#but i didnt realize she was that desperate

[t3ag3rs]

i loved your bakugo headcanons omg, the joy i feel when someone writes for characters and actually includes their canonical personalities lol idk if you write for any other characters, if you don't then you can just ignore this, but if you do then could you write similar relationship headcanons for Kirishima or Shinso? :3

hi! im so glad you enjoyed my Bakugou headcannons! I hope this kirishima one fits to your liking! sending lots of love <33

i definitely think kirishima first ends up seeing you talking to mina on a random day. you and her are just talking about dance when you two are suddenly interrupted by the outgoing redhead inquiring about who you are.

he suddenly realizes that you had went to junior high with them but had never really hung out with the popular group due to having a close circle of friends- one of whom is mina.

"actually? I never saw you..!" he chuckled rubbing his neck with a slight blush, you just wave it off with a quick smile, "nah dont worry bout it.."

well fuck... now at least kirishima knows what exactly he likes the most about you. your gut wrenching, heart pumping, adorable ass smile.

would immediately try and get mina to help him out with you in every. single. way.

"mina, whats her favorite color? And chocolate? To add to that thought- flowers as well. god mina I sound desperate!"

poor baby is so whipped for you he actually cant even manage to hide it in front of you.

kirishimas the type of person to rant to his friends about you with absolutely no knowledge about his surroundings. so much so that he doesnt realize you can hear him occasionally..

do you mind? of course not! its not like you dont have a small- okay fine. major thing for the red head as well...

"kiriiiii..!" groans mina, "stop obsessing over her and just confess goddamnt!" she exclaims frustrated while throwing her hands in the air.

"tell who what?" you grin overhearing their conversation.

you look at the two confused before mina starts, "you see y/n, kirishima here has a-" until you see a hand slapped over her mouth.

"nothing!" grins kirishima quickly. you nod slowly before you see mina side eyeing him with a knowing glance. "fine.." sighs kirishima dropping his hands.

"as i was saying.. our little man over here has a fat crush on you" she says nonchalantly, shrugging her shoulders. you immediately break out a shit eating grin, "oh- yeah i kinda know.. he isnt very good at hiding things..." you chuckle.

"why didnt you say anything!" whines kirishima, "you couldve saved me so much time and effort!" completely forgetting that you hadnt given an answer to his confession.

"because i thought it was cute.." you admit with slightly flushed cheeks. you look away to avoid making eye contact before you feel kirishimas hands wrapping around your torso.

"so you like me back then right? please say that means you like me back.." he exclaims happily into your neck.

you just smile and wrap your arms back around him to give him his answer.

#kirishima eijirou #kirishima x reader #kirishima ejirou #kirishima ejiro x reader #ejirou x reader #mha kirishima #boku no hero acedamia #bhna #bhna x reader #mha x reader #mha headcanons #mha #my hero academia #kirishima headcanon #kirishima x y/n #bnha eijiro kirishima #kirishima eijiro x reader #mha eijirou #kirishima mha #t3ag3rs

[fleetcaptain]

Someone tell me why, of Beverly believes twister is a game that leads to other things, she played it with the teachers a few episodes before?

#the goldbergs #beverly goldberg #twister #i knew she was desperate for friends #but i didnt realize she was that desperate

[4arconinoma]

By the way Trish was hoping the entire time to hear some sort of comfort from Bruno and felt upset by his cold and detached demeanor because he's the only person who served as some sort of familial figure and offered her any amount kindness or protection And he did want to say those things to her and when he finally DID offer words of comfort it wasn't ACTUALLY Trish and he only Thought it was Trish and she never got to hear him say those things to her and he has no idea he never got to tell her. Just so you know

#jjba #txt #When i was rewatching Vento Aureo and realized this it made my stomach drop #So you will have to know too #im so normal about this im so normal #Listen i hate mommy bruno characterization like i really really do but #Not only does this disprove it (He shows a cold demeanor to the gang members to try and avoid attachment and provide stability in times of #emotional desperation and not some sort of motherly figure like the fandom tries to say he is instead of a MAFIA GANG LEADER) #I also do think the one familial sort of attachment present is him and Trish. This is not the mom thing #Its just quite literally she has no one else to rely on. The elevator scene she was so scared of meeting a father who's intentions she does #t even know And Bruno is so young but he is the only adult figure she can rely on there. Perhaps its not parental but familial in other way #Either way hes the only person that can support her in that situation and shes frustrated that hes acting cold #But the thing is he has to act cold because he has to keep it together and i bet he didnt want her to become attached to him at first in th #t way PROBABLY mirroring his childhood as well he wanted to keep her away from this sort of lifestyle and not have her be associated with #him or the gang so that she could live a safe life #But i imagine he realized at some point that she has no one else BUT WHEN HE FINALLY TOLD 'HER' THINGS TO MAKE HER FEEL BETTER #IT WASN'T HER HE THOUGHT IT WAS BUT IT WASN'T AND THEY'RE NOT GOING TO SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN #This connection never got to grow They don't know this about the other. He never got to say these things and she never got to either #im so sad Im so sad #So like i said this is the only familial thing I think Bruno has going on. #I see Bruno as more of a cool uncle or brother though. I cant see him as a parent. He is so young. Everyone forgets this #But either way he would be the only caretaker that she has. But they didnt get to have that chance #Its just heartbreaking #Im so sad #YOUVE HAD NOTHING BUT HORRIBLE THINGS HAPPEN TO YOU. BUT YOU STILL HAVE A CHANCE TO ENJOY A NEW LIFE. HEAD IN HANDS

[kennabeth]

you guys ever wake up evil

#im a little better now but i probably could have killed this morning tbh #my dog woke me up four times last night #i got up and my brothers had trashed the bathrooms so they desperately needed done before i left for work #i picked up my water bottle and the lid wasnt screwed on??? so it dumped everywhere #my dog couldnt wait for me to handle the water spill and peed on the floor #the trash bag i was carrying out broke #was about to pull out of the driveway and realized i left my phone in my room #and i was gonna have my tomato soup i didnt get to have Saturday today for lunch #and for some godforsaken reason there was bacon in it #what the FUCK #i have never had a 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed' day quite like this #and immediately upon clocking in got a call from some lady whose son's truck had been hit and she was just screaming at me #bc SHE had to file a claim and i couldnt for her #i almost lost my job bc of her (was gonna tell her to khs then go home) (only barely held it together) #if i hadnt just bought a doll yesterday i would be buying a doll rn to make life worth living #and i left said doll at home!!! i want her to be in my car so i can stare at her!!! #EVILEVILEVILEVULEVUL #says kenna

[red-dyed-sarumane]

kyuuyakus so good not only bc its like the only song heavy enough i can tolerate at loud volumes that can Almost drown out my coworker who never shuts up but ALSO for the points ive said 74times & will continue to,

aru sekai shoushitsu set us up for something super sci-fi, which. yes. the series very much is. but it was so technical and almost coldly indifferent. and then we're given the whole "old testament" in the title & the whole intro reading that isnt far from dantes inferno type content as my good friend emimin pointed out. we've got this new aspect added in and at the same time the lyrics let you know this character's still dealing with the complex technical stuff, from the terms down to the second kanji in ashita being incomplete as though because of a program error or interruption or some other similar reason.

and it feels even more different because theres just so much emotion in this one compared to shoushitsu. all the "bye-bye"s written in ways that express deep pain, the fact that the "see you tomorrow"s are cut off in the way they are the first time, and so drawn out the second time. the genre's not the spacey, distant trance type that shoushitsu is; its heavy, its intense, its got as much to it musically as there are details in the story. it's not just to sound cool, it's getting her state of mind across just as much as the spoken words. the world's being destroyed physically & metaphorically, everyone's suffered this over and over, they've parted ways so many times and its just never something they can get used to, especially not if they want to keep trying to end this whole loop, she's stressed past imagination trying to keep everything in check when its just not possible, & the intensity of the music just emphasizes all of that. there's less intense parts too, sort of like a forced focus on what she's doing that all too quickly builds to a panic. or the in the second part where everything gets so dire, the bell's tolling and she's running out of time, the piano over top of it giving such an uneasy feeling, and then right back to that heavy panic. theres so much emotional charge in it you know the long notes aren't just magu having fun with it; you just know they're meant as screams. i dont even think i can say screams for help, i think she knows shes past the point of help or at least that she's supposed to be everyone else's source of help that it's just stressed lamentation. she's doing everything she possibly can and its not working so all thats left is to cry out about it.

and then u have the rute furute wo a motif in here that's added in under the "fractal wa/kurikaeshita" parts that really hits harder now with kannagi for extra context. knowing that this is in the past & can't be changed and everyone else is using this as a point of reference. then u of course have the nami no ne wo motif, & the longest & clearest instance of it aside from maybe oumen mokushiroku so u know she's herself & gets to live, gets to keep doing this & watching other people die. (although i have absolutely no frame of reference for how long she lives given this is a past event & she doesn't seem to be present in the more current time songs. we dont really have that context yet) & then we're back to the rute motif on top of what still sounds like a jumble of nothing. but i also thought the rute line was nothing and here its a big deal so i cant wait to realize what this other jumble is, considering its also under the last ima kizanda parts.

theres just so so much to it, so many little intricacies that build such a full picture from whats otherwise one of the more simple series songs & i cant love it more.

#aru sekai series #part of me is desperately like is that last jumble here the reason the end of ashura sounds so familiar to me #but its not quite right for that i dont think #its also not the repeating whatever from shoushitsu #& it didnt make any sense to me when i tried reversing it either so i just dont know #ashura's a different conversation but oh my god i am so desperate to realize why the end of it sounds so familiar to me #like which song is it from & what motif is it #its NOT the nami no ne no. i know that. that's not in that song despite everything telling me it should be. #which is interesting in its own right considering the whole. cycle of things with ashura as a concept & whatnot. #& yet without that motif it implies she doesnt get to live after her song so thats something i think about often #anyway i feel like what im looking for is in either kyuuyaku or touhikou or both but i can never pinpoint it #compels me tho #as ive said many times the sound design in series songs is amazing when magu says they compose to fit a certain mood they fucking nail it #i thought about putting this under a read more but ive decided to actively be annoying #oh yeah once again im not looking at anything directly this is just off memory & the lyrics i can understand #bc some of these words i forgot immediately after learning. whoops.

[pussymasterdooku]

my cats whöm i love very much 1/3: george montgomery johnson and(/)or jones

#my cats #aka the dumbest sweetest weirdest boy i have EVER known #i thought this was a funny format for this post but really i just want to talk about george #he is. SO shy. he has only ever been seen by us and by lizzie one time when he DIDNT REALIZE SHE WASNT ME (like i said. stupidest) #but when he Knows it’s just his moms. guys he’s so weird he loves to be manhandled he wants us to put our whole faces on him #rub all over his belly blow on him fuck with his paws #and then he tries desperately to lick our faces raw #like i said SO weird #oh and he has. the SILLIEST meows he’s so annoying he meows at me all day and it’s so so so special #i’m gna post about my magical angel girls soon too because i LOVE sharing cat pictures but i just was rubbin my face on him #and the Urge To Post overwhelmed me #that’s all

[cuteiemonster]

hey can i shoot a shot in the dark and ask if anybody knows the origins of this crystal hair receiver- my grandma had two of them but neither have an acid mark, and looking up " star of david crystal hair receiver " doesnt really bring any results. I can definitely take more photos if needed, just really curious if we can get them identified! ( They're basically identical, one has a larger 8 pointed star pattern than the other )

#hush cuteie #i dont even know what to tag this as lol #crystal hair receiver #?????????? #anyways. mostly just curious! not desperate for an answer #my dad and i are just going through stuff we've gotten from her storage unit and these were in there #we've pretty much identified the other crystal items she owned but we're stumped on these two #didnt realize what they were until my dad went down a reddit rabbit hole. thought they were candy dishes of some sort lol

[arolesbianism]

I had the most stressful 30 minutes of my life today while playing oni ohhhh my god remind me to never underprepare for a rocket trip again

#rat rambles #oni posting #I finally decided to make the trip to grab a gassy moo and I both forgot to remove someone from the crew And didn't bring enough oxylite #by the time I had arrived I was already just about out and knew the atmo suits I had laying around would only have enough to speedrun #grabbing all the shit I needed and dipping and this was about a three cycle flight from my nearest rocket port #I was able to stretch the suits and remaining tiny bit of oxylite I snagged from a newly built mini pod for about one cycle #but after that desperate times called for desperate medures #....so yknow how poluted water offgasses polluted oxygen? #yeah. yeah. #so hey they may have spent 20 minutes straight gasping for their lives but at least their moral was doing absolutely lovely the whole time #and they survived! thank fucking god! #bro the dupe that I forgot to kick off the crew was one of my og 3 I would have been Devastated #I had originally planned on bringing her because shes a rancher but then I remembered my pilot is interested in ranching #I didnt realize I had forgotten to boot my poor poor lindsay until the ship was literally right abt to launch and I saw her scrambling up #a latter and jump in Just in time and it immediately launched #I by all means should have just landed the ship back down immediately to kick her off but she was sticker bombing and I felt bad #but no yeah I fucked up so bad if I didnt go all out with the decor in the rocket to keep high moral things would have been even worse #from now on if I do not genuinely Need a dupe on a space trip theyre staying home lol #it was so jarring finally watching them get back home and seeing the rest of the main colony all just living their perfect lil lives #I finally got the new oxygen production system done in my main colony and its been working wonders I Really should have done this sooner #and my second colony's is almost done but I am getting a bit worried that it won't work #I really Should put automation in I know itll make my life easier in the long run but also automation is annoyinggggg #I mean hey I dealt with the hydrogen flooding in both bases so I have successfully stalled for time again #and worst comes to worst I cant just replicate my main base's oxygen system to my second one #I just would like for it to double as a steam generator since thatd make other parts of my life easier #I Do have two cool steam vents on that planet but theyre y'know. cool steam. aka rly hard to transport steam. #like hell Im currently using them as my main water source and Im not even doing anything fancy to tame them #even with insulated vents I know that itll probably still cool down too much especially with how far away its need to go #so just generating steam closer to my steam engine is probably the better bet #and you just know Im going to use this rocket like once I dont even know whos gonna pilot it

[angryborzois]

i finally watched the latest ep of tr and omfg i cried 😭

#i was eating dinner while watching it in the living room and holy shit i was struggling not to choke #i couldnt breathe #also my mom was around so i had to supress my tears to the best of my ability #but if i was watching in my room i wouldve sobbed more #god damn #i was already tearing up a little in the first scene where we saw a flashback of emma crying because her mother left her #i really started tearing up when emma started asking why izana and mikey had to fight even though they were brothers because damn #shes so right and its heartbreaking #AND DUDE #AFTER SHE GOT HIT BY KISAKI AND WAS ON THE GROUND #i lost it at the scene where takemichi slowly turned to look at her body and asked “emma?” in disbelief because he couldnt process the scen #and when mikey was carrying her and desperately trying to talk to her to keep her awake... #even after she had died... #his face when he realized she died and her body felt oddly cold but he kept talking to her in hopes that she might wake up..... #im crying again help #i am in shambles #please #emma didnt deserve this #angryborzois rambles

[livingdarlingliving]

literally just thought i couldnt nap. thought it was something i was incapable of. then i found out i had fallen asleep on her and it took them like three tries to wake us up. i cant believe i just thought i couldnt do this. that i wasnt made for this. but then. her.

#mine #a #c #it's so small it's so stupid but like. #do u know how it feels to live 23 years in ur body and think u know it then realize u just didnt give it something it desperately needed? #it's madness. i love her. she makes my heart feel like it's daffodil season.

[amatres]

my first time i played origins, i didn't realize there was a camp until i made it to denerim so i suddenly made friends with all my companions in the final arc of the game, including saving zevran's life bc otherwise i wouldn't have had enough approval with him when taliesen shows up

#ama mumbles #also in my first da2 playthrough isabela was Just out the right approval range so she didn't come back with the book lol #im not putting this in the main tag but it's dragon age #can you imagine? this weirdo never speaks to you but suddenly when you make it to the landsmeet they wont shut up #the only time i was there before that was when the game Put you there #so i had /some/ conversations but was missing a lot #this was also when i realized that you could romance ppl and i desperately tried to trigger leli's #only to accidentally flirt with alistair in his personal quest by saying he had me and i didnt have the heart to turn him down 😔 #anyway i made him king and he dumped me like a week later

[hannieehaee]

hi!!!! im wondering if you could do a story about idol mingyu, idol reader, and a story about how mingyu couldnt control himself after seeing his girlfriend perform a hot performance on an end of the year award show because she looked stunning, and he also then accidentally reveals their relationship. TYSM!!💞

content: idol!mingyu x idol!reader, established relationship, secret relationship, mingyu is a simp, afab reader, public embarrassment (not really), part of my lil idol!mingyu universe (even though ive created three separate aus of it oops), dry humping, penetrative sex, mentions of fingering, etc.

wc: 1429

a/n: thank u for requesting i love writing idol aus hehe hope u enjoy <3

original fic

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as a seasoned idol, mingyu was expected by now to have a pristine ability hold restraint in any and every public situation that required it.

there were certain ways in which he was expected to act while in the public eye.

for instance, he could never outwardly express discomfort at the few awkward fancalls he had to participate in. nor could he show dislike towards the few members of the industry he didn't quite get along with.

but above all, he was absolutely never to wear the lust he felt for you on his face in such a public setting.

especially not during an awards show that was being streamed internationally.

even more so while the camera was focused on seventeen for their reactions of your performance.

but mingyu was just a man after all. a man who was thoroughly and proudly obsessed with you.

except this was meant to be a secret kept between the two of you (and maybe a few other people you had let in on the secret).

so mingyu immediately knew he was fucked the moment your set had begun and you came out wearing the tiniest little number he had ever seen. it hugged your body perfectly, highlighting his favorite parts in the most delicious ways.

it might've been fine if that had been it, but your pretty outfit was also accompanied by the most sinful of sets he had ever seen you do.

watching you grind and twist yourself in ways that reminded him of the many hours spent between the sheets with you was just not something mingyu knew how to witness without it eliciting a reaction out of him.

and sadly for mingyu, his face told every single one of his emotions.

his droopy and lustful eyes said everything they needed to say on their own, but they were also accompanied by the constant biting and licking of his lips as he watched you.

the one thing he didn't realize, however, was that the camera had been on him that whole time, airing his reactions to your performance for everyone out there to see. it had even managed to capture the gruttal groan he'd let out the moment you started grinding sensually on the floor (in a fashion similar to the way you did to him so many times before).

it wasn't until one boo seungkwan kicked him from under the table to get him to react like something other than an animal in heat and clap for you like a normal human being.

but the damage was done, and now so he felt extremely self conscious for the remainder of the show, not knowing what type of rumors to expect to see the following morning.

for now, though, his priority was to catch you during the intermediate time between your show and that of his own group. fortunately for him, there was one group going between your group and his, allowing him a believable excuse to head backstage with his members and go astray as he looked for you before your own group had to head back.

without so much as a single word, he grabbed you by the arm and dragged you to the nearest empty room he could find, immediately locking the two of you in there as his eyes got a fill on you in your current ensemble; the main instigator of this whole predicament.

"gyu, what the hell are you-"

"no talking. fuck. please, just-" there was genuine desperation in his words. his frantic eyes showed how badly he wanted you, but he didnt even know where to start. so he let his body take control of his actions.

it started with a rough yet sensual kiss against your lips as his hands got a feel of your body. he groped and caressed every inch of you, his lust growing more and more by the second.

"made me make a fool of myself out there, baby," he grunted, lips now trailing down your exposed shoulder, making their way up and down your neck with wet kisses, "couldnt keep my eyes off you the whole time."

"g-gyu," you were defeated against him, allowing your body to be handled however he wanted as long as he kept touching you. he relished on this.

"they saw everything. the way i couldnt keep my eyes off of you ... the way one single look at you can get me on my knees in one instant, fuck", he uncovered as much of your body as he could, raising your skirt while lowering your shirt, "they all know how much i want you."

but you didnt process nor care for his words as he ground his solid member against your now bare cunt (sans some very thin seamless panties that accompanied your skirt), completely lost to the delirious feeling his cock gave you even through his pants.

he kept whispering in your ear just how badly you'd affected him just now, how everyone now knew how pretty you must look when you ride him – all while he hastily lowered his pants and moved your own panties aside, plunging inside as soon as you gave him the okay.

"f-fuck ... feel so fucking good, baby," he breathed against your ear.

he lifted one of your legs up, wrapping it around his waist in order to get a better angle as he thrust desperately into you. the praises leaving his mouth never stopped, only getting less and less intelligible as his arousal grew.

"o-oh, gyu ... right there ..."

"there? fuck ... baby likes it when i fuck her right there?", his taunts were followed by harsher thrusts, causing your nails to dig into his bare arms, "a-ah, shit! 'm baby's gonna leave her mark on me, huh? yeah ... go ahead, pretty. let everyone know i'm yours .."

"m-mine!"

"mhm, gorgeous, just like you're all mine," he opted to carry you now, holding you up against the wall as he moved your body to his pleasing, "fuck, wish i could mark you. show everyone who you belong to," he buried his face in your neck, simply opting to breathe in your scent as he landed soft kisses on the length of your neck.

"do it!," you begged mindlessly, "please? wan' everyone t-to know 'm yours," you babbled.

"fuck," he groaned before following your direction and beginning to nip at the naked skin of your neck. quickly he left a few blossoms of red on your skin, knowing that the moment you went out there, people would be able to spot a few from afar.

with his face buried in your neck, he timed himself so he could orgasm with you, having mastered the art of playing with your clit just at the right time to synchronize your highs.

mingyu stayed glued to you for a while, unwilling to let go as he panted against your neck, attempting to even out his breathing.

"how are you gonna go and perform out there completely out of breath and with scratches on your shoulders?", you giggled.

"i ... oh, fuck."

it was too late for him to realize that although you wouldn't be too scrutinized for your disheveled appearance due to your performance being over with, he, on the other hand, would still have to go out there and dance in front of a huge audience. the error of his ways was lost on him the moment he hardened under his pants at the mere sight of you dancing.

but hell, it had been worth it.

"baby, just ask your stylist for a jacket, okay?", you disconnected from him, knowing it was almost time for him to perform.

you pulled your clothes back together, wincing at the feeling of his cum dripping out of you and grabbing some nearby napkins to clean yourself as much as possible, as well as him. once the two of you were presentable, you gave your boyfriend a kiss for goodluck and headed back to your seat while mingyu walked over to his members backstage.

though no dramatic dating scandal broke out that day, various rumors questioning mingyu's lustful eyes during your performance began sparking up, with some people making the connection in the timeline of his mishap and your sudden reappearance in the crowd, with a messy, post-sex look accompanying both you and mingyu.

despite hybe ignoring any and every article insinuating anything between the two of you, you had now created a subsection of fans who were dedicated to unveiling what they were sure (and correct) was a secret love affair between the two of you.

#seventeen fanfic #seventeen x reader #svt fanfic #svt x reader #seventeen #seventeen imagine #svt #seventeen oneshot #seventeen smut #svt smut #svt scenarios #seventeen scenarios #mingyu scenarios #mingyu fanfic #mingyu oneshot #mingyu scenario #mingyu imagines #mingyu smut #mingyu x reader

[thusgalanthus]

Huffs

#i got called good boy once and i want that again so bad #i did not realize that was something i liked #it has been running through my head for days #feels really dumb but man #one day in the future might hear it again #and get kisses i am desperate for so many small kisses again #also its probably dumb but like i think its so cute and nice that we both ended up having the same start date for hrt #i didnt know i was getting mine that day and i thought she was getting hers the next day

[bhaalble]

I like that Last Unicorn quote as much as the next guy but I do always wind up feeling a little detached from analysis that paints Astarion's disapproval as purely envy. Partly because. No one's doing this for Lae'zel for instance even though she has similar disapproval and similar trauma (all she can remember is a hostile physically and emotionally exploitative environment which expected perfect strength and obedience from her or else she would be punished or killed). But also partly because it feels pretty detached from everything he actually has to say about it.

The thing about Astarion is he loathes weakness. He loathes sentiment and he loathes dependence. You can see this when he actually opens his mouth up about the people he disapproves of saving, but also incredibly loudly when he talks about the other companions, as well as his fellow spawn. If Lae'zel submits to Vlaakith he talks scornfully about how some people just come to love their chains. He's confused and put off if Wyll submits to Mizora to save his father. In every conversation with his fellow spawn (at least when hes not actively manipulating them) he's dismissive and harsh, and clearly he's perfectly willing to sacrifice them for the sake of himself.

There's an obvious origin point of those feelings, of course. Cazador's abuse is designed to actively kill off empathy in his spawn, both towards each other and towards victims. The last time Astarion prioritized someone over his own skin he got locked in a tomb for a year. We can see glimpses of it with the other spawn too, how his siblings are (apparently uncompelled at first) willing to drag Astarion back to their master for their freedom, how Petras' first dream of freedom is getting to drain another person dry. Astarion certainly doesn't seem to feel any real sense of solidarity with them, likely because Cazador understands that them building a community is a threat to his authority the way it was to his own master.

I'd also argue its Astarion projecting his own self-loathing outwards. So much of his quest is about his desperate attempt to escape from who he was. He's been given a chance to slip free of the limitations of being a spawn. He clings to that because of course he would. He also instinctively begins to run over everything in his path, because if there's anything he has learned over the past 200 years its that good things can always be taken away unless you make sure to remove any and all possible threats to that scrap of well-being. He's disdainful of people in need of help because they represent who he fears to go back to being! He calls his siblings "poor fools" while refusing to confront the fact that had it not been for the tadpole he would be in exactly their position, forced to cling to the hope that Cazador is telling the truth for once because escape isn't an option either way. He becomes irritated when Tav slows down to help the unfortunate because they represent roadblocks on his own path to safety.

There's an idea in mental health stolen from airplane safety: that you shouldn't help anyone else until your own mask is secure. What they don't tell you, speaking from personal experience at least, is that PTSD, especially for long term trauma, has a way of making you feel like your own mask will never be secure. And while that's scary, and it sucks, and there should be the utmost patience for it: no one is going to realize that mask is secure for you. Eventually you are going to have to accept the fact that you are breathing just fine. Eventually you are also going to have to accept that people asking something of you isn't them endangering you, even if it can sometimes (often) feel like it. It doesn't make you obligated to help them. But it does mean you have to stop reacting to them like a threat, because not 5 minutes ago that was you.

I think the idea that he's only mad because he's jealous is a gratifying fantasy. He didnt feel safe before, but now through your PC and the power of love he'll feel warm and cozy enough to forgive you for not being there to begin with. But I also think Astarion cannot live in a reality where he's never pushed back on. His instinctive self-protective movements are a coping mechanism, yes, but coping mechanisms developed under survival conditions can also be a way of keeping you frozen in your trauma. Outside of the environment they were necessary for, they can even hinder you from growing in the ways you need to grow to move past what happened to you. Sometimes, you need to stop a baby tiefling from getting crazy murdered by a snake because it turns out. That can happen to anybody not just people who are weak and stupid and deserve to die anyways not like me I'm normal-

#bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #astarion #ive got to stop drafting essays on him #apologies if this damages my cool boy image #cazador #baldurs gate 3 spoilers

[honestlywynter]

Stop Obsessing Over The Void And Subliminals (kinda rude rant)

as a person who started interest in the loa in late 2020 discovering subliminals. LOA is simple, idk why it took me 4 years to understand. manifesting is easy.

if you have struggles with manifesting. don't panic imma help you from being like me 😜.

1. Realize you are in control

Stop STOP and i mean fucking STOP. Giving the void and subliminals so much fucking power and bitching about it " OH MY GOSH i didnt enter the void wtf am i gonna doooo 😪 " or " THE SUBLIMINAL SAID 5 Seconds and it would work where is my SP? "

like gorl u sound desperate as fuckkkkk lol

but heres how we change this. first the problem is YOU. why the fuck you depending on some tool? thats like me depending on my feet to make my decisions and getting mad when my feet dont say shit back to me. LOL

but no you just need to strengthen your self concept. you can do this BYYYYY

- repeating affirmations during the day

- changing your thoughts

- Rampages

- &&&& Drumroll pleaaaaseeeee .... 🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

Sleep affirmations. they slip into your consciousness at night :)....At the end i will link my FAVORITE VIDEOS, for the self concept.

2. MANIFEST

oh shit you thought this was gon be long huh? no bookie its just two things. better your self concept and start manifesting. NOW i am gonna some tips.

stop giving the 3d power when you make the 3d...

EXAMPLE:

you start your day saying " oh i have my ideal body im soooo freaking happy i finally did it, like i been x pounds for everrr and i love my body "

and then the second you look in the mirror you like " damn bruh i wish i had my ideal body "

cause like why tf did you just ruin your fucking manifestation, why did you fucking react????

When you look in that mirror this is what they mean by " old story ".

Instead, look in the mirror and close your eyes and imagine your ideal body, or just deny it. " who the fuck is that in the mirror, gorll ik thats not me cause i got my ideal body ive had it since 1823 "

ALSO

dont let your thoughts rule u, u rule them. if you are in public and think " omg they looking at me cause think im big" NO dont do that...

instead say

" Girl they looking at me bc i got my ideal body, and i been had it since a baby in da tummy ahh"

exactly change that mindset. thats it. all you have to do is catch yourself, improve your thoughts and your self concept will be thru the mf roof. So den you can manifest in a snap of a fingerrr. period thats the magic 🪄 sauce bookie. also dont say will say have cause you already have it bookie bear ;)

im open for questions and i am open to telling what ive manifested WITHOUT some dumb ass void or subliminal lol.

heres the video; BTW LOOK AT HER PAGE SHE HAS MUCH MORE.

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