#but for now i'm just going to stay offline for a bit

[mattodore]

#river dipping #every time i unlock my phone i get stuck for ten minutes just staring #anyway.............. hello nkjdfjdkfn #vanished friday night and then i've been SUFFERING #cramping like you would NAWTTTTTT believe #ever since then and haven't logged in to do anything other than read some quotes from literate passion which >:) i now have an epub for #so i'm going to read that soon i'm excited it's like 400+ pages i think so <3 #but god the amount of ibuprofen i've taken the last three days...... #the amount of SLEEP???? i've been getting??????????? insane #anyway. #i finished putting together a nav. post for mobile users but i like my pinned too much atm so for now it'll sit in my drafts #and i think my avpd is kinda getting to me so i'm having trouble getting myself to interact atm </3 #um. #so give me some time to check my activity and actually reply back #this post is fr just bc i don't want to leave anyone hanging but i'm also like. unwell atm kfdnjghkdnh #i will for sure be back sometime in like... the next day or two? #but for now i'm just going to stay offline for a bit #um. so like......... just don't be surprised if i'm pretty quiet in the tags on posts and stuff when i do? idk. i'm hoping the avpd is #just acting up bc i'm not feeling well? otherwise...... well. #f in the chat to pay respects #like i'll push my way through it anyway bc i've learned it's the only way to keep myself from having an Isolation Spell #but it's still pretty tough to do... anyway. love you all <3 miss you dearly MWAH #the disorders............ they're just winning out rn #.............also now you can see how long it normally takes me to type out the tags that i do. like yeah this took twenty minutes #i reread what i type a lot before i even think to hit post

[utahlive]

Announcement

Hello UtahLIVE viewers, I have come before you today to talk a bit about recent events and how they will impact the future of this blog. Apologies this note is a bit long, but I would really appreciate it if you took some time to read this.

As I'm sure many of you know, within the past month Wilbur Soot/William Gold has been outed as an abuser. I want to make it clear right now that I no longer support him, nor do I accept his apology (mainly because it's not mine to accept in the first place). I stand with and believe Shelby and Alice 100%. This goes for any other victims that have or will come forward that I am unaware of, since I've been trying my best to stay offline. This aint about me!! But it's still hard when someone you look up to and who inspired you to create art turns out to be a shitbag. If you were somehow unaware of this, please go watch Shelby/Shubble's stream (VOD + transcript) and read Alice's post (and mind the CW/TWs) for more information.

This blog has brought me a lot of grief because of all of this. I do not want to support or perpetuate this man's image, but at the same time, I don't want to discontinue a story that I've put so much time and effort into. After a lot of deliberation, I've decided that I am going to continue this story until the end. I will also be adding a disclaimer in the pinned post, and I will no longer be tagging any of my posts from here on out with #wilbur soot or any adjacent tags. I don't think it's fair to myself or to anyone else who has enjoyed this blog to waste all the hard work that I have put in, because ultimately this is my project and my story, not his. If you disagree with this, I totally get it, but I ask you to just unfollow and/or block rather than sending me any hate because I promise you that whatever you say about me "supporting" Wilbur Soot by continuing this blog is something I've already considered myself. He is not (active) on Tumblr, he did not receive any of the money I got from stickers, I doubt anyone is looking at this blog and thinking "wow this Wilbur guy seems cool, let me go listen to his music and watch his vods".

Despite this decision, I'll probably still be taking a bit of time to myself to think about things and focus on school. Updates will likely resume in late March or early April.

I hope you can all respect my stance on this, and I want to reiterate how much I appreciate you all for supporting my work. Love you guys <3

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[yunxi-11085]

"Your blood, is my life"

˚ · .↝ words : 1265

˚ · . pairs ¡ jing yuan x gn!reader

˚ · . sypnosis ¡ “ you're a vampire working on a mission in . and whilst injured you encounter the general of the Xianzhou alliance.

you're in need of blood to heal, and the general offers it"

₊˚ପ⊹ tw ¡¿ : blood drinking, injured reader, st*bbed, mentions of blood

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You were in the middle of a battle when the monster suddenly threw a knife to your stomach. It felt okay in battle mostly because of your healing abilities. but you did not expect it to dig deeper and leak more blood.

"huff.."

you hold onto a nearby wall for support after running away from the monster you couldn't beat— especially when you were severely injured with a knife in your stomach.

you work with the stellaron hunters and were in a mission to clear out a few monsters in the side so blade and Kafka could easily rush back, per elio's script of course.

though elio never told you why you had to come here in the first place, you were so sure that blade could easily bring those monsters to the otherworld without moving a bit.

as you walk, the knife digs in as well. you groan in pain. you lean against the wall and attempt to pull the knife out. sources say you shouldn't pull out the knife if you were stabbed

but— you weren't human. you couldn't die like a human would.

you were born a vrykolaka, or something easier to say is vampire. you thrive on blood to survive, and to heal.

one cup of animal blood can save you on weeks of hunting, and more to survive for months without needing to refill

but right now, you were losing too much blood you were sure drinking animal blood isn't going to save you. and the only plausible solution is drinking human blood— which you don't really like to do.

something about drinking the blood of the species you live with and interact with....

nope! you were definitely not going to drink anyone's blood. best believe you just die of blood loss then.

was this in elio's script too?!! to get stabbed and die??

as you slowly but agonizingly pulled the knife out.

unknowingly, someone was observing you, from the skies(?)

finally, the knife was pulled out and a pool of blood was on the ground below you.

you lean backwards hoping to relieve some of the pain. before you get a message from silverwolf.

SW: hey you doing good?

Me: no

SW: anyways elio said you have to leave that area rn because someone is coming

Me: who?

Silver wolf went offline

you grip your phone and sigh loudly, so much work for someone who stays in their room tapping a bunch of codes.

you rip off a piece of your jacket and wrapped it around your abdomen where the wound is, and you stand up and start walking in a route where people won't spot you.

it'd be nice to have a breather once in a while...

well if only you didn't have a wound on your abdomen.

you wander in a circle and realize— the monster you just fought, was now cowering on the floor in pain.

how? did someone manage to defeat it so fast?

you were so sure that you only took 5 minutes.

you walk closer, though your head spins. and you see a speck of gold.

your first thought was— Jing Yuan, one of the seven arbiter-generals of Xianzhou Alliance. he was well-known for his lightning powers that strike of gold.

how did he get here? aren't generals supposed to be stuck in their offices drowning in work instead of wandering about? especially when matters like these, the cloud knights should be doing?

footsteps came from behind you and you whipped your head to see the said man walking towards you.

you stand there clenching your weapon, preparing for battle if it happens.

"I'm not here to fight"

Jing yuan raises his arms up, you stare at him and he grins. "don't worry, you nor the stellaron hunters are wanted criminals now."

*oh*

they finished that quick? then why did elio even want me to come here?

"then, why are you here? do you want to chit-chat?" you said lowering your weapon.

to your surprise, he nodded.

"say, I had been quite interested in you."

he stepped closer

"you're a vrykolaka, aren't you?"

you flinch, "how did you know?" you said eyeing him suspiciously. only few people know that you are a nearly extinct species that thrive on blood to survive.

the only people who know of your actual species— are the stellaron hunters, your deceased friend, and...

"no worries, I dare not to tell anyone. if possible we could have a simple chat" his voice snapped you outu of your thoughts and you looked at him, scanning him of any ill intention, there being none.

you simply nodded, he smiled and walked closer to you.

"it appears you may have been injured, do you need a hand?"

no, was the simple answer. you didn't like people getting into your business, especially someone you don't know and the general of the ship you were on

"are you sure?" he said,

then— you smell the scent of sweet—

your fangs came out, your eyes turn red and you back away, noting that the general just— there's slight blood blooming from his hand. fuck, this is bad

you're losing control, and you're losing blood too.

you didn't smell his blood earlier, did he just cut his own hand??!!

".. get away... from me general.." you said slowly and backed away covering your nose with your sleeve. taking in large breaths as you attempt to steady your self-control to not just grab the general and munch on him like a hungry dog

"if it's too much for you, I'd like to help."

"n, no its—"

gosh, that smells so good

"it's fine, don't worry."

you didn't realize you were now biting into the hand of the general of the ship.

his blood tasted— so, so good. it's been a while since you tasted human blood and the last time you did, it had an unpleasant rotting taste. probably because you had no other choice but to drink a corpse's blood for survival.

you were thankful, atleast that Kafka provided you proper blood to drink.

this one, you knew the general is really healthy and takes care of his body well.

your eyes glowed red everytime you suck the blood out of his hand,

your abdomen, the injury started to slowly close up. a slight stinging pain but you felt worse.

"there there, we have all day" the general said, you completely forgot you were still munching on the hand of the general.

just as you were about to let go to keep your pride, his other hand reached and patted your back.

?

I'm not a baby drinking milk!!!

(you sorta are)

you groan and glare at him before you finally unbared your fangs and your hunger was depleted.

you look down at the wound at your abdomen and sighed in relief when it is finally healed.

"um... sorry if I drank too much of your blood, general." you look up at the unfazed general

"it's just a small amount of my blood, no worries. I'm glad to have been of help to you"

a small amount? that little to heal such a grave injury?

you wonder if the general's blood is godly or something. he is a long-living species after all.

the general holds your hand and says, "say, would you like to have tea together sometime?"

this damned general

"of course, though I'm busy now." you said

"then we shall part ways for now, I await your notice"

you nod, though you said one last thing beforehand. "in our otherwise next meeting, bring a healer instead"

end note ¡ had the idea and I wrote it today, strangely enough I always complete a story on Tuesdays because I don't have to go to school or work today this is a kind of cringy fic so I'm now jumping into a cave to die tyvm.

feel free to give me more ideas to cringely write 🤪

imagine elio made you do the mission in order to find your future husband, ah....

crossposted on AO3 ¡ here

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[the-words-we-sung]

Season 3 ending

So... It's been almost a week since the last episode, almost a week trying to wrap my head around the end of the show, trying to manage my feelings about it all.

It's hard to end up feeling the complete opposite of nearly everyone on my dash but I've come to terms with the fact that I didn't love the ending. I didn't love this last episode. (I shouldn't feel ashamed or weird for saying so but you guys loved it so much that I feel a bit like an outsider right now 😓)

I haven't been a fan of the show for as long as most of you, but it means so much to me. These characters carved a place in my heart and in my head, and they've made me happy for months now. They helped me get through some stuff, made me discover some amazing artists, meet even more amazing people through this fandom. And I loved the story. Even in its darkest, saddest parts, I loved it. I was invested.

I love Wilhelm and Simon, together and separately. They mean so much to me. And I loved season 1 and 2. It made me happy, and sad, and frustrated, and exalted. But overall, I trusted the show and I was not disappointed.

Season 3 was a lot. I liked the first 5 episodes. I can't say that I loved everything about them: I was not expecting things to get so hard for Simon, with no reprieve in sight. I was not worried about Wilmon being endgame (I know it was a big stress for the fandom but honestly I never doubted that they were endgame), but I was wondering how the show would go about tying all the knots it made (I should even say all the knots it added during this last season).

(Under a read more because it's a bit long and I don't want to bother those who don't wanna read more of my frustrated thoughts ^^')

And unfortunately the last episode was a huge let down for me. Yes, it's partly because nothing I was hoping for actually happened, but mostly, it's because the choices they made did not feel very satisfying to me: ⁕ Simon was barely there. We went from him being bullied online/offline non stop for 5 episodes to almost nothing. It makes 0 sense to me. ⁕ Kristina suddenly feeling better: she was having break down upon break down for an entire season, could barely look at her son or even just talk normally and all of a sudden she's back, smiling and agreeing to everything Wilhelm says? I'm sorry but I don't buy it? Where did this Kristina hid during the entire show? ⁕ Wilhelm deciding to not be king, talking for 3min to his parents about it, them agreeing and him running into the sunset with Simon. I'm sorry, what?? I love that they end up together of course, but it makes very little sense to me? It won't change any of the issues they had this season? They're still gonna be famous? And bullied online/offline? (Probably even more so now?). I'm not obviously saying that Wilhelm staying in line to become king was the only or the best solution, but I wanted more from this storyline. I wanted to believe it. And right now, what we got? It feels a bit cheap (and I feel bad for saying that because the ending was cute and romantic and all, but it felt too disconnected from the rest of the show for me ><)

And apart from these few points, the big issue I had with this episode was: The Angst. So that might be a me-problem, but it was too much for my poor little heart (I haven't rewatched the episode yet, and I'm not sure I'll be able to anytime soon ><). I spent like 40min of the episode with a huge knot in the stomach because the heartbreak between Simon and Wilhelm was too much to handle for me. I can see how it was beautifully made, that having lots of throwbacks to the previous seasons, the Wille song, all of that was great cinematography. But it was just too much for me. I got in the season spoiler-free but for this episode? During the lake scene I had to take a break and check online if they were actually endgame because it was starting to actually give me a stomachache. So yeah, this part might be me being too sensitive but I did not like that they made me see them fight for each other for 2 seasons and 5 episodes, but then just giving up for 40min before finally running back to each other during the last 10min. It was just too much sadness for me ><

So yeah, maybe my expectations were too high? But I feel sad, and kinda cheated. Too many things are left wide opened. Too many things make zero sense to me. And of course I'm happy we got our Wilmon endgame, but I'm less happy about how it happened.

It's a bit hard being on Tumblr right now and seeing everyone who thought it was the perfect episode >< And I don't want to "yuck anyone's yum" (as the saying goes), but I still wanna be able to share my thoughts! I probably won't write super angry/unhappy/complaining posts about the season/the finale, but I still wanna be able to chat about it. I did see some posts on my dash from people not being entirely satisfied with this ending so it's a bit comforting. And I hope we can share some nice headcanons, or just discussions about different plot points.

But yeah, I guess that's why I haven't really been active this week! Trying to get over the double heartbreak of the end of the show + being disappointed with the ending! I'm gonna come back though! I miss hanging out here, I just need to strengthen my heart a little bit more :p Gonna get back to writing about my thoughts episode by episode for this season (I can't promise I can rewatch the last one though 😖 It might take me a bit of time to get there). And I want to continue my song analysis of the show!! I'm not even done with season 2 yet, I have some work to do there ^^

So see you back here very soon 😘

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[coconutdays]

Strawberries and Burgers

College AU! Eren Yeager x Reader.

Part 1. Part 2.

Warnings: just fluff I think for now T^T and some suggestive themes!

What the fuck is wrong with me

It's all Eren can think when he sees you doing your homework at the campus cafe and he just can't muster the courage to go up to you. God, you guys had just scheduled your date with each other two days ago, it can't be that hard to approach you right now.

Actually...

it is that hard.

You were typing away on your laptop, your headphones placed snugly on either side of your head, clueless to the world around you. You looked good doing it too.

You looked so fucking good doing it.

You were bare faced, something he wasn't surprised about considering he stalked your instagram that one time three nights ago after Jean's party and found a few photos of you just as make up free. You had really nice collarbones, the tank top and oversized hoodie combo adorning you emphasized it perfectly for him.

How did he score a date with you?

He wasn't in your line of sight since he was in the campus goodies shop across from the cafe, so he didn't need to hide when you took off your headphones and picked up your phone.

That sickeningly sweet smile of yours he couldn't get out of his head spread across your lips just as fast as he felt his phone vibrate. You had already warned him you were going to study and be offline for a bit, but he sure hated your restraint from him.

You had finally responded to him after an hour.

His last text to you had been a confession of how much he liked the way you smelled when he first met you followed by a series of texts on how he tried to defend how creepy it sounded in the most heartfelt way possible (which did not work, but you found the effort adorable.)

y/n: perv!!!!

y/n: not letting this sniffer anywhere near me whatsoever on our date.

He looked up at you for a second and saw you giggling to yourself.

So fucking cute.

Eren: :<

Eren: That's okay, as long as I get to look at you I'll be happy.

Why was he so cute?

The mere words he sent to you now displayed on the screen of your phone made you cover your eyes in pure embarassment. How he managed to make you feel like a lovesick middle schooler again was a mystery to you.

Hopefully he'd stay after your first date together.

Straining against the heat on your cheeks, you responded to his text.

y/n: Okayyyyy maybe one sniff

y/n: just cause that sounded sweet

Eren: sounded sweet huh

Eren: *img*

Eren: I should run out of gum more often. Had the best view when I was choosing between spearmint and watermelon.

He had sent a photo of you just moments ago, silently squealing into your hand.

Your mouth went agape as you chose to respond to him, trying to scour your surroundings to find out what angle he took that picture from.

y/n: AND YOU DIDN'T COME UP TO ME???

y/n: wowwwww. really waiting to see me until our date huh.

Eren: I would if it didn't look like you were actually studying.

Eren: I'll gladly buy you a frapuccino if you want me to come up to you.

y/n: A frap isn't necessary but I wouldddd like your presence.

He left on you on read the second you responded. If he was just as near as the photo made it look then he would-

"Hey."

This wasn't fair at all.

Eren Yeager is hot. You gathered that when you met him and couldn't ever stop believing it. He was tall, pretty, toned, and had an alluring personality.

Eren Yeager is hot and at this moment in time, such words didn't seem to suffice to explain how good he looked right now.

He was wearing those slutty guy shorts.

The ones that showed how sculpted his thighs were.

Yeah.

Those.

You instinctively smiled, "Hey."

He pulled a chair to sit close to you, but not enough to invade your personal space.

He raised a finger up before you could speak again, "By the way this is not our first date. When I'm helping you choose between risotto and gnocci this weekend, your computer is not gonna be third wheeling."

"I know." You took a sip of your frapuccino, " This is just us friends hanging out."

Eren laughed before leaning on the table, " You know I don't wanna be your friend."

You feigned sadness, "You don't wanna be my friend?"

Smirking, he leaned a bit closer to you, "Do you let your friends kiss you?"

"Nope."

"Then I don't wanna be your friend."

"What's that got to do hm?" You crossed your arms over each other.

"I wanna kiss you."

Chills ran down your spine and you had to distract yourself from making a fool of yourself in front of him.

"I wouldn't recommend it right now, my mouth tastes like pure coffee and caramel syrup."

He let out an airy laugh, flicking your forehead softly, "That's fine by me. Just tell me when you want me to."

You bit down the smile coming to your lips and shook your head.

What a fucking flirt.

"The restaurant we're going to has strawberry gelato. If you order it you could smell and taste like strawberries."

"Wouldn't you like that hm." You shook your head

"I'd go crazy for it, but that's just a suggestion." He tried to non chalantly lean away while raising his hands up.

"You're such a loser." You giggled

Eren's cheeks flared up, something you didn't know could happen to him.

If he knew his face was bright red, he didn't care because he started to smile and leaned close to you again.

"I like your giggle."

His face was mere inches away from yours and you couldn't stop yourself from quickly turning yours away to avoid the heat creeping up your neck.

However, just as quickly, he softly grasped your cheek and turned you to look at him.

"Don't pussy out loser."

You forced yourself to keep the eye contact with him, "From what hm."

"From me."

Fuck, he made you smile so much your cheeks hurt.

"You make me nervous. I can pussy out a little bit."

His forest lined irises were on you, just staring back at you.

"Trust me. You make me even more nervous." He confessed, softly swiping his thumb on your cheek

"Then why aren't you showing it?"

He changed the momento of the situation by letting go of you and shrugging his shoulders very cockily, "Gotta impress the girl I like."

"Oh! That reminds me. What's the dress code for our date?" You took your phone out while he scooted closer to you.

Eren thought for a second, "Well I was thinking of wearing a black dress shirt and black dress pant combo."

You opened your phone to your photo gallery, showing him three dresses, "Which one do you think is best suited to the restaurant. I ordered them last week and they're all supposed to get here tomorrow morning."

He leaned close to you over your shoulder to get a good look as you swiped between them and couldn't stop himself from pushing your finger away to stop from scrolling.

"That one."

That one was a red dress. It wasn't too fancy considering the color it was, but it wasn't any dress. To be fair, it reminded of you of the dress Ana wore when Christian proposed to her in the Fifty Shades movie and you got it for that sole reason, you wanted to recreate her look from that scene.

You nodded your head before turning off your phone and setting it back on the table, "Okay I was thinking that one too."

When you looked back up at Eren, his face was completely flushed.

He was beet red, even the tips of his ears.

In sheer shock, you raised a hand up to his forehead, "Are you okay?!"

Eren softly pushed your hand away, "I'm fine. You're just gonna look really pretty in that dress."

He shook his head a little in an effort to stop being flustered.

"That's why you're red????"

"Yeah y/n. I told you. You make me really nervous."

You gave him a motherly smile before getting up, "So cute."

He got up with you, rubbing the back of his neck in embarassment as he pushed his chair back in.

"Well Eren, I have to go drop off my stuff in my dorm before I go out to eat with my friends. "

"Where are you guys eating?"

"At a Mexican restaurant. I've been craving tacos!" You jumped a little in excitement.

"Send me pictures of them then. I like food porn." He gazed down at you, a warm grin adorning his face.

"Okay." You giggled, leaning in to hug him quickly before leaving

"Byeeee Eren."

Later as you were closing the door to your dorm to leave, you received a text.

Eren: Hug me for a little longer next time. You're warm.

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[bomberqueen17]

what is up froods

lol i keep forgetting to like. actually write updates in my personal journal. i'm using this tumblr too much like a tumblr.

i went down a rabbit hole the other night in that i just opened my own archives and went back to 2013 and then realized i started this in 2011. i didn't say a lot, back then i definitely was still using my LJ for Big Personal Updates and Tumblr was exclusively for snappy shitposts, and then I abandoned the LJ and only blogged in snappy shitposts for a while, and I did some vagueblogging that I genuinely have no idea what it was about, and that's fun.

But there's some. Boy there's some real fossils in there. God everything stays the same but everything happens so much.

I know I've backed up this blog but IDK how much you can make it make sense, offline. Anyway. That's how it goes. I'm not in any kind of existential panic about the site I'm just reacting to the zeigeist here, it made me think of old times.

I go back to the farm in a couple of weeks-- just for a couple of weeks, but the Season is Starting. My physical therapist keeps giving me more exercises. She's right, my core strength is wretched, but when I said I'd tried to do crunches now and then, tried to stay a tiny bit fit but-- she was like omg no you can't do crunches, with that hip cartilage as it is, so I felt a little better. So she's teaching me what I *can* do, and the important thing is that she's like you cannot do this more than every other day or three times a week, you cannot rush this kind of thing, and it's wonderful advice contrary to all the other advice I've ever had in my life which was like every moment you're not doing more work you're being a lazy shit. So, that's nice. I'll cut because nothing else here is going to be interesting.

I'm not the youngest person at physical therapy but there's a lot of old people there. I haven't been masking, I've been being lazy and just using xylitol nose spray before I go, and it's been fine, but I know that's just luck. (I see no one but Dude, who sees almost no one but me, so the consequences of fucking up would be minor.) with a trip to the farm coming up, I'm going to go back to masking, at least in the lead-up to the trip-- because last time I had COVID I had almost no symptoms, and nowadays apparently the rapid tests aren't super useful. The way I'm coping is, I know, a logical fallacy-- since COVID wasn't bad the one time I had it, I'm just telling myself I'm resistant naturally and it won't hurt me, and I know this is not the truth at all but it helps me cope-- but I cannot stand the thought of spreading it to someone who would be more hurt by it, so I have convinced myself not to fear catching it but to fear spreading it. I figure it's effectively the same and lets me not just be fucking terrified all the time.

I also discovered that a former employee of the farm who's out here going to college is interested in carpooling, and we've already got a tentative date for him to ride back with me on my way back from the farm at the end of March, and this has lightened my spirits a great deal. It's such a long drive and it feels like such a waste of gas, and he does have a car but it's not actually that safe to drive on the Thruway. (He swears up and down it's perfectly safe but just not at sustained speeds over 60. I was like omg kid do NOT, I will drive, my car is brand fkn new. He's taking the train home and will ride back with me.)

Let's see. Oh I don't think I've kept up with posting about the kitchen painting. It's down to the last tiny fiddly details, and what I've got to do is do a half-stencil in the corner above the door, and I did one half yesterday and will finish the rest today. I had to custom cut out a copy of part of the stencil to make it work, and it's sort of janky and I am going to have to hand-paint it with a lot of masking tape, but it's such a small area that like, why not, I can be that fussy. It's fine.

Once I finish that, which if I do part in the morning and part in the afternoon I can do today, then I can FINALLY CLEAN UP AND PUT AWAY all the painting detritus. I can't tell you how excited I am to do that.

I've also been doing fabric dyeing, finally. I collected several of the muslin garments I'd finished and meant to do something with, and got out my dyes. I did a batch of ice dye solely because I forgot which ones I'd intended to use for that; now I have a pair of slightly ill-fitting homemade leggings that look like a clown threw up on them, and a cheerful sweatshirt to match. i then used the runoff to dye the cream-colored canvas work smock-- I sort of tie-dyed it because I pasted up a little bit of two of the component colors and poured that on a couple areas that I then rubberbanded, because I wanted tie-dye but did not want any white areas left. So it's a blue/purple/red smock now, and the rainbow stitching I constructed it with was polyester so it's still rainbow, huzzah. Subtle and understated and also I can smear it with filth and maybe it will still look intentional.

[image description: a canvas work smock with big pockets, hanging to dry, mostly a mucky dark purple but with some brighter splotches of red and dark blue, and some bits of paler purple.]

[image description: assorted garments draped over drying racks in a sunporch, in blotchy shades of red, orange, yellow, green, blue, purple, all kind of run together but not murky.]

And then I did another batch of ice dye, this time with the dyes I had bought that are supposed to work well for this because they split. That dress is still in the wash so I don't have pictures of how it turned out, but mostly it just looks splotchy green. LOL oh well. The point was, I made all these test garments in undyed fabric, but I don't have a lifestyle where I can wear a white dress, so now I have some non-white dresses I don't have to be precious about. Some of them I should now probably hem and like actually finish..........

I have one dress and one shirt left, and a pair of light-wash jeans I don't like wearing, and I'm thinking about trying like. Ombre or something. We'll see if I get around to that.

My sewing area is still a fuckin disaster and I don't want to think about it. But I'm cutting out a vest from scrap denim, I want a quilted abrasion-resistant washable work vest for farm work next week and I gotta get a move on. All I need now is to cut out the batting and get to it. So hopefully today.

I took photos, I might try writing up how-tos on the dyeing and on the repurposed denim stuff, but I also might not. If I was doing this again I would probably not bother with the ice, for the rainbow one. We'll see once the properly ice dyed dress comes out of this wash, I can hear the washer spinning but I'm trapped under Chita at the moment.

I missed this week's fic update because I'm progressing so slowly on both current active WIPs. I have a bunch written ahead in both, but each one has the back half of the current chapter just held up waiting for me to write them; I've overcome the structural decisions that delayed me, but I have to just sit and write them. And both of them are complicated scenes I've been waiting to write a long time, so I'm looking forward to writing them, and so like, paradoxically, can't make myself do it. Because once I've done it I'll have done it, see... anyway. Silly but there it is. I'll get through it once I decide I deserve that treat. I know! I know.

#about the author #state of the me

[project-sekai-facts]

ight. now that wxs disband arc is (hopefully) over what do u think will their next arc about? (got inspired by that one niigo ask)

shout out to the otori brothers for outright stating what's gonna happen in the next arc.

so at the end of the event they mention that they managed to get WxS contacts with three other theatre groups. i doubt any of these will be arcland again so that probably means three new groups and new NPCs and such. i'm assuming we'll get another event for tsukasa to improve his acting and maybe he'll actually get to meet his idol who was brought up/appeared in the more recent events? maybe one of the theatre groups is the one that guy belongs to, although maybe that's a bit of a stretch since WxS is at a much lower level. nene will probably get a similar event if it's three groups. so smth like tsukasa -> rui -> nene, or maybe more spread out.

i reckon the first event will be finding their footing like MMJ had when they first started freelancing. maybe that could be a rui event actually? like it was his idea to do this so it'd make sense. i wanna know if we can get rui october unit event for the 4th year in a row. oh and we'll probably go back to wonder stage at some point and in my mind that would make a good emu event.

just something i want to happen and not necessarily something i am confident will happen: i want the group to get closer as friends and not just coworkers. they're definitely starting to become more open about their feelings with each other (see pandemonium, our happy ending), but there's still a bit of lack of closeness both emotionally and just generally. they are close friends and it's very clear but there's still a lot that they don't say out loud and they rarely do things together that aren't just for the sake of work in a story that isn't a card story or an area conversation. because a lot of the bonding that's happened has been limited to that and it's kinda annoying lol. i guess we did have close game/offline and pandemonium as events for them to do more general, not-work-related friend things but neither of those were the whole unit. give them a same dreams same colors is what i'm trying to say (which is possible because they're freelancing now which means employment comes and goes and they will have spare time on their hands).

oh and obviously there's the fact that eventually tsukasa and rui are going to have to start thinking about college and tsukasa's probably gonna have to choose between going abroad like he's mentioned he wants to do a few times before or staying in japan and obviously he'll stay in japan so we can avoid the group disbanding but that's still probably gonna be a thing although maybe not in 3rd arc that seems too soon so maybe that's a 4th arc thing.

#asks #mod talks #this is a bit messy sorry #project sekai spoilers

[skylarkking]

To Heal a Mockingbird

A TFA Ratchet x Mech!Reader

Word Count: 1.1k

Chapter 2: Clipped Wings

The fight did not go well for me, and now I lay on the floor of the Nemesis leaking and broken.

But they were not done with me yet. Megatron was not done with me yet.

"Please...." I rasped weakly as I tried to push myself up from the pool of energon that had gathered underneath. Lugnut forced me back down with his heavy pede, pinning me in place and forcing a yelp of pain from my voicebox.

"What should we do with him now?" Starscream sneered. "Take him offline?"

"No, that would be too merciful." Megatron snarled. He knelt down and forced me to look at him by grabbing my neck cables and giving them a hard pull. "I believe it's time to see if a seeker can fly. Without. Their. Wings."

"NO PLEASE!" I begged pitifully. "PLEASE! PLEASE NO! NO! GAH!" My cries would go unheard as Megatron gripped my wings and ripped them clean off. I shrieked in agony as energon sprayed from my back in an arc of color, the metal of my now dismembered appendage clattering to the floor next to my body.

"Throw him and these off my ship." Megatron ordered Lugnut.

"Please...." I whispered weakly, the thudding of my spark slowing more and more as Lugnut picked up my frame and wings. He carried me to the edge of the shuttle bay that I had used to free the medic, and with one fell swoop, I was tossed out of the ship.

I plummeted to the ground far below, my optics flickering offline as my systems shut down. The air roared past my audials as the ground rapidly approached. I was doomed, or so I thought.

Suddenly, my frame and severed wings were encased in an electromagnetic field, stopping my rapid descent to the ground.

"I got ya, kid!" I heard the familiar voice of Ratchet call from below. I was far too weak to respond as he lowered me down with a gentle thud.

The medic wasn't alone, however.

"Ratchet, is this the Decepticon that freed you?" Another voice said. I cracked open my optics just enough to see a few other bots surrounding my frame, one I recognized as Ratchet and the other a towering mech with a navy blue paint job and a massive warhammer, the Magnus hammer to be exact.

"Yeah, that's Y/D." Ratchet said as he quickly went to my side and hooked up a diagnostic probe to me. "Dammit... sir, his spark is going to go out if we don't get him out of here."

"No..." I rasped as I shakily gripped the medic's arm. "Let... let me die..."

"I ain't in the business of killing kid. You of all bots should know that." Ratchet said. "Just relax, okay? I'm gonna put you in stasis and get you out of here."

I felt a slight shock, and my entire frame went limp as stasis took over. I could still hear everything that was happening, but I couldn't move anything or feel much.

"Sir, I have to strongly object to this!" A voice from what I assume was one of the other bots protested. "We don't know what this... this Decepticon is capable of!"

"Not much right now, Pharma." Ratchet huffed in annoyance. "He's barely able to stay online. We need to get him a medivac if we are to save his life."

"I shall call it in." Ultra Magnus said.

"Sir, this is insane!" The bot called Pharma continued to protest. "We shouldn't be helping him!"

"He saved my life Pharma," Ratchet snapped. "Now I'm going to save his!"

"Sir!"

"That's enough Pharma." Ultra Magnus said. "He may information regarding Megatron's plans."

"What makes you think he'd talk?" Pharma asked. "These Decepticons are loyal to the core!"

"If that were true, I'd be dead." Ratchet growled. "Now please, I need some quiet in order to get him stable enough for transport."

I felt slight pricks of pain and heard the sound of a welder going, the crackling hiss it made seeming to act almost as a barrier of sound from the outside world. Bit as soon as it began, it ended, and I felt my frame get lifted up by 4 sets of servos and then get places on a cold flat surface. The cool metal beneath me was soothing, and I found myself slipping deeper and deeper into stasis, and I remembered nothing more.

---

"Cmon kid." I heard Ratchet's voice say from somewhere in the darkness of my stasis. "I know you can hear me."

"R.... Rat... Ratchet?" I croaked weakly, my optics coming online and slowly opening to a bright light.

"That's it, follow the light." He said, which wasn't exactly the best thing for someone to hear. I ended up jumping in surprise and accidently whacking the light away in a panic. "Hey! I needed that!"

"S-sorry." I groaned as my optics adjusted to the light, revealing that I was in a recovery bay hooked up to an energon line and sparkrate monitor. I felt pressure on my back and could feel that my once severed wings were now secured in place with thick bandaging, no doubt in an attempt to allow my internal repairs to do their work.

"It's alright, Y/D." Ratchet said. "Just glad you're functioning is all."

"What.... what happened?"

"We were about to ask you the same question." The voice of Ultra Magnus said, my gaze shifting over to him and my frame stiffening with anxiety. I eyed him suspiciously, unsure of what his motives were or why he was here.

"Puh, like you actually care." I grumbled in annoyance.

"Kid, don't be like that." Ratchet said.

"Look, no offense, but your Magnus here doesn't exactly have a good track record for mercy." I said as I shot the Magnus a glare.

"Neither does Megatron." Ultra Magnus said.

"You think I don't know that?" I laughed sarcastically. "He's the one who beat me to scrap and ripped my wings off." I paused and then let out a somewhat defeated sigh. "Look, I don't know what you want with me or why you saved me, but you should have left me to die out there. It would have given you one less Decepticon to worry about."

"And one less healer for either side." Ratchet said. "Wouldn't that have violated your own moral of not harming medics?"

"Hrmph." I huffed, not bothering to answer the question because I knew he was right.

"Y/D, I'm going to offer you a chance that I strongly urge you to take." Ultra Magnus said. "In exchange for your freedom and all charges dropped, we need you to tell us what you know of what Megatron plans to do with the Allspark."

"I.... I can't."

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#transformers #art #drawing #transformers animated #tfa #tfa fanfic #tf fanfic #transformers fanfiction #fanfic #x reader #male reader

[desi-yearning]

@desi-lgbt-fest Day-4: Ten Steps Forward, Two Steps Back

A Single Spark

TW: Homophobia

Today I'm here with a real life incident, the first one that I was reminded of as soon as I heard this theme.

It was back in 10th grade, all of us were back to offline classes after the dreadful online ones. 2 years ago, we'd been juniors who looked up to our seniors in 10th grade but now we were those seniors who were looked up to. I didn't realise this much until I finished grade-10.

My school regularly conducted sessions related to hygiene, communication etc and this time the topic was about sexual health. A well known gynaecologist was invited to take up the session for the 9th and 10th graders together. We went to the school hall, I was sitting next to my then best friend.

The gynaecologist first spoke about the importance of sexual wellbeing and how to protect ourselves from STDs etc. Soon after the topic shifted to impulsive and reckless sexual behaviours in teenagers. And that was when she began talking about how teenagers are simply thinking that they are homosexual because they have been staying with people of their same gender for a long time. How it is only because of people they are surrounded by that they think they are not straight. Not being straight is simply now a trend and a trap that young children are falling into without knowing anything. She continued to say that homosexuality doesn’t exist, it is just a misbelief and a phase. She proceeds to urge us not to fall for such things and stay away from people who suggest all this.

And by this time, I was enraged. My best friend was already out to me but I was still closeted, she knew I was an ally nevertheless. There were already rumours going around that both of us weren’t straight and that we were dating each other, so I decided not to risk anything. I controlled myself until the QnA session when I suggested to her that we go and actually question her about it. My best friend was scared, she was anxious about speaking out to everyone but I asked her to trust me with it and I assured that I’ll be the one questioning the gynaecologist and she can just sit beside me. I went forward, took a deep breath and held the mic that was given and asked her why she would simply call it a phase when people from the community are actually existing. And I stated a bunch of article numbers that came up to my mouth because I forgot what the actual one was and said some random lines about how homosexuality was legalised in India. (I mean who would know I was bluffing-) I never in my wildest dreams expected what followed. The entire hall began clapping. They haven’t done that for anyone else, not even for the so-called doctor herself. It was so loud that she had to shout and quieten everyone. It was such a proud moment for both me and my best friend but our happiness was short-lived because the response we got from the gynaecologist obviously wasn’t anything positive. It was after this that I realised how many allies are actually present among us and how their voices just aren’t loud enough to be heard.

Though the gynaecologist’s response made us feel like we went two steps back, what followed after that day was definitely 10 steps forward. Almost a year later, I spoke to a junior anonymously and she told me how that one question changed the entire trajectory of things at school. No one has ever dared to question someone about their homophobic ideas in public but we did. That was enough to begin something that won’t be dying anytime soon. Sometimes all that people need is a tiny bit of revolution, the hope towards change. It is all just a matter of a single spark.

#desilgbt #desi queer #desilgbtfest #desilgbtfest23 #dlf: day 4 #Ten steps forward two steps back #non fiction #tw: homophobia #queerphobia #actually a LOT happened concerning me and her too

[kaygee-doodles]

Just feeding my local author here!

I have reread your Gloom and Doom fic no less than 7 times

I have a sudden urge to see if nightmares goop is flammable now because of you after what he did to dust lol

I have literally fallen asleep reading your fics and got woken up by my heavy ass phone smacking me in the face

I have downloaded a pdf file of your whole story just so I can read it offline when I don't have wifi on my phone

I desperately wanna nap with dust on top of axe/horror while watching shitty TV shows (or true crime documentaries that's always fun!)

I also now wish to know what the readers favorite sushi equivalent would be irl

I need a Snickers...

Oh right! And while Dust has always been my favorite bad sans you have only deepened my obsession with him lol

10/10 would probably make him my go to skeleton out of all the boys in the castle for some company

I now have the inexplicable urge to make pillow forts of my own every time I dare read an Undertale au fanfic and I entirely blame you

I now have issues sleeping without making my 'Ilxina Nest' of snacks and bad TV while intermittently checking to see if you updated (not rushing you I am just paranoid that I'm going to miss a chapter and be the last to know about it lol)

I have officially adopted the name 'naptime' as the 'nickname' for reader because honestly... Dude fucking same man 😩

I used to raise chickens and mine were the sweetest things (all incubated and hand raised) and I literally could walk into their nesting boxes and take eggs right out of them without them having a care in the world and your little bit of having reader help gather eggs sparked this memory (I gathered eggs in the evening since they laid throughout the day... And it was always hot in the summer lol)

I feel like killer is plotting to do something something to reader and I refuse to be told otherwise... Shenanigans and dusts murderous rage is bound to make an appearance at some point lol

Lol hope you have a good day/night, stay hydrated, and get plenty of sleep (we all know that last one is a hope in vain since you're an author but still lol) 🫀

I am nourished and fed and writing the next chapter.

#gloom and doom #Gloom and doom review

[inkedroplets]

fanfic writer questions

Thanks so much for the tag @sideguitars

1- How many works do you have on AO3?

Twenty. A good mix of one-shots and longer fics that I will finish someday...

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

534,441

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Supergirl but I've dabbled with Legends of Tomorrow and have a few unpublished fics for different fandoms that I might share

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

A Rich Girl With Issues (I swear I'm almost done with the last chapter. The flu kicked my ass but I'm finishing up. My weird Lena becomes a vigilante fic. I still am amazed that people like it as much as they do)

Maybe I'm Too Afraid to Admit It (Kind of cute Kara realizes she has feelings for Lena. I really don't know why this one resonated with so many people)

Somewhere You Can't Follow (My weird (and poorly written) Legends and Supergirl crossover. I would love to go back and actually rewrite large bits of this but the dialogue is on point, at least. Oh and Lena gets to see her mom again so that's a plus)

Denial is Not Just a River in Egypt (I have no memory of this place fic)

Nothing Gold Can Stay (My one and only kidfic but I love it to pieces)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I do and I don't. I'm a lot more offline than I was when I first started writing and if too much time passes, I feel weird about responding since I feel like I'm bothering people but I am trying to be better about it. Because I really do cherish each one

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably nothing I've posted yet would count but I do have one that I plan to post soon-ish that's so angsty I took a year to decide whether or not to share it.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think all of my one-shots have pretty standard happy endings. I think I'll say that either Rich Girl or Nothing Gold Can Stay will have the happiest endings (in my opinion) Wait (a little longer) and see

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I'll get the occasional weird comment. Nothing out of the ordinary. I did get a really rude bookmark once that kind of made me laugh. They hated the story yet still chose to bookmark it which is a choice.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I dabble in it. There's a snippet floating around somewhere on tumblr that I'm too lazy to find. I'll share it once I finish the first chapter. It's a bit out of my wheelhouse but its fun? Very different kind of writing than what I'm used to.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

I write a lot of crossovers. I think when I write fic, I want to see something a little strange and unique that I can't find elsewhere. I'm working on a fic now where Kara meets Matt Murdock, that's not an interaction I ever envisioned myself writing.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't think so? To be fair, I haven't ever cared enough to check. I don't think I'm popular enough to get a fic stolen xD

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! Someone translated one of my fics into Russian. I was incredibly flattered that they liked it enough to do so.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, and I think it's mostly because I'm quite a selfish writer? I know what and how I want to write so collaboration is quite difficult. Maybe I still have some leftover trauma from all the group projects of my past.

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

Supercorp, if that wasn't very, very obvious.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I'll finish them all!

16. What are your writing strengths?

I really don't know and that's not just me being modest. I don't really think I do anything particularly well?

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Being succinct. Every ficlet wants to be a multi-chaptered story and every multi-chaptered story wants to be a novel

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I think if implemented well it can be a great addition. If it's merely tacked on, however... I feel it not only doesn't add anything to the story but it makes the reader aware that they're reading a story. A bit of the magic is lost in the clunky execution.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

On AO3 Supercorp but I've dabbled in fandom for years and years. There's ancient Xena fic somewhere in my mother's basement

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Probably has to be Rich Girl but I really am fond of Swear Not by the Moon, as well. I've really enjoyed expanding the scope of Supergirl's world a bit and watching the characters slowly grow over the course of the story

No-pressure tags, of course: I never know who to tag in these until I finish these but if you like @rustingcat @vox-ex @sazernac

#ask game #this was a long one

[mattodore]

i've hit the tag limit on like every post i've made since i got my meds back.......

#river dipping #YES. there's a tag limit on tumblr and i've been intimately acquainted with it for years #you can only use thirty tags like come on man why am i being silenced... bump it up to fifty come on #what've i done to deserve that just let me speak ! but like in the tags. not the post. #no but clearly i was suffering worse than jesus having to stay offline and not type too much like now that i'm free i'm just like #let me monologue here a bit #i've typed out extra tags on each of my last three posts only for them to disappear after i've saved the drafts #which is how you know you hit tag limit lmao like i just have to shake my head at myself atp #......okay now i'll go make something to eat jkndfkh i just had to say that bc i thought it was funny

[thedemonscrawler]

gonna procrastinate on writing by talking about writing woo

So, fun fact! Permission Slip is usually being written on two different documents at once, which should be but are not actually identical? And neither of them match the actual AO3 version you guys read?

1st Draft

The first draft is written with a combination of OpenOffice and Google Docs.

(I'll get to why that says Mobile Copy in a sec)

The OpenOffice document is meant to be the Master Draft of the fic. It's the entire story so far-- outline, notes, all the chapters written and the bits of chapters we haven't gotten to yet.

Yeah, it's lengthy. The reason it says 'Active Version' is starting around Chapter 5, I began saving a copy of the document up to the most recent chapter finished.

This is because of how I write scenes out of order, and having an older draft lets me go back for things that got rewritten. It's also really neat to see how various ideas evolved over the story, or how old some of the scenes are.

OpenOffice has the Master Draft, not just because it can handle it, but so I can put my laptop into airplane mode and write offline if I really need to focus. But the story doesn't stay there!

If you've seen the snippets I've shared, you know that sometimes they're highlighted in grey, like this:

(yeah you enjoy that snippet from Chapter 15)

The grey highlights are a system to tell myself 'this is a section that needs to be copied over to the other document', almost always a section I have just written that session. Feels good to have a whole page in grey.

So from OpenOffice, the grey sections are copied over to GoogleDocs, and become the 2nd Draft.

2nd Draft

..okay, so there are actually TWO GoogleDoc copies of Permission Slip. One of them is a 'master' version, just like the Open Office file. The other is the Mobile version. The master version has all of the chapters and outline and stuff, while the Mobile copy only goes back one or two chapters prior to the current one. Why?

Cos it turns out that when a document gets to be around 110 pages long, Docs starts being a little bitch and lags real bad on mobile, or starts crashing. So the mobile version was made so I could type on my phone. Same deal, new sections are highlighted in grey and copied back to the OpenOffice version when I'm on the laptop again.

Since the GoogleDocs version can be worked on from multiple locations, it's the one that gets the most edits. If there are substantial changes made they'll be copied back to the OpenOffice document, but minor edits aren't as crucial, and there are some sections that are pretty different between the two now.

From the GoogleDocs version on to the final(ish) version:

3rd Draft

The AO3 version should match the GoogleDocs version, and for the most part it does-- but not always. That last minute readthrough to catch all the spaces added after italics is also a time for minor edits. Missing words, dialogue rewrites, etc. There's one chapter that had a chunk written in the editor, but unfortunately I can't remember which one it is now 8'D only that it's between chapters 9 and 12. Naturally the AO3 version is the one you guys get to see.

Uuuuh yeah so. Overcomplicated system, go!

Also if you want a word processor for free, I recommend LibreOffice! Its based on the same open source software as OpenOffice, only it's actually still being updated and stuff (I still use OO just cos it's what I have 8'D).

Unfortunately I have yet to find a word processing app with cloud-based storage that can be edited from multiple devices, so I can't replace GoogleDocs with something better.

[v-lynx-2]

Midnight with you.

Jake x mc

Putting an insomniac hacker to bed isn't an easy task as mc came to believe.

First thing mc tried to educate him on the importance of sleep over the phone sending him articles, screenshots, videos, but it didn't seem to work as she would text him few hours after midnight and he is still there.

Second try, mc tried to help him manage his time, maybe he has so much to do that he had no time to sleep..

____________________________________________

Mc : what are you so busy with lately ?

Jake : for now I'm setting up my equipment in a different location.

Mc : um.. Jake.. isn't this usually a secret kind of info?

Jake : in case anyone reading our chat ?

Jake : I guarantee you, it's so unlikely to happen.

Mc : okay so when are you going to do that ?

Jake : by morning I will reach the new location, but please mc, you can sleep.

Jake : you don't have to keep me company that late, picking up my bad habbits won't do you any good.

Mc : but !

Jake : No.

Mc : look, you really need some help with time management, you can tell me your plans and I can help you organize them for you.

Jake : why ? Everything is working just fine.

Mc : just fine? You barely get any sleep !

Jake : don't worry, you get some sleep.

Mc : Jake ..

Jake : goodnight mc, you need not worry about me.

<Jake is now offline>

Mc : 🙄

__________________________________________

Saying third time is the charm, mc tried again.

This time she prepared everything for the sole purpose of getting him to sleep few decent hours at least.

Dimming the lights, big dinner, warming some milk, setting up the right room temperature, fluffing up the pillows and spraying a little bit of lavender essential oil on them and a warm bath, mc vowed that today would be the day this hacker gets some sleep.

Usually, when mc invites him over, he would stay around for a movie, sometimes dinner but never too long, not this time though.

_____________________________________________

Jake : I have brought the movie you picked with me.

Mc : cool !

Jake : also a little something I hope you like.

Mc : awwww Jake 💖

Jake : ;)

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The movie was boring, Jake barely kept his eyes open, it was all going according to plan, mc picked this movie specifically for this.

" oh thank you" said Jake, as mc gave a mug of warm milk and honey and came back to cuddle with him, it felt so nice and comfy he could feel himself getting even more sleepy, that's when he suddenly stood up.

" hey what's wrong? "

" it's getting late.., I have to go " he said looking at his backpack by the table.

" you know you can stay the night, right ?"

" I can't"

" who says? " mc asked

" I do, I have things to do "

" this late ? Jake.. is there a problem? "

" No, I just.. let's talk later, okay? "

" Nope, whatever you are working on, can wait" mc said folding her arms.

" cute, job calls mc, you know that I usually do all my work-"

" at night, yes, I get it, we can't cuddle because you think that you can't put your projects aside for once, yeah cool " mc said going to her bedroom and closing the door behind her.

Nothing is going according to plan.

She just wanted him to have some rest, his lifestyle is really unhealthy, she just wanted to help.

Mc hears knocking on the door.

" mc, I wasn't planning to stay tonight.. but-"

Mc opens the door to let him in

" but ? "

" don't expect much sleep." A smirk escaped his lips as he came closer to the bed, mc blushed.

" um I ... Well, don't worry, I prepared a relaxing bath for you"

" oh for us? How lovely, I'm afraid I didn't bring a spare change of clothes"

" I took care of that " said mc proudly.

" good job, mc" he said taking her face in his hands " always being so efficient " he said bringing his face closer " I was right about you "

Mc's face is burning as he leans in and whispers

" good girl"

Trying not to faint she looks up to see his smirk

" very well, shall we ? " He said opening the door for her.

Mc stood there thinking, she didn't plan this, it's not according to plan but somehow... it's better.

" getting too shy ? Perhaps you can go first-"

" No.. I don't need a bath actually" mc said trying to hide her face " but.. "

" now now, look at me and tell me what you want"

Struggling to meet his eyes, mc managed to do so barely.

" I do want to join you but.. I wanted you to relax and .."

" I would be more relaxed with you" he said giving mc a soft smile as she joined him.

Cuddling behind her in the bath " you planned all this today to help me relax, didn't you? "

Mc nods her head.

" I appreciate that, mc, I really do"

" aww no problem"

" I don't remember the last time I did this.. "

" chilling? Yeah I don't think you did that before"

" haha, you could be right " he laughed softly.

" .. I mean considering your situation and all ..sorry i-" mc said as she remembered what he said about his past.

" it's okay "

Few minutes of silence go by, which Jake seems to be comfortable in but mc on the other hand thinking she might have ruined the mood.

" Jake.. you are freelancing for now right? "

" right, but don't worry about that, I've been working towards financial stability as for the next job I'm planning to- "

" just saying don't overdo it, get some sleep ! You are human !! "

" ah well.. I think I'm used to this"

" living on the edge, huh"

" it's quite exciting sometimes it's too dangerous but with high risk comes high reward "

" sure as long as you don't play hero by yourself and let me help"

" I don't recommend, I don't think it's an area of your interest"

Mc turns to face him, leaning with her hands on his chest . " Come on, after what we went through, you know I can help "

Lost in her eyes, he put his hand behind her back to pull her closer. " I know you can, I would rather not have you go through constant stress "

" it wasn't all stress, you know, we made friends"

" You made friends" Jake corrected her

" nahh, Dan definitely likes you"

He chuckles and turns to kiss mc on her nose.

" Phil is also back running the aurora bar, maybe we can go grab some drinks? "

" unless the aurora is under new management, I'm not interested in going there, would you like black swan instead? "

" haha sure, anything but there huh "

" i would rather take you to a place that has more class "

" like the Chinese restaurant across the motel you stayed at " mc said smirking

" yes but not exactly..."

" hm ? "

" let's leave the bath first, I will explain"

Mc brought them towels and gave him a change of clothes and started to get dressed.

Sitting on the bed shirtless he started to explain

" I'm planning to take you some place better, the plan is still under development and I don't know if you would like it "

" like take to me on a better date? "

" that too. "

" hm i still don't get it "

" wait here "

Mc went to sit on the bed as he went to the living to grab his bag.

He sits leaning on the headboard with his laptop, mc sitting next to him and he went through it and opened the file named ' new folder ' (yes, new folder, he didn't name it, he is allowed to be lazy sometimes XD)

" this reminds me of back then, when we used to look for clues in the pictures together" said mc.

" yes, but this is better"

" yeah, more comfy and all, do you like lavender? It sure is relaxing"

" oh this is lavender, yes it is quite nice, now, tell me, what do you think? "

" well this looks like a nice apartment, is this the 'new location' you were moving to? " Mc asked

" yes, exactly. I have been making sure it's secure enough to guarantee our safety, I say it's a catch considering it's location in the city " Jake explained as he kept showing mc the apartment from different angles

" wait wait wait! Our ? You mean like.. you and me? "

Mc looks at him in shock, is this what he was so busy planning for ?

" yes "

" moving in together? ?"

" finally, yes, unless you don-"

" should I pack my stuff ? "

" absolutely "

She went in for a tight hug he had to put the laptop down and pulled her closer

" I'm so glad you like "

" it's the best thing I've ever seen ! "

" I must say I quit like the design myself but I couldn't stay there one night, it's missing one thing "

" what ? "

He pulled the covers over them and hugged mc closer.

" this "

Jake said kissing her cheek.

" aren't you quite the romantic? "

" says the one who planned all of this"

" yeah what about it ! "

" I love it "

" I love you"

" I love you more "

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Jake : I never slept that great in my life

Mc : same tbh

Jake : we should sleep together often ;)

Mc : 🤭

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Finally, mc has managed to at least add more hours of sleep to his schedule, nothing is impossible!

The end

( I didn't spell check for errors, sorry, bye)

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[thepaintedlady00]

Heeeyyyy 👋😅

Sorry once again for being MIA. Life has (once again) been absolutely nuts! I've just gotten over being sick again and on top of that I unexpectedly got an axolotl that I'm trying to keep alive and become a good Axolotl mom to. And then there's just the general life things, unexpected car troubles (it's been in the shop for like 3 days and I still haven't heard anything from the mechanic about it so that's fun) and work and household shit and you guys know just life.

I've been mostly offline pretty much all month (a huge sorry to everyone who's been messaging me, I do love y'all but I just have not had the mental ability to do messages as of late) and have really been struggling with writing and staying motivated for Nightshade. I love it and the story and our idiots, but my brains just fried! xD Watching Dune Part 2 also did not help with my brain rot (why do I find the bald bad guy really attractive? Like I really need to take a deep look inside because wow xD)

As of right now I'm kind of trying to decide whether or not to take a step back from Nightshade and write something else for a bit (my Daemon brain rot has also been coming back in waves since the trailers for season 2 aired) but I dunno. 🤷‍♀️ Nightshade is a seriously long fic, like I've been writing it for pretty much half a year now and we've still got over 50 chapters to go. Again, I LOVE Nightshade and all the characters I've been writing but it's just a LOT and it's reached the point where I'm just kinda a little burnt out with it. I dislike pretty much everything I've written recently for it and I just really don't wanna pump out mediocre chapters. You guys deserve better than that and this story deserves better than that.

So, imma leave a little vote down below to kinda gauge what everyone would be most interested in going forward.

I love all of you guys and hope y'all can understand where I'm coming from and not be too disappointed in my absolute lack of presence lately xD

#burn out #fic writing #life update #heeeyyy

[daemon-in-my-head]

I don't wanna sound bitter. Cuz I'm not. But I am very much disappointed. And probably a tiny bit mad.

Larian, I very much appreciate it that we get a new patch every 4 weeks or so and that you guys continously throw in "new" content, but; please for the love of everything that is holy take your time.

Patch 6 broke the game. Hotfix 18 made it even worse for modders, those with modded games and even just the vanilla experience. Patch 6 was very much still playable, whereas Hotmess 18 crashed the game round about every 30 minutes for reasons beyond human comprehension. Hotmess 19 fixed the .exe resulting in most script mods working again and Aron stopped his personal vendetta against me, but even now there's random funny lil bits and bobs of what the hell? and apparently some lines are marked as impossible again.

Please, for the love of god, test your patches. This is a fully released game, not EA and your players didn't sign up to be your beta testers. I know it's modern custom to treat your user base like they are, but speaking as part of the user base; I'd rather not.

I don't want to start the game directly from its .exe, continuously stay offline in Steam, or turn off auto updates for fear they will break everything yet again. I know my game is volatile because of mods; I understand that, and I'm not complaining about it, but mods didn't cause the bugs and crashes I've faced, and y'all confirmed it with the patch notes. Especially since I had the very same issues on my very much vanilla Steamdeck myself.

I do appreciate the work you do, but I don't appreciate the way how it is done. There will always be bugs and all. That much is normal. But they shouldn't be this severely game breaking or change the whole fucking .exe. That, to me, screams 99% untested, maybe on 1 particular notebook or PC and in some very small capacity, but not really. That's not a simple "oversight" anymore.

It happened before with Patch 4 which was incredibly broken and caused me to stay away from the game for weeks and I'm seeing it happen again right about fucking now.

Also the whole discord drama bit. If you know what I mean, you know how fucked up it was. Shall I add that some characters received a bunch of idles and some barely any or straight up none? If you commit to such updates, why not wait until you have something ready for everyone instead of stoking the flames by yourself voluntarily? Your players don't mind waiting longer if the end result is worth it, you know.

Please get your shit together Larian. You guys advocated for your players, but this isn't that anymore. This feels like a sellout. The very thing certain people tried to complain about at the Game Awards. Love you guys, but please. Please. Get it together again.

Okay. Got it out of my system. Back to my usual bullshit. On the bright side, this did trigger me to go write again after spending the entirety of yesterday asleep.

FYI; even if this was caused by the whining, get mad at the devs, not at your fandom. It wasn't their fault, the devs made these changes. Some of these people were right to complain (can we be adults about it this time pretty please? We all just want our ships to sail smoothly and our blorbos to be as developed as they deserve.)

#sorry but yall those last few days #needed to vent about this shitshow #the line removal was really just the cherry ontop #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #bg3 gortash #bg3 durge #also belgium isnt too far away from my place so please expect a very noisy neighbour if this was on purpose #im joking ofc about that last part #but i am kinda mad