#christian struggles

[yeslordmyking]

Flopping back and forth between "dude why do we gotta have a purpose, why can't we just chill?" and knowing that even if I was 1000% sure of the totality of my specific purpose I'm too horrible a person to fulfill it

God please please have mercy on my soul for failing you either way. For failing you in every way

#random #personal #christian struggles #is this depression? #lethargy #giving up #negativity #pessimism #failing God #failure #have mercy on my soul #forgive me Lord #self loathing #purposeless #aimlessness #i am a horrible person

[handsomeawkward14r14i]

WARNING : Religion / MentalHealth /Philosophy Skip all Text in ORANGE to avoid .

Been a While since I’ve posted a Blog , it feels like I’m talking to a void yet again. Guess that’s what I get for having to start my channel all over and failing to use Hashtags the “responsible way.”

Welcome to my Tumblr!

I’ve only had it for a year ….and the only thing I ever knew about it before I took the plunge was that Ask Pinkamena came from it and so did allot of early 2000’s EDs ,that it was Chaotic, and that it would be a good mental break from mindless TikTok scrolling That last one , my friend getting it and the start of the end of my High school Senior year led me to making a Lies For the Liars / JTHM/Invader Zim / Momster Energy /Emo themed Tumblr.

Moving Forward from that ; idk what will become of it , It might take a turn for the worse , it might take a turn for the better , or just whatever I end up Hyper fixating on ( which happens to be more religious things at the moment. Contrary to my SpaceHey page Start of April 2024 is probably the best I’ve ever been. Religious or not it’s nice to have something to fall back on when you can’t take on life for yourself. I don’t condone ignorance but worrying about everything and getting nothing done is very different from Trusting in someone you can’t see and seeing answers show up to your problems. So much better than letting them slowly kill you.

If I read that and didn’t have any idea about Christianity or was struggling with sin and or was stuck in the sin cycle constantly hating myself or thinking that God didn’t care enough to help . I’d be confused and I’d think you were one of those lucky people and that something was wrong with me . Or I’d think you were a miserable boring no life brainwashed loco .Or I’d disagree out of religious trama or discrimination against sexuality or gender or just a completely different set of beliefs. All respect! I feel you and I don’t blame you for your opinion I’ve had plenty of doubts over the last two and a half years and experienced slight judgment from the people who claim to “love everyone.”

Anyone who wants to hear let them, anyone who doesn’t it’s perfectly understandable and I hope you love and take care of yourself. <3

so let me break it down. In Christianity you believe a man named Jesus was sent from Heaven to die for your sins ( look up some videos on it I’m not great at explaining.) , Gods only son. He was born by a woman who had never had smex with her husband and once he was older he began to teach people in his Town/City /ect. about his Father and About how to love each other . HE WAS Crucified , Dead , and buried After Jesus died he rose on the third day. April 30th today btw !!!

If you’ve been a Christian for a while and either struggled to do everything right . Or are an older Christian, are filled with the Holy Spirit but feel like you sin too much or aren’t fit for the job . Stop for a moment. Stop that thought process God doesn’t hate you for some stupid Sin you keep doing over and over yes , even if you’ve repented repeatedly . It’s not your job to fix it yourself and it’s tricky to figure out especially when you think you’ve given it to God but your still trying to figure out how your going to dig yourself out of the mess you’ve made. It’s simple, repent , pray , fix your eyes on God( focus simply focus on him , watch videos for all I care on things your curious about that relate to anything in the Bible it doesn’t matter.) and ask him what he wants you to do for the day or how he’s going to fix your problem for you. like your life depends on it. And when the devil starts talking Rebuke and Resist. If you have crystals or idols in your house get rid of them if you have placed power on them . Crystals and statues aren’t inherently bad but can be when you place belief or power on them , if you have Sleep paralysis Anoint your bedroom and or home spiritual attacks are real and they hindered my growth for longer then what i would have liked them to . They also worsened my mental health and made me believe I was the problem , that something in me was off , that i would never be able to do anything or get anything done , that I would never fulfill my potential, that I was stuck , I was too self conscious to take myself seriously, but to pessimistic to not feel self conscious when I wasn’t serious. It was too much of everything and too little of what i needed. Not to mention I craved the pain I craved the uncomfortable feelings because I’d gotten used to them and they were predictable . ( wow , how emo of me .)

Sometimes it’s hard to step away from the past

Sometimes it’s impossible to forget

Sometimes that shit seeps into your everyday life , friendships , relationships , religion. It ruins everything and forces you to be too involved or too detached. Mental health is real and when you’re already struggling like that Demonic Oppression happens a little too often especially when you are open minded , or accidentally or purposely open the door to it . Christians with the Holy Spirit , they see the light in you they’ll do whatever it takes to dim it …and it’s not like some funky little spirit that likes to mess around and see if they can make you feel sad or mad and or trick you into doing drugs . No it’s all meticulously planned …..like a subscription to a Channel…only personalized ….your a walking target , but also a walking embodiment of hope to those who no longer have it .

If you’re beautiful your either preserved, mocked or killed

God is out to protect and provide for you

Satan …well he wants to kill you that doesn’t always mean he can.

The innocent bystanders “ who may be complete jerks.” Are the ones who you need to show love to but remember you can’t love others until trying to love yourself ….until you quit hurting yourself ).

One more word of advice!

Live like you TRULY DIE ! TOMORROW!

the world will end tomorrow or by the end of the week how do you live during that time . Do you become a Nihilist ? Do you remain the same ? Do you enjoy every minute thing , take in every detail , make it a point to talk to the people around you , take a break from the phone and go watch the sunset, hear the crickets or go touch some grass for once ! it’s up to you but enjoying the small things , even the things that are mundane and boring helps tremendously. Granted if you don’t feel a sense of urgency you probably will read this and think nothing . But hypothetically if I could promise you that you would die tomorrow, what would you do . Get closer to God , Break out your favorite CDs to listen to one last time , Go on a walk and reflect , make amends . Spend every day like it’s the end !

If I can I will keep Posting Random Thoughts, Comic Strips , whatever comes to me . but don’t expect my page to loose its “abnormal atracting glisten”….( the fuk ….? I mean..)

Weird Sparkle.

Good to be back! Happy Easter you guys !

#christian struggles #mental health

[zoe-a-scott]

God knows my weaknesses. my innate humanness, the flaws in my compassion and flesh. I am not far gone but every night when laying in lust and instead of praying your name, I feel a loss in the war waging in the trenches of my spirit. the fear I have of never seeing your face if I privately kiss the lips of a man or woman or someone I love, does that sin count or count as a sin, does it mean I have failed. the pleasure in pulling sharpness against my skin, when my mind is in ruins, is this permanent defamation of your precious vessel- God you know my weaknesses, I plead to find the answer in your name.

#bpd poetry #poetry #christianity #christian poetry #christian struggles #lovecore

[gobingirl]

I am the biggest mistake God has ever made and I wear that title with pride.

“God gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers” he gives them to me and then covers his eyes and runs. He knows I’m about to fight this battle with a rubber chicken and a trash can lid for a shield but somehow I’m gonna come out of this victorious.

Will I need therapy afterwards? Absolutely, but so will all my enemies. And maybe God too, if he peaks out from behind his hands to watch.

#funny #christian struggles

[mentalhealthmantis]

Lord, I pray that you would forgive all of those struggling with sin (including me!). All of us sin, but there are some that recognize their sin and want to do better by following you instead of the world. I pray that you would remind all those suffering that you still love them despite the fact that they sin (but that you don’t love the sin itself). Please help these people to ask for forgiveness, forgive themselves, and come up with a plan to resist the temptation of sin in the future. Amen.

#prayer #prayer request #pray for one another #pray for me #sin #forgiveness #christian struggles #christianity

[christianbibletopicsuk]

Going Through the Valley Before We Reach the Top

There is no way, for you and me, to go to the top of the mountain, before we pass through the lower parts of that mountain, and that is, the valley. Everyone wants to go to the top, without going through the valley, but there is no shortcut. You can not appreciate in the same way the experience of being on the top, if you do not have the experience of being in the valley. Psalm 23 talks about…

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#challenges of faith #christian struggles #Christian suffering #christian temptations #Comfort from God #faith is tested #growing in faith #Trusting God

[jennyyyeeettt]

Christian thingies!!

GO DRINK SOME WATER FIRST main thing of the post: If you are like me a Christian struggling with having time or forgetting to take time for God GLORIFY APP is actually so nice, highly recomend. It can take you like 5 mins or so and there's an option that u can listen, so if u r doing something u can sorta like play it in the background or something. hope it helps someone ----- the rest is just ramble, you can ignore it. - I AM a christian But my actions don't define christianity bec I'm just a human. and actually no human can be the definition of any religion, I'm not the most perfect christian, but that doesn't cancel the fact that I believe in God. (I'm saying that bec im tired of being judged bec i don't act "christian enough" according to some people) i'm human and im born with flaws!!! >:C So as a person who's born a christian I have gone to many churches. I've discovered that every church is different, some are boring i'd rather die than attend and some are too fun it makes u dont want to leave for some reason, in my case the closest church to my home is like 10 mins away and its a bit boring and awkward while my fav. one is 2 hours away and it's perfect - tho i dont know anyone there - As an introvert it's been hard bec I don't like praying out loud or participating in activities and it's so hard for me to make friends bec church people here in my coutry are strict and you never know what to expect if you opened up to them about some stuff, plus i already have trust issues lol. so anyways, and Im not the type to pretend im a good girl in church and act different outside (not anymore) so I don't have church friends and i don't attend as much as i like and so I dont get encouraged to read the bible anymore or even listen to anything that have to do with that, bec tbh my brain is always like "we want something fun" yano.. like a human's brain ... so anyways i've discovered this app. Glorify, and it's so calming and sweet, and im trying it so i hope it makes a difference, I kinda stopped having high expectations, and forcing myself to act good bec it only makes me dislike it more and i know im doing it wrong bec i feel forced to pray and worship and all that, cuz im sure im supposed to enjoy it. but to be realistic it's almost impossible to enjoy it as there are some obstacles in my case like being anxious to talk in a crowd or the distance as i said or having other things that i gotta do ... sooooo I'm trying .. I'll see how it goes.

#real life #christians #christian post #christian struggles #christianity #jesus #religion #christian stuff

[instillpeace]

What is it we're seeking?

When I was younger, I knew.

I knew what it was I wanted. I knew where I fit. I knew what I wanted my future to look like. I knew who I was and what mattered to me.

I knew.

There were no strings attached. There was nothing holding me in place. There were dreams, there were options. There was a place I belonged. I knew.

And now. I look at what I have become, where I am now. I look at my sweet baby boy and at the house I live in and the work I love. I look at my husband whom I love and hate at the same time and the future that I no longer get to have. I look at the softness of my belly, at the circles under my eyes, at my draining bank account as I try so terribly hard to keep up.

To keep up with his drinking. To pay the rent. To match the bills. To juggle my baby and his daycare and the plants I own and all of the things I'm taking care of and I look at myself and can't muster enough energy. I can't find enough within me to chase the things that matter. To volunteer and give to and help others. To reach out and schedule meetups with the people I want to breathe in to.

There is nothing left in me at the end of the day. And I'm trying. Trying so hard. Trying to keep this bright smile for my baby boy. Trying to bake and love and become a writer. Trying to make things work with my husband as he drinks and is irresponsible with our son and pretends everything is okay while he spends and spends and expects me to fill in the gaps. And I can't forgive him. I cannot for the life of me figure out how to love him, to want to be with him, even in the moments when things are good between us and I know I should have the heart of Christ, should let it all go because why else am I here but to glorify God, especially in our marriage?

I'm here, stuck, living my day to day life and feeling like it's nothing that I wanted. And I can't regret it because I have my baby boy, the light of my life. But I can regret it because why didn't I go into the Peace Corps when they offered me a spot? Why the hell did I think it was okay to get married to someone I'd known for a year? Why did I let myself become swept away in a fairytale, never stopping to examine all of the red flags that I can see, clear as day, hindsight 20/20?

I want to be done. I can't be done. Too many people need me. I don't know what I want right now. I don't know what I need. I don't know how to want only what God wants for me. I don't know how to put aside my selfishness, how to take care of it all with a servant's heart. I don't know how this can continue, but I don't know how to make it stop.

And so that is me, and that is where I am. And all I want is to glorify Him, to rid myself of myself.

And I don't know how.

#seeking peace #too much #myhusband #fightingforhappiness #fightinginlife #lifestruggles #christian struggles #where do we go from here #reaching out #hear me

[yeslordmyking]

Stop obsessing over whether or not you'll get what you want in this life. It doesn't matter either way. Just do what it takes to get into Heaven, and stop caring about this temporary life. It's nothing. Even if your wildest dreams come true, it's always going to be nothing. Obeying God is everything.

#God #Jesus #christianity #faith #do not have care for this life #do not love this life #do not love this world #reject the world #forsake the world #do not pursue happiness. pursue God #dream killing #killing my heart to save my soul #you don't have a life. you have a purpose #serve God #temporary #only God can satisfy #nothing but God #only God #God is the only thing that matters #christian struggles #personal #self talk #may it please the Lord

[4him-iwrite]

REST IS FOUND IN JESUS ALONE! Not in social media, not in a good movie, not in your boyfriend or girlfriend, and definitely not in a bottle. In HIM alone, HE will give you rest.

#god #jesus christ #jesus #holy spirit #christianity #christian living #christian #faith #faith in jesus #bible #bible scripture #bible verse #life struggles #peace #burdens #scripture

[rebellum]

The whole transandrophobia discussion thing is weird bc it feels like it's a bunch of poc and jewish trans people being like "here are my experiences of how specifically being MASCULINE had affected me, and the discrimination and violence I experienced based on that. And here is how that relates to me being a racial/ethnic minority"

And then a few loud white trans people going "ohhh you wanna be oppressed so bad you *slur*. This is why there aren't any poc in your movement it's because REAL poc understand intersectionality"

#hot take white culturally christian or athiest leftests do not properly interpret white jewish ppl #like as a poc i and other poc understand that white jewish ppl often get racial privilege #but a) not always b) they experience oppression based off of their ethnicity #idk from my perspective it seems like white goyim either see jewish ppl as 'the disgusting exotic enemy' or 'basically WASPS but they #wanna feel special' #with no nuance. no recognition #look maybe this next part is bc i didnt grow up with jewish ppl and therefore didnt know until I was 18/19 that jewish ppl can count as #white. but like. idk how to say this. i dont wanna speak over white jewish ppl. but like. #jewish ppl that have obvious jewish features (whether Ashkenazi facial features OR they dont have those but wear eg kippahs) #arent like. white. idk pls correct me if this is antisemitic or incorrect or something. #but like. light skinned =/= white obviously. #i just struggle to see how my bestfriend with her lovely dark eyes and curls and nice nose counts as 'white' when ppl call her the k slur #across the street. ykwim? #like white doesnt mean light skinned. it means 'part of the in-group of white ppl' #like my ex who is white and jewish? yeah hes white. if he didnt wear his necklace then goyim wouldnt know. you know #like obvs he still experiences ethnic oppression but he doesnt experience racial oppression #but other ppl with more prominent eg ashkenazi (im singling them out bc most jewish ppl here are ash.) like i dont GET how they have racial #privilege.

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

The problem with Christian fiction for me and like when people only read it or only recommend it (and this is a personal thing and I am speaking for no one else) is that I'm SO aware of the power of secular fiction. Like yes when I was eighteen a work of fiction caused me to have multiple epiphanies about forgiveness, how it's a choice and a discipline, how it can come before redemption and not after and often needs to, and it changed me truly and that work of fiction was the dumb CW vampire show! So when people only read Christian fiction it's like don't you know??? Don't you know what you're missing out on??!!! Acts of creation mirror God dude! And non-Christians are normal real people too and that means they can say stuff beautiful and true as well!

#and this IS part of how uncomfortable it makes me #when my christian friends talk about non christians like they're some weird Other being #and they struggle to be friends with them #like dude that is SO not the point of it all!!! and I want out!

[mentalhealthmantis]

Hey.

I wanted to remind all of you that God forgives you for your sins.

Does that mean we live however we want once we begin following Him? No. We should strive to follow His commands.

However, do we lose our salvation by making a sinful mistake or choice? No.

When you sin, turn your attention back to the Lord.

Get in the Word: read your Bible.

Pray. Talk to Him about anything on your mind.

Remember: God knows you’re trying your best. Keep your eyes on Him, and you’ll be fine.

#god #prayer #jesus christ #faith #Bible reading #sin #Christian struggles

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

I've been reading Exodus lately and I've just gotten to the portions where God gives the first commands to the people via Moses (twice), and then goes on to give detailed instructions about the tabernacle and how it should be built, and I'm just... we think art is unimportant?? we think things only mean as much as their functionality?? we so easily fall into the trap of believing that beauty means nothing, that it's cheap and only worth whatever mindless distraction it brings, that it's barely more than a cheap sensual thrill, that buildings should just be practical and plain and cheap, that everything should be functional but ultimately disposable, that paintings and dresses and mugs and curtains and carpets are just pretty but have no real value, that beauty is fleeting and vain and therefore shouldn't be thought about too much, if even looked for at all... we fall into these traps so easily, and we forget that there are chapters upon chapters of painstakingly detailed plans to build one portable worship tent, and those plans have been handed down through thousands of years of human history, because beauty and art and skill in craft is important

#I have to go get ready for work now but I will come back to this #and don't even get me started on the parts about God calling specific craftsmen *by name* #he called them!! by name!!! he said 'this man is good at his job. he creates beautiful work. he will build my temple and make it beautiful' #and even more--God inspired him!!!! it was a calling of GOD for him to create beautiful carvings and tapestries and candlesticks!!! #look even if you're not jewish or christian or religious at all you have GOT to see what it means that all these incredibly detailed plans #for building this tent-temple are extremely important #because even if you don't believe in God and don't think that this is all significant bc he personally gave the instructions #and then helped preserve this record of them so we could still read them today #you do have to see how important they were to the people of that time who first wrote them down #and the extreme care that was taken to record all of those detail #AND the fact that it's been preserved for so long and we can still read all the care that was put into creating this incredible piece #of artwork and worship they made #gurt says stuff #I just. gahhfhhfj. I'm feeling emotional about chapters of the Bible that I can't even fully force myself to pay attention to #bc there's so MUCH and I'm bad at visualizing this stuff and I tend to zone out while listening to it #but the fact that it IS that much!!! that there SO MUCH DETAIL and it goes on for SO LONG that I even struggle to pay attention!!! #that this was THAT IMPORTANT to the people who wrote it and to God!!! as an artist and someone who has always cared about art #this means so much to me ok #christianity #bible verse #bible thoughts #exodus #art #theology