#but i just hate fake activism

[reasoncourt]

if anyone is wondering why i care about taylor swift discourse it’s genuinely just because i think people lose their point in their hate for her. and they lose perspective.

like she’s actually not the most evil woman in the world. she gives her workers insurance (bare minimum) and good bonuses (she’s mega rich so also bare minimum) and she buys carbon credits (bare minimum but also opens an interesting convo - i.e. how much should we value carbon credits?). she doesn’t use her voice enough imo but she also doesn’t speak out of turn (i.e. she doesn’t pretend to be well-versed and authoritative on topics she has no knowledge in (arguably she should educate herself on certain topics but tbh i’m inclined to view it as a positive that she doesn’t introduce global political issues beyond “trump bad” to her crazy af fan base… like she could do more but i also don’t have much faith in her politics cause she’s so so so out of touch so i prefer the silence)).

an important note here is that i do think she’s absolutely fucked for not condemning the genocide of palestinian people (especially when she’s supposedly close friends with the hadids who are outspoken on the issue and would greatly benefit from her public support (obv she shouldn’t just speak out bc it affects her personal friends but the fact that she isn’t speaking out when she has personal friends is honestly bizarre to me)).

but she's not unique for any of this. she does more than most of her peers and also way less than she should. that's all i see.

and yet ultimately it’s like - people side with kanye when he put a naked wax figure of her in his music video without her consent when she was 25. that situation was obviously misogynistic but people hate her so they largely glossed over it and decided she deserved it for "lying"about a phone call she didn't lie about. people also seem to think it’s funny that football bros are making ai porn of her (arguing she “deserves” it) despite that line of thinking obviously being detrimental to all women and especially those who are so much more vulnerable than her. people got angry at her for donating $250,000 to help with kesha’s legal fees in her case against ‘Dr. Luke’ because they considered it a publicity stunt even though taylor swift wasn’t the one to make that donation public. people called her performative for taking a man to court for sexually assaulting her and only asking for $1. and obviously they would’ve criticised her for asking for more.

the thing that really aggravates me is that there is so so so so so much to criticise her for. but it’s so so so so so obvious that a lot of people just hate her and don’t actually have any legit problem with the things they say they have a problem with. their favs could do the exact same thing and they won’t find any issue with it. cause they just really hate taylor swift and won’t step back a bit in order to just critically think about what their principles are and how those principles apply to this situation with taylor swift and whether they’re actually consistent with those principles and will apply them to someone other than taylor swift.

there are such valid points and important discussions i see being completely missed because the complaint is about Taylor swift and people seem to be incapable of thinking beyond the fact that they just, first and foremost, hate her

and let it be said that this is not a taylor swift defence post. i could not give a single shit about her specifically. i do find her music fun and nostalgic but i also think it deserves more criticism than it gets (but that’s not what this post is about). it’s just that she’s one of the most talked about people in pop culture and i feel like legitimate and productive discourse is rlly hindered by people’s disproportionate focus on her

#sursh.pers #a rant that wasn’t needed probs #i’m genuinely procrastinating #and i know this will be taken as me defending taylor swift #but i’m genuinely not #i just don’t find a lot of the posts criticising her to actually be based on #any coherent principle other than ‘i hate taylor swift’ #which is totally fine - like hate what u want obviously #but i just hate fake activism #idk it’s a pet peeve #like do u rlly care about taylor swift doing x y z or not doing x y z? #or is it just another thing u feel validates ur already hostile feelings towards her? #like people are always talking about the trend where people find something annoying and try to make it a moral thing #rather than admitting that they just find the thing annoying #and i think this just especially applies to taylor swift discourse #because half the time i stg people actually don’t care about the thing they say they care about - they just hate taylor swift #which is fine!!! it’s perfectly valid to hate her. just be honest about it idk sjdjdksksk #like i just beg u guys to actually have coherent and consistent principles that apply to more #than just the people u already hated #idk if this rlly made sense #it’s more a rant i’m writing while not writing my assignment #but ah well

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wen ning #Wen Ning voice: “A cuck *hold*?” (tearing up) Yes.....yes I think I'd like that.“ #(Seriously...That boy is in need of so many hugs. Being held by chains isn't enough. He needs kind arms.) #Drunkji 2.0 has arrived. And his first move is pout about WN being in the vicinity until he leaves. #I do not think we give enough credit to the fact that if LWJ was not in the picture (or had different chemistry with WWX) #Wen Ning would be the Holder Of Most Relationship Potential #Though I supposed even in the TV drama there wasn't any hard defined romance but wangxian was still strong and tangible #The mutual obsession is too strong for any third party to have a chance. #LWJ is only actively jealous when uninhibited (drunk). Sober he would not stop wwx dating someone else (wwx would never) #he would hate it but hate himself even more for feeling as he does. #wwx does not strike me as the type to get jealous (to a significant enough extent (JYL is the exception not the norm). #LWJ would fake date someone to 'make wwx jealous' and wwx would just go 'oh neat :) anyways.' (he is never allowed things for himself).

[welcometoteyvat]

jing yuan and yanqing are giving zhongli and xiao if the latter’s canon relationship was Actually fanon’s made up father figure/adopted child dynamic

#idkkkkkkkkkkkkk who looks at zx and is like 'you know what. this is a healthy parent child relationship' #like girl by fitting them into father son boxes you are actively making their relationship imbalance Worse #if you do that and dont shy away from it i respect that but if you say dad/son makes their relationship more wholesome or whatever like WHY #now i wont deny shippers might do that too but i see the dad son version so much i think im just averse to it by default #also because i think father son makes people actively Try to make their relationship something that its not and it erases a bunch of subtlet #subtleties in it. it's the nuanced r/ship -> entirely unproblematic and flavorless r/ship that i hate #also the number of people who'll block if you ship zx. like damn thats crazy you guys really think theyre father son (fake)??? #at their peak they're like. 4000 year old guys who have too much history and repression and some weird entanglement of 'nah im bothering him #too much' and 'gotta protect him w my life' complexes. and then this devolves into theyre never gonna kiss until 3000 more years have passed #listen they just Contain Multitudes idc if you dont ship it just dont make it into dad and son and we will be so gucci #jing.yuan and yanqing are like different i think mostly bc yanqing is actually like a minor and jing yuan is also a normal ish person #plus the light cone and the abouts?? yeah this is an actual like adopted parent/child thing #also good or bad news i caved and am now playing hsr. the plan is to pull yanqing and then go on infinite hiatus in the game 👍 #JWKFLJWEK i dont think theres really any draws for me besides him. personally neutral on turn based combat and the open world isn't giving #the only saving grace i have rn is 1) ive gotten to the part where bron.seele is real and man theyre gay 2) trailblazer trio 3) tall female #mc 4) everyone has way better emoting abilities than genshin 5) su.shang's really cute <3 #the story doesnt really interest me though its like cool but not mindgrippingly interesting #tbf i think genshin is the same way storyline wise (at the beginning) but the difference is that turn based combat isnt really my thing LMAO #ramblings! #zhongxiao #if you want to filter it out ??

[iwaasfairy]

some of you know that i don't like tiktok n it has many reasons but i have had a rant brewing in regards to it for a while and it's definitely extremely prevalent on tiktok

it is not your place to judge people's relationships, even the toxic ones

i know we all go like "yeah duhh" but i want you to actually take in what i'm saying. it's not your place. just because they exist in an age where things can be found online, doesn't mean it's your place. people are allowed to have the human experience. people are allowed to fall in love with the wrong people, and people are allowed to have toxic experiences and people are allowed to be stupid and make mistakes, even public ones

definitely if the person in question is a young woman. like genuinely, i think there is nothing more disrespectful and ironically, anti woman than determining for some young woman that she shouldn't be in a relationship with some older dude. it's not up to you. yea maybe she's making a mistake and will regret in in 3 years, and so fucking what? that's life. young women are able to choose, for themselves, even if the choice is stupid.

billy dating that goofy fucking dude and getting so much shit for it bc what? she whose wrong? yea, i'm pretty sure she made a conscious choice, so stop. she'll survive her mistake. trying to keep young women from experiencing life, even the bad parts of life, isn't doing anyone a fucking favor. its just dismissive of the fact that they can make their own choices for fuck sake.

some nineteen year old ending up married to her high school teacher because they wanted to, getting called out because it's weird and creepy? they're living their lives. who are you to criticize random people? even if it is weird. even if it is true. it's not your fucking place.

a thirty year old woman married to a seventy year old guy and they are living their life and existing in a space where people can see it, but now suddenly it has to be called out bc that's toxic and gross. ok, it's also not your fucking relationship. stop butting in where you're not asked. it is so unbelievably disrespectful and honestly, i'm sick of seeing it. everyone needs to keep their nose in their own business

the easy access of drama on tiktok has made everyone believe that everything is drama that you should stick your nose into. it's not. other people's lives and mistakes shouldn't be your entertainment. young women making bad choices for themselves isn't a hill you need to die on. you aren't being an ally. you aren't being a feminist. you aren't being appropriate.

it isn't your place. it isn't your place. i'm sick of it

#tw.rant #tw rant #i'm sorry i just;;; am getting really tired of #liberal or leftist youtubers acting like #them talking about normal people who's drama blew up #is allyship to anyone #young women can date and make the wrong choice #and it still aint any of your fucking business when they do realize #they made a mistake #if no one is committing a crime #leave them tf alone #leave gold diggers alone #leave toxic age gaps alone #leave weirdos w weird kinks alone #leave people with values that arent yours alone #you can warn once (1ce)! and then they can make their own choices #as a young woman myself who has actively dated much older men #i hate the fucking fake activism people engage in talking about age gaps #i knew with my big grown up brain what i was doing ok #most young women know

[spamsandsuch]

In my mind i dont think swatch necessarily hates spamton but spamton does think they hate him

#spamton #spamtonposting #swatch #swatchposting #in a sense i feel like spamton just thinks everybody hates them due to its circumstances and is extremely distrustful/disdainful to others #as a result #and especially hates ppl like swatch and the adds for believing them to be fake friends #(i include swatch in this cuz of the sweepstakes q&a) #but would swatch hold the same amount of contempt for spamton? To me not really #I think its more so that swatch is just uncomfortable around spamton due to its actions #And due to swatches personality is often annoyed by spamtons actions as well #Thought that doesnt necessarily equate to swatch hating him (or in my fanon at least… though even from a canon standpoint #i feel like swatch is more so annoyed and uncomfortable with spamton rather than actively despises them) #i think in afttp they would get more on friendly terms and become acquaintances after talking through their issues together #(but who knows i might make them friends eventually too? who knows..) #my headcanons #also sorry for not posting as much lately i got a new job recently and just been dealing w/ some personal stuff #to the point where i forget i can just posts my ruminating dr thoughts (which i used to do more often and i feel a lil bad for not doing so #as much now) #anyway thats all i dont have much else to say lol

[talentforlying]

also forgot to post about it yesterday, but i have designated december 2nd as constantine's official catch-up day with his niece gemma!! they don't see each other often since she "quit magic for good" (or is very good at pretending she has) but the holidays are a hard time for them both and it's too awkward to explain every year why you avoid your last living relative, so they've agreed on early december for an annual short dinner and chat. sometimes they call on christmas day, but they never meet up; neither of them wants to do christmas without cheryl.

#( ooc. ) OUT OF CIGS. #constantine's holiday timeline is very upsetting to me personally :') #his sister was his sanctuary from the life of magic and loneliness and she was taken away from him #and now not only is every holiday season this massive gap in his life where a brief moment of peace should be #but it's an active and painful reminder of what he's lost. and what he's cost his niece #and i think gemma's still resentful of john's failure to save her but she still loves him. and he still wants to be in her life #so this is their compromise. not acknowledging the anniversary of cheryl's death. not faking it through a holiday #dinner and a chat at the top of the month and a reminder that he's a phone call away whenever she wants him around #and then he fucks off to ireland for the pagan festivities until the new year #cos he only really did christmas for gemma and his sister in the first place lmao he'd rather be around the Magic #( headcanons. ) I'M JUST LIKE THE BASTARDS I'VE HATED ALL ME LIFE.

[faithisland]

fuck man it's so fucking frustrating how I'd probably love to clean and organize if i were ablebodied (or even just didn't have my specific conditions but still the nd traits)

I just can't be moving my head around like crazy. walking while moving my arms, reaching my arms down and immediately up, lowering my head to the ground to reach something and then standing back up, having no momentary neck support at any time, those are the worst for me. I would do any task, honestly. I just feel so fucking trash every time I do these kinds of things. standing is excruciating, moving my arms while doing it literally affects my consciousness to the point where I lose track of what I'm doing (and not in the typical adhd way).

as long as I can stay stationary, particularly partially lounging, I am capable of rational, logical thought. I can think through long term consequences, remember the basic physics of the universe, generally function like I am not an alien to this dimension.

#i literally drop things bc i forget im holdinf them #or i think that idk it wont drop ljke im a fuxking astronaut #i slam into things bc i forget i have a physical form #literally being up and movinf around makes my brain SO dissociated and im SO dizzy and my vision is wonky and i can barely focus on staying #up right #but i can do things like go for walks #its all about how much i move my arms and get up and down #so badically i seem like im faking it🫥 #i can do 'fun' things but not work #not paying attention to the faxt that i dont much like the activities im doint #i do them to stay alive and make others happy #and genuinely i am incapable of what would make me happy #WHICH IS WORK #GENUINELY #my life is miserable BECAUSE i cant clean or move around #i hate feeling like i contribute nothing to the ppl i love #i hate not being organized #and i HATE not working so so so so so much #the sad fact is that i just really cant work #i have to somehow get better #even though no one knows whats wrong w me or believes im genion3ly experiencing it #i dont have seizures apparently its normal to collapse and go into spasms w ur eyes rolled back in your head. #apparently thats normal #apparently its fine to hallucinate my whole life and have fainting spells and confusion and disorientation and feel sensations as other thin #gs #thats kusy notmal and not indicitive of ANY neurological priblem #so i should shut up and go away and get some CBT about it #i jusy dont fucking know whatcyh3 fuck i am supposed to do #what am i supposed to do to be able to work

[rockstarwolfie]

this pic of lance stroll will never not make me giggle

#ik i'm 159 cm and he's 182 cm but i wanna squimch his cheeks so bad #he's just my cringefail loser meow meow babygirl #the blorbo from my races #awwwwawaawawa #he's rotating in my head like a vinyl record #shawty is in fact like a melody in my head #shawty in this case is lance stroll #he's literally just a lil cutie patootie #i don't understand how people would actively hate on this guy :((( #lance stroll #ls18 #f1 #forumla 1 #that's my man ; cazzy's fake boyfriends #i'm going off the rails on a crazy train ; caz talks

[yay-depression]

the repressed neurodivergent experience of thinking “no one will ever love me with all of my neurodivergency the way i love them with their neurotypical-ness.”

#me my whole life: got made fun of for exhibiting ND traits among other stuff #me in middle school: well if i simply pretend i am neurotypical people will stop disliking me for being ND #spoiler alert: i was not very good at faking neurotypical-ness #me now: very very good at faking being neurotypical to the point that i am perceived as having very few distinguishable traits #my family my entire life: you are weird (aka neurodivergent) stop being weird #my family my entire life: if i simply do the thing that my child hates maybe they will grow out of hating it #another spoiler alert: no the FUCK i did not #tldr my entire life i’ve essentially suppressed most of myself to make the people i love comfortable bc that’s what they wanted from me #and in response they routinely ignore some of my most important boundaries and still try to act like they’re helping me #my therapist keeps telling me that one day i’ll get a family even if it’s found family #because sometimes found family is the best kind of family #but no one i’ve met is willing to actually put up with who i am as a person and not abandon me #every non-familial person in my life anytime i’ve shared deeply personal things with them: nope no thank you goodbye #and the deeply personal things were always just like ‘i’m actually pretty insecure in friendships and i feel deeply lonely’ #it wasn’t even traumadumping bc they always seemed fine with that!! bonding over shared trauma was like a group activity #and then anytime i was like ‘hey could i maybe get some validate that y’all don’t hate me?’ everyone would be like #no. why would you need that we never said we hated you stop being over dramatic #my dad pulled that last one all the time!! except he added the ‘how could you even think i hate you when i’ve been nothing but good to you!’ #come to think of it my friends did a lot of that too actually #anyways i have a core belief that i’m actually just unloveable and people just tolerate me and it’s been confirmed repeatedly

[dirt-str1der]

Do you consider any of the non protagonist yakuza girls well writen?

I think none of them had rights

#Thanks for the ask ! #like you have to actively like girls to notice them theyre inconsequential #also who is this why are you sewing discorse in my inbox #i spelled discourse wrong. my mom ordered the dog trainers to train ollie right now because he is insane and hes eating soo many treats #not because hes a good boy but because they are tossing that shit at him #they were literally almost there with yasuko #i thought her story was so fucking interesting ... #like its really not a fault of the girls they are all pretty good characters in their own right #like we have a variety of them too. we had miss tatsu who was out there turning guys inside out but she randomly had to go get kidnapped in #order to complete kiryus training arc. like how funny would it be for the whole thing to be staged and miss tatsus like Lol good job kiryu #for passing my test. oh this guy ? yeah he did get the better of me but i kicked the shit out of him then roped him into my schemes. dont #you think practical application is more effective than training ? anyway theres nothing more i can teach you but you can come train whenevr #we didnt even get an in game appearance for yuko but apparently she was a massive troll but too cute to get into any real trouble #mirei was. . . i literally said ‘are you kidding me’ when they revealed what happened to her like seriously ? is this real ? they did #that ? like literally she should have been living it up in cahoots with katsuya and being so sexy and divorced forever. she should have #faked her death because every single parentsl figure haruka had leaves her. and god haruka like honest to god i love that she just ran off #like that i thought it was so kiryu of her to be an absent father. but also my friends have all brought up very good points which is that #haruka should NOT have gone back to morning glory like she should have stayed in ono michi with her loser girlfriend whos a boyfriend with #her new extended family and only go back every now and then to see her siblings honestly i hated that .... like girl spread your wings .. #choose where you want to roost stop going back !! just get out !!!!!! its literally okay to tell the rest of your family ‘i dont wanna wipe #your asses forever i love you guys but im out of here’. and god i .. as much as i loved y0 makoto should have left her shitassed husband #girl had a whole ass baby with him ... find someone better im sorry ..!!! like whatever i know that thst was the ‘best’ option for her and #she deserves financial stability and a rich doctor husband but she also deserves crazy sex with a girl with one eye #i think what yumi did was awesome but like. actually i have no complaints about yumi. wait no i do. kazama was a shitass for marrying her #off to that politician because he couldnt stand having a woman in his house. im now thinking of that unecessarily hot doctor from y0 wtf was #her deal. and god the unnecessarily hot cho-han lady from y5.. oh wait ako had rights. she fell in love with kiryu at first sight then got #over him which is literally the best thing a girl could do for herself. PLUS she throws molotovs and is generally awesome #i cant remember any other girl. oh yeah god reina. .. reina .... god milky though .... i think she was fantastic and i want her badly. and #yayoi fucking disappeared after a certain point in time and ran off to another city with her baby daddy and sugared him to open a bar #well its not canon but im certain thats what happened because she literally went radio silence like girl where are you ....

[applecherry108]

I am too old for this shit.

Saw the dumbest fucking discourse on Twitter. About someone complaining that a tag they used was flagged as harassment on ao3 and that the story would be hidden until they changed it.

“[ ] shippers dni eat glass and die”

Deadass they and their followers were so confused about how that’s harassment.

I don’t know how to explain to you that telling anyone to “eat glass and die” is a bad thing to do no matter what fictional characters they ship.

​Your bad actions are not excused simply because you have the perceived moral high ground.

#apple talks #to the tune of spam #like I ain’t out here trying to get arrested by the morality police but advocating harm upon any real person based on #what dumb or immoral media they like is a bad thing. the stories are fake. but they are a real living breathing human. #I don’t care what sort of weird or immoral shit someone is into you don’t send them fucking death threats #like. I’m old enough that I’ve had more than a few ✨problematic✨ interests in my 2 decades of fandom but I can say with certainty #that the people who are into fucked up shit just want to be left alone. they will not expose you to their weird shit unprompted and those #who do are typically new and are swiftly corrected. the ones going out of their way to interact with shit that doesn’t concern the #are the people who hate that shit. but actively seek it out and harassment the shit-enjoyers bc morality or purity or whatever. #I keep seeing this trend on Twitter about ppl screaming ‘why is this trending?!?’ AND THEN USING THE HASHTAG #BABE THE THING YOU HATE IS TRENDING BC U AND UR BUDDIES KEEPING USING THE HASHTAG ITS NOT ROCKET SCIENCE

[janedeleon]

daniel: cheats

filipinos: OH MY GOD LETS GO SLANDER THIS OTHER GIRL WHO WAS ALREADY PROVEN TO BE THE SCAPEGOAT IN THE WHOLE ISSUE OH MY GOD WHAT A WHORE AND SHES UGLY TOO

#the misogyny in this country is fucking disgusting #i have yet to see the level of hate for the man who was ACTUALLY IN AN ELEVEN YEAR RELATIONSHIP AND ACTIVELY CHOSE TO CHEAT #LEAVE GILLIAN ALONE?????????????? #the level of fake news filipinos deem as fact is why we have the son of a whole dictator as the current president #misinformation is a fucking DISEASE #okay sorry i just had to let this out because people need to grow up #filipino tag #daniel padilla #yeah im putting this in his tag because i wanna fight whoever still wants to defend him lets go

[rotisseries]

this fandom really need to remember that liking villains is perfectly valid as long as people don't go around excusing morally-wrong behaviors.

i mean I'm hesitant to say things like "make sure you're not excusing morally wrong behaviors!" because. it's just like. an annoying attitude to have, like people don't want to have to post about their favorite blorbo War Crimes Mcgee with a paragraph long "DISCLAIMER: AS A FAN OF WAR CRIMES MCGEE, I DO NOT CONDONE WAR CRIMES NOR EXCUSE HIS ACTIONS" and also that is an annoying fandom culture to have to live in. like sometimes it's fun to just be like "haha yeah it was hot and sexy and cool when that villain killed all those people"

but like. everyone has their line in the sand for what's "too far" for a fictional character right? and everyone's is different, but for me and most people absolute no goes are things that feel, too real? I guess? like. racism, homophobia, domestic abuse, etc. are things that are always too far for me to continue liking a character. it's gross and unsatisfying to watch, these are things you're pretty likely to deal with in real life based on your personal life experience, and there’s really overall no way for it to be an enjoyable thing in the story right? but just generic murder is NOT most people's line in the sand

which is why like. there's a difference to me between b1lly stans and henry creel stans. like I just find henry stans annoying because of their lack of commitment mostly. they're all like "actually I theorize that he DIDN'T murder those people" BORING. say he did and you find it hot and sexy idc. also I don't find henry that interesting so by extension I'm not interested in the fanclub. but there’s nothing that actually grosses me out about him having a fanclub, because the murder is fictional and telekinetic and inseparable from the supernatural plot like I'm never going to run into a man who's actually murdered people with his mind and I'm DEFINITELY never going to run into people who hear about real not fictional telekinetic child murder and decide he's cool and sexy and also didn't do it or whatever

but b1lly. well. b1lly is a very real type of violence. there's lots of racist abusers and there’s lots of people who defend them so I just. can't get behind it at all. you DO have a point though that it would maybe be marginally better if they'd at least ADMIT that he'd done this shit lol

so yeah this isn't to say that like. someone's favorite character and how they talk about them is NEVER a red flag, but "this is my favorite character Child Murderer Jones, he murders children and gleefully boasts about all the child murder on screen, and I love him very much and have edited him with cat ears" is fairly standard fandom behavior and not worth moralizing, imo. and sometimes this fandom gets a little puritan about fairly standard fandom behavior

#like. do you know how many fandoms I've been in where “the murder was hot” is the normal take? imagine if we all acted crazy about that lmao #another thing I think contributing to how weird I find a character fanclub is will be something like #what other parts of the story you have to ignore for it #like b1lly stans kind of have to entirely ignore lucas and max's storylines for that shit lmao #and having no sympathy or interest in the story of a black kid dealing with antagonistic white men #or the girl dealing with horrible abuse is pretty gross #but like. henry stans don't really have the same problem bc again. it's a bunch of fake supernatural child murder #also disclaimer fandom isn't activism and hating b1lly isn't the end all be all of activism #but there ARE certain characters in media where I do actively think worse of you for liking them #and I do think it's a sign you need to examine some internal bias #also I apologize for bringing up b1lly that may come across like I read your ask as also referring to him #I didn't really I just also mentioned him in the tags that this is about. so like #especially bc you say “villain” and I feel like that's too fun of a word for him #like “villain” makes me think of fun larger than life fantastical criminals #b1lly is just a very real asshole dickwad #ask #anon #this got a little rambly I didn't mean for that to happen

[loud-whistling-yes]

I get a lot of "omg you're so nice and non-judgemental you're such a good friend" and "omg dude you're way too nice to this asshole they should not be your friend" from irl friends and family and I don't know how to say this but uh, if you had friends like I had when I was a preteen you learn to count your blessings real fucking quickly and stop being choosy on who you befriend. The bar is six feet under by now if they don't encourage the entire class to boycott me it's a win.

#fweeet #my mom was appalled at the amount of... questionable friends i have these days and this came to me #look some of the friends i had when i was 10-12 included: #2 different girls who on seperate occasions forbade me to eat lunch with anyone else because they got jealous #a group of kids who lowkey for some reason were really into touching eachothers butts?????????????? #a girl who made constant sex jokes as a 10 year old and once wrote a story where i got... uh... #two girls who got into an argument so heated they exchange kys notes #THIS BASTARD OF A KID who tore my lunchbox in half and laughed at my face #(also the only person in my lifetime who found a way to bully me in my spine brace with... #lets just say its very painful and i hate being pinched now) #OH MY GOD THE LIST NEVER ENDS #THIS ISNT EVEN INCLUDING YE GRAND MIGHTY YANDERE MOTHERFUCKER SUPREME #THE ASSHOLE WHO HAS MADE QUITE LITERALLY A THIRD OF MY LIFE A LIVING HELL #anyways people ask me why i can stand so many 'fake' people and assholes nowadays especially if theyre my friends #and you see #at some point in life ive learned to think to myself Hey at the end of all things at least im not being actively doxxed on youtube again #mom i understand your concern but i have to unfortunately inform you my current friends are probably the sanest people ive ever met in life

[rottingsick]

ppl who sh for attention are so valid because oh my god no one who isn't mentally ill would sh as a way to get attention

#text #rotting #mine #I think abt this a lot #'oh they're just doin it for attention' and? there's clearly a fuckin problem if that's how they choose to do such??? #no one whose mentally stable would ever go 'hehehe hohohooo I think it'd be funny to fake mental illness by actually self harmin' #honestly writin someone off bc its 'attention seekin' is just gonna make the problem worse... #I think bein attention seekin with sh is a product of neglect or their pain bein dismissed/ignored and sh is often used as a measurin tool #by many for 'how bad is it' no matter how wrong that is #so by sayin they're just attention seekin and dismissin their pain yer just reconfirmin their already held issues #honestly its wild how much of a 'no I don't actively sh or have any plans to commit die' will quell any urgency a doctor will have to treat #completely ignorin the fact I am 100% impulsive and have a history of doin shit and creatin the entire plan to attempt in one day #or get a little off my rockers and notice oh shit I just did that after it's already dmged myselff #but then again I don't feel like bein locked up because I honestly cannot give any consistent way to check #if they'll just stay intrusive thoughts or if they're gonna become reality #also not to go off on a further tangent but I hate the ppl on tiktok classifyin impulsive vs intrusive thought by whether you act on them #when you can 100% act on an intrusive thought... typically in delusion or in a way to make it stop or it's so overwhelmin you loose control #in my experience as a delusional bitch.. intrusive thoughts can and have won #and it can become hard to tell whether that's how I actually feel when my brain is violently tellin me it is #anyways that's a long road down a tangent but also not really and it did come full circle if you consider the fact that #the push to sh for attention is one of my intrusive thoughts eyooo #mostly born out of the fact my pain was never real enough to those around me. I was never considered sick enough. I had no proof of my pain #I was just a lost cause and it was all my fault. so yea. it did start as a way to try to make my pain real #altho it has warped and adapted overtime as my mental health has gone down a slippery slope to sh for attention from one person directly #guess I've been taught as I grew up that if I'm hurt enough I'll get attention I so desperately crave. always ignored if I wasn't in crisis #and I don't know how else to get what I want so even then I naturally just break down as it's my only ability instantly get attention #even if I'm not doin it on purpose I'm just so wired and trained to mentally or physically hurt myself in an explosive attempt #to get what I want regardless of if I want to take that method but the infightin in my head just makes it happen anyways #and it sucks because tbfh. it works. my behavior is reinforced almost constantly but it's also extremely dangerous to not be reinforced #cause then I don't know how to handle myself and get sui and it just sucks a lot

[soldier-poet-king]

I'd maybe be interested in the Shia interview but I CANT STAND ****** ****** and career celebrity clergy (or even lay ppl tbh) make me want to commit murder and also apostasy

Like all of them. Even the good ones. Even the friendly ones. The household name ones. HATE HATE DOUBLE HATE

#HE FEELS SO SLIMEY AND FAKE AND I HATE HIM #not to mention the extremely poor handling of the harassment allegations at wof #PLUS some of the stuff he says is just. yikes. like yikes #celebrity catholics disconnect from the internet and be desert hermits challenge #unironically would be better for them AND for the general public #yall know exactly the types im talking abt #anyway sorry beloved mutuals who are into this i cannot cannot cannot watch it without being so angry #i wish i could bc like. mental illness and franciscans is where its at #even if i actually beef with pdr Pio bc of his sexist skirt bullshit #FRANCIS OF ASSISSI IS THE ONLY FRANCISCAN I NEED TBQH #the concept of new evangelism has become so corrupt as to actively DE EVANGELIZE ppl tbqh :))) #full of spicy religion takes today bc im extra upset for undetermined reasons