#but everyone starts somewhere. and hopefully i'll get more soon

[retiredcultistredux]

((it's technically the 22nd now because it's past midnight so!! this blog has officially been around for an entire month. honestly the month has flown by and the whole thing is still kinda surreal to me to begin with. like this legit just started with me wanting to do something cool and reconnect with people and maybe some of it was just nostalgia but really it was just. an idea of 'i wanna do something as some sort of thanks to the original since it means so much to me, but i also wanna bring ester back for cool stuff. solution? continuation' and once i got the go ahead it was just. i was so giddy and excited and honestly all i wanna do is just share this with people, i want people to see the care i have for this and stick around for a while. like it's slow and i only have 11 followers after a month, things aren't exactly super fast around here. but hopefully as time goes on and more asks come in and more people follow or interact or whatever, hopefully it'll build back up that sense of community the original had because that was one of my favorite parts abt it. and yes you guys can still send me characters and appear in the story people just haven't done that yet lol. 15 year old me was super stoked to play a part in something that meant a lot to me and it was sad after it stopped updating but i kinda just moved onto other things. but then i thought back on it and how it never really left my brain completely and well. now i'm here with my own take on things hoping to bring that sense of community back to other people because i wanna be able to make people happy with this stuff too. even if it's not exactly what was planned for the og, i hope you guys will like what i have in mind regardless because it really truly means a lot to me. sorry this got kinda rambly but i get that way sometimes. so to the people reading this who have followed and sent asks and stuff so far, thank you. literally couldn't have done this without you guys, and dungeon-raided too ofc for even allowing me to do this in the first place seriously dude you're awesome. absolute legend and i hope i'm doing this some justice so far lmao. out here trying my best and hoping i can make people happy with these silly little characters being put in not so silly situations. anyway tl;dr thank you guys for a very cool, albeit kinda slow, first month of rcr, i'm looking forward to more in the future and hope you are too. trust me i've got big plans for anyone who wants to stick around, and hopefully it'll be up to expectations. but yeah that's it for now, byee))

#update #not story #not an ask #really went and rambled and got all emotional there huh #i kinda lose my filter past midnight lol #but i meant everything i said in this #the people who are here mean so much to me #and i hope more will tune in in the future #i wanna have that same positive impact on my own little corner of tumblr yknow #be the kinda inspiration that 15 year old me had #except now im 20 turning 21 this october #hopefully i can be an inspiration regardless #because 15 year old me really loved being a part of this back then #and a lot of it is me wanting to show my appreciation #and offering new ideas and plot points and just #seeing where it takes me. #the slow parts make me feel upset because of how much this means #a little disheartening when there's. little to no asks #but everyone starts somewhere. and hopefully i'll get more soon #anyway i'm rambling again and am gonna run out of tag room #but big huge thank you to everyone who read all this #you guys are the best <3 #(wrote this all in one sitting and just whatever came to mind is there lol)

[gotham-daydreams]

Hun you have probably heard this before but take all the time you need and more! Lol. It's your fic, your idea and there is no need to stress on getting it out so fast. You lose nothing if some people ever get bored of waiting, but honestly i know many (including myself) who have waited double digit months for someone to update their fics. Anyway this is just my short way of saying that It's alright to just relax and have fun. Hope this didn't come off too rude or like im making assumptions about you, if you feel no stress, good. 🖤 And even if tumblr ends up lagging due to the lenght of the fic, you could always split it into two like you talked about before. Take it one step at a time, can't wait to find out what happens next!

Nono you didn't come off as rude or anything at all! Thank you so much for your kind words and everything, they mean a lot 💛💛💛

Though I do feel bad for taking so long since I have been working on it for a while, and even if I will prioritize the quality of Part 3 over getting it out as soon as I can, I am still trying to get to a point where I can get it out in a reasonable amount of time for you guys! And also hopefully produce a Part 3 that will make the wait worth it- even if the length doesn't exactly say anything about the quality of the chapter itself.

Which, trust me, I never intended for Part 3 to be as long as it's becoming now 😅, as I said a bit earlier on another ask, some of the moments that were supposed to be "small/short" are, in fact, not what most would consider short at all :']

I'll be honest and admit that back when I started writing Pt. 3 in September, I honestly thought that the length would be somewhere in between Pt. 1 and Pt. 2 (so about maybe 3/5k - 10k words), only for us to be here. Where Pt. 3 might end up being, (funnily enough) almost 3 times the length of Pt. 2- which I suspect to be around 10k words since by the time I reached 10k on Pt. 3, it was just about as long as Pt. 2.

Pt. 2 alone made tumblr lag on my end, so that's why the length of Pt. 3 is making me so nervous, and though I will split it into two parts if I have to- I will try to keep it as one whole part since, again, I do believe that it's better read that way.

Which, I also keep commenting on the length and everything since, well- Pt. 3 isn't done yet. And I can only look on in slight horror as I keep writing, and knowing I'm not even at the ending yet :']

Regardless of all of that, however, I do deeply appreciate all of you who are waiting, and thank you for your patience and time! I know I haven't been the most active or anything, but I do appreciate everyone and all of the support I've been receiving!! Recently I've reached 1k followers- and have been also trying to think of what to do for that, since that's a huge milestone! And I want to properly thank everyone for the support and everything, but still don't have many ideas for that at the moment :']

Still, thank you so much for everything!

#talking daydreams #i hope everyone also has an amazing day!

[randoimago]

Day 25 - Stuck in the Rain

Fandom: Critical Role

Character(s): Dorian Storm

Type of Request: 31 Days of Oc-Trope-R

Note(s): Remember how when Dorian was first introduced there was a lot of people asking, "Oh is he a water genasi cause he's blue?" I had to incorporate that into this for funsies.

"Oh, you have got to be kidding me!" Came the whining exclamation from one Dorian Storm as, per his chosen namesake, it started to rain. The Crown Keepers are in between cities, and it's been cloudy for a while. He had hoped you'd all make it to the next place before it did start raining, but of course as soon as he had hope it would be dashed.

"Aren't you a genasi? I thought you liked rain?" Dorian can't help a scoff from Dariax's question. It is an innocent one so he's not mad, but that doesn't mean he wants to hear it.

"I'm an air genasi not water."

"But you're blue?"

"And what color would I be if I was air? Translucent?!"

Before the boys could get into another discussion with jabs at each other, Fy'ra let out a sigh which immediately shut the boys up and caused some giggling among the others. Hearing the sound of your amusement made Dorian feel better about the situation, until he realized that the rain wouldn't let up anytime soon.

"Well, we should probably find somewhere to hide out for the night if it's going to keep raining like this," you say, and the others agree. "I'll go look."

"I'll go too!" Dorian was quick to pipe up, and he ignored the knowing looks he got form Fy'ra and Opal as well as the thumbs up Dariax tried to give him secretly, but you obviously saw. "It'd uh, just be safer with two people," he said as an excuse, but you easily gave him a smile and agreed to let him come.

And now the both of you are walking around, using your cloaks as badly made umbrellas while you attempt to find a place for everyone to stay for the night.

There's some talking between you two, some more of Dorian complaining about his hair or the makeup he had put on. But besides that, it was peaceful. Maybe a bit awkward on Dorian's part because he had a thousand things he wanted to say to you but didn't know what words to use.

"Think the rain will last long?" He asks and makes a bit of a face because is that really the best conversation starter he had? You don't seem to be bothered by his question though as you both keep walking.

"Hopefully not. Too bad none of us have a 'rain rain go away' spell," you comment, giving a bit of a joke to lighten the mood. He did chuckle at your words, appreciating the light commentary.

"I don't know, maybe we can convince Dariax that if he dances then the rain will vanish." You both laughed at that idea, knowing that you might be able to manage that, but also knowing you wouldn't want to deal with the pouting Dariax would give when it doesn't work.

Eventually, you both stumble upon a cave. It's a good place for everyone to lay low and rest until the rain stops. Dorian sends out a quick Sending spell while you do your best to make a fire to dry off. Dorian notices that you seem a bit cold, so he takes a deep breath and shuffles to sit a tad closer to you.

"Cold?" He asks and he knows the answer is obvious, but he's read enough cheesy romance books. He thinks he knows the right moves to do.

"A bit," you respond and give him a small smile. Dorian takes another deep breath. This is his moment to shine.

"We could cuddle? For body warmth," he suggests, and you stare at him a bit, probably processing his suggestion. And the longer you look at him, the more nervous he gets because that was such a stupid pick-up line, why would he say it? But then you shrug and move close enough to have your shoulder next to his and your thighs touching as you sit. And Dorian has no idea what to do next because he didn't think he'd get this far.

"Thanks for coming with me," you tell him, and his brain has to think a bit to realize what you're saying before he remembers how he volunteered to look for shelter with you.

"Well, I couldn't have you go alone. If you're going to split the party, might as well make it even," he says even though it really wasn't an even split up. But math doesn't matter when you have a massive crush on someone.

"I still appreciate it." You lean your head on his shoulder, and he tenses a bit before relaxing and resting his head on yours.

The rain continues to pour outside while the cave is lit by the warm fire that's in front of the two of you. It's a peaceful moment and makes his heart feel light.

#critical role x reader #dorian x reader #dorian storm x reader #randoimago 31 days of october

[dr4k3n0]

Forgetting is a Part of Life

A/n: So, me being me, I didn't feel like writing for a while, but I'm back, and this request is like 15 days late- So, here it is now- I apologize for the wait. (I hope this is what you were wanting! @talimicka6543 (Idk why the '@' isn't working-) I also probably failed writing this-)

Synopsis: With the reader having innatentive adhd, Vash finds ways to help you focus and comfort you, when you need it.

Tw: None?

The sun began to rise one fateful morning. It was peaceful and quiet, that was, until you were hurrying to grab your things as a band of robbers decided to ambush you all. It was hard to believe that you all were sleeping so peacefully, just a few seconds ago, and now, gunfire is raining down upon you all.  You all jumped up as soon as the gunfire started as you all tried to gather your things up quickly, before making a run for Meryl's car. When you gathered your stuff, you placed it all in your lap as you squeezed between Vash and Wolfwood with sleep still clouding your eyes. Meryl started the car and sped off kicking up dirt, and leaving your previous campsite in the dust. 

Moving your things around after finally settling down, and the adrenaline leaving your body, you looked out the window, even though there wasn't much to see of the desert. You began to space out, the small conversation in the background, along with the noise of the car was able to cast its spell upon you. Mind going blank, and noises around you beginning to get drowned out, it was just, you. No noise, no distractions, no feeling, just silence. 

That was until you felt someone trying to get your attention.

"Y/n" Vash said as he waved his hand in front of your face. 

Blinking your eyes, you looked at him and shot him a shy smile, "What..?" You asked.

He looked at you with a kind and understanding expression, before saying, "We were trying to get your input on the new town ahead. Do you want to check it out? Or go somewhere else?"

You looked out the windshield and saw the nearing town in the distance. 

"I don't really care up to you guys," You replied while beginning to look out the window again. 

Your mind began to wander off again, all words turning into a jumble of a mess, and all feeling slowly disappearing. Watching the desert go by through the small car windows, you were brought back to reality by a cold hand finding its way to yours. It was much larger than yours, the blue metallic thumb of his hand gently rubbing circles into the back of yours. Your eyes traveled up to the culprit's face. 

His flowy golden locks, his firm jawline, the orange sunglasses, his beauty mark, and then finally his eyes. It all came together perfectly as his small smile formed on his lips. You found yourself smiling back, as you locked your fingers with his. He continued talking with the others as his hand stayed in yours. You found it harder to zone out, and were able to focus more on the conversation. 

It was soon decided that you would all stop at the nearing town for the night, and leave in the morning. Which, wasn't too bad of an option. You wanted to sleep in a normal bed again. For the whole car ride, Vash's hand remained in yours as you drove to the nearing town that began to grow in the windshield as you approached. 

Pulling up to the town, Meryl parked the car outside the village in hopes she hid it enough so that it hopefully won't get stolen. 

"What's everyone's plan when we get head in?" Meryl said as she unbuckled and turned to face everyone in the back. 

"I'm gonna get a few things from the market," Wolfwood said as he out of instinct, went to grab a cigarette but to no avail the box was empty. 

"I'm probably going to look around a bit, but other than that I will probably be where we decided to stay the night, or with you guys." You explained while squeezing your items against you. 

"I'll probably stick around them," Vash said pointing towards you with his thumb. 

Meryl nodded, "I'll go make sure things are all set up for the night and get the rooms." She said.

"Alright break," Roberto cut, in while he opened the door. 

Vash unbuckled and then slid out of the car before turning around and offering a hand for you as you followed suit behind him. Rolling your eyes, you grabbed his hand gently as he helped pull you out of the car, and steadied you. 

As you walked towards the entrance of the town, you were taken aback by the number of people who lived in this town. It was filled with vendors and people walking around with their friends or family. Grabbing Vash's hand gently, you continued walking into the bustling town while looking at all the small trinkets and items that each vendor offered. 

As you were about halfway through the town, it was down to just you and Vash now. You had lost Wolfwood a while back, as something had caught his interest. Meryl and Roberto parted ways with you both a little bit ago, as they spotted a decent-looking hotel to stay in. So it was just you two now. 

"So what should we do now?" Vash said as he looked down at you happily. 

You shrugged. You didn't really know what you both wanted to do now. 

"I don't really know," You said while using your hand to block the sun's light that shone too brightly. 

Vash looked down at you confused by your actions before realizing why you had to shield your eyes. A small smile came to his lips as he took off his glasses and placed them on you gently. You looked at him confused as you adjusted them on your nose. 

"Why did you give me your glasses?" You asked still confused. 

"You have to look up at me and I don't need you to go blind on me, so I gave you my glasses," He answered while his eyes adjusted to his surroundings no longer being tinted orange. 

A smile made its way to your lips as you wore his glasses and continued to walk a bit more. 

Vash hummed as he thought for a moment about what you should both do. His eyes wandered around all the billboards and signs that littered the walls and beams of buildings. They soon wandered upon a small food stand that had a lot of different foods to offer. Overall, it looked decent. 

"You want to get a bite to eat?" Vash soon enquired, as he looked down at your small figure. 

Making a small hum noise, you were about to answer but your stomach answered for you. 

"Yea- I guess so," You said with a small chuckle. 

He smiled before leading you to the stand he saw and there wasn't much of a line thankfully. Looking at the menu, you saw that it offered some different types of pizza, ramen, and hotdogs, it seemed to have a little bit of everything for such a small stand. 

Vash went to order first, "Can I get a slice of pepperoni pizza?" Vash said as he pointed towards it. 

The man running the stand quickly sliced a decent-sized slice of pizza and handed it to him before looking towards you. Your eyes landed on all the delicious smelling food but soon decided to get the same thing as Vash. 

"Can I get the same thing he got?" You asked pointing towards the same pizza that Vash had got. 

The man nodded again before getting another slice and putting it on a plate, while handing it to you. 

"That will be $4.75 please," The man said as he held out his hand for the money Vash had handed him.

"Keep the change," Vash said with a smile. 

The man smiled at Vash before thanking him, and then bidding you both farewell as you began to walk away. You began to walk back towards where you and Vash had left Meryl at the hotel, while munching on your slice of pizza on the way. Thankfully, it wasn't too bad of a walk to the hotel from where the stand was. 

When you got there, Vash and you joined Meryl and Roberto as they had a few drinks and talked. Vash soon decided to join in the conversation while you looked around the bar section of the hotel. 

There wasn't much to it, just some old bar stools along the old and worn counters. Along with the old and battered tables that look like they collapse with a single touch. It wasn't the best place to stay in, but it would do. 

Eventually, you decided to go check out the hotel room that you would be staying in. Meryl had given you the key earlier and so you decided to excuse yourself for a moment. 

"I'll be back, I want to check out the room," You said as you began to stand up and push in your chair. 

They nodded at you, before continuing bidding you farewell, and continuing the conversation. As you made your way up the rickety old stairs, you scanned the numbers of the doors before you stopped. 

"Room 5.." You whispered to yourself. 

You placed the key into the lock before turning it and the door slid open with a loud creak. The room was plain, just like the rest of the hotel. The paint was peeling from the walls, and it reeked of cigarettes and dust. 

"Welp.." You said before walking in and closing the door. 

You plopped your backpack on the floor by the door, before walking around and opening a window to try and air out the room before you had to sleep in it. 

Standing at the window to breathe in some of the outside air, you soon turned around and began heading back down to the others. The stairs creaked with each step you took, but you soon arrived back with the others and Wolfwood had finally decided to show up too. 

Pulling out your chair beside Vash and taking a seat, you planted your elbow onto the table before resting your head on your palm. Their talking was soothing and almost able to lull you to sleep. Your tired eyes rested on Vash before they closed one last time. The image of him still in your mind as you looked over each of his features. 

But something was missing.

Your eyes opened again as you took a look at his figure trying to find the piece it was missing. It wasn't his gun, his coat, his earring, what was it? Scanning over him again, you soon noticed his glasses were the thing that was missing. 

"Vash, where are your glasses?" You asked somewhat breaking into their conversation.

He looked at you confused before a loving smile appeared on his face. "You're wearing them, love," Vash said with a small chuckle.

You were confused but soon realized, things were still tinted orange. You took the glasses off, as heat began to run to your face, and soon made its way to the tip of your ears. You handed him the glasses as you fiddled with the hem of your shirt with the other hand. 

"Sorry.." You mumbled quietly as you planted your face between your arms on the table as your only way to hide from your embarrassment. 

"Don't worry, everyone forgets things, it's part of life." Vash smiled down at you happily. 

You nodded not daring to look the others in the eyes.

~^~

Eventually, you had all eaten until your heart's content. As of right now, you were all splitting ways and heading to your individual rooms beside Vash who was going to stay with you. You opened the door to room five, as you both walked in and settled on the small bed. 

"Well at least it's smelling better now," you sigh. 

Vash chuckles as he hugs you from behind gently while snuggling into the crook of your neck. Turning around in his grasp to face him, you gently press a kiss to his lips to which he replies right back happily. 

When you pulled back gasping for air, Vash pressed his forehead to yours gently. 

"Love ya," Vash soon whispered against your lips.

You giggled at him before rolling your eyes, "Love ya too, blondie." You said while reaching your arm up to ruffle his messy hair. 

You both stayed in that position, basking in each other's warmth and affection. That was until, your mind began to wander. 'Where did I put my backpack..? You thought. Pulling away from Vash, he whined but soon looked at you confused as you looked around the dimly lit room. 

"What up, Mayfly?" Vash asked as he quirked a brow and tilted his head.

"I'm looking for my backpack, I think I left it downstairs-" You said as you began to open the door to go check. 

Before you can leave, you feel Vash grab your waist and pull you back in. "You're backpack's right here, love. Don't worry," He said while gesturing to the backpack that was still there from when you first checked out the room. 

A sigh of relief left your lips as heat rose to your face, again.

"I guess I forgot- sorry that was random.." You said bringing a hand up and placing it on the back of your neck as you let out an awkward laugh. 

He looked at you concerned for a second before pulling you in for a hug, and holding you tightly. You remained there for a moment in silence before he began.  

"Don't feel bad for being "random" or "forgetting" things.. everyone does it, and there's nothing to be embarrassed about. It just makes you, you, and I love everything about you.." He said before planting a kiss on the crown of your head. 

His words were always able to help you feel somewhat better, even if you hated the fact he had to give you these talks almost every day. But it helped, and you were thankful for him. You squeezed him back before pulling back from the hug and placing a kiss on his cheek. 

"Thanks, blondie," You uttered out with a loving smile.

"Of course, mayfly, don't worry, forgetting is a part of life.. it happens." He said while hugging you from behind.

I guess he is right.. 

#vash x y/n #vash x reader #vash tristamp #vash the stampede #vash trigun #trigun fluff #vash our beloved #vash trigun stampede #oneshot #fluff

[k0ppyi]

SPIRITED BACK TO YOU

.. / .-.. --- ...- . / -.-- --- ..- in which chihiro goes back to the Spirit Realm, meets old Friends, but Not the one shes looking for. (At least not in Spirit Realm)

"Happy birthday, Chihiro," her mom and dad smiled at her. Chihiro smiled and blew out the candles. "What wish did you make?" Her dad asked, "w-wish? I'm way too old for that!" She scoffed.

Chihiro spent the rest of her day with family and friends. But she couldn't help but feel as if something was calling to her.

A few days later, Chihiro decided to go on a bike ride. The feeling was still there and she had to get rid of it. "Mom, dad! I'm heading out!" She called, "wear a coat!" Her mom replied. "Oh and remember, we're going somewhere, so take the keys!" Her dad calls, "mhm!"

Chihiro biked all the way down the hill she lived on. She came to a stop. The woods, the woods where she knew there was a tunnel. "Should I go in...?" She asks herself, feeling a sense of deja vu. She turned her bike and pedaled towards the tunnel. Chihiro hopped off her bike and stepped forward. Chihiro's eyes widened. She remembered. She remembered everything. The Spirit Realm, her time as a worker at the bathhouse, Lin, Kamaji, Haku.... It all clicked. Her strange dreams where she feels deja vu, her interests in supernatural things, everything. Chihiro stepped in, "should I..?" She asked herself. She nodded, "I will," she said, stepping inside the tunnel.

The more she walked through the tunnel, the more she felt memories fading into her. And then she was on the other side. It looked the same as when she left. She wondered if everyone else changed like her. Or do people in the Spirit Realm not grow? She made her way through the city, she remembered that Haku fed her something, a berry, maybe? She ran out to a field and looked around. A red berry, yes a red berry. She picked it and pocketed it. "I guess all I have to do is wait..." she muttered. She wasn't too sure how time worked in the Spirit Realm, hopefully she would get back before her parents.

After a while of waiting, waiting, and waiting, it finally turned night. Chihiro stood up and noticed herself disappearing. She ate the berry and soon enough, she became visible. "Now what to do....what to do..." she muttered, "it'd definitely cause a ruckus if I entered the bathhouse, but what other choice do I have...?" She doubted Haku still worked for Yubaba, but still. She looked at the building, then the train tracks. 'Building or train tracks?' She asked herself. She didn't have a ticket, surely she can walk. But who knows how long it'd take for her to get to Swamp Bottom? She sighed, taking her final breath as she held her breath in.

When she passed security, she took a breath. She ran down to the boiler room and slammed the door open. As she walked in, Kamaji said, "it's rude not to knock, you know," he said, fiercely. "Kamaji, it's me, Chihiro. I have a question," she said. Kamaji straightened his back a little. He turned his head, slowly. "...Chihiro?" He muttered. Chihiro nodded, "oh! It's you! I remember when you were so small!" He said, patting her head with one arm. "Well, I'm 15 now," she chuckled, "15, wow..." he muttered, "anyways, what's your question?" He asked. "Um...I wanna know what happened after I left. You know, to Lin, Zeniba, No-Face, Haku," she said, counting on her fingers.

Kamaji went silent, as if he was thinking. "Let's see, Lin's still saving money for train tickets, so she's working here. Zeniba and No-Face are still together in the cottage. And Haku...well, he visits us, but it seems like he's busy venturing both the Human and Spirit Realm," Kamaji says. "W-what!?" She exclaimed, "what? What's wrong," Kamaji asked. "Well..I was kinda hoping to find him here, but now you told me he's in the Human Realm too. It seems impossible that I'll be able to meet with him again!" She cried, tears starting to form. Kamaji grabbed a tissue and wiped her tears, "don't cry, Chihiro, there's many possibilities you'll see him," he says, Chihiro sniffles. "He doesn't live in the Human Realm, he just goes adventuring there, plus, he couldn't have gotten too far from where you live in the Human Realm," he comforted, "you're right..." She calmed down.

Then, the door opened, "hey Kamaji, here's your food," the woman said. "Lin!" Chihiro cried, happily, "huh? Whose this dope? And how does she know my name," Lin said. Chihiro took no offense, she knows she's changed. "It's me! Chihiro!" Chihiro exclaims, "Chihiro? Jeez! You've grown so much, how long has it been? It feels like you were small and tiny just yesterday!" Lin exclaimed, "5 years for me.." Chihiro smiled. "What brings you back here?" Lin asks, "she has intentions of finding Haku," Kamaji explains. "Really?" Lin asks, "yes! Do you have any idea where he could be?" Chihiro asks, "I suggest going to the place you first met him, if he's not there, maybe you can ask Zeniba," Lin says, "I don't have train tickets," Chihiro's smile fades. Lin looks at Kamaji. "Don't Look at me, those train tickets were hard to get," he says. "Ah! Maybe I could walk!" Chihiro suggests. They both look at her. "You sure? It could take a while," "I'll be fine," Kamaji and Lin look at each other , "okay, but if you can't stand walking much longer, just come back," Lin says. Chihiro nods and runs out.

"Hey! Chihiro! Wait for me! I have the boat!" Lin calls, running down with a wooden boat. "Ah! Sorry!" Chihiro calls.

Lin places the boat in the water and boards it, "here," she says. Chihiro gets in and they make their way to the train tracks. "Alright, be safe," Lin says, "okay," Chihiro says, taking off her shoes and holding them in one hand.

Chihiro finally gets to Swamp Bottom, and she's greeted with the lamp. She follows the lamp and knocks on the cottage door. "No-Face, dear, would you go get that?" Zeniba asks. Then, the door opened. No-Face tilts their head. "Uh, hi No-Face," Chihiro waves. "Who's that" Zeniba asks. "It's me, Chihiro, granny," she says, putting her hand up. "Chihiro? Why, I haven't seen you in years," Zeniba says. "Come in, come in," she smiles. Chihiro enters. No-Face pulled out a chair for her. "So what brings you here?" Zeniba asks, "I'm looking for Haku," Chihiro says, "Haku? Hmmm..." she mutters. "Do you have any idea where he is?" Chihiro asks, "no, unfortunately I don't," Chihiro saddens. "I won't ever see him again.." Chihiro muttered. Tears started falling down her eyes as she thought of never reuniting with Haku again. "Oh dear...please don't cry," Zeniba said. No-Face took a napkin and wiped Chihiro's face. "Chihiro, honey. Dont ever look at the negative side of things. You will never get out of that pit if you do. Believe that you'll see him again. You know you'll see him again," Zeniba said, consoling the girl. Chihiro sobbed even more. But she knew Zeniba was right. She had to be positive.

Chihiro left the tunnel, this time with memories. As she was about to hop on her bike, a voice came from behind her. "Excuse me..." the boy said. Chihiro flinched in surprise, "o-oh...hello," she said, turning around. The boy in front of her looked vaguely familiar.He had a short bob-cut and thin eyes. Almost like...! Chihiro gasped, "....Haku?" She muttered, stepping closer.

The boy stared at her, smiling, "Chihiro," he smiled. Chihiro smiled and ran all the way towards him to give him a hug. "Haku!" She exclaimed, happily. Tears started spilling from her eyes as she sank to the floor. "I-I didn't think we'd meet again...." She cried, Haku wrapped his arms around her. "Now that we're together....I don't ever wanna seperate again!" Chihiro cried, launching into his chest as he fell on his bottom. "Yes....we will stay in touch..." Haku replied, happily.

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[hasquetzorkukudoneanythingwrong]

El Noche de muerte

Recently, a new archeological site in Veracruz, Mexico was discovered. Uniquely, it's almost completely underground and it seems to be of Toltec origin, or another similar Nahuatl culture. 

Marco, a self described "amateur archeologist" who was also failing his archeology courses in university, was very much interested in this new site. We just had to go and see it. However, it was completely off limits to the public until further notice. This wasn't inherently odd, since many old sites could be harmed if people visiting weren't careful, but Marco seemed to not give a shit.

He decided to go out, late October. "Tonight is too perfect. Everyone else is getting ready for Dia de Los Muertos, so they can't stop me as easily. Just gotta get outta town quick enough." Marco, conveniently, lived in a town that wasn't too terribly far from the site. It was still a decent drive, but he'd definitely risk it. 

"Marco? Where are you off to?" His roommate asked him. 

"Just heading out into town for the night." He answered.

"Okay? Seeya later?" His roommate asked.

"Definitely." He responded.

After a few hours driving, he had gotten a bit lost. "God damn it. I must've made a wrong turn somewhere." Since the site was new, and off limits, it actually still wasn't on the maps app, so he couldn't depend on it to get there. "I'll try and backtrack a bit, maybe that'd help."

After driving back a bit and into a clearing, he was still not sure where to go. "Fuck, I should've been there by now. If I don't figure it out soon, someone will start looking for me."

Suddenly, someone tapped on his car window.

"Ah!" It spooked him. "Oh, uh, hello there?" 

A taller lady, with a black shirt with a spider on it, darker skin, prosthetic arms and peach colored hair was at his window. "Are you lost? I've never seen you here before." She asked.

"Oh yeah. Uh, I'm actually trying to find this uh- newly discovered Toltec site!" He explained. "I-I'm uh…. Checking on it's condition. I was sent by the museum! I'm professor Marco" Marco lied, unconvincingly. 

"Oh yeah! Just pass by those trees there, take a left and after a few meters, take a right and after some more driving you'll find it." She said, very helpfully.

"Oh! Th-thanks!" He said back.

As he got the car ready to go, he waved the girl off. "Thanks again, uh-"

"You can call me Nelia" She told him.

"Thanks Nelia!" He said.

After the short drive, and following Nelia's directions he was at the site. It was surrounded by warning signs and fencing, but oddly nobody was guarding the site.

"All these signs, but no one here to physically stop me or report my actions. Nice!" Marco said aloud to himself.

The visible part was just a small stone structure, with an entrance leading to stairs, that took you to the main part of the temple. As Marco navigated the signs and fencing, to not show obvious signs of being here, he felt his excitement rise and rise. 

He finally reached the main entrance, and started his way down the stairs. "So far so good, and so far I don't think I'm damaging any-THING!" As he said that, one of the steps crumbled and he tripped down the stairs.

"Fuuuuuck…." He said as he laid on the ground. He got back up, and looked back at the step that crumbled. "Fuck, hopefully that won't be noticed" He worried.

He then started to actually look around at where he was. "Wow, very macabre" he commented. 

The site was very creepy in nature. There were skulls everywhere, along with artwork depicting monstrous beings decorating the walls. "Maybe this was a place for sacrifices? Would explain the skulls and shit" He commented, as he walked forward.

Walking along, he also noticed sacrificial knives, old spears, animal bones and other things that'd creep out most people.

Marco eventually made his way to what seemed to be the end of the seeming sacrificial temple. In the center, was a round stone structure, with something terrifying on it. 

"I-is that… a fresh heart?!" He nearly screamed. 

It really was, before him on the altar, was a still very fresh heart, with red blood surrounding it. "I-is someone still using this for worship?! Is this why this place is off limits?!" Questions like these were racing through his head, then he noticed something above the altar, artwork depicting what seemed to be a god. This being seemed feminine in nature, with stone arms covered in spikes, sharp animalistic teeth in her mouth, and haunting red and purple eyes. Oddly, unlike most mesoamerican artworks, she wasn't depicted in profile, but front on. This had her facing Marco full on.

"God, I don't think I've seen this deity before. W-wait, is that her name down there?" He noticed glyphs underneath her, thankfully even though he was failing his archeology courses, he could at least read these glyphs.

"Ne-nex…. Nexoxcho? That's an interesting name." He then looked back up at the art, and when he saw her face, she looked back at him.

"AH FUCK!" He screamed, the surprise making him trip backwards. He picked himself back up and started running back to the entrance. As he ran, he had a horrifying chill running down his back, he needed to leave as quickly as possible! 

Eventually, he made it up the stairs, nearly tripping again but still booking it up to escape. 

It had started to pour rain when he was in there, but the fear in him stopped him from caring about that, and from caring about all the warning signs and fencing. He ram past it all, to get to his car. Once he got in, he took a minute to stop and just breathe. 

"Wh-what the fuck was that?!" He said to himself. "Is that God coming to get me or something?" He questioned. "I gotta get out of here!"

He then tried to start his car, but it wouldn't start up. "No no no! C'mon, we gotta go!" But it wasn't cooperating, and his fear was growing.

Then he heard a tap at his window again. "AAAHH!" He screamed.

"Woah! You okay?" He heard.

When he looked at the window, he saw Nelia again, holding an umbrella to shield herself from the rain. 

"O-oh! Nelia. I thought you were something else." Marco said, as he rolled down his window. "This stupid thing won't start! And I'd very much like to leave soon."

"Well that's not good." She responded back. "Hmmm, tell ya what. I'll take you to my place tonight, and we can get someone to help with the car in the morning!" She offered.

"O-oh? Really? Are you sure about that? You don't even really know me." He questioned.

"Yeah, but I can tell you're harmless, and you need somewhere to stay. C'mon, I'll take you there, it's not far" She said.

He stepped out of the car, Nelia actually handing him the Umbrella to hold.

"So, what were you doing near the site, anyways?" He questioned her.

"I like to hang around the area, it's very fun. Sometimes I look close to the site, noticed some interesting stuff happen there" She talked.

"Huh, interesting… you uh- ever gone in?" He asked.

"Oh no, I would never. It's far too dangerous. I've considered it, but it's not something I'd risk." She answered.

Eventually, a town was within sight, and Marco felt some relief to finally at least be somewhere warm.

Eventually though, he realized something was not right. The town was completely empty. And not only that, but it looked to have been abandoned for ages, falling apart. "N-Nelia, this is where you li-" but she was gone. 

That chill down his spine from the temple was very much back. "Fuck, was she a ghost or something? Y'know what, I'm not dealing with this horror movie stuff, I'll be lea- OH FUCK!" As he turned back, he actually saw a giant tree fallen behind him, blocking his path back. "H-how did I not hear or feel that fall?" 

"I-I guess I'm going into the ghost town." He said, as he went towards it.

Despite the place looking very much empty, he couldn't escape the feeling that he was being watched by hundreds of eyes. Eventually, he saw a tree with a piece of paper attached, somewhat blowing in the wind. It was a missing person's poster, and it had Nelia's face on it.

"Sh-she really was a ghost!" He said out loud when he saw the poster.

"Not quite" He heard behind him.

He turned quickly towards the source of the voice, but nothing. He continued on, eventually seeing a large building in the center, with the least damage of all the buildings, he decided to take shelter there.

He opened the door, stepped in and it was pitch black inside. He took out his phone to use it's flashlight, only to be immediately greeted by a the same mural of the goddess Nexoxcho hanging on a wall in the building. "OH GOD!" He screamed.

Immediately, his phone shut off. "N-no! You still had plenty of batte-" then the door slammed open behind him.

Standing there, was Nelia again. 

"Y-you! Wh-what do you want?!" Marco demanded.

And in a creepy voice, Nelia answered "Oh, I just wanted to have a little bit of fun." 

"Wh-what?! Am I just a toy for you?!" He exclaimed.

"Yeeesss." She said, as her body started convulsing and shaking. Her body stretched even taller, her stomach opened up a mouth with sharp teeth and a long tongue inside. Her prosthetic arms turn stone, with spikes adorning it. Her eyes turned a haunting red and purple. And huge tentacle sprouted out of her back.

"W-wait!" Marco said with horror. "Y-you're-"

"NEXOXCHO!" She screamed monstrously.

Before a tentacle grabbed Marco by the throat, and pulled him towards her. And the last thing he saw, was her mouth opening very wide as he was pulled in.

Teot-tober day 31

Nelia/Nexoxcho

Hope you guys liked the story! It's my first attempt at something like horror! Really hope it turned out well! And I also hope you enjoy the artwork of Nelia/Nexoxcho!

Nelia by Miuchat and Nexoxcho art by Sageyaku, both on twitter.

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[galraluver]

Hello again, I hope your well or at least better than you have been lately.

I'd like to request a platonic reader x Alfor scenario at the juniberry festival. Idk if you or anyone else remembers it but it was briefly talked about in episode 9 I believe of season 1, when Allura is talking with hologram Alfor

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I'll try my best. I wish that DreamWorks gave us a little more info about the Juniberry festival because it honestly sounds fascinating

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With the juniberry festival coming up Alfor had been busy seeing to the preparations; the juniberry festival was the biggest celebration on Altea and every year everyone looked forward to it. (Y/n) couldn't wait to see Alfor, her childhood best friend, at the festival since they couldn't hang out while he was busy. The young altean woman got to see Alfor's fiance, Melenor, a couple of times and they had the chance to hang out together at one of the little cafés near the palace. Melenor didn't mind Alfor being friends with (Y/n) since the other altean woman wasn't attracted to Alfor, Melenor knew Alfor only had eyes for her. The juniberry festival was everyone's favorite event of the year, adults and children alike looked forward to it all year.

On the day of the festival (Y/n) put her favorite outfit and shoes on, styled her long silky hair by curling and made sure she was ready before leaving her house which was located near the palace where the festivities would be held. The juniberry fields were in full bloom which made the area nearby smell absolutely heavenly, not to mention it was finally juniberry berry season. Juniberry berries had a particularly sweet flavor that everyone on Altea loved, not to mention they could be used for all kinds of baked goods, drinks and so much more. (Y/n) had a look around the festival grounds before she went to go look for Alfor and Melenor so they could go get some juniberry berry cookies at one of the food stands. After searching around for a while (Y/n) was confused because she couldn't find her best friend and his wife, thankfully the altean king and queen saw her before she saw them.

"(Y/n)! We're over here!" Alfor called out when he and Melenor quickly walked over to the young altean woman, happy to see his friend.

(Y/n) waved to her friends before she began weaving through the crowd, politely excusing herself each time she accidentally bumped into someone. Sometimes people from neighboring planets would come to the juniberry festival because of how popular it was and everyone always had a good time. Blaytz, Gyrgan and Trigel were somewhere, although they were at different parts of the festival during that particular moment; Zarkon was usually a killjoy and didn't come to the festival, although Sendak and a few of his buddies did. By the time (Y/n) made it to Alfor and Melenor the back of her hair was a little messy; she reached back so she could smooth it down so that it hopefully wouldn't get too tangled. Alfor and Melenor held each other's hands while they waited for (Y/n) to make her way through the sea of people; that year's festival was particularly crowded, they weren't expecting so many guests.

"I don't remember last year's juniberry festival being this crowded. Anyway, I'm starving after looking for you two, shall we go get some juniberry cookies before they run out." (Y/n) commented before she suggested they go get some cookies; there were a lot of people, which meant the bakery might actually run out before the end of the day.

"That sounds wonderful." Alfor agreed wholeheartedly, since the festival officially started he and Melenor could finally just enjoy themselves for a while.

(Y/n) beamed and the three of them headed to the local bakery in hopes of buying some freshly made juniberry cookies; the soon-to-be married couple were exhausted after everything they'd done and they could barely wait to have a normal day at the festival. On the way to their destination the three young adults crossed paths with Coran and invited him to tag along, it was only proper for the king of Altea to have his royal advisor nearby. The sound of people chatting and the scent of food in the air was certainly different compared to the usually calmness near the castle, the juniberry festival was fun for everyone. Thankfully the bakery hadn't run out of juniberry cookies by the time they arrived and there was even a table available for the four of them to sit at, although it helped that Alfor was the king and Melenor would soon be his wife. Later they would go play some of the carnival games together, but until then they enjoyed eating the juniberry cookies they bought.

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[dragonmarquise]

Silly BRC Headcanons: Heights!

The hyperfixation continues, here's some heights for some of the BRC characters. Mainly did this since I am planning to do more proper arts of some of the characters later, so I wanted to have a solid idea for some of their heights now. And then I ended up doing heights for all of them actually, lol

Red is supposedly around 180 cm in canon? At least that's what I've seen a few people say. I'm assuming it was some sort of calculation using the in-game model. Even if that's not the case, I'm accepting it as my headcanon anyways, and used that height for Red as a baseline for the rest of these.

Also I decided that I wanted Red to be the shortest of BRC and even the gangs in general, with the Flesh Prince being the only one shorter than that. Because why the hell not, these are headcanons, not like anyone can stop me. :P

Though in doing so, I realized I ended up making just about everyone very tall. Oh well! :u

I'm putting these in cm, but also with very approximate feet-inches for convenience of anyone who doesn't want to convert these over! That being said, I'd consider the cm heights to be more accurate/specific.

Starting off with BRC:

Red = 180 cm / 5' 10"

Tryce = 186 cm / 6' 1"

Bel = 182 cm / 5' 11"

Vinyl = 184 cm / 6' 0"

Solace = 181 cm / 5' 11"

Rise = 185 cm / 6' 1"

Rietveld = 186 cm / 6' 1"

Felix = 182 cm / 5' 11" (essentially, I'm imagining Red is only slightly shorter because he has Faux's body. Clearly, Pretty Boy should've eaten more veggies, loool)

The rest of the crew in my mind are somewhere in the range of 181 cm to 185 cm, I just can't decide on specific numbers for them right now. ^^;

I am making DJ Cyber 188 cm / 6' 2" because honestly, he really does give me that vibe of being taller than most of the other characters. :P

Then there's Devil Theory (see here for a quick who's-who in my headcanons of them, lol):

Sai = 193 cm / 6' 4"

Daishō = 187 cm / 6' 2"

Bō = 183 cm / 6' 0"

Nunchaku = 185 cm / 6' 1"

I imagine all of DOT EXE being different heights as well, basically being whatever height they had before going full-cyber. Cueball is around 190 cm / 6' 3", and is the median height of the group. I'll have to decide on the others later, sorry. :u

As mentioned, the Flesh Prince is the shortest one, I assigned him to 167 cm / 5' 5". Which is just short compared to the rest of these character, that's still fairly tall compared to the average person. But most importantly, it means I still get to be taller than him by like one or two centimeters, mwahaha!! >:D

The rest of the Franks are probably like, around 200 to 202 cm? Roughly 6' 7". I looked it up, the average heights for basketball players in the NBA right now is around 6' 6", so that sounds about right for them imo.

Eclipse are all around 195 cm / 6' 5" in my mind. Tall ladies! And then the rest of FUTURISM are between 181 cm and 185 cm like the rest of BRC.

Bonus, Escher gets to be 195 cm / 6' 5" too, his in-game model is definitely a good chunk taller than the player models. Hopefully the tall man returns from his bus trip soon. :P

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[regular-lord-reckoner]

welp, guess who hit burnout again ?!?!

i did !!

primarily because of some bad news i got last week. it's nothing bad bad, it's just some aggravating bullshit i have to deal with (basically i missed some payments for my therapist and i thought it was like...3 or 4, but it's like...8?? the lady that does her payroll is going to look into it because my deductible kicked in somewhere in there, but i don't think for most of it so i'm just annoyed at myself for letting this pile up like this but what can ya do!! thankfully she's been really forgiving and understanding, especially because a lot of these missed payments happened around when my dad died so i do appreciate that and will be making it up to her as soon as i can; i don't see her again until april so hopefully by then i can get a little more caught up

i also broke my favorite mirror and my pipe like a day apart from each other (the pipe i'm not as broken up about because i'm starting a tolerance break soon anyway and the guy i bought it from still makes the same one so we're all good there but the mirror???? the fucking mirror!?!)

okay so this goddamn mirror.

i genuinely don't even know how this happened

i had just put our dog down for his nap (yes, he has a nap time and yes i take care of him like he's my child now.........he's grown on me) and i went upstairs to use my bathroom and get my medicine and i may have accidentally knocked into something on my way there, but i swear i wasn't that close and as soon as i got into the bathroom i just heard a commotion and turned around and my dad's guitar fell over, hit the mirror, the mirror hit ??? and shattered

specifically into two pieces, one kinda small, i could have probably fit it into a cardboard box, but the other piece was too big and i would have had to break it up somehow without getting more glass everywhere and i could already see what looked like glitter all over the carpet so i said fuck that

i ended up having to get two very thick trash bags to bag it up and carefully transport it downstairs and all i could think was, "please don't let this fucking mirror cut through this plastic anymore than it already has (because it had a little) and end up slicing my hand up real bad and then what? i probably have to drive myself to the nearest walk in because no one else is here right now and it would take too long for an ambulance to get out here, plus..........expensive so...be careful!!!"

the whole ordeal ate up an entire hour of my fucking day because i had to just sit and stare at it for about half an hour before i could even clean it up, i just froze

then all the transporting it downstairs and getting it outside with the other trash and texting our family friend who hauls the trash off for all of us to let him know to be careful with it, yeah

it hasn't helped that i've somehow gotten behind on part of my work and my inbox lately has been consistently in the 200+ range and i keep finding all these stat referrals that aren't marked even though everyone literally just got an email the other fucking day to make sure those are marked but nope!! so now i feel pressure to get through as many of them as i can so needless to say my work days lately have been thusly:

i get up at 6:30 am. i do a little work. sometime around 7:30 i go lie back in bed for about an hour before i get up to get the dog up and take him outside and feed him his breakfast.

while he's eating i do the dishes and sometimes will get the trash all gathered up and set out to be taken off. i also feed the cat and check to see if he needs anything, any litter or water or whatever else.

sometimes i'll do some of my own cleaning, like my bathroom or start on my laundry (i think last week i ended up doing everything: sheets, towels, clothes, the dogs blankets and towels)

oh, i also give him a bath now every thursday so he's not stinky and it helps with his skin because his breed is prone to getting these little bumps so weekly baths help with that apparently

we'll go on walks throughout the day, too. usually whenever i take him out to go potty but sometimes if i get an extra bit of free time and the weather is nice we got for a little walk together

in between all of this i try to pop in to get some of my actual work done and on good days i do mange to scoot along pretty well. on bad days it's been kinda like how it's been for the past few weeks and i end up staying up until our records system literally begins to stop communicating with our patient scheduling/demographics system which means i can't do shit anymore. that's usually around 11:30 pm

somewhere in there i eat a few meals slowly over the course of a few hours and often don't even up finishing them because i've gotten the ick or they've gone too cold so i save it for later or just toss it out

i go to sleep usually around midnight or 1 am but again on bad nights it's like...almost 2 am. and then it's back up at 6. or my new favorite...wake up at 5 and then i'm not able to get back to sleep!

doesn't help that whenever i don't get enough sleep my neuromuscular shit gets a lot worse so i spend all day just lightly vibrating with tiredness (quite literally, it's just all day minimal shakes which is fun when all you do is type)

i would just take extra of my medicine but i lowkey got shamed by a pharmacist for refilling my meds too soon so....there's that

the last time i went to refill i didn't have any problems, normally the automated system will tell me, "hey, bitch, you can't refill this yet, slow down!" and so i know to wait a few more days and try again (unless i'm about to be out before then, of course), but that didn't happen, it just told me it would be ready tomorrow so tomorrow i went and evidently it was not eligible to be refilled that soon and it was just the way she was looking at me when she said, "didn't you just have this refilled [whatever the date what]??" which like...yeah, admittedly it was a little sooner than usual but like..........sometimes i just need more of my medicine ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

pretty sure i was doing a lot of physical shit around then so yeah, i probably took more of my pills than normal....i realize i should probably just bite the bullet and contact my neurologist to see if he can up my prescription before my next visit in september where we normally go over that because evi-fuck-ing-dently if i need a little bit more sometimes it's gonna be a whole thing now

and of course, me being me, i'm like...apologetic, just like, "okay, well i can just come back another day, sorry" and she said, "well, we can refill it if you want to wait," which like....................why did you give me grief over it then?! but then when i asked about how long would it be she was like, "i dunno, 20 minutes or you can just come back later," which is hell to tell my autistic ass so i was just like, "uh, i guess i'll come back later..." which she seemed to be glad to be rid of me and likewise, so!

i went and cried in my car for a bit because once again just frustrated that i felt humiliated over that because it wasn't that deep, but it just kinda reminded me of high school and how i purposefully avoided going to the nurse's office to get my medicine because she was such a fucking asshole to me (she was the one who after i asked if my dad could come pick me up because i was sick started grilling me on my condition to which her conclusion was, "so, what, are you going to stay in bed for the rest of your life or something?" with just pure hatred in her voice, i literally didn't have an answer for that. she did not last long as the nurse, surprisingly! she was very unpopular, i can't even imagine the other fucked up shit she probably said to my classmates)

but yeah, just...hey, i need this to literally function. i'm not trying to hurt anyone. i'm not trying to make your job, that i know is already very hard, any harder. i just want my goddamn medicine. i just walked through over-stimulation city and am going to do it twice today (it's costco btw and the pharmacy is alllllll the way in the back), just......please do not give me a hard time about this for the love of god

also, if you're wondering, "gee anna, i'd just switch pharmacies if i were you, that sounds like a lot of hassle!" yes, i have considered that, but you see............my job's got me by the balls on this one. in the past couple of years they've introduced their own pharmacy and technically...........technically i'm supposed to be filling my medicine with them.

there's literally a clause about like, "don't you fucking dare fill [my type of medication] with anyone but us!!" but like......somehow i've managed to make it this far without them noticing??

and costco themselves have just sort of made it work?? because i think my original script was actually for a larger supply, but i guess if i got that filled it would force me to use my work's so costco just fills it to a lesser degree and somehow it flies under the rader. i dunno !!

but !! i've been using them instead of my work because from everything i've heard.....our pharmacy sux !!!!

i won't get into all of it (but like my mom has said some of her medicine with like...clearly what it is with her name and everything on it was left lying out where patients and god and everyone could see it....not great)

they also just make a lot of mistakes and i'm skeptical if they store things correctly so suffice to say there's a lot of reasons i just don't want to deal with it, it's also apparently hard to just...get your meds from them because of how they do things. so i really don't want to make this process any more challenging than what it already is, but yeah. a little bit frustrating, i guess

in addition to.....all of this, i also had got to thinking, "damn, i've been working a lot of 50 hour weeks lately, how long have i been doing this? a few months now?"

i knew it was around the time my dad was dying because i remember quite literally watching him in his hospice bed over the top of my computer to make sure he didn't wake up again and try to take his oxygen off

turns out it's uh....been a year now

right around this time last year i started working 50 hours a week.

granted there were a few weeks, especially at the beginning, where i would work one 50 hour week and then a 44 hour week and then 50 hours again and 40 back and forth like that because i was worried i'd get in trouble but eventually i realized no one way saying anything so eventually (and with a few exceptions, of course) i just started doing one after the other and now i'm here......kiiiiiiiiinda burnt out

which isn't surprising really, when i think about it

i was quite literally experiencing burn out to the point of serious thoughts about not being here anymore and engaging in self harm through my meltdowns so i guess you could say i was a little stressed last year but i pretty much had to try to put it all on pause and just...get to work in so many senses and i know i let a lot of things fall through the cracks. too many probably. but i cannot emphasize enough just how much i was breaking down and how hard it was for me to hold my shit together during that time.

i didn't want anyone to know it had gotten that bad, i felt like a monster and every day it's like i did something else horrendously wrong or said the wrong thing and sometimes i really did and sometimes it was just my warped perception of things and i started to lose the ability to tell the difference and it all just congealed into one big ball of stress

i spent a lot of therapy sessions honestly just bawling my eyes out because of it after which i usually felt better for a little while, but it would slowly build up again and again because i still hadn't figured out what works and what doesn't as far as self-care goes and what even are my needs and god this is all so fucking overwhelming and the spots on my dad's lungs just keep getting worse and he keeps getting weaker and my mom's falling apart and i'm falling apart and everything's falling apart, but not me!! never me, not yet!!

so i just kept going. and still am.

yes, i've had a few breaks and those have helped tremendously. i'm taking another one next month (bet you can't guess which week) and i'm just going to stay here, maybe do some cleaning on my closet and hopefully catch up on sleep

this, so far, is what seems to work

when i feel myself approaching my limit, i shut off essentially. i go into autopilot

i do what i need to get done, get it all done and then crash and recover as much as possible until i reach the next big rest (which is usually just a week at a time but i'll take it !!!) and along the way i just try to pick up different modalities of self-care and prioritizing my health and wellbeing as i go

like today, i managed to sleep in until 11 am. beautiful !! stunning !!

first time i've felt like a human being in ???

i took advantage of this renewed energy to put my efforts into putting together something special for my niece's kids.

unfortunately, their dad's father passed away earlier this week. sudden heart attack, apparently.

the younger one doesn't really have as much attachment to him, i don't think, but the older one is really torn up about this from what her mom has told us

he used to babysit for them a lot so he was a big part of her life. they were actually supposed to get ice cream that day because he promised it to her if she did well on one of her tests and she did but that obviously didn't end up happening

that's two of her grandfathers now she's lost in about 6 months and my heart is just broken for her

her mom said already that sometimes she just bursts into tears out of nowhere and when she asks her, "honey, what's wrong?" she says she misses my dad (which hey.......big same. the sudden crying about it and everything).

his funeral will be on monday which my mom won't be able to go to but said she wanted to still go up there tomorrow just to be with the kids if nothing else to give them some extra comfort

i'm staying behind so i can watch the critters (and because i don't think right now i'm up for all of that honestly) but i did want to send them my love so i took about an hour today to shop for some presents for them

i got them both these really neat stuffed animals (a dinosaur for the younger one because they're her favorite; it roars and lights up and everything) and a bunny that also makes a cute noise and lights up and they're both nice and cuddly since her mom also said right now all the older one wants to do is curl up with her blanket and watch her favorite shows

i also got the younger one some bluey dolls since that's her favorite right now and a little bracelet that looks like one i know she has and loves except this one has a little purple butterfly on it !!

i got her sister a really nice princess crown and this cool lip balm thing with a container that has some of her favorite characters on it so i hope she likes that and i got her a bracelet that's similar to her sister's but it says "don't give up" on it

mom's going to take them the gifts tomorrow so i hope they like them and most of all, i hope they help. i walked up and down the kid's toy aisles so much i think i was making people nervous with me being a single adult just going up and down the aisles constantly but i was really trying to put a lot of thought into what would cheer them up and give them comfort right now

after that i made a few more stops to get me a few little treats even though i probably don't need them, but they made me happy so...there!

i came home, relaxed for a little bit, took the dog for a walk/potty break, fed him his dinner, washed some dishes, took out all the trash, took a shower and i finally ate dinner around 10 pm

so yeah. been....pretty busy lately.

i think part of what's contributing to this particular burnout is that i just feel like i haven't stopped in....ages now. i just keep going and going and going and going

but !!! if nothing else this tells me i really need to step up my skills for dealing with, well, me.

although i reserve the right as a scorpio to close the door to myself for a while and emerge dramatically when i feel rejuvenated, there are...better ways of approaching things, i think, so we're going to work on that

namely i'm going to work on getting more sleep. i think that's one of the biggest contributing factors because i'm just exhausted all of the goddamn time and being exhausted leads me to being on edge all day long (even when i start out the day in an awesome mood sometimes, over time and as i sit there working it's like the life just drains out of me)

so we're going to work on that and we're also going to work on our diet. although processed foods have kept me steady for all these years due to their dependability and extreme convenience, i'm at an age where i really need to be eating a lot more vegetables and actually start cooking most of my meals

going to work on that and eventually the plan is to also start growing some of my own food because another thing too is like.....every goddamn product in the store anymore is owned by some bullshit genocide supporting monopoly entity so like......the less i can contribute to that the better, i figure

i also really hope to get to my closet soon because i know i keep talking about it and it and it's been forever but i just haven't had the capacity for it so it got put on hold but fingers crossed on my break i can at least start to chip away at it

which....speaking of stuff around the house, that's been another thing

it's becoming clear to my mom and i that this house, beautifully made by my father as it is, really needs some love put into it

the entire thing honestly needs a good deep clean, but in addition to that i'm pretty sure there's mold upstairs. i don't know about downstairs, but i'm 99.9% sure it's up here and i think part of it probably has to do with the fact that the doors i have that go outside don't.....close completely ?? heh

i may have accidentally fallen into them at one point and knocked them out of frame and no matter what i've done to try to fix it (mostly slamming against it from the other side like i'm a fucking football player) so i've done what i can to mitigate the slight crack that's at the top of the door but i'm pretty sure moisture has been getting in anyway so that's fun !!

those doors obviously need to be replaced and there's also a skylight in my bathroom that i think has gotten some water damage around it so that might be contributing as well, but that needs to be fixed, too

there's also some ceiling work that my dad had started on in their bedroom but didn't get to finish before he got sick so that needs to be finished and of course the water heater could still go at any time

the plumber was able to get it back to somewhat full capacity, but even still i've noticed the hot water runs out a lot faster than it used too, so that'll be something else

we also hadn't really realized until all of this with my dad just how inaccessible our house is to get into if you struggle to walk or need a wheelchair

we did what we could with my dad's chair and he'd hold on to one of us to get into the house while holding his cane with the other hand, but like that one night he was so weak after he fell earlier in the day and then all day at the emergency getting checked out, he nearly fell and busted his open and instead ended up collapsing in the hallway just inside the garage entrance and we had to call ems to help come get him up out of the floor so.....we really need to at the very least have hand rails installed at some entrance point of this house that'll make it easier (the backdoor technically has them but it would be a trek for someone with mobility issues of any kind to get back there to them)

the carpets all either need a really good deep clean or to be taken up and replaced with either more carpet or something else

and i'm sure there's more i'm not thinking of right now, but suffice to say, it's....a lot. and no, it doesn't all have to be done right now, right now but the sooner the better for some of them for sure

fortunately my dad left us some money that initially he said we could use for a trip but i think we're going to instead use to do a lot of this stuff around the house that needs to be done

in the meantime, i'm going to try to clean as i go as much as possible. getting all that stuff out from around the water heater really just makes me want to rent a dumpster so we can just throw a bunch of this shit away because honestly a lot of it is just junk at this point that's not even worth donating or giving to someone

some of it yes and definitely any clothes we find that are still good quality, but a lot of this shit i would love nothing more than to just chuck into a dumpster and feel like i can breathe a little easier because it's nowhere near hoarder level i don't think, but for my taste it's starting to feel a little claustrophobic

in the mean time, i'm also going to try to start reading more because i really did used to enjoy it and i think my brain's starting to finally get to a point where it's like, "hey, i can handle new information !! let's start learning again !! let's start reading a whole bunch !!" so i'm excited to start that

i'm still journaling and working my puzzles and spending time outside connecting with nature so these are all also things that i think help me out a lot that i intend to keep up

i also want to start teaching myself how to play my dad's guitar soon because i've always wanted to do that and i think it would bring me a lot of joy if i could manage to learn

i'm also just, as weird as it sounds, letting myself be more autistic, i guess ??

i hadn't realized until recently just how much i've suppressed a lot of stimming and self-soothing behaviors and how much better i feel when i just.....let myself do them

i've struggled with being perceived even when i know i'm completely alone for some time now, i remember even talking about it with my last therapist like a decade ago so this has been a thing

i used to even cover the vents when i went to the bathroom and would shower in the dark because i couldn't pinpoint why i felt like i was always being watched but just in case aliens or the government or whoever were secretly spying on me i was going to avoid them !!

anyway, hey, younger me, turns out you're just really neurodivergent, babe! like i'm starting to think you're more than just autistic, you might also have a decent helping of adhd, dunno, it's kind of slowly starting to emerge which is weird but i'll give you a for instance......i forgot to sign up for my insurance this year!!

i kept getting the alert on my paycom thing whenever i log in every day and i even checked it a few times and was like, "oh yeah, i need to do that," but just kept forgetting the second i would look away from it and anyway, the other day i get an email that's like, "hey, so you've been automatically enrolled in your issuance this year since you didn't wanna do it yourself :P" basically so i do have it, but what's my plan like ?? is it a good one ?? i dunno just yet but i guess we'll see. they're all pretty much the same at this point but i think i did notice it's a different provider so...woohoo, i'm slowly but surely collecting all the insurance types like they're fucking pokemon

anyway, shit like that's been happening more and more lately, but i'm trying to get a handle on that, too because i'm already in a big enough hole as is and quite literally cannot afford to dig myself any deeper so we're gonna do what we need to in order to be well and be somewhat healthy and get this brain sorted out and hopefully, eventually, i'll get to reach a point where i can put down a few of the balls i've been juggling and just kinda....take it easy for a bit

again, and i know i always say this, but i fear i always sound out of touch with reality when i talk about my life like this and so i want to make it clear i do acknowledge all of this could be much, much worse

my life is by far nowhere near as bad as it could be and in a lot of ways i have many things working in my favor and that are of great help to me, so i'm extremely grateful for that. i haven't always been, admittedly, but i've also had a lot of complicated feelings to unpack especially in the past year that made it difficult, but i've come out the other side of that now and i really do just want to mature and focus on growing and part of that is my gratitude for the things in my life that are going right and are immensely beneficial to my wellbeing

that being said, my life nevertheless still hast its challenges and although i blab a lot on here (probably more than i should) i do still tend to keep the majority or perhaps the intensity of how i really feel all to myself

i know there are definitely times that even i can admit that it's like, "uh, hey, the thing you're having a meltdown over really isn't worth being that upset about, it'll be okay........" because sure enough everything was/is totally fine and it's not a big deal, but it's hard to describe how in the moment it feels so much bigger and far more dire so what seems like a lot of dramatics and going through the motions on everyone else's end may all be for naught but like...it's still a tangible hell i end up going through that takes its toll on me, i'm just....used to it, lol

i've literally been getting overloaded since i was born and in some ways it feels like it's never stopped since then, the only problem was i didn't have an answer as to why until very recently so it's not like i wasn't doing anything about my mental health because i just wasn't prioritizing it, i didn't even know where to begin and my first attempt at getting help didn't even land close to what the real issue was so it put me off for a long time (to be fair, the therapy was also heavily focused on like.....my sister having just died, so that's at least part of why, i'm sure)

this really feels like the first time in either a very, very, very long time or possibly even ever that i've been able to just actually stop a little and catch my breath. feel like myself, my actual self. not the mask i've been poorly trying to keep together for forever now

a mask that part of me is hesitant still as i continue to take it off because what i'm realizing about myself is that a lot of who i am/who i've been was tied up in that so like.....naturally i'm starting to see a lot of shifts in the relationships around me and just how i think about myself as well and how i approach things

and it's hard because it's like.....am i being fair ?? am i taking everyone around me's feelings into consideration ?? because i'm so used to having to do that and tiptoe around and always feel like i'm walking on eggshells except my clumsy ass was just tromping through them anyway, always putting my foot in my mouth and saying the exact wrong thing that at the worst possible time and just hating myself more and more but not knowing how to fix it so i'd just princess caroline my relationships and focus on everyone else instead which makes people like you for that, but not so much the rest so there's this constant worry of, "is that all i'm good for? will i be replaced as soon as i stop being useful?" and not for nothing but like....it's happened before, so!!!

so....yeah. i've been unpacking a lot of things lately and just trying to sit with them and think about all of this and about who i want to be now and how to get there

the process is already happening and has been for about a year now, but it's a slow one unfortunately (and really all of this has been woefully too late, but that's what happens when you snooze, anna. you lose !!!) but like that asshole walter white once said, i am......awake, now. except instead of becoming an ego-maniacal abusive drug lord who destroys his family and everything he touches, i'm going to do...whatever the opposite of that is. in every sense

i hope i can grow into a person who is ultimately kind and loving and patient and stable and lovable and healed who has interesting hobbies like making music and maybe recreating some of the pictures she takes of the sky in the form of paintings if she gets good enough

as overwhelming as everything has felt lately i can also feel new possibilities unfurling in me and i can see so many roads and avenues i could go down in terms of growth and development and for the first time i'm staring to feel like i'm brave enough to do it or at least give it a shot

so that's what i hope for. that's what i'm working towards.

thee are going to be parts of me i know people aren't going to like, in particular my tendency to want to spend the majority of my time alone and with my own thoughts, at least for right now, but that's just something i feel as though i need to do and quite honestly, as though i've earned

in some regards, i've spent a good portion, if not almost all of my life in some form or fashion taking care of the people that i love. often in an emotional sense, but i like to think i've also stepped up to the plate in a lot of other ways even if i didn't do every single thing perfectly, i still at least tried

i think i've finally earned some time to focus on me and just me for a little bit.

not to say i won't help anyone with anything (i quite literally spend a good chunk of my time helping my mom now), but i can tell with everything in my being that i really, really need to just turn inwards for a little bit, focus on me, heal some more, mature some more and i think when i emerge from this cocoon i'm going to be....a decent looking butterfly!! (actually, i also hope i get hot. not like "oh, i buy these clothes or makeup or whatever" but just like...y'know, hot. when you invest in yourself hot, you know what i mean? idk it's getting late and i'm quite tired)

but yeah. think that's about it for now.

sorry this was so long, i've just clearly had a lot going on and have a lot on my mind and i like to just check in every so often to document where i'm at in this journey

wish it was a better update, but they can't all be good or we wouldn't be working towards anything, now would we?

i guess that's all for now.

a coupe of last things:

i saw a big yellow butterfly the other day when i was taking the dog out. i sort of associate yellow with my dad now because he loved yellow flowers, especially sunflowers, so whenever i see anything yellow, really, i think of him and of course butterflies are supposedly visitors so i think that might have been him saying hi, which i really needed

also, the cashier supervising the self check i was at today said, "you can use whichever one you want, darlin'," to me which made me smile a lot although they couldn't tell because i had a mask on but i said thank you and tried to smize as best as i could before scooting off to scan my items and get one step close to going back home

oh, and i started to cry a little earlier because on my way home i had to pass by the funeral home and in particular where i was sat at a red light i actually had a perfect view of the crematorium and right as i was looking at it i hear bert mccracken (who btw has apparently been pro-Palestinian for like a decade now so good on him; i knew i chose right in the divorce when everyone else went to gerard's !!) coming from my speakers going, "fill your lungs with smoke for the last tiiiiiime!!" and i started to laugh because like.....c'mon, that's kinda funny, but then i started to cry because i remember that day and then i just missed him but i also had to drive so we just shut that shit down and headed home and i still haven't cried yet so will probably do that tomorrow and some journaling. i think a big cry would help a lot so we'll see !!

as always, i hope if you're reading this you have a good weekend and can also get some rest from chaotic life and stress and all the other bullshit

i hope something good happens for you soon and that you also heal and can try to find some peace and comfort

i absolutely must go to sleep now so g'night !!! <3

#long post #just an update about me/my mental health/what i've been up to type of thing

[secondclassfangirl]

The ACDC thing?

So this is one that's honestly more of an idea at this point than an actual WIP, but I've written a few snippets here and there.

Basically, CK era, Daniel and Johnny are still teaching together, and Daniel's trying to teach Johnny kata/meditation one day, but he just can't get it. Daniel gets a little frustrated--because of course he does--and keeps telling him to just clear his head and not think about anything. Which Johnny just...can't do. His head's always so damn loud, and he doesn't know how to just turn it off.

Around the same time, he hears about ADHD from somewhere (either one of the kids or Daniel. Probably the latter, because I hc that he was diagnosed with ADHD sometime after high school) and ends up going on one of his research rabbit holes. And he's super confused, because he's reading all these symptoms and thinking: "doesn't everyone do this?" But then the pieces start to fall into place.

In short: Johnny deals with the harsh reality of realizing he has undiagnosed ADHD in his 50s, and Daniel helps reassure him. (Featuring the cheesiest Johnny Lawrence style ADHD pun I could think of cause...80s bands. Lol 😅)

Like I said, I haven't hammered out much of a plot for this one yet, but I really like the concept, so hopefully I'll get around to it soon. (This is also definitely not me projecting my own undiagnosed ADHD onto a middle aged fictional character... 😅)

Thanks for the ask! 💗

#writing #asks #tag games #cobra kai #the karate kid #johnny lawrence #daniel larusso #my fics #lawrusso

[hopetorun]

time after time for home by now! maybe say...3 years on? what are matthew and leon up to? how are brady and quinn doing?

i'm always so interested in hearing more about that fic and its universe (i'm the person doing the line by line re-read commentary :)) life's gotten very busy since i started but hopefully i'll be able to get back to it soon!)

okay well first of all you're an angel! i hope you get some free time back soon but i deeply understand that life gets busy sometimes ❤

anyway three years on from home by now! that's the beginning of the 2029-30 nhl season, which sounds extremely made up. the blues have been drifting somewhere in the muddy middle for a few years -- it's fun for my made-up story, but giving up tons of assets and cap space for a couple of guys in their late 20s/early 30s isn't actually ideal asset management in a hard cap league. but they've got too many good players to be horrible, and they're scraping into the playoffs most years. no cups, though, and both matthew and leon are looking at the remainders of their contracts and -- wondering. leon especially.

he'll be 36 when his current deal is up, and he does want to win. and he doesn't know if that's going to happen with the blues. it's not an easy conversation to have, though. does leon want to ask for a trade in his final year? before that? does he want a real shot at a cup more than he wants to keep waking up next to matthew every morning? there's no right answers.

matthew feels clingy and petulant about the idea of being left, but he also wants to win. he hasn't quite given up on the idea of winning in st louis with leon, the childhood fantasy of it all. they still both have four years left on their contracts! leon's aging pretty well, without too many injuries grinding him down yet, he could sign a short deal after!

so they're muddling through all that, and it's not the first thing they've fought about but it's definitely the fight that's lasted the longest. and matthew's touchy about it, because st louis is his in a way that it isn't for leon. but they're pretty good at this stuff by now. they're not gonna break up about it. leon would prefer it if keith had input on fewer parts of his life, but he's not going to begrudge matthew being close to his family, he's just going to gripe a little privately, and sometimes tell keith to fuck off. (keith takes this with aplomb, since it's not like matthew doesn't tell him to fuck off. the rest of the family thinks it's hilarious.)

in the intervening three years, quinn gets himself over to the eastern conference. pick your poison here, maybe he signs as a free agent, maybe he tells the canucks he won't sign an extension and gets traded. his whole family's there, brady's there, so on and so forth. not detroit -- he and brady have an agreement that neither of them will go to the places their families live unless it's both of them, because they're not going to start building that life unless it's together -- but maybe toronto or montreal? toronto would be funnier for me but montreal is closer to ottawa. either way, much closer to brady! they see each other so much more, even if it's sometimes stressful when they're in a playoff race or something. they've dodged any actual series against each other, at least. not that they couldn't handle it, but they'd both rather not.

something that was surprisingly hard for brady was getting to watch matthew just trip sideways into a stage of life that's basically on hold for brady until at least one of him and quinn retires. matthew fucked around and instead of finding out he got a hot boyfriend on his team that he gets to see every day and have over for family dinners and live with. he's happy for matthew, but the first time matthew complains about how hard they have to work to get space ... brady does not handle it as gracefully as would be ideal.

but overall everyone's doing pretty good, y'know? no one's winning it all~~ but they're aiming their lives in the ways they want. taryn has a new boyfriend that everyone would be very happy if she married. matthew and leon got a second dog, who is somehow even more teddy bear shaped. they mostly don't bother to pretend they aren't together, but at least half the guys on the team think they're just really close friends because sports are Like That. brady thinks it's hilarious when people ask him about it like, did you think your brother would end up such good friends with draisaitl after all that rivalry? and he's just like, friends, sure, yeah. love and hate are two sides of the same coin or whatever.

#chantal would really appreciate some grandkids someday tho #not that the dogs aren't cute #my fic #home by now #ask meme #fic by daisysusan

[trash-monkey]

A Sunrise Is A New Day!

A cry of a newly born child wails at midnight right as the full moon is at it's highest before another cry of an adult mourning his mother that lost her life birthing her youngest into the world and just months earlier they had lost their husband/Father in a wagon accident, now only two of the (L/N) family lives to see the next sunrise.

Days later...

"Naoto.... I thought it over for a while, I decided that in order for me to heal and rise Eden I need to move somewhere else." Naoto places the pencil in his hand on the desk after I approach him at his home late at night but he knew this was coming after the passing of my parents and now having to rise my sister, nothing is holding me to this town any more. He grabs a slip of paper from a cupboard in his desk before handing it to me

"My older sister lives in a nice small town called Jastgoth with her Alpha it's basically in the middle of nowhere, this is her address so you can write to her and see if it's a place for you." Gently I take ahold of the paper as I thanked him before Eden started crying in the other room where I placed her to sleep earlier.

"See you later." I said to my old friend after getting Eden to settle down and left back to the small house on the edge of town, early the next morning before Eden could wake up again I carefully write out a letter to Hinata and take it to the post office once Eden is awake before giving her to a neighboring Beta to babysit her while I work some money at the saloon. For three weeks we wrote to each other taking about many things but mostly her telling me about what life is like in the small town and any good gossip but in her last letter after I had written to her about my decision to move there she told me she's with a pup which I immediately made my way over to her brother house to tell the news.

"Naoto! You wouldn't believe it!" I shouted before running through the front door which scared Naoto at my sudden appears in his home.

"Calm down and breathe before you pass out!" I take a deep breath while feeling glad that Eden usual babysitter is watching her right now, I hold the letter in the air with a smirk.

"This is Hinata's last letter after telling her my decision.....

Dear, (Y/N)

I'm very glad that you have decided to move to our small but cozy town, both me and Emma can't wait to meet you in person along with little Eden! I also have very exciting news to tell and I wish for you to share it with my brother, we're having a pup! Naoto, you're going to be a uncle and I hope with all of my heart for the both of you to meet the new addition to the family very soon!

Love Hinata." He's freezes as he process the information about his older sister but his eyes water when it finally clicked that he's going to be an uncle.

"When do you have a day off from the newspaper company?"

"Not to soon but I can get it moved closer if I tell them it's a family emergency." He quickly throws on a coat to head back to the office so he can hopefully catch his boss before he leave the building while I head to the Beta looking after Eden.

"Hello, I'm sorry but can you look after her for a few days? I need to get things ready to move." The male submissive Beta named Admin smiled at the news.

"Of course I can and I'll miss the both of you but I'm glad you found a safe place to raise this little sweet heart." He bounced the little girl in his arms.

"Thank you!" I ran home to get as much sleep as I can before I started moving things into the old wagon in the morning, it takes two days of constant moving things with few breaks to finally finished which Naoto helped at the end after getting his bags ready for the long trip that he'll be taking with us not only to see his sister but to also help me settle into the new town.

"Is there a house or land for sale?" With Eden laying in his arms Naoto questioned about were I'll be living once we get there after we left a few hours ago and I said all my byes to everyone I know, I have already discussed it with Hinata.

"There's a small house for sale a few miles out of town but still close enough if you have to walk, Hinata also informed me that there's an job opening either at the lumber mill or the blacksmith." The wagon rocks as the horses attached pulls it along the dirt but well traveled road and we get as comfortable as we can while listening to the sounds of nature around us.

_______________________________________________(Little House on the prairie/Omegaverse/Harem au)

#fanfic #male y/n #male reader #anime #tokyo revengers #tokrev #tokyrev #tokyo revengers au #tokyo revengers anime

[queen-rainy-love]

Random Thought: Clover does not like kids (minus a select few like custard the |||) He finds them annoying, needy, and overall stupid at times.

So naturally he's asked to babysit some kids for the day, after all Clover is just a friendly bard!

Hmm. I can see that. And I can see one of his brothers "volunteering" him to help babysit the young Cookies in the Kingdom.

*The scene is set in the Vanilla District where Clover is about to head out to the forest.*

Clover: Time to start the day-

Muscle: *appears with Pancake and Cherry in his arms* Oh thank Godly you're still here, Clover!

Clover: Oh hey Muscle. How are-Why do you have your baby siblings in your arms?

Muscle: I have a quest to go and none of my other siblings or mom are not available. Can you please watch Cherry and Pancake?

Clover: You know that I tolerate a few young Cookies.

Cherry: Why's that?

Clover: You...of all Cookies...is asking me that?

Muscle: Clover! Please!

Clover: Why do you need to go-

Pancake: Because Lilac is going!

Muscle: *blushes* Pancake!

Clover: Ah...that makes sense. Fine...I can watch them-

Muscle: Thank you so much! *hands the two young Cookies to Clover.* Someone will pick them up tonight!

Clover: Wait what?! *Muscle is already gone.* Great. Just great.

Cherry: Can we have some snacks?

Clover: Do you promise not to blow up my home?

Cherry:...

Clover:...

Cherry: Fine! No bombs. *pouts*

Clover: Thank you. Now-

Wildberry: Clover.

Clover: Godly! Wildberry! Don't do that!!

Wildberry: Sorry. But I need a favor.

Clover: What do you- *notices Strawberry Crepe* Why are they here?

Wildberry: I have a quest to get to and Strawberry and Wild Strawberry are out. I just need someone to take care of Strawberry Crepe.

Strawberry Crepe: I can take care of myself!!

Wildberry: After what happened the last time...no. Clover. Can you please?

Clover: Well, one more child can't hurt. Add them to my pile I guess.

Wildberry: Thank you, Clover. *pushes Strawberry Crepe toward Clover* Behave.

Strawberry Crepe: Fiiiine. *pouts*

Wildberry: I'll be back tonight. *leaves*

Clover: I guess my forest time is gone. Come on everyone. It's time for snacks.

*two minutes later inside the house*

Clover: Okay. Here you guys go. Don't make a mess, please.

All three: Thank you! *start eating*

Clover: Now, this shouldn't-

Chili Pepper: *bursts in* Hey! Clover!

Clover: For Godly sakes. What?!

Chili Pepper: Heard you were babysitting some kids! Here! I have somewhere to be. *hands Bell Pepper Cookie to him* Bye! *disappears*

Clover: Chili Pepper-! And she's gone. Okay, *guides Bell Pepper to the snack table* sit here and have some snacks. I'll be planning some activities.

Bell Pepper: Okay. *starts eating*

*Custard III walks into the house*

Custard III: Huh? Oh! Are we having a tea party? Can I join?

Clover: Um...sure...why not...

*five minutes later, an outdoor table is full of crafts*

Clover: Okay...we're doing some arts and crafts so, please...no destruction.

All five: Okay! *start making some crafts.*

Clover: *steps back* Okay...this should keep them calm. And hopefully-

Blackberry: Mr. Clover.

Clover: Ah! Hey Blackberry. How can I help you?

Blackberry: I need your help.

Clover: *notices Onion* Let me guess...help take care of Onion?

Blackberry: Yes. Can you?

Clover: *grinds through teeth* ...sure...I don't mind...

Blackberry: Thank you. I'll be back by nightfall. *leaves*

*Just as he was about to guide Onion to the table, Werewolf appears with Moon Rabbit and Pumpkin Pie. Not soon after, Almond appears with Walnut, Chestnut, and Cream Puff.*

Clover: *on the verge of screaming* Need a babysitter?

*For five hours, Clover has been taking care of all eleven young Cookies, barely keeping his sanity. The whole time he's been wondering why was everyone giving their kids.*

#cookie run kingdom #crk headcanons #clover cookie #custard cookie iii #pancake cookie #cherry cookie #wildberry cookie #strawberry crepe cookie #bell pepper cookie #chili pepper cookie #blackberry cookie #onion cookie #moon rabbit cookie #werewolf cookie #pumpkin pie cookie #almond cookie #walnut cookie #chestnut cookie #cream puff cookie

[olympiansally]

i tried to read fanfic after a long time, maybe like 2 years? i came across yours, and i have regrets, i'll be staying away from them for sure now thanks for ruining it for everyone :(

First of all: congratulation on being the first person ever to send me anon hate! I’m sure there’s a reward in there for you somewhere because yes, I’m so delightful no one else had ever done this before so yeah congrats on being the bitterest ever I guess?

Tbh it does say a bit about me that I’m answering this instead of my nice asks - and to the people who have send me sweet asks, I promise you they do mean so much more and they have filled my heart with joy even when I don’t answer them - however! I feel like there’s some points to be made here

To start, this is so? Vague?? Idek what I’m supposed to be insulted about? You didn’t even say which fic you read? Did you read more than one anon? Did you binge read my fics and then come give me shit about it? You did didn’t you? You secretly love me and my writing don’t you? LMAO

But in all seriousness, idk what you want me to take from this. Truly, whether or not you read fanfic has absolutely no impact on my life so uhh do whatever you want? And as for “ruining it for everyone” what does that even mean? Again, you are the first person ever to feel the need to express something negative about my stuff - and again, congrats!!

Besides, I’m not the owner of fanfics in general? People are out there writing and reading what they want and hopefully having fun - but you failed to see the point of it apparently and that’s kinda sad

I wouldn’t recommend turning away from fanfics entirely just because you didn’t enjoy one writer’s work though. Fanfics really are about finding your niche and while I might not fit into yours, there’s probably something out there to your liking.

Better yet, you could aways create content that caters to your whims and be the writer you want to see in the word - that is however much much harder and requires more effort and vulnerability than simply giving people shit for the content they give their community (for free, might I add, just because they’re nice enough to create things and let other ppl enjoy them!)

The entitlement of demanding any fan content creator meet your own personal standards screams delusional levels of spoiled child behavior to be perfectly honest and it is not a good look, so my reaction to this is simply? yikes??

I would like to add, also, that I’m under no obligation to entertain you and if you didn’t like my writing, well! You can always just close a tab! No one forced you to read it! Why waste your time and energy?

Though from the fact that you then found my tumblr and came here to send anon hate, I’m guessing you’re a fan of wasting your time.

Literally anything else would have been more productive than spending this much of your time on me if you weren’t enjoying it, so just get better soon I guess? Hot tip! You’ll probably be happier if you focus your efforts on things that bring you joy instead!

Lastly, while I’m not sure what you hoped to accomplish here, I can only sincerely hope you learn something from this irrelevant little nuisance.

That is all, bye!

Oh! And thank you for the anon hate life experience I guess?? lmao

#alright so #????? #this just happened lmao #ppl really are out there just saying things huh #I am kinda curious to know which fic it is because if I wrote smt offensive to ppl who behave like this I kinda? Want to know what it is??? #and maybe take some pride in it lmao #either way #the audacity? the nerve? sorry you didn’t have fun with my fics anon but I’m entertained as fuck #can we pretend I’m like hurt and wounded so everyone can come tell me how talented and awesome I am now #or is knowing I pissed someone off this much meant to be rewards enough? #if anything! my writing got a reaction so idk man meh? #ask tag

[dark-frosted-heart]

Hi! So you the next route coming is Gilbert's!

Hopefully soon!

My question is: do you have any theories of how it'll go? Like the start? How will MC fall in love with him (like how? You have to be really messed up to do that) how will Gil fall in love with her? And who will kidnap her (yeah because we know it is gonna happend anyway)?

Please show us your scenarios in this answer

Thanks!

Hello anons! Since both questions relate to my thoughts on how I think Gilbert's route will go, I'll answer them both together.

First off all, to the first anon, there is no news confirming that Gilbert’s route is next yet, even if his VA is going to be in the second anniversary purinama. I’m still thinking that they’ll announce something completely different or announce Silvio’s route next since Sariel and Rio’s routes have focused more on him and Benitoite. Second, I think you just insulted every Gilbert fan out there. Third…why does this sound like an exam question.

I’m not a writer (if you can’t tell from how my summaries are written) but I can word vomit my thoughts on how I think things will go! Also my knowledge of Gilbert is lacking because I still have trouble figuring him out.

On to answering

First, let’s see what we know about Gilbert right now. He’s polite yet manipulative, sadistic, and has a twisted sense of kindness that comes from what he’s experienced growing up in a nation like Obsidian. He's smiling most of the time, but there's no emotion behind it. He's pushy and says his words are absolute; you can't refuse him. He has enemies in both Rhodolite and Obsidian that try to kill him every chance they get. He has his own faction of supporters that are against the emperor. He does not kill indiscriminately, he will get rid of criminals, those that go against the royal family, those that try to kill him, those that may bring embarrassment to Obsidian. He calls everyone his “friends” unless you’re Chevalier. Speaking of Chevalier, Gilbert is also a rare genius that appears once every 1000 years.

Per his flavor text, he has a secret that would get you killed if you were to ever find out. What it is, we don’t know yet. Also anyone that knows what his hobby truly is will wind up missing. In any case, I believe how he portrays himself and how he really is are going to be very different, as that’s been the case with every Ikepri suitor. Maybe he's just a very sad and lonely man that does have a heart. He's good with kids, or so we're led to believe since he's good at performing magic tricks and says he does them for kids so that they'll stop crying. Now with all of that out of the way...

On kidnapping: So when I was asked similar questions in the past, I did think there would be kidnapping involved in the route. But with more Gilbert content I’ve read since that time, I’ve begun to believe that he won't kidnap Emma. At least not in the traditional sense. Blackmailed into going along with Gilbert for the sake of Rhodolite? More likely. OR his detractors learn about the amount of time Gilbert spends fixated on Emma. So they kidnap her instead and hold her hostage.

On...everything else: Enemies to lovers? Yes. At the moment, Gilbert is interested in Emma in a non-romantic way and Emma wants absolutely nothing to do with him. And every time she’s around him, she’s scared of him, though she tries to hide it. Not to mention the number of times she's thought about wanting to cry when she has to deal with him? Not a great way to start off a route to romance. However, at the end of pretty much every Gilbert event story, that fear dies down just a bit, she feels a little something else for him. Sometimes it’s warmth, sometimes it’s something unnamable. Now take that and stretch it out for like 20 chapters. And then she doesn’t realize that she’s in love with him until somewhere in the middle of both the Romantic and Dramatic route. And tries to deny it until the very end. 

But how they fall in love??????? I guess for Emma, the more time she spends with him, especially when she winds up in Obsidian, she learns that Gilbert's not as bad as she thinks he is? Not as bad as how he wants her to think he is? Maybe she sees how he interacts with children. Like I mentioned, in the event stories, Emma always finds new things about Gilbert that surprises her.

For Gilbert, I honestly don't know. Some of us are thinking he'll be yandere. His interest in that defiance of hers despite her fear of him turning to love and obsession when that fear dies down and she shows him kindness. The question is just when and how that change starts. And once he's in love, better not touch Emma. If you thought him beating the shit out of a guy who drugged and kidnapped her in the Chevalier vs Gilbert event was bad...

Btw, I'm also expecting Clavis and Luke to have a lot of involvement in Gilbert's route since they have direct connections with him. And war between Obsidian and Rhodolite being part of the main plot.

Oh and to the second anon, thank you!

#ikepri ask #the amount of times I've almost left Obsidian as 'Obsidia' is too damn high

[harpywritesfic]

tips from an adhd fanfic writer:

[disclaimer: these are things that i've found helpful for me, specifically because of the way my brain works. these could be helpful for neurotypicals too, but the reason they're here is because they help with the issues my adhd causes/worsens.]

Let yourself go crazy when you're writing, reel it back in when you're trying to get started again.

When the words are flowing, let them! Throw things down, don't worry about what goes where just yet. Got another scene idea? Hit enter a few times and write it in. You can find how it fits in later (Worst case scenario, it doesn't fit and you have a spare scene that could come in handy for another fic). Don't let things like grammar slow you down. When you're coming back to work on the piece and trying to get rolling again, that's when you want to skim through and decide what you like, what needs to be shifted around, where you want to change things up, where you want to add things. I find it's best to keep going when you're on a roll, and look at the more technical things like organization when you're trying to start that roll again. I find it easier to get writing again when I read the piece critically (from an editing perspective) rather than just reading through it to familiarize myself with it.

Separate your wip into chunks.

I find this incredibly helpful! I split mine into scenes, and make a list of all scenes I want in the fic. Make a note next to the scene with how close it is to done- unwritten, partially done, almost done, needs editing, needs dialogue, needs transition, etc. This really helps me find a place to start when I open it up again, and helps me identify what part of it I'm stuck on. Here's an example from one of my fics, "Tony Stark Is Great At Names":

Don't be afraid to take shortcuts.

There's a balance between pushing yourself too hard and giving up too quickly. If you're really stuck on something, and it's derailing the whole fic, I find it's best to find a way around the problem rather than through it. This applies to things like transitions (use a line break to indicate the change, or write "after they did x"), dialogue (you can just say "they talked it over and decided x because of y"), inner monologue ("they spent a lot of time thinking about x"), time passing, etc. Taking shortcuts can mean the difference between a finished fic and an abandoned wip. "Show, don't tell" is a great bit of advice, but it's not a rule!

Keep a list of your wips.

I have a doc called "the write list" where I keep the working titles of the wips I intend to finish. I keep the time-sensitive ones at the top (ones that are for events, gifts, etc.), sorted by how soon they should be finished, then after those are the others. This helps prevent my wips from being forgotten by my very forgetful brain.

Keep a list of things you want to do.

I keep a doc for this, where I have checklists of things I'll forget about if I don't write them down. Things like checking my bookmarked fics and commenting on ones I haven't already, going through my inbox, reading something from my marked for later, and so on. I like to check back on this list when I'm looking for something to do. Make sure to keep your lists somewhere easily seen!

[Hopefully this helps someone! Everyone's workflow is different, so take the advice that works for you and don't worry about the other parts.]

#*technically* i'm not certain i have adhd bc the testing place won't CALL ME BACK #also if you have anything you wanna ask abt how i write/my methods/other stuff feel free to drop into my asks! #i'm no expert but i'm happy to share what works for me! #harpy's writing tips #fanfic