#but it’s still kinda sucky

[just-jammin]

do u fear tht the friends u make online will one day disappear without warning n u can never contact them ever again? /gen

no srsly this is a /gen question not hate asks

i mean…

i think it already happened once…

but yeh, it’s a saddening thought, especially when your last interaction with them that you remember is a bad one…

#(note: i agree with anon that this is not a hate ask it just reminded me of a sitch) #well not RLY bad #but it’s still kinda sucky #i did something at the time that i didn’t know hurt them #actually i FORGOT it was a thing they’re avoiding #and i felt bad abt it after i was informed #so yeh that was my last interaction w them #kinda felt guilty abt that hehe… #that was stupid #<= (a tag for me speaking) #idk anymore #<= (also a tag for me speaking) #inquiries of a fennec #a really nice anon

[sneeb-canons]

Headcanon #400: Heart & Mind are usually never a neutral temperature. The area around them is like the sun & moon. Mind's being hot and Hearts being cold. They're body temperatures however contrast that with Mind always feeling cold like metal/machinery and Heart feeling warm like a literal heart.

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#chonny jash #cj heart #cj mind #cj soul #depending on how negative or positive they feel makes it either a comfortable temp or an uncomfortable/unbearable temp #also feel like when they're more mutually chill with eachother [like in Light & We're Gonna Win] #they're still opposite temps but coexisting together #like perfect example is a spring & a storm [literal wise not just the songs] #spring being a nice warm breeze & maybe some very light rain. so together its a nice combo & its not too intense to make a storm #and then on the other hand #the storm being the two clashing & even making a tornado since the temperatures & winds are fight so much #the end of StAAS especially is vry musically stormy/tornado like with how the tempo gets faster & their lyrics clashing together too #[which btw chonny added in the tempo speeding up cos that's not in the og & I LOVE that detail SO much] #and then during THA it becomes an uncomfy cold and as Be Born & the beginning of StAAS its an almost unbearable cold #Heart gives up control to Mind so its like if a body *literally* lost its heart #as StAAS gets through its becoming warmer from Mind & then there's the storm feel at the end #TME starts annoyingly hot & gets worse & worse as the song progresses [also kinda like a computer is overheating] #TSE [and also just Soul in general] is neither. a very empty feeling even #since Soul is the shell/vessel [Whole without his Mind & Heart] he has no temperature at all. bro is just empty feeling #at best [or worst] Soul will be a sucky inbetween. if he feels cold & puts on a thicker coat he gets too warm. #if it's too hot. it'll just wear a t shirt but then it gets too cold [kinda like having the flu/a cold] #anyways the bidding is a harsh swapping between the two. changing between who's singing #the duet bit with M&H is similar to the storm but just circling winds that aren't as violent #by Two Wuv & VoaC its much more neutral and peaceful with Soul being able to feel the positive parts to the others temperatures #but thats enough inane ranting #i like the temperature idea can you tell? #most of this idea i got months ago from thinkin more about how the end of StAAS is like a literal storm lol #the og already had fun instruments swelling & stuff that made it have a storm vibe but CJ went ham on his #i love StAAS mayhaps a lil bit

[hundespieler]

crackship of the century.

Dulse is a tgirl and uses she/her.

#pokemon #pokemon fanart #pokemon art #pokemon shipping #pokemon ship art #ingo x dulse #dulse pokemon #ingo pokemon #subway boss ingo #subway master ingo #ultra recon squad dulse #ultra recon squad #submas #ingo #dulse #trans headcanon #trans hc #btw don't follow me for submas stuff. i lost interest ages ago. #pla came out and the fandom became sh*t real fast. #tbf it was already kinda sucky but it just got worse. #i still like the twins i'm just more of a hater now. #i've moved on. blue people save me. #what would this ship name even be. #I'm coining it now. #blackwormholeshipping #restingb*tchfaceshipping idfk #reupload #okay to rb #.hundeart #my art

[skylilac]

im so glad i dont write fic on tumblr anymore genuinely its so hard to be a fic writer but esp in the kotlc fandom

#i dont know this isnt rlly inspired bu anything i just kinda remembered when i used to post fic here #i remember id used to be LUCKY if i got like 20 notes bc most ppl didnt even get that #like fr kotlc fic writers get the worst of it genuinely its so hard getting interaction even if youre popular and well known and all that #and idk maybe its bc were a pretty young fandom but like no one comments or anything anymore #wattpad?? i have like 100k views and maybe. 1k stars or whatever like yall realize how bad that is right #and ig ao3 is better but ​the hits to kudos/comments ratio is still soo sucky #ive written in other fandoms and rven if theyre small at least ppl comment and shit?? more than here ifl #everyone still writing fic in this fandom deserves a holiday or smth #avery rambles

[rosekasa]

following up from My Body Is Being Concerning, today i learned that i am in fact capable of experiencing a panic attack so severe that i faint

#sorry for talking about this im just. Processing. bc wtf was that #but also when u think about it... pretty metal right #i know this sounds very sucky but like. there are other good things happening in my life so it kinda offsets This #im upset and a bit shaken that this happened as an Isolated Incident #but like. im drawing lots right now! and feeling good about that. so it's okay. but wtf #maybe will delete this later? my brain still feels fuzzy #hopefully the last post of this genre for a while i dont like the vibe it's been bringing to ladynoir brainrot blog #i think it's weird because there's like a LOT of pressure im experiencing in most parts of my life rn which clearly seem to be taking a toll #but the one thing im actually consciously spending time on (art and writing) has been going well. so i feel like. i at least have This #idk why i feel like this is necessary to post #i guess it just helps to know that y'all know that there r weird things afoot behind the url because it feels less like i have to be alone #with it #♡alizeh talks♡ #vent #panic attack mention

[marsbotz]

this was my realest post ever but i regret posting it every single day bc it got like 1k notes (big for ninjago textposts.) and never seems to die

#i dont remember what my guys were. i think maybe vinny and gayle but they have become more prominent since #vinny got a whole fucking monsterfucker yaoi plotline. and they both got minifigs. sooooo #vinny is still my all time fav side character tho maybe #tsk… i liked him before the yaoi…. #fugidove too im also insane abt. dont think he has a minifig. YET #char…. and bentho too. one season wonders….. #that is truly the most painful thing abt ninjagos structure is that every season u get a new blorbo who will never see the light of day agai #actually i also kinda liked tbat weird shopkeeper guy in s12. he was sucky but fun to watch #oh actually my ultimate obscure blorbo is rachel sparrow. from one of the books #jays like … agent? boss? during his time on tv #oh the producer lol #but thats my sickening secret is thst i literally Kinned so hard i made her up. same first name and all #and then found out she was real. LIFE ALTERING #ohhhh u know actually tho. i shld draw my ninjago ocs. for once #i have a few half siblings for jay. could be fun. CLIFF YOU BASTARD!!!!!! #lets piss on our bio fathers grave together 💖 #anywya

[emma-d-klutz]

The fact that Murderdock follows Gwen's band is the most important part of his characterization.

#obviously i am being hyperbolic but still #'Face It Tiger is my favorite song' Matty you are some kinda a guy #murderdock #gwen stacy #the em-jays #like hes got all these complex feelings about wanting to corrupt spiderwoman and why #but then hes also like. funky little guy. supporting his apprentice's band. proud of her accomplishments #hes so selfish hes so tragic hes so wrong hes so tortured hes so enthused. hes one of the worst things that have ever happened to her. #and he listens to her play the drums on his air pods surely. off a sucky EP he overpaid for on a choose your price bandcamp option for sure

[girl-bateman]

Shivering and head jerks have stopped ! Yay ! I did sleep through this entire day which is less yay. But still.

#i slept from 13-16 😩 and i still havent gotten out of bed #but rn everything feels kinda sucky and heavy #bet ehh it'll get sorted eventually 🙏

[timegears-moved]

perhaps a hot take but team rocket really don't serve as much cunt as people say they do

#bwark #like okay #the episodes that focus on them as actual characters are usually some of the best. usually. im still annoyed about butch and cassidy's #return episode in journeys #but like those episodes are so few and far between #the rest of the time they're just kinda sucky one-note villains that are forced to be the conflict for huge amount of episodes

[your-local-uwu-artist]

*puts every bitchy trait onto mayor bitchboy*

I am torn between makin this character my punchin bag and giving him a half assed somehow wholesome semi redemption arc where he's still a fucking bitchboy but his also homosexual,(and homophobic: schrondinger's homo) and he kisses the wimpy lackey sidekick character that follows him around

#like not bitchboy/pos but a I hate you/pos as in like a love to hate kinda way #Like a you are a jerk I want you to fail but please fall in love with somebody who's just as much of a coward as you #I want to crash the wedding with the eggman I have an announcement to make audio #and af the end of the story you still suck ass but your not pure evil sucky your just like fucking middleschool who jury learned cusswords #Kinda sucky so like: you don't need to go to jail or anything to extreme just please step on a lot of legislation #O MEANT LEGOS NOT LEGISLATION WTF AUTOCORRECT

[fuckingventy]

gods bravest narcissist (only got a little passive aggressive at all my friends cancelling on my birthday)

#I’m really upset actually and I’m being so brave about it actually #all is an exaggeration admittedly. half. #but it’s kinda shitty to back out of plans the night before esp for someone’s birthday #their stuff is important it’s not blowing me off for frivolous things but it’s still sucky #literally had to hold myself back from ripping apart the relationship with my teeth until it’s just blood and bones and nothing repairable #and they say narcs can’t grow. gritting my teeth. #im gentle im gentle im gentle (said with blood in my mouth) #vent #actually narcissistic

[bisaster-energy]

i do get making cas essentially human i understand that he can adjust to it and actually enjoy life like that. but um. i just think he can be just as fulfilled as a full blown angel

#human cas fics fuck severely they go hard #but i cant really vibe with cas like. just ''being human'' endgame #cos we already know no matter if he can fly no matter if he has grace he won't BE human that's an entirely different species ya dig #if the show was normal about non-human creatures being people as much as humans are #i probably wouldn't mind as much? but the show is very very sucky about that so #they scratch the surface on nonhumans being capable of like. fear and hopelessness and love. #and instead of really having salmondean explore this they just. forget about it and maybe the cycle restarts in another motw ep #ik it probably aligns with the overall copification of those 2 and it makes me so full of malice... #what im saying is cas is decidedly other. a creature an incredibly powerful one. #and i think it really shows that him not being human separates him from them. he's not as trusted #even after 12 years :/ it's kinda easy to oust him cos he keeps relationships with heaven. #which brings me to the whole ''oh fuck angels we hate angels oh but um not you cas!!'' thing like bro he's still an angel #you pick which monsters u find worthy of redemption but never fully accept them for what they are and discard em pretty easily #so yeah i think having cas be graceless is interesting and even makes sense but ig it just seems too easy on the winchesters #they never had to really accept cas as a full powered angel cos honestly they way they remember it #cas at full power wings in tact was just an asshole and he was barely ever back to that: comfortable in his prime after like s7 wtv #once it's all over and done with i think it'd be cool if cas could have all his wings and power in tact and just be at peace like that #he's an angel but he doesn't have to be a soldier anymore he can quite literally do anything now whole point of free will #and yeah he can choose to be graceless sure but he can never be human anyway. physically at his core he's something Else and i think #dean should have to like. live with that tbh #they never have to REALLY tackle the ''monsters are people too'' aspect and angel cas endgame would prove that regardless #he IS family. they dont NEED him to be an angel to USE him but regardless he is what he is and #they are fine with him not being human because he's family and they love him who cares what you are. #cos in cas' mind he needs his power to be useful but also he cannot truly be part of them while he is noticeably Other due to their bias #this is true for other characters obviously jack rowena crowley #sam's whole thing with benny 💀 #but this is a cas post and i haven't watched the show in years so this isn't like. a cited essay lmao just ramblings #in short i just want cas to be fully angel while not feeling he HAS to be for others' sake and have the brothers be genuinely cool with it #cas my best friend cas #cas studies

[plushyluke]

i miss ashton :(

#im so excited for the album to drop just to feel something #kinda sucky about that nft but #i miss ashton #all the ppl on stan twt were saying things about how his candle company was literally biodegradable and he still promo’d a nft #why is it all his fault like the other three didnt sign to a shady marketing contract #but whatever #no more on that #i miss him #ashtoncore #luke’s loml #somewhere a blonde boy stole this blue shirt #ashton irwin #lashton blog #bottom luke blog

[yutadori]

so like . today was supposed to be my fourth day of work and when i walked in my manager asked to talk to me and told me that i was being terminated and i was like oh crap wait girl what . and she hands me this sheet of paper that i read over and there were two bullet points that stated why they were terminating me and i was like oh . hm . okay

i was about to sign it until the words really settled?? so the first point was insubordination and i was like hi can you explain this please...? and i sort of shocked myself the moment i said that because typically i would just sign and leave but in that moment i was like well . im going to be leaving so why not ask for some constructive feedback so i can do better at future places?? and if it ends up being awkward or hurtful it's fine because im never going to see her again hdkdsjks she kept it very vague by saying that she doesnt think im a good fit for the team, which was confusing because that didnt Really explain anything?? so i asked if it meant that the other staff didnt get along with me and she was like well . no not that

so okay the thing is im totally aware that im a part of my own downfall sjssjskn basically i was supposed to work on new years DAY and i was soooo anxious because i had JUST learned how to make a few drinks the night before, so i truly felt like being there on new years would fuck everything up for everyone, which would suck esp because it would be busy. so i sort of um . messaged her saying that i had food poisoning (lie) u__u

so she brought that up as the reason and explained that me not being there = affecting the team and i was like well . okay i can see what you mean i guess ? then i looked at the point under that and it said that i failed to do the tasks i was responsible for and that Really confused me because while im fully aware that im barely decent at the things i do at work, i still dew them u__u so i panicked wondering if i fucked up really badly somewhere and asked her to explain that too, which felt so crazy that i was even saying any of this ?? anyway she said that my absence on that day meant that i failed to show up to do the tasks i was supposed to do and i was like hmm . okay i see i guess

and it was so weird because again usually i would just accept it and leave but i sort of asked her a bit more about it but not in a hostile way or anything. my mouth moved faster than my brain and i really hope she didnt think i was trying to fight or disagree ?? anyway when i reiterated that i was sick that day (which . yes it was a lie but she didnt know that sidldhsl) she said that because that was the second instance, she felt like this was necessary and i was like damn... okay girl...

#the first time i called in sick i think i was gen unwell like i felt super nauseous and i think i almost vmited u__u #but its kinda like . damn #lets say i /was/ sick for real on new years this would be really ??? sucky #and i also have chronic health problems (real) so its kinda like #so... if i had to miss work not super frequently but sometimes because of the horrors of my tummy aches then ? #i would be at a greater risk of getting fired becahse of that?? u__u #and my friend said i could provide a doctors note in the future about my health problems and its like yeah but then we also #discussed how that could potentially lead to being given less hours which also sucks ! #like sorry i dont have good enough health to be profitable enough or whatever . idk #so . yeah . did not expect that to happen today </3 #sun texts #long post #SORRY FOR THE LONG POST... STILL... PROCESSING... #anyway gonna eat lunch and draw later maybe suskssks

[salsflore]

going to sleep soon ～ let me get some things off my chest here.... my eyes are super itchy again (fell into the trap of snuggling my cat even when i swore i wouldn't do it again)

#cw vent #this is bc i have a math exam tmrw I’M SORRYYY i feel some kind of way about that #this is the first exam where i am near confident i will fail. and its just kinda sucky #my mental maths is really poor and due to the fact i skipped grades (unable to afford Education) i don’t know a lot of things my peers know #my results as they are right now? theyre genuinely ok. not bad. but theres still gaps made by the years of missing out on school #this is one of them #its so embarrassing having my classmate look at me weirdly when i ask her about something that should totally be obvious or #something silly like that. i don’t know. its especially hard for me to be interested in maths because my old maths teacher has #literally fucked me up i’m so intimidated by every math teacher ever and i just hate the feeling of being stupid or whatever #i don’t enjoy being comforted by A+ students bc theyre like cmonn its totally fine!! i relate i got a 39/40 :( #or my friends who make jokes about how stupid i am and its just aghhh #its already been almost a year since ive enrolled in school again but i still feel so out of place #so miserable i could just die #so miserable i think i SHOULD die #and i'm just nervous about getting an absolute 0. failing my first test made me want to literally kill myself #sorry for being dramatic but when you have a sister whos awards and certificates fill your house shelf its kind of like........ #aghhhh!!!! maybe i should just accept that i'm good for nothing at all!!!!!! #not that great with numbers or formulas. probably not that great at writing either. nor am i as eloquent as i'd like to be ～ #not artistically inclined. science is a bore. not ~ naturally ~ adept with neither languages nor history! psychology! economics! sports! #forgive me for not being able to do anything good at all ... zzz

[the-sill-of-all-sills]

Todays a pain day :(

#sill talks about stuff #chronic pain #scoliosis #I mean it's kinda nice in a weird way #because its been a long time since I had an actual flare up #so its nice that I seem to be doing better overall #still a bit sucky right now tho wah