#can't do that with a lot of groceries

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all! Do you have any recommendations for walkers or rollators that are foldable and can be converted to wheelchairs?  This question brought to you by today’s POTS flareup that has my heartrate jumping to the high 130s every time I stand up but I need to go grocery shopping. I sometimes need to sit down to let my heartrate come back down, but A. it tends to alarm people in the grocery store when I sit on the floor to catch my breath, B. it’s hard to get off the floor on bad blood pressure days, and C. if it converts to a wheelchair, when I hit the “okay no more walking” stage my family can wheel me along with them without having to have the “our faces are uncomfortably close to each other while you push me backwards through a store” experience of a rollator  Heck, maybe one of those like shopping bags on wheels with a fold down seat? Being pulled behind my brother like luggage would be weird but would be a safer way to get me back out to the car than trying to get me both into and out of a shopping cart without falling

#the person behind the yarn #last time this happened (also at a grocery store) it turned out to be blood sugar related not blood pressure #but both can be 'okay you will stop walking RIGHT NOW' #which is less than ideal when you are. you know. at a grocery store getting groceries #because if you're clothes shopping or something it still sucks and it's kind of a jerk move to leave the cart behind full of stuff #but the stuff won't be ruined for being left behind in the middle of the store. they can still sell it #can't do that with a lot of groceries #oh hey if I had one of these I could probably start joining my dad on his walks! #there's lots of little trails he likes to go take walks on #but while they aren't that long are fully paved and start and end at the same parking lot #if my blood pressure crashes halfway through he can't get me back to the car without hurting himself #my dad could probably carry me but also has a chronic shoulder injury that means he really really shouldn't #so I just don't go on those walks with him #pre-pandemic when we went to zoos or places like that we'd walk for the morning then when I got tired we'd rent a wheelchair #but that's not really an option at the grocery store unfortunately #so maybe it's time I get one of my own

[runawaycarouselhorse]

Today was absolutely lovely, I forgot how peaceful it is to actually engage in my hobbies and special interests; just sit around, watching old cartoons. Felt calm and happy and managed to be more focused after. Felt sleepy at night like I've had a full day. This is nice. I need to keep doing this.

Also, mama cooked quince with cinnamon and it's so cozy warm, it reminds me of apple pie. Tasty...

I was sad earlier, because I hadn't gotten to go out of the house all vacation (since it relies on others also being in the mood to go out, otherwise, I won't be able to go...), except once to a nearby park for the swings, and it's nearly over already, but it's okay, if I can have peaceful days like this, and just relearn to actually unwind, so I won't be perpetually burnt-out or too overwhelmed to focus.

#wish my executive dysfunction wasn't so bad I have trouble starting even pleasant/for fun activities #but this is soooo much better than aimlessly scrolling social media discontentedly #personal #I do have to stop convincing myself going back will mean I can go to the mall and other things more likely I will just be at home a lot #I can't even call a taxi #maybe I'll have the energy when I go back to actually go out for reasons other than (grocery shopping) and (buying winter socks) this month

[aro-culture-is]

american aro culture is feeling like you have to have a partner of some kind just because everything is so damn expensive and built under the assumption that you have two people with income :/

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#Anonymous #aro culture is #aro #aromantic #actually aro #actually aromantic #ask #mod phoenix #american aro culture #usamerican aro culture #fun fact! i pay about as much in monthly rent for my studio with a baby kitchen and bathroom as my sister pays monthly #on her mortgage for her 2 story 3 bedroom 2 bath + full basement with a good size lawn house! #we live a half hour away from each other #shit is fucked #also groceries are expensive when you can't really justify buying in bulk T_T #like i buy big bags of rice but otherwise it's just. a Lot. #shelf stable essentials my beloved. fresh produce that i wish i could justify buying in cost-effective amounts my beloathed #i don't have a good enough kitchen setup to really do much in terms of like. canning or freezing or w/e #i've tried it before with just some basic freezing of peppers but it's just so many spoons when you have 2 tiny ice cube trays #and blanching practically requires you to save a bowl of ice cubes if u don't wanna overcook stuff

[elytrafemme]

i think i played sims 4 with my sister for six hours straight today?

#vixella + james turner's sale promo post convinced me #$33 dollars down the drain BUT it was for the two packs i'd most likely use anyway #we made ace attorney characters partly to captivate my sister's attention and also because it's funny as fuck #though i do have OCs in mind... yes it's 1:30 AM but i might just like... #write some more OCs. and watch more vixella :) i love her content sm #i also kind of wanted to figure out what sims traits my irl friends would have because i think it's funny #but i can't tell if that's the sort of thing i need to debrief them about #or to like never mention because who the fuck cares #ultimately i truly do not think any of them would give a shit but you know #(btw we got romantic garden stuff (free); city living ($16); and seasons ($16) + base game (free)) #both city living & seasons would ordinarily be $30-40 so... #we also want to circle back to grab cats & dogs (~$30-40; $16 on this sale but it's only 24 hr) #but i thought that city living was more strategic at the moment #+ i would in the long run LOVE to have growing together or parenthood... and parenthood runs cheaper in general... #but i already have spent a lot of money this semester :/ #mostly because Ooh Purchase Euphoria! and also because my college is located somewhere which. sigh. #has FAR higher prices than where i currently live #in a way that is truly horrifying but i do in fact go to college and need to get groceries somehow #so it's more of a desensitization thing because that does still need to occur #so like $33 dollars is very reasonable is my point

[cerbreus]

there's nothing i want more right now than to be able to just go sit by a large body of water right now and stick my feet in.... I think it would make everything feel calmer.

#but NOW. end of march we've got snow so much snow #i can't even go to the park i like to hike in and hang out bc there's so much snow... #don't even feel like driving to the grocery store ugh #i just have a lot happening right now and i think just the peacefulness of a large body of water would make things feel clearer n better #i get why people go and sit by the ocean when they're going thru it in their life #nothing like the waves and the little critters and birds and dirt to make you forget even just for a moment #about all the things on your mind #i think also just a nice walk in the woods just. walk off into the trees for a while would help. #which i also can't do because not only is there a lot of snow it's the SLOPPY shit so like #miserable awfully wet hiking experience #big sigh #personal stuff

[uzu-hime]

So like legit how does one make friends when they are

-too adhd for normal people

-too depressed for adhd people

-poor (no money to do things or go places)

-25 on the outside, single mom for 10+ years on the inside

-so so lonely but so so afraid of adding anyone else to the "only want to hang out with me when you need free therapy" group that includes everyone I know

#i want friends #but i don't know how to make them #or where to find them #im too weird for a lot of people and too introverted for others #and for some reason everyone i do befriend always ends up being basically my therapy patient #or they only ever want to hang out on their terms which... don't exist #side eyes my friend who always says 'i miss you guys we should hang out' in the group chat but then turns me down #for her boyfriend every single time i try to make plans #'he works night shift i have to clean during the day' girl are you his girlfriend or his maid?? #if you don't want to hang out with me just fucking tell me instead of playing cinderella all the time #my mom says i should get out more and do more things but honestly i live in bumfuck ohio #what things???? #rural america is a nightmare for being social if you don't have money and also don't want to hang out at your local high school #i can't even go to the park in town by myself because too many women have been abducted there #im not making this shit up #i just want someone to sing silly songs with me and try on stupid outfits just for fun and go to new restaurants #no one has ever heard of and sit in the woods in silence for a while and maybe take a nap together and compare grov #*grocery lists and just. #why is it so hard #what is wrong with me that the only friends i have only like me sometimes #even my mom who likes me all the time won't even go shopping with me anymore #she's too burnt out from working #maybe it's not me #maybe im just another victim of capitalist america's isolation #even then i don't know what to do about it. my cat helps but im still just. lonely. #im tired of being lonely #vent post #ignore me

[dredshirtroberts]

yeah guys idk I'm just thinking maybe the lightheadedness and desire to sit down about halfway through putting away groceries my whole life might not have just been a reaction to the way my parents were when i was a kid and the accompanying anxiety and sudden flurry of movement, but also possibly maybe i have a Health Thing about this...

#thank god i finally scheduled that doctor's appointment #Jan 15 cannot come quickly enough tbh #like i've streamlined getting shit put away and i hurry as soon as the wooziness starts hitting because i know i'm on borrowed time #and that's when the trauma reaction kicks in of ''i can't stop halfway through i'll be in trouble'' anxiety #because i *enjoy* putting away groceries and organizing the kitchen #i just also can't without a lot of assistance and plenty of spoons and time to prepare myself physically and mentally beforehand #this post brought to you by i had this realization doing the groceries and now i'm having like a lot of thoughts about it #i can't do it all in one go ever and i have never been able to without someone else handling about half of it #no matter how much i get or of what i can only get about half put away before time's up and i gotta sit down #it's why so much of my food was non-perishable when i was on my own #cause i'd get the cold things put away because they *had* to be #and then i couldn't physically do any more - especially if the groceries that week were more cold than non-perishable #but like yeah if i had to stop or take a break in putting away the groceries (despite also having gone to the grocery store #and walked around the whole store and grabbed items AND carried the heavy things into the house because i was the heavy lifter #AND i was in sports and had probably either just done a lot of exercise or was still in recovery from the day before/earlier that day) #i got fussed at for not helping out #so that's fucked up and fuck my mom actually she sucks #ugh

[riv-rs]

sgdshfjgds i need a protest to be in my own city at this point cause i'm officially too poor to move to any of the ones going on this weekend

#i could go before but then i got hit by Another Bill and i have no clue what it's for my guess is that i forgot to check out at a station #but like.... that was my travel money #and i don't have enough food to last me long enough to just do with 20 euros in my bank dshfjkdshfk #i'm so mad at my internship so so so mad #I NEED MONEY BUT I CAN'T EVEN WORK CAUSE INTERNSHIP #and i'm not popular enough to do quick commissions nor can i use paypal money all that easily for groceries which is what i need money for #unless i have a LOT in paypal so i can use it for online groceries which are more expensive #screaming crying throwing up right now

[everyday-is-brighter-with-you]

WHY AM I SO USEELESS /vent

#I'm sorry everyone sometimes I just can't #Hold it in anymore #I mean it's not like my tears ever mattered IRL #SO atleast I can scream abt it online #I fucked up a taxi ride #Had to pay double #And it just reminded me how fucking stupid I am #I don't know how to cook #Or manage finance #Or manage a house #Or do lot of work like laundry thru every individual cloth #Or even going to grocery for vegetables #I'm so stupid lol I probably couldn't even live alone #All I do is read poems and make art #I'm so stupid #I just want to kill myself #Again #I say #Txt #Negative tw #Suicidal tw #Vent #Please do NOT take this as directed at you

[shaunashipman]

STOP👏THERAPIZING👏CHARACTERS👏IN 👏FANFIC

reading this fic and this one character has said more words, and more eloquently, in the first chapter than he did in the entire fucking show he was on. I read fic because I like the characters in the media, I want to read about those characters, not some mentally healthy good boundary setting out-of-character robot. why are you writing this character if you aren't actually going to write The Character? is it just bad writing? have you not yet learned how to write realistic dialogue? is it the purity police?

#cleo.txt #i know a lot of fanfic isn't really plotty #you're reading it to see the characters you already know and love basically do groceries #but especially in really long fic #you can't have conflict and resolution if the characters are already the Best Version of Themselves #no one's actually allowed to fuck up #conflict can only come from misunderstandings that are easily fixed with a deep talk about their feelings

[tiredassmage]

Lensen Ryaldar - aka my “ah fuck, I’ve fallen in love with this absolute bastard and his devilish good looks anyway” (despite many poor and questionable decisions) collection, KOTET edition and in no particular order.

#swtor #swtor screenshots #ch: lensan #srsly i cannot overstate that i have never loved and hated one of my ocs in such strong equal measures before #awful stinky bastard man. absolute jackass. terrible. so fiercely loyal to the few people he does somehow care about. #he's ride or die. he's sold out imperial trade routes to a close associate for smuggling operations. he's mandalorian #but also he's just a bounty hunter. he's a staunch loyalist to the empire. #like. sir. you do realize half of that contradicts? #honestly why didn't i run him thru the agent story at this rate tbh #with this many cross-purposes he'd be perfect and maybe i'm just a glutton yea? #fun fact: he started originally as cipher four ie a plant to keep tabs on the mandalorian alliance before i made him black ops #either way intelligence could fill a family of 5's grocery list with his bullshit tbh #'potential recruit. volatile. violent. also potentially extremely high-risk threat.' #that file would hit tyr's desk and i can already hear him sighing lmao #i really need to stop putting oc lore in the tags... #anyway part of the reason he hasn't gotten an agent run is honestly bc i can't see him without the facepaint anymore #tattoo. whatever you wanna call it. it just adds a little a lot of somethin lmao

[iamthepulta]

I put the clothes in the washer on a whim and now I don't want to rotate them. I'm in bed with cat :( :( I have tea and I sent my last email for the night and now I want to hide and die.

I'm supposed to host a board game night tomorrow and that is like- the last thing I want to do.

#I was having a pretty good day until I went back to the uni and realized I made a mistake on the gas we had/didn't have. #Then stopped off at the store. As I was taking the groceries in I realized there was a spot free close to the apartment that ppl #have been hogging; and on the second trip I went to move my car and this motherfucker comes in and steals it. #I'm still so mad. They've been hogging it for over a month. I had a flat of cans to carry in. #But this is all an outlet for my preemptive grieving because I'm going to receive a Death Text sometime soon and... I don't know when. #I don't know if I should drive up there even though I already said my goodbyes and there's really nothing I can do. #The limbo is crushing. #You know that post about people leaving imprints on your soul even if they haven't been present for a long time? #My grandmother taught me to break up my instant ramen in the package so you can eat it easier and now I can't eat it #any other way. But she's been a shadow of herself for a really long time too and knowing that hurts worse somehow. When my dog died it #gave me a lot of peace knowing she was free from all the pain that plagued her in her last days; but the shadow is a close enough echo of #what was; that knowing the shadow too will end... #My mind keeps drifting to Miyazaki. I want to rewatch Boy in the Heron. #I miss my grandmother. #ptxt

[theflyingfeeling]

still sick but alive, unfortunately 🤧

#last morning when i got up i wasn't at all sure i'd live to see the release of deadzone lol #since then i've been able to walk and stand up somewhat normally without wanting to cry and/or die #last night i slept more than the two previous nights combined. which still isn't that much but at least i did sleep #i did also wake up so completely drenched in my own sweat (from mild fever going down after i had taken a painkiller for a headache)- #-that i had to get up and dry myself with a towel 😂 #and there was a huge wet spot (of sweat) on my bed where i had lied 🙂 #i have lost three fourths of my vocal range so i can't e.g. laugh #(not that i've had a whole lot to giggle about these past few days 💀) #i'm bummed out i can't do preparations for my new job #i definitely should've started earlier but i would've had plenty of time this week had i not caught the cold at the stupid festival 🤧 #i did not plan this! besides i'm not gonna start working weeks ahead for a job i'm not even getting paid for yet #for the same reason no one can expect me to work while sick for a job i haven't gotten a single penny from #hell even if i WAS paid no one could expecte me to work while sick #so i shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to work on my fic instead of the course plans #which btw i already sort of have because my predecessors gave me practically ALL the material i might need #so all i reallly need to do is change the dates of the course plans and bob's your uncle #but i'd like to also study the material a bit before teaching it so that i'll at least seem like i know what i'm talking about 💀 #mom said on the phone that i've managed situations like this before so i will manage this too and she's right i guess but 😭😭😭 #but yeah i guess this is some sort of developement from last year when i had the 'rona- #-and felt awful about ordering food/groceries in because ''i don't want to be a bother'' 😂

[lightningfilledsaber]

I'm sorry but what the fuck do people expect to accomplish by """"planning"""" protests literally less than a handful of days or even fucking HOURS before they're ""planned"" to take place? This is why so many (particularly INTERNET) protests have fucking crashed and burned. Even if your posts go viral, you are NOT reaching an effective amount of people in such a short time span AND you are not giving the people who DO see it an effective opportunity to participate ESPECIALLY if you are asking for things like "don't spend money at xyz" or even worse "don't GO anywhere" especially when it's "don't go to WORK" People need time to prepare for these things. Some people protesting is better than none of course, but you are literally asking for failure trying to "set up" these protests by informing people at the last possible fucking second. Especially because I know more than half of y'all aren't doing the local/community work ahead of time by gathering your own friends/family/community to participate either. You are asking to fail. Learn how to organize properly if you expect this shit to work for the love of god

#mud rambles #this isn't even about any singular post I've been seeing it SO MUCH lately #but even while the BLM protests were in full swing a few years ago I'd see this shit #Like do y'all ever learn??? #the most effective protests have been the ones planned enough in advance to give people the ability to plan for them AND ones where the #organizers have already done a lot of legwork beforehand in getting their own community guaranteed to participate and aid in spreading word #this is not to say guerilla protests with a concentrated group AREN'T effective because they very much are but again #the organizers of those have made sure they have the support for it #AND all these last minute 'protests' call for large scale action that can't reasonably be accommodated for by the amount of people it would #need in the first place MUCH LESS actually get out to that fucking amount of people #and it's frustrating!!!!!! #because really all you're fucking doing at that point is diverting attention from actually well planned and thought out protests! #it's such an individualistic mindset to expect your random social media post about not going fucking grocery shopping to actually work #and protests are effective because of COMMUNITY ORGANIZING #anyway. yeah. just needed to get this one off of my chest cause it's been BREWING for a while

[bogkeep]

anyway i got accepted into the school i applied for, it's in sweden, so i'll be uuuuhhh moving there

#NOT RIGHT AWAY IM GONNA HAVE TO MOVE BACK WITH MY PARENTS FOR A LITTLE BIT AND *THEN* #also i hope im not jinxing anything by talking about this ahahahahaha #i DID find 21 four leaf clovers the other day so that should unjinx my jinxes #we visited the town i'll be moving to with my mom so it feels a lot less scary now!!!!!! and that was before i got accepted :'D #im going to do something entirely new with my life I HOPE I CAN DO IT!!! I THINK I CAN BUT I CAN'T KNOW FOR SURE UNTIL I TRY #SO YEAH IM A LITTLE OVERWHELMED #cons: people speak swedish... pros: the grocery stores are better #BEGGING TO ANY GODS WHO WILL LISTEN THAT I DON'T HAVE TO GET A PART TIME JOB AT A HOTEL TO SURVIVE #THAT'S ALL I ASK. NO MORE HOTEL JOB PLEASE

[icewindandboringhorror]

is this actually that uncommon? I don’t even unpack just the DAY I return from somewhere, but it’s literally the first thing I do. I do nothing else until I’m unpacked, I have everything organized back in it’s proper place in the house within an hour of getting home lol.. I thought this was typical??? What’s the cultural norm?

#same with groceries or anything else I;m bringing home from outside - i put it away or d o soemthing with it immediately #I just don't like looming tasks in the background taking up my mental space like 'oh i still have to do that later' etc. #I can't relax until everything is taken care of. If i try to relax or rest when I just got home from a trip there's just always the nagging #sense that I'm going to have to get up and do something else LATER (put the stuff away) so why not just do it now #It's the whole principle of 'be more uncomfortable in the present in order to help yourself in the future' #Samme thing with covid like. Follow the social distancting tules and wear masks and do everything extremely dillignently NOW no matter how #annoying or inconvenient it is at the MOMENT because the future pay off will save you more discomfort later (more vairants coming out - long #er lockdowsn because of wider spread - you or your family getting sick - etc.) #I am ALWAYS willing to inconvenence myself and ''suffer'' temporarily in the present if it will help my future self or get me a larger #benefit down the line. etc. etc. But to me that just seems like.. literally the only rational thing to do #what's more important? my temporary emotional satisfaction or my long term wellbeing ? always the long term #it might feel good to just come home and flop onto the floor and shove the suitcases aside but is that like hour or so of rest worth #the annoyance later when you realize you've still got to put everyhting up and now you REALLY don't feel like it and etc. etc. ? #just save your future self the trouble and get it out of the way #But again I just thought it's like... everyone would also do that??? If not then when do you unpack? days later??? #Kind of like how in childhood I still had a lot of issues (hadn't developed cognitive empathy really at all - no affective empathy - don't u #nderstand social cues well or people at all - etc.. which is a recipe for frustration when Living In A Society since people are always #doing things you don't understand and you struggle to communicate properly or be understood like everyone's just speaking a different langua #ge than you) and worse anger problems and there were a few times I would come home from shcool or something and just freak out and #knock my shelves in my room over and break things or etc - and it's like OKAY that feels fine in the moment but.. consider the aftermath! #now I have to spend like a whole fucking hour cleaning my room and putting everyhting back together and etc. etc. and it's like a negative #feeling on top of a negative feeling. not only am I still kind of mad but now I have EXTRA work to do when I just want to go to sleep #So in a more minor way it's the same thing like.. If I feel shitty from traveling I don't want to DOUBLE the shitty by having extra stuff to #do later and some task looming over my head. I want to get all the bad out of the way first so I can just have uninterrupted peace later lol #if that makes sense? idk lol #The one exception is once recently I had been somewhere and got legit heat exhaustion and was throwing up by the time I got home so #I didn't unpack everything then. But after cooling off and having pedilyte and stuff I still shakily unpacked before I went to bed lol