]

Struggling to think of a new username

#constant pain

[luna-mermaid]

Day 4 of Travelers Diarrhea. I’m completely over it.

#constant pain #so much poop #literally why god why #save me #pepto is my savior #make it stop

[sneakdevil]

Hi, I'm drinking my 6th cup of coffee for the day.

I fought off a nap at 3pm while working.

Now I'm home from work and can't fight this nap.

Welcome to my life with chronic pain and narcolepsy. ✌️💜

#chronic fatigue syndrome #chronic disease #chronic illness #chronic pain #chronic fatigue #narcolepsy #nap time #am sad #wish I could get through the day without this #work all day #no fun time #need a vacation #or a sugar daddy #sugar daddy with no sex though #UGH #frustration #runner's knee #pain #constant pain #constant exhaustion #its exhausting being exhausted

[overgrownlovee]

My lover is hopefully getting me a cane!! Im v happy, my mum recognises my disability but says "im not disabled enough for one" when i know i am because yknow... Its my body??? I think i know when i need a cane.. 💀💀 but yea!! :D im happy abt this

#actually disabled #disabled #disabled community #fibromyalgia #constant pain #physically disabled #chronically ill #cane user