#cause it makes me stupid happy

[areyousanta]

8 Years

#edward elric #fma #fmab #progress #its been 8 years of serious drawing non stop #and its the one thing i havent quit #does my family understand why i do it #no #but i do #cause it makes me stupid happy #and i can completely lose myself in it and its the only time my brain shuts up #gotta remind myself of this #sometimes i forget #ive come so far

[puddleofpins]

I’m not exactly a huge fan of Hazbin Hotel, because I don’t really like the creator, though there are some aspects to the show that I like.

I’ve seen the whole show along with most of Helluva Boss, but now a question has been tugging at my mind like crazy:

If Vivziepop uses biblical/traditional Ars Goetia names for demons (Ozmodeus, Mammon, Belphegor, Beelzebub, including Lucifer, a fallen Angel), why is she using nontraditional/non-biblical names for the angels?

Like why is a high-level angel given such a commonly used human name(Emily)? Ooh sure Sera being a Seraphim is sooooo clever /sarcasm

I can’t tell if this is implying that the highest-ranking/or Biblical angels are missing/absent like god is or if the show is just that uninspired? Like is this intentional that none of the angels have actual angel names???

#hazbin hotel #helluva boss #hazbin critical #helluva critical #the other ambiguity is if this is a theory or critique cause im gonna tag it as both #hazbin theory #helluva theory #im just so confused because like Where Are They #how are you gonna have the Seven Deadly Sin demons and then not have actual biblical angels like Uriel Barachiel etc #how are you gonna have such uninspired and boring names like Sera Emily and LUTE for the angels??? Shit is so dumb #anti vivziepop #this is not gonna make the hh/hb stans happy and im gonna be around for that ride #also I was confused why no one else is talking about this or mentioning it #also also also #Lute is a stupid fucking name and it just makes me hate her even more

[skiespaintedblue]

If ur romantic f/o has any siblings, they're ur in law(s) now!!! How do you feel about them? How do they feel about you? What does your f/o think about you guys? Do you hate eachother, or are you friends?

#selfship #selfship community #self shipping #fictional other #selfship imagines #sort of #idk what tags to use aaaa #hope people see this post tho #i really wanna get more integrated into the selfship community cause i just like. reblog stuff #i wanna b friends with people!! if anyone is looking for selfship mutuals hmu #its probably cause i dont make much actual content. i should draw more stuff #but anyway about the actual topic of the post dgfjgkd #this came up for me cause i was thinking about leo and was like hey if hes markus's brother doesnt that make him my brother in law #and i was like :0 #fuck yeah we'd vibe so well together fr!! #im convinced we'd be besties even if i wasnt in love with his brother #we both got that tboy swag ykwim #platonic t4t? is that a thing? idk #but yeah we'd get along great. markus would be happy about it too until we started doing some stupid shit then he'll regret everything #i also have brother in laws on connors end w nines and sixty #honestly. i think realistically id be scared of sixty #he'd torment me i know he would #if i yawned around him he'd stick his finger down my throat #fucking spawn of satan #nines would be very different #i think it might be a bit awkward at first bc. youre sticking two bitches with social anxiety in a room together #one of which barely speaks #but i think eventually we'd get along just fine :D #id prolly enjoy going shopping with them. nines just feels like a good person to shop with #maybe ill make a post for parental in laws too cause i havent thought about hank and carl as much

[fernlessbastard]

hot take moment cwilbur is literally just psychotic as all hell and i think people got way too comfortable villianizing the shit out of a man who was clearly portraying signs of severe mental illness. cwilbur was like im so fucking paranoid and scared and i think everyone is out to get me and hurt me and ive spiralled to the point i cant reach out to the people closest to me because im so afraid and lost in this spiral and im having constant panic attacks and hurting myself because i dong know what to do with myself and the only way out for me is to die. and everybody was like EVIL MAN WHO ENJOYS HURTING OTHERS AND IS ABUSIVE ON PURPOSE AND A VILLAIN AND SHOULD NEVER BE TRUSTED AGAIN. and then he came back and was like im still deeply troubled and afraid but im desperately trying to make up for the wrongs i did in the past and the people i hurt in my own way and communication is really hard for me but i hope people know that im truely sorry and i love them. im going to try my hardest to fix this in the only way i know how and then respectfully remove myself from the situation because i feel thats the kindest thing i can do to the people ive hurt. and people were like ABUSER ABUSER ABUSER EVIL MAN ABUSER. like girl

Yeah no based true real no questions asked

I'd hope I manage to portray Wilbur the way he deserves in my content, cause that man is heavily bpd coded and he just needs therapy and someone who genuinely loves him but also can handle his bullshit (which has exclusively and reliably been Quackity like, canonically)

But yeah no completely agreed. The man has issues and has definitely fucked up a lot but at the end of the day he really does need love and care and patience, but also boundaries (and therapy and meds, obviously)

#i deeeefinitely have no reason to have strong feelings about bpd bitches deserving love and care and stability ha ha nooo it's definitely- #-not like I've been dating one for well over 4 years now and even though we've been through so much shit together and I still can't- #-understand why people with bpd and conditions that have similar symptoms are so demonised. It just makes no sense to me. #my bf is the love of my life and i can't imagine /not/ supporting it through all the splitting and episodes and all of that cause they're- #-absolutely worth everything #i don't know not to be too gay on main but tbf it's too late now anyway i think-- #is it unstable? sure. but it's also the most caring and loving person i've ever been close with and it always makes sure i'm ok #and it loves me so undeniably deeply no matter what purely for who i am #i've never had anyone care about me this much and this genuinely and this unconditionally - it'd always be what /they/ can get out of /me/ #but my boyfriend just cares about me - the actual me - no matter if i'm acting how it imagined i'd act. what matters is if i'm /me/ #listen bpd isn't sunshine and rainbows - we've been through some TERRIBLE shit (including s-cide attempts) #but when people claim it makes a relationship toxic/abusive it's so stupid cause ultimately with mutual love support and reassurance- #-and professional help you can have a genuinely happy and healthy life with someone with bpd #love isn't mean to be easy. it's meant to be safe and supportive and genuine but a relationship always takes effort and work on both sides #you should never sacrifice your well being of course! #but when love takes effort and extra care it doesn't inherently mean it's unhealthy or toxic or abusive. it just means you're people. #tldr if you love someone then don't care about some diagnosis - care about the actual perso. #ask #asks #ask fern #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #wilbur soot #quackity #quackbur #dream smp #tntblr #c!quackbur #c!tntduo

[mysicklove]

i hate u aristotle, i hate u ethics, i hate u eudaimonia with everything in me

daddy ari if i went back in time and saw u i would put a permanent gag on u bc ur silly words are making my life a living hell

#🔪 - mello talks too much #I DONT UNDERSTAND PHILOSOPHYYYYYYYYY #ETHICS #WHY R U LOOKING SO IN DEPTH #”what causes happiness??” #obviously they haven’t discovered fictional cock #jokes #but FUCK U ARISTOTLE WHAT THE FUCK I #to do well is to be happy #bitch what?? #no shit?? #then why are u adding so much more to it #just trying to confuse me #i feel like this is showing how stupid i am #I cannot keep up with philosophy #everything else…maybe #but philosophy/ethics just makes me so mad #it’s like fuck man maybe try pussy?? #then u wouldn’t have to question life’s happiness #fucking ancient incel over here

[posthumanwanderings]

quick lil update just saying once I get home from work I gotta pull the trigger on some massive tabs then think I’m gonna finally start streaming again regardless of my youtube channel monetization getting fucked. there’s nothing I can do apparently to get my channel normal just it angers the fuck out of me how they determine what is ‘valid’ traffic or what is ‘invalid’ traffic and if it has anything to do with my embedded links on tumblr or people watching videos on here then youtube can fuck itself. I thought slinging links was the name of the game to get more traction so I’ll just go back to doing my normal thing and hope for the best. as always I’d appreciate it though if anyone wants to subscribe to my patreon which is way more beneficial to both you guys and me instead of giving youtube more money via superchats. I’m gonna first take care of the rest of my ‘futuristic’ games I had planned to stream then do a few PS2 stuff then it’s all gonna be Sega Saturn for awhile. thanks for your patience and hearing me out on my endless complaints about dealing with faceless automatized internet corporations!

#I'm gonna hold off putting out vidmixes tho cause I spend a lot of time doing them so if youtube is gonna be weird with me it's not worth it #I'm convinced that ever since Endless Ocean 3 got announced my EverBlue streams picked up views but like how is that 'invalid' traffic? #just stupid BS youtube does to make their advertisers happy and small creators to give up #text #youtube

[oddtripps]

“All nightmares start as dreams,

All love starts as a scheme,

. . .

So wake me up

I’m tired of sleeping ”

He’s so sad face emoji dreary face emoji wtf

I’ll update the punishland!au once I get another stupid baby puter because my old one was hanging on by a thread lmao.

Poor doods been through hell with this stupid little clump!!!!

Wants 2 go back home. :((

#dhmis #punishland!yellow my beloved #don’t hug me I’m scared #his tagged ear is because he was sold by Roy to Red + Bird #imagine your dad flat out selling you to a stranger cause you said I love you to his face #I’ll complain about tags all I want I h8 them homie!! #finally fixed my SD card but my DS is still poopy waaa #vomits lore about punishland in bit because I’m a fool and a clown and a jester #I’ll do it later MUM I’m BUSY being GAMER (( playing Pokemon go cause I love collecting doods. wtf. )) #anywy punishland!yellow can’t talk because his voice box was ripped out by Roy just before he was given to Redd #so he’s forever in a sad state of longing and silence teehee #he draw a bunch and it’s always pictures of his dad and clowns cause it’s the only thing that makes him happy #he keeps hope that one day Roy will by him back but 4 now he sits on his stupid little chair and draws and draws and draws #I LOVE PUTTING MY PUPPET SON THROUGH ANGST WAAAAA #Spotify

[alltimewhat]

wound dehiscence can quickly escalate to infection or even evisceration

#it took me literally like a month to finish this drawing because i started it and did the sketch #and then immediately had NO ideas for the window panes LMFAO. so im really happy to have it done #im not sure i'm supremely happy with it but i'm definitely not Unhappy with it :) #reza #this piece kinda has a stupid level of symbolism in it that pretty much only i would recognize without being told LMFAO #i love to make very symbolic art of an oc that nobody knows enough about to understand #the main conceit though is that reza's abusive family altered his memories with magic. and he struggles a lot with the combination of #like #'i am missing the true facts of huge portions of my life' and simultaneously 'my parents left a lot of memories of them being awful #so how bad is the stuff they erased' #also a little bit about the harm he was groomed into causing when he was young and his own emotional autocannibalism

[blakhol]

Well hi!

I'm either remaking or revamping, not sure which yet. But I'm in general doing an overhaul of the blogs I want to keep and deleting those I'm done with for now - or the characters I only am writing specifically on discord.

I hope everyone has been well and staying safe. <3

#ooc #a lot has been going on whether it has been mental stuff or irl stuff that led me to just disappear for a while #and just lurk from time to time. some reasons valid and some were stupid. i've been writing on discord and other oc's elsewhere #cause my muse for my bbys has been dead and it has been frustrating #among other things zzz #but nestor came back gradually and naturally lenny i've been eyeing. #i've been just kind of hiding away and not happy about it. and also idk. i just have a weird anxiety sharing where i am at in terms of blog #or sites or what have you. it's silly and i've been working on it. #or maybe not silly because it has been an issue i've had to deal with for a long time now to figure out #either way tho. idk if this makes sense but hi. idk how reliable i am but i'm trying to be more than i've been

[romantichopelessly]

literally the catch 22 of making urself less to keep people around you directly leading to people leaving u bc you’re not opening up to them 🧍‍♀️

#like !!! I’m trying to be what YOU want!!! I’m sorry you didn’t want me like that and now you’re mad I’m fake ?!!!??!! #I’m trying so hard but I don’t think I have an authentic self to live confidently as #bc everyone says the only way to rly be happy is let go of expectations and be your real self and find your real people #but I don’t think I have a self tbh #I think I’m a collection of experiences and expectations and I don’t know how to return to the origin point #oh well I guess!!!!! lost cause! #‘you can’t give up everything for someone and call that love’ WELL WHAT IF ITS THE ONLY WAY I KNOW HOW TO LOVE ?! #yeah I’ll never have real love bc I only expect to love and not be loved #but let’s be entirely real. you can’t love a mirrorball ! a set of masks ! a changing thing ! #and yeah I know it’s my fault I’m like that but it’s fucking impossible to stop #how can I take chances and live authentically like ??? what the fuck that goes against my like. core being. #idk I’m making it sound stupid but UGH #and then I just become upset later that they don’t love me the same. maybe it’s bc they don’t know me. like sure. they never asked. #but I never told. #i talk sometimes

[nightfallsystem]

u guys ever think about killing urself for everyone elses sake.

just so people wont have to go thru the annoyance of talking to me or the disgust of seeing my face so they can be happier by talking to their other friends instead of me so they dont have to deal with my actual fucking stupidity

#tw vent #tw suicide #ingnore this. btw. or dont i cant stop you lol #imsso close to cutitng off everyone i know so they can be happier i alreadyblocked a few people i knewnow ionly know one person irl #imf so glad she found other people so she'll be completely fine if i disappear out of her life her life sounds like its going great actuall #ruining my life ^_^ #i dont want to talk to people but for their sake #IM GENUINELY SO FUCKING STUPID AND UPSETTING TO TALK TO . #does anyone even love me anymore #im probably doign this for my own selfish reasons #i dont go outside anymore for everyone else sake. so they dont have to see my ugly face. or deal with my awful speech #at least i can still draw.... only way i can mkae people happy.. #im mean to myself more than anyone else is mean to me at htis point. why #im not even capable of becoming mentally well at hthis point. im a lost cause #tell me what you rlly think . just tell me to shut the fuck up. just call me annoying. whatever u say cant be worse than what i do to mysel #pleasee im just dragging u down and making u feel worse whenever u tlak to me DO YOU NOT REALISE IT #i dont want to feel better for myself i want to feel better so i can be useful to others #i fucking hate people but i love them a lot . i gues i just hate how i affect others. social outcast i guess

[hearties-circus]

Guess who's finished:]c my funny little guy has finally been all assembled!! I think I did quite well !

#gamer txt. #al art #ninjask #pokemon rse #crochet #sewing #besties yous dont know how happy i am to be finished that last wing was giving me hell #im just glad i have my own ninjask plushie^^ #i was honestly tempted to make it life sized like. could you imagine if i did that #its 2'7 how would i make that #thats like how big the wee man is #mine is probably just over a foot so about half of what it is #i just have a particularly mini ninjask #im in love with its stupid little face cause it just looks so silly from head on #oh and btw the back wings are both constructed entirely contructed differently which is why they gave me so much trouble #the first one was ambitious and convoluted and the 2nd was momotous and involved a stupid amount of embroidery

[buppypuppy]

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#vent post essay ahead lol #having complexes about talking about your emotions is literally the fucking devil . its miserable. it sucks so bad. #the aamount of damage that is caused to someone by like #i mean im talking abou t me here obviously. #being the person whose like. overall ultimately tends not to feel horrible as often is like. #it's nice not feeling bad emotionally all the time but also it's like. i develop this complex about being like able to help. #i don't feel bad anywhere near as often as my friends so i can help them out and listen to them vent i can have the mental room to #like listen to them talk about their problems. yeah. but it makes me feel like. well this is my job now so i shouldn't fucking talk about m #i shouldnt vent when i feel bad because that's not what i'm known for. plus my friends already all feel worse than me more often than me. s #i don't want to dump any more on their plate than they have to deal with. i don't want to burden them anymore than i have to. and like it's #it's hard. i hate fucking talking about it and it's made so much worse when its like people i love . always been a fucking problem becaus #i just feel fucking horrible admitting that i feel bad i hate that so much. i don't want to like turn away people who care about me but li #i feel like if i tell them what's wrong with me i'll like do it anyways. i feel like i come off as super normal and happy go lucky and like #ostensibly fine. so when i admit this shit its like. oops the facade is cracking!!!!!! uh oh uh oh you can't help people so you feel bad!!! #because your fucking npd has made you feel self centered in a way that means you want to help people or some shit i dont fucking know #and so when i feel bad or get mad over something unreasonable it's like. well i hope i fucking keel over and die or something i dont like . #i don't want people seeing me like this or whatever. and my stupid fucking personality disorder just ruins every god damn thing its so bad. #my past experiences giving me complexes that lead to me feeling fucking left out over like small stupid stuff but god the worst part is lik #my brain categorizing something as being ''My Thing'' so somebody else talks about liking my thing AFTER my brain has designated it mine #makes alarm bells go off and feel like theyre fucking. i don't know encroaaching on my turf or what the fuck ever? it SUCKS ASS #it makes me feel HORRIBLE . and it's like i'm not gonna fucking bring it up because i don't wnt to be like a dick but also it's like well. #i feel fucking miserable about this but it's just like mean and unnecessary and cruel to like stifle people's fucking fun because of my dum #fuckin complexes. it's fucking constant. like oh look at you girl you feel fucking left out because you never get characters who really gri #you mentally and so now you have one but oops! someone else talked about them and now you're seeing red! you like this person though #so you're gonna feel fucking MISERABLE about this . you're gonna feel HORRIBLE because of this. and there's nothing you can fucking do #and it controls my goddamn life and i HATE IT i fucking HATE IT i wish i knew how to fix it. ghghrgurghrughruhg i want to fucking explode #and then you feel bad about feeling bad because you are fucking sisyphus. you're sisyphus. and your own anger is your boulder. you ingrate. #i hate this. i just wanted to have a good day. #jane mary cry one tear

[munamania]

um i miss them i miss queer joy and the gay churchism of being at a concert etc i miss being in a room with them and a bunch of other dykes

#apparently did not take a vid during the last concert but #remembering how i fucked up jos ‘right now!’ in the verses both times and was just soooo happy #full body laughing with lydia and naomi started laughing too and could’ve been unrelated but we were like you know one row back #so it felt like a Moment. and everyone WAS out dancing!! #:((((( #i better get tickets to that stupid ass music fest in october that i do not have money for rn #this song was also christened for me when. so i remember after the phoebe concert. first of all long ass day and so much walking #to and from the venue i was EXHAUSTED. slept for like an hour then my roommate at the time had people over soooo wasted in our living room #barely slept any more after. got up the next morning making myself breakfast. this bad boy comes on cause i’m listening to about u #all the way thru for the first time. and i just start SOBBING. it was a release #abby talks

[erythristicbones]

that post about about being extra and self-indulgent w/ your OCs and specifically talking about/posting about them really has stuck in my brain all day bc like. i really am so fucking tempted to make a discord server where like there's a channel for each of my stories, so i can just ramble about every tiny idea or essay that comes to mind for an audience of like 6 ppl at most probably

#it would probs just be for friends/mutuals/long time followers that i know wont cause drama #bc i have a severe anxiety disorder and i do not think running a completely open server would be good for my mental health #also if im talking about my stories i probs dont want to make major spoilers available for EVERYBODY to find #but anyways yeah #idk if I'll ever actually do that #but i like being able to ramble to my hearts content in the boomer club server #and i like the idea of having ppl that are invested in my stories get to see my thought process #i wouldnt even care if they literally just lurked silently or reacted with emotes to everything i post #the idea of getting to go crazy stupid over my children with an audience that i trust just makes me v happy #things to ponder if im in the right headspace for ig #if not then i will continue to happily do that w my boomer club friends <3 #this is me specifically shouting out kui and birdy and faerai #yall three always being there to listen to me lose my mind means the world to me <3

[eldesperadont]

I hate that im genuinely crying over this eventho yea thats what tragic endings do, they make you sad, thats what wrestling is sometimes. I’m gonna miss that hot topic kiwi bitch so much if that’s really it, thank you Jay, i hate you (i dont)

#im not sure if id have reacted the same if i simply heard about his loss #instead of reading such a good summary of his ending #god i hate crying cause trauma and shit but also this is all so good #its awful but its great and im a mess rn #i hate tho that im feeling stupid for having wished for a redemption for him #since two years now #cause this character had so many low points #and as someone that could relate to this bastard to some extent #i hoped evertime that maybe finally that was the last time and he finally learns #and gets to be happy after all #god i hate that internet brainrot makes me feel dumb for wanting good things for a sad evil character #i hate myself for feeling sm #<- i know thats dumb but its hard to get over it #anyways ✌️🥲 #percht.txt #wrestling thoughts tm #jay white