#but that was the only diagnosis i got

[companionplanting]

"So after almost a full year of therapy with me, where multiple sessions you have acted drastically different compared to most times, explained how you forgot sessions or complete periods of time, having your partner explain how you show signs of DID repeatedly at home during sessions, and doing a full assessment where you scored scarily high on, we are proud to finally announce you with a diagnosis of..... Unspecified Personality Disorder!"

-🍂 (🌺)

#companion_planting #snails 🍂 #blurry 🌺 #I'm not actually that maf at the diagnosis #I'm certain we do have maybe a personality disorder or two #but that was the only diagnosis i got #my therapist is cool and amazing though fr #but this is why I'm fine with people self diagnosing #self diagnosis #self dx #actually did #actuallydid #did system #did blog #dissociative identity disorder #diagnosis

[ramenwithbroccoli]

in my childhood, i was gifted one of those books of random facts. one of them was about 'famous doctors' in media, one of them being doctor who, with a short explanation below - that he's actually not really a doctor, but an eccentric alien with two hearts, who helps humanity.

however, as a kid with no acces to british television and basic level of english, facts mixed in my head, and i became convinced that the fact was refering to doctor House, from the famous show doctor house, which my mom watched sometimes. so everytime i hung around and it was on the tv i looked at it and thought "damn, that's pretty stressful. not only is this guy puking his guts out but they'll have to deal with aliens at some point"

#i spent an embarassing amount of my life convinced that house was the one with two hearts. and is an alien #which made him knowing the diagnosis predictable because yeah alien technology am i right #i couldn't place if the others knew about him being an alien or not #i only realised my mistake when we got bbc and doctor who was on. and in this episode he talked about having 2 hearts #and i was like. now hold on a second #doctor who #dr house

[mindful-electrical]

Black Hole is the best character ever guys (part 2763)

Like it's so cool how BH's very existence is an aberration towards nature—both in terms of what he is and what his goals and personality are 👀 !!!

Black holes break the rules of our physics, for one, but they are also seen as these inherently destructive monsters in popular culture. Yet BH tries so hard to protect his friends anyway—he defies his "nature" every day. The fact that he even has friends and can compete at all is unbelievable and continues to be a struggle with his inability to get close to anyone. And then the universe (apparently?) makes awful things happen when he prevents death on top of that: the forest catching on fire, the fish eating Two alive, the zombies??? If I were BH, I think I would go crazy. It's like the entire world hates him, and it's so unfair!!!

But BH is also such an optimistic person, and I love him so much for it. He was optimistic about Pillow changing her ways back in Death PACT. He was optimistic about his team helping Tree out despite their disagreements and about Pin and Donut keeping Fanny safe in TPOT 8. He was optimistic about the zombies and the stack in TPOT 9 ("Have faith!"). Of course BH wouldn't give up death prevention so easily—his entire character is defined by him pushing through despite everything. Of course killing Tree would only make him double down even more...which leaves me so worried for when he's inevitably cut down.

Despite what BH is, and despite whatever contest or "force" working against him, he's never going to stop until the bitter end. Until it ends up destroying him.

(And it's so cool I love him I love him I love—)

#black hole tpot #tpot #bfb #bfdi #im surprised i only got my autism diagnosis a few months ago i literally cannot stop thinking about this guy hes eating my brain #/very pos

[yukipri]

Doc diagnosed me with

✨Probably Depression✨

and prescribed

🌙More Sleep🌙

Me: Doc, ok, do u have a magic pill that can make me feel less like dying so I can work more

Doc: U need to sleep and exercise and eat healthy

Me: :(

#YukiPri rambles #tw: depression #(probably) #And the very helpful diagnosis above cost me $80+! #i love my doc but man i know i need more sleep i want it constantly it's like all i want nowadays #problem is tho i can't get it ain't it #Anyway i'm eating McD rn so that rules out healthy eating #I thought about taking a walk but i got like 3 hours of sleep so i desperately want to nap #if i can only exercise or sleep which do i choose huh #both never seems to be an option...

[plainblackcanvas56]

(Inspired by the gifset linked below)

#tf #my art #comic #tfe #earthspark #megatron #optimus prime #tf earthspark #megop #tf fanart #look #i don't even watch wrestling and this gifset shook me to the core #damn #got a ... not so wonderful diagnosis a few days ago #current coping mechanism #drawing robots #and the fact that the new tfe episodes are only a short time away #maccadam

[brittlebutch]

note on that prev post: was reading a paper on Tourettes and the author specifically says that diagnosis is limited in how much it can help people with TS be understood by teachers/parents/etc. because people will "resist a medical characterization of what they see as deliberate disobedience", which is really a fact that applies to any number of disabilities -- notably visible or otherwise

#N posts stuff #like i was thinking about this last night especially bc my tongue clicking tic was acting up #and my mom told me to knock it off and when i said 'i can't help it!' she said 'yes you can' #despite the fact that i have had this tic disorder for like. over a decade and she's been able to see it for That Long #and i only got a professional diagnosis for it like three years ago -- the notion that 'visibility' automatically equals Some level of #'understanding/support' is an extremely fragile one that often doesn't hold up to scrutiny in any way #paper is “Before Your Very Eyes” by Andrew Buckser btw

[spacecrows]

me (diagnosed with ADHD): *talks about little funny/annoying things my brain does (because of the ADHD)* my mom (not diagnosed with anything): wow that's so funny, the exact same thing happens to me too! i've never heard anyone else describe that. so random that you get that too. genetics, huh? :))

#sure mom. funny. funny coincidence. #this happens every time i see her #it happened like 6 times today alone #meanwhile my dad and my sister are staring at us like 'your brains do WHAT now???' #she doesn't really know much about adhd #i only got diagnosed a few years ago and she wasn't part of that process at all because she was living in another country back then #and like. i've gently mentioned to her before that genetics seem to play a big role in adhd too #and that actually many people get a late diagnosis when their child gets diagnosed #and it's fine. i won't pressure her to look into it more because she's doing well! #i don't think she needs meds or therapy or whatever at this point #but i just feel like it might help with how she sees herself? because it's so deeply engrained into her that she is Not Smart??? #because she flunked out of school as a teenager??? #due to bad grades #and like. oh i wish i could talk to that girl #things turned out well for her and she's generally a happy person #but still. i know part of her think she's stupid. and i fucking hate that #anyway i mainly just think this is really funny when it happens #adhd #nd

[toastsnaffler]

dating an art student was so crazy I'm just thinking abt that one birthday I had where my ex got me stickers from the etsy of the person they were cheating on me with....

#they made them address the thank you note to me and everything ajskfjfkfb. i didnt know they were cheating at the time but wow... #every time i break out my sticker collection and see them im reminded of it. but i cant throw out the stickers theyre deltarune ones 😭 #like they were a rly cool artist.... just unfortunate that happened 💀 #the drama was insane. my ex only wanted to sleep with them but they (other person) wanted them to break up with me so they could date #but my ex dumped them rly harshly for suggesting that i guess 'romantic' cheating was a step too far even for them lmaooo #i heard abt their breakup secondhand and god could they be cruel sometimes. they made fun of the sex theyd had w them #to all their mutual friends n everything i actually felt so bad for the other person when i found out. at least our breakup wasnt that bad #i only finally got that cruel side of them directed towards me like a year after when they wanted us to stop being friends #but yeah. its also funny in a way bc my ex only suggested i had adhd bc the other person did too + struggled a lot with rsd #which i guess they found out when they broke up with them. and then looked at that and thought huh my gf is kind of similar... #and this was like. 2 years before i even considered i had adhd myself and sought diagnosis ahdkfidjcjdjfjfjfkdbfnf #this made me go look the other persons art page up on instagram + then i recognised some of their friends/flatmates art pages and i found #their (my exs that is) grad year film which is still being shown at animation festivals... good for them good for them #i dont think they have an art page themselves tho cuz they were always v shy and weird abt sharing art on social media #like everyone else except them is tagged on things... shame i wouldve liked to see what they were making now. even if we're not friends #also one of their old roommates made some REALLY similar squid game fanart to mine like a month after i posted it huh.. #not mad abt it or anything i think its cool i just didnt realise they showed my art to their friends. thats cute #ah this was years ago anyway. getting my head out of the rabbit hole #im gonna go play some elden ring and then maybe do smth fun in my sketchbook we shall seeee #.diaries

[6-2-aestheticsofhate]

still thinking abt the fact at my autism assessment they said i made good eye contact and then i asked my irls one time if i have ever looked them in the eyes and they said no

#its a good thing all my irls are neurodivergent and understand when i lose speech or never make eye contact and cant mask and will #usually only ever talk abt my special interests because like.. #oh yeah sorry if i seem distant or awkward if you ever try to talk to me on tumblr i have. essentially very little experience #socializing with others because i was like. pretty obviously autistic but never got help or a diagnosis so im just a bit uhhh #bad at socializing because i literally. barely had friends until like the last 2 years of high school

[tj-crochets]

Hey y’all! Can you please send me pictures of your favorite animals?  I am stressing out about all -ologists I’ll be going to over the next few months and could really use a distraction. On the one hand, I am grateful I can see these doctors, and that my new PCP is taking my health issues seriously and referring me to specialists. On the other, I have been caught in a never ending merry go round of specialists for more than a decade. I am tired. I never get answers, they always just take money and refer me to a new specialist in a loop, and the latest loop has led to the discovery that I am allergic to neurologists.  So...please send me pictures of your favorite animals (for plushie inspiration, and also just because animals are adorable)

#the person behind the yarn #health mention #medical mention #I'm exaggerating about the neurologist allergy but only a little #the adhesive used for EEGs is a major asthma trigger for me #my rescheduled appointment is next week so we'll see if I am allergic to the office in general? #I hate going to a new endocrinologist #they always want to test me for fucking pheochromocytomas #despite the fact that A. I have a family history and symptoms of Addison's #and B. Addison's is a lot more common than pheochromocytomas #and C. I TEST ON THE RANGE TO HAVE ADDISONS #but no! that's not enough for a diagnosis with Addison's! #gotta test for the damn pheochromocytomas again! #I have been tested for that five fucking times and I have to come off of my meds every time #the first three times I had to come off my meds for a week but I got so sick they switched it to being only off them for a day #but that STILL makes me sick every time #I don't have a pheochromocytoma. In fact I have the opposite of the symptoms of a pheochromocytoma #in that one of the main symptoms is HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE #and I always always test negative but hey! better check again!

[musashi]

im fr going to burst into tears because i love my girlfriend so much. i didn't realize it was possible for a person to be so nice to me. none of my partners ever treated me this way before.

#wordy wendy #i self medicate with caffeine because i cant afford an adhd diagnosis #and so the only thing i buy from amazon dot com is a sub for 2 carts of rockstar to be sent to my house biweekly #my whole routine hinges on this rockstar shipment #its what makes my focus work #but amazon is a terrible website and will often just. say packages are delivered when theyre days away #so i will run out and not replenish cause i think i have rockstar at my house #and it happens so often i've just accepted it #but bailey! bailey! #bailey said no! i will buy you some! i will have it delivered to your house! #and she did! and that wasnt enough she got me sugar free pudding and hersheys #and she found SUGAR FREE SWEETBREAD #A COCONUT LOAF #I HAVENT HAD ANYTHING LIKE THAT IN OVER 5 YEARS I HAD NO IDEA IT EXISTED #BUT I TOOK ONE BITE AND I ALMOST STARTED CRYING #and the whole time i was just thinking about that fic i wrote at the beginning of the year #and franziska having her horrible fucking birthday. and how all it took was a girl bringing her sweetbreads to see her bursting into tears #and i felt serenity

[corvid-language-library]

Finally went to the doctor, took them nearly 3 hours to see me, they took a brief look in my nose and throat (ignoring the sore on the roof of my mouth I asked them to look at) and was then like "hmm yes you have Generic Sinusitis" and sent me away with the same drug cocktail they prescribed me last time

#ruffled feathers #i spoke to my neighbour (who's had throat issues more or less since he got here) about it recently #apparently that same doctor just keeps giving him the same sinusitis diagnosis and prescription #starting to think he only knows one diagnosis 😒 #but he's the only english-speaking doctor in the area sooooo #still i'm pretty hopeful that whatever this is will be sorted out with a round of antibiotics/stronger NSAIDS/nasal spray #just wish i hadn't had to wait 3 fucking hours for it

[anomalousmancunt]

anyway it's like a month and something until i am 1- kicked out from my parent's insurance (not as bad of a thing as it seems i can get back on it if i stay in college) and so 2- able to maybe make an appointment with one of the people here who seems to know about EDS.

before that i do want to talk to my current rheumathologist about it, because boy oh boy do i have symptoms. does anyone have advice regarding talking about a diagnosis that isn't "mention your symptoms and see if they bring it up first"? because that's uhh not going to happen.

#dyspunktional #ehlers danlos syndrome #ehlers danlos zebra #hypermobile ehlers danlos #classic ehlers danlos #<- tagging those for reach. i am pretty sure i have one of them but can't know rn #disability #actually disabled #disability talk #chronic illness #cpunk #disabled community #invisible disability #disability pride month #i don't want to seem condescending but if your only advice is 'well i mentioned hypermobility and my doctors talked about heds' #then uh. yeah you're not helping. #sorry but i've already done that i got told that there was nothing to do bc meds don't fix it #no mention of further testing no mention of diagnosis #physdis #physically disabled #physical disability #unitypunk

[moe-broey]

LIKE something I think is all of the Askr family are like mirrors. Alfonse is a reflection of how much he loves Sharena and the summoner. Sharena is a reflection of how much she loves Alfonse and how, I think in the autistic sense, I think she mirrors A LOT. Henriette is a reflection of how much she loves Gustav (and seemingly, so severely that that love struggles to reach everyone else). Gustav was likely a reflection of how much he loved Henriette and his father. All of them are performing, adhering to SOMETHING. Their roles, and what seems to be The Correct Course of Action.

#fire emblem #feh #not a full thought but like. it's there #i see autism hcs for alfonse sometimes and regardless how i feel personally on that (as an autistic guy myself) #i think sharena is SO OVERLOOKED. for autism hcs. or at least the fuckinh tendencies. #i've seen adhd hcs for her too though and maybe that makes more sense (i have less info on that) #like it's speculated i might have adhd too but i was never diagnosed (only got the autism diagnosis) #which like obvs they aren't EXCLUSIVE like often times they're co-occurring. which i think is another hc route #you COULD take w sharena actually. #as for alfonse i do wanna say i completely get it and see why people do hc him autistic #he DOES have. tendencies LMFAO #but for me. alfonse is just as much a study in cis masculinity as he is a study in being able-bodied #there are a lot of things i need to reconcile with. often. and i need that tool to navigate my feelings #so like. i absolutely don't wanna invalidate anyone's takes on him and i know JUST as deeply how personal #and important hcs can be. #to me alfonse just. has Tendencies. that attract autistic people to him like moths to a flame. #regardless of if he is or isn't himself. #and he has so many problems. but i don't think he has The Horrors you know. #MEANWHILE i think takumi is so autistic he has ALL OF IT. ALL OF THE TENDENCIES. ALL OF THE HORRORS #that's how i feel anyway! #fe alfonse #sharena #fe henriette #fe gustav

[caramiaaddio]

I love shows that take you on like. A mental health journey while you watch them. Like

Me: oh man I’m having trouble finding people to date that sucks :/

*watches first two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I will be alone forever nobody will ever love me or be attracted to me I am in desperate need of therapy

*watches last two seasons of crazy ex-girlfriend*

Me: I am absolutely capable of finding romantic love but I don’t need it cause I’m worth so much more than who I date and happiness comes internal peace and not external validation

#crazy ex girlfriend #cxg #I wish this was a joke but it’s not lol #like I’m not gonna say the show cured my mental illness but like #yea this was the right show to watch during a lonely time lol #it’s wild how much I relate to this show and Rebecca in general #cause like…I don’t have bpd but I AM autistic and I think a lot of those same feelings cross over #not symptom wise but just in the sense of having a disorder as opposed to an illness #that feeling of some part of you being fundamentally wrong until you get diagnosed #the difficulty of explaining to others why the label means so much to you because it means you’re not alone #I actually played the diagnosis song right before and after I got diagnosed autistic bc it resonated so much lol #but yeah literally two weeks ago I felt worthless bc my romantic history is uhhhh #only one person was every romantically interested in me and then I found out she was lying about being in love with me #and now I feel so zen cause it’s like hey! I’m autistic it’s alright if I’m a little behind on this stuff #and romantic love isn’t the end all be all if I find it that’s cool #but if I never do it’s okay because I have so much more in my life

[coulsonlives]

I just had to share this video because holy shit, it hits the nail right on the head! So well spoken. This stuff needs to be circulated more, esp with the growing number of people thinking they have this because of misinformation, or just outright faking it.

#it's painful because i knew someone who personally faked this stuff (or has convinced herself she has it i can't even tell) #she had spent all her time on tiktok and i know for 100% sure that's where she got the idea. it's TRAGIC how fast things went downhill #i'm legit horrified at how many people (esp young kids of 13-14) think they have this too. or are just pretending #i've been neck deep in hardcore research (and i'm talking pubmed sciencedirect etc only) for months #and those kids definitely don't have did.. if they have trauma and are dissociating it's going to be something else like dpdr etc #the number of stupid 'you have did' answers i see for totally basic questions like 'i got dizzy what's wrong w me' is insane too #it's like googling 'muscle twitch' and then thinking you have some rare 1/billion familial cancer thing despite other obvious explanations #but worse.. in these cases the information is being fed to them. they don't have an opportunity to explore other possibilities #and the worst part is they don't even know to CHECK THE VALIDITY OF WHAT THESE PEOPLE ARE SAYING. they don't have info literacy #like i'll say this once: did is so rare that it's STILL contentious about whether it even exists #and it only happens in the most unimaginably traumatic experiences. think of the worst possible things you could do to a child #where even just thinking about it makes you uncomfortable. THAT'S the kind of trauma that leads to did. the truly evil stuff. #i'm not even gonna start on the BITE model shenanigans that are happening in the 'did' communities either #or how the people who used to be in them (and got out) always equate them to self-harming cults that celebrated not finding real answers #they got told they were 'perfect the way they were' despite having OBVIOUS psychological issues they needed help for #(it just wasn't did) #they were assured their 'did was valid no matter what'. toxic positivity ig? it just delayed their real diagnosis and ability to get help #but now you have gluts of people like in the video 'talking to themselves' and people on tumblr posting one-liners of 'alters' talking #one after the other within seconds. and i want to fcking cry because it's the same exact shit my friend did before she cut ties #the did/tourettes/ftlb stuff has literally been called a 'mass sociogenic illness' in multiple academic studies #but like qanon believers they seem to immediately discredit anyone who mentions this with 'you're just ableist' so anything you say is poo #aka you're part of the problem you're an 'ableist' so your legit info even though legit isn't valid/acceptable/real/whatever. i'm tired fam #did #dissociative identity disorder #osdd #ddnos #munchausen syndrome #mass psychogenic illness #ableism